My Mom & Hanging With Another Booktuber | Vlogmas

Sorry for the late upload and that its SUPER long! This is from December 13th :)
Audible: audibletrial.com/abookutopia
I am a Book Depository affiliate and I get a small commission if you use my link: www.bookdeposit...
Merch: www.society6.com/abookutopia
PO Box address (NOT MY HOME ADDRESS):
Sasha Alsberg
PMB 114
825 Waukegan Rd. A8
Lake Forest, IL
Website: www.abookutopia.com
My Social Medias:
Instagram: @sashaalsberg & @theshadowhunters
Twitter: @sashaalsberg
Vine: Sasha Alsberg
Tumblr: yalovin.tumblr.com
Goodreads: goodreads.com/sashaalsberg

[@PeacexLovexCouture]

My mom also died two years ago when I was 16 very unexpectedly. I really appreciate you being brave enough to share your story. I cried through that last half of your vlog because it really struck a cord. I really admire your strength and your positive outlook despite the loss of your mom which is the hardest thing I think anyone could go through. Even though I felt sad I also felt a little comforted to know I'm not alone and it is possible to feel better. Thank you Sasha :)

[@abookutopia]

You are so strong and it's really nice to know you're not alone :)

[@averekriz]

It has been 2 years today, hasn't it? In these 2 years, Sasha, your mother was with you. Look, what you have done, how much you have reached. She is proud. And you are such a role model for everyone. We love you. She loves you. From top to bottom.

[@caveswater]

No, at the date you posted this comment it was the 3rd year

[@raisaextra8397]

+Avoxx Targaryen your ruining the moment lol

[@caveswater]

+Raisa Extra sorry I gotta correct everything lol

[@thebrunettebookmark8981]

I just found out recently my mom has terminal brain cancer and that she doesn't have much time left. I don't really know what to do with myself most of the time, it's hard because the cancer makes it so she can't speak, feed herself, bathe, walk. I think losing a parent is one of the worst things that can happen in your life and you don't really know what to do with yourself or how you will continue to live without them. Sometimes you think, oh if I'm out having fun isn't it selfish? If I'm happy won't it be selfish because they aren't here to share it with me? And I really appreciate you being able to talk about this with your viewers because it's helped me realize that the feeling will not ever go away but you will learn to live with it and learn to live your life to the fullest because that's what your mom would want you to do. So thank you for this, It's helped me put things into perspective.

[@AnaBeatriz-wl2gk]

I am so sorry about your mom. I never lost someone close to me, and heard about Sasha's mom and your mom I started to think how blessed i am. How sasha said nothing can prepare us for moments like this, so i can't imagine how hard it is to you and your family. So, be brave, and be with you mommy every time you can!! I hope everything ends well!! (my English is not good, but i need to write something for you). x - ana

[@almaaguilar4482]

is she okay?

[@therealkellinquann6914]

TheBrunetteBookmark. how are things now i understand if its to hard to talk about

[@lisanneroldaan5055]

SHE LIVES IN A CASTLE HOLY SHIT

[@decekc9389]

+OysterHunter because she has an assload of books

[@katyronan]

Lisanne Roldaan I've noticed that too. It's one of those new big home communities. I'm jealous of all the space she has to film in! I need a studio! My room is way too small! We all live different lives and have to make it the best we can live.

[@ethanpockett3140]

who ever disliked this is heartless

[@laurar7235]

sorry 'bout dat

[@LFWhite11]

I was watching this video on my iPhone and when you talked about your mom and how you felt comfortable telling us cause we're your second family I started crying and literally hugged my iPhone. we're all here for you Sasha ❤️

[@britanniacreations]

My mom just died hours ago and I don't know how you've managed to deal with it so well I'm a mess

[@angelicsugar9876]

I'm so sorry! You must stay strong! I hope everything turns out okay! ♡

[@user-wv6pc1sk6z]

omg, how are you holding up :((

[@Alyssa18633]

Wow you are seriously so brave i cant even begin to Imagine what it must feel like to lose your mom. Yet you are so positive and strong. Its amazing. Hope you are doing well

[@leaninglights]

Thank you Sasha - I needed to hear this. I've lost my two older brothers in the last few years and my aunt just passed suddenly this past week. It triggered a lot of stuff but you're right, there's always light. You're so awesome for sharing your journey and your mom's story. Merry Christmas

[@cristinasolano4509]

My dad died when I was 10 years old, I know it's hard to spend Christmas with an empty space in the table, but everything happens for a reason and we just have to keep going :) I'm sure you know that. Your mom would be really proud of you! Remember we only die when we are forgotten.

[@claudiarittle7449]

Thank you for sharing your story sasha. My mom also passed away very unexpectidly a little less than a year ago and it seems our situations are very similar. I came home one day from school and found my mom on the couch dead, she died from heart problems which she had a few years ago but recovered from so this was pretty unexpected. We have to stay strong but Its nice to kno tht ur not alone in sad situations like this and its crazy tht this can happen to anyone for reasons your not quite sure of. Im tearing up writing this but i just wanted to let u kno my prayers go out to your and your family. Youre such a lovely person and make many people very happy

[@sashabsanti]

I know it must have been hard to come home from school and discover something so heart breaking. I'm very sorry for your loss. I know nothing anyone says can take the pain away but I'm sending love to you and your family. I hope you find the strength to get through this. Stay strong

[@ashenoises]

I'm sorry for your loss. I've never had a parent die, but a little over a year ago, I lost my grandfather, whom I was very close to. I still can't talk about his death without crying, or listening to the songs played at his memorial without crying. It's still hard for me to mention. It wasn't unexpected, he had been sick for very long time before he died in the hospital on September 13, 2013. You are very brave for being able to speak about your mom's story. It's hard to talk about death, and I hope you will continue you to be strong for this.

[@nightcore_ricktor7633]

your mom would be so proud of you Miss Sasha -thousands of thumbs up for you-

[@naomigetachew5456]

Sasha, My best friend died of cancer when I was eight and she was ten. In was completely unexpected because she was so young. It was brain cancer which I alwasy found very ironic because she was the smartest person I knew. She was my sister, half my heart. And it felt like I lost her over night. She died seven months after the diagnosis, but no one told me she was sick. We all had hope that she would get better. You're much stronger than I am, Sasha, because I'm sixteen and everyday I'm just as upset as I was on the day I found out. I admire how strong you are and how you've healed, or at least started to heal, so soon. Thank you for being so open with us. It makes me feel like I can also be more open about my situation. I can't tell you how sorry I am for what you've gone through. But you should know, you are an incredible person. And I'm sure your mom was just as incredible

[@alexandrasanders7526]

hey sasha I know i'm really late but I just wanted to say how much I love that you're open and strong about what happened to your mom. My mom actually just died 5 days ago so hearing others talk about their experiences is great... thank you!! ❤️❤️

[@therealkellinquann6914]

Alexandra Sanders im so sorry for your loss.

[@juliarhapsody]

I am so sorry for you lost. You are so amazing and brave. Sasha, you are such an inspiration.

[@emilylarkin2417]

This videos is so inspiring. I love that even though losing a parent is the worst thing that can happen to a person u try and look at the positives and lived your life because you knew that's what your mom would want. I honestly teared up.

[@kimmycola18]

I started crying when you said that she used to say " I love you forever, I like you for always, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be" to you at night. my mom used to read that to me and that quote brings me to tears every time I hear it. I could never imagine losing my mom. you are so brave and amazing for sharing this with us. I'm sure your mom would incredibly proud of you and your family.

[@rachelbelanger2708]

Sasha your house is the coolest! Also, I'm sorry about your mom :/ Losing your mother is heartbreaking, but you are honestly so strong.

[@ellielouise9625]

This vlog made me cry. You are such a strong person and i wish your mum could still be here. She is watching over you so proud for everything you've done and how amazing you are. And probably watched divergent with you cheering you on for your 2 second scene ;).x

[@paulinalaukova7410]

I know this was posted two years ago, but I just want to say how much I admire you Sasha. I cried when you were talking about your mom. I know how hard it must be to talk about it. My grandparents died when I was 9 (I'm 15), my great grandmother about two years ago and my grandfather died last year and I still have troubles talking about it sometimes. You and your family are so strong. Even though I lost 4 family members I can't imagine how hard it would be if I lost my parents. Thank you for sharing this with us 💕

[@SamanthasBooks]

I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't begin to imagine how difficult that must have been for you. Stay strong.

[@celiamoratalla1536]

The part in wich you talk about your mother made me cry. I can't share your pain, but I can imagine how is it like because my mom has been with cancer for the past few years, and in several times my mom has been in great danger, like you said, that feeling of loosing some one you adore (in my case, almost) , your entire world comes down but still, you've to be strong and keep living, keep doing what your mom would have liked you to do. You're really strong, and an inspiration Sasha. Love you x

[@pratibhagopalakrishna3436]

You're so brave Sasha.... Please keep working hard.... You're very brave and I'm sure your mom is very proud of you....

[@caylajeffrey2841]

Sasha im so sorry im so late saying this but i was crying right through this video your mom would be so proud of you for doing so well being so strong your such a strong person i love you to pieces Sasha your absoultley amazing and you will always have us here through thin and thick i just wanted to hug you right through that video

[@lubovcazacova6683]

I share your grievance. Thank you, this video made me realize how much I love my mom even when we go through tough times. I think I just bawled my eyes out haha. I love my mom. Thank God I havent lost her, but its extremely hard when she tells me and my sister how things should be done when/if she dies. And its just really hard but thank you for making me realize that I should be happy with my mom even though she has a job and is a very busy person, that I should be happy she is actually here with me. You are such a strong person with how you handled things. You are an inspiration. Ave atque vale, rest in peace Mrs.Joan Alsberg

[@TeenageWaasteland]

You seem so positive and mature about what has happened in your life, it's really inspiring!

[@valentinacosta2716]

I cried but I'm happy knowing how strong you are. You are always smiling in your videos or on snapchat and you could share your history with us in this video. I'm so glad you did it bc I love seeing on camera how close you are with your dad and now I know that you and your mum used to share things too. I wish you and your family all the best

[@johannapedrazas3658]

Your mom would be proud! you are an inspiration to many people out there and know that we are here for you

[@kittyyourock]

One loss, one family bounded by grief, One day, each year, they come to mourn, Yet some are still in disbelief, But knowing that out there, somewhere, a child is born, Memories of lost ones never fade away, Memories of loved ones are here to stay. Just a little poem I decided to create on the spot :)

[@StarshipRanger93]

Is this from a book? I feel like it is and it is really bothering me now :')

[@almaaguilar4482]

that's beautiful

[@kittyyourock]

StarshipRanger93 No I made it up myself. But thank you :)

[@kittyyourock]

Alma Aguilar ty :))

[@StarshipRanger93]

I love it

[@ConfidentLuver09]

you're very strong Sasha. if that happen to me, i would probably never be positive like you. every video that you make makes me smile because you smile. i hope the best for you and your family. Be strong baby.

[@anikaw.6619]

When you were talking about your mom I got very emotional😔 I'm so sorry for your loss and I could never imagine living without my mom at this age. I like how you accepted the whole situation and the way you deal with it because I think that moving on after something that bad happened it's so hard to move on and see the beauty that nature and life provides🌌🌳 You're such an inspiring person and I hope that you keep doing what you do😊❤️

[@arjanvantongerlo882]

This video brought a tear to my eye. Sometimes life is very hard and you reach the lowest lows but like you said, there is always a way out. Just losing any person you love is really hard so I can't imagine how it would be to lose a parent. I think it's really strong to put it out here and share it with all of us, it shows a lot of character and heart, so thank you for doing this!

[@theessenceofbeauty1g]

Sasha. You are such an inspiration. You are what every young woman should be. You know how when you're reading a book and there is just a really brave, strong character and you want to be like them? Like Tris from divergent? You are that for me. And obviously youre not a character, you're a real person and that almost makes you even more special. Ilysm sasha ♡

[@mostlypostcoincidental]

sasha, you are a freaking WARRIOR. had the tears streaming when you were talking about how important it is for you to just let yourself be happy and live life. those are great and incredibly valid words. love you, girl!

[@RachelWrites]

ahh, I remember talking about your mom with you but this made me cry. i'm so sorry. you are so much stronger than i would ever be.

[@Callmekatielee]

Even a year later, this video makes me cry every time. Sasha, you are an incredible person and inspiration. Never stop being strong

[@prologuesepilogues]

I'm speechless.. my grandma passed away four years ago and I just want to thank you for what you said in this video. It really made me see that I shouldn't be sad all the time, that I should try to smile more often, live my life and be happy because that's what my grandma would want. You're such a strong, inspiring person! Thank you for this, seriously, thank you! Merry Christmas, love from Portugal

[@aimeekenna8379]

I have to say that this video made me cry so hard. I adore you for how strong you are. Losing a close human is never easy, it does not matter if it was a parent, family member, a friends etc, it's always hard and you are so strong and so powerful on the inside and outside. You inspired me to go through so much that has happened in the past few months. So dear Sasha, I love you

[@HPATMO]

You are so incredibly strong! I admire you so much! I know people who completely fell apart after the loss of a loved one and you staying strong like that and positive is incredibly inspirational for me!

[@ginamariamattarollovillarr1861]

I know this video was uploaded two years ago, but I just watch it. And Sasha I´m so sorry, I´ve never had to go through anything like that, but just watching you, watching your strength, you made my cry. God bless you, you are such an amazing person, you are seriously an inspiration.

[@KitKatXX]

I am sorry for your loss. I've never had a parent die but the future is yet to come so I will live in the present and pass on forward. I'm also glad that you've come out to tell us everything. I believe I'm always gonna think to you as a friend more than someone far away. I love you SASHA 💕

[@Makreads]

Sorry about the loss of your mom. I hope you're doing OK, especially with the timing. You're so strong for being able to talk about with everyone about your mom.

[@xxJessica14Nicolexx]

Sasha I'm giving you a huge virtual huge right now!! (: My dad actually passed extremely unexpectedly too just a little over two months ago. I completely agree with you saying it was the longest day of your life because I totally agree. My dad had to go pay a speeding ticket one morning and that was the last time I saw him. At first they told my family it was a heart attack but we found out it was a brain aneurysm and similar to your mom there was nothing they could do for him. The hardest thing for me was knowing that he was all alone when he passed all alone in a bathroom at a police department. It's still really hard for me and I cry myself to sleep most nights still and i immediately starting crying with Fix You started playing because I listen to that song all the time but now it just has such a different meaning for me now. It was really touching for me that you are still so strong and that you found happiness at the end of the tunnel and I can only hope to do the same (: thank you so much for being the wonderful person your are!

[@hellotherebooks]

I'm so sorry for your loss and I admire your strength. I admire that after all of this you were able to pick yourself back up and continue on with your life. I can't say that I completely understand your pain and I won't pretend that I do but I send all of my condolences and I will keep your family in my prayers.

[@Bookworm5589]

My mom died unexpectedly and there is no way to express the feeling of how it is to find or you've lost a parent. My younger sister was with me when my dad called to tell us and it was so hard to be the one to tell her. I am giving you a big virtual hug because I know how hard it is to tell people and trying to deal with it. I always thought my mom would be there for my big life events. Life sucks sometimes :(.

[@zainabfaiz4930]

and ur mom is DEFINITELY watching u frm heaven and showering her blessings for evr... don't worry she is always there wid u n ur spirit...

[@AveryAmsterdamReads]

My condolences to you and your family. I lost my grandmother, ten years ago, on Nov. 4th. She was 5 days away from turning 70. I was 11 at the time. What hurt me most was seeing my mom cry because she lost her mother, because my grandmother was LITERALLY a second mother to me. It's a little harder around the holidays because she would splurge on me and her other grandchildren; LITERALLY a room filled with presents. My family began to fall apart shortly after her death (My parents divorced, My uncle became an alcoholic, but recently recovered). I also lost my great aunt, my grandmother's oldest sister and last living of their family, last April from stroke complications. She was 80. Not a day goes by that I don't stop thinking about them. Christmas parties get a little smaller, but closer. btw my Starbucks go-to is a White Chocolate Mocha with whipped cream

[@Helloimjuliana]

Sasha I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how scary that must have been, waking up and having your life changed forever. I wish I could give you a big hug! I admire you so much for your strength of character and the love you have for your friends and family. You are truly inspirational with your views on life and loss. I wish you all the best and good luck with the college applications! And I know it's a stressful time but try to enjoy your senior year as well!

[@tessatyler3611]

That little segment about your mom brought me so close to tears. My grandma almost died a few years ago from a stroke and that alone almost broke me so I can't even imagine what you had to go through. I'm so proud of you and I love you so much :)

[@vivimontalti1572]

Sasha oh my god I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I understand how you must've felt at that time. My grandma died about a year and two months ago and then my dad got murdered four months ago and It was really hard for us since it happened so quickly and it just came out of nowhere. You're not alone and thanks for sharing your story and trusting us do much to open up about that subject :)

[@idfrancisco5057]

OMG I am soooo sorry for your losses, but i'm glad that you are strong :')

[@ItzAngee]

Sasha you're strong! This brought me to tears. So sorry for your loss. You're strong and the nicest person, you're amazing

[@magdelenekhor9315]

I like legit cried when you start talking about how life can be really dark sometimes but there will always be light. Ive never experiance any loss because my dads parents died way before i was born and my moms parents are still alive. I started worrying recently about my parents age and whatnot because im 11 and my parents are both 54. I dont know how ill handle it if my parents died before im 18. Because i cant imagine a life without them. Thank you so much for that speech because i needed it for some reason i cant seem to fanthom.

[@jemmaserafina6684]

you're so strong sasha, your mum (mom) would be so proud of you. thank you for sharing this (even though it was a while ago now)

[@spinesandcovers2692]

OMG I am actually crying Sasha, you're such an inspiration to be able to be so strong at such a tough time in life. I know it's not the same thing, but last year my best friend's dad passed away really suddenly and I'd lived next door to them my entire life. My father didn't live with me because my parents were separated and so I always felt like my friend's dad was like my own. There are some moments when I think about him and my friend and just cry and it's so great to know that there will be a point where life begins to get better. Thank you so much

[@megamufinmeg]

Hey sasha. I am so sorry for your lost. My uncle died at the begining of this school year the same way your mom did. And when I hear you talking about your mom just realy helps me and makes me realice that I'm not alone. Thanks for helping me. My cousin and I are like sisters so it was difficult for me to mourn and be there for her and my family at the same time. It still is. I wish you very much luck these day! A lot of hugs x Meg

[@mimimarquez344]

I don't think I've ever cried because of youtube video but I literally could not stop my tears watching this. My mother died when I was 8 but it was a slow death. It was still hard, but I cannot imagine getting the news so unexpectedly like that. I am sorry for your loss. You are such a beautiful and strong person and thought this video made me cry, I really loved and appreciated hearing your outlook. I am very happy for you that you are in a good place in life, you deserve it.

[@BetweenChapters]

Hi, Sasha! I'm a new viewer but I just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing about your mom. I lost my mom when I was 12 in a very bad way after her struggle with breast cancer. I'm currently reading a book called Motherless Daughters which is a book about grieving the loss of a mom, and then her birthday is actually next week, so with those things bringing everything to the surface I've been really emotional lately. One of my friends sent me a link to this video. My mom has been gone for more than half my life now and the loss never goes away, especially as I grow older and have to go through many milestones without her. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about her. I know I'm rambling... but I just wanted to take a moment to say thanks for sharing. You have a very positive outlook and I found what you had to say very inspiring, so thank you! I don't know when or if I will ever share my mom's story on my channel, but just knowing you had the strength to share your story with us is awesome. Your mom lives on in you and in the stories you tell. Much love to you and your family.

[@delfigonzalezseijas5498]

Sasha: I'm so sorry for your loss. I wanted to say that I deeply admire you and you are an inspiration to me. You are really strong and brave, and I really liked how you talked about like finding yourself again at the end of the tunnel, and that it gets better. I really liked this vlog, because I kinda got to meet you a little more, but also bc you showed us that we can have happy moments during tough times (I don't know if you realized but at first I was like sad and the part of the graveyard and your talk, but then with Maureen and Annmarie, and decorating the tree with your sister, you demonstrated us that we can get through this things). So thank you for sharing this with us, and you are really strong, and I hope I can be as you as I grow up. Merry Christmas, Love you, Delfina PS: sorry for any mistakes. I'm still learning English.

[@ainaaslagsen2425]

I started crying when you told us about your mom. My aunt died from cancer November 2012 and it was a really hard time. My familiy is really small and I miss her so much. I still cry when I think of her. I think you're so strong, I cant imagine how that must have felt for you❤️

[@makg3797]

I'm so sorry with what happened to your mom. You're such an inspiration for handling that well. You deserve the best from now on

[@briannahillier9425]

I'm so sorry for your loss Sasha. It's amazing to see how strong you are especially when talking about your mom. I cried just listening to you talk about your mom and thinking losing mine. You'll always have support from us! Ily and have a happy Christmas. :)

[@MyDani147]

I totally understand your frustration at college acceptance letters. Being a senior is no fun. I've been watching you for about two months, but I have grown to really love you as a person (weird bc we're the same age but whatevs). Your strength is really motivational. Stay strong. And I know you'll get accepted into your dream school for sure.

[@itsmariaa18]

when you went to visit your mom I just exploded like I didn't even know that I was crying til that moment. My grandpa died and he was basically my father I mean he grew me up. I understand how you're feeling.And 2014 was the year he died..He just wanted to see me as a 18 year old nearly young adult and then he was ok with leaving us but he never got a chance.Stay strong Sasha because you're not alone and we love you!Thanks for sharing this,I enjoy watching this all over again

[@abbeyf823]

Sasha you are so brave to share your story with us. It really brought me to tears, I live in fear that I'm going to loose a parent and it's so comforting to know that it is a sad thing but you can sort of overcome it in a way. Not forgetting about them but still living your life and being happy because that's what they would want. I can't imagine what you went through. This video is so inspiring, I look up to you Sasha and you truly are an amazing person, you're so brave to share this with us and I just want to say thank you. I'm really sorry about your loss. Even though I don't know you personally and I live at the other side of the world (Australia) this video was so comforting and inspiring and I'm so sorry for your loss. Love you Sasha xx

[@dulcemoonchild]

I have no words, you are such a brave girl, and i really hope you and your family have a beautiful christmas, beside the sadness you must be feeling, a huge hug for you girl

[@savvy4122]

I wish I knew someone as sweet as you. Even while you're talking about your mom, you tell us not to be too sad and not to feel to bad. You give us advise on hardships, and you're so nice and out-going. I wish I knew, personally, someone like you. You are a really kind person. Even though you're having a rough time about your mom, your still blogging and having a good time. That's what it's truly about. Everyone falls sometimes, but getting back on your feet is the best thing you can do for yourself. And that's exactly what you do. You take something tragic and let it shape you into a better person. I just wanted to let you know that you are a real inspiration to me, and I'm sure, many others. Happy holidays! Keep your head high, girl! :D

[@kristarice6090]

You are such an incredibly strong person, I lost my great aunt a couple months ago and we were very close, this video helped me a lot and it made me feel better. I'm so sorry for your loss I bet your mother was a wonderful person just like you. You inspire me so much and you are my role model I love you so much Sasha.

[@imseyi]

I'm so sorry about your mom.. I literally teared up.. You are such a strong beautiful girl and just know that you are not alone

[@storiesofwonderland8900]

Sasha, I have major respect for you for sharing this story. Thank you for sharing your insight in putting things into perspective and I am positive a lot of people will find major support in you and this video. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm happy you have the support of your friends and family.

[@neitdiaz]

I just can't explain with words my feelings. And there are no words available to say after this. Sasha, you are SO strong and amazing. I really admire the way in which you handle something like this, as I know I wouldn't be able to have that same response. You just made me feel better, that no matter what, I'll be okay. So thank you for that, and for opening up. I hope this made you heal a little more. I can assure you that your Mom couldn't be prouder of you, and that she is smiling at you and supporting you from another place, a better place. I hope she is in peace (which I have no doubts she is) and that you continue this process of healing, which as you said, it never ends, but at least gets easier. I wish you the best for now and forever. Stay strong! Love, Natasha. PS: Sorry if I have some spelling mistakes, but English isn't actually my natal language.

[@plushieangela]

This video makes me feel good. My mum died 2 months ago and it's a comfort to hear your story. There's so many things you say that are how I feel

[@gabrielledaley7834]

Sasha you're amazing! I was crying like... Im sorry for your loss. Im happy to hear you are better and happy.

[@kandiebooXOXO99]

My cousin passed away 2 years ago too and although she was my cousin she spent some much time with me and practically raised me as my second mom I used to call her mom so when she passed away I became depressed and overly sad all the time but I started to accept her loss when I around a few months ago I sometimes still cry and remember her all the time, and I sometimes even dream of her and I love her and miss her Although we all have someone that we are missing at the celebrations during the year, they are still watching over us and helping us through our struggles and obstacles

[@heatherh7629]

You are so wonderful and I can't even imagine going through what you did and being as brave as you are. I look up to you so much and want to thank you for being such an inspiration, you really do touch people's hearts

[@popinfresh]

Sasha, you're so strong. I admire the way you've handled all of this. Your mom would be so proud of you.

[@alicemay8899]

I know how it feels to lose a family member. I lost my nan in May suddenly while I was round her house. You never forget the people who you love.

[@shortstefable]

I've lost a lot of people and you are an inspiration of strength and positivity. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[@KatyReads52]

You are such a strong person and I love you. So proud of you for being the open person you are. Must've been hard to explain everything about your lost. Your mom would be so proud of the amazing and wonderful young woman you are. ❤️

[@georgiabrenner3592]

You are such an inspiration Sasha. I am so sorry about your loss. Your mom must have been an amazing person, just like you. I have been watching you for so long, and you are very brave for sharing such a sad, private moment with all of us. I love you and your videos so much, and you have changed my life for the better. P.S I am talking to you from the future and Zenith part 1 come out tomorrow! Thank you for this video.

[@ethansummy2441]

I'm so sorry about your mom! I was in tears watching this. You're very brave for sharing. I love your videos and this has to be one of my favorites.

[@jend.5999]

I lost my mom 5.5 years ago to cancer. It's definitely not something I will ever get over, I go through my ups and downs, but you are so right, you have to keep going, stay positive, and live your life. It took me sometime to come to terms with a lot of things, but always reminding myself that she would want me to keep living my life and be happy pulled me through a dark time. You have such a beautiful outlook about your situation and I thought you were so incredibly brave to tell everyone what happened. That really takes a lot of courage. I didn't know your mom but she must be really proud of all you have accomplished. And don't worry, those acceptance letters will come soon! I also hated that part. ;) Thank you for sharing this video with us. :) Merry Christmas to you and your family! :)

[@kamillakristinajurabaeva7991]

I know that a lot of people say the same thing to you (I'm sorry for your loss) but I just couldn't move on without letting you know that I really am sorry for your loss and no one should have to go through such a thing no matter age...

[@aysenazkahveci9410]

OMG Sasha I'm extremely sorry about your loss. I cried so bad. You don't look like you lost a family member. You're such a positive and great person. You're stronger than anyone I've seen. Don't make yourself think that you're alone in this world. You have a dad, sisters, friends and amazing subscribers (2nd family as you say) By the way, you know what, you are the reason I'm ACTUALLY reading. I didn't read at all since I discovered your channel. I'm so thankful to you! Love you XOXO (I'm Turkish so you are a universal greatness...

[@celestial_lilac]

This video made me cry. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[@Caity30STMforever]

Sasha, you are such an inspiration. It is so brave and strong of you to open up to us about your life. Thank you for sharing that part of your life, it makes us all feel so much closer to you. We are always here for you!

[@charliecarstairs5760]

I'm so sorry for your loss, Sasha. I lost my dad in 2012, the same year you have lost your mom, and it was one of the most painful things that ever happened to me. Whenever I'm sad or I miss my dad (I miss him everyday, but sometimes is a lot harder, and I know you can understand what I mean) I always watch your video because they cheer me up and I also love hearing your voice when you are talking about books. Because you love books in the same way as I love them. You are an amazing girl, Sasha. Also I apologize for my bad english, but I wanted to write this to you since they day you uploaded this video.

[@ellalloyd1430]

We love you, Sasha. No matter what, we won't judge, make fun or try to make you feel bad about yourself. You are amazing and we are so proud of how far you have come.

[@kkmmrew]

I am so proud and grateful to you for sharing about your mother. my mom is going through a battle with cancer right now so this talk hit a little close to home. which is probably why i'm crying. thank you so much for your advice and for having the courage to speak about your mom. it helped me come to terms with my own life at the moment. and Im awaiting my collage letters too ... I now how stressful it can be

[@roseloveslove]

i wasnt expecting this video to impact me as hard as it did. i watch your videos every now and again, but not like a true subscriber, (which i will from now on because your so awesome) and i thought this was just about books and just vlogging with friends. But it was much more than that. ive always taken my mom for granted and ive always been upset or angry with her. But seeing this made me realize, shes the only mom i got and i need to cherish her. Im deeply sorry, from the bottom of my heart that you lost your mom, and i really hope time will heal all your wounds. But i just wanna say thank you, because of you im much closer to my mom and i appreciate her more. And if you ever need anything message me on youtube, because id be glad to help you out. For anything you're going through i got your back girl! And by the way Happy holidays! :)

[@happyhauntstudios]

I understand 100% what you've been through. My dad died of the same thing only four months ago, and it was entirely too sudden because he was dying anyway, but he was admitted to hospital for back and stomach pain, and it's a struggle thinking how you can go from 'oh, we'll release him in 24 hours' to 'he only has 24 hours left'. You are such a strong, amazing person, and I really hope you're doing well at college!!

[@emilyb7752]

Whoah, you live in a beautiful neighbourhood!!!

[@angietucc6489]

GameOfThronessss I know right I was just about to comment that also, her house looks so cool.

[@Aliyourock]

Awe man, right when that song came on I knew I was going to cry. So sorry for your loss, Sasha ❤️

[@zainabfaiz4930]

hey sasha i knw its my very first time that i am ever contacting u via these comments but this video really made me a genuine person.... thnx for that.... u r really strong... i also lost many precious people of my family but i am happy that tjey all have turned into one of the angels watching me and protecting me.... thnx for making me feel good... love ya

[@TheDirectionerbeauty]

I am just sitting here sobbing while watching this. It's amazing how strong you are, rip to your mom she seems wonderful :)

[@princesspigs1332]

when you said 'my mum would like me to live for the both of us' the words rang out. That is so true. I know im like 2 years late but she would be SO proud of you! Sending so much love your way xo

[@tiffanysweet3268]

Oh Sasha, I don't know if you will see this comment as this video is two years old, but I am so very sorry for your loss. I am at the other end of the spectrum in that I have a chronic illness and they have stated that this is how I will die. They do not when, but I have already had open heart surgery twice, catheters several times, sepsis, endocarditis, etc....I keep fighting every day for my babies because I want to be here for them. I have two amazing little girls, Addy and Aly, who are 6 and 7 currently. I hope that when the time comes for me to go, that they turn their pain into a pushing force as you have done. I want them to be happy and live a full life. I know you are so very right in saying that your mom would have wanted you to be HAPPY and LIVE because I assure you, my girls are all I think about. I pray every day to see them grow-up and turn into amazing young women. I know the anniversary has passed at this point, but I hope you have found peace, happiness, love, and tons and TONS of JOY! Enjoy your life sweet heart....Your mama is watching and smiling at her bright young lady

[@Suusenach]

Tiffany Sweet you are such a strong woman, thank you for sharing your story. I wish you and your little girls the best xx

[@Sarahb6162]

Sorry about your mom... my Aunt died December 12th 2012 but I can't comprehend how losing your mom can be and I can't believe you can push through something like that.... I feel for you and thanks for still making these videos after such a sad and tragic event.... Love you and your videos!!

[@Jessgoodwin13]

Watching your optimism is so inspirational. It helps me believe that I too can get through the rough times in life. Thank you so much for sharing! Much love!!!

[@MyLifeAsYaelle]

This video really made me cry... I'm so sorry for your loss, and sadly I know what you're going through, because I lost my dad last year. Stay strong