2019 Kinda Sucked?! But Here's What I Learned.

[@Evelynfromtheinternets]

i'm prolly not gon' make a 2020 goals video BUT here's an update from sweet precious January 2019 Evelyn! *· Go to all my checkups:* got my eyes checked and went to the dentist but dassit *· Take a beginner yoga class with ease:* NAH STILL STIFF, SIS *· Book/receive payment for five 5-figure deals ($50K minimum gross income):* my bookkeeping is in SHAMBLES which is why 2019 kinda sucked but yes that minimum $50K happened somehow! I think! yo girl couldn't pay quarterly taxes so i'm getting started now before April breeev down my neck! *· Get writer's credit on someone else's narrative work:* nope BUT I wrote MY OWN piece of fiction and won the Excellence In Comedy award at Buffer Festival for my short film "Hello Tim" (it's on my channel if ya wanna watch it) *· Complete my 30 minute pilot script:* LOLNAH *· Read 12 books:* including audible that would still be a NAH but I did read more! If you wanna refresher on setting goals, check out this video It's actually rill good if I say so myself and I do say so myself --> kzbin.info/www/bejne/hWTWaXl8fptmgtU

[@nentendomofo]

For the stiff at-home yoga babes, check out "yoga for seniors" videos! Got me back into it faster than doing painful moves in "beginner" videos.

[@juliasutter6996]

@@nentendomofo genius :O

[@Mzkd10]

Evelyn From The Internets I love your honesty! Thank you so much

[@AlphabetSoup123]

Is there a vision board for 2020? 🙇🏿‍♀️

[@janetmcdonald432]

Hey sis. I'm a poet and my producer has me watch your videos bc while I've written for years, but I'm new to being a performer. Thank you for your videos, they are helpful. I've been submitting work and entering contests and nothing. So im good, but of course I want to get on. I'd love to write a poem for you or do a piece about you. Would that be cool? Either way, have a blessed day! Here's to 2020 bestowing more blessings than badness for you! God bless!

[@LilySnow18]

"I wanted to be a better person because I'm the only home that I have" A WORD. I'm so proud of you. 💖

[@tashmoore3825]

Much love.

[@kevinheatcoat2190]

@@tashmoore3825 2019 Was A Shithole Of A Year.

[@lilmissyt23]

I love how Evelyn tells all her business without actually telling all her business..... The goat 🐐🐐🐐🐐

[@couleurful]

Justjess T 🙌🏽

[@Introvertsan]

Love it

[@gbbs9]

Yesssssssss

[@Evelynfromtheinternets]

😬👀 you’re picking up what I’m putting down lmaooo

[@EverydayDaniels]

A skill and a talent!

[@isla3974]

you are the most relatable person on the internet. Period.

[@janshi876]

Amen amen amen! Run it again!

[@jesussaidjohn146]

isla yeass hands down

[@erikalewis4925]

Literally was just about to comment that 😬 it’s the truth

[@MEGAoneARMEDbandit]

Evelyn is free therapy (But in the wholesome, soul nourishing way; not in the being uncomfortable after a difficult session way)

[@dominiquealphin8729]

Chitra Jain amen amen amen

[@TheAbStraktEye]

Yeeeessss

[@MsXlr8urself]

"Let's touch and agree." *snorts, but reaches for screen*

[@chelslynn96]

Absolutely 😂😂😂

[@Nisha8982]

Brittany M finger went right to the screen! lol

[@monicadaley89]

Same!

[@JPrince6454]

Yess!

[@bijoujohnson]

Yep, now there's a dot of hand lotion on my screen

[@edwinamarie]

BRUH WHEN SHE SAID “ASK FOR HELP BEFORE IT GETS BAD,” I LAUGHED AND SAID “WHAT A CONCEPT” AND THEN SHE ALSO SAID “WHAT A CONCEPT” AAAHHHHH WE ARE ONE.

[@SydnieMarlella]

“I come to you in the spirit of dry scalp” I HOOTED 😂😂💀

[@casandratappin6349]

Chile!! I lol'ed because my scalp dry too!!

[@mystic507]

Sydnie Marlella she is hilarious I am screaming

[@rachaelkennedy8698]

@@casandratappin6349 mine too!! lmao

[@Randompth]

Rihanna isn’t feeding us but at least Evelyn is

[@LilySnow18]

Rih really left the Navy hungry, huh?

[@DaniByNature]

PERIOD!

[@opempem]

@@LilySnow18 she disrespectfully did so

[@victorialuxxe]

Everybody been cussing Rihanna out all day 😂😂😂

[@erikajohnson9128]

😂😂😂😂

[@AdventurousGeek]

“The way someone treats others, is eventually the way they will treat you.” Girrrrrrrl, we all learn that eventually!

[@020ctmarie]

“It’s okay you be the bad guy in someone else’s story.” Listen. This whole part right here. A 👏🏾 WORD 👏🏾. I felt that! I had a serious conversation with myself yesterday (don’t judge me) and I came to that same realization 😭

[@consuelac4112]

This whole comment is a mood! same same same, (fellow virgo?)

[@Miloism23]

@@consuelac4112 wait same omg and I'm a virgo too

[@justcallmeteacup4711]

I really felt that one 😭 This was probably the most important lesson I had to learn by the end of the year

[@020ctmarie]

Consuela C I’m a Leo but I’m on the cusp of Virgo

[@consuelac4112]

Because we had a rough few years😫, hang in there guys 💪

[@Prophetmother]

I'm a therapist and I approve this message! 👍🏿 I am so proud of you and all the hard work you have been doing in so many areas of your life. From this vantage point, 2019 looks like a big ass win. You get a whole sheet of gold stars! ⭐🌠💫 Blessings for an even more abundant 2020.

[@Evelynfromtheinternets]

Tori Prophet thank youuuuu 🥰

[@therapeutic4u]

I was thinking the same thing. SN: I'm a therapist too Signed, #TricetheLMFT

[@rachel.beth99]

"Saying you'll do something when you don't want to is not being nice. It's called lying." Jeez that hit me man. You always teach me stuff, cousin.

[@dr.dermixgirlmd7479]

Amen. “No.” is a complete sentence. No explanations needed.

[@davideurope736]

Guilty as hell. That No word is hard but freeing

[@hopscotch39]

It also sucks to be the person on the other side of that “niceness”. You think you’re on the same page with someone, only for them to lash out at you later bc they weren’t telling the truth about where they were at and what they actually wanted to do. Just say No kids.

[@sadehogue-scott177]

This so helpful. Didn't realize that it was lying. Now that I know. I've got to learn to say no with feeling bad.

[@RockyJSquirrel06]

2019 slapped so many of us around. Here's to creating the processes that allow us to enjoy little moments and, oh yeah, SLEEP this year.

[@sagittarius420cheefie]

Facts, like everyone complained about 2019. I expect to hear a few complaints every year about something. But 2019 was nobody's year. Real talk. Unless you hit the Powerball or something. Lol!!!

[@RockyJSquirrel06]

Certainly no lotto winners here! I like the idea that maybe this was a trash year so we could learn as a community. There's a lot of big issues that take movements to solve, and maybe this was a good wake-up for us all to welcome in that change.

[@RockyJSquirrel06]

Yeah, when I asked to have time to sleep this year, this is not what I meant. I see the dramatic irony here and I am not a fan.

[@kevinheatcoat2190]

@@sagittarius420cheefie Me Giving 2019 The Finger.

[@GaylynLareese]

2019 was trash but it’s cool doe. Glad I’m not the only person that felt this way. We gone try again in 2020 though cuz why not

[@ayonnazglam9050]

Amen lol!

[@sachiekind]

it’s only up from here!! ✊🏾

[@queenkay7904]

Felt this in my soul

[@justcallmeteacup4711]

So true. Why is that? It sounds like we all collectively had a crap year

[@pearlsamb8299]

I'm So with you on this!!!! WE Here, so let's keep trying!

[@njokiwaweru2158]

"All the facemask in the world is not gonna help my mind." I love you internet cousin. Seriously.

[@evedansdaughter]

Njoki Waweru i love her more 😂

[@nokwandasthokomkhize5218]

This got to me!

[@SDeeze]

"The way someone treat others, is the way they'll treat you"

[@LeighAnneMarie]

Knowing the difference between a friend and a coworker was a TOUGH lesson for me too when I had to learn it :/ Thanks for always keeping it real with us, Evelyn

[@ChristsChemist]

Yep, that one hit me hard in 2019. Coworkers from two of my previous employers switched up on me, as I ignored the warning signs from one of them in 2018...

[@LeighAnneMarie]

HairScientist 😕 ugh that sucks

[@ChristsChemist]

It's comforting to know I'm not the only one who has had this experience. Funny thing is, there's someone at my new job that seems to be behaving towards me the way I was to the other 2 coworkers, being transparent and taking initiative to connect. I get the feeling though that this person might be genuine, but I'm treading carefully.

[@jenniferm491]

HairScientist I have a colleague I thought was a friend but really wasn’t and another who is thought of as a colleague only to develop a good friendship with her that went beyond work. So yeah, not every colleague is your friend but there are those who could potentially become amazing friends if you’re open to it

[@ChristsChemist]

@@jenniferm491 yeah, it's usually the ones you least expect who end up becoming your friends. Interesting how that works.

[@kerriisms]

"Therapy is the ultimate act of self-care." This is so true!

[@SkullsAndSugar]

SOOOO true. It changed my life. Everyone needs to go to therapy.

[@BlessingsUponBlessings237]

👏

[@Fidelia333]

“Saying you’ll do something when you don’t want to is not being nice, it’s called lying.” The face I made! Now Evelyn, the year just started and you are calling out entire character traits this early?!?!

[@RedRiverTrail]

But let's talk about the fact that Evelyn is dropping gems. The wisdom is tangible.

[@hawaanoor]

"anyway, this year happened" is THE perfect summation

[@TheMisterFamily]

The gems and nuggets. I had to stop several times and relay this info to my husband. This was good good. Somebody book Evelyn for a conference now!

[@Soundsliketara]

EVELYN TEDTALK 2020

[@msgatlin357]

ok?!?!?

[@katherinegreen1117]

PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE YES

[@daniahmiller3336]

When you said “I pay out of pocket” GIRL. Me too girl. Self development is expensive without health insurance.

[@JaCaraKM]

Me too but it’s worth every penny.

[@janeeharris5015]

I wanted to suggest sliding scale professionals, or student lead sessions. I don't know if it takes a certain income, and I'm always looking for low income accessible health care.

[@christambrown]

“Touch and agree, touch.” 🤣🤣🤣

[@kpacubo.]

"It's okay to be the bad guy in someone else's story." Whoo I felt thattt

[@TallieRS2378]

Same

[@dominiquedawson3816]

Thank you for this honest, vulnerable and hilarious masterpiece. 2019 could kick rocks in a lot of ways, but your corner of the internet is always a breath of fresh air. Thank you for being you and sharing it with your internet cousins!

[@mlighthart]

"it's okay to be the bad guy in someone else's story" DAY-YUM 100% !!! i'm just about to be 34 and I'm just learning this.

[@StaceyFarewell]

It sounds great but... how do you "be okay" with that. :(

[@mlighthart]

Stacey Alexander great question...I think it’s different for each situation. I’m still figuring it out myself. All the best to you!!

[@NicoleVScott]

I needed this video, but weird/connective thing on the Michelle Obama tip. I was heartbroken when I missed her book tour ,like in tears, pouting, tantrums. Then my mom got me tickets to Oprahs tour. Guess whose joining in at our stop? Michelle Obama. So youre 100% right, the stars will align and when you meet, it will be better than what was offered before

[@Spens675]

You are a LIGHT in this world. Infectious. Inspired. HILARIOUS. Amazing communicator. You've got the right stuff. I hope the future is filled with your energy.

[@ThePaulakiddo]

Whew, I literally go to therapy to just cry for an hour every week.its hard and painful but ultimately the best decision I’ve ever made.

[@AnitaB79]

It gets easier

[@SimplisticallyDigital]

I have too. I have since discontinued therapy (my therapist closed her practice). It was something that I REALLY needed. The ability to cry and talk made me come out on the other side so much stronger 💪🏾.

[@Kim-gw8bv]

In 2019 I learned: - Self-respect and being my own person - Some jobs that call themselves a "family" are super toxic - To recognize people who are shady and two-faced that try to keep me down - To also recognize when I'm being taken advantage of - To no longer let others benefit from my hard work, especially if they take all of the credit - How to listen to my body and not push myself past my breaking point - Working to death is no longer worth the money when I'm too physically/mentally tired to enjoy life - It's okay to say "No" and not give a reason

[@kelliannerjordan]

That last one.

[@dawnjohnson1965]

Hunny I feel like 2019 was a success if you survived it cause I almost didn't

[@TheRAH1]

Dawn Johnson amen!

[@iamieeesha9619]

Same

[@crmlcutie16]

Same! Literally & figuratively

[@JMH702]

Are you still alive?

[@paulinedavis8372]

In 2019 I learned to try my hardest and be ok with that just not being enough. Like I put myself out there with school and work and opportunities and failed back to back to back and I didn't die and it's really just like wow. I mean idk what to do with that but I didn't die and I'm still here and can try again.

[@a_noelle8595]

Several months ago, my fortune cookie message was actually a good one. I don't remember verbatim, but I'd like to share it with you. It said instead of worrying about doing things right, make sure you're doing the right things. It may not resonate with you the way it did for me, but I've been where you are where I feel like I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing but things are somehow now going the way they 'should'. Maybe it's time for some self-reflection and giving yourself a moment to figure out if the path you're on is really the right for you.

[@casandratappin6349]

Yes! Beautifully Profound!

[@paulinedavis8372]

@@a_noelle8595 I want to leave my job so bad but I can't until I find another one. I realized this isn't the right job for me when I applied for another position. I prepared and studied and interviewed and they hired someone else but I am okay with that and know that it's time to just keep trying

[@ni_jpeg]

"Know the difference between a friend and a co worker" I didn't know I needed to hear this until I heard it and oh boy... This hit me hard. Raising the bar for 2020 💖

[@hotbluflame2933]

Evelyn: Touch and agree Me: *accidentally pauses video* 🤦🏾‍♀️

[@xandria20]

Yeah. I feel you. This year was a lot. I started therapy this year too. Had a lot of lows and some highs. Lotta stress. But there’s been some good. I mean, I had a baby 9 days ago. He is healthy and thriving. My little family is doing well. Just got a new car. Overall I’m blessed.

[@loverofmysoul8742]

Congratulations! I know we're strangers, but I am very happy for you. This makes 2019 unforgettable for you.

[@xandria20]

LoverofmySoul Thank you dear!!! Have a beautiful New Year!💗

[@robinbutts1408]

Congratulations!

[@stayfresh06]

Congratulations

[@Evelynfromtheinternets]

xandria20 congrats, cousin!! 👶🏿👶🏿👶🏿

[@resa31802]

How can we tag Michelle Obama in this so you can meet her? This is a real question...

[@couleurful]

Theresa Lawson Twitter

[@esther299]

Tweet at Ellen she could for sure bring them together.

[@resa31802]

I'm not on Twitter. I'll get my husband to do it.

[@1flower161]

@Nobody Smith Wait she met Beyonce????

[@jessicacole5955]

Extremely import content. I wish I had this much clarity when I was your age but I am still going to learn these hard-fought life lessons all over again with you.

[@simplylavenia]

"It's ok to say no when you know you're not ready" As a person who recently just started the baking & pastry arts program in college & now has a ton of family tagging me on FB for these crazy off the wall birthday cakes this hit home lol. I'm an aspiring baker not a magician 😂 someone asked me to bake a cake that they can pull money out of.. Someone else wants a glow in the dark cake.. And for me this will not be like the "side hustle bakery" it's something I want to form into a career.. Like I want an LLC, baking contracts, down payments all that in which I planned to establish after I learn the technique side (the business side) and so currently I'm not doing big crazy off the wall orders I just want to get through my classes learn what I can and go from there.. Yet they keep tagging me on posts/ referring me to their friends so yes I needed to see that.

[@Evelynfromtheinternets]

Simply Lavenia yes!!! Set that boundary!!

[@simplylavenia]

@@Evelynfromtheinternets 💜

[@NiqueTD]

Happy New Year internet cousin! 2019 was probably the most eventful of my 27 years. I worked a job I didn't particularly love; cut off ALL of my natural hair; applied to and interviewed for jobs which I DID NOT GET; traveled out of my country for the first time; made plans for and spent money on equipment to launch a podcast with one of my best friends; quit the job I didn't particularly love WITHOUT a plan; labeled myself a writer and started publishing articles on Medium; and traveled outside my country again for a Christmas girls trip. Like you, I cried a lot last year (for things in and out of my control). But today my friend whished me a "Happy year of hard work" and I welcomed it because I'm anchoring my 2020 on the biblical promise that "A man's gifts make room for him and brings him before great men". 2019 had its lows, but it was so developmental that I cannot even complain.

[@simplylavenia]

Praying for your continued success! S.n where can I find this scripture? I want to share it with my husband.

[@NiqueTD]

@@simplylavenia thank you so much! Its Proverbs 18:16.

[@simplylavenia]

@@NiqueTD anytime, I love to see people pursuing / accomplishing their dreams & goals. Also thank you 💜 gonna go read that now.

[@gabbyquigley]

* crying internally * * screaming intensifies * 🗣I felt that! 😭🙏🏾

[@Sharedpath777]

We are really the only home we have. I want to be my own goofy cheerleader who is totally not taking life too seriously and therapy looks like where the action is at. Opening the yellow pages for help now.🙂. Thank you for being you and sharing the suckage and the lessons with us. You are doing God's work Evelyn🙌🏿

[@Richardmlv]

Well done my dear... clean the closet, dump out the pantry or whatever you want to call it but you took a look, a long and hard look at what makes you work and what doesn't and DID something about it that sticks! I applaud you and will continue to watch and laugh at what you do! You give me hope there are still good people out there!

[@whatvlog2128]

First day of 2020 and it’s already a better day than all of 2019 combined. Lol.

[@sagittarius420cheefie]

Right

[@allthingsloveone4584]

I swear this is the truth

[@CarolMuodza]

"I just wanna stay in bed and eat snacks" - das a moooood thanks for always being so honest Evelyn and keeping it real!

[@TheJasmaree]

Evelyn stay holding a mirror up I want to avoid

[@sieratoney7082]

Actually though.

[@luzmech]

To me 2019 was a learning curve mostly about LOVE, the love that I allow to give myself and the love I give to others. The first half of the year I realised that the career path I had chosen wasn't for me, and while I watched everyone pass their exams and make friends I was deeply depressed. I failed every single one of my classes, then i thought about trying again the next semester oviously tainted by the academic consecuences that it entailed, but i asked myself "Why are you putting yourself through this pain? You love learning things, you just dont love what you are currrently learning, and that's okay. Making mistakes is okay, allow yourself to make mistakes." I dropped out, my sister knew I was sad all along, my dad supported me, and so did my friends, turns out most people go through this. So, self love was my lesson on the first half of the year. Then the second part of the year rolled around and I got my heart broken, I learned that being vulnerable is one of the biggest privileges that life can give you, to love someone without fear of the outcome; and so I did. I loved this person like I had never loved before, the falling out still hurts, but I'm not depriving myself from love down the line, just because this didnt turn out the way hollywood says it should. I wish him the very best, and I thank this situation for the growth it brought me.

[@paulinedavis8372]

"Understanding!" Yes! It don't have to be good in 2020. We are learning to understand the bad.

[@austina.duncan1900]

It hits different when you watching this from the future....

[@totorossilverarrow65]

"it's okay to say no if you're not ready" felt this so hard - I think we always live under a scarcity mindset and feel that we have to say yes to anything and everything when it shows up on our doorstep. but sometimes you're just not there yet. hope your 2020 is better evelyn. i also started going to therapy this year so i hope you're able to work through everything in your heart. you are such an inspiration to me as another creator of color

[@TwinMama828]

Ohh rule number 1....I felt that Edit: my ass should have waited to the end of the video cause rule number ALL of them...I felt that

[@ambrab]

You didn’t know you were a prophet, but that bit about staying in bed, eating snacks and watching the world burn. Kinda factual for 2020...

[@alwaysjazzyful]

Alignment is so important! Being always liked truly is a crutch but being SELF AWARE means you're on you're on the right path. Thank you for being honest and your most authentic self 💖💖

[@itzelarredondo4569]

2019 was MESSY for me. Big break up, had surgery, felt aimless for a good chunk of the year. I also started therapy and it was a great idea. I feel like i'm in a pretty solid space now and that i have systems in place to make sure I at least take care of myself. I am willing, let's do it!!

[@JMH702]

We all owe 2019 an apology

[@teerich2011]

This girl is my spirit human. I'm too scared to put my quirkiness a d randomness on YT for ppl to laugh at lol.

[@faizonnolove]

Whew-Evelyn, my internet cousin, you are speaking FACTS! I wish you nothing but the best and more growth this year!

[@misst-1538]

"It's okay to be the bad guy in someone else's story" I learned that 2019 too. It was a wow moment but we survived it.

[@FortheTimeBeingchannel]

coming to us in the spirit of fatigue is my wholeeeee mood

[@IzHarris]

Thank you. Teared up multiple times watching this, your vulnerability helped me feel seen and heard. Also plz let's start a mastermind. SYSTEMS 4EVER

[@MeriamH.]

I paused and took a screenshot of “Just because you know what needs to change, doesn’t make it easier to change.” This............

[@Moni2Minx]

I actually touched the screen and agreed 😅 I really felt the sleep thing. 2019 has been 1 step forward and 2 steps back in every aspect of my life. So many expenses I haven't been able to recover from 🤦🏾‍♀️ God bless my entrepreneurship in 2020!!!!!!🙏🏾

[@RandyRobinson2807]

Why is this my life rn?! Yesss for entrepreneurship in 2020! #TouchAndAgree

[@kiac.4716]

I’m gonna start watching her videos with Pen and paper in hand cuz Evelyn STAYS dropping knowledge! I’m so happy this woman exists

[@fearsomefivefilms]

Came out as bi to a bunch of people I love dearly in 2019. Also moved out of a living situation that had been preventing me from addressing trauma in my life. 🤘

[@SmileKidOFMusic]

I def tapped my screen when u said to lol 😂😂 I'm transfering my job cuz my sleep schedule has been to chaotic and in 2020 my sleep cycle will be consistent!!

[@tafavor]

I started the year with unexpectedly losing my beloved grandma. It was/is devastating. As a result, I lost family connections,too; namely, my uncle, who has been my favorite since I was a child. At the very same time, I left my job. That is a story all on its own....(still hurts). I am still bouncing back from the financial blow. These events cast a deafening shadow across the entire year for me. I too learned (learning) about being the bad guy in someone else’s story. I saw patterns in my behavior and am still trying to figure out how to change. The highlights? I began a new career teaching; I reconciled with my stepdad/best friend; my daughter started high school; my little brother got married; and I still have a roof over my head. ¡Also! You. You truly are a highlight for me. You are relatable in a delightful and motivating way. You make me laugh, which was much needed medicine, and I’m so so grateful. I’ll be seeing you ;)

[@ericafields6170]

You have arrived at responsible adulthood. Welcome, Sis! From here on out, you’ll be managing those processes and systems as life continues to happen, the good and the bad. My sucky years spanned ages 29-34 (2012-2017), and now me and my systems are happily tweaking along!!! Be encouraged!!

[@ncham7232]

We outeth hereth. Clicked as soon as I got the email. Happy New Years' Evelyn!! May we be moisturized in the new decade!!

[@casandratappin6349]

Yaaaasss!!

[@thelovelymissmonica1938]

...moisturized with the emollients...😏

[@blazebaby89]

Happy New Year's internet cousin! I agree, December can kick rocks. Here's to a fabulous new year and new decade!!!

[@chante427]

2019 was a blur of madness and I felt deprived of so many things because I let others dictate my emotions. 2020 I have to work on that...

[@MrSexydivas]

Gurl, 2020 jumped out the bushes and beat us

[@sunu5520]

GIRL. I learned the same things, and I started therapy, too. 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 It was challenging, but I’m glad to know it and grow from it rather than be miserable for the rest of my life.

[@deanaronelson3979]

My internet cousin was preaching today! Evelyn, I looove you so much. You are a source of motivation and laughter for me. Continue to inspire others. ❤️❤️❤️

[@vmvasquez0909]

" The decision to go to therapy is the ultimate act of self-care". Yes it absolutely is! I decided to go towards the end of 2019 and it has helped so much.

[@gathoninjage6629]

"Not going into 2020 with hope, but with Understanding." Same sis, same!

[@offbeatttt_]

Whew I feel THEE HELL outta this. Thank u cuz 😭😅

[@wonderlandshels9922]

I honestly have to say that this was the most enjoyable start of the new year/decade video I've seen. Thanks for being so open internet cousin and the advice is much appreciated

[@stephiigtv]

"It's okay to be the bad guy in someone else's story." WHEW I felt that. That was a hard lesson for me to learn too when I had a falling out with a bff a few years ago.

[@jessicamompoint1849]

I have become self-aware and it pisses me off. My brain tells me I'm doing self-destructive behavior again. This year SUCKED hard internally and externally. 14:07-14:12 is basically how I felt 4/7 days in 2019, hope 2020 is better.

[@dhja86]

I’m so glad 2019 is over 🙃 It was rough but I survived. Onward to 2020 🙏🏽 Wishing you a kickass year Evelyn!

[@l3l3Cakes]

The way you bring comedy to pain. Flawless ✨

[@niyah1229]

2019 was also one of the top worst years for me but at least I’m healthy and alive to see another year❤️

[@toil7154]

2019 was the year of taking L’s for me. So I’m using 2020 as the year of growth and recovery.

[@Indigoqueer]

I was watching this and was like "How did we have the same year?" My 2019 was filled with professional fulfillment but my personal and internal life was in shambles. Circumstances and my own fear made me miss a few significant opportunities in terms of relationships, my friendships were all in a fallow place, and I felt incredibly isolated. That being said, I had some great experiences too. I am going to take the lessons you mentioned in the video as well as some of the ones I learned myself (i.e you miss 100%, of the shots you don't take, friendships require effort to maintain, your first read of a situation is often worth reflecting on, etc.) and use them to shoot for spiritual, personal, professional, and relational fulfillment in the new year. It is up to me since no one can save me from my life but me. I wish you a great new year and thank you for your work!

[@Patrick19833]

I think you owe 2019 a big apology!

[@camillamukungu1992]

"Saying you'll do something that you don't want to, is not being nice ... it's called lying" SIS. I need this lesson for 2020. Thank you for your transparency outcheaaa

[@JustJRR]

"I wanted to be a better person because I'm the only home I have." WHEW! I felt that. 🙌🏾💗

[@kathleenharris8824]

SJSU my alma mater!! I too went through an end of a “friendship “ and a relationship. They were both so narcissistic and the depth of narcissism left me drowning in an ocean of narcissism of manipulation , gaslighting, and control. I finally woke up to the fact that my people pleasing co- dependency was causing me to disappear. I am glad 2019 is over!! Also, may we both love ourselves in 2020!!

[@paulinedavis8372]

Girl 2019 was tough for all of us. Glad you are able to bounce back. You're still here and you are still inspiring all of your cousins.

[@ruffey1748]

"I'm not going into the new year with hope, I'm going into the new year with understanding", is absolutely where I was at the top of 2020.

[@Kimbrasa]

Why was this so real to me that I physically reached out and touched the screen in agreement?! 🙌🏾 #hallelu

[@JPrince6454]

I second this emotion. 2019 can kick rocks

[@wissalkocht]

This was the best recap a youtuber made of their year

[@jaichanellie]

Wow same. 2019 was lowkey trash but I'm so thankful for self-reflection and the opportunity to change.

[@NaniSparrow]

This year was uncomfortable, and tedious, and not very enjoyable for the most part. I spent it in recovery from a breakup I'd had a few months prior, and from financially irresponsible decisions. But 2019 was an important year, because I have to admit I'm a much stronger person. I got knocked down to rock bottom, and it was then that I learned to put myself first, and to set boundaries and stick to them. I had never felt that I was worth taking care of until 2019. I decided that I was worth my own effort. And it was the best decision I made. It was not easy. It was not pleasurable. But it was well worth it. I still don't feel entirely good. But I am looking forward to the fruits of my labor this year. Thank you Evelyn for this honesty. It is incredibly brave and it spoke to me.

[@cocoberrie72]

"All the face masks in the world not gon' help my mind" So true, Evelyn. Thank you.

[@loverofmysoul8742]

Evelyn you gon make me walk around with a shovel. This was deep and true for me and I am twice your age. Your content is always so smart and meaningful. Thank you! May you be blessed bountifully in 2020.

[@Stephanie-pt2eu]

I'm so glad that I found your channel in 2019! 👏👏

[@charityqerubo443]

Yeah 2019 was definitely rough!! I had a first class experience to depression and anxiety.. probably cried way more than when I lost my mom in 2014! I was so unhappy I changed jobs, I’m happier BUT being a black a girl in a white dominated profession is a daily battle but I’m learning to take Care of my mentality so I can conquer work nightmares. Thank you for being so relatable.. I definitely understand your pain and internal conflict we go through.