A Letter to my Friend That Went Missing.

A letter to my friend that went missing
MY LAST VIDEO: • goodbye colored hair.
A lot of people only portray their best selves on social media and today I decided to show all sides of myself online totally. I talked about my honest insecurity and sadness and how I was planning on handling these emotions. I discuss mental health and anxiety from a realistic perspective. ENJOY!
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[@rauriemadison]

WE LOVE OUR DAD WE LOVE OUR DAD WE LOVE OUR DAD WE LOVE OUR DAD WE LOVE OUR DAD wait.. did I mention we love our dad?

[@indirakar5597]

Rawrie XD I think you forgot to mention we love our dad, jeez, how could you forget such a thing!?

[@rauriemadison]

JESSIE DID YOU REALLY JUST PIN MY COMMENT SJSKSKDNSOALKSKS

[@hvvvna]

Rawrie XD SHE DID OMG JESSIE LOVES HER CHILDREN

[@indirakar5597]

Rawrie XD AHHH

[@renee7006]

we stan *slaps table* our dad too

[@KyleAlexJackson]

When i was 13, i made my first ever twitter account. This girl Cassie followed me that first night. She was my first ever follower. My first ever internet friend. At the time i identified as female (a few years ago i came out as ftm trans) and i started getting a crush on her. Shes the reason i found out im bi/pan. She was pretty much my first everything. She lived in Vancouver canada and after we started dating, we promised that at 18 she would come down here to Oregon and we would live together. I remember our endless phone calls. She would always say the cheesiest pickup lines. Id be on a walk and she would ask me what direction i was walking, then would say "good. Now keep walking north till you get to canada". Shed say she would swim down the coast to get to me, and she would be serious about it. Shed hear a train in the background and rant about how she loved trains but had never seen one in person, etc. In 2013 (when we were 16) she committed suicide.. I still miss her so much..

[@ayethirah]

Kyle Alex Jackson i’m so sorry

[@frankie8261]

I’m so sorry for your loss. R.I.P. to her. I hope you’re doing ok.❤️

[@kales_salad]

Wow, I am so sorry! I couldn't imagine how bad that would've hurt, I am truly sorry 😭

[@beccabean4869]

I was like awww then the end now I'm like oh no

[@rainwang845]

Awww i sorry...

[@lizziesharp8091]

One day at school my BESTIE Alixa was away [In year 1] i asked my teacher and she shrugged her shoulders and continued writing something on the board, it was weird becuse the day before Alixa was telling me something about her brothers friend, i wasnt really listening and then in class i was thinking, what if it was inportent... she had not came to class ANY OTHER DAY FOR 2 weeks! and when i came into class there was a note on the board, 'Hello Children... I am not in class today because of some devastating news, Lizzie, could you please come to the office once you read this note and the rest of you go to Room 3.' at this point everyone was staring at me and i ran to the office and i saw Alixas mum, My mum, The principle, My teacher & two cop cars, i looked shocked and ran over to my mum and hugged her. "Im sorry Lizzie, Alixa hasnt been at school because she has gone missing... we have asked your mother i you guys could hold a search party." i cryed for hours as i went home ... 4 weeks later after LOTS of search parties, they found her... dead.... she was lying there on the ground with a knife through her throat.... i know because i found her, in a shed of her brothers friends house... it turned out that she had been raped and refused so he killed her, he was arrested and i havent heard since. Being 5 years old and experien has put my self awareness TO THE ROOF and whenever something hurts another thing, i SWEAR TOGOD! R.I.P Alixa you did not need to be experienced like this, i love you, we love you...

[@lenaboerboom5423]

This made me cry dude

[@lpslover6362]

That’s so sad 😞 and never think it was your fault because I know that feeling and it is not your fault at all

[@alexandraiamnottelling5166]

_Lizzy_ I...I am so so so sorry if that happened to me I would well I don’t know what I would do, also could you clear something up for me but if you don’t wanna answer I completely understand so was she still raped

[@alisevilcina509]

This is heartbreaking, sending love and virtual hugs to you ❤

[@theogreen2658]

i..am crying

[@Mecriah]

About 2 months ago, I had a friend that went missing and I remember her mom texting and calling me, asking me if I've seen her or if I know where she was and it was 11pm already. I remember asking all her other friends and they responded with the same "I don't know" response. She was eventually found but I remember the sunken feeling of not knowing what was happening to her or if she was okay. I didn't get any proper sleep until she was found. After she was found, she dropped out of school and went back to her home town to figure out more of herself and because she thinks this is the best way for her to heal. Just felt like sharing 😊 ily Jessie❤

[@xxameliaxx1458]

Unknown Girl, So GLAD she was found!

[@theanatvig7829]

"Heh heh I laugh so hard at my own jokes heh heh I'm still doing it" ME

[@noelleisnthere7505]

Griffin girl Oddities lmao I started reading this comment while she was saying it

[@abbyh3789]

Videos like this make me wish I could like a video a million times or just reach through the screen to hug who made them to show them how much I appreciate them and truly care for them. Jessie this was absolutely beautiful and raw, I’m proud of you for showing such a raw side of yourself without caring what other people have to say. I love you so much and I hope you have an amazing life!

[@md-rk]

Abby H same all the time😞

[@amaraoceana892]

I love how you just out what you're really feeling out there instead of covering it up. Truly beautiful. Ily jessie

[@purpledoorable]

jessie's fandom is iconic

[@user-ws4cc9dq7j]

Kiwidradi exams are getting to me I read this as ionic

[@destinyco.1077]

Kiwidradi I

[@littlellama7753]

Kiwidradi I was just coming down here to do that ⭐

[@ANASTASIA-gy6ux]

Is dat tae?

[@purpledoorable]

Jin’s Eyebrow hair Yeah

[@Alex-yd2fj]

Aw this is so sad. I'm sorry you had to go through this. You're really strong jessie❤️💖

[@amberflores9002]

Just some more Yeemo trash Gerard...

[@rain-wk5qy]

I just adore your profile picture.

[@potatomemes517]

Just some more Yeemo trash Jessyee*

[@laceylad8636]

I have an obsession with your profile pic 😂

[@bandaddict3505]

I see you everywhere

[@caseymagon]

Thank you Jessie. Ily. Your videos have helped me through the loss of my brother. He was 14. Nobody should die that young. It hurts everyday more and more. Thank you.

[@doveydoos]

My friend was troubled and ran away from home, she never came back...She Was 12

[@jordinwhatever2584]

Kat North xx My friend recently ran away. I feel you ❤️

[@doveydoos]

alice trash, thanks xx

[@doveydoos]

Jordin Is Here, I'm so sorry to hear this xx

[@jdjdnsdnjdjdnd2298]

Kat North xx aww I'm so sorry i hope she'll come back safely xxxxx

[@manicpixiestardust]

I'm 12 and considering running away...

[@7nnah.is.radical363]

Why am I cryin in the club rn?

[@hanbanan8256]

7nnah.is.radical HEY ain’t no crying in da club

[@salmonfry4]

panic at the disco

[@pssteenagers]

@@salmonfry4 yes best reply out of all of these

[@pssteenagers]

Why are you on your phone in the club?

[@mariaistrash2310]

I lost my neighbor he was a sweet guy. He committed suicide in October.he was a cop and a loving father and a wonderful man.R .I.P Berry 2017 you will always be in our hearts ♥️ .

[@julianicole1294]

I relate to this so much. A friend of mine commit suicide last month. Thank you jessie for putting this out there. And if anyone is struggling please know that taking your life doesn’t get rid of the pain, it just gives the pain to those around you. Might seem like a random thought but I think people should know that!

[@missblurryfacebeliever1516]

JuliaNicole no, not a random thought at all... my soulmate has committed suicide in June this year and I don’t even know how to describe what I feel....and I was so close to following him, I didn’t do it for that exact reason, you know? I couldn’t get myself to make the situation even more terrifying for everyone by taking my life as well....

[@julianicole1294]

Miss Blurryface Believer thank god you didn’t! And I’m so sorry about what happened to him. I wish the best for you. You actually commented on this last night so randomly as I was talking to a friend about how much Kat killed me when she killed herself. My friend was having a little breakdown and I was trying to make sure she knew how everyone would feel if she left us. Just thought that was such a wierd coincidence. My name on instagram is JuliaGrapefruit if you ever need a stranger to talk too. 😘

[@suicidalwolfie552]

My Gf wants to commit suicide and really dont want her to i love her so much and it makes mae scared and sad that she wanta to do thins and i might lose her one day 😭😭❤❤💔

[@_.Mimzie._]

It's not a random thought. I really needed that. I've been contemplating suicide for a while now. Its been a hard 6 months for me. I'm sorry for ranting, you probably don't care anyway.

[@abilapthorn7561]

Jessie this is so beautiful my tears

[@nixnaucify]

I recently actually had a friend ive known since kindergarten go missing. After elementary school we didnt really talk but sometimes in middle school we talked. He went missing in high school. In elementary we always laughed and were close, I even always asked him how to spell my middle bame because it was his sisters name. Him going missing has been on my mind lately because I found put a few months ago but havent found out if he got found. Im afraid he's really hurt or maybe dead. Everyone was shocked, so was I but I also feel out of place.

[@terribleTerrestrial]

I love you so much my wonderful yeemo father you deserve the world and I am so sorry this happened to you. I don’t know exactly what you’re going through, but I once stayed up attempting to talk an online friend out of suicide. I was 11 or 12. I didn’t want to go, but my mother told me I had to go to bed. She took my kindle (I didn’t have a phone haha) and read through our messages. She claimed I was “too young” for something that intense and that deep. She said I was too young to talk one of my best friends out of suicide. I don’t know if he’s okay even now. I don’t know if he’s alive. I still think about him a lot, and even if I don’t talk about it, sometimes when I’m stuck in a pit I’ll cry for all the people I could’ve saved or at least help. I’m 13. I’m still too young, even though I myself have anxiety and depression and have attempted cutting and thought seriously about suicide.

[@oonashaw7098]

Zion Cleberg I am so sorry that you had to go through that. I have had experience with these topics and I know that it is hard to do but you should stay strong, because there are people out there that love and care about you even if you don't know it they are there

[@terribleTerrestrial]

Oona Shaw Aw thank you so much for this. You made my week, man. That was really nice of you, and the same goes for you.

[@Mary-kw2wq]

I can be your internet friend if you need to talk about it

[@terribleTerrestrial]

Mary No last name Thanks, but I’m not at all allowed to have internet friends. Also, I don’t really want to talk about it haha. Thank you so much for that offer, though. That is super sweet of you :)))

[@theartistkat6985]

I can't imagine how hard this would be for you, although I am certain you're friend knows you did everything you could. I hope you discover great things to come because thats what you deserve, stay strong.

[@ReaganLambert7527]

YOU ARE AN AMAZING POET

[@marianaamador8302]

This video is so sweet and amazing, truly made e rethink the company I have, I lost contact with my infant friend, I was totally sad and even if I was small it broke me, I remember telling her everything, now I keep secrets to my friends, I don't like doing that, but I can't avoid it, it so hard, I love them, but I just can't tell them.

[@jessiepaege]

💞💞💞

[@marianaamador8302]

You are my inspiration, just this comment made me so happy, thank you, thank you, thank you.

[@rubiadilenne3134]

My best friend went missing when I was 7 years old, I still remember her. She was the best person I could ask for. We would go everywhere together and when we didn't go somewhere together we would bring back something for eachother. I would go to her house every other day and we would play dress up or play on her play kitchen. One day her dad got really drunk and cut his leg and called the police blaming the mother for his cut and she was put into jail. My friend who I called "chantia" and her older sister and her baby sister were kid napped by her father and they haven't been found 💔 I hope she's living her best life I she's even alive, and my only wish is to know where she is. What worries me is that they were taken away by their drunken father. I really miss her. 💔😥

[@PerfectlyPreppy]

i love how beautiful yet so deep and down to earth you and your videos are!! such a difference than the ‘normal’ youtuber

[@scarlettthestarlet2162]

feature of a pisces

[@JAdoreKenia]

Scarlett the Scarlet exactly as a pisces whom's met many other different fishes i agree ^-^

[@nynkebenschop]

Almost a year later, but I still find myself coming back to this video. It makes me feel understood, thank you! I am writing a story for my dutch class about a girl who went missing when she was 5 months old, this inspired me. I hope your friend is okay and i hope you are to. I love you and thank you💕. You are a inspiring human bean and a poet.❤️

[@natalieoliver5666]

We stan!! *slams table so hard hand breaks* 😂💝

[@teaghanmurphy7888]

Natalie Marquee jeez I kinda felt a mini earthquake there be careful how hard ya slam that table there

[@natalieoliver5666]

Teaghan M lol ok 😂

[@vapordiversion1799]

in full on tears right now..wow didnt think i could get so emotional over a video. lately ive been thinking about running away and never thought of what people might think of it. seeing your perspective on missing a friend has brought a new light to my world and i regret every thought i had about running away and every single second of when i actually tried once. of course i was too coward so i just ran across town to a friend's house, but i still regret every part of it, knowing that if i had actually run away and gone through with it, i wouldnt have made the decisions i have made lately. wouldnt have met the absolutely fantastic friends ive made lately. my parents would have locked me up at home if they found me, and probably homeschooled me, so they could always have an eye on me. i only thought about what my parents would think of it, never my friends. this has inspired me so much to stand up for myself and speak out when i have problems, rather than hide them and run away from them like the coward i am. you are truly a blessing to this world. love ya xx

[@letteaseauh]

this video was so beautiful

[@kaylaalexander9827]

Ayyye your pfp!

[@vicccturrr6689]

Krystle Fangirl YES WATERPARKS

[@leilanimb]

yes it really really is and also awsten lol

[@jays.harmony]

YOUR PFP SJHDNSJCNZBSBHDBDBRHDG

[@singularitae963]

Omg your profile picture...AWSTEN KNIGHT🔥👏

[@welcometomyheadrush]

I had a friend runaway and I was so scared for her, she was gone for (2 days maybe a week i don't remember) on and they found her in Alabama. this brought back the feeling of horror and hope that she would be found. if youre thinking about running away, don't. it was the scariest thing to experience as a friend. I couldnt contact her. I texted her and snapped her... no response. it was absolutely terrifying so if you think your parents dont care, think about your friends. it hurts your friend to not know where you are. stay safe out there ❤

[@ericamihelarakis5595]

Jessie I love you so much you help me with a lot, with stuff, such as mental, emotional, and physical pain. And you are my role model I hope to be as confident and proud as you are one day. Side note I bought a ukulele just because you have one, and started writing poems. But back to the whole point of the comment. You will *ALWAYS* be my queen and you are such a real person. And you know just what to say in an intro to make someone happy. I CAN NOT SAY THIS ENOUGH: *I LOVE YOU* .

[@nynkebenschop]

Its 2020 and im still coming back to this video. Its so beautifull.

[@devijanssen2539]

And stickers make this live better

[@CringeCass]

I'm loving all these personal videos, it shows us a glimpse of you and your pain. We stan a real queen. We stan a true father who isn't afraid to show us her painful side that's hurting and is personal..🙏🏻💝

[@Alex-yd2fj]

Yes stickers make everything better

[@autismvampyre]

the part where she said "will i remember how good the jelly was?" i got shivers throughout my entire body

[@Alex-yd2fj]

*JESSIES FANDOM IS ICONIC*

[@graeberschaendung7586]

Just some more Yeemo trash u r the yeemo qween or king

[@EzranWolfe]

Love your picture Yeemo trash

[@Alex-yd2fj]

tabi Y thanks😁 but I'm an actual trash can so Jessie can be the queen

[@graeberschaendung7586]

Just some more Yeemo trash jessyee is the daddyee king u are the qween.

[@sofiabananapants9633]

Crank that frank is the yeemo king

[@kelseyaline802]

my dad died last year in February and my mom and i have been struggling to get by this poem it's honestly so beautiful and touching. I walked outside as soon as I heard this line "the universe is not always good to those that are good but those that are good light up the universe " and told it to my mom she instantly smiled. thank you Jessie for making this it touched my heart and probably many more people's hearts

[@sassyclassyglassesandbeani6337]

Last week three little boys were killed in a car accident, they were riding on bikes and the driver was drunk. I used to go to school with one of the boys and he was my friend😣 it was so hard for me and everyone in the community, especially the families of the boys. I still tear up whenever I think about it, but ik they're in a better place rn😇btw I luv ya Jessie😊1like=1prayer❤️god bless

[@didi-ed7lj]

thank u for this Jessie. u have no idea how much this means to me. when i was younger i had a best friend called mahati. she was the nicest, most amazing and strongest person ive ever known in my life. to this day i remember her and how much i miss her. one day she never came to school. but i remember the previous day our last words to each other were, '' no matter what happens, we would never forget each other, we would be best friends.'' and then she never came back. the teachers didnt tell me anything they just told me not to worry. i miss her so much. what if she forgot me? what if something terrible happened to her? idk. but for now i want to say thank you for this Jessie. this truly touched me. ily.

[@Artisticallyy]

I remember my best friend.....she went away awhile ago and almost everyday I think about her, this is inspirational thanks jessie.💜

[@samarasonik]

i was a missing person for quite some time.... abducted, trafficked, abused -- but those details aren't important either. i went through absolute hell, but i still think my family might have had it worse.... was interesting and heartbreaking kinda hearing the pain from the other side. i think it might be harder to miss and be left with no answers. at least i knew i had to survive and get through it, to try and make it home. thankful for the US marshalls for saving my life, every damn day ~.~* this was beautiful and i'm in tears. thank you for sharing your creative thoughts and tunes ~ sending you a buncha positive and healing vibies!!

[@Alex-yd2fj]

Jessie's outro is so happy I kinda need to cry

[@Cecilia-oo3pm]

Just some more Yeemo Trash I feel like I saw u in a comment section recently but idk where

[@luci8i]

YOURE EVERYWHERE

[@acj4561]

Just some more Yeemo trash why are you always commenting every video omg

[@Alex-yd2fj]

Sisters Duo the truth is I have no life. Also I babysit ALOT so I have a ton of free time while doing that

[@faithguiliacci7169]

I’m crying so much. My friends are so important to me and when I watch this I imagine losing them and that hurts so much. Dear god I can’t stop crying.

[@maya-ki7gi]

Speechless, I have no words on how to describe how beautiful this video is. So proud of you Jessie, keep doing what you’re doing💜

[@hannahherode5353]

I love you Jessie. I have one suggestion for your channel that I think will make it sky rocket. You always post these videos that’s are deep but you never explain them in detail. It might be hard for you, but from my experience, when I tell someone something that’s hard for me to talk about, I feel better because it’s off of my chest, plus I have other people who now know what I’m going through and can relate more realistically since I was honest. Metaphors and these kind of videos are cool, but maybe think about opening up about all of these things you constantly talk about yet won’t go into detail about. We all would love to know. What’s your story? Love you Jessie, you’re amazing❤️❤️❤️😘

[@blurrybaby225]

Jessie, I️ really recommend you putting out a spoken word album! There’s a Grammy category for it, & quite honestly the game there is so dull atm that you could really shake up the game!

[@ashjustsneezed]

I think you should say more about your friend. I know it will be hard but someone could know where they are or if they are ok, and the chances of finding them will be way more likely.

[@aud338]

you should really mention the name of this friend, and their story. although it may be difficult for you, it could spread awareness. you never know if someone has seen your friend.

[@didi-ed7lj]

aud revealing the name would be disrespectful as Jessie wouldn't have permission

[@reireisstuff2367]

It’s probably for respect of 5je family

[@abigailpoulson]

It’s really cool that you are showing the not so happy parts of you because it helps us realize it’s normal not to always be happy💞 and it shows us how to get trough some tough stuff💗 also this is your “emo side” shining through and I STAN💖

[@evawilliams5876]

When she asked ‘will I remember?’ I just lost it, and I don’t know why but it was just such a powerful statement to me.

[@jordinwhatever2584]

This is so meaningful to me. A friend I have known for over 2 years ran away about 5 days ago. She was not mentally stable and I am really worried about her. Thank you for this ❤️

[@aylahgray9599]

This really was inspiring it helped me a lot because I had my friend pass away when I was eight he got ran over by a dump truck and until I watched this video I had nothing to live for until I started watching Jessie paege I didn’t know what to do with my life I STAND!

[@JennsCrazyLife]

These videos are so amazing and meaningful 💛

[@bongodog6907]

Jenn'sCrazyLife OMG I LOVE UR VIDS!!!

[@amberhernandez6959]

Autumn Wasilko same

[@lemonmorosepie]

I’m so sorry your friend went missing; we stan you so much, and we’re here for you Jessie. We love you, and we hope that you can move past the pain of losing a loved one💖💖

[@madisonmogg2659]

First of all, WE STAN OUR DAD!! WE LOVE YOU AND ARE SO PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE AND WHO YOU'VE BECOME. I loved how deep and personal your videos are and this was a very vulnerable concept that you pulled off beautifully, however, (I love your beautiful face) the facial expression you had though, kinda gave the video a creepy vibe, but that combined with the vocals and the message gave me chills so YOU GO GIRL WE STAN A SOFT, LOVING, VULNERABLE FATHER!!! LOVE YOU

[@lucillekohtz8633]

hey jessie. i just wanted you to know you’re not alone ❤️❤️ my two best friends died a couple of months ago due to a car accident. i’m scared every single day that i’ll forget what they sound like or how bailey (one of the girls) played her trumpet and how navi (the other girl) gave her speeches. it’s just comforting to know that other people have gone through the same things and i’m not crazy ❤️❤️❤️

[@emirose3395]

You are so strong Jessie. Thank you for making this video, and I'm sorry for any pain that you've had to go through. This video hit me really hard, and I really appreciate you for making it. Love you dad❤

[@dawnwindsor4748]

2 weeks ago i lost my dad to a brain tumor and i understand what ur going through i know no one will read this i just want tell u my experience

[@lolarose8973]

I will.. and I am so sorry that u head to go through that, I am sure that ur dad is proud of you spending your valuable time watching kind-hearted, supportive people like Jessie.. xox

[@dawnwindsor4748]

Thank you lovely listerner u have just made my day thank u for giving a lovely comment and now my dad is in better play thank u xxxxxxxx

[@lolarose8973]

There is nothing you need to thank me for, just one person giving a bit of support!

[@dawnwindsor4748]

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[@dawnwindsor4748]

Your are the kind and loving person everybody needs in their life and i may only be 10 but i thank u in all way and how much u have made me happier in life and peacful in the passing of my dad he is now not surferring and is in a better place you are a life changer thank you Daisy Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[@9thgalaxy778]

Even though it’s always sad when you lose contact with something e, in a way it’s a blessing to know that there was still love between you, and the fact that that the divide is time and space, not a heart.

[@thedarknessofnana]

I wonder if this is about the girl who met you at the wishing well… Probably. Hope you find her and can both get closure. 😊

[@radio_acid2124]

I was wondering the same thing!

[@yaavke]

I love your videos, thank you so much for being so real, so honest & so caring for your people ❤ It's sad, I'm sorry you had to go through this, you're a very strong person, and with every video you post I see a new part of you 💙

[@paigeelizabeth5343]

I constantly come back to this video, as when this video was uploaded, a close friend of mine had been missing for about a month. Not even a day after this video, news came out that she had shot herself. I have cried while listening to this so many times.. thank you for making me not feel alone Jessie.

[@starlandzsz]

Scout Elizabeth that must be a very painful experience for you to go through, I hope you have found some peace of mind since that day. wishing you all the best :)

[@saturnblake8201]

I think I'm gonna cry....this reminded me of my grandparents who died in a flood 2 years ago...thank you Jessie I'm not alone....❤️

[@annabelle859]

I will NEVER get over the Stranger Things intro...or how much I stan Jessie Paege. Also, JESSIES FANDOM IS ICONIC

[@evelynbellamy2055]

Awww this is so beautiful. Jessie you are so amazing and beautiful person! Bless your soul your an inspiration and I’m sorry for ur loss ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

[@lunak.8739]

WE STAN STICKERS

[@annieblock]

laboni ny I was looking at ur comment when she said it but YES WE DI STAN STICKERS

[@fragglepilled]

I make my own stickers. BANDDD MEMBERRR STICKERSS BITCHH

[@sude3498]

Hey Jessie! I just wanted to tell you that i started watching your videos just recently and i realized how much i relate to you! Like seriously, we are at the same age (born in 1999) we both are tall girls (i'm 5'11), we both struggled with social anxiety (i still struggle with it but i evolve day by day) and we both freaking play electro guitar! I mean how amazing is that! Also, your videos are top notch, just amazing quality. Thank you for doing these amazing videos, i'm so happy that i finally found someone that i can relate "this" much. Lots of love

[@aeolidi8849]

This made me miss a friend I never knew I had

[@cassidycarwile8708]

Jessie this was powerful... I while ago I stayed by my best friends side while she was fighting cancer for 11 months. She died. It put me in a terrible state of depression that I still yet can’t seem to make go away. It hurts. A lot. Thanks for powerful messages about, well... everything.

[@iamtired712]

Notification Squad! Hey Jessyee your fandom is iconic!

[@soph.naomiii]

This video is amazing and helpful. It may have a different meaning but someone I knew well and was somewhat close to just recently passed away and then today was the funeral and this just was able to make me feel better in a way. Thanks dad. Thanks Jessie

[@meliaffs]

It's so beautiful how you take something sad and slightly traumatising and turn it into art💜💜💜 your amazing.

[@nynkebenschop]

I find myself coming back to this video whenever I am sad. It helps me and i am so thankfull that Jessie uploads video's. Sending love❤️.

[@froginasock3641]

WRITE A POETRY BOOK, PLEASE **clears throat** JESSIES FANDOM IS ICONIC! I STAN MY DAD **slams table so hard hand and table breaks**

[@Jade-ov5dp]

Ella Rolf *slams table and my hand breaks*

[@angeldelvax7219]

"The universe is not always good to those that are good"... You're the first I know that has the guts to say this. It's true, but for some reason nobody wants to admit it. Thank you for this video... I needed it...

[@Brothatscrazy628]

Honestly beautiful really touching but something about the promo and giveaway just doesn’t sit right with me like in this is serious video you need to treat every part with that seriousness and this isn’t coming from a place of hate it’s coming from a fan actually

[@slimevids4070]

Catherine Pundmann vghjb

[@edsmysnowflakex227]

you right

[@gabrielleporter553]

I've thought the same things

[@gracegirl947]

True but i think it's hard not too also sometimes it kind of like breaks the ice because it is such a serious video

[@raemiddlebrook7913]

PREACH

[@justicerholmes]

Within the first two verses I burst into tears. Thank you for reminding me that it isn't only the pain that remains in a lost relationship. Good memories. Love. Much love.

[@islavierow1107]

We Stan!! *hits the table* love you so much 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[@Alemik3]

I honestly just started crying in the middle of it. Good job, Jessie. I can’t imagine what you went through/are going through. I love you, father ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

[@lou-126]

This video came out the anniversary of my friends death ❤️❤️❤️

[@isabelle2259]

I decided to watch this & I cried. & cried. When I thought I was done crying, I cried some more. This was good. Great. Amazing. I’m not sure how you used words in such a magnificent way that they take me and hit me, like a strong punch to the chest, knocking the breath from my lungs & bringing tears to my eyes, that fell onto my shirt. From my shirt, down to my heart & to my heart where they sit now & forever.

[@ositodemarzo]

JESSIE’S FANDOM IS ICONIC AND WE TRULY DO LOVE A HARD WORKING DAD!! 💕 p.s. i hope you have a lovely day jessie!! ✨

[@jenniferuller9852]

"The universe is not always good to those that are good but those that are good light up the universe" OH MY GOD! The FEELS

[@h.paulaaa]

Jessie paeges fandom is ICONIC 💗💗💗

[@ytbe316]

During the summer of 2017, I was in the process of having a total of two friends going missing. One ran away from his home possibly due to his abusive father and coming out as bi sometime before our high school graduation which was in 2015. Two years later in 2017 he had overdosed on medication and died by suicide during June. Then in July another friend of mine went missing. There was a search party for him and found his body dead. There was talk that it was suicide and then there was talk that he was killed. I never truly knew but it was really sad that two friends of mine died a month apart. They are seriously missed. I hope the situation with your friend gets better.

[@plumisland4794]

WE ALL *slams the table* SANNNNNN YOU JESSSYEEEEEEE

[@mariamistepanian6429]

It brings so much memories back....it's great, how you think you forgot the moments but in reality they are just in your head somewhere....waiting to be found. Thanks jessie

[@4mqurvvc]

I miss my friend who went missing, she was friends with so many people, everyone loved her. She was playful and happy and laughing always. But then she vanished. Nobody but me knows where she went. Happiness, fun, laughter, all of that disappeared from all our life. Just gone, and nobody could figure out why. Only I know why she is gone. That girl, was me.

[@gracehoffman1448]

i lost a friend to suicide about a year and a half ago. every day, i forget the little things about her, and i hate myself for it. this made me cry, in both relief and sadness. thank you for making me feel less alone. thank you for being able to put my thoughts into something beautiful. thank you for the bittersweet reminder of my beautiful friend makenna.

[@Bumblebee_TheTransformer]

Good people do so much for the universe The universe does so little for them The bad people do horrible things to our universe THe bad people got the fame and are more known than the good people The price to pay for a beauty named love is high And so much is sacrificed for her But the price is never fully payed Never forget her She is here Never stop believing

[@hyprwxlf]

My best friend Eliza went missing a few years ago. We were close since age five. The last time I saw her, we were having brunch in my families country home. It was magical! We went berry picking, we visited a dairy farm, we browsed through various antique shops and ended up buying friendship rings. I still wear mine every day. She ended up sleeping over and when I woke up, I noticed she wasn't in my room like she was last night. Assuming that she went to the kitchen to get something to eat, I walked downstairs to be greeted by a note. It said, "I went home due to an emergency. I had a wonderful time, love u always. xo and a million more, Eliza". That was the last I ever heard from her. She took her car and left and that was it. I left voicemail after voicemail, text after text and email after email. Still no response. I did get a strange response from her sister after six months. It was just a text which read "Stop trying.. She won't talk to you." I'm still confused as what that meant. I texted back but to no avail. I do have many theories as to what happened but I want to know if any of you have some inkling of an idea.

[@souwrlove9693]

i really hope well for the family...but i love youuu!!!!

[@01punksuburbia]

JESSIE!!!! I love you so much and you inspire me every day!!!👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼❤️❤️❤️❤️ Love you!!

[@carlyflores3769]

She’s my aesthetic and is SO cute I wish she was my real fren

[@RobinOpheliaRose]

i am so sorry jessie, why does the worst things happen to the best people? i would say stay positive but how can you stay positive when your friend went missing. i hate seeing you sad, sending all the love. we love our dad ❤️❤️❤️

[@angelsnyder6381]

Who knows maybe one day she or he will come back to find you

[@aghologram8534]

This was beyond moving. I’m so so sorry for your loss, Jessie. Just know that we’re all for you and we love you. You shouldn’t have to deal with this alone, so we thank you for sharing with us. We will treasure this vulnerable moment. We stan realness.

[@maggiebratsch]

I LOVE YOU FATHER YOU ARE KING I STAN (slaps table) I LOVE YOU FATHER 🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈 This video was so powerful. I am so so sorry this happened to you. Ilysm💓

[@KaRmA-dj8lr]

I love all these songs and the cute videos and stuff to go with them it’s so different from other music nowadays and it’s so personal and beautiful WE STAN YOU JESSIE!!!! 😍❤️

[@natalieedelstein]

Is this a video talking about your wishing well gal you recently found?! If so, eep!

[@kaylynray3843]

this video actually really spoke to me i honestly don’t even know why but it’s so beautiful and i think you did an amazing job and the emotion really showed through your voice. 💙

[@heatherw5767]

I too am in the stickers fandom

[@anastasiasnyder2751]

This hit close to home I was always so afraid my best friend might go missing because of a scary boyfriend she had. And I could never imagine what it would be like to have a friend go missing although I feared it. And I always thought about how I would feel to be in that situation and it this makes me cry and want to hold my friends so close and tell them how much I love them. My prayers and my heart go out to you and more importantly your friend and all their loved ones.