addressing my old friend group

[@jeanne4328]

“I’m very middle eastern, I’m very African” man even when you’re sounding down you still make me laugh, keep your head up champ.

[@HinaCabina]

i imagined nexus in the african hat and glowing eyes twitter meme

[@wondermcthunder8835]

HinaCabina imagine me in ur house driving a A helicopter

[@justanotherweirdo11]

And people think his name is Clifford.

[@SupraLugia]

love u bro

[@Patterrz]

much love man

[@yrgmustard3635]

Stay strong too patterz

[@primarinegaming6761]

Some-Random Guy was Pat involved?

[@lucayaki]

@@primarinegaming6761 I don't know how much he was involved, but he is friends with a bunch of people that were.

[@yrgmustard3635]

@@primarinegaming6761 no but it cant be easy seeing ur closest friendship group break down like that

[@itsmetater]

patterrz is too pure to be part of beef

[@mattarcher8103]

2:14 "Me and Shady are tight as hell, that's the boy" *cue a small smile on everyone's face*

[@skyscizor]

Matt Archer Literally though

[@sofiaaa6808]

Shady stays being a good guy man i love it

[@theartoonnerdologist411]

Who’s everyone i wasn’t smiling

[@thursday7682]

Chalcolate Fox thanks for ruining EVERYTHING

[@Damien-qv3fi]

Facts😂😂

[@CatUnderscore]

When you mentioned specifically Jay getting shit for being ahead of the man in Mario Kart, it dug up some memories. I used to always feel bad for Jay, cause he was one of the people who got shit constantly. I know you all got a lot of unnecessary shit, but Jay was bullied constantly and always put down whenever he did well in ANY GAME, whether it be on or off stream/video . Always felt mega bad for him. Like holy shit it was just a fucking video game.

[@jjwitchy2709]

Homie you're right. 😱 idk if you watched their penta ops I don't remember which one specifically but Jay was kinda bullied to release a whole bunch of legends for practically no reason!

[@jgames1113]

Yeah I always thought it was just them messing around. But it just a bunch of people getting shit on and taking it just to not get kick out of the group. It is sickening to know something that entertain me, was also hurting them.

[@MitchJustChill]

@@jgames1113 I mean nappy did say hey we're all friend's we're just fucking around, to a point that was true cause the penta op crew would confirm this, in reality it was just nappy saying it was fine and by proxy nappy telling everyone else to say it was fine, and even Jay to convince himself that it was fine because they were just. "Friends."

[@livinlikeallan]

I just saw the insurgence penta op bc of memories but I could easily tell the signs watching back how toxic he was. He was like it was “just friends” if he kept talking to me like that I would’ve knocked his bitch ass out. Shits not cool.

[@yamukirii5130]

JJ Astral what's worse is if you go to the video he saw the negative backlash he got and instead of doing something about it he instead decided to go to the comments and taunt all the fans that were bothered by it. It was honestly just childish and really showed a lot

[@Trickywi]

Love you, Nexus. It was very courageous to make this video. You're incredibly strong and I hope you're okay. Hit me up anytime. I truly hope everyone can fully understand the weight of their words because they can truly stick with a person for a long time. Regardless, I hope for a happier and less toxic future for you

[@dad6765]

Trickywi you’re the best

[@tenzintulotsang1953]

Aren't people just trying to profit from this situation? Shady deliberately delayed it because of that rzn cmon now

[@princemannic]

Wait TRICKY????

[@PapaTart]

I'm very glad other people of the group are coming out and making their own comments on the matter, after sacred did of course! Good for you guys and much love to you all an I hope everything goes well for you all!

[@theartoonnerdologist411]

yeaa nick had two vids

[@uhhbam]

What happened

[@KyleAye]

Love you bro. You are not alone, I promise. It took a lot of courage and strength to make this video. I know it can’t be easy to trust people, after all you’ve been through. I’m here if you ever need anything fam, for real.

[@rorypunnington359]

real kings are able to show their emotions. we’re all so proud of you for making this and waiting until you were ready. here’s your official crown, king 👑 you’ve earned it

[@primarinegaming6761]

rory punnington Jay made his video too, another king

[@TaitRo1018]

Ill drink to that

[@philippaaamcm]

I'm 21 now, and I was about 15 when I was heavily into watching you and that group, so when you said that it impacted you so much because you all grew together I really felt it... As a third party viewer I was so invested and I felt involved with you all at the time, so I can't even imagine how you must feel. It must have taken you so much to work through this, so major props to you for going to therapy and working through this ❤️

[@smeasels6372]

So many people were invested emotionally with all the creators for years it really did hurt... Hopefully Nexus Nick and Shady find better people to associate with

[@HeirrOG]

💯

[@destinybond8966]

I’ve been around since I was 12 and I haven’t left and nothing’s gonna change that dude. I love you and your content and I’ll continue to support you every step of the way. We love you king. Keep your head up

[@pichael5138]

The fact that the good people in this situation can still get shit on is baffling. You lads are the light in the community, keep your head up champ.

[@jameslambert5198]

I've seen the comments on the fallen kings videos and it's all toxic. Either people saying he did nothing wrong, justifying what hes done or literally shitting on everyone else. What's crazy is nathan got serious hate when it came out about him (and deservedly so) but that twat does it and they're busy creating excuses.

[@winstonlewis5630]

That etika part hurt different the amount of people bullying etika and not helping him. I’m so glad you got help bro

[@mitchepipe]

Damn man, this was rough listening to, not gonna lie. I’m truly so sorry for you having to endure what you have. I was a huge fan of his, and he is the one who turned me onto you and Nick. I hope to see you and Nick back together soon. I wish you two nothing but the best through these hard times

[@TealGlaze]

As a fan, I'm just absolutely disgusted that I watched this man for years. I'm grossed out that throughout all of those videos, all of those streams, I didn't notice the signs of harm he was doing. The pain you and your friends went through is unimaginable to everybody else. i'm so sorry you had to go through this.

[@livinlikeallan]

I watched their insurgence penta op recently and yo looking back you could just see the signs.

[@michaelcdarby]

I’m also disgusted I watched him for years

[@Wolfman6999]

Honest question, did you think all the toxicity was just jokes and a bit? Like it was mainly for the camera to keep things interesting? Because that's how I thought it was until right now.

[@TealGlaze]

Matthew Barry I did. And it’s just as you said, it’s obvious now that it wasn’t just jokes. It’s a weird feeling to realize someone you watched was a genuinely horrible person. It makes you feel like you could’ve done something if you’d just noticed.

[@Christian-jv4pc]

Matthew Barry i used to think the same thing man. Looking back at his old content you can see the signs of abuse in his interactions with other people. he used the excuse “I’m not mad over a video game” repeatedly as a way to cover up his actions and justify them.

[@VioletRaze]

For starters, and this goes out to everyone, "worthless" is the absolute worst thing you can call someone. Do not call another person that, like, oh my goodness, you have no clue how much damage that word can do. Next up, Nexus, I'm not gonna sit here and pretend that I know you. Yeah, I watch your videos fairly consistently and I care about you, but I do not know you as a person. So, I apologize in advance if I sound like I do. I also might sound all over the place, as I'm typing this as I listen to you...so, sorry again. I started getting anxious when you described the stomach-dropping, the-world-is-ending feeling that you had, feelings that I bet you still have. I'm not about to compare pain, y'know? Last year, something happened to give me the same feeling. I suffered, and I'm still in therapy for it. I'm only mentioning that because I feel less alone, knowing that others understand that pain. Hopefully you're the same in that regard. One of the things I learned in therapy is that there's nothing I could have done to prevent the tragedy from happening. Literally none of what happened is your fault. There's nothing you could have done. It's a terrifying thought, but it's also a freeing one. Terrifying because it can make you feel powerless, but freeing because at the end of the day, you can only control your own thoughts and actions. You asked what kind of person says and does toxic shit and then blocks you. Do you wanna know what kind of person does that? An emotionally inept person. A person who was either born with something wrong in their head, or was raised by emotionally inept people. I said I didn't really know you, but what I do know is that you feel the way you do because you are a beautiful soul. You're also absolutely wild, to be sure, but a beautiful soul nonetheless. Anyway, sorry for the wall of text. My anxiety hates it when I leave comments, but I wanted to power through it this time. If you do read this Nexus, you gotta know that you are loved by so many people. Hateful words can hurt, but people who bring others down to pull themselves up are trash. Pay no mind to trash...unless it's literal trash, like, pick that shit up. Recycle. Sending out love and positive vibes to you, my favorite KZbinr.

[@averagememer9373]

This. This comment right here.

[@babo3324]

Wonderful comment bro

[@nathanbreadboi9223]

Much respect my guy

[@jakejohnson9563]

Cringe

[@andrewdorsey1237]

@@jakejohnson9563 yes, you are. On other notes, yo, OP, what you said is absolutely true. This is a shitty situation, and, a year later, it still is, but I'm glad Shady, Nexus, and the others are finally trying to put it all to rest. Nexus is clearly messed up from this tho, and he needs these kinds of comments. Thats the kind of person he is, at least from the understanding I've got.

[@storminnorman3591]

Your the goat man don't ever let anyone tell you different

[@aduck8842]

I just listened to the entire video, and you are a legend for making it. Don't let anyone make you feel worthless, because you are not worthless. Whenever i watched a video of all y'all back then, you were one of the highlights, and of the main reasons to watch the video in the first place, for me at least. I feel bad for you all, all of the abuse you must have endured.... Never stop being you and never stop being awesome. much love.

[@fraserking4747]

Appreciate you taking the time to be candid about this shit with us Nexus, even though you had no obligation to do so at all. Big love and support fam. 🤙

[@staticsoul69]

Being a long time supporter of Moe, Nick and ofc you...This gave me insight that I never had. All I can say is you're an amazing human being, I hope you realise that you're the goat

[@Cuill_]

Aye bro we always here for you with the support, this type of stuff takes a ton of strength to open up and talk about, much love forever and always. After watching notes: these toxic people also don’t understand how heavily this impacted not only the entire friend group, but also all of the fans who were able to realize what was truly going on. I had been watching “him” since elementary school, I’m now in high school, and I was absolutely shattered when the news came out, I was questioning myself, I didn’t know who to trust and almost brought myself to take my own life. I felt so horrible for supporting this monster of a person, and could only imagine what type of pain this put you and the others through. So please remember, not only nexus but anyone reading this comment, there’s people here for you, people that genuinely care and will make sure you are ok, we’re here to support each other through the darkest times, don’t ever listen to those toxic haters who don’t know anything about you and we will move on and grow together in our own positive light. Much love to everyone, stay safe ❤️

[@libbyabsher5715]

The amount of times I heard you say “I’m sorry” breaks my heart. I’m here for you, when you’re up and when you’re down man. ❤️

[@PolloMaster1996]

Was not expecting this at all but I’m all ears and want to understand your perspective and want to hear your opinion nexus on the matter when you were ready. Nothing but love and respect for you.

[@CamSteady]

Nothing but love man.

[@MeteorTribe]

Can i get a hollow knight vs little nightmares rapbattle

[@cryosis9347]

Hey nexus I’m not great at talking but I just want to say I love you man. I’m loving your content that you are pumping rn. I know you probably will never fully heal from this situation but I hope the comments here give you some strength and love to at least heal you a little bit with time. I love you man stay strong and realize the positive comments outweigh the negative

[@HotHoncho]

You did the right thing by making this video nexus. We the community support you and thank you for your sacrifice and willingness to be open about something so close to you.

[@isaac-77]

Nexus 😭😭😭 I’m sending you a huge cyber hug ... i do hope this can help you brother ❤️❤️❤️

[@TheUnholyOneDsQ]

Covid 19 bro, gotta keep your distance

[@primarinegaming6761]

Deathshot 1105 “huge cyber hug”

[@TheUnholyOneDsQ]

@@primarinegaming6761 OH NO

[@finalcountdown3210]

Like you said, you're the one who's always telling everyone to "Talk it out." And that's what you did with this video and you should be proud. Not everyone has the courage to speak out. Back in the day, when you first started uploading, I was just starting college, I was 18 or 19 when I started watching. You and the others were like a sort of role model to me. I didn't know you were younger than me and in high school, but it doesn't matter, I looked up to people like you and wanted to be like you. You were and still are a role model to many many viewers out there. You are still out there making an impact on the world, and I will continue to support you and your channel. Thank you

[@josharunietunie3619]

Hey Nexus, not sure if you’ll even want to read the comments, but I just want to let you know that I genuinely appreciate what you do. My absolute favourite PokéTuber, and I think that you’re a pretty neat person. It’s amazing that you have been so energetic with all this turmoil in your life. This might not mean much for you, seeing as I only really know you as a content creator and not as a person, but I hope that some words from a random 18 year old white boy can do something for you.

[@ArashiYT]

I feel so bad for laughing to the 'jokes' that were made back in the day, not knowing how things were really like behind the scenes. I hope one day you can finally let this whole thing in the past and move on. You're an amazing content creator/entertainer and nobody should be or feel harrassed because of things that happened beyond your control. Keep it up Nexus and stay strong man 💪🏼

[@thethiccsauce4068]

Damn king, it hurts hearing someone so energetic like you sounding like this, you are awesome bro dont let some random mofos tell you otherwise, just know that we love you and will always support you king.

[@FuzzyBuns09]

i can't even imagine what you or everyone else has been through. Take care of yourself above anything else. Best wishes to you and your loved ones!

[@ItsSiebay]

I'm glad everyone is finally taking the time to get things off their chest and lay this whole thing to rest. I'll be honest, at that time I was so lost, I didn't know what to believe, but somehow through it all, I found your channel. You've always kept it real and are a genuine entertainer, but most of all, you're human like everyone else. You do you king, and don't let anyone bring you down.

[@yamukirii5130]

I think that he was very insecure and what you said confirmed it. I remember in many LPs even specifically his let's go one, he said 'I don't care about other people's playthroughs and how they do things' and yet now it's being revealed that he spoke about other peoples LPs that way. So clearly he was sat there saying 'I don't care' trying to convince others and probably himself too. He unnecessarily shat on people for years. But like you were saying when me and others spoke up, when we said shit his hive mind fanbase would not let you live. Case in point, the Insurgence episode where he spoke Jay into releasing Pokémon and the Uranium episode where he spoke Mo into not using the shiny. He was very clearly insecure and it showed through many things, especially his obsessive need to always be right and think of himself as better. He literally seemed to keep Jay around purely to get his anger out on someone. He knew Jay would just accept it so he was there for that, and it always bothered me because Jay is a genuinely good guy. For example too in the Great Generation debate series. The concept for that series was great but it was completely ruined by him trying to force his opinions upon the group. He was toxic, insecure and more. But his fans would ignore it even when he was horrible about them. I remember going to his Twitch streams sometimes and he would just straight up be shitting on his youtube viewers. It's sad but I think everyone made the right decision distancing and removing themselves from him. You, nick, Shady and everyone else even those who no longer do youtube like Mo and Twit all deserve better and I hope things will get better given time

[@Slasher374]

It takes a lot of courage and strength to come out and say this Nexus, I have respect for those who called out those who did people wrong and try their best to move on. You are no different. Shady, Luke, Sacred, Mo, all of you deserve better and more welcoming people in your lives. You are a wonderful human being with a great heart who has had terrible things happen to them. Take your time and put one foot in front of the other. You got this man. Much love.

[@bobsonbrand]

Bro, I was a fan probably a couple of years ago. Tried to stop watching content because I had a few other things in my life. Hearing this story really hit home. Having toxic people in your life is awful, even tougher talking about the situation. Brave man, hope you’re doing okay ❤️

[@voidedabsolution]

None of this is your fault, you're a great person with a good heart. You make people happy on the daily, so just know even through all this we appreciate you and what you do. You have our support.

[@alexkomarek]

I can wholeheartedly relate to this, at least his stress of transitioning to college. And now this corona stuff is making it worse because I was sent home during the beginning of my second semester and can't find a job. I'm glad you're calling out a true monster. Much love! 💓💓💓

[@pufferplayz8030]

When I think about this whole situation it just brings me so much sadness, you’re such an amazing dude, and I’m so sorry about all of this. The saddest part is had he been more open maybe you guys could’ve gotten him help, I’m not saying he could be fixed it’s just sad because, maybe just maybe he could’ve been helped. But it’s too late now and that’s really depressing, especially for you guys who considered him a great friend. I can only hope the future will be better, and I wish the best for all of you!

[@asjrr4899]

Hey my brother, I'm not even gonna act like I knew you forever or watched you forever because I didn't. I started when you played Mystery Dungeon, but that's not my point. I want to let you know that we all have bad moments in our past, terrible moments. I can relate to you and I share your pain when you experienced loss, sleepless nights, anxiety. I may not feel your loss for the same exact reason as you, but I experienced loss as well. I lost my mother a few years back while I was still in my teens and it still haunts me today. It takes these hardships for us to get to where we want to be sooner or later. Keep pushing and keep your head up my brother, I pray for endless happiness and want you to be the best person you can be. I know you wake up to hate everyday, but I hope this reaches out to you. You have me bro. I have your back, I hope my words go to you. I want you to know that I wish the best for you, I may not know you to a personal level and I'm just some guy on the web, but you have my respect and thanks. I am thankful for people like you who not only share their struggles but continue to be a better man knowing how hard it is. Keep pushing my brother, you will do big and great things as you are now. You're an awesome man no matter what anyone else does. If you ever need a talk, I am here for you. Even if you don't, just know that you got me cheering you own through your journey bro. Have a good night my brother, be safe, and be happy.

[@yxngjupe4101]

Dawg Nexus, you are an amazing content creator please don’t stop doing what you’re doing. I hate that some people will still bash you for it but we Squee Squad for life! I’m going through a hard time myself and seeing you grow makes me wanna grow😁

[@sph77]

I hope you are doing better these days nexus you deserve lots of love bro thank you for your energy, passion and good vibes

[@o.nbooth9325]

It’s okay nexus we understand. your hope okay

[@FillInTheBlank214]

Nexus I've been watching your content for over 5 years now, just wanted to say that I'm sorry you went/are going through this right now. Love your personality and content and wishing you the best

[@carsonkull8725]

dude this whole thing is just horrible, can’t be more upset about all the stuff that happened. not just for me who loved watching all of “their” videos/streams, but for you who has had to experience this thing first hand. we’re all here supporting you dude and take it easy man ✊🏻

[@Megabaron]

Was bout to comment a similar thing

[@Megabaron]

rajiv. What’s the video lol

[@spaceface8504]

@@astroravioli Watch the video and if you're still confused then watch shadypenguins latest video.

[@jimjamjon2285]

rajiv. Imagine not watching the video and then asking what the video is about lmao

[@dominiquecadiz7045]

just watched the whole thing. i'm so sorry all of this happened to you, and is still happening to you to this day. i haven't been a viewer for a long time like a lot of these folks, but your content really gets me through life, and i wanted you to know that. i hope you're doing a lot better, and that you continue to be one of the real ones. sending my love from the philippines!

[@KrakoanGreg]

You’re an awesome person Nexus and as someone who has anxiety disorder, it meant a lot for me to hear you talk about your anxiety and fears of showing your emotions. You were brave for sharing this and it makes me want to support your channel more. Keep being strong dude 👍

[@explo3605]

It's crazy to me how he knows how much of a part he played in so many lives and in even some cases, childhood, and yet he shows no repentance at all. I've known about this man since I was 11 and to know all the shit he truly put others through continues to be hurtful.

[@gandhihype]

thank you for staying strong king. god bless you. stay safe

[@nineteenseventyfive6709]

This situation still makes me feel so sad. I can’t even begin to imagine how it really feels being in your position. Much love Nexus.

[@createjackal]

I was a fan of his but I hate that I never truly recognized the monster before me. You are incredible human being and I’ve always loved who you are and how you have gone about the content you create. I despise how he has hurt the people who are known as his victims and the people we thought he was friends with. I know it hasn’t been easy as you have spoken in the video but I do hope that this shit gets easier some day. You and everyone else don’t deserve what he has put you through. Love ya Nexus and I certainly hope things get better.

[@P01ntLoserss]

Can please tell me who your talking about?

[@createjackal]

Coney Sherdian it’s obvious who is who in the scenario with all the context provided.

[@P01ntLoserss]

Is it Nabby

[@jimjamjon2285]

Coney Sherdian Jesus Christ obviously. Have you watched the video???

[@createjackal]

JimJamJon lol I decided not to respond because he’s either trolling or a complete moron so I felt better not to.

[@lanetucker9926]

He mentioned the Uranium episode. And I remember watching it, skipping that part because it made me so uncomfortable.

[@sethcarnes8631]

If I catch any and I mean ANYONE threatening nexus life . It's on sight . ON SIGHT

[@Rvsegold]

Seth Carnes FACTS

[@sovereignblastoise6767]

facts someone should not BE HARASSED over a fucking video game ....

[@gutsuriverdale2623]

Ayo for real when I heard that I was ready to break jaws like nexus leave screen name lol. Who saying this shit?

[@screwydrewy3214]

100% We're pulling up on anyone who does

[@shotspecialist8667]

This is the opposite of what Nexus would want - imagine how Nexus would feel knowing his viewers were harassing others considering what he just talked about.

[@austinz1824]

I'm only 5 minutes into this video and much love to Nexus for being transparent and real with us on all of this. As an entertainer it must not be an easy thing to open up in that kind of way with your audience and talk about issues like anxiety and depression and those kinds of vulnerabilities, when most content made on here is supposed to be more light hearted and entertaining, it means a lot that you're able to open up and be real with the community. Especially with how polarizing the entire controversy with everything has been. Anyways, long post over, TL:DR Nexus is the real one, and much respect and love for him

[@courtneyrudolph8374]

Keep your head up, big guy. We love you. It takes guts to talk about personal stuff like this. Edit: please watch the whole video before you comment, dislike, like, and etc. you need to fucking watch.

[@CrimsonHuntsman]

Speaking of UCL, I remember when Jay was getting dumped on for picking Sylveon in season 1.

[@RecencyBiasRadio]

With the first pick? Yeah I remember that too. Smh

[@demonangel1995]

Nexus I've watched your videos for the last 5 years, and I'm glad to see you get this off your chest, life is all about learning and healing and I hope your doing so much better, I've had to drop a lot of toxic people in life and it happens but I'm hoping you stay strong and get better everyday 💚 love you my dude.

[@indigoblue8600]

Keep your head up king, don’t let that crown fall. We love you nexus

[@N8dogg713]

“thanks for being truthful” and my man ain’t even watch 3 minutes of the video. anyways. Much love

[@kaiiizen8626]

im curious,, what video? did anything recently happened? i woke up to watch stuff on yt then i see jay's vid and then this vid

[@MJ-mi9qc]

@@kaiiizen8626 This is shit that went down like last April I'm pretty sure. Don't quote me on that it's just been a long time, to say the least. Tbh, if you're new to these guys then I'd honestly just not dig too much into it. If you can't tell, serious stuff happened to this community of content creators and I'm sure they'd appreciate just having people support and love them and enjoy their content. No need to extrapolate this drama any further than it already has been. That's just my opinion though. You can obviously dig further into this if you're truly that curious.

[@ThumberBulls6]

@@MJ-mi9qc who is "these guys"

[@kaiiizen8626]

@@MJ-mi9qc oh i know about the whole incident that happened, was it last year? i was just curious if something new recently happened, bc i thought this whole thing was over and now suddenly people are talking about it again,, was it just bc the /he who shall not be named/ has returned to make yt vids?

[@MJ-mi9qc]

@@kaiiizen8626 Yea it was last year. I also think fanbases are probably still asking for collabs or just bringing it up especially now that he''s bad. Like as much as what he did is horrible, he makes fantastic content. Collabs like the penta-ops were super dope. Ofc people are grasping at straws to see that happen again. Also "these guys" is the old friend group. Nexus, Twit, Mo, etc.

[@d.j6578]

nexus i’m so sorry about everything that happened. you’re an amazing content creator and you’re a great person. i’m really looking forward to more variety content. please take care of yourself in these really shitty times ❤️

[@braydenbennewies5059]

Nexus I don’t usually comment and watch your content from a far but always enjoy man this hits hard I hope that your are doing better and I’m sure all your supports will be here for you man

[@rawringalykat]

I’m not going to sit here and say I wasn’t a fan of him. He was one of my absolute favorite content creators. I’m in the mental health field, I should have recognized everything that was wrong but I didn’t. I was destroyed when everything came out. I didn’t know what to believe or who to believe anymore. I wanted it to all go away. I looked up and loved him for years... and to hear the truth broke me, and everyone around me. I ultimately decided to end my following and support of him when everything happened to separate myself from the toxicity. Shady was the only one who made any sense to me at the time. I decided to take up on your content after a few months when things started to die down. I then realized how manipulative and negative the whole group was in a whole. It confirmed everything I didn’t want to accept at the time. I even questioned my own sense of judgement for the longest time. I don’t even know you guys, but it felt like my own friend group was destroyed. I respect you so much for coming out to discuss this. None of this was easy to say. I sat here with tears in my eyes because I understand every word you’ve said. Anyone who can tell someone to kill themselves don’t understand the power behind their words and the effects it has on one’s psyche. You didn’t do anything wrong, I believe that those who continue to support him are in denial or a horrible human being themselves. I never noticed the manipulation, and the words he used were so toxic that he used. I love you Nexus, thank you for being so open with us. Whether you read this or not, this has really helped me with my own conflicts regarding this.

[@gex_6920]

I can feel what your going through nexus, just keep chugging along my man

[@aidanzkool4120]

Nexus, I love that you made this video, these things needed to be said. You’re a freaking trooper.

[@mylesloper2280]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts Nexus, I can’t imagine how much you went through. I hope you continue making great content.

[@DATskorge]

I havent watched *any* of these channels since it all fell apart (including here). Time for some empathy, and thanks for the candor Nexus. We appreciate you sharing and love you mate. I'll stick around and give you some support.

[@mattotf220]

I’m goin’ to keep it real. This video made me tear up by the end of it. We are here for you nexus and want to see you well. Sending positive vibes and hope everything will turn for the better. You have been through a lot and over came a lot. Please stay strong for us.

[@EddyWriter_]

Love that you're opening up about this. I had my own dilemma, but as a viewer last year. I knew what (he) did was terrible, but deep within I wanted to believe he understood his wrongdoing and sought help - alongside the fact that I genuinely viewed him as an entertaining content creator for many years. A year later, things have gotten clearer. Watching Shady's video, and now this one, made me get emotional. Even for a split second (when he returned) I thought things would progress, but Shady's video slapped me in the face with a cold harsh reality that may never change. Understanding one's flaws is the first step to changing one's mindset or actions. As of right now, his trajectory doesn't seem to have shifted much if at all. As a person who was an avid fan of him, I pray he gets the help he needs. Unfortunately, that will only happen once he recognizes that it's necessary to begin with. Maybe his past plays a role in his actions now, but other than being an entertainer/content creator, I know absolutely nothing about the person behind the scenes. All that aside, I wish all the best for you, Shady and all others involved going forward. Stay safe and don't let the opinions of those who're blissfully ignorant to the full story sway your mental state.

[@McFields]

Man, I had no clue how much of an impact this had on you. I truly hope things can get better, and thanks for being honest.

[@VoidHeart56]

As someone who's had their own mental health struggles, I know how hard this video must have been to make. I'm happy to hear that you and Shady are talking. He seems like the kind of person who will give you the support you need and help you through your struggle. If you and Shady are ever ready, I would personally be very excited to see a co-op Pokemon LP. That being said, I understand that there is a lot of healing that still needs to be done by both you and Shady before something like that will happen. I hope you can get to a place where you feel safe and are able to manage your mental health.

[@lukepichler8881]

Honestly I just started watching this channel when you did the tier lists, so I'm really new. But this sounds so horrible and I wouldn't want anyone to go through that. I hope things get better for you.

[@Bradyoungbass]

45:48 is this realest summary of this whole situation. So sorry for you guys.

[@marley5740]

I've been watching your content for a while, yes it started with that friend group's content but you have always stood out as one of the brightest personalities in every video you were in. I've been trying to support you by watching as much content as possible of yours ever since this all went down and I will continue to do so. As someone who struggled with toxic relationships and mental health issues, I can relate to a lot of the feelings it seems like you are feeling. I obviously do not know enough to speak on your feelings, but I hope everything goes right for you in the future and I'm sending my love. I know this will be one in hundreds of comments just like this, but I hope your therapy and recovery goes well so you can keep being the shining, inspiring person that I have loved to watch and support since the day I watched your content

[@akemigirl]

Nexus, i feel so incredibly bad. I would’ve never imagined this is what it was like behind the scenes. I can’t believe i supported someone so toxic, who hurt people and still to this day doesn’t realize it’s wrong. I’m so sorry. You’re so incredibly strong for posting this and living with this. Wishing the absolute best to you in your future.

[@azj1467]

Nexus you probably won’t read this, and I don’t know if I was part of this group. But if I am, I am sorry for asking where mo was in the last few months, I was just worried about him and was hoping he was ok, I didn’t realize I was having a negative effect of your health and I’m genuinely sorry. I didn’t know y’all weren’t friends anymore and now I know that my pestering hurt you and I’m extremely sorry for that. I just want you to know that you’re an amazing human and content creator. I will always love you and your content from the bottom of my heart.

[@jesseminnema2999]

Respect for that, honest respect

[@PabloLopez-hz2hq]

I probably missed it but why aren’t they friends anymore?

[@bunnyfeng4635]

@@PabloLopez-hz2hq The video explains it.

[@aurax2173]

[@katrinarossi2443]

I hope he does read your comment

[@kyoorin]

we're all here for you man, keep that head held high and keep moving up dawg

[@brandonzepeda24]

Don’t let people bring you down king I love you and you are my favorite KZbinr 😭❤️

[@nowayjey]

One person I wanted to hear from is twit the friend that can get along wit everyone. I know he work a 9-5 now and can’t even pursue his dream but hopes for all

[@meddown6859]

I don't think I would have the emotional strength to make this video if I was in your shoes dude, i'm proud of you

[@jeffersonengel713]

Stay strong Nexus. I can only imagine how tough it is to speak about this, don’t give up.

[@virtsie]

Love you nexus

[@TheAlphaMaG]

I remember David got bullied so much in the ffa

[@cutthroat795]

He really did it bothered me

[@andrewroberts7638]

Much love to ya man recovery always takes time 💪🏻

[@CallMeBrostoise]

I really appreciate you coming out with this. There was a lot in here that I did not know about. Much respect to you and sorry to hear about all the crap you went through. Keep up the great content!

[@jirachiswish690]

my stomach feels funny, not in the good way either.

[@Just_Red_]

I would like to know what the good way is

[@shazam1205]

It might b poop fam

[@theshinylunatone3966]

The good way is like when someone you love gives you cuddles and your tummy flutters nicely

[@jirachiswish690]

@@Just_Red_ WELL...I guess the good way would be butterflies.

[@jirachiswish690]

@@theshinylunatone3966 Pretty much yeah!

[@KindaDrake]

I hope you're in a better place Nexus, much love

[@wildetoast2332]

Stay strong nexus you got me through such a hard time in life and I could only laugh if I watched your content and stay strong and don't stop doing you and be safe

[@LTSketch3014]

As someone who also struggles with anxiety and depression, this will help you in the long run Nexus. Your content is amazing and you are a great personality. Thank you for speaking your piece and we appreciate your side and your honesty! God Bless

[@kevmclarty]

This must be so difficult for all of you. I can’t imagine what you must feel like. We’re all here for you nex. And despite it all, you’re still pushing through and making content for all of us to laugh at. Stay strong king, we love you

[@keithlyons4359]

Respect the honesty bro. Keep your head held high, getting through the worst helps others who see your bravery to get through too.

[@he_christ]

This sounds wild, his actual personality sounds so nasty. Glimpses of this were kind of peaking through in some videos but never knew it was like this.

[@reduprisings4986]

I'm literally crying right now I love you man. I've always loved you and I just want you to feel loved cuz you deserve it. You, Shady, and Mo I started watching a lot before the end of it and I really wish this stuff didn't happen to you. I will always support you. I know I haven't watched a lot of your videos but I still have always loved you and I will forever support you.

[@Sishpoo]

Is it bad that I remember every time Drips died in a penta-op, then just laugh? Man things were so not complicated back then, yet we only knew what was on the screen

[@SuperSaiyan63VA]

I’m extremely sorry that you had to go through that, I have suffered through toxic friendships and friend groups before and getting over them is a horrible experience, but I know you can do it. As a person suffering from anxiety as well I can only hope that you find the courage to move on no matter how long that takes. I hope to see you prosper.

[@daddyespressodepresso2207]

Mo leaving youtube as a whole is one of the things that really saddens me from this whole thing. Dude was a great guy and a great content creator, and he was, quite literally, bullied and traumatized off making content. It's sad how one person can effectively destroy an entire community of content creators with his toxicity, and this is coming from someone who used to love "he who shall not be named" content, now it sickens me.

[@SuperSpectrom]

This did not age well lol. Apparently Mo was weird as fuck too

[@marquisfinney3589]

Lee Coleman I heard that, but do you know what he did?

[@lucyhart7682]

Marquis Finney yeah, what did he do? He seemed cool

[@SuperSpectrom]

@@lucyhart7682 He made alot of innapropriate comments to alot of his female friends.

[@bluezebra6701]

Who's he who shall not be named?

[@ItsJustNemz]

This shit sucks hearing as a fan. I was ~15 years old when I started watching all y’all. I’m going on 21. Y’all literally helped mold me as a person and inspired me a lot. It legitimately saddens me hearing what y’all dealt with. I can’t imagine what it’s like to be in your situation, I’m glad you got therapy for everything, and I hope everything gets better for you and everyone who was involved. Prayers up my g

[@Kubasama_]

The thing that sucks about being a viewer is that when you're too young, you just can't understand anything. You said so yourself, and I can only agree more for how you felt. We should make a goal to stop gluing ourselves to the wall and actually walk somewhere that won't screw us over. I hope the future gives you and the others something to hold onto.

[@primarinegaming6761]

Mr_Monokuba same I was so confused when everything started going down, I had just got Instagram 2019 summer

[@bigguccimilli6923]

A lot of us as viewers didn’t notice most of their viewers were young I was watching them like 12 or 13 I’m 18 now shit happens

[@gonyobeplayin370]

dude i was 13-14 when i would watch. i now just graduated highschool

[@omainomai]

Continue to be great man. To speak about ones inner struggles is a brave act in it's own. Take your time, continue to be who you are and grow further and stay healthy. Flourish. And fuck any of those people who try to bring you down. You are above and beyond all that shit. Thank you for sharing. Be safe, love you man

[@User-b9q2z]

GOAT poketuber no contest. Love you king so glad you're still here making the fire content you do

[@metalmagicpup7]

Nothing but understanding man. I can't fully understand what you went through... but I can understand the part about mental health being really crappy and not being able to help things when it gets bad. You and the other guys who were affected negatively didn't deserve it, and you deserve credit for everything you did and respect/time for pushing through with everything. I hope things are better now that there has been some time passed. I'd say if you need someone to talk to or something I am always here. And as someone who is has gone through a lot of loss and sadness not even out of high school I feel for you, I really do feel for you.

[@metalmagicpup7]

I'm just sad that he'll never know/see people like me and others in the comment section are here for him. Because we genuinely care for him.