adrianne lenker - not a lot, just forever (official audio)

Adrianne Lenker's albums "songs" and "instrumentals" are out now on 4AD.
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filmed by adrianne lenker
edited by v haddad
produced by adam gundersheimer
slopehouse productions
www.adriannelenker.com/
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LYRICS:
through your eyes i see
the smile you bring to me
to your joy i tether
not a lot, just forever
intertwined, sewn together
like the rock bears the weather
not a lot, just forever
my dog barks wildly
to protect my infancy
from my ex-believer
i try to calm the wolf
to remind her i am both
still, she tears at my sweater
not a lot, just forever
intertwined, sewn together
as the wren sheds her feather
not a lot, just forever
your dearest fantasy
is to grow a baby in me
i could be a good mother
and i want to be your wife
so i hold you to my knife
and i steal your letter
not a lot, just forever
intertwined sewn together
as the rock wears the weather
not a lot, just forever
so, i bash around the house
the poison stains my mouth
she comes, i let her and
we share a paradise (pair of dice)
i roll them once or twice
can’t get much better
not a lot, just forever
intertwined, sewn together
as the rock bares the weather
not a lot, just forever
not a lot, just forever
intertwined, sewn together
as the wren bares her feathers
not a lot, just forever

[@32123ABCBA]

I miss my mom and shes down stairs rn laughing at ig reels

[@stargirl8465]

That’s love, how beautiful is it?

[@zyrahramz6070]

Relatable ahh

[@maryam._xvv]

ugh

[@meaganhruby9712]

You’re so real for this 😭😭

[@jackkolnerhoeck8210]

Go Dawn and hug her

[@briand1501]

she's so brave to be so vulnerable, can't even imagine the heartbreak she went through to write something like this

[@fullysickrockstar]

Heartbreak?

[@owenthatcher9902]

@@fullysickrockstar i believe this whole album to be about a relationship that couldnt be understood by anyone but herself and whoever, since ended. prolly me making up some mad backstory in my head though.

[@docwauwau7737]

Well i can lol i mean not lol

[@cheesecake_mp3]

@@nuitNo.6what are you even talking about

[@myanoel0]

@@owenthatcher9902Bro i know this is supposed to be sad but i audibly laughed at your comment

[@noturlucas]

When the song is sad but the meaning is even sadder 😭

[@swizzycake]

what does it mean?

[@Zaneexists]

@@swizzycake It's about the singer's love for her partner, the relationship, how it's gone toxic, and how it ends up not working out

[@fourtwenty7590]

@@ZaneexistsI knew it. Now it hurts to listen to this bc it’s true

[@GriffinJenningsMusic]

has to be one of the best songwriters alive.

[@edenoliveira4037]

without a doubt

[@rachealthomas3104]

Great lyrics

[@owenthatcher9902]

understands how 2 express how we can all feel

[@dracuIascoffin]

absolutely

[@eljones3702]

Hands down

[@mayhembunz8888]

“Not a lot just forever” the great intricate story of love summed up.

[@user-fh2gp9rj2f]

How? I don't get it.. not a lot of love? But it lasts forever? How? Not a lot meaning its simple but it lasts forever ? So confused

[@Scarlet_Mirage]

@@user-fh2gp9rj2f I think it’s supposed to mean, you don’t want to spend a lot of time with someone you love, you want to spend all of your time with them. You don’t want to just simply kiss them or hold their hand a lot, you want to do it all the time. Not a lot, just forever. That’s just how I see it tho.

[@user-fh2gp9rj2f]

@@Scarlet_Mirageohh that makes a lot more sense

[@Koreoz_]

It is 02:09 on Thursday the 28th of December 2023, and im listening to this song for the first time in my life, i hope someday in the distant future i find this again

[@alfonsoparrado3112]

wtf are you saying bro

[@tatejensen7892]

Bro just put it on a playlist damn

[@Min-hq4hq]

@@tatejensen7892LOL

[@staaardustt]

reminder to come back to this song

[@enobywei1357]

​@@alfonsoparrado3112 chillout I lose my favorite songs too

[@Aleyah3112]

Couldn’t even smile to this! Started sobbing IMMEDIATELY! Clean up isle my face and pillow! 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂❤❤❤❤😂😂😂

[@catzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz]

help the emojissss😭

[@beingjaden]

cool

[@cc_fbi]

my honest reaction to this song

[@I.love_lily97]

Through your eyes I see A smile you bring to me To your joy, I tether Not a lot, just forever Intertwined, sewn together Like the rock bears the weather Not a lot, just forever My dog barks wildly To protect my infancy From my ex-believer And I try to calm the wolf To remind her I am both Still she tears at my sweater Not a lot, just forever Intertwined, sewn together As the wren sheds her feather Not a lot, just forever And your dearest fantasy Is to grow a baby in me I could be a good mother And I wanna be your wife So I hold you to my knife And I steal your letter Not a lot, just forever Intertwine some together As the rock bears the weather Not a lot, just forever So I bash around the house And the poison stains my mouth She comes, I let her And we share a paradise And I roll them once or twice Can't get much better Not a lot, just forever Intertwined, sewn together As the rock bears the weather Not a lot, just forever Not a lot, just forever Intertwined, sewn together As the wren bares her feathers Not a lot, just forever

[@mopeyd1654]

Ugh ily

[@I.love_lily97]

@@mopeyd1654i love you 🤭

[@dadalance]

I could be a good mother

[@madiconti7749]

when I first heard this song, I cried for days every time I even thought about it. the way this song makes makes my soul hurt is unmatched and i feel like clawing into myself and cleaving out whatever is inside anytime I even think it. it has touched me so much that i have to push it down and away because if I think about it too long i cannot stop. this is the most emotion a song has ever evoked out of me and it’s incredible and you are so talented and its so beautiful but i can never listen to this again because i will spend the rest of my life in tears

[@devynnleo]

these comments make me feel a bit better about feeling sad everytime i hear this song

[@beautifullykayla]

You should consider being a writer

[@user-zg3vd2fg6o]

womp womp

[@madix3333]

​@@user-zg3vd2fg6o I hope your parents say that at your funeral.

[@vivivenus]

Yapper

[@silventprincess]

in another lifetime, i will find you. i won’t hurt you , i’ll do everything right. i will love you like i’m breathing and show you how much you deserve

[@lal_identity_v9478]

I m so sorry and i hope you will find her / him

[@marceloadelar]

I cried the first time I heard it. Absolute sublime.

[@Yawpism]

I cry every time 🥰

[@HopelessNecromancer]

I can’t begin to describe how sad this song makes me

[@devynnleo]

same

[@amelia-hx8xn]

it actually makes me a bit happy. the melancholy nature of the song is beautiful.

[@camilaspe]

truly discovering adrianne lenker and big thief 6 years ago was so beneficial for my outlook on life

[@jannyzworld]

This is so beautiful 🥲

[@Sethsm1]

The guitar part is so beautiful. The part at 0:14 that repeats throughout the song feels like genuine heartbreak coming into focus for a moment, like it's difficult to stay with for any longer.

[@zacstaffiere]

beautifully said

[@zeocit]

@@zacstaffiere indeed

[@Koshirozation]

lots of dog mentioning on this album, wonderful

[@devontejonvireclark]

Shouts out Alex G

[@shadyrx2]

@@devontejonvireclark people to come p

[@-Jean.The.Bean-]

I noticed that! I wonder why?

[@morganowens6607]

It is 11:12 AM on Friday March 1st 2024. I'm listening to this song for the very first time. It's beautiful. I'm a different person right now then I'll ever be. I turned 16 this year. I hope you have an amazing day.

[@lal_identity_v9478]

I love you so much

[@br1I]

hope you had a wholesome 16th birthday!! ur so sweet, I hope we can make everyday an amazing day

[@kasenflopped]

possibly the best songwriter of our generation. everything is so pure and vulnerable. each word just piles on top of one another

[@pyrusspangj]

this is quite possibly one of the most beautiful songs ever written

[@Stella87833]

I miss myself. I miss how happy i was

[@rooned]

idk why but "she comes, i let her" at 2:47 hits me so hard

[@H3LL_BILLY]

Real

[@ilovemerylstreep73]

Full body chills

[@gabbanataylor2631]

This song is one of the sweetest things I've heard in so long omg

[@particularshadeofgreen2561]

the love of my life dumped me a week ago, i used to think of her when i listened to this. now it feels bitter listening

[@riley8955]

how are you feeling about it now? you dont have to answer but im curious; i was broken up with 10 months ago

[@Hshshdfb]

​@@riley8955hope you guys are doing ok.

[@leonorromao9523]

i cry every time i listen to this, i wish one day i'll be a mother, and be a better version of my mom. this song is every thing to me, i listen to it when i'm sad, happy, at school, depresed in my room, before sleep, when i wake up, this song is my life. i love you adrianne Lenker.

[@ssouljagrl]

i actually sobbed with literal snot and spit coming out of me to this song

[@Graciousweasel]

I wish i was a musician so i can just sing my heart out

[@LilPeep4Life-1]

Become one. I post my songs on apps like SoundCloud and Audiomack. It’s kind of like my therapy

[@deathheated]

you can be. just sing. it's inside of you. everything good and everything bad is inside of you, it's what you decide to do that makes you. you can be a musician. pick up a guitar, piano, your voice. it's never too late to do be who or what you want to.

[@JadaLives]

for me lately, this song reminds me thats time flies, too fast infact, and it feels like im running out of it completely. I’ve been so wrapped up in teenage life, whether it be boys, social media, or how i view myself. I haven’t even taken a second to realized how much my siblings have grown, or how stressed my mom has been at work, or how my brother’s a marine now.. i wish they could all live forever, but the cold but beautiful truth is, nothing lasts forever. I want to start living my life knowing this, living by this. Do everything with love, tell the people you love how much they mean to you.. or not, the time’ll pass anyway

[@Eightminusfive]

I love a girl named Jade

[@jaaaadewillow]

stop my names jade

[@adrianbordones4136]

I love a girl named Melanie

[@vvvvhx]

I love a boy named Andrej

[@jamie46273]

i love a girl named Georgia

[@rory1028]

i love a boy named Bartek

[@beabadoobeismybae]

your songs will always bring me to tears

[@sarahb4934]

Saw this on an edit of Drake Bell and Amanda Bynes as kids together. I’ve been crying ever since. It was the moment “Quiet on Set” truly hit me.

[@Xoxoloveriver]

I have cried many times to this song. The way she describes the love she has for the other person and how they both mutually feel that way makes me feel strangely sad. Really brings out an emotion in my that I didn’t know existed till now.

[@CloverLily662]

I just keep listening to this over and over and over and crying so hard I don’t know what it is

[@beatrix3170]

This song sounds like a warm hug from someone or something who understands me deeply in a way that I wouldn’t know how to describe with words or any kind of communication. I appreciate this piece of work with all of my heart.

[@madamemaximoff9838]

I think of him when the sun is about to rise and the sky is that dark blue, when the world is slowly waking up but in this moment everyone is quiet, I’m dealing with a heartbreak I’ve never dealt with before, i feel numb and like I’m homesick and he was my home and i feel so out of place in the world, I miss my home, I miss him

[@kaydencesavedbygrace7]

I love you stranger, & I pray you are doing well & heal from such heartbreak. 😢❤️ I understand the pain.

[@madamemaximoff9838]

@@kaydencesavedbygrace7thank you ❤

[@TheBandSenesce]

I have never had the pleasure to meet Adrianne in person. I barely know a little bit about her, but to me it feels like nobody else could have written something so pure like this.

[@alfonsoparrado3112]

clearly you've never heard of Elliott Smith

[@zzslippin8829]

@@alfonsoparrado3112 what songs from him would u recommend

[@alfonsoparrado3112]

Between the bars, alameda, 2:45 am, Twilight, no name #1. There are so many!@@zzslippin8829

[@militaryevents107]

@@zzslippin8829For beginners- Between the bars, Say Yes, Angeles and Waltz #2 if you like them check out Somebody that I used to know and Needle in the hay - He has inspired so many artists to make music (all of boygenius, Adriane, frank ocean ect)

[@Hailey82772]

This song reminds me of him it hurts but it’s so beautiful

[@Ruby-eq1qg]

1:21-1:30 that recurring melody is one of the most things i've ever heard

[@Yawpism]

I cry every time I hear this song.

[@Yawpism]

""

[@maliyahHofer]

its okay me to

[@catzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz]

real

[@oliviaann9946]

This made me cry the first time I heard it. Favourite song on Songs.

[@johnentwistle952]

what a record.. it's a perfect fit for my top 10 acoustics ever

[@BriannaDenton-fx5et]

I’m convinced sometimes you don’t get to be peaceful. Like ever. And I wanna be. But it’s been years.

[@Nat-bq3kb]

this is my favorite song ever. it's gotten me through so much in the past year.

[@starksvensk]

"i fantasize about playing this song for you on a road-trip somewhere in the wilderness"

[@nathanwilliamsmusic1746]

Just can't really describe in words how good this is...

[@cancelledmoomin]

hearing her sing ‘not a lot, just forever’ makes me think about how one day i’ll have to live without my dogs and it makes me cry every time

[@Cows-are-purple]

This song is healing something that was broken a long time ago

[@smileyg0th]

I’m sixteen. My boyfriend and I are on a break, regarding our relationship, right now. I think of him every time I hear this song. He’s a sweetheart. We’re intertwined and sewn together.

[@ChainSmokinWithMom]

Get your boyfriend back. Nothing good comes from a break. Trust me. Good luck I wish you the best!

[@spaceboye9343]

How're you doing? Better now I hope?

[@smileyg0th]

@@spaceboye9343 I’m with someone different. I realized said “boyfriend” was great for me and I’m with the sweetest boy ever now

[@frat]

In love with someone who can never know. 💛

[@atmakeoutcreek]

I've been listening to this for hours on end, it's so beautiful I hope she never stops singing and writing and all this it's so gorgeous and I feel blessed to listen to it

[@meowloveeqq3679]

He was a part of my soul, 2 years and I can’t get over him I still feel like throwing up every time i talk to him, still tear up

[@sulaybriseno5129]

this is so sad .

[@julianbleh]

This is one of a kind, can never and will never be replaced.

[@zaynsprmcy6421]

this song means the world to me

[@jonarbuckle2490]

Instant tears

[@aavavavaa]

everytime I hear this song I feel like I’m about to relapse.

[@randomstuffandye]

This is the first time I'm listening to Arianne's music Tuesday the 2nd of May 2023

[@randomstuffandye]

*Adrianne's (oops)

[@huh-mx9bd]

I'm sobbing

[@monicaandrea5586]

As much as I love how much more recognition Adrianne is getting now I cant help but feel a little sad. Their music was like my beautiful little secret🥺

[@adrianbordones4136]

After a month playing games with my 2 friends, one of them just touched my heart with his laugh, ruined humor and way to empathize. Discord help us to talk often. I thought I would never find someone to love or to feel loved by someone after a break, longdistance relationship with someone very different from me, but I learned so much things thanks to her. I prefered to say to to my friend I felt love, and not just friendship between us... She felt the same. I think you just have to give yourself a chance and be grateful about your past and keep walking, love, smile, feel you're loved, make someone smile. Don't get stuck! ❤

[@adrianbordones4136]

After 2 months, I realize I didnt get rid of my ex (longdistance relationship) so I hurt this girl I met, prolly someone who would be the best person I have ever met, pure and genuine personality with the same humor as me, but it was my fault, it wasn't the time, cause never is the right time to do something, you just take the risk, and I lost her. Now I'm alone, focusing in me and my studies, but each day feeling I have anymore strong feelings to my ex who just played with me, but I think thats something I deserved by not having some teenager love, cause I could say she wasnt mature as I thought having my same age, but it was love in some way, even if she was too different from me.

[@Slipknotsbiggestfan42069]

Cried my heart out to this song but my eyelashes looked great!

[@Emalem]

Adriannes songs are so perfect in the fact that you can be crying your eyes out to it at one point, then dancing around your room to it, then staring into the distance, serenading yourself with it, feel at peace with it, feel empty with it, ANYTHING

[@isleuntoherself]

i don't miss my brother, i miss *my brother.*

[@dancingcat5488]

What does that mean

[@artisdead_]

I miss him too

[@aeIiche]

I keep thinking about my boyfriend every time I listen to this song. Yesterday, he told me that he thought about me in everything he saw, and it was so heartwarming to know, because I do that too. I see him in everything I see-the trees, the flowers, even my clothes. I love thinking about him, and I wish he loved thinking about me too. I love you, Jor.

[@jessemelancholy]

Adrianne Lenker is just something else

[@liaarakal2130]

first song im hearing of her and wow im in awe

[@nofranko]

Hits differently at 3:58am

[@user-cm2of7zs5e]

4:57am still hits a year later

[@wrensworldofficial]

"This song is just about a heartbreak." No, it's the feeling that comes with the last day of school. It seems happy but it feels like giving everything you worked for up, Every single year.

[@pascalewhitney]

I love this song so much...I listen to it all day, I even listen to it when I go to sleep.This song just has something that makes you feel so close to the lyrics, it just bewitches you.

[@starryogurts]

im sobbing my heart out

[@izzie-may]

I miss my mom She is a single mother and raised me for most my life, and I watched drugs and alcohol rip her apart. Yesterday night she said I was dead to her because she has some messed up ideas of who I am. I wish her the best but I know I can’t save her.

[@meowloveeqq3679]

The feeling that I’m loosing you forever and without I could love you better. I wish i loved you differently maybe in another lifetime I’ll love you the way you deserve

[@someonenamedbony]

Thank you for existing and doing what you do. Absolutely mystical and sublime. The tenderness in your writing is everything! Thank you!!

[@AngelTheFemboy]

its 4:58 AM and i just found this song, i love this song now.

[@TanaQz]

i never cry to songs or media but this song hit me in my core and now theres a ball in my throat

[@talianiwa]

you’re immensely talented, thank you for sharing your gift

[@octa-]

i feel touchstarved. i dont know why. i feel selfish for wanting love. am i really that selfish? do i really deserve love? i mean, it wouldnt hurt to give someone some love, would it? i just want someone to intertwine my hands with theirs.

[@jellie_fishh]

what the hell this song makes me UPSET but in a good way

[@bringmesoda]

I remember listening to this song when it was blizzarding out and smoking cigarettes outside, but i was so drunk i didnt care because the alcohol kept me warm. Will never forget it

[@meowloveeqq3679]

اليوم تذكرت هالاغنيه بالمدرسه و بكيت عشانها تذكرني بكل شي

[@l8l-]

كيوت شفتك هنا 💓

[@thorn4363]

I think about him when I listen to this 🖤

[@upularFTW]

I think this has to be the best youtube recommendation I've received in 10 years on this site. Such a beautiful voice and instrumental. I'm going to have to force myself to not listen to this ten times a day.

[@caleywhite6099]

Very few songs manage to capture the feeling of heartbreak. This is a masterpiece.

[@maliyahHofer]

This song pulls the truth out of my tears and heart. No song has made me feel this connected and reunited with who I once was. I feel every emotion I have come to know throughout this song. Truely beautiful, thank you.

[@gaiagensouki]

I cry every single time when I hear this song. It does something to your soul.

[@clumzrawr]

this song hurts my heart in the best way possible!!

[@MeganMaloney-im8cr]

This song makes me feel something different... like a real story telling of the love through my eyes and my life. It brings out raw emotions, and the lyrics are beautifully put! Such a outstanding piece of art this song is :)❤

[@theMusiCandMedicinE]

Absolute beauty

[@sleepy.7238]

I know this is probably not what this song means, but here is how I see it. "Not A lot Just Forever." Means something you have to deal with forever, it may not seem like a lot at the moment, or you may tell yourself this. But it's going to be forever. "Like the rock bears the weather." shows the rock has beared the weather, no matter if it is stormy, or sunny. It always gets through the weather. "When a dog barks wildly, to protect its infentsy" means to the dog is barking wildly, quickly getting defensive to protect its infentsy, something that will always be apart of them. Something that means alot to them. The dog may act on this without even realizing it. Again, I know this probably isnt what it means. But it brings me comfort to think of it this way.

[@breezywolf14]

this is the only reason that makes sense

[@ortezac.5339]

*infancy. That aside...your interpretation seems spot on. And it hit me in the gut, going through something at the moment I'm really hoping would simply pass like all the rest but having a dark feeling it'd stay with me for the rest of my life. Thanks for putting it to words, man. TwT

[@henrydavisjr1361]

Mississippi Public Broadcasting brought me here. I LOVE it..

[@icystorm9]

Good job Mississippi!

[@aVERYBelovedSPIDER_LILYYYYYYYY]

theres a reason i headcanon adrianne as my ocs va

[@effypeach]

well we all just here. yall must be unwell too.

[@RainWasTaken]

Thank you for recommending this song to me, Noelle.

[@karlin3424]

Just saying this song is even Sadder when you have it dedicated to someone

[@unicraft3307]

this song gives me so much peace

[@nekerley]

I'll never get over this one

[@Kai-rn8uv]

this song reminds me of him, he's doing okay without me, im glad.

[@ChickensYT_]

"I could be a good mother" Idk as someone with parental issues and stuff this song makes me think about how I can change as a person and not have to be like them in any way if I don't want to, like my life is mine and I can do whatever I want with it. One day I wanna be a mom, and I wanna do better than my parents ever could. But only time will tell.

[@azaram8133]

I looked at my dog sleeping and started crying, he ain’t dead but I just love him

[@AlexWattBum]

open d windchime sound like air passing over pines. partner song to anything

[@artisdead_]

I love him, more than even I know.