About my mom.

Usually I would reserve a video like this for my Zackrawrr account, but because this has been such a huge event for me, I wanted to post it here for all of you to see. Thank you to everyone who's been so supportive online, to Tips, Cody, Zack, my dad, and especially Izzy. I love you all, I'll see you soon.
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[@MikeFox]

Brother we love you. Your mum was and still is incredibly proud of you and who you are. Take your time, be around friends and keep being the son your mum raised. God bless x

[@bennybtv5912]

stay strong brother , we love you , gretting from Argentina! sorround yourself arround friends and happy feelings , we love you.

[@evankropf1796]

@@edieromero8297 it's a troll he's replying to every comment for attention

[@koreazilla]

Asmon helped her live a great life. She's one of the proudest mothers that ever lived

[@rogthepirate4593]

@@evankropf1796 Yeah. Report and move on. That most definitely falls under both spam and harassment/bullying.

[@Gankstomper]

God isn't real.

[@JonSudano]

My mom passed away about a month ago. It's hard not having her around in the house anymore. It's so quiet and depressing. I can't believe she's gone.

[@Brandon_Polen]

im sorry for you'r loss both of my parents are smokers i hope the best for you.

[@eltiopavilla5520]

Cherish the memories always. I love you, stay strong.

[@ManCubuSWoW]

Man I'm really sorry to hear this. I know it hurts unimaginably. Please stay strong.

[@_WeDontKnow_]

much love bro. you've brought so much positivity and smiles to so many, I appreciate the impact you've had here and you've still got so long to go

[@bmo14lax]

Youll be okay. I doom this day but I think this is helping me come to terms.

[@AvecPoesie]

My Mother died on February 13, 2022. Its been 3 months and I am still grieving. I've been watching a lot of you during the Amber/Johnny trial and I am always in such awe of how much energy you possess. Your personality emanates such light. I would have never known you had endured such a recent loss. I took care of my Mother for 7 years due to her Parkinson's Disease and Dementia. She has been a very, very healthy woman before getting sick. She never smoked, never drank, ate healthy and was quite slim. Death comes for healthy people too. You did all you could. Being a caregiver is THE HARDEST thing to be as a fairly young person. I'm still soooo tired and trying to figure out what my future will be like since I had to put my own life on hold for so long. You certainly have my respect, sir. Thank you for your vulnerability. 🖤🥀

[@asuraspath2262]

In essence, you can never get over loved ones passing. They will always be in your heart. I have lost my grandparents and I loved them, I don't think I will ever forget about then.

[@patriciap7891]

Thanks for sharing, i’m so sorry for your loss 🙏🏽🤍 The grief will always stay in our hearts, the wound just gets less raw overtime and that’s okay. I recognize your question about how to live your life from now on, my experience (my mom passed away 12 years ago) is that life will lead you where you need to be. As long as you get up every morning, work hard and grand yourself to enjoy life despite your loss, life will lead you were you ought to be. Have faith in your own strength that your mother gave you, take care ❤️

[@teresaacevedo1731]

My sincere condolences to you and your family.

[@d_skrilla6479]

December 22 2020 I lost my mother to cancer. Ive yet to delete her number or any voicemails and still can’t talk about her or anyones mom for that matter without tearing up they say it gets easier and while I’ve yet to be convinced thats true I can tell you that its just a matter of getting over the physical grieving, the actual heartache. After that you just do it all in your head. Keep her memories alive and hold on to them tight. God bless

[@ByGraceRedeemed]

You will grieve for the rest of your days.

[@melvindoo6558]

The background rain sound and you telling the last of her story was so beautiful. She would be so proud of you man. What you’ve been able to accomplish in the last few years is insane. You’re an awesome dude, always been my favorite streamer. I hope you’re doing better now.

[@CryptoFace]

been a year in 6 months since my mother passed from brain cancer. i know the feeling, ive been able to not cry when mentioning it to other people after about a year. take it easy asmon, love you man

[@ivytheartist]

I'm sorry for your loss. May her memory live on forever 💜

[@Ryan-pl4eu]

Same thing happened to my father about the same time ago, such a horrible disease to bat. All the best to Asmon and yourself.

[@JoeCamel.]

My condolences

[@zachjones1716]

Sorry for your loss too, brother

[@TheCactuar124]

My dad passed around the same time as well. Much love to you and your family.

[@CrawfordAutomation]

Please take the time you need Zack. Losing someone is never easy, believe me I know. When my wife passed I was numb for a year. Please just let yourself feel, and don't put yourself on anyone else's timetable. Grief is unique to everyone. We love you man, I'm sorry you are going through this.

[@EnrirTF]

[@beezcop6367]

[@0nekidarmy]

[@razshahar294]

[@SaladFX]

[@juligriffin2608]

I have just recently started following you. I’m 49 and a mother of two kids, my son is 11 and my daughter is 12. I was a smoker since I was 15 until age 36 and quit. I gradually began to smoke again over the past few years due to ridiculous levels of stress, but that stress is no excuse to rob my children of having their mother for as long as possible. My daughter asks me to stop regularly, and I have wanted to so badly, and I have known that I need to but just keep putting it off, and it feels so wrong to basically say no to my child. You sharing your story has made me realize I just need to do it; I need to stop. I’m going to get some patches or gum or something tomorrow, and I am going to stop smoking. It’s not even an option not to; I’m going to make it happen. Thank you so much for being so open about something so personal and so painful. I needed this; I’ve been being so selfish. I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@sergiop4653]

I'm sorry if this is unwanted advice, but don't feel bad about not being able to stop smoking by your own will, because smoking is one of the hardest addiction to overcome, nicotine has been proven to be as addictive as cocaine and heroin and may even be more addictive. It's important for people to understand this so they can seek proper medical and psychological treatment instead of beating themselves up for not being able to do one of the hardest thing a human can do on their own. I wish you luck with your progress, you can do it.

[@juligriffin2608]

@@sergiop4653 thank you so much for your support. It is so nice of you to take your time to stop and offer a random person such as myself this encouragement .. your kindness is appreciated.

[@AirLight1646]

I hope you’re doing good a week later

[@SS-xc7lh]

You got this Juli!

[@ginadean5696]

The best gift to your children and yourself, quality of life will eventually win out those cravings. Exercise helped me when I decided to quit.

[@chancelorofdisdain8425]

Mom left me 5 days ago. I'm devestated. I love you Mom.

[@geoffkeating7804]

My mum died around the same time. Hope you're doing OK, buddy.

[@TMConstructionOntario]

Sorry for your loss buddy, stay strong and keep moving forward but never forget.

[@bigounce9058]

sorry to hear that good luck to you

[@yeahtbh.161]

Make her proud and do what she always wanted / told you to do ❤

[@slimeball7407]

why is everbodys mom dead somehow lol

[@LazymanCreations]

Take your time, you’ve given us more than enough over the years. We loved your mom, and we could tell how much you did through every interaction you had with her on stream, and from every story you shared about her. RIP MommaGold ❤️

[@jaybroski3871]

I just lost my mother yesterday. Everything feels like a nightmare to me right now. It's truly not something easy to go through I'm trying my best to push forward through this. Anybody who is going through the same thing I pray for us all. Love.

[@dianacuevas887]

🙏🏽~

[@brutaldabs]

sorry your profile picture makes this funny lol

[@TheFairyNina]

I'm sorry for your loss; having lost my mum 2 years ago now I would say as time goes on and you accept what has happened the grief does become more bearable. You can overcome it and in the end what got me through was just wanting to make her proud for who she left behind :). Some days its still a struggle but all you can do is try and make most out of life. Wishing you peace and sending you lots of love

[@korben7710]

Im sorry man

[@Hs000_00]

I am very sorry to hear about your mother. You are loved. We love you though you do not know us. You are not alone. If you need anyone to talk to, we are here. We love you.

[@jolteontrainer]

You never failed her man. You did your best as her son and that's really all you can do. Your mom loved you and you will always love your mom.

[@ryanthomas2432]

@Logan Roof News Why would tate laugh at him? Tate would understand his loss. Be a real fam of tate

[@michaelf.2449]

@Logan Roof News who's Andrew Tate?

[@ulfie9914]

@@ryanthomas2432 can yall stop bringing a misogynist into a video about a son mourning his dead mother

[@ryanthomas2432]

@@ulfie9914 You are right. I apologise

[@JohnDoe-ne2bq]

@@ulfie9914 L take. Brainwashed

[@robertduvernet4257]

I’m just “getting to know” you on KZbin. I’m an old gamer and I play WoW which is how I found you… but I just want you to know, your voice is important. You are far more than a gamer/streamer. You are a good man and to be honest, although I’m older than you, I look up to you. I admire how effortlessly you can express your opinions without being an asshole, not something I’m good at. I don’t look up to many people, or admire people that are famous just because they’re famous, I admire people who are human and have the capacity to admit their defects while also exhibiting their belief in themselves even despite those defects. You are a good man for taking care of your mom and I just wanted to express to you that, yeah, you are a streamer, a WoW guru, etc… but never underestimate how impactful your voice and your other messages are, especially the ones like this, that have nothing to do with gaming. Thanks for sharing this!

[@jaya2812]

We love you

[@Caesar512]

Let's make this the top comment.

[@BerosusNL]

Yes

[@alfofer8435]

We all do man.

[@marycarrier560]

Asmongold, you were such a selfless, caring, beautiful son to your mom. She was so blessed to have you.

[@claireoconor7986]

Your beloved Mother is now your Guardian Angel.🙏💚💚💚

[@owennicola4641]

Asmon - I’m an ICU nurse and I just wanted to say you absolutely made the right decision when it comes to providing comfort for your mom. You should never question that. Your story is inspiring and it brings me to tears because I love my mom like that and I’m afraid of the day that I will face what you have endured. You’re stronger and smarter than you can ever imagine. Peace and love.

[@AppleSauce123]

Medic here. I'm just now watching this and am blown away by how strong and selfless he is. Too many times we see patients put on vents, infusions, etc. only to prolong their suffering. To make that decision, for her, takes more strength and compassion than most of us are capable of. I have new found respect for Asmon.

[@runeplate123]

KINGPIN HERE… absolutely inspirational story you can learn from

[@kathystohrer3118]

I was a nurse for 40 years. I had to deal with many families going through similar situations. I have no doubt that you made the very best choices you could. It is never easy to lose a parent, just know you have many supporters and you are loved.

[@mechatigrex2335]

It takes a special kind of strength and character to do what you and others in your field do and did. Thank you

[@danielquilitzsch5748]

Hey Asmon, this is Daniel. I am a 42 years old IT guy from Germany. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings in such an authentical way! In my experience the way you are dealing with that sad situation is a good way to do and it is a sign of greatness. The fact that you always bin there for your mum tells everything! This is absolutely not common in these days. I think there is no reason to put ANY kind of blame on yourself. In this kind of sensitive and emotional situations there is never a 100% right or wrong way. You can be proud! I am pretty sure your family and mum are. All the best for you and your family Daniel

[@BestAtNothing]

It's sad that your mother was unable to beat her addiction, but I wouldn't blame yourself at all. Addiction is not something you can overcome for someone else, they have to make that decision themselves. You obviously love her tremendously and I'm sure she loved you even more. May she rest in peace.

[@techno0suck3r]

100% agree. you can't blame yourself for something you can't control. stay strong asmon, i've been there too. it takes time to heal :/

[@dimiturraichev1464]

@Jack Wrath You are such a sad person, eh?

[@Hilipinapixili]

@@doctorgears9358 There was another one in the video about Rich finding out about her death. Not the same kid, but very similar video content in the channel.

[@ZacharyHarper]

@Obito Shelledy jeez nobody needs your rudeness on a heartfelt comment

[@abzu96]

@@Unigeeque_ This is why YT needs a better system for reporting these god awful trolls. We can report them but the comments are still there and all of them mass spam the same comments over and over again. I’m so disgusted by the trolls here and YT not doing a thing about it.

[@adreanmarantz2103]

I've been staring at a blinking cursor for at least ten minutes now wondering what I could possibly add that 27k comments haven't said already. Maybe just this: My mother is in her 70s and drives 2 hours to visit me every 2-4 months (she really likes the road trips). You have reminded me just how precious these moments are. You are a great son and I truly hope you are well and at peace with yourself. Thank you for sharing this video.

[@z6886]

❤️

[@14nads]

I've been blessed beyond belief as well:). They truly are our angels, and has never given up on her wild daughter. My parents are also in their mid 70s, which makes this really hit home

[@ebonylewis1814]

This was beautiful... I take care of my mother I'm 34 and she will be 70 next year if the Lord says the same. I am without a doubt blessed as well.

[@nydra9912]

My condolences, you’re a great guy and I’m sure your mom is proud of what you’ve accomplished in life, she raised you well and it shows. Keep going on, we love you mate.

[@DEVIL_RAGE_GAMING]

I really want to give him a hug bro and I know i"m not the only one too

[@darthbane6958]

As someone who lost both his parents within three years of each other, it's tough. I still miss my mom and dad every damn day. You will never get over it but it will get easier. Love ya man.

[@urosstojkovic6439]

I can relate to your situation, unfortunately i lost both of my parents in less than 2 years (1.5 years) to be exact. Hang in there buddy, you are not alone.

[@bighatastrea]

The memories however and the love can't die, as stupid and cliché as it may sound. I can think about my deceased father and smile, I had such a wonderful childhood. Remembering how happy you were back then, what you did together, how you talked to eachother. We can't change it, sadly ... But what helped me the most is to understand that they probably don't want you to be sad and fall into a depression. Even it if seems to be getting harder by every day you should embrace the daily struggle, finding the strengh to carry on. Learn to appreciate the small moments of happiness on your path, even if it is just a little butterfly you see on your way back home from work. There may be stones on the road and you may stumble, but your goal lies beyond this. I'm sure you guys will overcome this and whoever is in the same situation without as many support as Asmongold gets will walk again soon.:)

[@ghiocadrian7399]

i lost my mom to suicide when i was 10, im 29 now

[@Arikadou]

Hoping for the best for you man, I’m so sorry. Take care.

[@artz4528]

@Daniel Foodist Man You should seek help :-)

[@jacktaylor9129]

@UCR0HK-ona6V_JYr7TDLxPgw stop this isnt azmongold talking this is zack talking its not a joke dont be a dick head

[@m4xw3ll75]

@Daniel Foodist Man wow, I’m guessing you got beat as a child?

[@fjeldet]

@@artz4528 dont give him any attention that is what he wants cuz he got none

[@fjeldet]

@@m4xw3ll75 just dont pay attention to those people this is what they want

[@Milla4life2]

Coming back to this vid because I recently lost my mom. I feel you so much.

[@bkcmii]

Be safe and take care man. I recently lost mine too.

[@matijaercegovic1622]

stay strong KING

[@maleperformance576]

may god bless her stay strong dude

[@bkcmii]

@@donkeyscarab207 True, keep getting over your obstacles, make your mom proud

[@Rw-uy5pf]

sorry for your loss

[@salvatoretumminelli8902]

Hey man, I recently just started watching your content and I can't say I'm not hooked. Your mom must be so proud. She raised a good boy. Not often do I feel touched by content creators but your such a genuine gem of a human being. You have my upmost respect. I'm sorry for your loss. I know most people say time heals all sounds but when someone like this means so much to you, it's tough to even want that wound to heal because I'd feel like I'm letting go of a big peace of myself. Stay positive my friend. P.S. Never stop the 2 dollar steak routine.

[@chexstelaris6666]

"She'll be back next week, she's just on a trip..." That is EXACTLY how I've felt for my dad when he died when I was 18. We've been living in different countries ever since I was 5 so we got to see each other only a couple of times per year and so I just feel like "hey hes just away for now, he's gonna be back one day". I wish you all the best in this world man and love you so much. Stay strong.

[@camobranson09]

Sorry to hear about your dad, man. I feel that though. I was orphaned at 10 when my half sister and I lost our mom. I had to grow up so fast. Keep on keeping on tough, my dude.

[@Al-sz7vs]

@@camobranson09 im with you brothet

[@joaomoreno307]

For 4 years I still dream that my dad is alive. He is just doing something else. He just broke up with my mom and that's why I have a stepfather. Sometimes on those dreams I ask if he's happier, if things are going great on his new family, but he never answers that. But the truth is the truth. And we learn to deal with it. One day we'll learn.

[@stephenconstantinou6975]

@@mikekuzmicz8408 ... I at least want to think I understand the context of your reply, but that smiley face at the end does not do your comment any favors in trying to look good at all.

[@NilemagCT]

Asmon, even though you may never see this, just know you did more for your mother than most people would do for others. You're an incredible, genuine, one of a kind human and we all love ya.

[@thelostviking9998]

This was a huge wake up call for me. I just tossed the last of my smokes. I don’t want to do this to my daughters. So sorry for your loss.

[@fairypousymfairy]

Good luck with your quitting journey. I'm trying to be patient with my boyfriend's smoking addiction. I hope he quits as well

[@gstylez0107]

Good for you. Don't cheat and "have just one" ..That never works out. You gotta just completely cut it out, no weaning or slowly stopping bullshit. Cold Turkey is the only way.

[@DestinedFX]

wishing you success, you can do it. dont ever give up

[@brigetmccarthy6815]

Sorry for your loss keep strong rip amen 🙏 ❤ 🌹to your lovein mother thank you for sharing lots of love 👌love your videos watching Johnny Depp thank you

[@mommyonamission7084]

Blessings on your journey. I just lost my mom last year.

[@joekidsti]

Sorry for your loss. I lost my mom to cancer a couple years ago and its a tough thing. I think its normal to question if you made all of the best decisions you could considering the circumstances. Thanks for making this video and sharing your experience.

[@fallonjasovsky1704]

Sending you love. Sorry that you're a member of the Dead moms club. Share your mom's name, fellow club members would love to know it. My moms name was Maurean.

[@thaisrodz]

I think any mother would be proud to have you as a son. Your parents raised you well, for you seem to be a kind, loving and selfless person. I'm so sorry for your loss, it is a big one! May God give you strength to accept and evolve from this. I'm sure your mom loved you unconditionally and was very very proud of you.

[@Eraukon_]

I've been lurking your content for years and just never really commented because it would get lost in the vast sea of your fans that love you. Your mom was absolutely proud of you, who you are, what you've become. You've made so many sacrifices for the good of your mom. Your an absolute legend, amazing son and a hero. Take it easy, take your time. We'll be here

[@dixiedodd5278]

Every parent should be so fortunate as to have a son like you. ❤️

[@NicholasVossVader545]

2 days ago I lost my mom. Thank you for making this video, it means more to me than I could ever hoped for.

[@TeamLiquidCS]

❤️

[@magkautumn3533]

So random that an eSports org hearted this.

[@svffix7594]

@@magkautumn3533 a lot of people care about this man, he’s great

[@magkautumn3533]

@@svffix7594 never said he wasn't, just the last org I expected to watch this video much less comment

[@aracoixo3288]

@@magkautumn3533 yes me too

[@magkautumn3533]

@Logan Roof fucking cringelord, no one deserves death over political party choice, and this is coming from a transgender leftist that has been nothing but harassed by Trump supporters. Grow up man, this isn't the place for these antics.

[@ryancole9304]

My heart goes out to you Zack. Thank you for all of the years that you got me through my toughest times. Your mom is beyond proud of who you are and everything you’ve accomplished. You are her greatest triumph. Find some peace and take some time to heal, you have a community here who sends their regards and love.

[@AarononYoutube]

She raised a good son.

[@pwpqwq7648]

The thing I love about most of the popular streamers, is that most of them might seem cocky, but that's only because of their persona. Asmon, xQc etc. all play a persona, but when they aren't, they are the nicest guys

[@sprayqauza3060]

not really he has literally done nothing with his life and let his mom set herself on fire.

[@nocryptio3408]

​@@sprayqauza3060 He's a productive member of society that provides entertainment for millions and has climbed his way to great success over many years despite coming from humble origins. He was supportive, close and kind to his mother whilst being openly critical of some her conspiracy theories. Despite him being unorthodox I think that most mothers would be proud to have a son like him.

[@nicolopez663]

@@sprayqauza3060 youre a terrible human

[@ethan-chan8013]

@@sprayqauza3060 what do you do leave your children and rob gas stations? Your names dumb af btw

[@vhuLTuReZ]

Condolences bro really broke me down watching this also lost my mom in 2016 she was only 44

[@xenonecromera]

Zack, you made the most considerate and compassionate decisions in all of these situations knowing it would cause you mental anguish. You were completely selfless and did everything you could to not cause your mother any more pain. Don't for a second blame yourself for what happened or for the steps that led there. You gave it your 110% in caring for her and gave her a comfortable life when the alternative was poverty with no chance of treatment. You didn't do a single fucking thing wrong and your mother would agree. You made things so, so much better for her. Please be good to yourself.

[@elkirrun3487]

@SharkTank stop spamming

[@xenonecromera]

@SharkTank No my mother's alive. Why are you trying so hard to be edgy? You're not gonna hurt anyone's feelings with a fucking KZbin comment. Nobody cares about you.

[@willynebula6193]

@SharkTank i bet you pull out the wings of a fly just to have a friend!

[@benji4330]

This is the sweetest thing I've ever heard as a 73 year old mother, I hope I will be loved as much .

[@themudpit621]

I like you already!

[@demetter7936]

@Logan Roof News Lets see who's laughing when your mom dies

[@pelodofonseca6106]

@Logan Roof News ?

[@madzerincognito9732]

@Logan Roof News Mr. Testosteron dont get to laugh at anyone

[@kilobitz8639]

you are :D

[@smashleigh247]

I am very close with my mom too. It is my biggest fear to lose her. I'm so sorry you are feeling that pain. Thank you for sharing this

[@BSwitchGTG]

It's been clear from day 1 that no matter what drama was going around online, the one thing we knew is that you were a good son, and that your mom meant the world to you. I'm so sorry for your loss. We don't feel it as hard as you, but we share your grief. I can only hope I can share the same close bond with my kids that you had with your mom. Blessings, Zack.

[@dangehret1349]

@Daniel Foodist Man what is wrong with you?

[@Radi4nc32]

@Daniel Foodist Man yeah fr man tf is wrong with you

[@Radi4nc32]

@Daniel Foodist Man thats how you get your ass best

[@icecreamchino8499]

@Daniel Foodist Man mean

[@ネズレム]

@Daniel Foodist Man Karma is up on you..

[@1ivestreamer]

Hes Incredible to be so early into trying to explain to us his grief... Hes a precious soul. We must try to help anyone struggling to push through life and rather make them enjoy it, and i believe and hope Zack will eventually too.

[@SoCloseToToast]

Love you man, and I understand your pain. Just keep strong and take your time.

[@MrShocker329]

[@Kamingo170]

@Logan Roof nice fake wanna be troll channel, dunce.

[@milacdms7274]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[@jordanglover4496]

you're a legend brother

[@Wafflesaurus40]

I've only recently started watching your content but I really like your videos. You're not alone in this. My grandmother died of COPD 30 years after she quit smoking. It was a very long, slow and painful way to die. I was very close with her and though I felt the sadness of her loss, I was also relieved that her suffering was over. I've smoked since I was 10 and have been diagnosed with COPD since I was 28 (now 40) I'm fortunate enough that I'm not on oxygen and can still get around but I can't do more strenuous things like running. Honestly watching my grandmother die 30 years after she quit makes me wonder if it's even worth it. I still smoke, although I have cut back a lot and I don't want my kids to see me go out like that.

[@NostalGeekYT]

Never commented but I've been watching you for many years, even before I could speak english properly (I'm french). I'm genuinely sorry for your loss man. I know it doesn't mean much coming from a stranger's comment, but you did everything right, and she was lucky to have a son as loving as you. Stay strong.

[@vgross0811]

From someone who has worked in the ICU and on surgical floors: There was nothing you said or did wrong. You listened to a stubborn person. You acted out of love and fear. You called the ambulance at the right time. You made the right call at the end. COPD is insidious and unstoppable. There was nothing you could have done. Ever. At all. There was nothing more you could have been. I've seen families go through this time and again. They have these same agonies. Put this aside for when you're ready to hear it: this wasn't your fault. You are going to also need to forgive yourself when you feel a little relieved that you don't have to worry all the time. That's normal. Anger at her selfishness is normal too. PTSD is not unexpected. Caregiver's support groups are mostly for older people, I know, but there are others like you. I think having a group of people who has been through what you have will make those nights easier. Ta ke care of yourself.

[@JediMentat]

As a medical professional, it sounds like you make the right decision at every turn. Most families are very selfish at the end of their loved one's life, when prolonging that life just prolongs, and even exacerbates the pain and discomfort, and only for a little while. The fact that you had the strength to do that speaks volumes. Best wishes Asmon. It'll get better.

[@jeanmouloude]

My grandpa was 95 and he’d still have his little appartment, a car and a garden, he did everything in his life, lived WW1, did WW2, built houses, cars, but one day one of my aunt decided that he was too old to be on his own and put him in a retirement home, his health went down rapidly, he would forget who we are, couldnt get out of a chair without help, he lived untill 99yo but was a totaly different person at the end So i have to agree, most families are very selfish, and im sure my grandpa would’ve still been very happy untill the end even if it meant living a little less

[@RX7FDfreak]

@@jeanmouloude Thank you for your family service.

[@mareksicinski3726]

Well it’s neither selfish nor not selfish, it is just a decision based on what they think is best

[@colleenfletcher2550]

Daniel it isn't being selfish, it is fulfilling what their loved one wanted. Not what Daniel wanted.

[@devilgod136]

I happen to be one of those selfish family members you talk about. The idiotic medical team wanted to foist upon us a one way extubation as they were convinced my mother would not make it out of that hospital alive. We stood up against them and after 7 months of fighting to save her life she was discharged. She had to re- learn to talk, eat, drink and walk at 73. You can bet that she's very grateful for our stubborness and selfishness. And I have to say, I have never met so many dumb people like last year. Most of them were doctors who did not know what they were doing.

[@Jezedh]

Once I heard "it doesn't get easier, you learn to manage it better." It's been 4 years since I lost my mom, and have found this to be true. You have been part of my Wow life for about a decade. It's been an honor watching you mature into a good man. My heart is with you in your dark time. You will never have the same, or be the same; there is a pain in death that can make you more sensitive to the beauty of life that flows about you. Blessed be.

[@neotower420]

There is strength in the world that was left for us, everyone has their own perspective. And it's up to us to find our way, be strong warrior of time.

[@TheBucketSkill]

I'm so terrified by the thought of that happening to me and my mom.

[@carlgrenddisa2303]

Lost my mom at 26. Almost 29 now. Balled my eyes out during this whole video man. I knew exactly what you were talking about and going through with not believing she's gone. I've just learned to accept she's gone. Love you bro. I know it's an old video but keep your head up

[@fallonjasovsky1704]

Sending you love. Sorry that you're a member of the Dead moms club. Share your mom's name, fellow club members would love to know it. My moms name was Maurean.

[@shelleyshahanaghi3399]

Dear sweet Zack, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I have not heard of you until you began covering the JD trial. I am so glad I found you because, your show makes me smile and laugh. Your commentary and play by play is so spot on and I love your sense of humor. Your momma raised a beautiful boy and she was blessed to have you care so deeply for her. Those good times you spoke of at the end of your video here.... they're her gift to you. Those memories are there to keep you company, to bring a smile to your face and to remind you that she loved you and you loved her. Not every child or parent can say they have or had what you both did. I know that as you move forward in your life, you will emit much of the beauty, sensitivity and personality she had. She will always be a part of who you are. So I encourage you to go forward and shine your best light, be all that you can be, and know that you are seen, you have value and you have worth. I see it. Blessings and love to you.

[@anvilblackstone1557]

Asmongold is the most human streamer out there. He has my condolences for whatever that's worth.

[@janmitchell3976]

well except for his robotic eyebrows that remind me of a 5 night at Freddy's animatronics puppet

[@anvilblackstone1557]

@@janmitchell3976 Yes, he looks like an animatronic magician on the outside, but he's a real person on the inside and he lets his audience know.

[@eugenesis8188]

​@@janmitchell3976That is the most accurate thing I've ever read, and I've never played or watched anything to do with fnaf.

[@TheRealStraw]

Other than Trump living rent free in his head, he's petty cool

[@SIMRIG412]

I’m sorry for your loss. I kind of get what it’s like. My grandma is 74 and just wants to binge drink hard liquor. Then she drinks till she passes out then wake up and drink more. So then she hurts herself falling into stuff! It’s so hard to watch someone not care about themselves. And the worse part is I try to help her and all I hear is I don’t love or care about her. Meanwhile all i do is worry about her but no matter what I try she is going to die from falling or liquor

[@J-jizzy_]

I dont think i ever cried during a video before… Thank you for making this video Zack. It is a great reminder to cherish the limited time we have with our loved ones. One thing you should be proud of is how great of a son you were to her-a much better son than i have been to my mom… we love you man. Rest in Peace to Mama Asmongold. ♥️

[@silentsloth3740]

Totally agree, it really scary to think about never seeing someone that important again...

[@cripplettv1309]

I know this isn't very motivational what I'm about to say but, people die, everyone will DIE at some point. If your family member dies now or later it's the same thing. Everyone dies at some point, and they wouldn't want us to grave behind and be depressed. They'd want us to move on. My father has been suffeeing from an injury for over 15 years and had 4 operations, the doctors said he should've died at the 2nd one, he's basically a walking corpse which can fall at any moment. I've been living by his side watching him suffer and knowing that he can die at ANY moment. Yet I wish he did, so the pain didn't drag anyone down anymore from watching him, and the pain he has having to think what we're going to become if he dies.

[@drenifelclips]

She raised a super star. The best content creator in my books

[@kissme1518]

He's not a super star he just plays video games and streams

[@bluelagooon]

@@kissme1518 he's more of a super star than you will possibly ever be.

[@zukazealanee]

@@kissme1518 What a miserable cunt you must be.

[@snowpuddle9622]

@@kissme1518 let shizos do whatever they want

[@bobbytran7520]

@@kissme1518 i can tell u have parental issues

[@DefectivePieceofChalk]

My dad went a decade ago. The "what ifs" never stop. It's part of your memories about them. You'll learn to accept that this is life, she's at peace and there are memories and lessons in which she'll live on with you. Hopefully you'll carry on the absolute best in her.

[@yeancyjfry6568]

It never gets easier but in time you recover from it faster less days it eats at you less time to recover from them. One step at a time one day at a time. Talk about it don't talk about it. What do you do now? Survive, survive for them live for them. Don't forget to eat.

[@z_zenith]

@@DefectivePieceofChalk [name redacted] is a troll and I've seen him in hundreds of comment sections on videos of sensitive nature. Just ignore him next time you see him.

[@bradonmcgill3467]

My dad passed 11 years ago in January, the worst thing is I don’t remember anything but the dumb stuff we did together. Like, they are great stories, but I don’t even remember what he sounds like. That always made me feel the saddest.

[@kristinacano882]

I just lost my mom a week ago, and my mom was my best friend. She went down really fast after a surgery, so it was unexpected. I too tried everything until the end. I was no t prepared. You have no idea how much this video means to me, to see someone having the same questions and feelings I have had. Thank you for your honesty. I don't feel quite so alone now.

[@CynthiaB82]

My condolences 🙏

[@jennifergannuscio6086]

HUGS♥️!

[@DublinIsBubblin]

Stay strong, sorry to hear about what's happened. Losing a parental figure is never an easy thing to deal with.

[@Sk-ur4sz]

Stay strong ❤ sending my deepest sympathy to you and your family

[@DontWorryBeHappeh]

"I will always do what I can to help and protect people that I care and love." Just beautiful. Sorry for your loss Asmon, I may not regularly watch your streams but its great seeing how much love your mother received from you. You got this.

[@grimmthrashr1035]

@@minuette1752 Dont aknowledge him, his mere existence is irrelevant

[@mariposab.2547]

I’m a home health nurse who also worked hospice. I believe making someone comfortable in the end is a gift. Although it was a difficult choice, it was exactly what she needed. She lived her life like she wanted. And has a great son who made the right choices. I pray my kids act like you when it’s my time. I’m proud of you!

[@huertalapaz8359]

OMG I am so sorry , I am 78 years old and just started smoking again 2 years ago ,having stopped for 5 years , you have convinced me to stop I never want to put my sons through this . Either one would take the role just like you ,but it’s not fair to give them that responsibility, God bless you and pray you find forgiveness for your self you did nothing wrong . I also found you through watching the JD trial and found you very funny and agreed with many of your commentaries. Will keep watching stay strong .

[@nasmom9352]

God bless every hospice worker. Without them we would not have been able to manage the difficult period of transition when my mom got sent home from the hospital after dr could no longer manage her COPD nEven though those damn cigarettes made her so sick she still wanted the crappy things. Unfortunately the oxygen machine was always off when she tried. Then one day she said take these nasty things away and never took another cigarette because I guess she knew her time was up and she pushed him off to the side. She passed away a week later

[@AtomicPrunes]

I've worried about my mom, just on occasion though, when she lost her sister it was very hard to witness it was very very sudden I opened the door and my grandmother was just coming up the steps and went right passed me I was just going to pick up my old boots for my new job and my mom screamed unbelievable loudly And wasn't ever the same I was either working for my grandfather at the time or i think I just went there to help out in the mornings with the cows and it was very difficult to watch everyone that next cold winter morning we had a water line brake very early in the morning so the barn flooded And no one else was sleeping I actually always feel my aunt communicates with broken water pipes it's been very comforting and seems to bring me a lot of peace I've found my mom's relationship with her beloved sister was very deep and having only met her a few times when she'd visit us from Glasgow Scotland i didn't have that and I don't think I have that with anyone and I don't think I'm building relationships with my family like that you make me want to consider trying to, it's not worked that well but I know I'll miss them all eventually I'm really going to miss them

[@monikerone3203]

I have to say that this video was very beautiful. It shows everyone just who you are... a good man. As weird as it sounds... this was very soothing and calming... the sound of rain in the background, you looking cozy with your warm clothing, and your warm honesty. I am in a very very similar sitatuin right now, and this gives me comfort. Thank you Zack.

[@jacquelynlinn1505]

Thanks for this bc I have just recently been watching this great channel. I doing his channel bc of the trial. I do t even play video games. Still, I saw in him and just his character all together that he was a good man and person.

[@Sweebs02]

@Logan Roof News touch grass

[@Acydable]

I'm so sorry, Zach. Guilt is a common emotion when someone passes. It gradually starts to get better. It may take a while, but it does. You did what you could for her, and I'm more than sure she is proud of you. Please take care of yourself now

[@Mr_Lee99]

your a good guy she would be proud man... i lost my mum too through years of heroin addiction... just keep that chin up bro that heart will soon fill up with gold

[@TomasBeckett]

You're awesome Zack. Your ability to talk openly about your mom, your relationship with her, and her health is incredibly admirable. There are few people able to talk about these things with such mental and emotional strength. You inspire me because you're probably the most human person I've ever had the privilege of watching. Thank you so much for wearing your heart on your sleeve. We are all here for you, we love and appreciate you, and since I can only speak from my experience; you made a massive positive impact on my life, but I suspect I'm not alone in that. Thank you

[@KamikazeELF]

My favorite streams were you going through the old screenshots where you captured your most memorable moments in WoW. It was awesome to see your mom by your side through a lot of those screen caps, and everyone could tell how much she meant to you from the way you talked during those streams. Those amazing memories will live on forever.

[@robinredwine1417]

Your Mom was super fortunate/blessed to have you in her life as you were! ❤️❤️

[@katyaa6556]

My mom died homeless in 2017. She smoked her whole life and lived life on the edge... drugs, alcohol, etc. I moved from OK to Alaska in 2013 after being her caretaker for about 8 years, because I just couldn't do it anymore with her wasting her life intentionally away. Come to find out, I was the only reason she was able to keep living with my dad so when I left she got kicked out within a year. The guilt I feel, especially after realizing the last time I talked to her was kind of chewing her out for living the way she chose to... IDK if I'll ever get over it. She was just like your mom from what I could tell. I understand how hard it is to not feel like it's your fault. It's not your fault, dude. It never gets easier at all, it just doesn't. You kind of get distance and clarity that you didn't have right after it happened... but the pain never goes away. I think about her every day.

[@tellafella4826]

Stay strong, and remember to be the son your mom would want you to be: the kind and loving guy you've shown everyone to be. Your friends will be there for you and help you push through this depressing time, as will we as much as we can. We love you Zack, and have hope you'll stay strong. ❤

[@eMBeaR]

my heart breaks for you my dude, its heartbreaking when someone loses a relative especially if they're also a best friend and the person obviously cares so deeply. I lost my dad and grandmother both to addiction and my grandma specifically to copd/smoking so I feel so connected to this. Youre loved my guy, you did well & take the time to go through the feelings.

[@ettiennevangraan]

@Logan Roof wtf is this?

[@WaifuVoorhees]

Those hate comments have now been reported, best way to deal with people that bully. And I just pray karma comes for all of the people that get pleasure from other people's suffering. We're here for you Asmon ❤ Take all of the time you need to heal from this loss... Thank you for being brave and vulnerable enough to share your experiences, you touch more lives than you know. Don't stop being you, and you are loved and supported by many.

[@kiacidic6638]

@Logan Roof Do you want police enforcement to contact your parents and get charged with a misdemeanor?

[@DefectivePieceofChalk]

@@kiacidic6638 Kids like him won't care until they reap what they sow. Harsh consequences are exactly what he needs.

[@kiacidic6638]

@@DefectivePieceofChalk Yeah kids like him have a much higher chance of young to prison when they're older because they have no self respect nor respect for others

[@ramontavaresdacruz2256]

You made realize I don't value my mother enough. Thank you. Hope you're as okay as anyone could be in this situation, and cheering for your recovery.

[@ramongonzale886]

@Daniel Foodist Man Imagine thinking you're funny or trolling. It's actually quite sad how pathetic you are.

[@chajei9885]

@Daniel Foodist Man No one really thinks you're funny here. You're just making yourself look pathetic and childish. I pity at what kind of a person you are.

[@b0n3ZzZGR]

A few minutes in talking about his mom the rain got stronger like she was actually able to hear him ❤😭

[@pogochick5990]

This video was a beautiful and honest tribute to your Mom.

[@lobogarcia1988]

@Logan Roof News bro you’re pathetic

[@OurStL]

Going through the same thing right now with my mom and her COPD. I really don't know what to do, and its hard to watch and be helpless.

[@RonoMorph]

It was always obvious that Asmon’s mom was his light in life, something positive and beautiful. He loved her more than anything. Stay strong, Zack. I can’t imagine how it is what you are going through.

[@luisaaguiar6213]

You are an amazing person. You did great by your mum, she surely be more than proud for the man you became.

[@RendiMento]

Love you man. Take care. You’re a huge inspiration for so many people including myself, your mom will be proud of everything you accomplish.

[@djaken]

❤️

[@gamingmoyai3950]

@The Real Princess Daddy dude, uncool

[@yeahtbh.161]

He's actually not a very nice person though.

[@danielabrego5377]

@@yeahtbh.161 dude, you are reason this country is in its current state, you focus on dividing instead of uniting in time of mourning

[@RomanLock]

@@danielabrego5377 🙏🏽 The truth.

[@benknudsen382]

You did everything in your control. What really matters is that you loved her deeply and were a big part of her life. You had a quality relationship with her and that’s all that you can do. Things will not be the same, but it is a chance for you to grow and move forward knowing you did everything that you could. Continue treating people like this and stay strong buddy 🙏

[@isaacstetson5720]

Not really as far as what we can tell medical wise he just kept her home and let her live as be. Dude is a millionaire she should have been in a 5star assisted living facility for the past 5 years. He did the bare minimum yea he loves his mom but at some point you gotta take action. He had all the means and there is just no excuse.

[@mangalink25]

@@isaacstetson5720 Bro Asmon has said in the past she didn't WANT to live in an assisted living facility. You can not help people who don't want help. Don't put this on just him.

[@isaacstetson5720]

@@mangalink25 who cares if she doesn’t WANT to if she can’t even wipe her own ass she needs to be there period at a certain point you have to do what’s best for people. Hot take but this brainless aww you tried so hard sitting in your room immersing yourself in games ignoring it lol yea right there are people without the funds that have family members dying because they can’t buy insulin I have no sympathy dude fucked up and should feel like shit good maybe he wakes up and takes better care of his dad.

[@redeyes3847]

@@isaacstetson5720 i’m sorry that you had to grow up in a house with lead paint =(

[@HachiBachi168]

@@isaacstetson5720 wow dude seriously? First off he was able to provide his mom with very simple pleasures that made her happy because he plays video games. His video games is what pays the bills and made him the millionaire that he is. Second, its not his problem that there are people without the funds that have family members dying because they cant buy insulin, what does that have to do with him? Nothing. If you cant provide for you and yours that is not his problem either. Lastly, if you have no sympathy, then just do yourself a favor and STFU. Unless you walked in his shoes you are not in position to tell someone else what they should or should not do. Stay in your lane kid.

[@randyramsey8038]

I totally understand. I lost my mom back in 2019 . I was her caregiver. She was a lot like your mom . Take care of yourself and again sorry for your loss.

[@michaelcorbin2540tCorbin-v2d]

Honestly I'm sorry you have been through hell I wish you and your family wealth health and success

[@Alldayanyday1OnThePS4]

I lost my mom back 2011, a week after my 16th birthday due to pneumonia that she's had since 1997 (a few years after I was born). It's been 10 years and it still hurts. But you do learn to live with the pain but become happy knowing she made a huge impact in your your life and many others. I miss my mom everyday, but I'm glad she was able to be relieved from her pain.

[@citygirl2808]

Every mother on the planet would be proud to have a son like you. ❤❤❤

[@strawbuniii]

@@SiljCBcnr are u fr right now

[@DoodlesGaming]

@@strawbuniii he was devoted to his mother and sacrificed a lot of life opportunities and experiences to do so. Granted, I think many mothers wouldn't want their children to give up their own life for them, I think they would be very proud that they raised someone so caring and loving. Ok, his living situation tanked a bit since his mother's death and he hasn't kept up with things cleaning, but it could be very much be linked to some sort of underlying depression. But as a person, it is hard to deny he isn't a good person that cares for the people around him at the cost of himself.

[@MAJCrAiN]

I think what you'll end up eventually realizing, is that these decisions you ponder about, they were all the right ones. The best decision isn't defined by the outcome, rather how you came to the decision, especially in these types of situations. You tried your best, and you made the decision you thought was right. Dealing with situations like these, there is almost no objectivity in the decisions. All we can do in this life is try our best, live with those decisions, and continue forward. We all love you Zack, please take your time getting back into things.

[@tropicaltuna]

Thanks for this comment, I needed to hear it.

[@TheMapleDreamer]

Underrated comment ❤️

[@paulyork4384]

Man you doing this video and the rain was reallly a beautiful video!! My Dad has been smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol for 50 yrs and he just had his left leg amputated 3 weeks ago due to blood flow issues from smoking!! Such a brave video for you to do as it can very tough to talk about let alone to millions of ppl that will view the video!! Much love and so sorry for yours and your families loss

[@RogueParses]

If you decided to take a break from uploading for 6 months to a year or more, I'd still be subscribed. Grieve at your own pace. Good job helping your mother as much as possible.

[@KiuanTroll]

Man this hurts so much, its like seeing my brother having a bad time. I never thought i would cry watching a youtube video and I never knew that i cared so much for Asmon. From the bottom of my heart i really wish him the best. I am speechless right now, this man been through a lot and we had no idea.

[@dawn-blade]

I am crying deep tears of pain that I should have released long ago. I lost my brother over two years ago tragically. It shattered me and took a part of my soul away permanently. I have been living hollow since the day he left this world, and I am a shadow of my former self. I have lost all motivation and goals, and have ceased making progress in life. I am adrift and in such unbelievable pain and grief. I have nobody left, I have no relationship with my parents and family and only talk to my younger brother. 😭💔

[@sebastiantorresortiz1099]

@@dawn-blade hey, you are alive and I'm pretty sure that your brother would not want to see you in pain and sorrow for the rest of your life. Is hard to loss someone.... But we can honor them by trying to live at our fullest and being the best versions of ourselves. Remember you are alive, and life is an opportunity. Live my friend, live. Big hug and I hope you get better

[@KiuanTroll]

@@dawn-blade I'm sorry but i really i am not good with words. But i believe i can understand your pain. The only person i have in my life is my older brother too, and if something ever happen to him i am sure that i would feel like you are right now. He is the only light left i have in my life, and if not for him i would have given up on this life a long time ago. I hope things get better for us all, i wish there was something i could do to help, but to be honest i cant even help myself these days. I believe we are all victims of this cruel fucked up world and the least we can do is to be cool with each other and try to make it better.

[@simonem.4908]

I found you yesterday, far away living in Germany. And oh man - you would never be able to understand what does that mean to me ! I`m in a process to "collect" people with a good heart to convince myself that they are still living in this world. You are one of them. By the way; I lost my Mum when I was 14. I skipped school for wheeks to take care for her in her last time - and I am so glad I have done it. Unfortunately it wasn`t natural for me to do such things - I was a selfish teenager and had lots to learn. And I did

[@rozbrown6826]

Love to you Simone ... You're a good person with a good heart... You don't need to look any further 💜🖤💜🖤

[@oscillatewildly6553]

Oh dear I'm sorry Simone, it's a hard thing to go through, I lost my mum to breast cancer in 2000, she was 48 years old, I'm now 47 and I realise how much time she has missed being on this earth, although I'm sure wherever she is (and I know she's somewhere) she's doing just fine, and I know I'm a complete stranger and I don't know what your spiritual beliefs are, if you have any (don't feel you have to answer that) but I'm sure your mum is also somewhere not far, and you'll never loose that connection. Kind regards from Australia

[@patbraden4342]

Simon hello from pacific nw America. My heartfelt prayer for you is that you are blesses with genuine good people good souls in your life. Blessings

[@noise6869]

I found this channel a week ago, too. Same impression you had, I had. Tut mir so schrecklich Leid für deine Mutter, Simone. 💕 Hugs from Italy

[@simonem.4908]

@@patbraden4342 How nice of you to write me even in German !

[@kparkz47]

I only recently started watching asmon. This was just suggested to me 2 years later and I relate to it so much. I been dealing with my moms shit since I was a kid and have tried to have conversations with her about her situations and she just don’t ever want to hear it. You can’t help so wine who doesn’t want help and that’s all it comes down to. Sorry to hear about your mom asmon and I hope you feel much better two years later!

[@ashhaves5400]

This man is Courage. We all fear, dread the day we lose our loved ones. Seeing Zack handle this, sharing his story, has made me feel just that little bit better about that dreaded day. Thank you, Zack. To Zack, you're true, humble, special. Live well, take time, process and heal. Respect my man.

[@user-rn8sy7kj1h]

skinnier than courage

[@belisarius6949]

Courage is my favourite dog in TV history

[@kayboo731]

Asmon, you set a perfect example of what being a great son looks like. I'm so sorry for your loss I only wish the best for you. Come back when you're ready man, we will always be waitin here for your return.

[@checkit188]

thank you and I will always be waiting for the master of world of warcraft in my eye's asmondgold.

[@MiauHai]

Your parents raised a good boy, As a mom myself, I know she was genuinely very proud of who you became I'm so sorry things went the way they did, Take as much time as you need, everyone's grieving process is unique to them Just know , The day (whenever that may be, there is no rush) you want to show up & hang out, we will too Take care Zack ✌🏻💚

[@dawn-blade]

We all need to tank for Zack right now. His health is down to 10% and he needs time to heal naturally. We can console and be there for him, and keep him out of combat. 😭💔

[@tribecs2]

damn text typed by mother hit's different for me. Im saying thank you for your kind word for Asmongold ^__^

[@Rothkeen]

Just saw this video again since you uploaded it almost 3 years ago. My mom just died last month also from COPD, so I'm just filled with good memories but I know it's gonna be hard when the holidays are coming later this year.

[@mattrainwater526]

It’s taking me several days to finally watch this video bud. My mom is at that point, and I knew this was going to make it that much more real. However , you’ve gave me strength man - the calming and chill demeanor you have has put me in a better place about my life and mom. Thanks dude. You are more than a brilliant gamer to me, always have been. You’ve helped me more than you even know man. Much appreciated brother

[@IAMMRON]

y u lying

[@mattrainwater526]

@Logan Roof News I Know this, was referring to when he was talking about -having the talk with the doctors.

[@mattrainwater526]

@@IAMMRON Can you be more specific on what I’m lying about bub ?

[@Summonization]

I hope u feel better man, dont read those other comments. :/ waste of time and life. ❤️

[@lolltaylor]

How about instead of turning it into something that benefits you, you realize this isn’t about you. It’s about him, and his mother.

[@re11ek]

You have my thoughts and prayers Zach. You're a good man, and an amazing and dutiful son. All of the decisions you listed were the right ones. You did far, far more than anyone could ever reasonably ask from you. It is a cliche, but your Mom is now in a far better and more comfortable place than she's been in a long time. Stay strong man.

[@ConservativeKing]

Zack - I lost my mother, my mommy, my mom, my best friend almost 8 years ago. I was only 31. I can understand the feeling of what it feels like to lose someone so soon. I'm with you brother. Her loss has brought me closer to God and away from being an aethist as I once was. I've known about you, but after watching you Palworld videos, I've realized we're a lot alike. You speak your mind and don't follow the tropes. I respect you for that immensely. The road ahead will get easier my brother. I promise. It is hard to overcome at first and I still find myself wanting to call her to tell her updates and then remember I cannot. But she has a hold on me as I'm finding myself to be a lot like her. So she lives through me. I know you feel it too. Aside from this, thank you for sharing this piece and I wish you peace as well. My mom was a Texan and me, well, Texas was my my first home until I moved to Florida then joined the Army Yada Yada Yada and now im here in New England. Stay true to yourself, always. Much love Eric aka PinnaKal on steam and Twitch.

[@tannajellison5177]

It sounds like you have been a wonderful and caring son, this will benefit you going forward. I have been where you are right now, and a person gets thru these losses by going thru them 'doing what you're doing . There is no right or wrong way to experience your loss your grief, it will come and if you don't fight the experience it will pass. The pain and emptiness will be replaced with happy memories and a grateful heart it takes time so be good to your self and those close to you . Thank you so much for sharing some of your heart.

[@shamblesz]

I lost my mom when I was 7 - I can't imagine what it would be like going through it now as a 32 year old. Stay strong dude. You're doing amazing and you've already done absolutely everything you could for her. She raised a great guy. Rest in Paradise Asmom.

[@Nobsy98]

Sorry for your loss

[@Kyle-ys8ot]

I lost my dad when I was 8

[@elizabethbeauchamp6580]

So sorry that you were in the position of caregiver for your mother by yourself. You did the best you could and don't feel like you didn't do enough for her. I'm sure she was very grateful for your love and support. I lost my mom when I was 23 and I miss her every day. Take care of yourself and try to enjoy your life. Thank you for posting your story.

[@osiriszoran2304]

for someone so famous and wealthy Asmo you a real one. Im sorry for your loss even 3 years later i bet you still miss her everyday

[@TyCzarify]

As an only child of a single mom, I feel so much where you're coming from. My mom recently spent several weeks in the hospital dealing with cancer. It was one of the scariest moments in my life. She is on treatment and the prognosis is looking good, but I thought I was going to lose one of the most important people in my life. Your mom will always be with you in some way. You did the best you could for her in the end and just wanted her to be happy. Stay strong and keep being the caring person that you are for those you love.

[@Northwatch1214]

Look after yourself brother :)

[@Truestoryguy]

Hearing you talk about how Izzy was there even in the tough times is so lovely to hear. What a wonderful woman your mom was, and Izzy too.

[@Velventian]

I am currently at the point at my life where a lot of my family is slowly dying, aunts, uncles, my dad died years ago and the only thing i learned is "life is for living" dont beat yourself up over past decisions, dont try to hold onto a past thats gone. Morn the loss, keep the good memories and cherish the time you have left with the people you have. We all gonna die some day, what matters is how we life till that day comes.

[@GundumTsukiyomi]

Always hearing you talk and express yourself and what you're going through is appreciated, Sorry to hear for your loss Zack.