Addison Grace - I Wanna Be A Boy (DEMO)

hello friends! i think its sort of funny that tuesdays are slowly becoming my new upload days lol- sORRY!! but i hope you enjoyed this song either way- this song has a loooot of meanings so take it how you need it and what you feel it is for you! let me know below if you relate to any of it and i'll see you all song (hopefully with a christmas cover!!) BYEEE!
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[@graceful.addison]

song starts @7:19!!

[@jadynl8311]

I'm so close to it starting 😝😝

[@sourpatchboy4340]

Your amazing 🥺❤

[@sarahfuller6622]

Thank you but the talk is always worth listening to:)

[@deathrose5911]

I looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove it 🥺❤️

[@secretly_snufkin]

have you heard of non-binary? its an umbrella turn and I recommend looking into it.

[@jadynl8311]

I love how she explains the song before singing it

[@NoNameB1az.3]

Rightt like it helps make more sense in the song 😝

[@tiny_acevedo4112]

I really love that and the the clap

[@tiny_acevedo4112]

👏 👏 👏 👏

[@miraculouspaege7269]

Me too. It gives a deeper meaning and can make the listener understand the song more

[@oceanbaycrochet6670]

Same

[@ayano5803]

No-one: Addison: Whoosie whooshie woosh!

[@axel322]

:)

[@estella.d]

@@axel322 :+)

[@aresreum1872]

the sound was funny

[@gr1mmy954]

@@aresreum1872 also cute ^_^

[@Rosbin]

@@00Gizmo wazzat supposed to mean

[@NOAH-rb6vn]

"I want to befriend bugs" Me:*Cavetown flashbacks*

[@sophiescribbles8504]

I have friends who understand me, they’re names are spider, beetle, bee

[@user-lx2sb6jv8e]

They don’t say much but, they will always listen to me-

[@oreoboi8843]

Dont message me I wont reply

[@beanmiller5927]

lol same

[@deadpandeer2615]

@@oreoboi8843 wanna make you cry-haigh

[@aryy]

this❤️

[@-p0ll0-73]

hello beautiful!! didn't expect to see you here

[@lalatitania6954]

ayye aryy♡! We love you!!

[@flower1274]

I thought you were girl in red for a second

[@meosonesheperd1536]

aryy tu aqui que legal :)

[@graceful.addison]

LYRICS // cuz y’all keep asking lol i wanna be a boy or- at least that’s what i think this feeling is take red pen to my paper correct mistakes that god somehow did i wanna befriend bugs climb tall trees, scrape my knees and show i am tough only cry in the nighttime my bed is the thing i can trust cause i’ve grown sick of staring hours in the mirror molding cheekbones hope a new face could appear i’ll break and bend my spine if it’d make you say “you’re mine” it’s so unfair- i guess i wanna be a boy i wanna be a boy spread my legs when i sit i don’t need manners, they’re shit rip my nails, cut my hair cause maybe then you’d finally care why can’t i just be a boy be the thing that gives you butterflies whisper that i make you smile could we pretend that’s me for a while cause i’ve grown sick of staring hours in the mirror molding cheekbones hope a new face could appear i’ll break and bend my spine if it’d make you say “you’re mine, you’re mine, you’re mine” i wanna be a boy or at least be in a body you could love i’ll break and bend my spine if it’d make you say “you’re mine” could it make you say “you’re mine”? it’s so unfair- i wish i could just be a boy

[@vincentprahyz3447]

It’s silly but seeing that u hearted ur own comment makes me smile cos that’s something I’d do 😂😂 anyway hope ur well and this is a banger song! It’s genuine and I can sorta relate. (Oop it’s getting long lol) I like how u described that feeling of just being out of place in ur body. It’s more than just not being in the right body tho. It’s being shunned by some ppl Bc they don’t see u as someone they could love when rly love is abt personality regardless. U rly captured how someone could be perfect but just Bc someone doesn’t have attraction to that gender they’d brush them off (or maybe I’m just an insane Pansexual lol) anyway that’s what I get from it. Sry it’s long and if u read this far holy jebus ur sweet 🥺🥺 u said u hoped someone would get the meaning so I thought I’d interpret =w=‘ as a content creator ik it’s awesome to hear the audiences view and take! ANYWAY have a great one broski!! Ur awesome and I hope ur more famous than BTS someday

[@peacefulleo9477]

Lmao I love how you liked your comment, I like all my comments ahaha

[@onceupxn]

💖

[@cookiebanana4843]

Thank you

[@VixxAngels]

Can me and my "band" (were a small group) do a cover of this song? Our band is called BLNHT if you care 👉👈

[@jennachadwick1112]

As a trans female to male, this song hit me in the feels.

[@feral5625]

A friendly reminder: you are handsome and valid! Remember to take care of yourself, dude

[@danielhilderbrand7393]

Same.

[@justicethedoggo3648]

@@feral5625 lmao he ain't handsome at all lmao . I'm respecting his choice but tbh he ain't handsome at all

[@feral5625]

@@justicethedoggo3648 Kinda rude to say someone isn’t handsome- It’s good that you respect it, but you didn’t have to reply just to put someone down

[@ROTHSTEIN01]

Why would anyone become a male in this generation, being a female is better, females have feminism, women are far more privileged.

[@strig2162]

"I wanna befriend bugs" my instant thought was Boys Will Be Bugs lol

[@st44r.girl_]

same haha

[@jamiemcgee6104]

Yesss same reaction

[@brooke4951]

same thooo

[@ashalaskar133]

thats what i was thinking too lmaoo

[@MEOWMEOWMEOWMEO]

Yesssss sameeeeee lol

[@jacobserna2610]

As a dude, being a guy is similar. You usually have to dress masculine with little to no care about your look to look like a guy. If you dressed feminine or more pronounced, you’d be labeled differently and called a lot more names, maybe not to your face but behind your back. Never once have I thought girls were inferior of guys, I was jealous of girls for their ability to be more open about themselves, their voices, their ability to do amazing things like dancing or being more creative than guys. It kind of sucked. Trust me we feel the same way about other guys and how they look and how girls go for them other than us. I feel the same way about exploration, maybe not about being a woman or girl, but being a different me. If I went to sports, started working out, being handsome or even being smarter and pursuing a career in science instead of art. I just want you to know, we feel the same way. But we hide these feelings because of it not being masculine. We are usually told not to be open about our feelings and if we do feel something, to suck it up or get over it. It sucks and it ruined me as I grew up. Thank you for letting people know about how to be open about themselves. Have a good one.

[@peacefulleo9477]

Same I felt this for a while growing up... That's why the song hit so close home, I love it!

[@themaninyourcomputer]

Yeah...it just seems so stupid, you know? No matter what gender you are you get forced into this tiny stereotypical box and we're all miserable.

[@themaninyourcomputer]

I wish we could just like, stop

[@dragonwithsocks5112]

Omg I literally just finished a essay on this this morning. I hate how people try define how others show act based on their gender. Why are we setting stereotypes for such big groups of people when everyone is different

[@jacobclarke4691]

I totally feel the same and agree with you

[@hehefunny4834]

goodnight to the: trans boys feminists gen z revolutionary geese nonbinary peeps human rights advicates masculine people feminine people androgynous people millenials people questioning there gender and of course..... Addison Grace WOW THX FOR ALL THE LIKES IM SO PROUD OF YOU ALL GO DRINK SOME WATER!

[@elliot6844]

YOU KNOW WHAT I WILL DRINK WATER! CAUSE YOU SEE,MLIKE A NICE PERSON!!! :D

[@hehefunny4834]

@@elliot6844 OMG THANK YOU AND PLZ DO HAVE AN AMAZING NIGHT?DAY AND I U EVER NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO MY SNAP IS ALWAYS OPEN!

[@elliot6844]

@@hehefunny4834 I HOPE /YOU/ HAVE AN AMAZING NIGHT?DAY TOO!

[@bigjoewenis1501]

@@elliot6844 This is the most wholesome conversation I've seen in a long time- :D

[@jesuschrist8833]

some_kid You are to kind for this world..thank you. Not sure what u did. But, you made my day. So, thank you.

[@JT-lz9vd]

now i want to see a song by a guy called “i want to be a girl” because i’ve spent my life being pressured to be masculine oop that’s not what i am. also i love this song and love the explanation

[@li4m659]

I fucking hate gender roles and stereotypes

[@3lixirmusic]

i would totally make a song like that

[@fluffyrocks1926]

There's a song kinda similar to that it's call "I don't know of I'm a boy" or something like that I don't fully remember

[@maripazaguirrebaca3340]

Robbie should do it he would be perfect for this (Robbie is cavetwon)

[@lukescott5261]

Ok bet I'll write it

[@chlorox01]

There are so many reasons I wish I could be a boy. Honestly, its something I've felt since I was around 9 or 10. I started being really tomboyish and rejected all femininity and it has taken me close to 8 years to finally come to terms with being a woman. I hated that my body was changing in feminine ways and that I was expected to grow up have kids and be a mother. I hated and still hate that my interests are so male dominated and I'm never able to find female friends with similar interests. I hate that I'm not allowed to cut my hair short. I hate that I feel like I have to cover up my body to avoid getting stared at by men. I hate that women are seen as weak. I hate that it's gonna be harder for my to get a job in my target field. I hate that I don't even have the room to explore myself because of pressure from my conservative family and friends to conform. I've spent more than half my life resenting that I'm a girl, wishing that I could be a boy, but knowing that I could never truly be happy if I tried to be one. Now that I'm older, I've accepted my female body and features. But I refuse to be seen as just a girl meant to conform to society and tradition. Honestly, I'm so conflicted with trying to figure out if I identify as girl, demi-girl, non-binary, etc. I wish I could just be me and not have to identify with anything. But I know that my fiends and family would never accept me.

[@myroomismycloset2065]

This makes me not feel alone. I started feeling more Tom boy-ish around 2nd grade and I even started dressing more as a boy and I hated wearing dresses (still do) and I’ve always wanted to have a tux fitting since I found out I could. Thank you for making this comment-

[@urfavbella009]

Sorry but I just think is beautiful that a mother watch Addison Grace:))

[@chlorox01]

@@urfavbella009 oh I'm not a mother lol. I was just saying I don't like how I am expected to become one. I'm never having kids haha

[@oreoboi8843]

Kinda am like this comment but instead of hating being tomboyish o just said kk I'm like this now and thought it was normal I've also kinda been tomboyish ever since I can remember because my mom and dad wanted a boy and a girl for twins but got two girls so I became my dads minnie me but when he died I didnt have anyone to do that stuff with so now I'm tomboy that's an introvert who's mother is wanting them to become more feminine

[@shamopl]

ure not alone ty for putting this into words :)

[@onassa1478]

This person's aura is so relaxing, to listen to this voice talking on podcasts would be amazing

[@corbinarnold5998]

YES

[@HiHi-hl3ki]

Yes

[@emeraldmoon4151]

Oh my goshh ikrr. i would pay to listen to that

[@HiHi-hl3ki]

@@emeraldmoon4151 same

[@ivanluciano3501]

their pronouns are her/she?

[@ToxicRea1mGamer]

Am i the only one who claps with her during the intro?

[@lukescott5261]

Nope 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

[@imakecrappystuff2006]

No

[@thorn6994]

I don't think there's anyone who doesn't atleast clap internally.

[@dragonknight46208]

I do!

[@3333a3-y]

Yes you are.

[@fadeintou444]

I just want to be a Feminine boy who has fluffy hair and eyeliner that wears skirts and people love me, but I'm a girl and get body shamed for simply wearing jeans

[@oreoboi8843]

Love your pfp ( sorry this is random I just wanted to say this )

[@starshinee23]

same

[@justsomeonelookingfortheas5998]

same

[@arson4047]

I'm really sorry :(( Im a trans guy, and i consider myself to be a femboy, coz i love wearing skirts and makeup and more femm stuff, even tho i am not a girl. and because i was born a girl none of my family accept me, lucky i have friends that do. anyways. im really sorry :(( and from one stranger to another, i support you so so much

[@fadeintou444]

@@arson4047 aww thank you!!

[@OliversAntics69]

This really brought me back to when I was starting to explore my gender. I felt I wasn't accepted as a trans man and I was much more loved by friends and family as a girl. But fuck that noise, I'm way better off being me. Thanks for making such a beautiful song we can all relate to, even if it's just a little bit ❤️

[@whelvetooth1435]

Damn I found my favourite artist in the comment section. This is scary and surprising. Hello!

[@ruthmcneilly4943]

I totally agree! Thanks for sharing!

[@Snow-sx5ev]

Hey nice to see you here!

[@thebookwormhotel5336]

Fuck man i hope it goes well for me

[@caylyfishbein2469]

Me too.

[@yellowsparklefish337]

This whole comment section is honestly making me so proud of the new generation that I'm getting teary-eyed

[@mattimoodle]

Addison Grace, 2020: takes 7 minutes explaining this isn't a trans song bc they're totally NOT trans 2022: I'm sensing a plot twist in your future real soon

[@cinderblock8369]

oh how the turn tables

[@waytoobiased]

yup lol

[@thereallorddonut9339]

This is something ive been angry and confused about for a while. Because, im a boy, but i grew up with 4 sisters so im a lot more feminine then someboys, and i was bullied for a long time because of that. When i moved to a new school, my dad told me that if i wanted friends, i should change my personality, and not show my feelings. And the terrible thing is, is that a lot of guys are told to hide their feeling, and ive gained a lot of mental health problems because of it. I don't, Not want to be a boy, but like you, i feel like i need to be a girl to have my emotions validated and have someone there who cares for me.

[@jamiemcgee6104]

Don't know if you needed this but just try your best to be who you truly are. If you need a find out who you are then try that

[@morganj1201]

I’m so sorry😔

[@Liv-ym6ul]

We love u no matter ur gender... this is a safe space ❤️

[@capitanspacewaffles7833]

i feel the exact same, im a boy and my dad is always pressuring me to be more "masculine" and it really just makes me mad. i like being more feminine and just wish i was a girl at times so i could be more accepted.

[@worshtippieandzelda]

A Dissapointment I totally understand how you feel. Remember you’re not alone, alright? If you ever need anything, my instagram is sourckrout :) (although, right now I’m “grounded”, I respond pretty fast)

[@axarhall2841]

Me being a nonbinary person, the way she explained everything makes so much sense

[@achidwhodoesntknowwhat28-55]

Me too but I use she/they

[@vanmitchell846]

I use any pronouns, but mostly they them 😁💜🖤💛

[@achidwhodoesntknowwhat28-55]

@@vanmitchell846 cooollll 🤗

[@Kamila-uc5tc]

very much agreed.

[@nektariaxipolita2350]

Yes i agree, enby here with he/they pronouns but not out yet, have only told 2 of my friends :)

[@sofialuna5270]

Hey...I really don't know if I should be saying this or if it's okay to say this, but I'm a 13-year-old biological girl. I've been crying so much. I hate my body. I hate the fact I'm growing a chest, I hate seeing the changes my body is going through. I was 12 when I was sexually harrassed, since then I've hated my body. I wished and still wish I could be a boy, that I could cut my hair short without my dad freaking out, that I could wear hoodies and sweatpants and get rid of everything I hate about my body. That people would think I'm tough. I don't know if it's okay to feel this or if it's a phase. My parents have never told me. When I'm alone, I like to put on a hoodie, put my hair in a ponytail, flip it, and put a hat on. That's what I like to see in the mirror, I look like a boy. I just wish it could last longer. I don't know where or what I'm trying to get with this, I guess I just needed to vent. Thanks for reading this awfully long paragraph, have a nice day. Update: I still feel insecure about my body, meaning in a way it doesn't fit me, and I managed to open up to my therapist about it (literally the only true thing about me I've told her). She supports me and understands why I can't open up to my parents, which is good. I identify as a demigirl right now and switched from she/her to she/they and they/them pronouns. Right now I'm figuring out how to get a binder without my parents knowing or freaking out, I'm thinking I'll just use my friend's old one that they don't use anymore. Though they recommend that I wait until I stop puberty, that way I won't have to be constantly secretly buying different size binders. That's all. Oh, and I turned 14 last month. idk how i feel about it. Update 2: Hey ya'll. Thank you so much for all the support, I really appreciate it. During the time I wrote this, I was in a dark place, my mental health wasn't the best and I was constantly wanting to cry, and me questioning my gender and hating my body didn't make things better. Now, I'm doing much better, my mind is more clear and that helped me lots in understanding myself. I identify as gender fluid, meaning sometimes im a girl and sometimes im a boy. I go by any pronouns, and started using my middle name (Antu, gender neutral name) more often. I still haven't come out to my parents, and I doubt that will happen any time soon. My brother is the only one who knows (apart from my therapist but I don't see them anymore), but he's 5 and doesn't exactly understand gender so...does it even count? Lol. Anyways, thank you guys so much for all the support you've given me. It helped me get out of that dark place and figure myself out. Thanks.

[@Maeymahua]

You can do whatever you want to... Someday you can be you and you'll be happy...

[@charcoal5825]

@@arcixz7435 I’m sorry I hope you find yourself. I guess we are all in the same boat

[@user-pg2tq8cm3s]

No it is ok to feel this way. It’s not a phase. You should talk to your dad about why you want to do this. He’ll understand

[@charcoal5825]

@@user-pg2tq8cm3s I agree as long as it’s safe to tell him

[@oreoboi8843]

I can relate to this but I know my mother would flip on me so I found a way to slowly get rid of feminine features buy putting my hair in a but whereing a sweat shirt jeans and tena shoes out and I sometimes get confused looks but i also dont have to worry about that sorta thing ( edit ) I also kinda convinced her to cut my hair kinda short

[@edgypablo2198]

This human being has a smile that could literally light up an entire room. You're actually beautiful (and your pixie cut is really cute)

[@calebthornblad1831]

These are the biggest facts I’ve seen all day

[@atmisa]

@@calebthornblad1831 hey, can you watch my covers too please? I really appreciate it❤️

[@mushroomsyay1846]

I know I'm basically in love with her

[@ahassett37]

completely fricken agreed

[@carlymarheineke8137]

Yes they do

[@maddybrooks144]

✨ wooshy wooshy ✨

[@milosmate]

✨ wooshy wooshy wooshy ✨

[@heatherjohnson2301]

✨ wooshy wooshy wooshy wooshy wooshy ✨

[@mvdhxtter]

✨wooshy wooshy wooshy wooshy wooshy wooshy ✨

[@cactus6957]

✨ wooshy wooshy wooshy wooshy wooshy wooshy wooshy ✨

[@pogaj1042]

✨ Wooshy Wooshy Wooshy Wooshy Wooshy Wooshy Wooshy Wooshy✨

[@ajclavel5919]

"Or atleast be in a body you could love" that hit me hard. I can relate to this song, being a girl is weird because falling in love with someone who doesn't like your gender or something is something that happened to me also there are things you "need" to be and if you don't want to be it's hard when ppl especially boys tell you " you need to act like a girl" or " your a girl remember haha" just things like that. But all in all I'm grateful for this song.

[@bertadellasala3258]

Lyrics: I wanna be a boy Or at least that’s what I think this feeling is Take my pen to my paper Correct mistakes that god somehow did I wanna befriend bugs Climb tall trees, scrape my knees And show I am tough Only cry in the night time, my bed is the thing I can trust ‘Cause I’ve grown sick of staring out in the mirror Mounding cheek bones hoping a new face could appear I’ll break and bend my spine If it’d make you say you’re mine, it’s so unfair I guess I wanna be a boy I wanna be a boy Spread my legs when I sit I don’t need manners they’re shit Rip my nails cut my hair ‘Cause maybe then you’d finally care Why can’t I just be a boy Be the thing that gives you butterflies Whisper that I make you smile Could we pretend that’s me for a while ‘Cause I’ve grown sick of staring out in the mirror Mounding cheek bones hoping a new face could appear I’ll break and bend my spine If it’d make you say you’re mine You’re mine You’re mine I wanna be a boy Or at least be in a body you could love I’ll break and bend my spine If it’d make you say you’re mine Could it make you say you’re mine it’s so unfair I wish I could just be a boy

[@simrans8050]

Thanks :D

[@bertadellasala3258]

@Crappy Micheal Ikr

[@celineartuni147]

i think it was, "I'm sick of staring hours in the mirror..Molding cheek bones, hoping a new face could appear," but thank you

[@bertadellasala3258]

@@celineartuni147 Oh oops, that was my bad.

[@aWERFRGT6545BGFG]

iwanna befriend bugs Climb tall trees, scrape my knees And show I am tough Only cry in the night time, my bed is the thing I can trust why do people act like girls cant do this

[@Trajectoree]

My best friend and I actually spoke about some of these things a little while ago. I'm a guy, she's a girl, and we've both had times where we wished we were the opposite. The meaning behind this song is powerful ❤️

[@Kate-mu6xn]

Same for me, my bestfriend is a more feminine guy and I'm a more masculine girl. We both have extremely religious families and grow up in a town where over 60% of the people belong to the same faith as our families. Its really nice to be able to talk to someone about how much you hate gender stereotypes and how stupid the world is, not to mention the homophobia. He's straight but he'll still rant with me about stupid homophobic, transphobic people that we hate. He's honestly the best person I have ever met and I don't know what I would do without him.

[@Trajectoree]

@@Kate-mu6xn spot on! often times your best friend can provide the biggest escape from the world. I'm glad you have someone like that in your life :)

[@incredimations1663]

I can also relate to this >-< There have been many times where I viewed being a girl as better than being a boy since there is more freedom to explore clothing, make-up, and acting feminine.

[@willowthemushacorn1055]

in 8th grade I chopped all my hair off and my homophobic uncle said "That looks really good on you, not all that long *stuff*" like thanks most homophobic person in my life, for validating my gender identity >v

[@arandomhumanontheinternet617]

awwee

[@alisamaier7010]

i just did the same thing (even the same age group) but nobody but my true friends and my dad are okay with me just trying to be me, even then people are like "it's just a trend; she'll get over it; oh she's just trying to be cool" and stuff like that. My question for them is why can't you just let everyone just express themselves in the ways they feel are right. I'm not saying that they have to agree with it, just be respectful please.

[@willowthemushacorn1055]

@@alisamaier7010 this

[@gradystalgren1561]

Is it just me or is it always the uncle

[@isabelacastillo8116]

@@alisamaier7010 if they judge you on ur appearance then they only appreciate you skin-deep they don’t appreciate the whole you

[@rainey_z]

"I'll break and bend my spine if it'd make you say you're mine" and the guitar gives me SHIVERS! I love this!

[@wowieitssam9457]

Hey! Quick update: To everyone who doesn’t follow them on TikTok, he came out on April 23rd as nonbinary and uses all pronouns! At the time of this song she hadn’t realize it yet, so this song is the manifestation of those feelings.

[@ahassett37]

It’s been a good several months now since this newer change but they’ve since realized they’re transmasc (though still enby) and he goes by he/they pronouns now :)

[@kaylaabendroth1174]

i like that you said we could interpret as we want. i took it as i don’t mind being a girl, but i don’t like that that’s other peoples perception of me. i don’t like that i have feminine and girlyness pushed onto me. i want to be a boy because i want to be treated the way boys are. the person i would change for would be my parents. i have no doubt that they would like me better if i was a boy. so less of like a love thing but a acceptance and comfort thing. also this is incredible and i would die if you made and posted the full song on spotify

[@sarah_cate_art]

feel this and agree this needs to be a full song

[@e.marshall5735]

I agree totally, I get jealous of the guys at my school because they seem like they have friendship and masculinity I could never have. I identify for now as female but it feels like a hole in me that I can’t have that relationship or masculinity.

[@notlulu137]

i felt a sense of relief when she said “take this song as whatever you need it to be for you” because as a twentyonepilots fan we get really into analyzing their lyrics and whatnot and it’s almost like i’m “immature” if i feel my own meaning from one of their songs because i “didn’t get the complexity of what the artist meant” when like i do, it just spoke to me in another way as well. maybe someone else has felt this idk. so uh, thank you so much addie!💓

[@spagheteater4354]

As a fellow clique, just remember that Tyler doesn't care what we take his music as, as long as it benefits us and saves us. It doesn't matter what HIS meaning was, that's already helped him! If you need to change that meaning for you, go ahead.

[@lemon_juiceee]

Tyler's main reason behind his music making is to help others get through tough times. If one of his lyrics got you through tough times when it was percieved in the meaning you thought it had, that's all he's ever wanted.

[@bruh-et2vd]

As a genderfluid person who mostly presents as masc (and who has parent who think they're child is a girl). This hit me hard. I love this song, i love your voice, i love youuu. Keep goin!

[@Jen_TheSnail]

Do we live the same life???

[@codysoasis8710]

I really like this song, but I do want to say - PLEASE, please, don't become trans (Male or female) to win someone's love. This goes for everyone. Being trans is completely valid! I'm trans male myself! but you should do it for yourself, not for someone else's affection or for gender stereotypes / gender roles. To clarify that last bit... becoming trans to avoid gender stereotypes I don't think is healthy either. Mostly because it doesn't help avoid gender stereotypes. When I presented as a female, I got a lot of comments saying my hair was too short, or that I was too boyish or blunt to be pretty. Now, I identify as a guy - and I still get comments that now say my hair is too long, or that I'm too feminine. What I mean to say is that... changing your gender doesn't fix the issue on either side, and that the healthiest way for everyone is to do it for yourself. if you sit there and you think that you want to be a boy (or want to be a girl) for a crush, or to avoid gender stereotypes, and not for yourself - that won't be healthy for you :(

[@ella-yo9mv]

i few days ago, some people were making jokes about their “celebrity crushes” and how they would be trans for them. personally, as a trans female i was offended because i didn’t do it for love i did it because that’s who i truly am. i went over to them, and was trying to tell them that you should do it for yourself and not somebody else. they continued to say that they were serious and that they would become trans anyway for (insert name here) i’m not sure if i was overreacting about the situation or not, but in the moment i felt no longer valid.

[@codysoasis8710]

@@ella-yo9mv yeah, I feel similarly when people make comments like that. It really just undermines the process of being trans, and it can make the situation very uncomfortable :(

[@codysoasis8710]

@@ella-yo9mv remember though that regardless of what other people do, you are always valid! :)

[@ella-yo9mv]

Cody Odette thank you

[@Servingmentalilness]

Me reading this after my mom talked to me about me identifying as male but twisting and turning it, even though I told her I was a demiboy and like to dress in a feminine way because that was most comfortable for me but she said that she feels as if I don't know who I am so now I'm basically stuck trying to force myself to at least identity as nonbinary even though she said I didn't dress in a nonbinary way (whatever that means): 👁️👄👁️

[@phoebesmith1690]

Is nobody going to talk about how absolutely beautiful Addison is?

[@alexchord6638]

Yeah, absolutely

[@ghostpeppermint4631]

U damn simp

[@qdothings]

@@ghostpeppermint4631 lol no hate but complimenting someone's appearance doesn't make you a simp lol

[@ethanhaymond4457]

I don’t think anyone ever questioned that absolute fact

[@EvolveProgress]

You've clearly never seen a beautiful woman...they actually are feminine. Addison is a 5 at best.

[@jessicat4047]

Revisting this demo after this song was number 1 on my Spotify wrapped, I remember watching this over and over before the single came out on Spotify. Both versions are absolutely beautiful and mean so much to me 🖤 also I had it playing through my phone speakers and my cat who was sleeping at the end of my bed immediately came over and started purring, she loves it too! She hardly ever does that for music :)

[@quantum9964]

As someone that is currently exploring their gender. I can say I get it. Ps: we need this on Spotify (And yes I did watch the whole video)

[@summrofsatrn]

i'm also explpring my gender rn and i completely agree, i get it too.

[@bammity9875]

Same, and we most definitely want this on Spotify or other music streaming services.

[@rilez_2669]

i agree. also im exploring too

[@cassidyblessing4504]

Desperately need it on spotify*

[@ghoullazarus2835]

We need all her songs on Spotify.

[@comrade9129]

"I wanna befriend bug" *outside* My little cousin: "what are you doing?" Me: "giving this worm surgery."

[@Grimmfullish]

me: *sad noises as i remember my pet earthworm*

[@art_insomniac_1655]

@@Grimmfullish me remembering watching my brother eating a worm or “lolly” 🤡

[@myroomismycloset2065]

Me remembering on how I would tear them apart bc I found it interesting on how they’d still move🤡💀

[@estella.d]

bro what’s wrong with y’all i’d pick them up and put them in the grass i-

[@user-wz7cx7pq5t]

y'all torturing bugs and there's four year old me getting told off for helping them

[@thegachabean2392]

Wow, didn’t think this would make me cry. This just... is very relatable.

[@Randzard101]

I cried too, this song hit hard.

[@erikferland6602]

Nothing makes me feel older or happier than seeing how amazingly well your generation is embracing this and finding the comfort in being able to despite it cultural climate. Thank you for opening up like this. I’m 43 and only now learning these things.

[@Mariomaster0314]

As a boy I feel the same. My mom doesn't let me do girl things just because I need to show I'm a boy. It shouldn't matter what you can or can't do just because a specific gender does it. As long as you're respectful to others and their choice that should be what matters most....

[@Agastya-kd4fj]

Same agreed a lot Also yesterday I wanted a stuffed husky plushie but I couldn’t get it because well my mom said “you can’t have it are you a 10 year old girl” (I’m a 13 year old biromantic asexual boy)

[@ferribeatrice9892]

I really hope you both get to express yourselves! You're amazing honestly

[@charleslebowski8878]

@@Agastya-kd4fj tf?? dude it’s a plushie. why would she tell you no for wanting a plushy? that’s dumb. also hi fellow ace :) it’s good to see another one of us out there.

[@carrot7911]

@@Agastya-kd4fj that’s kinda- disgusting. It’s a fucking plushie- also hi fellow ace :D

[@yellowsparklefish337]

@@Agastya-kd4fj i'm sure your mom loves you very much but she's obviously from a very different time. Things have gone extremely fast regarding gender roles and people like you are (thank God) changing the world for the better. But like i said - it's going so, so fast. When you encounter these situations, think; "it's just about speed" and stay patient, stay strong and stay you

[@genevieve2676]

i'm in tears rn. the line about molding cheekbones is so relatable and the whole second verse... wow. we don't exactly have the same experiences but i love this song so so so much. thank you for having the courage to write it.

[@thrs00007]

I see a dislike... Its been 3 minutes... The haters are subscribed...

[@henloedits7409]

*EXPOSED*

[@envoxity9544]

19 dislikes oh no

[@Bestbriest]

@@envoxity9544 I really hope it doesnt go up

[@envoxity9544]

@@Bestbriest yea that would just be- idk words are hard man but yk what im saying

[@mr.noscope4916]

30 dislikes.. oh nononono

[@seanguymon7647]

I don't get why people treat women like this. I am a boy, and I think it's stupid how people say girls can't do stuff that we do. I understand how you feel, as a have a sibling (Non-binary), and they went through the same things

[@isabelacastillo8116]

It’s hard enough for girls as a girl myself. But for boys, at least girls are accepted for wearing pants and shorts and blue but a guy would be shamed or called ‘gay’ and stuff for wearing pink and purple or wearing makeup painting their nails. But thank God it’s 2021

[@isabelacastillo8116]

I mean 2022

[@kk7420]

Pick me boy

[@nolawonlysoup]

@@kk7420 wtf

[@kk7420]

@@nolawonlysoup he just wants attention from females. Clearly he hates men.

[@emmawilliams6900]

this aged so well PLS

[@kaityskorner]

As a teen girl with a pixie cut, I get stares when I'm walking through the mall and it kinda makes me insecure. I love it so that's what matters ♥︎ I love you Addi hehe

[@summrofsatrn]

don't care what others think of your appearance. if you like your pixie cut, then that's truly the only think that matters. (also, i'm sure your haircut looks great. ❤)

[@lumenade3337]

same here! ^v^ but just try to block it out ok? You're beautiful no matter what you do with yourself.

[@janarohlich4498]

Pixie gang ^^ yeeh sometimes i wanna hit those people

[@lumenade3337]

@@janarohlich4498 lol agreed. I also wanna point out the fact that as soon as you get a pixie, everyone thinks ur gay... like that's not how it works. I was still in the closet when some people started making fun of me for looking gay and it made me really anxious. I'm pan not gay too- there is a variety of things other than gay in the LGBTQ+ community y'know? idk I guess it just gets on my nerves a little...

[@fwuity4213]

Same people at church look me up and down *-*

[@jameshoward9618]

anyone else think she has a cute jawline? Also i love the pixie cut.

[@savemefromtheworldplease1477]

omg yes someone that agrees

[@pippin7016]

the rarely looking at the camera while explaining it was just so relatable i can never look people in the eye. also i love this so much its amazing thank you for writing it.

[@no9129]

ADDISON IK YOU PROBABLY WON'T READ THIS BUT I STARTED WRITING MUSIC CUZ OF U UR SUCH A HUGE INSPIRATION FOR ME

[@dangreen3868]

ok, this song hit home in a very weird way for me. It gave me the feeling of "I wish I was cis". this isn't a feeling I like having. I love myself, and who I am includes being trans and includes being nonbinary. but sometimes I do wish I was cis. that I didn't have to go through all the rejection, dysphoria, the weird looks, the awkward conversations. I guess I don't really wanna be cis, I just want my gender not to be a problem. I just wanna be, without that being painful. I gotta think over this, thank you for the incredible song.

[@congomes9151]

As a girl who is in love with someone still in the closet this hits hard, if I were a boy (and she liked boys) I could hold her hand and it would be okay

[@amxr_music]

Can we talk about how this goes both ways cuz nobody likes to talk about the fact that guys feel pressured to be masculine all the time and we can’t wear certain things that only girls wear or they aren’t masculine cuz they have long hair this goes both ways but “being masculine” includes sucking it up and not saying anything

[@lemon_juiceee]

That's why I love drag!

[@haileyfinn1901]

I feel like most other girls don't recognize the pain we put boys through.

[@passionfruit95]

honestly I've been trying to speak this out loud for years but it's not really getting to people.

[@mvdhxtter]

If u remember me, I said I wanted her hair like 2 months ago, and if u remember me, I ACTUALLY GOT HER HAIR!!!😭I FINALLY CONVINCED MY PERANTS 😭😭🤣

[@charmaine7781]

Good

[@rarebonedisease6551]

congrats!! I'm actually planning on getting the same hair soon as well :D

[@peacefulleo9477]

I think I remember you, so good job and congrats!!

[@idontwannabeyouanymore5352]

Congraats

[@anklebiter2529]

Bruh i wish i could too- sadly i live in a conservative christian home that thinks clothes, hairstyles, nail polish, and makeup is meant for a specific gender

[@ziflynn]

Lyrics :) I wanna be a boy Or at least that’s what I think this feeling is Take my pen to my paper Correct mistakes that god somehow did I wanna befriend bugs Climb tall trees, scrape my knees And show I am tough Only cry in the night time, my bed is the thing I can trust ‘Cause I’ve grown sick of staring out in the mirror Mounding cheek bones hoping a new face could appear I’ll break and bend my spine If it’d make you say you’re mine, it’s so unfair I guess I wanna be a boy I wanna be a boy Spread my legs when I sit I don’t need manners they’re shit Rip my nails cut my hair ‘Cause maybe then you’d finally care Why can’t I just be a boy Be the thing that gives you butterflies Whisper that I make you smile Could we pretend that’s me for a while ‘Cause I’ve grown sick of staring out in the mirror Mounding cheek bones hoping a new face could appear I’ll break and bend my spine If it’d make you say you’re mine You’re mine You’re mine I wanna be a boy Or at least be in a body you could love I’ll break and bend my spine If it’d make you say you’re mine Could it make you say you’re mine it’s so unfair I wish I could just be a boy

[@noel7298]

nice. i think it's "staring hours in the mirror" tho

[@jasmine.q7105]

Ty ❤️

[@vanmitchell846]

Ty

[@KF-bf4yd]

Wait I swear I saw someone sing this on tiktok but maybe the song was kinda different

[@Chocotavvo]

@@KF-bf4yd i think you are think of the audio where it’s like “i wanna be a boy but i don’t have that choice” maybe that’s it

[@dannydenison6253]

Me over here like 23 (still feeling like a kid), but just always incredibly happy to see people exploring and going through growing pains, but finding ways to deal with them and be ok with the things that are not perfect. Even turning those problems into something everyone can enjoy. Going from the artist posting the videos and the people rallying around to create the community.

[@tinytert]

I am genderfluid. When I tell people this their first reaction is “what’s genderfluid?” It frustrates me whenever I explain it to them and then they say that’s not real, you’ll always be a girl and you can’t change that, you’re being immature. Luckily I have friends (all born of the male gender) who accept me, but I can’t do things with them and hang out with them regularly simply because others see me as female. Whenever I ask my best friend if he wants to hang out at McDonald’s or something, he says “you know we can’t, Jess. People will think we’re dating.” The thing I hate is that he’s right. We’ve been mistaken as a couple so many times I’ve lost count, and all those time I have to say “I’m gay” just so that they would leave us alone. (I’m pansexual.) What frustrates me is that I do have some kind of attraction to him, and it’s so annoying because almost everyone would be confused since I typically look like a lesbian to most people, and then people who I’ve tried explaining I’m genderfluid to would be like, “oh, so doe that make him gay now?” And I do not want to force him into that. He has never had to deal with any of those questioning emotions before of his gender or sexuality and i don’t want to make him go through that. Everything is a mess. I’m a mess. I wish I was normal instead of this dumb pile of confusion. Sometimes I wish I was born a boy, but then I realise why I chose genderfluid as a label. My gender is fluid. I am not female, I am not male, and I am not anything in between. I am me. I wish others would just realise that we don’t have to pick a side. Edit, 5th of February 2021: I hate to say this, but I basically have just gave up. I’ve decided to just be transgender and go be he and him. Of course I still get a lot of weird looks from that, but at least I can feel comfortable with them calling me he and him and not she her. I would much much much prefer to be called they/them, but he/him seems to be the most I’ll ever be able to go. I’m sorry to my fellow gender fluid people in the replies, I wish I could be more of an example that you don’t have to live up to people’s beliefs and expectations, but I couldn’t deal with it anymore. It was seriously hurting my mental state. Please, do better then me if you are gender fluid. I know you can be you eventually if you try hard enough. My DMs are open on Instagram if you want to talk, @sketchyjessie_ Please be safe. -Jessie Edit, 13th of November 2021: Well. Jessie was wrong. Let's start this over. Hi! I'm Tert, TinyTert if you will, and this past year has been a very long and dwindling road of self discovery that I'm still not at the end of yet. My "friends" who were cishet and I thought supported me in whatever I did? Ditched me. The last thing I heard my old best friend ever say to me was that I was "annoying" and then he left the call, never to send a single message again. That was 7 months ago. Now? I'm apart of this beautiful community who really do love and support me in everything I do. I can't remember the last time I was called she. But that's the issue, I should be... happy, right? This is my dream. Everyone calls me he/him and makes me feel love and supported but for some reason something feels off. I went to therapy this year, and I got diagnosed with gender dysphoria. I haven't been on hormones or anything just yet, but hopefully soon. But now, it feels like.. theres expectations for me. For the past year I've been very sure about being transmasc to the point where my mum understands and supports me. But now? I don't know. I love skirts, dresses, makeup, I want to get dressed up. I've always written it off as gender expression adnt that clothes or preferences don't equal gender but now it's to the point that I can't tell if I like my voice or not or if I like my chest or not. I know I'm not supposed to, because I'm male, right? Sometimes, I love the way my voice sounds. Sometimes, I want to have a tall boyfriend who hugs me and tells me everything will be okay as I wear my cute puffy dress with eyeliner running down my face. I don't know who I am. I don't think I'll ever know. I just wish I could help myself rather then being useless, and afraid and tearing myself apart from the inside out. Sometimes I want to think, What if I was just me? No label, no anything. But then I look back to society and realise that's not possible. I hope you all have a good day, my username on instagram is now TinyTert and more important my discord is TinyTert#0001. - Tert

[@safetyscissors9281]

That sounds really difficult and I want to say that I’ve been there. it gets better and you’ll figure it out in time. It’s okay if things are confusing, it’s not wrong to be who you are and it’s not wrong to be frustrated, although maybe u already know this. Regardless I hope things get better for you because you deserve it

[@tinytert]

@@safetyscissors9281 thank you so much, you made my day :)

[@safetyscissors9281]

@@tinytert no problem! I’m happy if I could

[@Xg00bie.sn00bertX]

I want you to know if you say you don't identify as male or female then you don't, you can be whatever you want to be, and anyone who says you can't, is wrong, they just don't understand the LGBQT+ community. Please remember: you are an amazing human being, don't let anyone tell you otherwise

[@Joey-qy6ci]

Your not alone. It's difficult to be Genderfluid, but here I am. Your not alone my friend

[@avelainehoneycutt446]

I have a deeper voice than most girls, as a kid I identified with girls with deeper voices whether it was a cartoon like pinkie pie (the original mlp) or Hannah Montana. My mom used to say how my voice sounds like a boys voice and would wish that it was a lot higher so I would speak in a higher tone around strangers from being insecure about it. Now, I really like my voice and people will still go “wow, I didn’t expect that” when they hear my voice but I also have people that will compliment it so I just am glad that I have learned to like it.

[@redacted3013]

:) I relate to this so much except I always had a really high pitched voice as a kid and it made me really dysphoric when people commented on it or I heard myself in a recording since I’m non-binary, and I still feel insanely uncomfortable whenever I have to open my mouth but perhaps one day things will get better

[@illdillion2529]

so ur like the only comment who wants to be a girl what

[@lovelylittlesteamboat5498]

unrelated to the whole song, but can I just say that they are the most gosh dang beautiful human being I've ever seen on this planet?? the hair, the eyeliner, the little gap in their front teeth, everything... so beautiful.

[@linus3054]

Addison’s music gets better and better all the time🥺🥺

[@SpiderTNT.]

I think this is what the 'gender envy' trend on tiktok is about right now, Its not wanting to be a boy, just genuinely envying the entire male gender.

[@annabelleyyyyyyyy]

every single thing you said in the leading up to the song i related to so completely. like, i havent touched my makeup in about six months, i only have it because it was all gifts and everyone pushed it on me. and wanting to be a boy purely because i wanted to be seen as they are, treated as they are, talked to as they are was so relatable as well. basically everything you said summed up my life, thankyou for making me feel so seen

[@anthonyrodill9765]

I feel this a lot, especially since I’m still trying to unlearn all of the toxic masculinity stuff I was taught growing up (I’m a college junior currently). My mom always yelled at me whenever I cried and was told that a lot of stuff I do/have is too “girly” (among other things I had to deal with growing up). It took me until late high school to realize that I’ve been taught the wrong things this whole time

[@sawamozdzer3031]

*This beautiful girl singing about wanting to change herself for the one she wants * *Me just wanting to touch her hair and give her all my love* //////

[@satori8015]

I just listened to this song, and it honestly describes everything I’m feeling right now, thank you for creating this and sharing ur experiences, ur so beautiful btw and I love your hair!

[@cheemsy_]

As a closeted trans boy, this song means a lot to me

[@twinkletoe.cos22]

same

[@icarus5514]

Same here lol, like it explains how I feel and how I want to express myself but Im scared cause I know my mum wont accept me...

[@oar127]

My transmasc mlm brain: God this is all my emotions into one

[@samfisher6178]

Yep

[@atmisa]

@@samfisher6178 hey, can you watch my covers too please? I really appreciate it❤️

[@samfisher6178]

@@atmisa sure

[@cryptidgod202]

Same!

[@yourlocalcupofconfusion322]

SAME

[@Ezzydesu]

*Listening after Addie came out as non-binary and knowing I am enby myself* Things are making a lot of sense now.

[@-dylanstheworst-6358]

He's trans now ^^

[@Ezzydesu]

@@-dylanstheworst-6358 so much has changed in the last 9 months but I am so proud of him 💖

[@-dylanstheworst-6358]

@@Ezzydesu same! #transrights

[@valenirvana]

HELL YEAH

[@kiwimoms.bfs.bff.]

I’m not crying you’re crying But for real I’m balling my eyes out

[@sierra-p7z]

yeah- same.

[@karen3799]

Same

[@meru2533]

*you're

[@kiwimoms.bfs.bff.]

@@meru2533 thanks

[@ilikegames7803]

i started tearing before the song even started :((

[@arlobeau18]

omg miss girl everyhting she was saying in th beggining is the story of my life(im trans ftm)

[@luka-gq6io]

God me too... ALL OF THAT just fits. The worst thing is that I'm having the worst crush on someone only liking boys while I'm here not being enough for them and it's just making me sad. Especially today was horrible. You wont believe how happy I was when I saw the song title

[@arlobeau18]

@@luka-gq6io same dude and im sorry to hear that:( i hope things get better for you!!

[@deadboy5678]

God s a m e like all those bs societal rules and stuff made me grow up thinking being a boy or masculine was so bad (for me) like to the point where even when I realized I wasn’t cis, I still never even thought I was a boy. I didn’t even feel like one. It’s only now that I’m 26 that I’m finally making sense of everything. It goes so deep. It’s fucked

[@haibyh311_9]

Same

[@wetfloor222]

Yeah same..except...yknow..the other way around-

[@KJ06682]

This is how I've felt my whole life as well. I really love your perspective on this. It's so relatable to me and I love that. THANK YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!! ❤❤❤❤❤💖

[@lilytilson1808]

I love how she’s just so her like, not anybody else. I’m envious. Also, I love you Addison!! 🥰 💕

[@sleepypuppers184]

As someone who came out this year as genderfluid who was a guy before I love this so so much because I had the struggles to be seen as masculine when I really wasn’t and eventually I am in the position I am now identifying as genderfluid

[@ghost1057]

Congrats

[@Make_You_Panic]

Genderfluidity isn’t a thing love ❤️

[@ghost1057]

@@Make_You_Panic yes it is

[@Make_You_Panic]

@@ghost1057 no it isn’t. By saying you are Genderfluid you are reject the science of TRANSGENDER people and to continue to support and identify as Genderfluid is to deny the scientific validity of trans people. In other words you are invalidating trans people by rejecting our science behind our gender identities.

[@Make_You_Panic]

@Nashira Kelly-Browne that’s literally impossible because science says that there is no way someone’s gender can just change because of how the human brain works. You can’t switch between genders so frequently. It is possible to change gender but you can only do it once.

[@PebblePot]

I love how I found you through searching songs about wanting or feeling like a boy for my brother. Now your my most comforting KZbinr/TikToker (because I don't have any other social media's-) I feel really happy to say my brother is becoming a lot happier knowing he can be a boy and is accepted as a boy. (work in progress with my mom, dad, and himself) Not only him, but I feel proud I can say I'm demigender. because I was still finding myself well looking for songs to help him. Gah, thank you for making this

[@connorharkiewicz9548]

Oh... My... God... this song is literally everything I’ve been thinking about myself for the past year. I’m a boy whose always wished I could be as cute as girls and as open as girls, and have the singing voice of a girl and have the long hair of a girl and just BE a girl! I’m literally about to take the lyrics of this song and do a remix about wanting to be a girl. The message behind this song means so much to me and thousands of others who have seen this video. Also you have SUCH A BEAUTIFUL VOICE like wtf! Hope anyone who reads this remembers that its ok to be who you are and Remember to love eachother and yourself for what you are 💕

[@eas1442]

when she said “at least be in a body you could love.” my heart 🥺

[@4plus4equals27]

Their whole description really resonated with me cuz even from 5 years old when i played T-ball i was gonna have to join softball instead of baseball and I didn't understand why girls couldn't join normal baseball, i was so so angry at such a young age, and this continued on throughout life. I cut my hair short when i was 7 like, really short and i'd be referred to by strangers as "buddy" and "kid" "he/him" and other nicknames generally used for boys. My mom hated it and always corrected them and made sure her friends knew i was a girl. At the time I didn't know why i felt upset by her actions and happier after strangers thought i was a boy. I was never told abt trans people and being gay was hush hush conversation as if it was inappropriate. I remember once in a walmart my mom asked if i was gay, and she seemed worried/upset. Not fully knowing what that meant i was scared and assured her i wasn't. This confusion and anger carried me through puberty and i felt so gross and wrong and scared, mainly. I didn't want people to stop seeing me as a boy. I started growing my hair longer because my sister and mom missed my long hair. I hated it so much. After that walmart incident and for the next several years I tried my best to dress feminine so my mom wouldn't ask me that question again. It only made me feel worse. 2 years ago i started wondering why i always felt this way, and without realizing it got into the lgbtq side of social media, particularly trans social media. I saw memes and life stories and thought "i relate to that, but no way i'm trans" it led to even more confusion because by then i realized, I don't want to be a boy because my friends wouldn't want to be friends, my parents would hate me, and I'd be an outcast, and i didn't want to be seen as a binary male, sometimes i liked when people weren't sure what gender i was. I tried out demigirl, non binary and genderfluid labels and i decided that nonbinary was best as it let me explore my masculinity and still hold onto the feminine things i liked. Now, all these years later from that angry little 5 year old, i'm nonbinary, mostly masc presenting, trying to relive some of that boyhood i missed. Climbing trees and befriending bugs and playing in creeks. Just, exsisting as someone i was never allowed to. Addie helped me realize that I didn't have to be a binary trans male to be valid, i could be masc presenting nonbinary. I learned that pretty and beautiful aren't just terms for girls. I cut my hair short again and plan to cut it even shorter. I learned that no matter how my family views me, I have always been that little boy who loved baseball. sorry this was so long. if you somehow see this and read it all then hi, hope you have a wonderful day, and don't be afraid to question labels and just, explore who you are. you're loved and valid. drink some water! bye for now :]

[@4plus4equals27]

man i really wrote a whole article my bad

[@vr4mpire_]

I haven't watched the whole video yet but I know it's gonna be good

[@fxexpresstrends]

If this is just the demo imma be crying even harder in the corner once the final version is out... Edit: You're awesome can't wait for more originals

[@protamusic9041]

Your control of lyrical syncopation is incredible. A beautiful and soulful song with a peppering of real songwriting mastery, and I don't feel I'm using that word lightly.

[@HikikomoriFemcel]

my mom always says she doesn't want me to cut my hair. Its very upsetting. she says "you'll look like a boy." I don't see the problem with that.

[@sarahmclain9909]

Cut your hair!!! Show her who's boss of their own body!!

[@bowtie1593]

Ya my mom was that same way

[@SatoriBunniii]

If she doesn’t let you, ( this is a very weird way) but stick gum in your hair. Make sure to get it really stuck. But do this out in public when they aren’t around, come home and they will probably have to cut it.

[@abcdefgh6951]

@@SatoriBunniii no that's not right just cut it and confront her...

[@SatoriBunniii]

@@abcdefgh6951 Theres some parents that would actually hurt their kid if they cut their hair. I meant it as a absolute last resort. Although why is it not right?

[@celciusca1124]

Everyone: you have to be feminine, wear makeup, wear dresses, and wear heels. You have- Her: *No❤️*

[@ahassett37]

Addie 2.5 years ago: this isn’t a coming out song, I’m not trans Addie now: well so about that-

[@caramelflan6794]

it's frustrating. my dream is to become a singer, and i want to be seen as an equal to male artists. something that i've noticed over time is that during interviews, variety shows and such, males could do certain things and they'd be seen as funny, cute, and innocent. however, i began to wonder, if these artists were *female*, they'd be getting bashed for doing these things. and it's frustrating to see how often times boys and girls could act the same way, but while boys can get away with acting that way, girls can't. we're all people, why should gender be a decisive factor in whether we can or can't do something, according to society? you know? i don't know if i put this in the correct words, but i tried my best.

[@nektariaxipolita2350]

You said it exactly as it is and unfortunately you couldnt be more right, but the change should start from you, me and everyone who wants that change. If you dont start the change no-one will, thats why ever since i was young i never believed in gender stereotypes and showed that the best i could and still do the same. Dont let someone else make the change, have the joy to do it yourself

[@caramelflan6794]

@I O well as an example, i don't quite remember when, but i stumbled upon a clip of kpop idol moments. there happened to be a clip of male kpop idols writing their names with their behinds. if they do it, it's funny or fans gush over it. if female kpop idols were to do this, the reaction of the audience would be completely different, maybe one of the reasons being that usually the outfits they wear consist of skirts and such.

[@starbucksupport]

the internet is a beautiful place when it takes you from someone's tiktok to their youtube without a link

[@nanamacapagal8342]

And vice versa

[@isabellatrabjergmedhurst5541]

i really felt that. you have expressed so many unexplainable feelings, and i'm so thankful. you have so many reasons to be proud of this song. ily

[@ashlynwood7863]

Oml Addison, you're making me cry over here. Thank you for making this-- I'm sure it will help a lot of people. It sure helped me

[@alexisgacha4680]

Anyone else think her voice is low Key comforting

[@frogball5819]

seriously the asmr vibe is hitting high levels here

[@grimlyssad]

I could fall asleep listening to this

[@Cherry-Glaze]

10000000%

[@kitcat6294]

OMG!!!! You sound sooo goooood!!! I can see you writing more songs and you becoming popular. I loved this song so much! You go girl! Your so gifted and I love your hair and makeup!

[@sourpatchboy4340]

Just finished the whole vid 🥺🥺 i love this song so much.. you put so much emotion into it and we can tell ❤

[@anzy1520]

Ok but l listen to the 7min of you talking and I don’t regret it

[@gracegrams8855]

thank you for showing me that i'm not the only one that felt this way growing up. my dad played a huge part in making me feel like i wasn't allowed to have short hair and wear boy clothing and i grew my hair back out because of it

[@peacefulleo9477]

Ahhh I wasn't expecting a video tonight so it was a pleasant surprise! I love how long you talk that we kinda got to know you a lot more, you're so freaking mature, cheers ✨ Also, I love how every demo you make is super amazing, I can't but think you're gonna have some hits in the future with these amazing demos when you finish them!

[@sabsartstuff5804]

I’m so excited :0!!

[@Maximus-zd8rf]

i really hope one day you release this song. i wanna be able to listen to it on repeat. this makes me feel a certain way and i dont really understand it but my body, mind, heart, and soul does and it makes me feel so comfy and warm and welcomed. ive never had a comfort song before but i think this just might be my comfort song :')) thank you for making such an amazing song, it already means a lot to me🥺💛💛

[@pooshnulooshnu]

This song is so amazing!! I've really needed something like this lately

[@anoranth1360]

Just came out as Non-Binary to my Mum and this song hit right in the feels

[@mikelangelo66]

you just described the last one and a half years for me, you really managed to put into words exactly what i've felt and i feel like... thank you

[@laysichi]

Can I say it? I am going to do it YOU ARE SO CUTE AND BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE YOUR HAIR (I am trying to do the same thing to my hair too ^^)

[@alicegabutti6128]

Beautiful! Really! Thank you so much! I'm doing "The American Revolution" in English and i don't really like this school work but i like have you in the background.💚🌱

[@lexseehowitgoes]

Addie then would be so proud of Addie now! I mean look at him now! He's a role model in my life now and I think is a queer icon!

[@-countfagula-2418]

Shit...I relate so much to the meaning of this song. Thank you for making this, i love it!💜✨