AGUST D: AMYGDALA Reaction 🥲 // [+ mv analysis]

[@leeswhimsy]

I've never seen a better depiction of such a struggle....don't we all have memories that we just can't get away from???? He said in interviews that he purposely went into those memories to write this.....very brave. I think most of us just don't take enough time alone with ourselves for those sad/awful memories to come to the surface, and if they do, we go find something to do so we don't have to face them. As far as the pills....I think it could be either way -- he could have just been taking prescriptions for his pain AND for his mental health. As the mother of a child who has depression/anxiety, I can attest to the fact that those medications can make you feel like total crap, even though they get you through the day. And my son doesn't like taking them at all, so it could be all of that too, and not addiction. I hear people say "Look at Yoongi" doing all this and being happy and I just think to myself -- YEAH. He finally got his shoulder fixed, so much less to no chronic pain, and he's grown a LOT mentally and emotionally over the last few years, so...YEAH, he IS happier. YEAH, he IS having more fun. Belatedly he's ENJOYING things and it makes me sooooooo happy for him! This mv and song is absolutely stunning.

[@beamoon6447]

He has struggled from a very young age living with trauma, anxiety, depression, OCD and social anxiety disorder. In addition he had to take pain medication and anti-depressants whilst working very hard as an idol. I admire and respect this man so much and rejoice in knowing that he is healing.

[@Karin_Allen]

And since that's the case, maybe the handful of pills doesn't just represent taking too much of one kind of pill (though he could have been addicted to painkillers and maybe some other meds as well); the handful could represent all the different pills he had to take on a daily basis to manage his physical and psychological conditions. He had to struggle with so many different problems at once, and we had no idea just how much of it was tied to the accident. No wonder he seems to much happier and more at peace since he had his surgery. I admire and respect him so much too. He's an inspiration to anyone struggling with mental health issues.

[@rumanceva]

the black room is a trap of bad memories that Yoongi can't get out of. lives the tragedies of the past, as in Groundhog Day. the scar Suga inflicted on himself was the Suga who was stuck in the memory. and continues to hurt himself, not finding the strength in himself to learn from the past and free himself from the black room.

[@classical7]

This masterpiece is so relatable in so many ways yet so different on so many levels. 💜

[@anasta_ranunculus]

I think Black room is Amygdala, because amygdala is part of the brain where we feel and analyse negative emotions, depression, ocd, panic attacks

[@yasminesb7947]

He already spoke about his depression that he had to treat with prescribed drugs, then before surgery on his shoulder, he had admitted to postponing more and more the surgery by taking more and more painkillers until it was no longer effective, and that's when he decided to do the surgery... On the contrary, he has always criticized those who take drugs without a valid reason.

[@Yuki.C07]

Sometimes truth demands you to feel uncomfortable. I never expected for Yoongi to share all his pain in visuals, but this was the best decision he ever made. Because people can finally see the hardships he actually went through, as well as the other members too.

[@mochipjamas]

If you think about it, Haegum talked about breaking free if taboos, and then starts throwing "idol no-nos" down the trash compactor. Violence, bloody, graphic murder, smoking, talking about mental health struggles and other particularly deep and personal issues that idols are forbidden from sharing, because it shatters the whole flawless porcelain imaginary girl/boyfriend image they're supposed to sell. Damn, I really respect Yoongi, man.

[@didinau]

I think scar is representing self-harm, it was mentioned partly in his song The Last from first mistape. And when you look at Yoongi with a scar in all those MVs, it seems like Suga constantly tries to kill that past part of himself.

[@weronikakolenska6390]

I think it might be a way of telling us that he struggled a lot and was scarred because of that.😢

[@Karin_Allen]

Notice that the first time we see his scar in the video, he looks at the camera and sneers like the king in "Daechwita" sneers. That reminds me of what he says in interviews about adopting a strong, emotionally tough persona to hide his hurt - and it makes me rethink everything I thought I knew about the king in "Daechwita." That persona might have been constructed partly to clap back at haters, but I think it was mostly constructed to hide his inner torment.

[@judyburgess3357]

Having never spoken to Suga myself, but I have seen that recently he has been more energetic and apparently happier. I would guess that since the operation he is no longer in deep physical pain, which is exhausting to live with especially with the effects of painkillers on top. He seems a different, more positive person. No longer the guy who wanted to lie down and be left alone. Maybe having had the physical pain removed he has been able to find the energy, or intention to address the emotional pain. Whatever it is, I sincerely wish him well, to be able to find the strength to deal with those handicaps.

[@FM_ris]

your comment made me cry, you put it beautifully, it's exactly how I feel looking at him. Back in the days we made memes about his "laziness" and distant behaviour, but underneath all of that, from the point of view of someone who knows depression, those looked like signs that he wasn't ok. Now he's still himself, the calm, generally introverted and thoughtfull person he's always been, but he seems.. brighter. Like you can actually see the work he has done, his approach on life and himself is way more forgiving and welcoming. He is more present and open and it shows so much. I will forever be proud of him.

[@joy518]

i wanted him to kick the door down to free himself too. but, i went back and listened to the songs dawn' and snooze' and understood his point. then i also replayed huh' and understood the 2 separations of the selves' on the other sides of the door. this was genius, emotional and another masterpiece in art. yoongi needs to be awarded for giving the world 2 great emotional and thought provoking artistic videos that were greater than just music videos. thank as always landon for your reactions💜

[@joy518]

@@m.m.9175 you are right i forgot about 'film out'. the minds of bts are on another level

[@steveblevins8793]

Please note the split-second image of a hand holding almonds at 3:33. This is a reference to ALMOND: A NOVEL about a guy who has trouble identifying and describing experienced emotions because of a neuropsychologic condition (alexithymia). The "almond" refers to the amygdala, an almond-shaped area of the brain. Yoongi was seen reading this book in a preview to IN THE SOOP. The book is on Namjoon's recommended list.

[@LandonMark]

that is an amazing catch! Thank you!! 💜💜 guess I need to go buy the book and binge watch in the soop again 🥹

[@steveblevins8793]

@@LandonMark I wish BTS would slow down. I just finished reading DAMIEN so I could understand BLOOD, SWEAT, AND TEARS!

[@LandonMark]

Yesss it’s a good one! I read it along with my BST reaction if you’re interested after you finish :) kzbin.info/www/bejne/nH3cipaHhrafbJI

[@cuesegue]

@@LandonMark he (Yoongi) actually has a conversation with Jimin in the trailer explaining what the Amygdala is during an episode of In the Soop which means he actually started writing this song at that time. When I first watched the episode, I thought they were discussing it because he was reading the book. By the way, it is an interesting read and like RM I highly recommend it.

[@cuesegue]

Yes people use differing methods including sleep, for coping with depression, PTSD, etc. I believe Yoongi created the persona AugustD and the self-inflicted scar as a way to cope with his past trauma, to put up a brave yet indifferent front as a defense mechanism in order to prevent himself from falling into a hole he would never climb out of. In this MV, we see that while he still has these traumatic memories, he no longer needs the AugustD persona to protect him as he has worked through the impact these events have held over his emotions and his life. We, as people who love Yoongi have a difficult time processing this MV because while we knew some things, we didn’t know everything and the visuals of someone you care about struggling are genuinely heartbreaking. Whether it is in the long time past or whether it is “just an MV”, it is still something we all needed to sit with for a bit and remind ourselves that Yoongi has endured and come out the other side healthy and finally happier than he’s ever been. If AugustD returns, it won’t be because Yoongi has gone through something again, it will be because he wants to speak on something relevant in a “no holds barred” manner that he feels needs more attention. Of course this is just my opinion.

[@marygracetecson3230]

My heart feels so heavy that I can’t stop crying watching this MV. Hardcore but factual events. He was brave enough to share his dark days. I’m just glad Yoongi is still with us today.

[@toanzhou]

I think the last scene of past Suga is just that if the Yoongi of then could see the Yoongi of now, he would do everything he could to help him to get him out of the dark place he would try to save him, try to spare himself. But ultimately he can’t because the past is past. The time for younger Yoongi to spare himself the pain of his own decisions is already gone.

[@jenniferbelmoudden344]

This video just immediately made me cry. He is such an artist. Just the smirk and shoulder shrug, which matches the scarred agust d’s in Daechwita and Hageum. Just a hint to where it all started. Watching his struggle, I just want to squeeze him tight and never let go. I feel every moment of this video along with the lyrics. 💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@sometimessiri.8559]

My thoughts about the pills is they don't represent self harm but the entire basis of medication is to help you feel or get better. I've been there, but when that black pit is engulfing your entire life, one pill isn't going to "make it better", and thus you're doing everything possible to make it go away.

[@Yoomin833]

Hi Landon, no, he wants to tell us what a slave he was to pain meds, because after the accident, he couldn't be without them, his shoulder was shattered every day and he was medicated so he could dance and do moves, when he makes the decision to have surgery is when it is no longer bearable and his shoulder was completely wrong, that is why you see the pills. It's not drug addiction.

[@jaynegreen7097]

When yoongi ran so desperately to agust d ..that killed me😢😢 xx the whole thing did xx

[@tototaros]

i believe yoongi's coping mechanism was alcohol and not drugs. i feel he has a real hatred to drugs because of his friend that he talked about in Dear My Friend (from D-2) and the many times that he called out pill popping rappers. but remember in the last there was that conversation part with the doctor? he MAY have tried to OD-ed himself with maybe his mom or dad's meds. yoongi said to watch daechwita, haegeum and amygdala in this sequence to truly understand the full picture.

[@Anjism]

Yoongi deserves to be an actor in a movie. For sure.

[@allysongimao150]

I'm just super proud of yoongi to actually get past through such struggles in his past along side the struggles and hate bts faced together as well,Yoongi is super brave to actually put this out there remembering those dark memories of his last life. The shoulder accident due ng a pizza delivery, the lyric when he said "My accident I couldn't even tell someone " breaks my heart. His struggles with anxiety,depression,hate,physical and mental health. This music video is so dark but so real,we can see the true story of what suga has suffered through

[@kenshinrose_btsARMY]

I want to hug yoongi...😢 thank you yoongi for sharing your struggle and pain you felt in the past

[@maytrisha03]

I'm still thankful that they do solos because we hear something from them especially their struggle though it might be scary to share their past struggles but I admire them for being brave to share it to us coz we know we can relate to them. 💜😘 THIS MAN IS SO GENIUS! Like how can they make songs that feels so relatable? 😭 I can't....

[@eshraqy1532]

I want to cry 💔💔 The song is so deep about his past and what Yoongi went through..the accident and everything is real .. 😭😭🫂🫂

[@claudiastout7332]

Crying with u... Can't take it.. soooo sad.. what a journey for him and now we know.. good luck buddy... Concert in Oakland soon.. I'm there

[@RS-oy6bz]

What he is eating are almonds. If you slow down the MV when he sings my amygdala they are pics of his shoulder x-rays, basket ball court etc. The pills are pain killers. Till he got his operation in 2020 he took those for the pain. The scar is metaphorical. Now we know why Daechwita had scarred YOONGIs.

[@taejin9880]

In the mv he shows us what happened about his accident when he worked part-time as a delivery man, about his parents' illness, about when he had depression in the song of the last there will be about his depression

[@jeanny4204]

the pills might be the painkillers he needed to function with his shoulder injury, and also the depression the second verse is too intense man, its like that part on his other song First Love that never fails to choke me to tears... bruh, suga's art piece touch the part of my heart that i never thought existed.

[@irfeemahi9245]

Suga suffering from anxiety and depression he even spoke about it... And his shoulder injury was when he was starting out. In bts he didn't even tell his members or company abt his shoulder injury because he was afraid... He finally did tell his members.... Suga went through alot in his past... That is why I love suga and respect suga.... I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks too so I can relate to suga alot..also if you have a chance listen to suga song. The last it's really a raw song... Where he talks about his anxiety he suffered from.. Do listen to it 😢

[@avabickham]

He had a lot of pain with his shoulder injury so pain meds is possible especially since he didn''t tell anyone

[@heatherkulet3467]

Pills associated at the time he does have a depression, not a drugs "drugs" if you know what I mean, remember it is also shows on loveyourself album

[@karlafm24]

I get what you mean, I love all of him too. I knew just when the tracklist dropped that this would be /the song/ for me. My interpretation was that the Yoongi in the wallless room is his amygdala. He woke when Yoongi got into an accident. And then when all the shitty things started happening he carved his face up as a defense mechanism. He wants to go out and be free of the pain and trauma but he is stuck there, reliving all the horrible memories like his mom and dad and depression with the pills (antidepressants) and trying to end himself. His actual self tries to save him but the amygdala is already so imprisoned by memories and trauma that his real self just have to live with it. 😢😢😢

[@christinadjuari4917]

AMYGDALA IS MASTERPIECE!!!! SO PAINFULL OMG.....LOVE YOU MIN YOONGI!!!!

[@drithib3755]

This song and MV is just too good, it has my heart 💜. I loved your analysis and interpretations as well.

[@wilsons_acres71]

This song and video gives me chills!❤😢

[@LAURA-ok7je]

It just hit me. While many army say this MV is too hard to watch and I completely understand, I’m “glad” (for the lack of a better word) that Yoongi made this. So raw and so downright painful. For the first time since becoming an army, I’m having a difficult time in my life, going through some dark times and maybe some mild depression. I’m glad Yoongi shares his deepest darkest pain with us coz it is some consolation that someone gets it. He knows how bad it can get. Not just surface bad, but deep dark darkness. And he’s talented enough to convey the pain as bad as it is. It’s good to know that Yoongi experienced all of that and made it out on the other side so amazingly. It had to be a tough journey but he made it out. The song as painful and difficult to watch as it is, it’s such a gift. It’s such a brave gift and selfless thing to do. You know Yoongi didn’t use his pain for hits. He used it for making art that speaks to people. I can’t watch this MV too often but I appreciate his art so much! Watching this somehow makes me feel understood. I can resonate with the pain so much.

[@taylor6254]

No words… just so sad story…. 😢 love his songs… ♥️🙏

[@rumanceva]

Suga's words from the film Road to D Day about Amigdala: I wanted to tell you how I got a scar over my eye from DAECHWITA and Haegeum. in a sense, we ourselves are responsible for our scars and wounds. from the first arrow of trouble you cannot dodge. but when the second arrow flies at you, you just stand there and wait for the blow. because you didn't learn the lessons the first time. Тhis means that when Suga immerses himself in the sad moments of the past again and again, it is tantamount to how he's doing the scar on his eye himself. in a figurative sense. therefore we are shown a repetition of the scene of the accident with the car and then the knife in the hands of Suga. so we have a trilogy. in DAECHWITA two Suga's with the scars fighting each other. In Haegeum, Suga tries to kill his alter ego. In Amigdala, on the contrary, he's tries to save himself. these are all the experiences that tormented Min Yoongi. inner struggle with oneself. attempts to destroy and kill oneself / attempts to save and healing oneself.

[@sanfree1513]

August D release his traumatic experiences and the artistic representation of what fight an flight look like! His panic attacks and healing from shear will to see hope is healing to see! 💜✊🏽💜

[@TamiresOliveira-on4oe]

I'm screaming Artist 🔥👑💜

[@margieneal6764]

amygdalē, 'almond', 'tonsil'[1]) is one of two almond-shaped clusters of nuclei located deep and medially within the temporal lobes of the brain's cerebrum in complex vertebrates, including humans.[2] Shown to perform a primary role in the processing of memory, decision making, and emotional responses (including fear, anxiety, and aggression), the amygdalae are considered part of the limbic system.[3] The term "amygdala" was first introduced by Karl Friedrich Burdach in 1822.[4] Amygdala

[@arpitavk7062]

God it's so gut wrenching sad, but damn I would be lying if I didn't fcking relate to the overwhelming sadness, pain of the mv.

[@최은진-r4q]

It means you're the one who'll save yourself...

[@odalyajh1759]

Amygdala membuat ku banyak menangis 💜💜💜😭😭😭

[@margieneal6764]

From what I understand the company did not know Suga had a job

[@jnmhthgb]

9:25 io l'ho sempre vista come se dicesse che dopo essersi fatto del male, (col taglierino) gli sembrava di poter scappare dal dolore (si apre la porta e vede la luce), ma in realtà era solo un illusione e quando provava ad uscire dalla stanza veniva intrappolato di nuovo. Quindi le cose peggioravano perché la sensazione di poter uscirne gli faceva capire di non voler stare più bloccato dentro quella stanza ma nonostante i suoi sforzi non riusciva ad andarsene.

[@yoongstradamus]

I cried to this MV

[@onyabeia832]

This is so hard to watch of course. The dark room is were is mind was caged (depressing mode) releaving the darkest moment of his life. The shoulder moment, self harming suicide attempt etc but the scene where he's trying to get out and he couldn't. Remind me of the only time he couldn't perform and was stuck on the bathroom floor crying and couldn't make himself live the bathroom.....

[@fuhua]

이미 다 알고 있는 트라우마들이 였고 조놓나 대인기피. 증에 대한 이야기도 어거스트디 첫 앨범을 통해 알고. 있었지만 영상으로 보는 건 또 다른 느낌이더라고요... 마음이 많이 아픈 뮤직비디오였어요... 이번 뮤직비디오가 어거스트디 눈의 흉터의 시작이라 고 하던데 마냥 멋있다 생각했던 흉터가 지금은 기분이..묘하네요ㅠㅠ

[@nancyabs3344]

I LOVE IT💜💜💜

[@NicoleS2121]

5:38 to this point I know he recommended we watch daechwita haegum and amygdala together. It really made me think of the lyrics from daechwita about pill popping. Perhaps he could be talking to himself as the alter ego. I don’t want to speculate too much and perhaps he addressed it during the live this morning. 😅

[@margieneal6764]

BTS’ Suga goes on a journey through his past painful memories in the new video for “Amygdala,” taken from his new album under the Agust D moniker, D-DAY. The track, which is laced with rock riffs and hip-hop beats, finds the rapper recounting trauma he has experienced throughout his life, from a motorcycle accident he was in during his time as a trainee to his mother’s heart surgery. The visuals, which were directed by Lumpens, bring some of those events to searing life, with the video cutting between those recollections and a more recent version of Suga struggling to process them. The video opens with a content warning for content relating to suicide and self-harm.

[@evantesseract737]

He says it's autobiographical. I hadn't considered the addiction angle. I don't think it's there; I think our implication is medication that's meant to help offering a way out if you overdose. But it's another valid reading for sure. This one hurts. I appreciate the second best choice, third best choice... When he's struggling to stay alive. From where I sit, he captured it perfectly.

[@moxiesoxie9374]

I thought the door represented like the permanent escape if you know what I’m saying. Like thinking about it, being tempted toward it but it always closes, he never goes through with it.

[@baughndi]

nobody knows he's taking painkillers because of the pain in his shoulders. nobody must know he is suffering from a shoulder injury because he was still a trainee and he decided to continue as a trainee without telling anybody that he met an accident during his delivery job

[@michellemichougraham198]

YT put a warning on 'Amygdala' (recently) for a reason. Once it hit back then? Thousands of peeps who'd suffered through their own personal trauma (myself included - as a 56 yr old West Indian Army Mom who discovered BTS in '16 and was on the verge of ...S with two failed attempts(over yrs, since a teen ) and on my third in 2016.. They - literally - saved my life)....became triggered. Is why he specifically put the " I Don't Know Your Name". It was revealing/sharing his past trauma with Army, while acknowledging that WE are also maybe...fighting our past demons and simply trying to deal. Eg.There was a young lady (BTS reactioner) who'd been though a serious car accident back in college...nearly died.. She couldn't look at when Suga hit that car. Broke down like - seriously - lost it. Had to end her vid, midway. Saw so many similar reactions? Lost count of how many 'so-called trained therapists' covered this video (back then) and tried to reassure their followers in their comments. Suga never hid from his S attempt back then or his pill addiction/trauma/depression and like hundreds of thousands in Army - credit BTS as a group (and his role with them)......for saving his life. Hence why he maintains to this day - not word for word but "My future consists of performing with my six brothers well into our old age. Even if we sit on stools and sing/rap while our younger dancers do the moves - we once did. I'll be happy". As a new member, Love your channel - stay safe .Borahea 💜💜

[@jeanettasheehy3018]

thanks.

[@kaycicaldy7190]

So the amygdala is responsible for fear responses (fight/flight/freeze) and when somebody experiences trauma and potentially develops PTSD the amygdala is directly effected (it actually changes in physical structure) so it’s not just a case of psychological feelings but actually being physically changed forever. Back in the day crude doctors performed a type of lobotomy where they went in behind the eye and destroyed the amygdala as an attempt to stop PTSD related symptoms. Sadly It normally went wrong and more than half of people ended up basically catatonic. So I’m thinking yoongis use of the scar is a visual representation of his struggle to want to destroy his traumatic memories and subsequent fears 😢

[@silviamunoz6863]

I think that the scar in his face represents the beginning of his persona Agust D, the anger one, and he recognize now all that pain was self inflicted (He looks like all that pain, anger went off after the surgery, may be if he had communicate the company before, all that pain could last less time?) He talks in first, second, third choice... could they be: being part of BTS and leave his family; not talking about the accident and bear the pain; and finally, face all of this and put the past in the past?

[@jennifersimpson1448]

Ah in Daechwita he said he ain't no weak pill popper, we thought he was actually calling out someone else but he called himself that

[@amyna8853]

I think the scar is representing the way he used to hurt himself while depressed ( it's just my opinion not that I know if he did it or not) but people with depression tend to cut their arms, thighs...in order to not feel their inner pain. That was my theory cuz in the MV when he scratched that scar on his face he smirked

[@bob8675309666]

So in Deachwita, everyone was trying to figure who the pill poppers were that he was trash talking. Was he talking about himself?

[@Tejiranshi]

💜

[@mikeduplessis8069]

I actually felt a bit sorry for you at the start, all happy and care-free, unaware of what was coming,

[@neoonour905]

I think the one who stuck in the dark room is August D how had bad influence on SUGA because all what he wents through.. and in the end when yoongi couldn't help him it means the clos chapter of August d.

[@zaddyzain9602]

the way I interpreted the many pills is as an attempted overdose to commit......in order to escape the trauma that haunts him, at least that's how I interpreted it personally based on the things we know from the things he has shared so far :(( awful to think about

[@leibakngambakhangembam8520]

D is for daegu boy not delivery boy brother

[@_agust.challie]

Yoongi have attempted s****de before because he battles with depression ... im glad he became stronger now,from the mv you can see his scar heal,that's mean he's heal now

[@margieneal6764]

amygdalē, 'almond', 'tonsil'[1]) is one of two almond-shaped clusters of nuclei located deep and medially within the temporal lobes of the brain's cerebrum in complex vertebrates, including humans.[2] Shown to perform a primary role in the processing of memory, decision making, and emotional responses (including fear, anxiety, and aggression), the amygdalae are considered part of the limbic system.[3] The term "amygdala" was first introduced by Karl Friedrich Burdach in 1822.[4] Amygdala