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After winning best streamer in 2021, I was not expecting to be nominated for best youtuber in 2022, let alone win. I was up against tride, ericvanwilderman, and wulzy, 3 of the best quality GD content on the website. I was proud of getting nominated whatsoever, so this was an emotional win for me in all honesty. Firstly about the awards! I think these were mostly non surprising. There were a lot of landslide wins this year, simply because each category had 1 super hyped up level. I can't say Im disappointed in the results, because a lot of my favorite levels did really well!
anyway, I go into depths in the video itself, but I have been super hard on myself ever since roughly July of this year, thinking I'm not doing good anymore, people are losing interest in my channel, and I will have to quit youtube earlier than I have planned in my head for a long time now, because I simply cant sustain myself anymore. While obviously that's mostly my brain fear mongering over a couple months of lower growth, which is what the brain feeds on. Negativity is the favorite food of the brain. Me beating myself up over these things have been really hard on me, and it has admittedly been super mentally draining on me. As a result I have completely stopped looking at my comments, numbers, growth, and just put it on the side, and only really try to focus on having fun making videos, which was always my passion. While I absolutely love making videos and streaming, sadly, I am a person who is very easily emotionally affected by things, which is a TERRIBLE trait to have when you do youtube for a living lol. Circling back however to this, I went into the awards expecting to lose, not because I deep down don't believe in my content - in fact, I'm super proud of my own content, and really like what I make. The expectation to lose simply boils down to my head thinking I have fully fallen off, and people have lost interest in what I do, because of a streak of really poor growth, despite getting the same amount of total views per month, as I have been getting for years now. In my own head, I had said I would be happy getting 10% of the votes, because I genuinely didn't think I would get any more. I'm speechless about winning, and I honestly don't know what I have done to deserve it. Thank you so so so much for the support. This was a much needed confidence boost to end the year, because of how tough the last few months have been. I truly appreciate you all. Much love
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