Abusive Relationships and Irreversible Scars | Hitogawari (ヒトガワリ) - Kikuo Vocaloid REACTION

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[@Max-ko7qc]

"STOP" *GIRL PROCEEDS TO INTENSIFY THE WOBBLES*

[@garfield3042]

Lol😵

[@liliavanrouge3613]

Nuggito Komaeda love your username and pfp

[@helllinatheuterusstealer6723]

Girl: "no❤️"

[@unluckyp]

Okay... long tangent. Here we go... Honestly, it doesn't take a lot to disturb me. I know my boundaries and the animation of that girl had gone 100 miles over the boundaries I had placed. There was barely anything gory about it (not even any body horror aside from bandages and the eyes in the back), but the way she moved was just unsettling. Her sudden jerks in between the sobbing, scratching and idle standing just made me feel incredibly nervous. It struck more fear in me than most horror films I've watched. It struck fear in me in PURE DAYLIGHT; not even night time, literally with the sun beaming over me. The way she sobbed and scratched her face away just got to me and for an odd few seconds, I even related to it. It's also the music. Kikuo has this talent where he can just make music out of any instruments; he uses instruments meant for different genres but he blends them so well. The constant blaring of distorted sound (probably an electric guitar) just pulled it all together and it just made my mind go numb.

[@ponmin4770]

The way he portrayed the girl LMAO 🤣

[@Whiskeytango812]

Fun fact: this song isn't actually vocaloid, it's sung by the fucking queen who did the vocals for "the girl who sells misfortune", she really never disappoints

[@somkeve]

*hanatan Btw she's awesome!

[@venusgxcha]

YESS HANATANN

[@ren_zoink]

HANATAN!!!!!

[@NicNock]

HANATAN! The KikuoHana duo resulted in some amazing songs and amazing vocals

[@plebbypebblepleb]

KIKUOHANA FOR LIFE!!!!!

[@anaiaram]

"yo what kind of self hatred is this??" my therapist every week

[@cinderheartmeow6032]

I believe the cuts are both mental and emotional. The reason so many people who are in abusive relationships go back to or find someone else who’s abusive is because it’s their normal. It’s what their life has always been like. I’ve been through abuse myself and I can testify that the hardest part of the whole experience was surprisingly not dealing with the abuse in the moment but instead recovering. The reason being that when you’re in an abusive situation your mind blocks off your emotions so that you don’t over stress yourself and ultimately die. But once you leave the situation and find a situation that’s completely different it takes a while to adjust and as well as being in unfamiliar territory most people will start to develop signs of ptsd which could manifest in many ways (ex: alters, bpd, depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety/panic are all common symptoms that are experienced after the trauma) Another reason that it’s so much more painful to deal with afterwards is because people expect you to act normally and to not have a full blown panic attack when someone comes in for a hug. Emotionally it’s jarring to say the very least. I have a lot of years of memories locked somewhere behind metal doors and those memories will stay there until my mind decides i’m stable enough to deal with them. Those types of things don’t allow you to have control. You can’t make yourself remember something if you just genuinely cannot recall it, even if the memory is somewhere in there, if you can’t access it then you won’t know it even happened and you’ll have no recollection of it. That’s the power that your mind has over you. Involuntary repression of memories is something that happens often in trauma victims. Having emotions that you can’t explain or that you can’t find enough reason for could also lead to someone feeling that they’re unworthy of a normal relationship or love. I remember last year I was quite on the edge and I distinctly remember that every time I felt happy or even laughed it would be immediately followed by guilt or a whole mental breakdown. The highs just made the lows feel even lower. I have anxiety/depression/adhd/seizures (stress triggered). I had depression before the abuse ever started so when all of those things started around when I was 11 I completely emotionally shut down. It felt like I was a robot. I probably wouldn’t have been able to cope with the stress and depression otherwise, so shutting down my emotions was my mind’s way of coping. I’m just now opening up to people and trust is still something I don’t hand out freely. I’ve always said i’m not the type of person to consider suicide but last year I hit the lowest i’ve ever been. I didn’t want to get up, I didn’t want to shower, I didn’t want to change cloths, I didn’t even want to move. It must have been really obvious because my school counselor had noticed and forced my parents into putting me into counseling. In short there’s a lot of emotions behind things like abuse, every situation is different, and trying to explain all of those emotions and all of that pain in one video is just impossible. I do appreciate that you acknowledge the meaning of these songs instead of just listening and assuming the content of a song based just on the way it sounds. I don’t find that in a lot of people and it makes me happy when I do occasionally find people irl who know what a song means. Even if it sounds cheery it could be about something very serious like depression, suicide, anxiety, ptsd, abuse, etc. I like meeting people who understand that not everything is surface level and that you have to know the words to fully appreciate the art as it was meant to be.

[@witleynone]

Ahh man, I'm so happy to see more Kikuo reactions, and ones that have Hanatan singing no less! I totally agree with your afterthoughts, the scars from an abusive relationship truly do stay forever, which is mentioned in the lyrics. No matter how much she tries to be happy, the scars have seeped into her mind and she can't help but think she still deserves to feel pain. Being around someone who constantly berates you and justifies their abuse really fucks with your brain and makes it so hard to move on and find happiness :( Lots of people stand by victims of abuse, but sometimes move on when the case has been settled thinking the victim will be okay, but they're really not. And Hanatan really does have such a good range, it's insane. And it's interesting that she sounds happy and childlike in the beginning, which is often how relationships start out. But then her voice raises in volume and range and it's like Hanatan is now internally screaming, wishing for someone to hear her and for people to leave her to rot because she thinks she deserves it. It's truly a beautiful, yet heart-wrenching song :( Very nice reaction

[@shooshiMooshi]

It truly is a sad thing that happens a LOT. And nobody deserves that kind of emotional trauma. Really stunts your life :(

[@ai_123o2]

When this song first came out I listened to it on repeat/ at least once a day. I don’t listen to it that often anymore but I’m so happy you reacted to it! One thing I love about Kikuo is that they convey heavy topics such as this in an artistic and meaningful way. Also yeah the movements are super creepy. It looks like the girl is clawing at her eyes which makes the bandages more unsettling imo.

[@wh0refordazai]

The fact that Pretty Cvnt is playing in the background is just another sign that I will never escape this song🧍‍♀

[@chewymoonrabbit]

I'm such a fan of this song because it is an amazing example of how hard it is to accept wholesome love after an abusive relationship. Many abuse victims have described self-sabotaging behaviour in a healthy relationship because there is a deep-rooted anxiety of abandonment, often accompanied with a low-self esteem that they truly don't deserve this. I've been really enjoying your videos!

[@yourokayfriendnatariuwu6044]

ShooshiMooshi:DONT DO ANYTHING TO THE GIR- Kikuo: Y e s

[@animatorJinxLove]

Everyone confessing some trauma that has happened to them but it just gives me anxiety to even like type out my past situation especially on youtube...

[@thk_anh]

No one should have to say or confess anything they dont want to especially past trauma. I hope you recover well and move forward♡

[@liif7152]

I mean, everyone has different ways to cope with their trauma, maybe typing about it might make them feel better, but it doesn't mean it is necessarily the case for you ^^ I send you my wishes for you to recover and have a happy life ♡ (And I hope you are still ok, I'm only reacting to this after a year after all)

[@mocchikkidraws]

My boyfriend was just talking about this and I was actually surprised. No he never done anything bad, but the meaning of the song is just..wow.

[@Parelf]

Ok, so here's my artistic interpretation. Note as well, that art is meant to be interpreted in many ways. It seems to be a song about a woman who is recovering from an extremely abusive relationship and is now with a guy who is kind and gentle, but she is unable to accept his love, rather seeking out 'The sickest sort of love'. In other words, as an example, self harm. The moral may be that being kind may not always be enough, and that mental issues don't just disappear once you remove the cause. Support is never a bad thing, but serious cases need medical treatment. She claims that because of her mental issues, she will be 'lonely for life', assuming that the kind person she is with wouldn't stay with her either if he finds out or if she doesn't stop after he dose. Mental issues are not joke, or laughing matter. In serious cases like the one presented, medical professionals should step in. So she can take back her life and be truly happy once again.

[@Parelf]

My comment was premature, you got it already.

[@user-xm3ky9np5o]

I just want to say if anyone is going through anything Your NOT useless It’s NOT your fault You ARE worth it You ARE beautiful DONT let them hurt YOU There IS someone who cares and loves YOU you SHOULD NEVER EVER end your life because of what others do Don’t be afraid to ask for help Don’t be afraid to stand up for urself YOUR amazing Don’t be afraid to stand up for others please ask someone for help sometimes pro’s don’t help ask someone that you know who will care and understand you I’m not 100% that this will help but I just am used to helping others I’m sorry if u don’t feel better it’s not ur fault if this doesn’t help!

[@watermelon-jw6lt]

you did good ^^

[@louieloon3034]

[TW: ABUSE, SEXUAL ASSAULT, SELF HARM] I'm saying this with my own experience and saying how I interpret this. Kikuo, judging by her features is a young girl no younger than 13-15yo. Because of her petite stature and childlike nature. In the video, before it shows that she was physically, mentally, and sexually abused by her own father and her fathers 'friends'. I believe the bandages on her face represent that she was blinded to the situation in front of her, not letting herself actually see that this was wrong and that this shouldn't be happening. The ones on her arm I think symbolize self-harm. Because when I was in that state I did it often and a lot. The ones on her thighs might show sexual assault or even possibly r*pe. The eyes on the wall believe symbolizes her father's friends or just her father watching her. Making her extremely paranoid. Also in the other video where it said something about her reproductive system might show an abortion. The way she shakes in this video might show she is having a panic attack or fighting with her own inner thoughts. What I say is not really official but it might give an idea.

[@artthenecromancer404]

Kikuo is a he :)

[@itzicei5743]

The girl: *glitches* Me: *the girl head looks like ball bumping*

[@makiharukawa1518]

Her voice puts a chill down my spine it's so beautiful and powerful

[@ShendoqIsHere]

WOW!!! GOOD!!!!! SHOOSHI, NOW YOU MAKE ME GOT NEW PHOBIA AND FEAR, I CANNOT SLEEP NOW 😭😭😭😭YOU MADE ME AFRAID OF DARKNESS 😭😭😭😭 ITS ALREADY 2 AM AND I STILL CANNOT SLEEP😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@Rin_Cathartes77]

This video is what introduced me to kikuos music and I can’t express how thankful I am for it, kikuo is now on my favourite artists of all time

[@levikaneovid-19]

I love Kikuo's music and Hanatan's voices fit his songs

[@kikisstudio4978]

Her: **having a seizure** Shooshimooehi: "i don't like it, stop" Her: **does a worst one**

[@GRENNZ-DA-GAY]

i've always interpreted that the girl was aromantic and is traumatized by forcing herself into romantic relationships that she doesn't understand. She shames and hurts herself for not feeling romantic love.

[@My_darling_lain]

As an aroace person, damn- that’s relatable

[@Fishy77777]

Could you also react to Mind Brand (I believe it’s also about Kikuo but I honestly forgot) it’s a pretty cool sounding song, and I haven’t seen or heard any interpretations of the lyrics just yet

[@artthenecromancer404]

It’s by maretu-p :)

[@lolitaku7229]

I'm an avid promoter of trying to give children a standard in relationships. They should never go below that standard, only reach for the nicer fruit hanging at the top.

[@irene_suennabob]

Like you said, the "cuts" can be most mental and physical. So I think that the bandages on her head represent the mental scars of her past abuse, and the bandages on her arms and legs are there because of self-harm

[@shrimp5239]

Honestly I feel like the wall behind her, with pieces slowly falling and leaving enough space for those "eyes" (which I guess are her psychological scars) to haunt her, is the barrier that her brain put to try and defend her from those horrible scars of the past. Seeing it crumble, I thought that those bandages might've been her desperate try to sort of "patch things up" and restore that safety blanket she had till then, to the point where her scars resurfaced with her defenses crumbled, and her full of bandages in a desperate fit for salvation and to block those memories from getting to her, which to me would sorta explain her weird movements and panic attacks? Maybe the memories surfacing back and her, not knowing what to do, panicking as she thought that those memories would've never came back?

[@みユき01]

I love how at the part where the girl turns into a worm with salt sprinkled on it, sooshi tries to imitate it and starts having a stroke or like starts having rabies lmao

[@P-X331]

Girl: *Wobbles* Mooshi: *wobbles* Comunikation

[@Phosophor]

It’s the ✨depersonalization✨ for me

[@spidersketchYT-15LY]

*me: im not gonna get nightmares tonight* *also me: continues watching and getting nightmares* Edit: WHY ARE HER LEGS SO LONG

[@My_darling_lain]

I think the dress is just short, if you see her body proportions.

[@TheActualJeffery]

I see this as her being empathic to her lover, I see this as an abusive lover being physically and verbally abusive to her and then trying to pull her back by acting sweet. She loves her partner but she doesn’t understand why they hurt her so much. Ultimately, she feels trapped and she feels alone in the comfort of others because of this and she commits suicide to deal with the abuse she had to go through.

[@lucifurr2373]

lol I was re-watching all your video's and then I remembered when I subscribed when you were at like 300 subscriber's

[@shooshiMooshi]

I love you

[@YYeeaah]

Okay so I’m pretty sure it’s about the girl leaving a abusive relationship and finding someone better who treats her better but she had been in the abusive relationship to the point she began to see the abuse and pain as love and what a relationship should be, so as you see in the end she’s said “alone for life” because she is not going to ever accept true happiness meaning she will forever only want someone who brings what she sees as what she deserves or wants which is pain from a abusive relationship.

[@PoggingMan]

Me, an empath: "She's clearly in distress."

[@vee_6913]

This song intimidates me because of the eerie feeling I get from it but I love the song

[@blitzyblook3315]

"There are mental scars left that f**k with your brain" I can't really speak for myself because I myself was never abused, and hopefully never will be. But I have a character who was ab*sed in the physical and s*xual types by her mother and father. They've hurt her so much she actually attemped s*icide. She's moved on now and lives a happy life now that she's away from her parents, but she still sometimes remembers them through seeing things out in public, or gets nightmares at night retaining back to her old memories, or just get off days where she still thinks she's still there in that toxic household. When she moved into her non-toxic household (her aunt's), she had a hard time adjusting and trusting her uncle because of what her father did to her. Things like these scar people. Yes, you may move on, but it'll always be there.

[@yodream3938]

He looks genuinely uncomfortable while watching this, can't blame him tho this video is scary af

[@flanafton2344]

Another note for the theory: The falling tiles in the background clearly represents "you have crossed the line" to the point where the abuser has no care about the victim's privacy. Instead, the girl in the video (the victim) is cornered by the abuser (when eyes suddenly appeared in the video), being unable to escape or "too late to run away".

[@dianarii3230]

God i kin this song so much [TW: Both Physically and Mentally Abused] My family was never abusive but i was so young It was during grade 3, i got into an abusive friendship, those 2 males would always abuse me and I'd act fine and i knew it wasn't fine, i told my parents and they were so worried, i just told them "it's fine i can defend myself!" God i hate it so much, it scarred me more than anything But that wasn't all. I grew older and got into toxic relationships, awful relationships, i don't wanna explain what happened but all i can say is that it was mental abuse, i had to get out of that relationship It was also the cause of my attachment issues bc even tho they were mentally abusing me i just..wanted them to stay forever, not mattering that they kept hurting me inside Now i am in a healthy relationship I am not quite used to it but my partner understands it's irreversible scars and tries to comfort me whenever, seeing this song, i just understood it and it made me feel better abt everything cause i can just relate to it so much Well uh thanks for reading this comment anyways..i just wanted to share my experience with such relationships and how i really get this song

[@irlzombie4623]

i love how pretty cvnt is playing in the backgroumd

[@porunn3839]

Okay, i have a small (BIG) theory. Remember Sylvie, from Teachin Feelin? This song is representing her, in some way. Just imagine that it is, just to make it easier to understand it. You can see that the girl through the song, she is slowly covered in bandages, which means, there was A WOUND before that bandage, wich is really, her recovering of an abusive relationship. What does it mean that she wants a bloody love? An abusive love, a love that shows violence, and revulsion. She soon starts to hate that, that's why she says "I'm corrupted", she wants to get out of that sick taste of receiving hateful and false love. She is unable to accept the normal love that has been offered to her from the beginning, she believes that it is not good, that it is useless, her heart simply rejects it and will reject it since she seems to be used to be treated bad. She is not related to I'm Sorry, I'm sorry. The eyes symbolize that pressure that she herself has to be able to change. But it is a dead end corner in her physical destruction of herself. In the beginning, this was mentioned in the Spanish subtitles: "But my heart firmly rejected his gentle love that offered me salvation." This reinforces my theory, about why would she reject a sweet and compassionate love because of the slow and failed recovery of an abused past. [I am so sorry, i am mexican, so i don't know english perfectly]

[@LOVEREMMA-s8g]

4:50 The wiggling is more funny than scary-

[@Loveyoumrgent]

The centre of gravity is in the neck suggesting the girl hung herself

[@femboyleftist8298]

I was heavily abused, and it does fuck up your mind. It’s like I want/wanted to abuse myself in the end. It leaves your mind wanting you to be abused, and your mind makes you do fucked up shit to yourself in trying to make you relive your abuse. It’s weird because my mind is broken and I know it is, I’ve finally gotten to the point where my physical (at least the outside) body is healed as the entire inside of my clothes would be blood stained. I ended up attempting to leave life multiple times and I’ve gotten out of that now but I’m still healing, both mentally and what my body has went through. So yeah basically I relate to a lot of kikuo’s art and that’s why I really appreciate them as an artist and aspire to do the same but through my drawings

[@ichao354]

THIS IS BY FAR UNCOMFORTABLE

[@kiyomi7385]

I didn't even know I was a fan of Hitogawari until I heard that part, it's on my liked songs in spotify. . . I'm a fan of kikou too OwO

[@makkurakurakura]

Off topic but Hanatan has amazing vocals

[@Kiki-nz3cv]

Be aware: May be triggering to some. About not being able to "accept" kindness and love from others. I personally, as a person who has experienced abuse, feel like it's that you don't know how to act in a "happy/positive" situation because you're not used to be in that type of position. And you don't want to hurt or affect someone in a negative way because you feel a lot of mental pain. You're mabey afraid of someone just running over you're feelings again and not trying to understand you. Not everybody knows how anxiety and selfhatred feels like. And u just want so much to feel normal and give someone love and get love. But you're afraid you wont know how to. Because you go around thinking about this pain thats always there in the back of your mind.

[@Kiki-nz3cv]

Sorry if this was too sad. I just wanted to explain since i coud really relate to the song. I wish everybody happyness.

[@wilburthemagicalcow]

Okay, so without looking at any of the theories about the song, I think that she isn't being abused. Well, she is, but she might be suicidal. The song states something about cuts. She keeps saying are they even mine? So I think she's cutting herself. And whenever she was crying and stressed out, she had another scar on her, so I think she was hurting herself on purpose. I'm pretty sure she did hang herself. Because her hands were still and she was dangling. Kikuo probably didn't want to show that, so he didn't add the rope, but if you look closely, you can infer that she hung herself. I thought she was being abused by one of her parents, but it turns out she might've been abusing herself...

[@spooder-gwyn]

15:13 he dont know whar uncanny vali is?!?!?!

[@des2413]

The first part scared me to the extent that I felt like someone was watching me:(

[@bunnie7571]

Kikuos art makes me simply think of putting my intrusive thoughts into visuals .... I don’t think this is something that would be done usually but I love his work

[@AmeUzumaki_]

seeing this song for the first time and reading the lyrics.. gave me this idea.. the girl right now is in an abusive relationship. not recovering since we see it get worse and worse. at first he is kind but then shows his ugly side, and ends up hurting her. after that she is scared and feeling slightly broken but then after he is once again nice to her to keep her from leaving him. The longer she stays in the relationship with him the more she has to cover up all the pain, abuse and physical scaring on her body to try and mask the fast she is being abused. in the end she becomes aware that she can no longer leave him even if she wanted to, and this is her live now . in a constant cycle of abuse where all can see but no is will help.

[@mochav5044]

I HATE HOW GOOD THE MUSIC IS THOUGH

[@trulykatt]

shooshi: *panik attack* Why do u keep reacting to it if it's so scary?! shooshi: *Yes*

[@mootiechan]

0:22 the song here is the start of “pretty cvnt„ i think.

[@Maestroevengarderestenjoyer87]

My theory is that the eyes at the end are either hers or her past abusers, let me explain. So I think either those are her eyes as I saw another theory about her wanting to get rid of her eyes in order to unsee her trauma. And the other was based off a comment I saw on the original video saying “you will see the angry man in your house even if he’s not there” so I interpret the eyes being of her past abuser and her trauma with them. I also think she hung herself as if you look down in the beginning you can see her feet dangling and not like on the ground.

[@aubrielle6343]

kikuos art and music has helped me a lot .

[@LoveBunnyBlue]

I could never imagine the pain of being physically abused but I know how hard it is to heal from mental abuse scars. Its almost like thinking everything around you is fake and it will only last so long before it becomes the way it was before. A fear that no matter what you will never be good enough to actually have the good people in your life. Thinking that in some way they will fuck you over too because there is no way that someone that good would actually care. So yea...

[@_musix.]

Fun fact: When this song came out it was my birthday. Yet Kikuo made this messed up shit.

[@currentlyhidinginurwallz]

I know this is is really late but maybe the eyes could be security cameras? Like her abuser is watching her constantly

[@BBIIRDDIES_ANDPAWSS]

I feel like this is about a girl doing self harm because she thinks she deserves is because her husband abuses her and she hangs herself with a rope and i think the vpice crack is supposed to be her being strangled and the bandages are scars from a bad abusive relationship.

[@JazzArtzz]

"Don't do anything to the girl tho she looks so sweet" Me, who knows what's coming up: 😁

[@yukuhishine2980]

shes scratching her eyes out-

[@納豆かけ飯]

ごめんなさいめっちゃ怖がってるのに可愛くて笑っちゃった😂

[@Sarah_Malter]

10:00 she's tweaking fr fr

[@BloodMoonCosplays]

I like to think that the motions the girl is having are to portray manic episodes/ panic attacks, of which I have both. I appear very similar to the girl when I get that way, I pull my hair, I hit, I scratch and I twitch. It’s just my theory though, so don’t take my interpretation as fact lol

[@Loser-101]

when somethings itching on my neck and im doing the dishes: 4:49

[@FaintLake]

What the good recommendation i fucking saw.

[@cassiethegreat3860]

Ok so I know this doesn’t make sense but this feels right to me. So basically I think that she had a past of abuse. Sexually, physically, or mental. So the purple eyes may be the eyes of her former abuser. She’s haunted by them. And the brown room might be a mental hospital. As she hurts herself to keep herself from remembering. Wanting to forget. The eyes and black goop might be hallucinations from it. Like ptsd. (I know it might not be like that for all by from what I know it can be like this) leading herself to commit due to never forgetting like she wanted. I know it’s not what it might be but it’s just thought it could work

[@quinn3089]

“stop” “lol no” *seizure*

[@heyhalo3848]

I'm getting jumpscared when pekora's notification pop up in my phone

[@nenemidoriya5886]

I’m waiting for that voice or sound in the song that sounds like death and a demon at the same time

[@MushroomButtons]

Ooooooo it would be really cool if you reacted to "Unrequited love and he who sleeps beneath" by steampianist!

[@NepheliaNyx]

I think it’s the same girl from I’m sorry. I just came across these songs in the middle of the night. Not sure if she died or what, but I do think it’s that child cause those eyes can be the dads and the people had done harm to her

[@UhhhhhWav]

11:13 is what I hate. Random sound. There is something about it that’s uneasy. Like it feels like I’m on a time limit for something

[@Sorenity_doom]

Is that watamote i hear???

[@ItsTisWorld]

Okay I have 2 different theories: Theory #1. She grew up in an abusive household where she watched one of her parents being abused by the other and so as she grew up in such an environment she started to think that, that kind of behavior is love so as she grew up and went out looking for love she was looking for the abuse that she saw growing up but no one she met would give that to her so she eventually harmed and hurt herself to try to feel the same way she thought that abuse she saw would feel and eventually ended up dying from her self-harm thinking that no one actually loved her and she was forever alone. Theory #2. She's in a 2 faced relationship and out in public it looks like a great relationship and feels like a fantasy to her but behind closed doors it's a mentally abusing relationship to the point of she starts hurting herself seeking her lovers attention and care but they never care unless people are there to witness it and after a long time of going through this cycle she realizes they'll never truly love her or seem to care unless she dies and in the last attempt to get their love and attention she's about to commit suicide but even then her lover doesn't care and she dies realizing that she's forever alone and it was all for not.

[@thk_anh]

How does this guy sleep at night I definitely am not :)

[@rickyeditz108]

Maybe he watched comedy videos

[@re2207]

Why does this remind me of When They Cry when Satoko got abused by Teppei (Uncle)

[@shitcore_7787]

My first reaction to this video was saying "is that fucking seweslvt" out loud

[@piriahclowngutz]

This song is the most fucked up vocaloid song in my opinon. When she twitched like that I had to pause- THE MOVEMENTS AAAA-

[@vianeyverde]

Can you do Egoist/flower if you havent. If you wanna watch something messed up, then watch Dont look at me that way, and there is a song by kikuo called When I was absent from school. Both songs are by kikuo. Sorry if I'm nagging you about this, but I'm freezing, sick, and my dad wont pay someone to fix the thing that gives us heat, the fires out, all used up, and all I have to do is get into another room and warm up as best I can, so its kinda hard for me to type. my eyes are kinda watery. not only type but also think. sorry if you didn't wanna hear me ramble. i just comment on your videos a lot about recommendations. if anyone read through this then I applauded you and thank you.

[@vianeyverde]

Thank you for reacting to them.

[@Kyorsomething]

11:20 "BLEGH"

[@margasian20]

I really hope that you will listen "And Then You Became The Moon" from Kikuo, this song is very beautiful and sad (and it was in same album with I'm Sorry I'm Sorry)

[@im_the_oof_presidenthate_m3270]

Maybe the bandages on her face are her psychological scars being brought up and discovered in her new healthy relationship where before when she didn’t know about those scars and the ones on her body are new physical scars. I’m not sure though.

[@mxkirxll1709]

From the way the girl moves when she puts her hands over her face it looks like she is trying to protect herself from whoever is abusing her. The more she gets abused the more bandages she gets. From her head twitching it seems that she's getting hit by something.. And by being watched by those eyes it seems that she had some sort of social anxiety or she hated being looked at wherever she went. I'm guessing the black stuff is censored blood. After all that abuse she went through she h@nGEd herself to end all the pain. (This is a theory btw)

[@mxkirxll1709]

I obviously did not watch the whole video while writing this BAAHAHHAHAHA

[@lluhv_kaysss]

The girl is so beautiful... Why did she get abused and harmed to than be treated right and feeling like she didn't deserve it and ended her life?.... I kinda wish i was as pretty as her..

[@ramunessence4510]

in the end there is no floor, and the physics in the way she is moving and her reactions make me feel like it’s not recovery. I feel like it is a problematic relationship that started sweet, like most of the relationships, then gets worse, until we go back to the present.

[@quit4781]

Everytime she did the weird movement and removed her hands more and more bandages came

[@GardensOfEdenn]

wait..happy 69k, niceeeee

[@Shadow-pt5zl]

is it bad that i was laughing at this instead of terrified

[@BinaryKuma]

Another thing, when i saw in the title shooshi “Kikuo Vocaloid” This is not vocaloid fyi is called uttatemita where hanatan and kikuo created something called KikuoHana just to let you know

[@nicPM]

At first I thought the girl was rubbing her eyes, but then the bandages came up and I thought she was trying to remove em, and lastly I thought she was pulling her hair. soooo yeah

[@kanalikesmusikk]

Love to go back to these songs when I feel like wanna be traumatized

[@del3415]

this made me realize i was in a mentally abusive "friendship" 🧍

[@del3415]

long story short, this one person kept venting to me and always ignored my help and it made me feel useless. now that im away from them, its hard for me to make new friends because im afraid i wont be enough or worthy of someone's kindness

[@wilburthemagicalcow]

@@del3415 me too

[@1-800-v4mpix]

i kind of agree on the fact of it being like ''gomene gomene'' but she had a ex who but in her mind of what ''real'' love is and physically and mentally abusing her and died so she found a new lover who treated her with respect and she was thankful but her ex messed her up in the head so like ''gomene gomene'' she thinks her lover doesnt love her as much as her ex did so she wants her lover to do what her ex did and he\she wouldnt so she probably thought that she was a burden if no one would treat her with the ''respect'' she need and ended up confused on whether she did it to her self or some one else did it and it drove her insane sorry if it doesnt make sense it did in my head😅

[@dungeonmilf1451]

*pulls out gun* COME PERSONA!!!

[@ArseneLupln]

"she all wobbly and shit" bruh I was scared and then that just killed me🤣

[@bakatoaster6000-yt]

Lmfao

[@Ins1gn1f1c4nt]

What if that came from a rape story? "She all wobbly and shit" (Can't keep her still)

[@fleurenheit329]

@@Ins1gn1f1c4nt i dont like what youre implying

[@Ins1gn1f1c4nt]

@@fleurenheit329 I don't like what I think either but their songs are dark-

[@sadistfactory_]

@@Ins1gn1f1c4nt hmmmm 👀👀👀

[@2.nonchalant894]

"Don't do anything to the girl" Kikuo: so obviously violence was the only viable option, right?

[@somkeve]

Kikuo: let's say yes

[@sadpotatochip5930]

Kikuo: "bro, are you at all familiar with my work?"