Absurdism: Life is Meaningless

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[@Blue-gj9cq]

​@AzureWolf too many points on philosophy research not enough on financial research

[@OrganizationXIII]

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[@CYI3ERPUNK]

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[@ameysangore837]

Isn't buying arts like rich peoples version of pokemon cards Absurdism for the win

[@CYI3ERPUNK]

@@ameysangore837 high priced art is basically a gauge for the demand to move money internationally , ie the primary driver of expensive art is moving value around nation-state's monetary controls

[@JBGAMBIT]

“Most people die at 25, but Aren’t buried until 75.” - Ben Franklin

[@elowynnbird]

based ben franklin

[@BIGPIE3333]

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[@blacklyfe5543]

Most people live past 25 that quote is overrated

[@delta2370]

@@blacklyfe5543 most men are lonelly and deppressed , have 9-5 jobs at 25 and are dead inside, they scroll on tiktok and fap every day . this is why so many men kill themselves. this is technically lving but most are not happy with this. most men strive to have true limitless freedom. they are meant to live there life with meaning and to the fullest, to grow strong and show what they are capable of. many strive for this freedom but only a few can reach this state of true freedom through there discipline and strenght.

[@DihelsonMendonca]

Yes, I died last year, but I'm sure this one I will not die. ❤

[@Eternal.Stoics]

*”Do not fear having no friends. Fear having bad friends”* ~My life taught lesson

[@Eternal.Stoics]

@@elinope4745 more wisdom with us:)))

[@Eternal.Stoics]

Guys, more wisdom with us:)

[@whitneyanders5945]

Great quote and I know from experience how true it is.

[@Eternal.Stoics]

@@whitneyanders5945 more wisdom with us:)

[@ravenwhiteduck6460]

So true

[@chrismuratore4451]

The most freeing philosophy of all. As a truly great man once put, "I don't want to just peer into the abyss, I want to maintain uncomfortable eye contact with it." Knowing that in the end, nothing really matters, we can stop dwelling on the past or worrying on the future, and just enjoy the moment we are in. Whatever that moment may be.

[@doomedwojak420]

I'm enjoying being sick

[@jeremieh5009]

It’s really something beautiful, the way I like to think of it is that because life doesn’t mean anything, that inherently makes « mattering » a human concept, which in turn results in the conclusion that because mattering is a human concept things at a human scale do matter, if only to us and not the cosmos

[@chloerainne8818]

Well said, Chris.

[@exittierone]

I'll get laser eye surgery so I can stare at it harder

[@AnkitRaj1917]

Excurbia 🔥

[@roop1801]

Ive always wanted to be a spectator. Like how in games, when you die, you go into spectator mode. You don't exist, but you still get to watch and move around wherever you want. Its also like reading a book, you're a spectator to the characters inside. Just tagging along by their side without having to exist and experience the problems. Anyway, I think that's what turned into a real bad habit of daydreaming too often. And now Im too lost in my head and made my life miserable. I need something to nail me down to reality

[@shivaagrawal6565]

It's very fortunate that you are aware of your state and able to put it in words because that the only way out of this situation successfully and not succumb into the bad faith or philosophical suicide like the ones who face same desires and feelings(like every human does) but unlike you aren't unable to really understand it and write it clearly thus unable to reason with it and get past of it, they submit entirely. Accepting the faith and saying ls that it all was meant to be this way i.e. philosophical death.

[@shivaagrawal6565]

Why do you wants to live like a third person?

[@pingpong1727]

I 100% agree, I often find myself imagining the future and what it will be like instead of enjoying the now.

[@jimmysorensen8451]

Pretty absurd

[@isubtothebest6020]

Embrace it, be thankful for an imaginative mind.

[@nabilfaris1122]

The only channel's videos I look forward to nowadays. These videos are always so thought provoking

[@ennuiblue4295]

Academy of Ideas and Einzelganger have some good content also 🙂

[@billallen6109]

I absolutely suggest Sisyphus 55. He touches on many similar topics and always has a way of leaving you feeling better at the end of the video than the beginning

[@null1700]

Pursuit of Wonder is awesome too

[@kentdms]

​@@ennuiblue4295 you got it. 🙌🏻

[@kentdms]

​@@null1700 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

[@revokdaryl1]

I'm of the opinion that a lot of people know that life is meaningless, but never actually admit to believing this. Trust me, I was at a house party back in 2009 and I made the colossal blunder of telling all these drunk people that life is meaningless and that nothing they did mattered. Needless to say, this started a huge argument and I was called every name in the book.

[@tristantheoofer2]

well yeah inherently life is meaningless. youre just the one that gives it whatever the fuck meaning you want. hell there doesnt even need to BE a meaning to it

[@switzerland]

It's a party, and life was meaningless before😅

[@Anomalyy666]

If it's meaningless then why do we all exist?

[@revokdaryl1]

@@Anomalyy666 A child born from an unwanted pregnancy might say the same thing. I, for one, was a mistake. My dad was late pulling out. There doesn't have to be a reason for us to exist. It's just cause and effect. I'd like to believe there's a good reason for us all to be on this earth, but the more I see the things people do to each other, the less I believe.

[@tom-kz9pb]

Sometimes being the "Cheese Who Stands Alone" is the only way of really standing. We live in a world where most people live in a world of delusion. Why should anyone apologize for speaking truth, just because truth poops their party? Pity the poor human race. They will never find truth, because when they find it, they will drop it like a hot potato, and keep looking for some other truth.

[@Psyduck15O8]

Life is like a video game. The ending is fixed and it can't be changed no matter what you do. You can either enjoy it or rush through levels or just quit whenever you want.

[@atari8603]

But, you can't die either.....without finishing the game you will have to either witness the end or wait for the end

[@JayBomb21]

@@atari8603 only if the player makes you die lol

[@tylerdecker6994]

It’s like dark souls much and much suffer and just a few moments of peace and stability

[@soliniv1411]

You can also rage quit 😂

[@dakotakoll-is3rg]

Poignant.

[@diemetaevans6627]

"One must imagine Sisyphus happy" gave me serious chills really astounding video essay 🔥...

[@DorkDork69]

goosebumps

[@evantambolang3052]

That means he gladly doing whatever he's doing despite the inevitable failure

[@SK-tk6bi]

I am 26 years old and have read this sentence dozens of times yet I still don't know what sense it makes.

[@Rafirufi]

@@SK-tk6bi i imagine it as Sisyphus don't impose himself the rule or goal that he MUST get the rock at the top. He just tries to, knowing that he will fail, but doesn't resent that

[@SK-tk6bi]

@@Rafirufi Alright, that makes a little more sense.

[@freylindapawar9358]

"The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion." - Albert Camus I love this line. It resonated with me very well, especially I consider myself a "rebel" of society and life.

[@prapanthebachelorette6803]

I think the video game mode is brilliant

[@lifeisabadjoke5750]

Should I kill myself or have a cup of coffee? Also like that quote from him

[@deezclops4484]

It's crazy that we get to watch these videos for free. Thank you for all the hard work you do into producing these wonderful, well edited and well written art ❤

[@ApertureThinking]

That is so kind. Glad to hear you enjoy the videos! Thank you for your support.

[@Herlock07]

it's really not crazy. the ideas spewd here are super common, boring, easy to understand, easy to talk about. If you think you are being an intellectual while listening to this, you are in fact dumb.

[@josmclove4426]

The best things in life are free🧡😅

[@YourThoughts.]

“Life has no meaning. Each of us has meaning and we bring it to life. It is a waste to be asking the question when you are the answer.” ― Joseph Campbell

[@GratefulOne]

What a logic 👀

[@ericgolightly8450]

Sounds like existentialism

[@Aorun7]

Im sorry bud. But only creatures can load meaning to life is humans. Animals literally suffered every single day for billions of years before humans. Theres no actual aim or meaning in existence when looking from general organisms perspective

[@entropymaster2012]

Thanks! I have always thought that depression is the initial stage of opening your eyes to the truth of a meaningless universe. But accepting that truth is the first step to overcome that depression...

[@chumbucket4166]

@KMA MHAMAD While it is sad that people commit suicide, maybe they’re at peace now. You don’t know that and it is their choice to do so. After all, nothing matters. This is why I treat life as a game. I’m trying to find out how far I will go to succeed in life.

[@Goutham1826]

@KMA MHAMAD there are no God, or devil. Life is absurd

[@Goutham1826]

@KMA MHAMAD you don't need to die for that. Open your eyes

[@Goutham1826]

@KMA MHAMAD not "some" philosophy, but to the ultimate truth. Im not talking anymore to a ghost pfp

[@northernrogue1]

It's comforting to stumble across a video that legitimises the feelings I've been having for several years now. Knowing I'm not alone in feeling this way does ease my anxious thoughts. All my conclusions to the absurdities of life point towards living more consciously and presently, but I do struggle with that. There's so many distractions, possibilities, and options in the modern world that it's hard to find the correct path. I end up not choosing at all which of course is a choice in itself and it has made me miserable. This passage especially strikes a chord with me - "...the only problem of existence wasn't its lack of meaning, but rather it's absolutely terrifying level of freedom."

[@jgbains]

My exact thought

[@hannahmarie3161]

I relate to your comment intensely - thank you for putting into words my thoughts. I end up not choosing too. I wanna change that

[@Millie-fo1zx]

The emotive language used to discuss these mind boggling topics is amazing. Thank you for creating these detailed videos for those who wish to expand their knowledge and increase their optimism.

[@jorgedeluca1227]

How can I increase my optimism?

[@zaneofficialsc8939]

I started thinking like this since I became 25 and it's all I think about now when I talk to ppl about it they feel uncomfortable and think I'm crazy

[@blackdogadonis]

They aren't ready, we are a small few with open eyes. Know you aren't alone.

[@nicolasgiuristante]

I love being able to put words to the thoughts I had since I was a child. I was stuck in the Nihilism phase for almost my entire life. Only a few years back, after stumbling on the word, did I finally escaped it. It is so weird explaining how difficult getting over this dark but necessary phase is. So privileged of having enough time to even think about it. Some will unfortunately never overcome it. For those who do, once you do, each day’s expectations becomes alluring compared to before; and its outcome, never meaningless. Your videos described it elegantly. Thank you.

[@Sakshi-dk8lk]

how do u overcome it😭😭😭?

[@nicolasgiuristante]

@@Sakshi-dk8lk Unfortunately, I could reply using thousands of words to this question without an actual clear answers. I’m not spiritual nor a follower of a specific school of thoughts/philosophy. I think the key is to realise how lucky we are. To contemplate for ourselves, the billions of years of seemingly random physics and chemistry dance that we are partaking at this very moment. You can choose to live through it passively. You can also set the most mundane goals of all. You can set extraordinary life goals. You can even do all of the above at the same time, and change it at will. It doesn’t matter. If you set a goal and get it done. You’ve not only made it better for yourself, you’ve just witnessed “the universe” set a goal for itself and fulfilling it. To me, it’s a calming and quite amusing thought. Especially when I witness it all in real time. It creates purpose out of the void. Again, i cannot tell you, specifically, how to overcome it. This is but my limited attempt at putting words on my thought process.

[@Sakshi-dk8lk]

@@nicolasgiuristante ok thankyou:))

[@Brandanmayhew]

Yeh whatever, delusional optimist🤦‍♂️

[@nicolasgiuristante]

@@Brandanmayhew I think it’s delusional to not feel at least a glimpse of awe and optimism thinking at the complexity of our own existence. But hey, you can enjoy the abyss that constant pessimism is. No one is preventing you. I’m optimistic that you’ll one day find a way to see “things”, for lack of a better word, more positively. 😉 Have a good one mate.

[@peachwhite7404]

To acknowledge the meaningless in life and accept it, that is some brave quotes right there.

[@abandonedmuse]

I wrote a paper on this in college. I came to the same conclusion he did. Life doesn’t have to have meaning to be enjoyable it is enjoyable simply because you exist. Despite having no meaning you make your own meaning and therefore it becomes more enjoyable. You are the creator of your own universe.

[@jamestonybrown1712]

Or as I like to say...'Your the captain of your own ship'.

[@effyjonz]

Another amazing video. As someone who has worked in almost all industries trying to find my "calling" I learned to become content with my need to constantly learn something new.

[@ApertureThinking]

That's great to hear! Glad you enjoyed the video.

[@betterchapter]

"I have come to believe that the whole world is an engima, a harmless enigma that is made terrible by our own mad attempt to interpret it as though it had an underlying truth." -Umberto Eco, Foucault's Pendulum

[@herptek]

It is more terrible to accept a life that essentially and fundamentally unimportant.

[@stardust6998]

One of the few channels that actually make you think and have effort put in them. Your videos are what have sparked an interest in philosophy for me. Thank you for these videos :)

[@ApertureThinking]

That's great to hear! I'm glad your enjoying the videos. Thank you for your support.

[@Krn7777w]

Thanks!

[@Amphibax]

Considerd myself a nihilist but after watching I feel absurdism fits way better

[@AltairEgo1]

I think absurdism is the ultimate conclusion of nihilism. Eventually you realize, good or bad, stuff juat happens to you and you don't know why. Nihilism's cure, as in, making your own purpose, still doesn't solve the problem of why existence exists, as opposed to not exist. Life, and by extension everything you do in it, is absurd, and ultimately is an act of futility. It's as if we're all playing Gary's mod. Life is meaningless sandbox game. It's ridiculous, so just have as much fun with it as you possible can before its inexorable end. You don't even need to find a purpose. It's not necessary, in all likelyhood, something will happen and it will end that purpose for you.

[@samis2642]

I hate absurdism and nihilism so much.

[@kurexx3424]

@@samis2642why?

[@samis2642]

@@kurexx3424 Because I think the concept of thinking that nothing matters, or nothing has a purpose is stupid and negative.

[@kurexx3424]

@@samis2642 that’s a closed minded way of looking at things tbh.

[@10RBREEZY]

I had a existential crisis by the 3 minute mark. Breath.... i have tried many coping mechanisms to keep me going over the years, but it's like once you see something you cant unsee it. You can't unknow it.

[@0eloquency0]

The purpose of life is to play, love, and learn; The body is designed to play, the heart is designed to love, and the brain is designed to learn.

[@jigarbaaz2488]

Randomly found you out of nowhere and now you are my favourite thanks for all your videos ❤

[@EmeraldView]

I'm falling into absurdism. Life is just.... stupid. Can't wait for it to end.

[@adammorra3813]

😢

[@MagmaleV]

It will end eventually, why hurry to it? Stupidity is amusing, you can still have a good time just observing it

[@kitsodube9322]

Samesies dude

[@persistentlypathetic6820]

​@@MagmaleV because we are suffering everyday that we continue to exist.

[@shanewright4650]

Yeah, sure. My thoughts may feel pretty painful. But I think it's kinda cool that I got to know that there was a world a universe, such thing as existence. Who cares how much pain I experience. It doesn't matter. It's all going to go away and I'll have an eternity of peace and silence. So I might as well live this life out, as I am going to have an infinitely long period of silence afterward at some point. And a bit of pain in the middle is certaiy something other than silence, so is a nice change for once. And you know what? I realised that I am an irrational human, just like any other humans, and have actually experienced comfort and joy at some point during my life which is pretty cool since I have no reason to. So that's definitely a nice bonus.

[@jon6309]

I’m going through an existential crisis right now and this is exactly how I feel about life. So perhaps I should just serve my sentence of life and just live it without worrying about uncertain outcomes because in the end it doesn’t really matter when I die!

[@Sxcheschka]

Laugh in the face of Chaos, and proclaim, "You have no grip over me, for I am the Master of my own Destiny!" The balancing act of life is a struggle, and trying to find that balance without going through the tribulations of life is a difficult one. Just know, it may not be today, it may not be tomorrow, it may not be a month from now, two, three, a year from now, 5 years from now, 10 years from now, You will find happiness, you will find your Silver Lining, just keep pushing till you find that which it is that you are looking for! Stay safe brother in this sea of life, don't let it swallow you like it does to so many others. ☮❤💛💙☮

[@Sxcheschka]

@Velkan🐺 You create your own meaning in life.

[@amask99]

As a Catholic, that perspective bothers me. I think, even if you feel this way, maybe it'd still be better to create a better world and help those more unfortunate, since nobody likes to suffer, regardless of the meaning

[@amask99]

I think that even of really nothing mattered and there was nothing after we die, it'd still be better to losten to one's conscience and do what is considered to be moral

[@jon6309]

@@amask99 what's the point? The universe doesn't care what you do similar to how humans treat ants, as a Catholic do you even care if an ant acknowledges your God? I bet that didn't even cross your mind because you wouldn't care what an ant thinks or does. I find the human race to be the most egocentric and entitled little brats that were even created because they think the universe revolves around them when were are just mere specs unrecognizable on the scale of the Universe. If the Earth exploded today, the rest of the universe wouldn't notice just like the last ant you probably stepped on and didn't notice. Do you get my point?

[@JamesWheeler-fz1en]

Life is a joke and I am so glad I won’t be here much longer the only choice anyone has is when to end there life anything else is just to pass time

[@lontron4268]

So are u here still

[@wholesomeAnimeThighsXD2101]

You still with us bro😢

[@JoshuaTraffanstedt]

Well I hope you've chose to stick around.

[@TonyHiggs-n2j]

Bob Dylan sang that😊

[@jgbains]

I am so happy to see people with some sense of self reflection exist on internet… all of you who listened to this video and critiqued the thought I love you …may there be more of us in future

[@Stellar-Cowboy]

Absurdism is a silly name for the smartest way to think about life.

[@UN1VERS3S]

That's what you people here are. Cowardly, pessimistic and lonely people who have no one on their side. I need to treat you guys with compassion rather than contempt. For what you believe is what is going to be true, you made your lives miserable by following this philosophy.

[@Meinnearach0204]

Well reality is absurd, so an absurd name for a sober perspective of an irrational existence is fitting after all.

[@Stellar-Cowboy]

@@Meinnearach0204 how is reality absurd? Just because the human mind can’t explain or comprehend something doesn’t mean that thing is absurd.

[@Meinnearach0204]

@@Stellar-Cowboy Life is full of paradoxes and ironies. Millions of lives lost in wars over ideologies that preach peace and salvation, some of the stupidest people occupy positions of power and some of the wisest individuals live on the streets and beg for food. We poison and destroy the very environment that we have grown out of and are nourished by. Stars exploded billions of years ago for atoms to assemble in perfect harmony to create every trivial thing that happens in our lives and we whine and complain and dance on tik tok and shit in each other's mouths. Existence is absurd.

[@chaos2232]

​@@Meinnearach0204well said

[@yu1142]

"find the courage to acknowledge your own freedom..." Damn. When I think of the adventures out there that are waiting for me to accept this truth, I feel so much excitement.

[@Igor-my6ml]

Life is mistake, we are not supposed to be here

[@klaus-x5l]

questioning death is a early way of making it mean something

[@eddieavilia2299]

A terrible accident, a freak occurrence.

[@sheldoncasses849]

Life is an inevitability, self awareness is the unexpected phenomenon.

[@hayde4574]

You killed the vibe with the sponsors right in the middle

[@charliepearce8767]

I and my wife are both educated but stopped working 1990. We couldn't see the sense in doing the same thing every day. So we went into the gem fields western Australia. We found a life. Every day was an adventure . Now retired. City working sux !

[@fishypaw]

I'm studying marine biology, and cloning, so that I can give my life meaning, and create my own porpoise.

[@zkennedy5671]

take life as it is people, enjoy it, dont work too hard if you don't need to. Hug your love ones and get away from negative people.

[@THEOvERSiZEDMeATBALL]

It never made sense to me that they always relate a job that includes being on a computer in a cubicle as the example as wasting your life. I work in a body shop but have these exact same feelings. I think any 40 her week job makes you feel such a way..

[@DiogenesNephew]

​@Ben C Naylor Ultimately, it's all pointless. We have no agency as it is, so no matter what you're doing, you can't really claim to be the one responsible.

[@SillySloth-yo6hb]

Truth be told it the same for 99.99999% of all jobs out there, not only white collar jobs

[@firefly9838]

@@DiogenesNephew I wish someone would try that defense in court lol

[@cassielee1114]

All media talks to you as if you work in an office cubicle.

[@herethere5637]

​@PoemsguitarWhat do you think about people who are "larger than life" like Literal legends... Alexander the Great. Wilt Chamberlain. Mike Tyson etc etc. I think everyone has always felt like their lives are meaningless. That's why I choose to entertain my delusions

[@DihelsonMendonca]

⚠️ This video came exactly at the time I needed. For the last 10 years I've been thinking about all that, I got into depression when I suspected that may be religions are all wrong, there's no afterlife, and life itself may be meaningless. I got to despair. SoI began reading several philosophers, like Jiddu Krishnamurti and others. But after all the depression, the struggle against the fatality, the known end of the story, I discovered that although I can't change the end of the story, I can build a new one each day. After all, it doesn't matter anyway, if I fail or not. I am free to live if I am in peace with death. I can do anything I want, and do any mistakes and try again and again, and knowing that this could benefit others, gives my life a new meaning. I received a blank paper. It's finite, but I can write the story I want. This simple perception gaves me all the freedom in the world. I'm in peace with myself and with the existence. ❤

[@KeiraR]

Try magic mushrooms. 2-3g should be enough.

[@DihelsonMendonca]

@@KeiraR Try yourself !

[@KeiraR]

@@DihelsonMendonca I have done then many times. That's why I'm recommending them to you. 😊

[@doomedwojak420]

​@@KeiraR drugs isnt a solution.

[@KeiraR]

@@doomedwojak420 this is medicine. Its beIng used to cure depression and trauma. "Drug" isn't a proper classification for what this is.

[@azimjonsobirov6412]

Hands down the best video about this philosophy. The way it is interpreted and illustrated with the most appropriate phrases, makes you stay unbiased and be truly a spectator.

[@UN1VERS3S]

That's what you people here are. Cowardly, pessimistic and lonely people who have no one on their side. I need to treat you guys with compassion rather than contempt. For what you believe is what is going to be true, you made your lives miserable by following this philosophy.

[@abhisheksing8379]

Your philosophy videos are very calming.

[@joegaster34]

I clicked on this video thinking I was gonna regret it. But at the end, it was actually enlightening. Life may have no meaning, but that's okay because it doesn't need one. We can be whoever we want, live however we want. Sure, there will be bumps in the road, but that's inevitable. I'm glad that I sat down one day and asked myself "what is the meaning of all this?" It was a scary thought, but it ultimately inspired me to change my life for the better.

[@Einer4077]

Thank you because of this video, i've found my own meaning of life again.

[@snmnk283]

Having watched this i can say, ignorance is truly bliss.

[@AFORTUNADOREALISTA555-s5i]

😆 😅✍🏻

[@Johnamekin]

I have been watching hours and hours of NDE stories over the past few months. One recurring idea is that we choose the life we are living at the moment, before we are born. A life of struggle and overcoming them holds a greater potential for your soul's growth than one of easy fulfillment like choosing to be a rich rockstar that has everything handed to them. I like the idea, without fully accepting it, its interesting and makes sense. We are all here for our unique perspective, to give it back to the universe after we're done...and this is a choice we made.

[@shivaagrawal6565]

This idea is what exactly opposite to the existentialism - This idea is essentialnism preceded by existentialism while existentialism talks about essentialnism as successor of existentialism.

[@shivaagrawal6565]

But it's good if it works for you... Like i always said - "Subjective truth is the objective truth of the objectivity of your own subjective life." These are my words pls do not copy them

[@DihelsonMendonca]

Every idea makes sense. That's the problem.

[@DihelsonMendonca]

​@@shivaagrawal6565Yes, this could be called "Essencialism". 👍🙏

[@Johnamekin]

@@DihelsonMendonca to me thats the beautiful thing

[@jjrecon3024]

Too many ppl today think they are preparing themselves for the 'after life', when you can tell just by looking at them, they have not prepared themselves for the current life. ... Insanity 101

[@godless_comedian6667]

As someone who describes themselves as an Absurdist I appreciate this video. Thank you. It definitely doesn't get brought up much.

[@SaraswotiProduction]

Loved the ending on the positive outlook and acknowleding our own type of freedom, living in the present moment it is. Once again, great content!

[@ApertureThinking]

Glad you enjoyed it! I appreciate it.

[@Tearstank]

The solution is to define our own meaning, something I have failed to do so far.

[@JamieSteyn]

I hope you have, it's been a year

[@clusterstage]

I like the way you phrased the 11 minute mark. But one day we will all have a subscription service to air, when we move to Mars.

[@joesantos7085]

I have the myth of Sisyphus by Albert Camus on audible I listen to it a lot the particular passage always gets me "in a universe divested of illusion and light's man feels an alien a stranger his exile is without remedy since he is deprived of a memory of a lost home or the hope of a promised land."

[@StoicStolas]

Well damn……

[@AnantMall]

Could you explain please

[@joesantos7085]

@@AnantMall I'll give you an example to see if I can not make it clearer unless you are wealthy you have to work to eat for clothing and shelter plus you have to get to work so you work to buy food, clothing, shelter and gas for your vehicle that requires you to work to afford all of that so you can work and so on. That is absurd and what the Buddhist call the wheel of samsara it is hard to explain to someone who is still in the illusion but if you're here hopefully your breaking free but I rambled a bit what it ultimately means for me is that once you see the truth that most religions and ideology are used as system of control that if you are not you own master someone else will be that once you realize that as camus says you are deprived of a lost home or the hope of a promised land in so far as you now know that utopia is always just one more step one less freedom one more body away as it always was the only difference is that you now see utopia for what it is like the game we happy few when the pill wears off and you see that the pinata that everyone beat and is eating was a live rat but you did not see it until you vision cleared. That probably did not make it clearer but I hope it helped.

[@alibyt7925]

Very powerful 🔥 Life is a zero sum game. In every circumstance you’re facing, make the most out of the situation that best suits you.

[@bingflosby]

I have multiple sclerosis and we’re definitely not all fighting the same fight respectfully

[@RedSpade37]

Ableism is the next hill we have to cross "in the discourse", in my opinion. I have Elher-Danlos Syndrome, and I am, actually-factually, in pain all the time. It never ends, no matter what I do, no matter what I take, and I've tried everything. Trust me, I mean everything. Some of us just do not experience this reality anything close to the average person. Some of us do not, in fact, even have the "feel-good" chemicals to help us put up with the bad in the first place. It's a hellscape that never ends. I apologize for this message, but I commiserate with your personal journey, if only a little.

[@bingflosby]

@@RedSpade37 understand

[@doomedwojak420]

Damn man, you have the worst disease in the world...feel sorry for your daily pain, but i have my own daily pain too. Life sucks for 99% of people.

[@bingflosby]

@@doomedwojak420 you would think having the worst disease in the world would make people treat me different but they don’t know what multiple sclerosis means and assume because they don’t see the brain damage it’s not there that is one aspect that makes it worse people not knowing what it is and not understanding how fucked I am because it’s a invisible illness lmfbo but I was born for the worst disease I’ve been suffering from the worst since birth it only makes sense that would also equal the worst diseases but I love my life and find a way to be better then people that don’t even have any physical health problems at all lmfbo that’s insane life’s insane

[@grahambuckingham7295]

Sorry, find some joy in small things. Pizza is great.

[@Sxcheschka]

Life is meaningless, that is why you find your own meaning in the meaningless, it doesn't matter if others see it as pointless, because you make it your point to do what you want. We are all biofuel for the universe, and that is magical indeed!

[@justaghostinthesea]

Absurdism had genuinely helped me with my existential anxiety

[@Grxvegxming]

same. also i love your pfp, hello fellow aroace.

[@ame9255]

Quit the internet and social media, start going out , make friends, try out new hobbies and enjoy your life, you've got a whole life ahead of you don't give up, you got this.

[@BIGPIE3333]

‼️ U quit the internet & social media first ‼️ ‼️ So much to unpack here, @13:00 until the end of this video, "All U hav to do is find the courage to acknowledge your own freedom " - Tell that Comment to the beginning of this video when U talk about the struggle of chasing the 💰 & the repetitious cycle most of us R in ‼️ ‼️ A reportable organization did a survey of thousands of Americansz in regards to how many peeps N thee USA hayte thair wurkplace, A shocking - buht believable 72% hayted thair wurkplace 😲 - 👁'm 1 of them‼️ ‼️ Soh just leave & get another gig/job & if U don't like that next job - find unother 1 until you're happy, Right👌, I'm 50, I've bin wurking for decades, I've seen alot of different types of jobs & hayted all of them for thee same reason (just one) every time - Peeple Suhck. I've had meny jobs l ❤️ - it's always thee peeps that make it He ll on 🌎 ‼️ ‼️ Working 4 💰 & not being able to mold yurself into thee best version of U iz thee Biggest tragedy - especially because most dohn't ❤️ whut thay doo & peeps suhck ‼️ ‼️ In A 100 yearz - evury human U know whill bee ⚰️ & no one whill bee left to speak of who U were, character, beliefs, accomplishments etc., in A hundred more years after that (200 years) time whill have literally erased your existence‼️ ‼️ "Despite all our rage we R stihll just Rats 🐀 in A cage". We're ahll trapped on this prison planet, nevur Another life form outside of our planet haz ever been found, mohst of us "R A slave to 💰 then Wee Dye " thoze whoo hav 💰 liv thee best lives possible (why shoold millions be millionaires & Billionaires, but Billions of peeps struggle ?) ‼️ ‼️ 👁 believe in living thee best life possible & finding az much happiness as 👁 can, but I'm also very aware of the fact that Ahll life iz meaningless and no one knows if any religion is real, or whut happens before and after life. So short our time iz, 75% uv thee world 🌎 iz uh slayve to the grind, while the elites gorge - F that ‼️ ‼️ Our system iz wrong, wee should ahll bee free to hone the best version of us wee can bee - find our talents and become the best at those, wurkihng 4 💰 prevents this, whut A waste ‼️ NEWCASTLE CALIFORNIA,USA 🇺🇸

[@grahambuckingham7295]

Very true, practical advice.

[@kingdaleclarke]

Sounds like you got it all figured out.

[@pits7035]

​@@kingdaleclarkethat's the irony, regardless she lives her life.

[@sparrowprince3432]

Something tells me you yourself don’t do any of that.

[@lukewi7186]

Modern existentialism sounds like a good video

[@zainpathan1373]

I have been in love with your voice man. I can listen to you for hours, thankyou for this.

[@bruvginganinja]

Bruh I've been teaching myself about absurdism and it's relation to math and I'm giving a presentation about it on wednesday. this video came at a perfect time.

[@bruvginganinja]

@@foolfunk I’m making it into a video eventually. I give my presentation on Wednesday and finals are coming up so it might be a bit before it comes out, but it’ll happen.

[@JathraDH]

Called myself an absurdist for the last 10 years now. It's nice to see this topic getting some attention.

[@JathraDH]

@@ShelliHunterSmith Well I used to think I was a Nihilist for many years but I came to realize that I don't really fall in with that line of thought. During the lowest point of my life, a span of about 4 years where I was just sitting around daily waiting to die, I did a lot of deep thinking about the meaning of life and our place in the universe. Eventually I reached the conclusion that while I do believe life to be ultimately meaningless it shouldn't mean we can't enjoy the time we do have here. After all we are here and we might as well make the most of the instant in cosmic time that we have to exist. The alternative is just quite depressing.

[@UN1VERS3S]

That's what you people here are. Cowardly, pessimistic and lonely people who have no one on their side. I need to treat you guys with compassion rather than contempt. For what you believe is what is going to be true, you made your lives miserable by following this philosophy.

[@UN1VERS3S]

​@@JathraDHout of everything that we learned from science, mathematics, art, theology, philosophy and every other branches of knowledge humans use to understand the world, you believe everything is meaningless? What a delusion. You isolate yourself for 4 years then come out thinking everything is pointless. No it's not. You don't find meaning inside your room. You ran away from reality and suffering. You abandoned the lives of people whom you might touched. Rocks don't care about you, but life does. We might not remember people of the old, but their every actions affects our modern society, no matter big or small, we are aware or not.

[@JathraDH]

@@UN1VERS3S Yes it effects our modern society all right. The society that in the blink of an eye in cosmic time will be dust. Perhaps YOU are the one who needs to open your mind a bit and consider the big picture. Literally NOTHING we do or will ever do, matters to the universe. YOU are the one deluding yourself if you think otherwise. But as I stated, I am an absurdist, not a nihilist. Despite knowing and accepting this, I still try to live a fulfilling life, knowing its utterly pointless. The weak ones in society that can not deal with this truth are the ones who turn towards god and the afterlife to give their lives some form of perceived meaning. Now shoo back to whatever hole you crawled out of, your opinion means nothing to me ultimately.

[@firefly9838]

@@UN1VERS3S man it's rough seeing someone in such denial. I was angry too at first. It takes time. Hope you are doing well.

[@willschwartz427]

I believe in absurdism, that life is meaningless, and I couldn't be happier. Sometimes having hope, like faith, that there is meaning and overall purpose at the end is too high of an expectation. To lower that expectation, leaves free of dread, free of worry, you may still be afraid of death, but only afraid of death without living enough life. Embracing life, and embracing the absurd is what I strive for. Because we only live once, I'm not wasting a second doing what I hate.

[@DiogenesNephew]

I believe in the same. Although, the experience of not having free will kind of took the joy out of things for me. Only when I don't remember that fact do I fall into a normal capacity for contentment.

[@willschwartz427]

@@DiogenesNephew I think a meaningless life can only be achieved WITH free will. If nothing matters how can there be one end to every life? The universe, space and time, as we know it is chaotic and ever changing. So I believe, it may be wishful thinking, that we 100% decide our own fates, or the events out of our control do. I don’t think anything is planned. We die freely, we make right and wrong decisions.

[@DiogenesNephew]

@Will Schwartz How could life get any more meaningless than living with zero agency?

[@Nthdegree2]

I think life is not meaningless nor meaningful. Its just there for the sake of being there. We are here living life but...thats it.

[@sallybutton6237]

Why so sure there is only one life, you were born once from where? Why can it not happen again, over & over again. I had specific memories as a very young child of such places & things I had never been taught or experienced in my present life. There was a house that became so important to me that I looked for it all my life, I seemed to have a link to it. We have been born many times I assure you. Look forward to your next life. A fresh start & another new beginning.

[@gera_eb2588]

Since u made ur video on Stoicism I’m always fascinated by your content that, at the end of the day, they’re of great value on anyone’s journey towards personal development. Thanks for the video, keep up the amazing work.

[@kristijan8518]

I've always understood that "it's not about the destination, it's about the journey" since we're all gonna die anyway. But what if you deeply despise the journey as well? If there's nothing giving you joy, nothing makes you excited, you have nothing to look forward to? Every day is mindless routine, spent in loneliness, hopelessness and desperation. "We're all in this together" sure but some people have tons of friends, many partners, regular sex and love, while others have none of it. So even though we might be together in theory, in practice it's not how it works. I'm not a charismatic, social person, I have no social life whatsoever. I don't enjoy this, i hate my life and myself.

[@GermanTube123]

Man that sounds awful. I really wish you the best with all my heart

[@Not_blue_000]

Change something. That's the only thing I can tell you.

[@geromiuiboxz765]

Maybe you could start by hating (your) life, but not yourself. ❤ 🇨🇱

[@kristijan8518]

@@Not_blue_000 what exactly? And how? I've heard that shit million times "improve yourself, work on yourself, change something" all of these vague buzz words without any additional context, without actionable advice. It means nothing on its own, like telling a starving African child to get some food.

[@Not_blue_000]

@@kristijan8518 You probably know what actually needs changing, it's your life after all.

[@Clou9Gaming]

I haven’t been able to recover from this phase in my life .. I started to realize that nothing makes sense but I’m conflicted if that’s a good thing or a bad thing

[@polypython]

Just like abstract art there's often beauty in absurdity

[@UnePaquerette]

Good and bad are inherently human concepts. Why limit yourself to those ? Even to live in a community, which we need, since we are group animals, we basically just need to communicate and do our own thing peacefully, without hurting others. Good and bad are very subjective adjectives : they depend on time, culture, state of mind, and so on. They move all the time, though humans do have some references towards how they do define those concepts. It would be foolish to use subjective and abstract concepts as unmovable pillars of reference for your entire life. You're here, and you've got a few tools. You have an unknown amount of time before you, and your past gets blurrier every minute. You have time, now you choose what you do with it. :) Edit : typos

[@keyano93]

I don’t care, i like to live, i don’t know how it feels to be dead so i dont want to die,but i’m not afraid of death, whenever it comes i embrace it. I like playing this Human game, it is a gift, not everything has to have a meaning, even tho it means a lot to me being alive and exploring the world.

[@Marks2Chill]

Beautiful comment..... I'm starting to develop the same living perspective... Simply enjoy being human, cause one way or another...this ride will come to an end. So why not enjoy it....

[@adi9hx]

crazy good vid, literal goosebumps on last line.. thanks !!

[@TheAksceptional]

I highly suggest watching Everything Everywhere All At Once if you haven't yet. Its the perfect description of this exact battle of philosophies in search of the meaning of life.

[@TonyHiggs-n2j]

And Monty Pythons film on the same subject😅

[@jaughnekow]

"the more self aware and self conscious you are, the more miserable you become."

[@JennRighter]

Life is meaningless. I don’t say this often, because it makes people upset. Also, I have no intention of changing anyone’s perspective. More than anything, people misinterpret this. I FEEL like things are meaningful. It FEELS like everything is meaningful. It just isn’t. Karma doesn’t exist because if it did, life would be fair. Another thing that angers people. Life being meaningless does not change the way I live. I don’t want any living thing to suffer because of my actions and I live my life in a way that hopefully reduces any way that I could be contributing to suffering. BUT, I don’t do this because I think it’s meaningful.

[@jeremieh5009]

Exactly! Nothing means anything, but that doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t do what matters to you!

[@ElectricLegend14]

Do be careful to understand that this is your just own opinion and it's totally valid if other people disagree. Everyone's entitled to their own opinion, but do remember, it is an opinion, not a fact.

[@IanCourtright]

Yo. This is exactly what I needed today. Thank you

[@Aquamarine175]

this is one of the greatest channels on youtube as of now, i believe it will continue being that way the topics are interesting and the narration + editing are really good,

[@ApertureThinking]

Thank you, I really appreciate that!

[@CaldoHits]

Needed this. Thank you.

[@ApertureThinking]

You're so welcome. Thank you for watching!

[@xinafi3732]

thank you. Out of all possible topics you could have talked about you chose this one. Lately I was one of those souls who came to the conclusion that life is meaningless. Then, I couldn't really decide my purpose in life, which led to me stoping in my tracks lately. I mean, what's the point of this? While searching for an answer I only found one explanation - it is the first sign of depression. Right then I knew perfectly that it could possibly lead to it but it wasn't now, I was trying helplessly to find another way, another explanation, not to fall into the void. This video was like a bucket of cold water threw on my face for me to realize that to feel that I can't be possibly already drowning. I always thought that people with too much courage are ignorant and dumb. But maybe it's just me who is dumb? It's just that overanalyzing is a way to come to such conclusion? Nenetheless, I find the meaning of life as expressing yourself very meaningfull (how much dumb this wording may seem), I actually posted a comment - that's a first for me, I didn't even bother to check if I made any mistakes in my wording (not a big surprise - I'm not an English native speaker). Maybe I would come to this conclusion myself, but with this video now, I at least didn't waste too much of my priceless time pondering on this. This comment matter as much as any other comment - nothing. thank you - no matter how meaningless it seems :)

[@Dima-ym7fc]

This channel is the definition of late night shower thoughts

[@hardikyadav4494]

Recently, most recently, I have started feeling like that, like there's just no meaning in life, there's no ultimate goal in life, I want to use my life for something great but it hasn't been used so far till this point and I have already deleted all the social platforms I have had, I feel why some raise and some never be able to raise, the point seems unanswered, I'm 27 and I have never been this thoughtful in life, probably it's the age. There's no video on KZbin, there's no article that would calm my wandering throughs.

[@JohnPopcorn06]

Read Kierkegaard!

[@antontomov8532]

Science and rationality is till one point, after that the Universe/God takes over.

[@fideldisalvo]

One of the best KZbin channels I've come across

[@Manu-gl6ny]

That’s why it’s nice to go out and explore nature before it’s to late. It’s nice to have constant change from this “dopamine overdose” social media world. Cheers, the clock is ticking

[@robotman011]

This video has changed my whole perspective on life

[@UN1VERS3S]

Yeah, prepare because following this thought, you I'll kill yourself.

[@ThisIsGody]

I just had this thought on a Tuesday as well. The thought of absurdism.

[@dimarafael5281]

One of the most important lessons of life keep up the good work Aperature

[@nbnick6484]

I'm jealous of your essay writing skills.

[@Мемерони]

This was beautiful. Thank you

[@_shadow_1]

I think the only way to be free from meaninglessness is to kill the Ego before it's fruitless attempt to find meaning kills you or takes any joy that the world has to offer.

[@smithcodes1243]

but killing our ego is very hard and even if you manage to kill it, you will be an enlightened monk free of all worldly desire, you will have no interest in sex or other normal human pursuits, it's not practical for most people because they will have to give up their family.

[@SzBenedek2006]

Your voice is soo calming.

[@chumbucket4166]

I have gone through many of the things you have mentioned in this video. It is crazy to me how you have put my thoughts into a simple 15 minute video. At first…I was just a random person looking for answers to the meaning of life. I stumbled across your channel and realized that there is no meaning of life. I considered stoicism and nihilism, but those just didn’t seem right to me. They led me to feeling sad and unhappy with my current state of life. Eventually I came to the realization of a thing called absurdism, but I didn’t know it was called that at the time. I realized that I could do anything. Literally. And realizing that, was freeing to me. I realized that I could make the choices that I wanted, the only thing stopping me was other people. And if things get too hard, it doesn’t even matter, because I’ll have death to catch me when I fall. Coming to terms with the idea of absurdism then let me to thoughts about religion. Because…isn’t it better to be safe than sorry? Now I realize that of course it is, but also that religion is a gamble. There is such a low chance of the religion that I choose to stick with being correct. There is even less of a chance that my afterlife is a good one. Lastly, I realized that everyone in this world has gone through similar situations with me. Everyone in this world is connected some way or another. Biologically, we are more or less the same. We are the human race. We will all die one day. We have all been born or will be born. Out of the 8 billion people in this world, how could I make a difference?

[@j_vxo]

“…because i’ll have death to catch me when i fall” has got to be the coldest line i’ve ever heard

[@muniivere]

u should consider adding meditation into your life you’ll dig even more brother

[@kaniyamakoyi9260]

out of 8 billion you really don’t need to impact all 8 billion, thats pretty much impossible a little change is even still a change. cause and effect bro

[@jamesseeker1538]

What if there was only 2 billion people? Do you have a greater chance at affecting change? What change do you want? Why? Does it matter how many people there are if you're truly passionate about change or are you using perceived thoughts of the possible failure to come that you show prior restraint on yourself? So absurd....lol

[@agent-33]

If you die, you made a difference.

[@DS-mz1gt]

SHOUT INTO THE VOID ONLY TO HEAR A DEAFENING SILENCE... ITS EXACTLY THE REMINDER I NEEDED. I LOVED, I LIVED, ITS TIME

[@DigiLab360]

Life is meaningles…except you need to worry about the stock market first and invest in art. 🤦‍♀️

[@karmasutra4774]

Pay taxes and worry about death

[@Adon_ye]

I love this channel because it makes me think

[@beach182]

Beautiful video and very well done. Thank you 🖤

[@bisonjones2594]

Thank you for these videos. They are very highly appreciated. I find myself appreciating life even more after watching these videos.

[@JestheBookWyrm]

I needed this today. Thanks for putting out great thought-provoking content.

[@UN1VERS3S]

That's what you people here are. Cowardly, pessimistic and lonely people who have no one on their side. I need to treat you guys with compassion rather than contempt. For what you believe is what is going to be true, you made your lives miserable by following this philosophy.

[@cafeshark1263]

We shout into the void but are only met with silence not even an echo. This quote slapped.

[@Harsh-wi1xi]

There so much in this world to try and we being human redefining and doing things to make us feel certain way and all the other things we do . Trying and helping is the golden path for us .

[@oneshot1315]

Aperture released a video in 2021 December - " What is Love " when I and my girlfriend got in love , Now Aperture releasing today - " Nothing Really Matters " when my girlfriend left me for a new one . Aperture somehow knows me I guess

[@shivaagrawal6565]

Hmm...aperture is your father... Celebrate

[@krishna-tj9ut]

beautifully written can't appreciate you enough thank you

[@BloodravenRivers]

I have to agree with the last guy in ther comments. I didn't realize I needed these kinds of videos nor did I think that individual creators would make up the majority of the content I consume and I love that because I always use the "each one teach one" philosophy in life so I feel channels like this one and why files are so important and should be way more popular than alot of these random youtubers creating nonsense videos

[@Cosmo_P0litan]

We're survivalists... that's the meaning. It's the same thing as questioning why there are planets, stars, black holes, and galaxies... they're just there, doing their thing, forming a temporary balance. The same could be asked of the Universe and anything else beyond what's known.

[@pedrosousa9272]

I would give anything away just to have someone to talk to about life in general. Lately, I've been feeling a strange void in my chest. I have always been terrified of death, and the mere concept of dying scares me. Although I understand that this is a natural and yet irrational idea, I can't wrap my mind around it. We are tiny beings in this vast black void of nothingness. Lately, the only coping mechanism that seems to help me is doing nothing. It's quite contradictory now that I think about it, but there's something about not doing anything and allowing my brain to freely explore these thoughts. It keeps me sane, but at the same time, it reminds me of the subject constantly, which kills me inside. I feel like I'm starting to accept the idea that the "me," that little voice inside my head, is finite, but it doesn't alleviate the emptiness and the heavy feeling I often have in my chest. It's like a childhood friend with whom I used to share great memories but no longer do. Acknowledging that I once had such a friend is significant, but it doesn't change the fact that I no longer have them. It's hard to put into words what I've felt for the longest time. Well, to be honest, I've had these strange feelings for as long as I can remember being me. So, I've come to the conclusion that I don't know if I'm more afraid of dying or living.

[@robertjohnson2916]

You should be afraid of going to Hell.

[@Whoiisteezybo1st]

Hey I’m here if you wanna talk ya know??

[@Whoiisteezybo1st]

I understand exactly what you mean…

[@mehulipoddar7114]

This is why the previous video I watched on Nihilism was not making full sense to me. I know that I believe life has no particular meaning but I have also figured that I am free to create my own meaning for the limited amount of time I am here alive. After watching this video on absurdism, I can say with great joy that I have figured out the term for the ideology I follow. For someone like me, identifying solidly defined features of myself helps me understand or redefine my foundation as a person. I used to be very carefree. Yes, it meant I did not worry much, but not taking up the responsibility of defining my beliefs has often led me to be confused about so many things. It affects me a lot more in the deciding years of my life than my nonchalant childhood years. I think I am making improvement for I realize, this is one of those big dips -- Sisyphus's boulder rolling downhill -- which I am overcoming. This is a good start. Having the name of something I already feel solidifies it in my mind. Thank you, @Aperture for making this video and unknowingly giving me comfort and strength.