A Mysterious YouTube Commenter: picsmics4

[@jthopkins]

Can you imagine how legendary it would be to see this guy upload a video of himself playing the drums on rock band?

[@sophiavanbuskirk4175]

that would be such a great ending for this legacy

[@fwholy]

@@sophiavanbuskirk4175 i would fucking cry

[@moonもおん]

​@@fwholy bro I'm crying right now 😭

[@fwholy]

@@moonもおん the finale of the picsmics4 era series

[@GumSkyloard]

@@fwholy A perfect finale, closing the story with a golden moment.

[@Shockload]

I actually shed a tear at Picsmics4's last comment, it was heartwarming seeing a happy "ending" to this dude's struggle with life for the past 15 years.

[@joapa6031]

Me too it was so amazing

[@ignitionstunting9452]

Sorry I don't wanna be that guy but it's picsmics4 not pismics4

[@borisstojanovic6646]

​@@ignitionstunting9452hey, if you did not do it somebody else would

[@Shockload]

@@ignitionstunting9452 Thanks mate

[@ignitionstunting9452]

@@borisstojanovic6646 sorry either way lol

[@electricmango3]

i was expecting this to be way darker than it ended up being, so the fact it had a happy and heartwarming ending was very great

[@Acidlib]

Yeah, I was expecting more of a “slow decent in to madness” sort of narrative, but the ending was a welcome change of pace

[@zayaan7964]

zame

[@greenockscatman]

It's like the best possible ending. Love it!

[@SkyPearlzG]

​@@Acidlib same😭

[@barebonesjones]

It was very wholesome:)

[@CyhAnide]

Wtf. I went from being disturbed, to genuinely concerned, to outright tearing up at the realization of how much humanity and kindness this world still has to offer. I was not expecting this video to be my daily dose of wholesomeness.

[@L1MBO12]

Yeah I immediately thought he was crazy or mentally ill or smth like that. And now I kinda feel like an a hole after thinking about how judgmental I am 😅

[@Techdeckshawty]

@@L1MBO12well he definitely is mentally ill

[@wandering-W33D]

Yeah I thought it was gonna be a bad end but aren't we all Picsman4 at the end of the day?

[@wandering-W33D]

​@@Techdeckshawtymost ppl are capitalism rots your brain

[@DailyPragmatism]

I think that’s more so holding a mirror up for ya man. Kinda a stretch

[@GeorgTheGr8]

It’s strange to think about how many cases like this are out there, seeing as this slipped under the radar for 15 years

[@kreuner11]

Ok

[@jourcontre-jour1286]

Youmu!

[@GlipGlig]

Does anybody remember BrodyQuest? It's comment section is filled with diary entries now.

[@Jan34279]

There is a weird polish yt channel called "Koprolity", which means fossilized animal poop... He has some weird videos, where he is telling not funny jokes with camera set to capture only his legs, but he is well known for commenting almost every polish yt video. This channel is still active since a few years ago, and it's mystery remains unsolved.

[@tek3576]

I haven't seen anyone cover those youtube videos that always have people commenting on them. The video for moonlight sonata and the first youtube video have CONSTANT comment showing up for some reason

[@benadrylcumberbun]

"It was echoes into the void, and I think I found some comfort in nothing echoing back, other than the sound of a familiar piece of music. Today, it is as if the fifteen years of echoes all came ringing back at once, and they were more caring, loving, and powerful than anything I'd ever imagined" And I thought poetry was dead

[@tfree7273]

@@thecorruptversion cool way to be a dick on a wholesome video

[@katiekawaii]

​@@thecorruptversion It was a perfectly nice comment. Don't ruin it with your negative one.

[@DanielGoodLarson]

@@thecorruptversion-🤓🤓🤓🤓

[@sharpeningtheaxe]

Those words made me cry.

[@bloodclaat]

@@thecorruptversionjust because you lack social interaction more than others doesn’t mean you need to be a shrimp dick

[@jacob9538]

man, it's gonna blow this dude's mind when he discovers music videos.

[@I_enjoy_some_things]

🗿

[@LogEntry6]

moyai emoji@@I_enjoy_some_things

[@willyg3]

Underrated 😭

[@BOBBELIC0_TUMBADO]

🗿

[@get_stached]

🗿

[@melsyoutube]

“today it’s as if all the echoes came back ringing at once, and they were more caring and loving than i ever imagined” my god this made me tear up

[@clain21]

This is like a very, very good book. It's got the characters, the story, the beginning and the ending, and a very profound message. Good, good, good.

[@Conchobar-Ghabra]

WHOOT! YAY@@AnonymityA

[@tabby73]

YES!!!

[@TheLastServantOfNito]

this comment is AWESOMEE

[@ricko3363]

Wh0tt? YAYAYAY

[@Metanauris]

This comment is still awesome

[@TheMarshmallowMushroom]

something about you saying "woowoowoo" in a completely monotone voice is just hilarious to me

[@squirrelcoom]

This is the voice of the excitement for life I have some days

[@IG7799-c4u]

He sounds like a generic text to speech bot reading out someone's comment during a twitch stream.

[@rx-heaven8934]

Sounds like TTS.

[@FunkyNutBlast2005]

This vid rlly reminds me so much of Mr.Tortilla who constantly comments on the claire de lune video that has alot of views

[@kornsyrup2]

joeyworld tour reference 😱

[@GollyHogger]

Came for the creeps, stayed for the feels. It's not often you hear about positive stuff like this, glad I watched

[@TinchoX]

I couldn't agree more 😮 😊

[@laurapaivab]

This has been the most wholesome "rabbit hole" video I've ever watched. I wasn't expecting this at all, and, to be honest, I kind of needed something like this, because I wasn't doing well today myself. I think Picsmics might be a genuinely nice person and I'm glad they're doing well. ☺️

[@feliciagaffney1998]

*hugs!*

[@laurapaivab]

@feliciagaffney1998 thanks 🥰🥰🥰 sending hugs to you as well!

[@cosmicparsec9463]

Ainda não vi o vídeo todo, mas seria picmics4 brasileiro? Já que a risada "kk" é de origem brasileira, suponho que ele seja BR.

[@laurapaivab]

@@cosmicparsec9463 eita, boa pergunta. Eu não tinha pensado nisso!

[@cecilia686]

@@cosmicparsec9463kk é a abreviação para okok em inglês mas ele pode ser brasileiro tb

[@vodkasvoice]

This reminds me of the kids who would roleplay together in the comments of book sales online, or the kids who get all their tumblr and twitter posts they can find through pinterest when everything else is blocked or they aren't allowed to access other websites. Humans finding outlets wherever they can for their feelings and creativity, anonymously confiding things they can't to anyone in their real life. It makes me wanna cry hearing about how kind people were towards this person. What started off as a very bizarre thing that looked like a troll ended up simply being someone lonely who thought they'd found a public yet private place to voice their thoughts, and they ended up finding a loving community of people who want them to do well in life. Sometimes, the internet is good.

[@Dreezie]

Beautifully said

[@Aerith_GainsBro]

Agreed. There’s a lot of negative stuff on the internet but things like this really overshadow it from time to time and restore some hope for humanity. At least for me

[@PolumbiusTheThird]

erm... tails would be an empath... so typical... ugh...

[@saturationstation1446]

no matter how awful it may seem sometimes, the internet has been the single most positive thing to have ever happened to the human species. never before could we communicate this much with each other. never before did humans have the capacity to gain the ability to see virtually any information without an environmentally forced bias and we never had the opportunity to access conflicting information to those forced biases before too. the internet is basically the closest thing to an actual real life religious experience. it gave us access to our humanity when delusional inbr3d maniacs sought to have total control over what people were allowed to learn and what people were allowed to discuss. the internet is the first and only time humans have ever had a widespread autonomy over any aspect of their lives.

[@dzydzy101]

haha i used to always use pintrest to save twitter and tumblr posts

[@jaffa3717]

Ok but his metaphor of him talking to the void and hearing nothing back, but suddenly hearing the echoes of love (new positive comments) after 15 years of commenting in an empty section actually kinda got me a little emotional. Hope this fella is doing well

[@prod_cio]

could you imagine hte last 15 years of your life you visit a website theres no change then all of a sudden theres everything

[@-xxMelissaxx-]

​@@prod_cio it's like shouting into the void for 15 years and suddenly hearing a voice shouting back at you saying "hey little buddy, I know I'm not supposed to say anything back but, are you ok? You're not alone."

[@cbtsavage8802]

oh my goodness this is amazing

[@EveBatStudios]

"It was echos into the void, and I think I found some comfort in nothing echoing back, other than the sound of a familiar piece of music." I cried.

[@LukeVader77]

Same 😭

[@disclose_beauty]

Yes this man is poetic af . I dont get how people here in the comments call him the R word or like he have some kind of intelligent problems , he seems normal if not above normal people, pretty smart

[@itsbunic3856]

He has a way with words, especially with that last essay he wrote

[@T_hardy]

Cringe

[@alexramirez4723]

Honored to be like number 1,000

[@astrangerdestiny6588]

I'm not going to lie, I was just watching this as a background video whilst working in Blender, but ended up in actual tears by the end, this is such a heart-warming and saddening story. I hope picsmics4 all the best in life.

[@ZEPHAINEx]

Me too 😭

[@mrfoodskater]

You actually need to touch grass

[@CoffeeRobin-cs1nf]

And how about you stop judging people for finding something heart warming? @@mrfoodskater

[@sethmadlad5573]

@@mrfoodskater SORRY past that point. if you know what the word. retopology means. touching grass is too dangerous

[@ThatGoober]

Lol bro dang-

[@kyleag86]

its crazy to see how he lost that childlike innonance once life started to kick off through youtube comments. i wish him nothing but the best.

[@Sharpless2]

The fact that this happened at all is sad, really damn sad. Life is nothing but generating revenue to be able to continue generating revenue.

[@Conchobar-Ghabra]

Might as well get hella good at it@@Sharpless2

[@caitlyn.kiramman]

I remember once looking back at some of my really old texts and posts from when I was a kid and thinking, wow I was so embarassing and obnoxious with the way I typed, smileys and all caps and the whole jazz. When I look back now all I see is blissful innocence and excitement that I've grown to forget and can't recognize in myself anymore

[@shaheer_04]

@@caitlyn.kiramman Same here. The way people talked to each other on the internet was far more innocent pre 2010 or so in general.

[@cMind607]

@@caitlyn.kirammanDamn damn damn.. I’ve been unable to put that feeling into words. Ty

[@TalCat]

i have a friend that passed away in 2007. to this day, i still go to the message board where we met, leave her messages, comment on how life is for both me and the actor we are a fan of. i know that no one will ever read these messages, i know that she cannot see them, and i know that the board does not even remember her. but it feels like i'm able to be open and free about anything i want to say. i used to stay up for hours at night chatting with her about tv shows, the actor, and life in general. she was such a special person that anytime i get news, i want to immediately run and tell it to her. i really feel for this person, because they found comfort somewhere and went with it. it's really hard to be lonely.

[@nightcoreeclub]

❤❤

[@antichristp0rnostar]

that’s beautiful. just because of your words, i at least know of her existence now. you’re kind of like her legacy, you know?

[@SalveASMR]

I'm sure that she is happy for you and remembers all of your good times... Hang on in there ❤

[@rajveerkanojiya2985]

​@@antichristp0rnostar 🥺bro just stop everyone is making me tear

[@igoryanga]

I shed a tear reading it. It is so special

[@chumiiart]

Pics mics 4 is literally doing what I have been afraid to do for YEARS. There's a handful of videos here on YT that I have been going back to over and over throughout the years bc they help me a lot emotionally, I just never left any comments because I always thought peeps would think I'm insane, but man, PicsMics didn't care. He just does it. Kudos to you, my man. Keep up with the comments. Hope things get better for him.

[@V0Y463R]

Me with old h3h3 and filthy frank videos.

[@User-jr7vf]

No need to be afraid of what others will think because you aren't showing your real name nor your location in your KZbin account.

[@Fae7Rose]

Yooo same

[@AtarAsterlayna]

Ahhh same.

[@snakejuce]

Dude you have an anonymous account.......

[@seducedbysasquatch]

I have OCD so this somewhat resonates with me. I often have beats, phrases, quotes, etc. from videos, games, shows, and songs play in my head all the time (intrusive thoughts). any moment my mind isn't occupied this happens. i've always loved shitpost style memes, probably stemming from me repetitively watching ytps in elementary school. i do the same thing now, i become obsessed with certain phrases or melodies and i have to search it up and watch it. sometimes it's cathartic, like with old school runescape music barraging into my brain. when i go and listen to the music, it brings me back to my childhood when i would play the game with my older brother, we would have so much fun.

[@lunactiathemoth]

relatable tbh...

[@SuperGamingHouse]

holy crap i thought this was normal, this happens to me so often

[@seducedbysasquatch]

it's more common than you would think but i feel like it's typically only tied to those with ASD and such. woke up this morning with a gwen stefani song blaring in my head for 30 mins straight lmfaoo, pure torture@@SuperGamingHouse edit: got an ASD diagnosis today from a psychiatrist. 😭

[@Lastofhiskind-00]

Bruh I also have beats in my head tf! That's not normal?

[@IsuiGtz]

I am an autistic person, support level 2, with absolutely debilitating OCD. What is called "monotropism" is at the core of autism, and when it comes mixed with OCD... you have no idea. I don't show emotions, I have them, I have empathy, it's just that I don't know how to put them out of my brian: so this video made me cry, on the inside, because I somehow felt seen by that mysterious person. I swear I live in the past. All the media I consume. The videos I go back to. The music. Time and time and time again and I don't get bored of it all, in fact, I need it to be that way. It's... like air to my lungs. I could have been him/her.

[@IG7799-c4u]

I'm just so glad that Drazen never turned off the comments, and took this in a good way.. because I know that some people probably would have just got sick of the comments and either blocked Picsmics or turned off the comments.

[@qwopiretyu]

Truly.

[@goofygoober7050]

That would've been so upsetting

[@UnLiMiTEDrX]

Let that man cook

[@TheGoober019]

It would be understandable if he did turn it off, but i think drazen either just enjoy these "troll" comments or doesnt have notificiations on, so he doesnt know about the comments until he checks it.

[@babayega1717]

Was thinking about the same. Bro felt *it* even if he didn't know it at the time.

[@AbyssalWaste001]

not gonna lie im crying at the "it is as if the 15 years of echos came ringing back at once" i feel so much pain for the loneliness that he felt. (Edit: that's the most likes I've gotten lol)

[@Jamdouglass]

i know i cried at the same line

[@karebear804]

Me too, man. Me too.

[@MissMega75]

same I did not go into this video expecting it to be so emotional 😭

[@eyevix]

i got chills when i herd that

[@toolworks]

The man is a poet. What an unexpected turn.

[@kingofthegrill]

"I almost died last night. This video is my only friend." I'm not crying, you're crying.

[@Bowser2532]

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@_.rens._]

Nan Im Dying

[@angel_of_rust]

no u

[@davidtatum8682]

Dude was just putting his thoughts out into the ether. I don't necessarily think he was looking for a response. Heartwarming.

[@Juuxr]

Definitely wasn't, the owner of the channel showed that he/she was uncomfortable with it and he/she didn't even bothered stopping lol

[@oo_wais]

**looking for picsmics4 in the comment section** 👀

[@HotTakeAndy]

Same. 😅

[@cMind607]

Same lmao. When the vid ended I asked myself, wonder if he left a comment? 🤣 maybe one day.

[@lincekawaiilindi5422]

FRFR

[@apxlloastro888]

yup

[@brookeschell4634]

Thank you for sharing this story! The internet catches a lot of shade for facilitating negativity and it's essential for the human spirit to be reminded how much genuine selfless love is shared here as well

[@yved2k]

The evolution of his grammar and how it changes throughout his comments show the times we were living in. In 2008-2010 that was whole different time for internet grammar 🤣

[@OrangeYTT]

True, you can see him drop the cringe 2009 emoticons (like XD) after a few years.

[@UBvtuber]

@@OrangeYTT or the O.o emoticon, that was a certified weeb classic.

[@strechemall]

​@@UBvtuberdon't forget ^_^

[@faronomus1589]

@@OrangeYTT XD cringe now? I always see emojis more cringe than emoticons

[@salvadormuro7346]

XD oh no 💀 I feel eld

[@a_tree5793]

Fuck man this is making me emotional. Yeah it's a bit strange this one video resonated with him to such a profound extent but his entries really just highlight how resolute and steadfast the human soul can be even when faced with odds that seem insurmountable. There's so, so much beauty in this world and if a simple rock band video provides you with that sense of awe, so be it. Keep er goin

[@accidentalpatient4152]

Clearly was joking, it’s not that deep

[@shuttzi9878]

When u have depression and chronic anxiety u view the world as hell, when youre healthy, its heaven.

[@jonathan-si8xd]

bros getting emotional lmao

[@neinbruderja7519]

​@@jonathan-si8xd forgot the "💀" emoji for your 2023 KZbin comment starter pack.

[@Eggzy-b7f]

Oddball

[@ZMS463]

Came into this video not really knowing what it was - something creepy? But no, this was genuinely heartwarming. Thank you for sharing this.

[@Jamdouglass]

the final comments about how all the echoes came back to support him all at once made me cry. that was really powerful

[@JakeWolven]

honestly beautiful writing. They could be a poet

[@RAAZR-]

@@JakeWolven "they" .. this new generation is truly mentally ill.

[@tamtam2939]

Enough to make a grown man cry

[@tyegordon]

Me too that was incredibly beautiful. I was really moved by that.

[@DveTheWve]

I feel the same way

[@Xamsims]

The feels, man. Imagine how many early KZbin videos that still have those types of dedicated daily commentators, keeping in mind some of them aren't as wholesome as picsmics4. Lol. What an absolute legend. So glad to see he's doing well.

[@BuddyLee23]

DID YOU JUST ASSUME PICSMICS4’S GENDER?!? SO TRIGGERED!! 😡🤬🤯

[@navisludge]

@@BuddyLee23 dawg is stuck in 2017 💀 get a better joke

[@mementomori1553]

@@navisludge ok

[@aromanticfranziskavonkarma]

@@BuddyLee23 r/onejoke moment

[@arieson7715]

Wholesome? That dude has to be mentally deranged. But hey, in this day and age, mental illness is wholesome as ever.

[@natalyst]

when people find stuff like this it's really easy for it to slip into negativity and people bashing him for being weird, i'm really glad it didn't and everyone was supportive instead

[@JC-ts5ii]

💯

[@klutzyblubber9877]

He's really lucky he was discovered in 2023 where people are now chill and not like 2016 where that exact scenario might happen.

[@iluvme222]

for real! this is genuinely just such a beautiful thing

[@zigzagintrusion]

Because it’s fucking weird! Spamming the creator with messages of his personal life completely unsolicited (even after the creator said he was scared) is weird. I’m not saying this guy had bad intentions, and I’m glad he had something so close to him all these years but JFC dude.

[@NostalgiCrazy]

@@zigzagintrusion Ok, so it's weird, but is it hurting anyone? People showed love and support and that's all that should matter. Sure, the OP might be annoyed lol, but if he was so bothered he could just disable comments or block the poor lad.

[@dksh3874]

I just discovered this channel (woo, lost media list algorithm) and feel compelled to leave a comment on this video, even if it is 7 months after posting. This is the sort of wholesome online adventure that is rare to occur and even more rare to learn about, and I really want to thank this video's creator for sharing it with us. And for anyone who reads this buried comment: I wish you the best. I hope you find things that bring you joy and comfort in this world that can be so chaotic and cruel. I hope Spotify calls you out on how many times you've heard your favourite song this year, I hope that stuffed bear you dragged everywhere as a kid still gets to live in your bedroom, I hope you find friends that make you laugh, and I hope you come back to your favourite youtube videos when you feel that itch for something familiar.

[@peacelovemetal5197]

I just discovered this video and channel as well. No clue how it ended up on my feed since I only watch a select few video essay channels, none of which are all that related to lost media. But damn I'm glad I saw this. I wish all the best for you as well! I hope you continue to find happiness in all the obscure parts of life!

[@maiahbradley3272]

Back at you friend :)

[@alyasfukename3355]

I also discovered him recently and it's been a blessing. I love the darker rabbit holes but he doesn't take that approach and I think for that reason he finds so many unheard of lost pieces of lore and content. So many videos all have the same mysteries but shaii goes out of his way to find ones that are new and interesting and have a much more wholesome feeling.

[@alyasfukename3355]

Side note on the teddy bear thing- I still get a pang of deep regret over the family heirloom stuffed dog and stuffed lion I had as a child. Lost it when homeless as a teen because I was making bad choices and didn't care about anything. Then I look at the picture collage on my wall that survived all the weather, freezing winters and all of those bad choices and I smile.

[@wrenwoods2642]

you’re so kind. i hope you’re doing well, friend

[@chadcollins6068]

I was amazed by five things: 1. Their persistance 2. The honesty and sincerity 3. Their sense of humour 4. Their absolute mastery at communicating something difficult to express. ( Honesty and sincerity again ). 5. Their ability to shoulder a heavy burden and move forward with a willingness to take all responsibility. A great sense of integrity. Just amazing.

[@mibeckers8852]

you've just described very well

[@GeneralKenobi69420]

It's a guy. It's ok to say "his"

[@chadcollins6068]

@@GeneralKenobi69420 It's equally fine to say their, as has been the case for the entire history of the english language.

[@jocelynneville8504]

​@chadcollins6068 Actually.. saying "their" as a gender neutral, singular term is a pretty new thing. That started when I was a kid (2000s) and we were taught that it's gramatically incorrect. Kind of like how "ain't" was always considered gramatically incorrect but is now in the dictionary. The word "they" went through the same thing. In literally every other country, the term "they" is absolutely always plural. Regardless, I don't really care how people use the word lol

[@PEACEOUTPAT]

I bet there are a ton of people who have been inadvertantly leaving a diary/history in their youtube comments over the years. Obviously over many videos, not just one, but still. This is a more common practice than I'm sure many people have been keen to realize.

[@thewiseowl8804]

Was thinking the same thing. *Especially* on music videos.

[@TheMarshmallowMushroom]

i totally have personally

[@randomtinypotatocried]

I think I've done that a few times, usually while drinking and going through a rough patch

[@rivetsquid8887]

That was the saddest part of Nintendo nuking the original internet checkpoint, all those little lights in the night, gone one day.

[@sonicfanboy3375]

Some guy in the comment section of a video called BRODYQUEST is doing this for 3 years or something

[@thisrandomdude_]

"Today, it is as if the 15 years of echoes all came ringing back at once, and they were more caring, loving, and powerful than anything I ever imagined." Holy shit. The majority of those early comments were a little incoherent tbh, seeing him slowly get more verbose and then drop us with that eloquent _banger_ of a comment with beautiful lines like the one I quoted was _freaking amazing._ What a guy. I truly wish him the best. Edit: Formatting

[@thisrandomdude_]

@Michael Benson Glad we feel the same way :D Thanks for your comment!

[@tyegordon]

Yes that line brought me to tears man. That is so beautiful and heartwarming and I just feel so close with them now. They should really pick up writing as a hobby if they don’t because I’ve never felt a more powerful connection to someone’s words.

[@brettfeinbaum]

@@tyegordon I cried as well. Wow...

[@unicornhuntercg]

That was so wholesome tbh.

[@thisrandomdude_]

@@tyegordon Agreed!

[@rezurrectxd7450]

started out wierd an creepy. Ended with tears of joy. This guy matured over the years and It was truly like a novel of a persons life in comment form. Hope all the best for this guy

[@Gamefreak924]

honestly still pretty weird. I don't wanna be *that* guy but this guy does have a problem. I hope things do continue to get better for him

[@olivercharles2930]

@@Gamefreak924 True. But aside from the strange obsession

[@SmeddyTooBestChannel]

i wish i had as much joy for something in life as this guy has for this video

[@shuttzi9878]

Same...

[@aetherland1883]

@Wyrna shut up delusional bluepiller

[@seokseok9683]

Fucking same. I feel constantly empty and I envy this guy. :(

[@1ztype343]

the time it takes to complain, is time u could be spending on looking for that purpose mate

[@kittens7690]

I usually cry when I see kindness in people. Not everyone have evil intentions

[@Kodeb8]

Yeah I was honestly expecting people to troll the guy and call him a weirdo, I was relieved that they didn't.

[@craftah]

@@Kodeb8 i mean he is a weirdo so that would be correct

[@BBB-to4cc]

The stalker part and the “I don’t mean to be creepy!” part made me sad. Somewhere inside I’m just a really sad and lonely child reaching my hand out trying to connect with others and getting my hand smacked away. We have all felt it. Also, KZbin saved my life too. I had this one KZbin playlist of music I loved, and when my dad passed away I didn’t like any of those songs anymore. They didn’t make me feel the same happiness. I created a new playlist called “I love you daddy” with our favorite songs and it gets me thru hard times. Thanks KZbin for being a part of my story too.

[@Senjamin]

I really relate to that lonely child comment. I'm glad you have a playlist that allows you to still feel connected with your dad.

[@askreternal]

Wow that's beautiful, may your dad rest easy, and may you find moments with him still while listening to the music playlist, I'm sure you are listening together.

[@BBB-to4cc]

@@askreternal thanks so much that means so much to me 🥰

[@lattekawa7005]

May your dad rest in peace and i hope you're doing well, stay safe and healthy 💗

[@-umbrella-5141]

cried a little hehe my dad passed away too maybe i’ll make a playlist for him too…

[@thiagoribeiro2711]

It really be like that when life gets to you. Im glad my man is managing, i dont think the transition from teenager/young adult to a fully responsible adult is talked about enough. People will joke about being hard, unfair but the mental toll and the anguish of wanting to go back to the good old days and realizing things will never be the same, that will forever keep on changing... it can only be experienced. I wish everyone a good one, happy 2024. And for anyone going through what picsmics went through: it does get better, you just need to find yourself in your new world, confident, fearless and kind. Whatever you come up with, it'll work out, just focus and go for it

[@DG-iw3yw]

Or realize that, you are right about how terrible the world is and how any real ideas of freedom where the stories told to children. Even the bricks that make our houses were baked by slaves in pakistan. We should be the change and revolution, not content and complacent in the folleys of our predecessors

[@lelenny7725]

wish youtube would compile every comment i've written in my lifetime into a single document for me to read. i'm kind of interested in the insane amounts of text i must have written on here throughout the years

[@Leeahh]

You can see all your KZbin comment history ya know, click the history tab then comments down the right side

[@larsswig912]

​@@Leeahh oh god. time to roll down a rabbit hole

[@Residentevil1.5]

@@larsswig912 How was the journey down

[@3c2ty]

I'm a watcher, i write rarely.

[@danieldaniels7571]

​@@Leeahh can you do that with the Android app? I only use KZbin with the app.

[@ionut716]

You can see how this guy matured just by reading his comments! The story is so crazy that it's almost unbelievable and even shocking!

[@5uper5kill3rz]

It is a bit strange, I do relate to him coming back to a video and commenting again, I’ve done that myself but usually only once or twice after several years, but the comments were just really odd haha

[@benjamies4136]

​@5uper5kill3rz yup I have a specific freestyle that I went back to, which I commented on and didn't even realize I had commented previously already and was quite shocked

[@CantTellYou]

@@benjamies4136 same on my old acct, and I feel like that probably happens often with ~10 year-old accounts. It’s so easy to forget we watched something before, let alone that we left a comment years ago. The difference is most people aren’t going back to comment religiously 😂 I can kinda see the beauty in the picsmics strategy though... it is something wild about coming across a comment you left years back & being transported back, in a way, to a bit of a memory from that time

[@ELVISofc]

Imagine how fcking wholesome it would be if picsmics and the creator met up and played that song on rockband 😢🥺

[@nashooo5903]

The creator doesn't seem too fond of this "ultimate troll"

[@liminalityy_]

​@@nashooo5903 they don't seem to care either, at this point they probably don't think it's a troll though

[@obesekaren]

it’s creepy. You’re all supporting this creep

[@numbskull4899]

Redditor.

[@BrianGriffin57]

.... . / ..-. --- ..- -. -.. / -- .

[@ungabunga7879]

I didn't expect this video to make me tear up a bit but it did. what a beautiful story, and im glad it has worked out for picsmics

[@samysnes]

This has got to be one of the most wholesome internet stories I've heard. So simple yet so endearing. It's a tiny window into the human psyche. A coming of age story about nostalgia and our vital need for comfort. A place to call home, a place to feel safe and carefree.

[@LikaLaruku]

Picsmics4 should download the video to his hard drive, just in case. You never knw when KZbin is going to take something down for an arbitrary reason, or if it gets a DMCA takedown for music.

[@tablescissors]

Word. 👍🏿

[@TheMatsushitaMan]

I read your comment, went to the video and downloaded it onto my PC for additional safekeeping.

[@UBvtuber]

I did that with the Counter Strike Holla Holla video...... and if you know, then you know exactly why lol

[@fearzstealth]

Bro if youtube would ever take down this video It will vanish all his comments

[@emsparklemoji]

I'll be honest I'm shocked that's not what's already happened

[@glmtwn]

literally crying over picsmics4. ive never heard of this before but it feels insanely good to see that he overcame his struggles and to see his happiness upon returning to so many ppl supporting him. sometimes i love people

[@zisaletter4602]

🤝

[@richardwilliamshare]

First time i saw this video i cried a little at picsmics4's comments. Watched it again today and shed a tear again. Hope he's doing okay.

[@selinnazsur2328]

I'm just utterly fascinated by how complicated and amazing this thing we call "the human experience" can be. It's always the small things that make it so interesting. This dude went through 15 years obsessively commenting on a single video, because that's where he found true sanctuary in a life full of struggle. A moment of nostalgia in a snippet of internet history meant that much for him. And with that genuine expression of his human experience he touched people, brought positivity out of them in a platform where it's so easy to be mean.

[@zekorys]

thank u hal from homestuck, this was a well written comment

[@MyNameIsKayser]

I can relate a bit with this guy. They seem to battle loneliness a lot, finding comfort in just commeting on a video. So glad this story had a happy ending, they deserve some support in life.

[@db9454]

This was such a amazing situation. Somebody starts documenting their life on a random video they like, they go through their ups and downs through the years, random people find out about it and flood them with love and support making the once barren comment section lively again. Thank you for covering this, it may not be as dark or mysterious as the usual content but seeing this definitely made my day slightly better, who knows maybe I'll start commenting on this video for 15 years as well haha.

[@weebgraphy]

Lol you really need to have dedication too

[@fuzzy7644]

You know this isn't even that uncommon. There's a few videos on this website like the one for the water theme of DK Country which people used as a "checkpoint" for their life. There's a beauty to it all. People get the impressive (often rightfully so) that youtube comments are mostly useless but every now and again you get something different. People expressing themselves in surprising ways in a form that is very easy to be forgotten in.

[@Slushe_zALIEN]

popish

[@squidtv9263]

ive been to the DK Country japanese title checkpoint! just randomly popped into my recommended one day

[@WhyDidntIInventYT]

Picsmics4 is one of the most endearing human beings I've ever encountered. Also, the outpouring of love for his shenanigans & life struggles is internet culture at its finest.

[@SPARKRIZZLE]

this is actually so so sweet man. i hope the dude is doing well, he seems like an amazing person. i actually used to do this as a kid, repeatedly commenting on videos over time. it may seem strange, but it really is a personal thing.

[@cupidknives]

yoo hey!

[@MrKite]

I half expected this to turn into some weird, creepy stalker arg thing. Wasn't expecting a wholesome ending.

[@papaversomniferum8508]

i came here expecting an arg or a mental breakdown unfold, not a heartwarming story about a community coming to lift up some stranger they haven’t even seen once in their life. this video genuinely made me so happy rn. i hope this person is doing well!! ❤

[@OscarByrneYT]

Imagine just uploading a video playing a game and being told some guys life story for years

[@irenic_raccoon]

I'd be all there for it ngl. Like yeah dude life sucks tell me more‼‼‼‼ Awh shit u almost died DAYUM THAT SUCKS FR‼‼‼‼💥💥

[@goofboof1284]

Tbh that would make me super happy. You liked this video so much that it was a source of comfort for over a decade and you were comfortable enough to constantly open up about your life and struggles, even if you were sure that no one would care. It would be an honor to post a video that would become a beacon of hope and comfort for someone, even if it wasnt intended to be one💪

[@philidor9657]

I would welcome it as long as it's not creepy tbh. It's a surprisingly intimate look into someone else's life and personal experiences and I would find that interesting if not touching. Knowing my content, as shitty and old as it would be, left enough of an impact on one person to follow them for 15 years and bring them comfort. Kinda wild but in a sweet way.

[@MrRyan-wu4jx]

His life story mostly consists of Wooos and Oh Yeahs I guess.

[@RAAZR-]

Super annoying. Would block him

[@saracha-sauce]

This is one of those internet stories that I'll randomly think about years from now and revisit like a cozy nostalgic memory

[@renerpho]

Funny to think that a video about someone's nostalgic memory could itself become just that.

[@Kenny_Matthews]

I started crying when they talked about their dads passing, and cried continually until it peaked at the last comment. What a beautiful video. I hope they’re doing well.

[@RyzesTechZone]

Really goes to show that something, no matter how small it may seem, can mean the world to some people. Drazen definitely didn't expect it, but they helped someone through the toughest times in their life. All through a simple Rock Band video, i just think thats cool.

[@Sporkmo]

This video got me good. Picsmics4 is about my same age, so the story just really home, and the memory of playing rockband with my friends there at the end of high school hit hard. Good times, thank you

[@simplymusic4998]

@Zuko nah picsmics6

[@j-skullz]

I have the same thing with the game Resident Evil 4, it was one of the only games my best friend had on the Wii so we would just play it over and over again in the late 00s-early 10s until I'm pretty sure we wore out the disc or something because it glitched out on us. We're still best friends, but we're adults now with adult problems and responsiblities, we don't get to hang out and talk every day like when we were teenagers. In fact we live in different parts of the country so we're lucky if we get to hang out more than once a year. But I sometimes go back and listen to the soundtrack of that game and remember when things seemed simpler, the save room music especially makes me feel like I'm straight back in her parents living room eating pizza. I haven't been leaving comments for 15 years but still like I get it. It's like a moment of time in your life you just wanna go back and hang out in every now and then especially when things get tough.

[@katmipp]

man this made me cry. we will never have the times we did as a kid. we can do the same things we did as kids but it wont feel the same, we dont view the world as we did before. everything was simpler. i miss it.

[@renerpho]

All we can do is cherish the memories, and be kind. Take care.

[@shuttzi9878]

It sucks, especially if u suffer from a mental illness when as a kid u were fine and happy

[@Flaccidtetris]

Absolutely. The memories of the past are what keep me going, and I hold on to any nice things I like about present times. Who knows what you'll reminisce about in the future

[@Heroball299]

Far out, why is everything crying over this. It's just some silly guy doing this for attention

[@shuttzi9878]

@@Heroball299 attention? Bro that video comment section was like a safe place for him, not just a notepad but the place where he can return to whenever he feels down or lost, to feel safe once again.

[@domonicsdaniel4497]

wow, it really is rare for a "weird KZbin commenter"-video/case to end so wholesomely, but damn am I feeling good now for this guy! Glad everyone also came together to support him rather than ridicule his antics! I wish nothing but the best for this guy in life, and props to all the commenters who awesomely made such supportive comments for him!

[@dawn9780]

I found this video really interesting, he was going through a very stressful time in his life, and found the rock band vid picking his mood up everytime. I'm really glad it did and I'm so happy he is also in a better place in his life today because he seems like a nice genuine guy. And all the comments of concern 15 years later is incredible. Good luck.❤

[@PreservationPunk]

I thought this was going to be creepy, but turned out to be very heartwarming.

[@joeblack4634]

There’s something so profound about how a video like this can have such a deep effect on someone. Even if it’s as simple as being a reminder of a fond childhood memory, a reminder of a small accomplishment that brought them joy, we might never know why this video specifically, but it’s really sweet

[@fluffcake]

This one’s actually very bittersweet, with it starting out with normal KZbin craziness before spiraling into what a community can do to just a single person and help them

[@NicestPS5]

My man was on a 15 year long Rock Band KZbin video binge and it was a complete rollercoaster of emotion and excitement the entire time

[@TacticalDeux]

"I don't know what to say" says picsmics4 after writing such a beautifully poetic piece of literature.

[@derkaderkajihadderka]

Did not expect this to be such an emotional rollercoaster. Something about that guy hit me deep, just remembering all the weird stuff like that i did when i was younger. Never be afraid to be weird, especially if weird gets you through the day.

[@JustAPlayOnWords]

This. This was so fascinating and unexpectedly heartwarming to watch! Great job on the video!

[@AngrySuzy_AngrySuzy]

This is so wholesome! People can be so kind to one another. Wish they would always choose to be this way

[@gelovallejo2078]

Internet is surely amazing isn't it? I hope Picsmics is still doing alright. I wish him all the best in life. This video is the proof that music saves lives

[@SuperSealMan777]

I'm still going through the EXACT job struggle buddy boy went through. Over 300 not a single bite. Feel his pain and am very very glad he's finally found a stable point in life. It gives me and I'm sure the many others in similar situations some well deserved hope. Great vid!

[@FrenkTheJoy]

Over 300 applications, I bet you wish you had a dollar for every time someone called you lazy and told you to just get a job. Really funny how all these businesses keep blaming worker shortages for everything but then you talk to people and everyone has the same story of applying to literally hundreds of jobs and not even getting an interview at almost any of them. I don't even have any words of encouragement. I hope you'll get a job soon, but it sucks in the meantime.

[@SuperSealMan777]

@@FrenkTheJoy Yes sir. I'd be RICH at this point man. Ohhhh yeah the workers crisis is absolutely a scam, and it only makes us people unemployed but actively seeking employment in our fields to the point of literal insanity and mental health degradation, feel bad because "oh boy everyone is hiring and everyone else has a job... Right?" Honestly I'm happy you don't have words of encouragement, it's actually quite refreshing. I'm tired of all the positivity, it actually makes me feel worse at this point

[@tricouleur9689]

I don’t know how many applications I sent but I’ve been looking for a job for 4 months now. It’s tough and sometimes it gets depressing but I got to keep moving forward

[@SuperSealMan777]

@@tricouleur9689 I wish you luck and may your success not take as long as I've been waiting so far. It's so annoying. Keep on keeping on

[@greatstationsyt]

I was about to leave a similar comment. I’ve applied to so many jobs it would be difficult to estimate. Hundreds. It’s pretty hard to keep trying especially when people try to make me feel lazy for being trapped on disability when the only reason I don’t have a job is…I don’t have a job.

[@GamingRoadkill]

This is so sweet. The video helps him cope, and it’s like he’s been leaving a public diary for KZbin to archive forever and for people to see. It’s a weird legacy to leave but it’s a legacy nonetheless. I wanna be his friend

[@elemaeyo]

i was just browsing for creepy documenataries and now I'm crying for picsmics. love u man. ur cool!

[@buck2817]

My assumption is the average KZbin user isn’t of the age where a strong connection to rock band would be resonant with them, but I do think it’s hard to understate how transcendent it was to just hang out with your friends and play a full band on rock band for a few hours. I have never really enjoyed a KZbin video as much as the video’s subject, but I totally understand yearning for those days again.

[@GuyNamedSean]

I'm probably around four years younger that picsmix and I still remember spending the entire summer of 2011 playing GH and RB with my friends.

[@TheSultan1470]

Yeah, rhythm games used to be huge with very devoted fanbases.

[@clouds-rb9xt]

@@GuyNamedSean How old is he?

[@TheExigency]

​@@clouds-rb9xt Well if he was in high school 15 years ago he must be around his early 30s now

[@proterotype]

I love this sh*t man I don’t know why but these obscure stories about quirky people doing weird stuff repetitively makes me happy

[@heathertaylor8904]

I just want to enjoy ONE THING in life half as much as picsmics4 enjoyed this video. Edit: didnt expect to be tearing up by the end when i left this smartass comment but wow. Its weird how a total stranger can affect you this deeply. I think we've all been picsmics at some point in our lives. Hope they're doing well out there.

[@jaysant6958]

I think it’s less about the thing and more of who we are that doesn’t let us enjoy something continually like that.

[@melanie7678]

I love that this mystery ends wholesomely, and it makes me want to hug and applaud picsmics. My life and mental health after highschool also crumbled into this sense of deep agony in existence and feeling trapped in this dreadful cycle caused by my own poor habits and choices - coping with escapism, stuck reminiscing on the past when I felt i lived at my peak, and dissociating in the present wanting to not exist at all. Didn’t help that I felt so lonely all the while and yearned for close meaningful friendships all my 4 years in college. I would put effort but nothing felt reciprocated and nothing matched the community and joy i felt like that from my high school. It sounds like his personal life affected his college years and his time as a young adult finding his place in this world. Honestly, it can also be vice versa. My point is college can really take a mental toll on some people, feel discouraging, take a dark turn, and blur their perception on how they feel about themselves, ultimately affecting every other aspect of their life. I empathized with picsmics’s comments from start to finish, feeling close to home with the way his tone shifts throughout the years. I’m so glad he managed to see and feel the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s inspiring and makes me feel happy to know you can get yourself out of the hole you dug or found yourself in, and that in some ways things do get better. And that the self work and determination don’t go unnoticed. I’d pick him a million special flowers if I could 🫶🏻

[@BlackFlagHeathen]

I was expecting this to get weird, creepy, scary, larp-y, etc. I’m pleasantly surprised it ended up being so wholesome. I wish Picsmics, Drazen, and everyone else involved in this all the best. ❤️

[@ef.1411]

This is the type of stuff people eventually make documentaries about. Just so unique, emotional and at the end of the day....wholesome. You start off by thinking this is gonna go very, very wrong, and then it's just some dude trying to get by just like the rest of us.

[@gazer99]

Went from watching 9/11 truth documentaries earlier to ending the night with this! what a journey it’s been

[@asherjacknick]

This is a documentary 😂

[@TimthePhilosiraptorExhale]

Thic video made me bawl and cry... I am still crying. To the prolific poster, your simple yet massive love for a simple video is truly breathtaking for a musician and artist like me... your love for a creation is exactly why some of us create without recognition or money, we do it because we love to do it, but we release it because of people like you, knowing that creations can impact a life so deeply as that video has impacted yours... is what keeps some of us from not giving up. All my love

[@santtu6930]

Well said!

[@Masterofchodes]

T H I C C

[@cutiebunnyamber3447]

thicc video 😭

[@garance8353]

I love this. As someone who watches a lot of creepy/horrir internet content, I find it refreshing coming across such wholesome stories once in a while. Picsmics seems like a really kind person + the commenters being generally nice to him really bring a smile to my face. Thank you for sharing. W00t yayayaya

[@MaybeAnnatar]

I've been watching the creepy/dark side of KZbin content like this and this video was like a really nice reset switch.

[@jameso2290]

This reminds me of old GameFAQs forums. You could search up really obscure games and find that the forum had only like 3 users who were just friends using it as their own personal chat room. Discussion wouldn't be about the game at all. It was sort of a "thing to do" to hunt down obscure games with empty forums and "claim" it as your own space. I wonder if people still do this today. I havent used GameFAQs in over a decade, as KZbin kinda replaced all that.

[@NitwitsWorld]

some do but it's rare because some sites are unknown I know one forum site for some former reviewer that became some big worker at a huge phone company. I won't say which one that is for legal reasons but he has a Twitter account and none of his phone fans knew he used to review movies or games on his channel back in the day

[@kyarumomochi5146]

Discord and reddit killed FAQs so yeah...

[@jayguero2123]

@@NitwitsWorld wat

[@liljatupsu]

My online home since 2018 has been a small game studio forum. It's not exactly dead (currently 7 people online), people come and go (I miss so many of them), but the game most of us originally joined for isn't being updated anymore. What's funny is that the forum is divided into 4 sections, one for each game as well as an off-topic one, and no one from the two other games' forums ever interacts with the people in the off-topic or first game sections. There's a little overlap between the communities of game 1 and game 3, but the area for game 2 is a whole other (likely much less active) community there and we treat it like the shadow lands from the Lion King.

[@NitwitsWorld]

@@jayguero2123 a former reviewer from channel awesome worked in a big phone company won’t say yet

[@massimosavino6929]

I’ve never cried so long watching a KZbin video, his personal struggles so similar to my own, I was horrified this video would end like most others of this type, with picmics disappearing and the world never knowing his story. He made it though no matter what he kept going thanks to that video.

[@botezsimp5808]

Ug.. you cried over this? Pathetic..

[@justtrynalive]

i kinda get him. nostalgia is really a strange feeling and if you are going through something it makes you remember the old times and you end up wanting to go back there again and again. as someone who was growing up in the early 2000s as well i totally get this guy. friends go seperate ways for the most part you wanna keep reliving those old innocent memories again and again. i hope hes doing well

[@magivenderstudios]

i do get this nostalgia either and had been lonely and not a very interactive person but glad that this person gets the loving community

[@punkbjork]

obsessed with the serious monotone british narrator voice reading out the "WHOAOH YAYAYAY WOOT" like siri

[@neizanmendez6317]

If you ever go to Debussy's Claire de Lune and pick the first one, you'll find so many people doing their journals, one of them is about 790ish days in. Those people I admire so much, because they've found what he found many years ago, comfort.

[@Rose_Valcourt]

i love that so much ❤

[@seva7500]

da bussy 😳😳😳🤤🤤🤤🤤

[@davidaugustofc2574]

​@@seva7500First thoughts as well

[@IosaJ]

da bussy 😳😳😳🤤🤤🤤🤤

[@skeleton819]

why are people using youtube as a journal?

[@beetlehorn]

I unironically think that more KZbin comments should be like this. Where the video itself is just a place to hang out and catalogue your thoughts.

[@Ilovecats72836]

This has to be one of the most interesting and wholesome stories I have ever heard on youtube! I honestly went from laughing at their comments to almost crying as they progressively became more personal.

[@user_abuser_o7]

Perfect example of how we can sometimes not understand the impact we have on someone's life, even the little things matter to someone

[@chrislife1101]

Even as a viewer, watching this felt like a journey through life, the rollercoaster of emotions... Damn what will the next 15 years of my life be like

[@Odd-Bike]

his comments went from young kid having fun to adult struggling. Makes me sad, but beautiful

[@honeybeenation]

It's so touching to see how many people went to support him. You hear so many stories about strangers bullying those who are already struggling once there's a spotlight on them... To know this ended with support rather than beating someone down for kicks has me crying; I'm so happy it turned out positive and that they're doing alright.

[@dellasx]

The fact that this guy is still commenting till this day is actual dedication. This is crazy!!!!!

[@envy_ous]

as somebody who has deeply struggled with mental health in the past, it is so heartwarming and uplifting to see such a positive ending. my prayers go out to pics and their family, as well as everyone who supported them on this journey.

[@astralchimera]

this is seriously the most touching video and i didnt expect it that way? i thought it would go a much creepier route but the way it went towards growing up and having support around you when you didnt for a long time, at least to this extent, is extremely touchy for me and really beautiful. i seriously hope the guy is doing well now, i cant express how much this warmed my heart and my hope for the future. thank you for covering this beautiful oddity ♥️♥️♥️

[@sabinesixsixsix]

This reminds me of last year when i lost my tumblr blog which ive had for 10 yrs, i went to the wayback machine to see if someone had archived it not expecting to find anything. Someone had made a screenshot of my blog from the morning after one of the worst experiences of my life. I had a bad trip, a breakup, a falling out with my friend group and lost my faith… all at the same time! Im not even sure what the intentions were to archive my breakdown, but to think that someone out there read my 21 yr old manic ramblings about god and existence and felt the need to make sure this documentation of my life couldnt be lost to time… it makes me feel like its all gonna be okay.

[@NitwitsWorld]

ironically back when Tumblr banned NSFW art due to Apple I used the wayback machine to save old tumblr blog of an lost media webcomic that never got made and it was pretty cool I saved what almost became lost media

[@renerpho]

It's strange to think what a difference one random act of kindness can make.

[@zaczoe.bustamante]

Can you link Wayback machine?

[@isabella-a-a-a]

@@zaczoe.bustamante google "Wayback Machine"

[@bornanagaming3329]

@@NitwitsWorld do you still have it