ALAN RITCHSON Gets Candid About the Blessing & Curse of Being Bipolar in Hollywood

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Alan Ritchson (Reacher, Blue Mountain State) joins us again this week for an open an honest conversation about his current mental health coinciding with the industry validation and massive success of Reacher. Before Alan gets into the idea that he is more than just his work and his role on screen, he discusses the importance of focusing on now and showing yourself compassion - in relation to the difficult physique transformation he’s had to adopt. We also get into the pros and cons of his mania, our ability to connect through pain, and the pivots he’s had to make heading into Reacher Season 2.
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ALAN RITCHSON Gets Candid About the Blessing & Curse of Being Bipolar in Hollywood #insideofyou #alanritchson #bipolar

[@DuncanJimmy]

One of the best analogies I've ever heard to describe being bipolar. It's a special kind of hellish nightmare when it's bad, and an uncontrollable euphoria when it's good that can turn dangerous. The worst part for sufferers is that it's less psychological than it is physical, and no-one understands except for sufferers. Even worse, the medication that moderates the lows also dampens down the highs that are the one thing you have to look forward to. In other words, to remove the curse you must sacrifice the blessing.

[@ComicBookGuy420]

People who don't have it will never get it

[@leafyishereisdumbnameakath4259]

Yeah sadly the euphoria can be dangerous too so it's a struggle for you guys

[@leafyishereisdumbnameakath4259]

DuncanJimmy I'm so sorry this is your life. You are strong though. You get through those depressive episodes again and again. You inspire others with bipolar to feel less alone just with comments like these showing your experience. The truth. I hope you're doing OK but idk.

[@shlerTHEnumbas]

I’ve been fighting with this for a long time and it’s really difficult… I️ feel like my brain gets so focused on something that isn’t even real sometimes. I️ go down a rabbit hole and left fear what is coming and it just doesn’t even happen. I’ve never been diagnosed but I️ know it’s there and people put up with it. I️ like to think of myself as an amplifier to any situation. As long as I️ can ride the highs as long as possible. When I️ get low it’s like the world is gonna end and sometimes nothing bad even happened to me. I️ was on medication for a while but I️ don’t like the sacrifice of feeling extreme happiness. Glad to see my favorite actor suffering from the same issue and speaking so candidly about it. makes me feel like we’d be friends lol.

[@stephenmckay3913]

I have no idea about it, but beautifully said. I feel like I know a bit more now.

[@mariecole4871]

I have to thank Alan for being so unapologetically open about not only having Bipolar but also explaining what it's like living with a mental illness and maintaining a life. We are not alone!

[@KingofEverything7]

Marie we all should come together and support each other

[@PilatesbyGina]

Alan being open and honest about his mental health as well as his wife’s past addictions is exactly what our broken world needs more of. ❤ Being willing to not “look perfect” or act the part of movie star for the world 24/7 shows humility, depth of emotional intelligence and a deep level of responsibility to those who follow his career.

[@freethoughts2898]

I'm bipolar, and I have chills because I never heard it expressed in such an eloquent way.

[@cjd3554]

How is it that in my 36 years from being diagnosed as BiPolar and dozens of professionals, an incredible actor explains my existence in several minutes, when not one professional has been able to explain it so others can completely understand my illness. Thank you! You are a blessing to all of us! Thank you!

[@kwill84]

Because to them it’s theory but it’s his reality.

[@AnxiousKoala]

Yes! Yes! Yes! That man explained it with such precision I felt like he as in my own head. Wow, just wow.

[@ComicBookGuy420]

Those that don't have it will never understand it

[@gregbearne2195]

@@ComicBookGuy420I completely agree. But we have to try to explain it to those non-bipolars. Or it will continue being misunderstood

[@ComicBookGuy420]

@@gregbearne2195 in my experience, normal people all want to "understand" But only to a point

[@TheBroncobeliever]

This was amazing to watch. My 19 y/o son is bipolar, and this helped me understand what he's experiencing just a little bit better. He's having such a hard time learning to understand what's happening to him.

[@ComicBookGuy420]

Lithium has helped me personally with my own bipolar, but as someone who knows how bad it is, good luck to you and your son

[@TheBroncobeliever]

@@ComicBookGuy420 Thank you!

[@ComicBookGuy420]

@@TheBroncobeliever Also, as someone who's been dealing with this for a while, be prepared to go through a lot of shrinks, most of which will convince you they know what they are doing, when it comes to mental health, 98% of them are guessing with dosages and meds Just something I wish I'd known at the start

[@michaelangellotti5741]

@@ComicBookGuy420 100% correct. My son was given several meds that just made things worse & weird. The docs seemed to be guessing.

[@ComicBookGuy420]

@@michaelangellotti5741 They are absolutely guessing, My bipolar came on early, when I was a kid, but back then they didn't know what it was, they called it manic depression but had no idea how to treat it, they still don't I've been dealing with doctors assuring me this medication mix is the right one for thirty years I remember I was in a psych hospital about ten years ago Six doctors came through and I got six different diagnoses Lithium helps, but it only takes the edge off The truth is nothing truly helps, unfortunately Maybe look into controlled behavioral therapy I learned breathing exercises and other coping techniques that have helped more than the doctors ever did Also, I have a boxing bag, sometimes kids, especially kids with mental health issues, have got to vent, videogames are also good for rhat

[@sumpterino]

I've got Bipolar Type 2, and i'm very thankful that Alan is talking about Bipolar disorder because not only does it spread awareness about it but it also helps me understand myself. I totally understood what Alan meant when he spoke about his kid telling him to F' off and and that's all that existed for about an hour, similar things have happened to me but even after it's happened i sometimes have a hard time connecting it with the Bipolar thing and instead i'm utterly convinced that i'm just the biggest A-hole on the planet. Thank you so much for speaking up, Alan!

[@RangerMan-yv7rl]

Bless you Bro

[@kevinW826]

My wife’s aunt is bipolar. Her and her husband made it work, raising two kids. They just moved from south Africa to the UK last year. From the stories my wife told me, it’s amazing that she has survived. She is a wonderful caring woman.

[@DinoC543]

Thanks for sharing that. Personally diagnosed at 45. It’s life changing. The keys on the piano nailed it. Take care of yourselves everybody. No one else can.

[@germanjesus]

Bipolar can be a death sentence but him explaining this is exactly how we people with bipolar go through god bless you man

[@mellowscorpio]

My mom is bipolar and I’m so proud of the ways she’s found to manage her life and diagnosis and be a mental health advocate with deep empathy and a wealth of experiences to draw wisdom from. I’m also glad more people are open about their experiences and the stigma around it seems to be fading. It’s so hard but we can learn so much from each other to help us survive and live good lives.

[@lildoggy4u]

Thanks so much for this. I'm married to a "bi-polar" man and we were trogether when he was finally diagnosed. I was the one that thought I was losing my mind while he was thinking of himself as superman. He's the sweetest, kindest man and luckily we had family support. I quickly had an education and am still studying this condition as we realize all his past life experiences have been due to his being "multi-polar". It's never ending and we are learning to live with this. It's been both a wondrous thing for his acheivements but then harrowing at times. Thank you for sharing your description - we found it very familiar and described well. Good luck to you.

[@calvinweese]

I can't put into words how important having these conversations are. Talking about these things not only resonates with myself, a person who takes medication for being bipolar, but to people who just don't understand it. Someone might have a family member or a friend and not truly be able to understand why that person is the way they are. Thank you, Alan, I know you won't see this, but, thank you.

[@goatplissken]

My best friend is bipolar, and I'm emotionally unfiltered. I'd not have him be any other way. His inability to budge emotionally has saved me several times from sinking, like an anchor to the fresh air above, and vice versa, I've saved him. I'd never change him from the way he is. He'd never say the same. Even when his bipolar saves someone, it's still not worth the powerless feeling it causes him constantly in life. Thank you, Mr. Ritchson, for this. I'm sharing it with my friend now.

[@CStevenH]

This resonates with me to a terrifying degree... I'm undiagnosed, but have become very self aware that I become so incredibly consumed by my emotions. Being unable to move on, even though I desperately want to stop feeling that rage or fear or sadness or whatever it is that's taken over my being. 90% of the time knowing, that what I feel is an over-reaction and not knowing how to suppress it.

[@jonathangarcia5237]

Same!

[@jeremystone36]

You’re faking

[@jonathangarcia5237]

who are you to judge or comment? Why are you here?@@jeremystone36

[@maxdorsey]

OH MY GOD!!!! I had no idea he had that. I first saw him as Hank in Titans and now of Course on Reacher. I had no idea he is like me, I have Bipolar Disorder too. His analogy is on freaking point. I am so grateful for this interview. Thank you Michael for the interview with Alan!

[@rathmither8830]

He doesn't, Reacher is 110% healthy mentally an physically

[@maxdorsey]

@@rathmither8830 I was talking about the actor not the characters that he plays

[@nacho71ar]

can't believe it took Alan's explanation for me to finally understand what exactly being bipolar is... never thought it was something as extreme...

[@evilshiloh]

Living with a loved one with bipolar is really is bizarre to know your loved one and see them not acting like themselves yet they swear they are. I’ve had my wife tell me she hates my guts and wants a divorce even though I did nothing to deserve it. And the next morning she is apologizing and telling me she love sme. It’s taking me a long time to really know my wife to be secure in our relationship no matter how bad things get. Patience and forgiveness play a big part.

[@chivonfortney1656]

This. This is the road I walk. It’s painful. My husband is bipolar.

[@alisherzaitov]

How long are you together? I can not figure out what to do in those situations, sometimes I am forgetting that fact about my close one and reacting like an equal person would.

[@evilshiloh]

@@alisherzaitov Married 16 years. The first five years was the hardest. It takes time to learn to communicate with each other, although I am still working on that. It will never be perfect but if you both are dedicated to working on your relationship and seek help it will get better.

[@ccalkin]

Great explanation! My good friend growing up whom I lived with for a few years after highschool was bipolar and this was a perfect description of his condition. It's like there is no middle ground for any of his emotions sometimes. His happiness was unparalleled at times, and if he felt guilty or thought people were upset with him, it was almost completely dwelling on a single interaction... Something as simple as an offhand comment by a stranger could have lasting effects until the next emotion took it's place in the spotlight. I will say his happy times were something everyone should be envious of because I don't think ever in my life I've ever felt as good as he would routinely! Blessing and a curse kinda

[@jefetters7182]

Thanks for sharing. As a bipolar person it is always helpful, enlightening and hopeful when someone successful speaks up about what we all go through. I too, wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.

[@Dr.Megladon]

God bless you. I've had my Bipolar 1 for 1 year. Since I was 15. Seeing what Alan has done with his life with Bi polar and how he has so much passion and purpose. Gave me hope I have not had.

[@chalkfarm11]

I love celebrities like Alan and Taylor Tomlinson who speak openly about having bipolar. There is still too much stigma around mental health in general.

[@alviltayco3713]

Same... Taylor and wha it is really like.

[@Lord_Clarke]

Loved him on Smallville, Blue Mountain St., and Titans did not know he was Bi-polar. Glad to see he's able to deal with his mental health issues.

[@Redcell6A]

Ummm... I think Alan just helped me have an epiphany about myself. Time to go digging on this. Michael - you conduct solid interviews and go to interesting places with your guests so naturally. Thank you for this.

[@AcuteP4nda]

I've never thought I might have bipolar disorder, watching Alan talk about this has made me think I might need to go and sit down with my doctor and find out what's in my head. I've never been diagnosed but I really struggle to visualize the world. Alan talking about his emotions as piano keys helped me to understand that's how I feel. Whilst I don't know what's in my head, and I certainly won't assume it's bipolar, I'm definitely going to go find out what's going on.Thankyou Reacher, I've got a whole new appreciation for you 🙏

[@Thesilverninja]

As someone who dated a bipolar person, this is an excellent explanation. Thank you, Alan for breaking it down into simple, easy to understand terms. This has been way more informative than anything I've seen before.

[@Adkb123]

I’ve only had a manic episode once but I had a buzzing euphoria where I felt like the second coming or a super hero, but my friends and family thought I was on drugs or went crazy. Lasted about 3 weeks and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. You really learn how much people value known quantities and the status quo, as it were, to go about their lives. But mostly, it’s like he talks about. Something small triggers a pressure that’s gonna blow, seemingly out of nowhere to others while being sweet, polite and thoughtful the rest of the time.

[@chadhoward5976]

Thanks bro! Love this. I feel the same way often, I'm bipolar also and it comes in so many ranges.

[@itsalwayssomething7490]

Dude can straight up play Superman. He looks like a page off the comic. He has the acting chops and the larger than life persona. I always liked him since Smallville.

[@getsmarty7603]

He wants to play batman though

[@bobmarshall8527]

Nah he ain’t right for Superman Shazam aka Captain Marvel he’d be perfect

[@LiquidMatterStudios]

He'd make a better Captain Marvel aka Shazam

[@eltravos99]

I think he'd be a good Batman since they already cast Superman.

[@willn8664]

I can see him playing Red Hood perfectly.

[@Jameson004]

The most absolutely accurate way of describing bipolar disorder. Honestly very cathartic listening to that.

[@moedeluca2318]

What a stud... truly. So honest and humble. Just down to earth. My mom is bipolar and it's heartbreaking and horrible. I have severe OCD and I would have to say that it's as bad (as Alan said, the "worst") as being bipolar. I so, so wish there was no such thing as mental health issues... this world gives us enough crap... we don't need to have our own brains give us the "worst" back to our own selves - on top of everything else life throws at us.

[@RangerMan-yv7rl]

I had 3 mental illnesses from childhood throughout my life. I am now 69. Single. N coupled with siblings n family not supportive. Some supportive friends n meditations n Christ helped me through my ordeal. Bless you.

[@MrK-ti5lt]

Appreciate his candor about the subject. I know a number of folks with bi polar and this sounds similar to what they describe. Also! Testament to his acting as Reacher is often played as sorta...intelligently subdued? His intensity in the interview is rarely (if ever?) seen in the show. Good stuff!

[@pamelathompson-zq5jo]

This guy is THE most down to earth guy I've ever met! Such an intelligent explanation.

[@leongolgo9950]

This was very informative, props to him for his honesty about something so personal.

[@janetwoods2508]

Thanks for being so honest about your bipolar, I was diagnosed about 20 years ago. What you said summed it up pretty well, we all suffer differently but some have similar issues, thanks again

[@CapPewPewAmerica]

This was great, it really helps everyone whether you're the one who has it or are part of the support group of someone who does education and understanding go a long way!!! Thanks Michael and Alan for this vid

[@cecile-marivanrooyen4234]

Thank you! Thank you! After so many years of suffering with bipolar, at least Ive heard the best explanaition to give to people who dont understand

[@tracil2263]

I am bipolar and have not been able to find a way to make my family understand what it’s like . Thank you for this❤

[@clipofthrones]

What an amazing analogy, personally suffering from Bipolar for years it's so refreshing to see a gentleman with his status being so open. It indeed is a curse, but recognising it is the first big step to understanding

[@erics1140]

Wow! This was so well thought out and explained. Thank you.

[@shanethomas6208]

Im not sure im bipolar, but I have a similar experience with rage. That pull into complete rage almost feel euphoric, and i can't step out of it when I get there.

[@lindamawdsley6130]

To be totally immersed in a feeling that is not positive must be hell😯

[@rogerdalzell]

ding ding ding ding

[@SophisticatedBob]

Grew up bipolar. The amount of unbridled rage that can hit in a flash, well, my mother used to tell me all the time "you'll be in prison by the time you're 18". As someone said above, it's a visceral thing, you can't reason with it.

[@TheThird1977]

When I was a kid it used to be called manic depression, which is such a better description of what it feels like.

[@immortaljanus]

I'm not bipolar (not officially) but I can get lost in emotions like that. The dumber the reason, the less control I have over it. I get super annoyed at other people getting in my way and I will mull over a particularly nasty encounter for days. Ironically, emotions that come from myself I can regulate quite effectively.

[@odious5317]

All emotions come from within you. People cannot give you emotions. If someone says something to you that upsets you, that is your brain’s response to external stimuli, and your brain’s interpretation of words, tonality, and body language, including facial expressions.

[@davidmccarroll6808]

I’m type 2, and when people are like, oh so what’s that like? And I’m like, think of being the most depressed you’ve ever been, now do that for a MONTH (while trying to juggle work/school/family/whatever) and then to pop out of it suddenly, try to mend whatever you may have broken, and just prepare for the next episode (plot twist, it’s usually a couple months later).

[@sandstew2697]

My kid said they were and I didn't fully understand this disorder until Alan Ritchson said this....thank you❤

[@1979KitKatt]

I’m bi-polar. He explained this perfectly. For me it takes hours to come down from raging. It’s also physically painful as well. It takes just about everything out of me. It’s like coming down from a high, but I crash. Hard.

[@liammadz2741]

Being bipolar as a parent must be really frustrating.

[@Bushcraft-xz6xd]

Having suffererd just from Depression myself, I asked someone on another video whether the the highs from Bipolar were worth suffering the lows? I thought how unfair myself and others only got the lows and here there were another group of people who got these fantastic productive highs and also the lows we got too? That question got a lot of replies and from it I gathered while the lows could be comparable between us the highs were too often destructive and not the wonderful thing I viewed them as. To be honest even after hearing this I'm still a little envious I myself only get to experiance only the lows and maybe a few neutrals, dammit a high or two once in a while would be really something!

[@demetriuscooksey7147]

That's how i feel about depression. I would do freaking anything to just not be depressed for a while.

[@ConstantPursuitDaily]

I was diagnosed with bipolar and adhd 2 years ago. Thankfully by the grace of God with medication and systems I’ve been able to function, but yes many days are still hard!

[@PlayGamzWithMe]

Great analogy 🤯

[@curtiscollins2174]

Very well done sir..

[@MamaGenn]

Ahhhh such a great analogy. Thank you Alan.

[@madbadhatter]

Man, Jack Reacher just explained my mental state to me better than any Doctor ever has. Or better than i ever have. Never considered myself bipolar before. Manic Depressive yes but not bipolar. But the way Alam Ritchson just described things absolutely hit the nail on the head. As if playing possibly my favourite on screen character of all time wasnt enouhh, turns out Alan Ritchson, from watching interviews etc, seems like a real top dude!!! Down to earth, humble and just a nice guy. We need more actors like this. Deserves all the success he gets!!! Great video.

[@LindsFTheFlynnigans]

Holy effing shite, I’m crying because this speaks to me in so many ways I haven’t been able to articulate before. Wow. I love Alan and Reacher but set that aside, holy breaking it down into such simple terms. 🙏

[@YerrDadd]

Very well said. 👏

[@gretchendugan1810]

Wow!! This is the exact description of my brother.

[@Ministry_Of_Silly_Walks]

You expressed it so well, and helped me understand.

[@xf7zj]

Very accurate. Thanks, Alan, for your honesty, and precise description of our disorder... We're not nuts, but unipolar, so true . Got it. Wish I could give it away! lol

[@crushingit5128]

Depression is much worse. Depression is just bipolar minus any highs or positivity. At least bipolar people get to experience some delights in their life.

[@MaShellDavis]

I live with Bipolar 1 everyday and it’s hellious at best! And sometimes meds don’t seem to do enough to keep me in the middle of the road all the time! And I deal with thoughts of suicide….and they seem to come out the f nowhere, but they do, life is even more of a struggle and challenge!

[@o-wolf]

Added to the fact that he never healed or resolved his mom's sudden death &then married into the most toxic/opportunistic/public facing family on earth... This PERFECTLY explains alot of why Kanye just seems really cool and normal and creative and funny then randomly spirals into loud intense paranoid episodes

[@DanielleKingdjdinosaur]

its great that guys can now go on stuff like this and talk openly and frankly about mental health issues.You just did not do that when i was young especially men.When a big strong well known man like this can talk about this stuff it is good for everyone.Thank you guys and well done.

[@jimmybuttons7125]

He is amazing for sharing this. How you feel detached from your family.

[@LazyManFantastico]

I'm bipolar and needed to hear this. my life is kind of falling apart. After working a job for a decade I get laid off, endured unemployment and my old employer trying to screw interrupt that and finally ended up finding the best job I've ever had. I had an evaluation around a month ago that basically said the person they hired months previous and who I am now are two completely different people and not in a good way. There is no good way to say I was manic when they hired me and now that I'm on different meds I've calmed down quite a bit. I ended up saying I'm getting divorced (which is true) and thats why I've been off lately.

[@aaronscottmatthews7883]

Fascinating

[@itsAuffy]

I have borderline personality disorder so I can relate in a lot of ways.

[@D-MF-L]

Best explanation ever

[@user-kx8tu7rk6z]

Expressed the thoughts perfectly

[@logan9189]

Thanks

[@lorimoon846]

I love the honesty. 👏👏👏👏

[@xavirik4828]

Ive listened to and watched soo many videos about Bipolar and ive seen many people. Ive never heard the experience be explained so well....as far as I experience it anyway

[@md_vandenberg]

I remember when Bi-Polar was called Manic-Depressive Disorder, a term I think still makes more sense. Why? Because those are basically the only two states you can live in (hence, Bi-Polar). The French used to call it Circular Insanity. Sure, you can live for a time in the in-between but then one day your brain decides it's time to be Manic and you stay up until 4am researching the history of car logos. The average person's mental or emotional state can be heavily influenced by the outside world. The Bi-Polar don't require that, because our brain is our own worst enemy. When Alan says "I'd fucking give anything to not be Bi-Polar", that's what he means.

[@mentalhealthmeathead]

He's also describing some dissociative experiences and cluster B traits. Both of which are the result of trauma and neglect. The effects of trauma cannot be understated. The fracturing effect trauma has on personality and the often structural dissociation it causes have profound effects on a human beings ability to manage their emotional states. In my practice I find that parts work, schema therapy and EMDR are highly effective in reducing and managing symptoms. I sincerely appreciate his courage and vulnerability in sharing this because more people suffer with this than the public realize and we need to have honest conversations like this to heighten awareness.

[@BakaryD]

It's crazy the effect trauma can have on humans

[@ravnos04]

I can honestly say that I now want to get tested because of his analogy. I've lived 38 years and couldn't understand my wide range of emotions and they Army only masked the root causes. Thank you for putting this clip out in the world.

[@user-mg6vx9fy3e]

I only just came across thus guy recently watching Jack reacher series,im not really a series shoshinsa type of person but he was excellent, he's a grounded,honest,sincere human being and I wish him the very best,I have extreme anxiety, depression which can last hours or days, I'm a successful business man, so dealing with people ,life on these times is challenging, I get you bro

[@TheLeagueOfSteve]

Oh my God. This is my experience. Never heard any description like this before. This is me.

[@TheLeagueOfSteve]

I mean. Not literally me. I’d kill just to have this guy’s jawline.

[@christiancarranza1003]

Yeah I feel that brother. Being bi polar. Is like a blessing and a curse. At the same time!!!! 🤯 Such crazyness.

[@loganboyd10]

Wish Alan all the success in the world

[@michaelangellotti5741]

Great explanation of his experience with bipolar.

[@itsAuffy]

I got diagnosed with borderline after my breakup it was so fucked I hate it

[@Iden_Elihio_1999]

Im defintely going to watch Reacher because not only does the show look amazing but I admire him for being a seemingly happy and geniunie man when he has demons to fight off ....

[@lucasdalbert6943]

I can so relate to Allen 100%

[@BassLineProductionsI]

Extremely well described

[@janem2684]

How awesome and brave for him to be so candid about his mental illness.

[@8Paisley]

Kudos to Michael for just staying silent. So many interviewees feel the need to pad their side to show their listening. Or to add more to the subject matter but he just shut the fuck up and let Alan talk. It's why I love his podcast.

[@fryfrom98]

Wowowow ive thought of this before. If im in a low i could get a promotion and not feel it. If im high and get fired it makes me excited not sad.

[@jsbrads1]

Great analogy. I don’t have that problem.

[@simmonslucas]

Totally true!!

[@stevenlowe3245]

Perfect description.

[@hunterironside9969]

that is the best explanation ive ever heard

[@What.99]

In 2013, I had recently quit my job and was struggling financially. My sister said she needed to register her car, and so I took the money I was saving up to pay my rent and gave it to her for her registration. A week later, she was having a brand new couch delivered. She had taken the money I lent her for her car and blew it on a couch. When I asked her to return the money (me having a roof over my head was more important than her throwing away her old, perfectly fine couch to sit on a brand new couch), she told me to k*ll myself. I cut her off after that. I believe she was bipolar, but I don’t know for certain. Either way, I couldn’t continue helping her when she made bad choices because she was going to make me homeless or worse eventually. Anyone that treats their family the way she treated me clearly has some issues, but if they don’t get themselves some help, they don’t deserve to be in your life because the abuse they can cause is unbelievable and extremely unfair…

[@nicolas.cardinali]

this ie exactly how i feel

[@saraheuredavis9605]

that is the best description of bi polar ever

[@jeremyy2019]

as someone diagnosed.....yea that is accurate.

[@hinesmaster99]

Truthfully im a bit older than Alan however ive had his mindstate since high school. I just wish i had his muscles.

[@hughb5092]

I've had this condition my whole life, Although I handle it better in my old age, I still make the same type of mistakes I've made for 67 years.

[@alantes]

He has an endearing engaging personality. Great cadence to his voice and great vocalization. No wonder he gets cast as a voice actor a lot. And I love his eyebrows. Adds great architecture to his face. Good for him. And good luck w/ his mental condition.

[@howardhavardramberg7160]

This is so so real 😢

[@TheeChronicle]

Much respect to him for sharing. On a side note he has to be Cyclops in X-Men.