a very bad year.

[@1hourmusic69]

My brother, one true friend is always better than a thousand fake friends

[@1hourmusic69]

And remember everything that happens has a reason for it to happen and is meant to happen no matter if it’s good or bad and it will get better so never lose hope or give up even if everything seems hopeless

[@Thatoneartgirlanna]

Real.

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@harambelover445]

kanye reference

[@kainoahthefrog]

Gonna get that tattooed on my eye

[@violent_mooshroom9255]

Honestly, I think Techno would be so damn proud of Tommy and how far he's gotten

[@KKSandow]

Yeah

[@2miligrams]

i know he would

[@lavender_skies23]

man you’re gonna make me cry

[@FallWind08]

Fr he would

[@owlsliveintr33s]

LMAO I THUOGHT U WROTE FAT INSTEAD OF FAR

[@Boffy]

Can totally relate Tommy, it’s a lot, you’re not alone

[@cheddarsunchipsyes8144]

Fr

[@lololol_jakeee]

Ye

[@Edwarn]

Fr

[@emsproviero]

Play cities skylines again those videos were so funny

[@CigaretteEater-]

I threw up reading this comment, I eat too much

[@EleanoRg7z]

Dude, I'm almost in tears right now. I believe you are the most mature KZbinr out there right now. You've accomplished so much in such a short period of time that I can't believe you're able to throw it all into the internet abyss. Your experience is very similar to mine, except that yours appears to have a coherent cause. I'm still a kid (17), and I still have that light, that little voice that keeps me up at night, convincing me that I should rewrite algebra for four hours at 1:00 a.m. But as I get older, approaching 18, I begin to question, "Am I ever going to amount to anything?" "Will I ever do anything noticeable?"... Something tangible?" And I can't even begin to convey how terrified I am that those responses will be negative. It's like a tsunami of thoughts is rushing over me, and I'm simply floating in the current. In the midst of it all, I stare blankly into the salty water that is my cytoplasm. I hope you read this because I've been writing this remark for approximately double the length of the video. Thank you for this! Tom (yep, we share the same name).

[@TotallyRobloxTime]

did you just copy this from another comment and change some words?

[@Asydes]

seeing the bed a close friend who was only a few years older than you, only a few years fro where you'll be, passed away has to be one of the hardest things especially at such a young age

[@bella_daze3092]

I agree😭😭

[@gamingwithlyana9799]

agreed.

[@Gelatomcyt]

Dream is better than Tomy 😈

[@Gelatomcyt]

I'm da best.

[@Voidi-Void]

​@@Gelatomcytplease tell me you're a bot. I so very want to believe this isn't coming from a real person with real opinions.

[@eveesoot]

“turns out, i have 5 friends.” damn, that hits hard.

[@ShadyRK9]

And the video he had with him a few months ago is now gone and almost every video with "him" in it is now also removed. It's over!

[@starlight444]

Does anyone know what happened with Ranboo? I've been living under a rock for the past year

[@AkkkakKka]

​@@starlight444 nothing bad, I think they just don't hang out anymore

[@masochistz]

@@starlight444I’m assuming they’re still friends, just not so close n stuff after sorry ending bc yk n all. plus, ran moved back to the US n tommy is touring n all so they may not have time to like talk n all much anymore, same with ran n aimsey as I noticed they also don’t really interact on screen either anymore

[@cawingcrows2072]

​@@masochistz makes sense, yea Sometimes friendships dont work out bc of distance and such, no matter how sad it is 😔

[@cixrarose0]

“I liked being a kid, I liked it a lot.” We all feel the way you do Tommy because we’re growing up. We all miss those amazing feelings as kids. This lowkey made me cry

[@lazerbwa3979]

6:49 "It just feels like there's something wrong now." For me, personally, it feels like something's missing. I went through a lot of similar things this year. It's like there's a chunk of my life I had worked so hard to build from the ground up that just faded away this year.

[@Epsonea_482]

Sometimes it’s best to self-reflect and recognise the good times with the shit times. Here’s hoping 2025 goes much better and leaves the bad in the past

[@universaltoons]

yes

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@Sayid-al-Furat]

@@Epsonea_482 There are no good times this year.

[@YousefMohamedAbdulMoniem]

@Sayid-al-Furat you always gonna spew out depressed replkes at every comment here?

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@mika-tu6ld]

2024 has really put everyone in the trenches. i’ve had a rough time with getting sexually assaulted twice - one by someone i thought i was friends with - breaking up with the first guy who i had genuinely liked, and finding out a lot of my friends weren’t as supportive as i thought they originally were. my anxiety has been at peak this whole year and im so glad this terrible year is almost over. time for a clean slate and i wish everyone the best of luck, and hopefully a much better year

[@bigman7598]

Damn that really sucks I hope next year goes a lot better for you and Tommy!

[@NoahDube-l9h]

😅that sucks sorry for what happened😢

[@wuvc]

lol

[@idotexe3005]

@@wuvc i bet your parents love you

[@GamingFun-mf5zw]

YOU GOT WHAT TWICE?

[@THErealAJ79210]

Same Tom, my year has been horrible, hope next year will be good for everyone

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@larryalvares1369]

Same here :(

[@Glinglemcflingle]

@@DontReadMyPicture478 shut the hell up we are reflecting and you are like begging

[@Xxfaintvoidxx]

Fr though this year was baddd

[@Grummble]

We will be doing better next year because… yeah 2024 sucks

[@mikeraphone7868]

7:20 My favorite part was when Tommy said "I'm innit" then he innited all over the place

[@muhammadlatifbinmuhammadju2027]

its inniting time

[@Lizz_and_her_guitar]

These new videos that tommy has been posting really made me realize how much of a wall I felt between him and the audience. The laughter, happiness, energy, it's all amazing. But it's oddly nice to open these new videos and talk to the real guy, not the persona. I wish you the best tommy. Lets all have a better year together

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@DontReadMyPicture-c2p]

*Don't read my name....*

[@theumpteenthfandom]

honestly, me too, i never noticed it until your comment though, wow- but yeah! cheers to 2025!!

[@coriakacoron5851]

no way 2 out of 3 comments down here are bots

[@scpWyatt]

6:33 I have been summoned! Hope all is well, chommie. Growing up in Hollywood, I've had the luck to talk to and see a lot of child actors growing up, and how much of an odd and isolating feeling it could be. It feels like nobody could truly understand or relate to what's going on, and it's hard af. But if I've learned anything, I can tell you this, having 5 friends is 5 great reasons you'll be able to get through it. If nobody else has you, even yourself, they will.

[@OmegaCT55555]

Wise words

[@emsproviero]

Love your content Wyatt I miss your streams

[@Dontreadmypicture7890]

Don't read myy namee

[@Alna38329]

Wait, why is meeting child actors an odd feeling?

[@scpWyatt]

@@Alna38329 lol no I meant growing up as a child actor is an odd feeling, from what I've been told by a few I've known. From what I understand, it's common that it can feel hard to relate to other kids growing up, and you're not sure what life experiences you have growing up are shared with other people around you: adults around you just using you for money (or WORSE, as is the case for hollywod..), people gaining your trust and pretending to be your friends just to abandon you, and even non-fame related difficulties in life that everyone eventually experiences (losing a loved one, breaking up some someone you love, having a serious injury or illness) can be distroted just because you're "in the spotlight."

[@lizzscreamss4410]

I agree Tom, what a horrible year. I lost my best friend of about 9 years due to cancer. My parents stopped loving me. I’ve dug myself into a depression and self harm hole. I’ve stopped caring about myself. I had heart failure and got resuscitated. My achievements give me no means anymore, I’ve mostly given up. I just sit here, crying and watching KZbinrs. But people like you, who remind me that I’m not alone, ones who share their story, ones who relate, ones who acknowledge us and understand us, help me. Thank you Tom. 🧡

[@Swiftninjatrev]

Stay strong sis 💪

[@allielikespasta]

im so sorry for your loss 💗

[@NoahDube-l9h]

Im sorry for you but I I also lost a family member🥺

[@mushrooms6143]

Go on a walk and befriend a squirrel! I have an informant who tells me that squirrels help! (genuinely though, you're so strong, and you survived this year, so well done)

[@Willow-jx1sp]

You got this ❤

[@Lured07]

My year's been pretty overwhelming too, Tom. Now I wont say "I get it." because I dont and I can't think anyone ever will. You've gone through things that are hard to view optimistically, and then you found yourself staring at a dead end. I reached that end at about end of November this year, and I just decided to walk back the way I came, take it all in to understand that yes, this all *did* happen to me and it *did* affect me. But I realized that nothing will ever go as you want it to, and there's absolutely nothing you can do about it.... except move forward. I'm glad to see you've recovered from loss and stress, and I'm grateful that you are so willing to share your story to help benefit the lives of your viewership. And yes, Tom. You never know where you are in the story. And that's the beauty of life.

[@kingkramer]

Hitting 20 is a rollercoaster. You get a spicy little existential crisis, and on top of that it's a high-risk time for friend groups splitting up - either due to everyone scattering for studies or work, or because internal issues tear them apart. I was taking a gap year away from my hometown during my 20th year, and while I was gone, my long time consistent friend group (we'd been together since secondary school, most of us even since primary school) took a wrong turn and essentially split in two. There were a couple of us who'd still hang out with both of the new branches, but many good years of memories and security were history, just like that. This came on top of covid and my already heavy depression. The tips you give are good. At the time, I'd write down my emotions, musings and spirals as poetry, and music became a huge factor in keeping me sane. As I'm rapidly closing in on 25, I've gotten better at taking the occasional walk in nature. There's a forest trail going pretty much directly from my campus to my tiny student flat, which I occasionally opt for if I have the time. Look forward to your quarter life crisis when you hit your mid-twenties! It's a wild ride!

[@Dontreadmypicture7890]

Don't read myy namee

[@homeyworkey]

its so fucked that you can just lose friendships like that and it just kinda disappears... like you can have work friends but that isnt the same really (and what if you work with older people), even though loneliness is the pandemic of our generation, we dont figure out ways to make relationships and make time for friends and stuff...

[@typxcal]

i have to say this has been probably the worst year ever for me as well. similar to you, i’ve lost so many friends and my parents went through a divorce back in march after 31 years married, my mom cheated on my dad and seemed to put her new relationship before me because i was “already 17 and nearly an adult” (as the youngest child). i lost two of my pet cats and my grandpa, who was my absolute favorite person growing up. he passed away back in september. i’ve never had to deal with my anxiety and depression this bad before, but like you, i had my group of friends and just focusing on the good things in life to help me get by. i can only look forward to having a better 2025 and i sincerely hope you are able to as well :)

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 🎉

[@cawingcrows2072]

Much love to you, I hope things get better for you in 2025 🫂

[@twainstevens9588]

I wish you the best. Things will get better, have faith.

[@broncosfan15]

@@DontReadMyPicture478bot

[@amymoo-d4v]

honestly tom, all jokes aside. you have been through so much and i think no one really realises it. you AND techno carried my childhood, made my weeks better. now it’s time we repay you. you’ve always been this happy, bubbly and a characteristic person but remember, it IS okay to have down days, months or even years. we are all here!! sending much love to you and your family❤

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@LunaTheMoonBean]

^^^ this 100%

[@DontReadMyPicture-c2p]

wow

[@YuzuTheF1rst]

10:23 When cat started playing, it was the final breaking point. I was on the verge of tears but it reminded me so much of the old times. Hope things get better from here Tommy. We are always here to view your square videos, and 2025…it’s gonna be the year for you. I can feel it. ❤ for all those people out there too. Happy holidays man. Enjoy Christmas. Even if you’re alone, take a walk, see the lights, look at your white breath and just sit there. Someone appreciates you, whether they are a stranger who saw you on the street, family, friend, you are loved. Merry Christmas 🎄 ❤❤❤

[@Butterzquid]

1:23 :( Proud of you for speaking up and being honest about this Tom. Next year will be better

[@DontReadMyPicture-c2p]

*Don't read my name....* 🗣

[@catsandowlhouse]

next year

[@Sprucygoosyy]

This truly was a mid year

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@universaltoons]

true

[@Dsmplover213]

Yup😢

[@vvaid9418]

tommyinnit is sigema

[@CrimsonFire01]

First off, the editing is spectacular, shout out to the editors Second, yeah, this year was shit for most of us, me included. Something I had to realize way, way later, was that bad things happen. They’ll only become worse if you continue to beat yourself up over them. Dont do that. Lift yourself up and move on from those bad things. The only thing you can do is replace those bad moments with good ones.

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 🗣️

[@notateendemon]

As a fellow 20 year old. It's a tough transition into adulthood, and trying to figure what of my childhood I can keep and what I'm going to have to give up. Thank you, Tom, for being open and honest with us, it helps to be reminded that we are not alone in some of these thoughts.

[@k1k1s404page]

"It will pass, it always does." will forever be my new quote whenever giving someone advice . shit day? wait 24 hours. terrible event? reflect, mourn, cry a little, and let it pass. everything comes and goes, even if it hurts just a little .

[@DontReadMyPicture-c2p]

*Don't read my name....*

[@KermitDfrg]

This to shall pass

[@kreolado5880]

​​@@KermitDfrgReminds me of one of my favorite song quotes! It is from a Song called "This too shall pass" (duh) from Danny Schmidt: "The story goes Or the way that I was told There was a king that always felt too high And then he felt too low And so he called All the wise men to the hall And he begged them for a gift To end the rises and the falls And here's the thing They came back with a ring It was simple and was plainly Unbefitting of a king Engraved in black Well, it had no front or back But there were words around the band that said "Just know: this too shall pass"

[@kaileyh.6586]

2:57 at this point, tears were coming down my face. i never expected to cry watching a tommyinnit square video... (actually maybe i do). im 19 and tom reminds me of myself. and it hurts being lonely. but moms always have your back. hearing tom call his mom before his show, that he had to perform after a family breakup, loosing friends, and all the other crap, made me cry. i used to find comfort in my mom too ❤

[@DevMan2342]

Sorry if I come off as rude but you cried???

[@MissSweetsEntomophobia]

​@@DevMan2342 yeah I was going to ask that too lmao

[@IAmSneak]

​@@DevMan2342 prolly hit close to home or something. let people feel how they feel, it's the best part of life ❤

[@Finnholl345]

Fuck the year just make next year better

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@Rockspaws]

Fr I’ve struggled so much with my mental health this year I need a new year!

[@Sayid-al-Furat]

It won't be better.

[@M1ra_peanut_za]

Agreed

[@larryalvares1369]

I don’t know how to :(

[@nugget5879]

I have had both a great and terrible year and I don’t know what to think about either. High lights and low lights include: I got into my dream college for my dream degree, I got a new job that I’m doing well in, I’ve made a lot of new friends at community college. However I’ve also completely burnt out and I lost the energy or motivation for most of my hobbies. I had to quit a job that I loved because it was the main source of this burn out (I worked at a craft store and am struggling to rebuild my love of crafting because of how terrible it was). Some important adults in my life that I look up to are causing a lot more stress than I need. It’s starting to look up though slowly but surely. I’ve rediscovered my love of reading and my love of video games which my best friends have really been helping me. I hope it starts looking up for anyone else who’s struggling too. Comedy has also helped me a lot this year I’ve found so many amazing comedians. The shut up I’m talking podcast has become something that my best friend and I listen to together every week and it’s now a part of our routine. It’s a small thing but it brings us a lot of laughs and new inside jokes.😊

[@Goobieguys]

10:27 why did he have to play one of the old disks I started crying don’t do this to us Tommy

[@HeisenbergFam]

You know its deadly serious when Tommy uploads in square ratio style

[@universaltoons]

🎉

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@masochistz]

real

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@cludiix]

real

[@BlueSR]

I really appreciate how open you’re being. These feelings really resonate with a lot of people.

[@GwynzyGG]

Ugh, the sadness of growing up, I just started university and I feel like I’m going insane. “I liked being a kid” is so true :( Despite being a sad video, it’s a nice reflection, I hope it’s going to be fine Tommy :))) at least we got through it :).

[@Alna38329]

How's university life?

[@GwynzyGG]

@ Winter break has started and thank God, the stress was unreal over finals but at least I can stay home for the next few weeks :)))

[@HipyoTech]

Thanks for sharing your story, hope next year is a good one

[@WillUlt1mate11]

yoo hipyo - ya never know who to expect under a video XD

[@tnrx439]

love you big man I got my first mechanical keyboard because if your rizzy videos :}

[@fried_snow1]

No shit it’s a bad year bro, my dad got cancer and it was the day before my birthday, THEN he got diagnosed recently again (after a surgery to remove the initial cancer) in his lungs. This year is shit.

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@arsenicCatnip57]

That sounds absolutely terrifying, i hope your dad is able to recover, and continue with a healthy life The same goes to you too, i hope you also live a healthy life :33

[@fried_snow1]

@arsenicCatnip57 he hasn’t been diagnosed with a specific time left, it could be 7 months it could be 5 years but the cancer isn’t gonna be removable. All treatment would be to slow it down.

[@cawingcrows2072]

I am so fucking sorry man, wishing you and your family the best

[@fried_snow1]

@@cawingcrows2072 Thank you, but you don’t have to say sorry. It ain’t your fault.

[@AuntieLucii]

I don't have a very great family of my own so in a way, the DSMP became like a family to me. Losing these people, especially in such horrible ways, has got me literally mourning. I can't begin to imagine what it must feel like for Tommy, and for the other still here. I am so grateful that they are still here though, I know that I (and all the fans) would go insane otherwise. Thank you so much Tommy for everything, and everything to come!

[@apishi]

0:05 it’s okay we enjoy the sad and artsy stuff

[@Teagar_]

Oh man, this one hit close. Thank you for reminding me that I'm not alone, Tom. 2024 has had some of the worst strings of events- just so, so much death- that have left me feeling the same kind of anxiety and depression and especially the loneliness that you talked about. I'm just really sorry you went through all that you did. No one deserves that. I'm thankful there have been a few really good moments this year, though, and I'm glad you have a handful of good friends to stick by you. This year's highlight for me was doing theatre professionally for the first time and making some of the closest friends I've had in ages. It was the happiest I'd been in a long while, and I miss that time every single day. I get what you mean by remembering those kinds of memories as not your own- it's a really odd feeling. Trying to learn how to be an adult is so much harder than I thought it'd be, but it's gonna be alright. I know this is a sappy essay of a comment, but I hope things get better for you, and I pray your 2025 is full of blessings and joy. Your perseverance is inspiring. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone, take care o/

[@aster_11]

I saw someone explain this year as being awake during surgery, and it's so true. Actually it's felt like this for me ever since that week Techno passed. Literally a few days after the Techno news I found out someone I knew also died from cancer. That triggered grief I'd never fully processed of my bsf dying from cancer when we were children. Then as this all came up another 6 people in my life died that year. That triggered me to develop OCD. My sensory overwhelm got much worse to the point I couldn't even handle being out in the sun and light. My executive functioning also got worse and just switching from task to task took so much out of me. This all meant masking became much more difficult and made me feel exhausted. Talking to people got so much more difficult and drained my energy much more. That eventually lead to me losing all of my friends including my lifelong friend I literally met as a baby. I cut off contact with half of my family. My dog got very sick. My 4 year special interest turned out to be a terrible person and I felt lost. I was not coping with studying. I had a failure of a surgery. I only recently just went off a ton of medication for misdiagnoses. Things have only just started to slightly turn around. I really hope 2025 is better. Thank you Tommy, I appreciate this video and for you staying an honest and down-to-earth person. I'm sorry you've been through so much and I hope things get better.

[@zacharynguyen7286]

Hope you’re doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people who care. Sending support and hearts. ❤️❤️❤️

[@GourmetJobSim]

Hope you get better but the technoblade part is really parasocial

[@aster_11]

@zacharynguyen7286 You too

[@aster_11]

@@GourmetJobSim I'm sorry what... How is it parasocial to have feelings? Anyone dying is sad. I mean look at how when huge celebrities die the whole of the world grieves them, or when tragic things happen people grieve. That's not parasocial, that's called being human. I followed Techno for 3 years, ofc I was going to be sad. You completely missed my point though. Techno wasn't the thing that sent me spiralling. It was the fact MY FRIEND ALSO DIED FROM CANCER A FEW DAYS LATER (after already being down and seeing my moots very upset). Then that triggered me to grieve my other friend who died from cancer years back, that I never had (bc I was 10 when they passed). THEN ANOTHER 6 PEOPLE DIED (2 also being from cancer)... WITHIN LESS THAN 6 MONTHS I KNEW PERSONALLY 7 PEOPLE WHO DIED. The Techno comment was more to just give a timeline of when things happened

[@np-cos4065]

@@GourmetJobSim I think it's reasonable to feel grief when you find out that someone you looked up to passed away, especially since Techno was so young. And the fact that it was the first in a long sequence of tragedies for them must make it especially hard to cope with. I just hope that they can continue to get better as time goes by; some say time heals all wounds, and I don't know if I quite believe that, but I know that those wounds at least begin to sting less the farther you move into the future.

[@Amy_likesstars]

with all the allegations the year hasn’t been good, people who used to bring you comfort turned into what they are now, commutes torn apart it was hell honestly

[@madermc2979]

It's kinda funny because when I found Tommy's channel 5 years ago through an earthSMP techno livestream, I never would have imagined that he would be the one youtuber that I would still follow from the entire gaming scene that spawned in those days. Remember seeing him get called the "annoying british child" which was funny because I was even younger than him lmao I was always younger than the people around me as I grew up so having to actually mature and be an adult makes Tommy's journey seem incredibly relatable to me, specially now that I've experienced loss and had to go through all these processes and stuff. 2024 was definitely something but I do hope that Tommy and anyone else reading this have a great 2025 and a poggers 2026 and so on and so forth.

[@Dan-i3j8v]

I’m 28 now Tommy and have had a similar kind of thing throughout my life about ageing and time. The world seems a lot flatter than it used to and I wish that I could be young again and feel how I once did. I’ve accepted now that it isn’t going to happen (to feel how I used to). I think everyone goes through this but some realise it more than others. It has become the new ‘normal’ for me now but that’s ok as long as I appreciate the good things around me. I can still remember how I used to feel in reaction to certain things and sometimes try to reach the height of those emotions again but never can. Some of us just have a different perspective with life and age but I find comfort in knowing that there are others that feel the same

[@Lee_Innit]

I have had a terrible year, too, Tommy. It's not as bad as yours, tho. I've spent countless nights wishing that this was all some long nightmare. I wish I could go back a few years. In February, with the stuff that happened with ur.... friends.... it took a toll on me, too. These past few months have been terrible; the election, my gf breaking up with me, my grandma dying. Terrible things have happened. I keep disassociating because it feels like yesterday was early 2022. Where Techno was still around, where my friend didn't almost die twice. Where my grandma was still here. Where I was happy. Where I was in a relationship. Before everything. And I lastly wanna thank u, Tommy. I used to be really suicida|, but watching ur vids helped me through it.

[@dollie_ollie]

i’ve been struggling with some depression during my winter break for a multitude of reasons, but for some reason this video has given me hope. i can get through it, i know i can. thank you tommy :)

[@DontReadMyPicture-c2p]

*Don't read my name....* 🗣

[@Strs4kirby-i5i]

While I can empathize with everyone and their horrible years, I figured I'd tell about my positive experience to show there's always hope. I've had horrible anxiety and depression since I was very young. This year, my dad forced me into a panic attack and wouldn't leave me alone until I told him how I felt. While I see that part as very negative, I finally got the help I needed. I go around every day now less anxious and happier than I was before. I got a boyfriend who supports and loves me, my dad and I are on better terms, and my life is overall getting better. Don't ever feel like there isn't light at the end of the tunnel. You can always get help, no matter who you need to ask, don't feel afraid. Everyone struggles, and everyone goes through things, but two people drowning in the ocean are still drowning, no matter how deep under the other one is. We're all in this together. I hope you all have an amazing new year

[@prcxiale1124]

Dude, im close to tears rn. I think you are the most mature youtuber out there right now. You've handled so much in so little time it's mind-boggling to me that you are even able to dump all of this out into the internet abyss. Your experience is a lot like mine except yours seems to have some coherent reason. Me, i'm still a kid (17), i still have that light, that little voice that keeps me up at night making me think i should revise maths for 4 hours at 1:00 in the morning. But as i grow older, nearing 18, i start to wonder "Am I ever going to amount to anything?". "Will I ever do something, noticeable?... Something, tangible?" And I can't begin to express the overwhelming sense of dread that those answers are statistically likely to be no. It's like a tsunami of thoughts washing around me and I'm just floating inside the current. In the middle of it all, staring blankly into the salty water that is my cytoplasm. I hope you read this as I've been writing this comment for about 2x the length of this video. Thank you for this, Tom (yes we have the same name)

[@Irohtheweirdo]

I know you're probably not looking for advice, but if you are, try thinking about how you can still try. For example, if you start asking, "will I ever amount to anything?" Try to start asking, "what can I do to help out around the house or a my room?" Or even, "how can I fix myself?" Hope this helps. Good job :)

[@pukes_]

Its nice to know there are other people out there who are the same in a way :3

[@KoopaRipper-dk8sz]

​@pukes_I'm scared of my balls twisting will I have to get surgery?

[@gh0stduck_]

as someone who also turned 20 and had an absolute shit year this was really comforting to hear im not the only one. things just feel off and i dont know if its me or the world or what but it sucks. i keep hoping for next year 2025 is going to be our year :)

[@DontReadMyPicture-c2p]

*Don't read my name....* 🗣

[@DONT_KRASH_BRUV]

TOMMY THE GOAT YOU DESERVE A CRASHOUT KING I SWEAR TO GOD YOU NEED TO GO TO A RAGE ROOM OR SMTH BRUH YOU DESERVE IT YOURE SO COOL AND AWESOME (non parasocially)

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@bluephoenix_z3364]

🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭🌭

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@someone3.2007]

@@DontReadMyPicture478 I won't, don't worry

[@LizordSword]

what the fuck is crash out i dont understand all these new words im getting old

[@urgotbostero]

As another 20 years old, I can only say that everything you expressed is normal, and it really helps hearing another person saying it, someone that has nothing in common with you and lived a whole different life has the same existencial questions that you have in a daily basis. It's good to know that questioning yourself is normal, and it's good to know that everything will get better someday, but you have to take action, that's the hard part

[@CoderQC]

Oh gosh, this has been a bad year for me too. This was my first year of getting full exposure to the internet, and oh boy I've learned how terrible some people can be. Hope you're doing well Tommy, and to whoever reads this comment. :D

[@universaltoons]

🎉

[@universaltoons]

W

[@chr0nouSZ]

The thing i didn't expect is for many people to be exposed as pedos this year, Drake, Koofy (Kelogish), Loppy, many more..

[@alphaa2010]

My parents said if i get 100k followers They'd buy me a professional camera for recording. begging u guys, literally Begging.

[@LuneilaAUz]

[@roasty_toastyy7859]

I feel how Tommy felt. I broke up with my boyfriend in October then found out one of my close friends was not the greatest person so I ended that friendship. In between those, I have been job hopping and my latest job just “let me go” for something that wasn’t even my fault this past Monday. It is truly the WORST feeling ever, you feel lost and scared, you think you lost the one person who loved you too. But it will get better, you are a soldier Tommy! A true warrior who has gone through SHIT year. YOU ARE DOING GREAT!!!

[@DontReadMyPicture-c2p]

*Don't read my name....* 🗣

[@NoahDube-l9h]

Im sorry for you

[@noonespecial9704]

The fact that Tommy is 20, has gone through all this bs, hanged around really messed up people and somehow, after all of this, is still the same grounded funny dude we know. That shows great character! If you need a break take your time dude! We all love you+🤙

[@Tyla_Diamond]

Tom. I’ve been watching you for as long as I can remember and I’ve enjoyed every hour and minute of watching your videos. You’ve made me belly laugh and made me experience some other emotions as well. as you kinda said, although you’re a creator just making content to keep people entertained in most viewers eyes, your also a human being with problems and feelings as well and I definitely see that. I’m glad I’ve been able to see one of my favourite KZbinrs express what they’ve been going through. You’ve made so many people happy and the friendships you have are friendships many people wish they had (including me). Yeah, things happen, Ive had bad years too, but I guess that’s the whole cycle of life. Your SUPPOSE to have bad times as well as good ones. cant wait to see the rest of your journey Tommy, Tyla :)

[@That_Survivalist]

It's okay Tom, we've all been in your shoes. Depression and anxiety are like human canon events. My family suffered this year as well and I recently moved house which didn't help with my anxiety. I'm still not doing great and from the sounds of it you aren't either, but I'll heal, and so will you. Thank you Tom.

[@danisali1553]

4:35 having the talent but not the passion-this hit hard

[@rheaT_T]

i'm a couple years older than you tommy, and i've had a pretty shit year too. family breakdowns and questioning my friendships has run my year, not to mention the stresses of university and being bullied by several people i was supposed to look up to, and were supposed to guide me. my anxiety has gone through the roof, and all i've wanted this year is for it to be over. it was only in the last few months that i found a group of friends who i call almost every day, joking and playing video games with until late. i've gotten into my dream postgraduate course. everything will get better. thank you for this video, it put a lot of things into perspective :) here's to a better 2025.

[@AmberPanda382]

Tommy, you have grown from a kid who wanted to be funny into the true voice of our generation. Some of these big names: MrBeast, KSI, Logan Paul, they aren’t real. They aren’t real to us, the “person” we see is a shitty persona. Others like Dantdm and the odd ones out are great but their a different generation. YOU are our voice tommy, not because you perform well or your act is good but because you grew up with the internet and you’ve learned to be yourself on it. Videos like this, your actual thoughts not a comedy bit, show that. Thank you for being willing to share your struggles, because it’s helped a lotta people feel better about their own

[@lizard_girl]

of all the people on youtube to bring me to tears with relatability I NEVER would have thought it was gonna be tommyinnit. but 7:00 ... yeah man. me too. it's been a pretty crap year for me in particular too. lost job, got debt I can't pay off soon and I'm stuck living with my parents still living paycheck to paycheck because we can't afford to live in a home we already own. I'm 23 as of last month and my crap's never been more out of line than it has been this year. but all we can do is strive for self improvement and put in effort to make things better, if only for yourself. so without being too parasocial; keep your head up man. the fact you can self reflect like this at all and make moves to better yourself as a person you're going to like more makes you strong and amazing even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes. to anyone else reading this the message is the same. just hang in there and don't be scared to ask for help. things might not get better right away but you're alive, which means you can make it better with enough effort. chin up, smarten up, go get em.

[@Motivationalminds25]

Being 16 and having all those subscribers and pressure has to take a toll, and feeling that has to be terrible, i’ve watched your videos for so long and having the balls to admit your feelings to so many people on the internet while you were thought of the “youtube kid” is incredible. Thank you Tom

[@Cynsicle]

this year was truely one of the biggest mixed bags on earth for me, on one hand art college has been piling it on and im still recovering from my more self destructive habits. but on the other i finally managed to crawl my way out of that like 2 year long depression, started hanging out with people in real life after being pretty shut in for 4 years and my online friends who ive been with since 2020 are all properly planning out an actual meet up where we're gonna go on a biiigggg road trip across california. honestly thinking of that meet up makes me kind of emotional since these are the people who have constantly been there for me and have saved my life on multiple occasions i truely love them all. overall, 2024 had a lot of shit in it but a lot of good stuff in it too and all we can all really do is our best to make sure 2025 is the best year we've all ever had

[@VariantSong_ofc]

Same with me man, shit didn't start hitting the fan until later in the year. Friend left me for being too "immature" in August, we had to move apartments because ours flooded with sewage in November, my relationship turned incredibly toxic in December, 2024 has been rough for everyone. You're not alone, alright? If you need a break or anything, we'll understand :]

[@UrLocalSkittle_LOL]

Tommy, I’m so sorry about all of this stupid shit happening this year, it’s been a real let down for me too. I didn’t even know you and Molly broke up and I just found that out and trust me I’ve been through that too. Girlfriends are hard and so is this year. I’m running on half energy rn so this whole fuckin paragraph is typed all wonky. I really hope you and all of us have a better year in 2025. Keep it up, man. Stay strong❤️‍🩹

[@Ghostpop]

Hey Tommy. I just wanted to let you know that it’s really nice to see these kind of videos where you are a little more vulnerable and I enjoy them. I also turned 20 this year, lost a bunch of friends, transitioned, and now I feel the similar feeling that that person’s memories… aren’t me anymore. It’s very inspiring and relatable to see you go through the same sort of things (in my mind) and even if you are struggling it’s nice to see that you … made it through still. I saw your show in April in America, and I’m excited to hopefully see ya again for your next tour. Good luck, and thank you.

[@powpow_127]

Hey Tom, Brazilian fan here! Seeing how you got through this year brought me some thinking time as well. What the hell happened? It was all okay, and then SUDDENLY everything downgraded at a high level. I belive even though we had such HORRIBLE moments in our lives this year, just like you said: there were as well, good achievements. You got incredible opportunities in your life, and you are administrating it awesomely well! Us, fans of you since you were 16 years old, saw how much you changed, AND MATURED, specially this year. I really hope you can continue what you love to do, and find happiness in more things, so 2025 can be a great year for yourself! Anyway, I’m extremely sorry if this text wasn’t very understandable or had some grammatical mistakes. English isn’t my first language, but I am in search of improving! With love, An admirer of your self growth and understanding of YOUR feelings 💗

[@ImBouncy]

I'm 15 rn. This video sorta feels like an eye opener that in just a few years my life is gonna turn from nothing to everything. It's daunting

[@Vehmura]

I can't say I get you Tom, because your year has been tough in ways I absolutely cannot comprehend, but I wanna say that I feel you. The things you said about our generation, and about growing up.. man I feel those. I liked being a kid too. And as much as I loved watching you endlessly swearing at Badboyhalo 3 or 4 years ago, we are both past that. Still a funny video I'll give it that but the things you do now, are more of my thing now too, and I think we both like that fact. Just the way I've grown along with you and your content has made me realize, you really are my favourite youtuber, and I have loved all the different stuff you've done over the years. And I don't think anything is changing ;) I've gotten the chance to grow up with you through a screen, and I'm so glad you're the one that has inspired me to do just so much. As an 18-year-old, a fellow Gen-Z human being, your thoughts about growing up resonated with me quite a bit (I think this ramble has made it clear already but hey). And as someone that struggles with similar thoughts feeling overwhelming, thank you for this video big man. It definitely was a coping mechanism as much as it was for you. Life really feels easier when you get it out of your system every once in a while. I really believe 2025 will be a better year, for you too Tom. On the off chance you actually somehow read this comment, we got this. Love you Tom, cheers for 2025❤️‍🩹

[@RenRoll]

Honestly, this year has been insane and rough. Everything that I knew before was basically thrown out of a window, and it feels like I'm starting my life from scratch. College, new friends, a chance to do something with my life. All of it has been a bit much, especially with the loss of a really toxic friendship. However my new year's resolution honestly reflects what you're saying. I don't want to "get rich and famous" like every other time I've done it but to start journalling. I don't write much however whenever I feel down, I usually end up dumping it all in my notes app. But genuinely, it's comforting to know I'm not alone in having a crap year, and it's genuinely incredible that you've opened about this. This video has genuinely given me a new perspective that I legit switched devices just so I could comment (no srsly, I was on my switch and was like "I gotta say something" and went to my phone LMAOOO)

[@taygamerlol]

This is so Real This has been a Horrible Year but let's hope next year will be better

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@nayaviintage]

hey tom, this year hasn't been too shit for me, but last year's was. i had just moved out of my childhood home and was still adjusting to the new space. at the beginning of 2023, my mom passed away. i also quit my first real job, i felt extremely alone and secluded from my peers because i was taking a gap year while they were at college, seemingly having the time of their lives. i get it. the inertia from growing up. hitting 20 was a weird milestone for me because i was no longer a teenager and felt like i had aged 5 years since the last year. but hitting 20 has also opened up some really amazing opportunities of taking chances and moving on ideas i can do now that i'm an adult. you'll hit your stride. i hope your 2025 is better, and i hope we can be here to see you really bloom.

[@SkidudeCR]

Keep your head up bro, hold the ones you love most closest to you and let them know how you feel. Stay strong out there.

[@z0mg0n3]

recently ive lost a lot of people i considered friends, but really weren’t that great of people. i’m now at two friends and it’s been just really upsetting. hearing you’re going/gone through something somewhat similar is really comforting to hear.

[@RandomWeirdo_Le3]

“I am really anxious and depressed” more relatable thing tommy has ever said. But i really hope that you have a better year next year

[@onion926]

WE ARE WITH YOU TOMMY! YOURE A STRONG MEN!

[@meepzola]

as a 21 year old growing up and also experienced a death of someone close to me that died young, watching tommyinnit discover the fear of death too was slightly comforting sucks that you also went through that tho

[@universaltoons]

he's right

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@potcommeter]

@@DontReadMyPicture478 ok blud I wasn't going to

[@That_Survivalist]

It's kind of scary how relatable he is lol

[@VoiceBlind_Bat]

Yeah

[@potcommeter]

@@That_Survivalist me?

[@darceyxekko]

1:23 this honestly makes me so sad Tom deserved none of this

[@1Ace_Editx1]

"oh my god tommyinnit posted! :D" "oh my god tom simons posted."

[@soph1509]

I think the internet is like a drug, especially being a KZbinr You’re constantly chasing that first “high” or amazing feeling you felt being able to do what you love and you chase it but it won’t come back. You’re doing great Tom, Techno would be so proud.

[@Ash_Everheart]

This year being bad was not on my 2024 bingo card

[@DontReadMyPicture478]

*don’t read my name………* 😮

[@DoraBoss123]

Frrr

[@SixHexKeptMeInTheDark]

@@DoraBoss123Amanda’s Better.

[@Randoo0o0o0o0o0o-f]

The last 4 years have been the most unpredictable years of my life, and I hate that other people also have been feeling shitty. I missed very early 2020, before the shutdown, and before my family went to shit. But I used to look at you specifically (and some of your friends) as like the people that have great lives, that they get to be happy, that I was doing something wrong for being sad. And I'm happy(?) that I know that you struggle that everyone struggles. I mean, I'm not happy about it, of course, but it makes me feel less alone, that a guy who (seemingly) has his life together can also be sad, and get through it, maybe, just maybe I can too. So thank you, Tom. For the dopamine rushes every time you upload, for the jokes and good times, for the times when you get real, for getting me through the toughest years of my life without even knowing it. And I know we'll never meet or be real friends, but still, thank you, and take care of yourself.

[@kamixae263]

Me too !! I dont understand why everything went downhill after lockdown, glad im not alone in this

[@clamheaven]

You need to be in the right community Tommy, with good people around you… maybe go fishing? Gardening? Find a passion. I haven’t watched you for 2 years, and watched so many people grow, but came back to you corroding or corroded… 2024 is a great year for me! But not a good one comparatively for you, hope you the greatest and the good memories you granted and captivated old dumb me… you can go through it definitely. Or at least I hope definitely.

[@Premium_jack]

Some of this was personal family stuff, it wasn’t really something he asked for or could control the timing of. Know you meant well but your comment comes off a bit dense

[@annafidlerr]

so much respect for you tom! you were under the scrutiny of the internet from such a young age, and surrounded by people who weren’t so great, yet you have grown to be such an amazing and inspirational person. I remember watching your videos and twitch streams during the lockdown and it’s a bit surreal to grow up watching a creator the same age as you. I am so glad you have found your passion, don’t ever feel bad for doing something you love to do, the people who truly care will stick around to watch it happen. Just don’t forget to put yourself first, it’s amazing to see you speak out on mental health. From one confused “kid” to another, you are doing great. ☺️

[@sugarrushjoe3621]

I had an atrocious year, still suffering from time to time, currently in a lot of pain. Lost my entire friend group, major anxiety the whole year, loss of sense of self, masking my feelings, trying every possible method to just forget about my anxiety. I hated everything. I really hope next year is better, it needs to be for me

[@jxcksqn]

Yes it sucks losing a lot of your friends, but you’ll look back in ten years and appreciate the fact you were able to cut them out when you did. Appreciate the small group you surround urself with and continue growing with them. Went through something similar when starting college and all it did was make me realize how lucky I am to have the few amazing friends I currently have.

[@reybugs]

Tommy thank you for sharing this. I haven’t had a good year either, I’ve experienced a lot of loss in the year - including my grandma passing from cancer. And I’m currently suffering through an unknown virus and it’s been chaos trying to figure out this medical issues, I might have a chronic illness. It hasn’t been a good year. Full of stress, losing friends, finding out people I’ve supported aren’t who they are. Tommy you posting this makes me feel seen, this year has been so awful for me and knowing how things have effected you in a way I can relate to truly does as said before makes me feel seen. I’m a junior in high school and I’m so scared or growing up. Thank you for sharing this. ❤

[@NiNZii_]

Seeing you make these types of videos, being honest and genuine, really warms my heart. I’m glad that you’re taking some time to yourself and that you’re surrounded with people who support you. I can only imagine how this year must’ve been for you, and i’m sorry that you had to go through all of that. Take all the time that you need, we’ll be here ❤

[@NikotheBozo]

0:18 not the Mario Odyssey music 💀

[@Tropics09-o6d]

i thought that was camman18 music tbh

[@SamarGeoEdits]

@Tropics09-o6dWHAT😭🙏

[@PixelSalad99]

@Tropics09-o6d💀we are cooked please touch grass

[@SamarGeoEdits]

@Tropics09-o6d WHAT😭

[@AlizzaCeleste]

Bruh ​@Tropics09-o6d

[@tootired8251]

Honestly (not to be parisocial), growing up along side some random guy on the internet that I relate to has been astounding and made me feel so much less alone. First it was being seen as annoying and loud and i hated it, but watching you be confident enough to keep being yourself helped me hate myself a little less. I was going through shit, and had some shit happen freshman year. But hearing you talk about getting to the age of someone who hurt you and being like "I'm their age now and Id never even think about doing that" makes me feel less alone right now. And even with the whole finding out people you were close to are not great people, this year has sucked and idk if this even helps at all, but you make a lot of people feel less alone, and I hope youll feel less alone too. Something ive learned over the years is just that eventually things will feel okay again, even if just for a little while, its worth trying. But yeah, thank you for doing all that youve been doing. And seeing who your becoming is great. The future is hella scary, and so is death, but if you worry yourself over the future thats all your future will be. (Or something like that, idk heard it from a teacher)

[@Kittykatlover-nq5tu]

2:12 Im so sorry, he was a legend 💕

[@Toxic._.GlitCh]

Why did this make me cry so hard...Seeing him get older and things change and struggle just makes me think back and take it all in. Life really has changed from the first time I clicked on a video by some screaming blonde guy and been hooked ever since. Stay strong Tommy

[@mimii694]

Hey man, I haven't watched you for a while. I'm 21 and honestly this year hasn't been great for me either. But if there's something I've learnt, it's that bad years lead to new beginnings. It's only up from here, and I don't know about you but I'm pretty excited to see where it goes. And thank you for reminding everyone that youtubers are just as human as everyone else. Here's to a better 2025, for everyone

[@NenshoMoeru]

Ive hated this year. I'm 19 first year of college wasn't great. have been isolated and just not living it. but i keep myself through a fake persona for people to not see what i really am. i know that i have great things happen too but i always project on what i dont like. just keep putting myself into the trenches but now i wanna remind the good things that happened ive kinda started youtube and its going great family really supports me with it ive seen that my friends are really there for me ive been hanging out new people or people ive known but is now closer with. knowing more about myself and its just a matter of time of improving with things i dont like about me and maintaing things i like about me. overall this year is better than being nothing. its just all in the matter of moving on.

[@bitterritual2981]

I really love how in depth you explain everything, you explain things perfectly and know exactly what to say which makes it easy to understand so sorry this year hasn’t been too great for you, next year will surely be better. Hope you’re okay.

[@JacksontheLord]

There are two KZbin videos that have made me emotional 1. Techno’s final video 2. This video

[@CaptainKat8]

I know this is a personal video and how a lot of it is really rough but you talking about those small moments of joy and light in the darkness is really helping me hope for the future as well, thanks mate

[@bread8445]

been a fan of you since 2020, it's been great seeing you grow into the person you are today. Even with all the ups and downs you stayed true to yourself and what's right and you've always been incredibly genuine. I really admire that about you. You got this man, wishing you a great year ahead of you❤

[@Ducks4ever20]

“This year has not been a good year” fr summarizes everyone in the mcyt community

[@Tylerr_Creative]

I both get and don't get how you're feeling, Tom. Recently this year's been rough for me too, It's mainly just the stress of finding a career I can be proud of after graduating from college, failing constantly, and being stuck in a rough job that pays well but is nowhere near I want to be. It's really easy to fall apart and just spiral thinking into a worse and worse mindset. As a kid of divorce I can def relate with the feelings about that split, but it gets better, mainly just trying to make the best of your situation while still loving the family even if they're not all together. I had mine happen when I was really young, so it's been easy to cope, but I feel you'll be able to make it through, man. I hope you have a wonderful 2024, and I hope you continue to get to do stuff that truly makes you happy, especially for being 20 you're an inspiration to me and I turned 23 in September lol

[@NikoCreasey]

Looking back in this year I think that I feel like I've gained consciousness and just realized how to breathe. I feel like a fricking fish out of water, and honestly, it means so much to have one of the public figures that I look up to so much struggle with something similar. Obviously not the severity of finding out that all of/most of your friends were terrible people, but it means a lot to Tommy. Thank you for sharing.

[@aproudswede4955]

9:14 Lets thank todays sponsor, BetterHelp

[@CigaretteEater-]

Uh oh not good

[@pip4773]

2:17 Literally the weekend I turned twenty, I had a full on crisis about death and was scared shitless.

[@lettuceforlife4827]

There’s a painful ache and torment of missing the past. I found a lot of that longing relatable. I had a lot of difficulty moving on from my childhood. Trying my best to not be to Parasocial as I say this, I’m 21 right now. When I was 19 I lost everyone I was close with. I started over with friends, I had fights with family, I was stuck in my own head morning my old job and all the coworkers I had become insanely attached to. I knew even at the time that it wouldn’t be forever, that we’d all move on, but when it happened I wasn’t ready and it nearly killed me. Now I’m 21. I have new friends, I’ve made amends with some of my family. I miss still, I grieve still, but it’s not overwhelming me constantly anymore. With help from a therapist and with help from new friends, I’ve healed. It’s hard when you miss what was, but if you get stuck in that feeling you’ll miss what’s going to be.