9 Signs You've Developed Disordered Eating & Bad Body Image

[@luvhyun7981]

i can relate to all of those but i am actively working on changing that! good luck to everyone struggling with disordered eating❤

[@marycansing]

Compulsive weighing was so real for me. My husband and I moved to a new apartment recently and I told him that we cannot take the scale with us. Since the move, I’ve woken up every morning and unconsciously started looking for a scale. Noticing their body first - oof. I’ve had a hard time with the resentment of thinness. This is hard because I work with teenagers for my job. I do everything I can to never comment on their bodies, but I cannot lie that it is something I notice and have an emotional reaction to. Repeating cycles - I cannot remember a time when I wasn’t in one of these cycles, or watching my mother go through these cycles. I don’t trust myself - yes. I used to get so mad at my husband when he brought things home. Since reading Intuitive Eating, the rule has completely reversed and now it is important that we ALWAYS have ice cream and Oreos around. Since starting that rule, the out-of-control feeling around those foods has stopped. It hasn’t stopped emotional and mindless eating, but it’s stopped the “I cannot stop thinking about it” feeling. Ignoring appetite cues - before a few months ago, I had three states of being: ravenously hungry, eating, and overly stuffed. I couldn’t sense anything in between. Since I started this journey of Intuitive Eating and Mindful Eating, I’ve started to find the gentle, in-between feelings. I thing neuroplasticity best explains these cues: when I wasn’t responding to them, they were so quiet I couldn’t hear them because the neural pathways were overgrown with weeds and the path was difficult to find. Once I started looking for them and treading those paths more frequently, the easier it was to find those signals. Also, it felt like “eating” was one activity, instead of all of the steps between. In Alexander-Technique language: I was “end-gaining” solving my hunger instead of using the “means whereby.” Making food choices based on other people - this is every drink at a bar or dessert order for me. I had the exact thought last night with ice cream. My husband and I have put ice cream on a pedestal - we chose to serve ice cream at our wedding instead of cake because we love it so much. It felt wrong to say “actually I don’t want ice cream tonight” last night because I wanted to support my husband in the ritual of dessert. These were the points I resonated with the most right now. Thank you so much for your content. - I don’t feel like I have anyone in my life right now who understands the journey I’m on. I have only these videos and the comments on them. My husband is supportive, and I do my best to fill him in on what I need during the time that I am learning to eat intuitively, but he is already a normal eater and doesn’t sympathize with the depth of what I need. It seems like everyone else in my life is on a “weight-loss journey” or trying to “eat clean.” It can be very isolating.

[@mariaRD]

Very on point topics! I'm glad I'm in a much better place with food where a lot of these things I no longer think about, although I still resonate with modifying my eating when I'm with others, the ordering dessert at a restaurant is such a big one, my partner doesn't have a big sweet tooth, but I'm always looking forward to dessert the most yet I still will say no to them because I don't want to keep them waiting or have it by myself I guess I still have some guilt attached to it that I need to work on

[@shirlenereid7888]

Thank you Rachael, a lot of these points really resonated with me. Too much to go into here but I was nodding through almost the whole video - you’ve given me lots to think about 🤔