Alcoholic interview - Victoria

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Soft White Underbelly

Soft White Underbelly

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@numbernine3436
@numbernine3436 3 жыл бұрын
An alcoholic isn't physically able stop like a drug addict. The addict will experience horrible withdrawals. It'll pass & they'll be ok. An alcoholic will die, have a stroke,etc. I saw it happen to my niece @ age 40. My brother is also an alcoholic. If he were in the hospital for something I would sneak him a couple of the tiny airplane sz bottles of vodka. He ultimately went to rehab, became completely sober. Had a stroke 6 months later @ 55. I know numerous people who've gotten sober only to hv a stroke a few months down the road. I hope Mark does give her the moonshine. It saves her from a day of sleeping with an old man for a bottle.
@saltyanchor7111
@saltyanchor7111 3 жыл бұрын
That also happens with heroin, the withdrawals can kill you, and if you're pregnant and stop using the withdrawals can cause miscarriage.
@kkkay7336
@kkkay7336 3 жыл бұрын
I suppose since alcohol thins the blood maybe it keeps all that in check as it destroys organs.... My dad was a functioning alcoholic his entire lifetime..he finally quit about 10 years ago he's now 75 and in better shape than me or my brother's...I don't get it...
@markgoodwin5306
@markgoodwin5306 3 жыл бұрын
It’s not hard to get hooked on alcohol, it takes hold of you and that grip gets stronger the longer you drink more than you should. I went down a dark road and it was misery. I got to a point where I couldn’t remember what it was like to wake up feeling normal. My withdrawals weren’t the worst, but it was awful, it’s certainly something I never want to feel again.
@tracielliott5386
@tracielliott5386 3 жыл бұрын
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@ministryofpeacekmk
@ministryofpeacekmk 3 жыл бұрын
Stop fear mongering! It is not advised to quit alcohol cold turkey on your own if you are a daily drinker. At detox they give you benzos for 3-5 days until the danger for seizures from stopping alcohol is gone. If people died of strokes and heart attacks months after stopping, then that had to do with the lifestyles they were living, food and lack of exercise...they would have died regardless of whether they had quit drinking, or not. The only cause of death from STOPPING drinking would be from seizures, and benzos pretty much prevent those, unless you have already developed a seizure disorder from alcohol, then you will need to be on either benzos, or another antiseizure med for the rest of your life.
@jasminemoukachar6677
@jasminemoukachar6677 3 жыл бұрын
I was raised by two alcoholics. I really like this lady 💖 my dad finally quit at the age of 65! He was sober for the first time in his life - for 5 years before he passed away x You can do it Victoria!
@ministryofpeacekmk
@ministryofpeacekmk 3 жыл бұрын
@Gadzooks shut up!
@BabzV
@BabzV 3 жыл бұрын
I'm so glad you got to experience your dad sober Jasmine. 😊 I wish you well sweetheart. 💜
@jasminemoukachar6677
@jasminemoukachar6677 3 жыл бұрын
@@BabzV that’s so lovely, thank you 💖 the sad thing is, I didn’t. The cruel thing about alcoholism is that is pushes everyone away and leaves you completely isolated. I did not speak to him for 5 years. I had unfortunately given up on him. I only found out he had become sober once he had died. And he died alone 💔
@BabzV
@BabzV 3 жыл бұрын
@@jasminemoukachar6677 Aww I'm so sorry to hear that Jasmine. I hope knowing that he was sober in his last years of life helps a bit. May he be at peace now. And I hope you have some peace with it all as well. 💜🌷
@jasminemoukachar6677
@jasminemoukachar6677 3 жыл бұрын
@@BabzV thank you so much 💖 yes it does bring me peace ☺️ and yes he is finally at peace xx
@pattylettelier2837
@pattylettelier2837 3 жыл бұрын
I had a similar childhood,molestation,alcohol abuse,domestic violence and ended up in prison at the age of 18.Only you can break the cycle,I am proud to say at the age of 57 I am 3 years sober,quit smoking 3 packs a day. I am happy, finally.Mam if you are reading this, I will pray for you. You can do it!
@miapdx503
@miapdx503 3 жыл бұрын
Same! Horrific childhood, my 18th birthday was in adult lockup. Nightmares... It took a while but I turned it around. At 23 I had my son, after being told I couldn't have children...I had another son, got married, and even adopted two daughters. I became the parent I always dreamed of...😏 all things are possible 🌺
@jcliveshere2
@jcliveshere2 3 жыл бұрын
Congratulations 🎊 👏 praise God for setting you free from your addictions. Always stay strong in him!❤ 😀
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
Oh, wow! What a Victory!!! 😊💖
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
@@miapdx503 Beautiful. Well done and congratulations! 😊💖
@jcliveshere2
@jcliveshere2 3 жыл бұрын
@@miapdx503 that's awesome 👌 👏 so happy for you!
@DOROSKI
@DOROSKI 3 жыл бұрын
Mark the alcohol videos stand out to me so much. This is such an underlying dynamic in homes across America. I have experienced it myself and it’s so hard. Thank you for showing these.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
❤❤❤
@towerofresonance4877
@towerofresonance4877 3 жыл бұрын
My mother grew up with an alcoholic grandfather and he put his whiskey and his cigarettes before his family. She never knew him but heard the unmentionable. He died of fatty heart and still "haunts" the family. My sister and I could swear that we saw something in our old house back in 1989 and we believe and maybe him. A dark, tall, foreboding entrail of his nature.
@DOROSKI
@DOROSKI 3 жыл бұрын
@@towerofresonance4877 I’m so sorry she grew up like that. This is major in so many homes. Skews the mentality of the parent. They’re absent really. There’s so much to see in life but the traumas keep so many back. For fear I believe of being successful and self sabotaging… or being the exact same way and failing. 😞
@bcc7777
@bcc7777 Ай бұрын
It's so socially acceptable, readily available, only weird if you DON'T drink. Worse drug out there, in my opinion.
@Brynowyn
@Brynowyn 3 жыл бұрын
Victoria has an indomitable spirit. She has survived some of the most horrific experiences and tells it like it is. My heart breaks for her, and so many of the women on this channel. I hope she can find a way to get sober, if that is really what she wants. Thank you for giving her a voice
@towerofresonance4877
@towerofresonance4877 3 жыл бұрын
❤🙏
@Brynowyn
@Brynowyn 3 жыл бұрын
@Nathaniel Svensson I am truly sorry if my words diminished any hurt or trauma suffered by any human. I was coming from an honest and personal place. I have been changed by the stories told by Mark and his brave interviewees, and I will strive in future to be more inclusive of my language. Thank you for letting me know I have more work to do.
@dawnst7022
@dawnst7022 3 жыл бұрын
@Nathaniel Svensson we feel heart broke for all sure do
@rebeccahale322
@rebeccahale322 3 жыл бұрын
Profound answer.. This takes deep understanding..
@LyndaDixon-k9s
@LyndaDixon-k9s 6 ай бұрын
😢
@ghettobarbie2806
@ghettobarbie2806 3 жыл бұрын
If Victoria wants to come to Iowa and restart her life, I will help her out! She needs to understand what unconditional love is before she leaves this earth. I'm a recovering addict/alcoholic. Sober 5 years! My offer is genuine! Praying for her ❤️
@lilsarita
@lilsarita 3 жыл бұрын
God bless you, from another recovering alcoholic. It's heartbreaking the life she's been handed. We need people like you willing to open arms and help out. Thank you.
@40oz.colostomy-bag16
@40oz.colostomy-bag16 3 жыл бұрын
Hello hot stuff
@rachelpannell4459
@rachelpannell4459 3 жыл бұрын
@ Ghetto Barbie Do you have a youtube channel You being so open just touched me and could use some inspiration
@pedrosanchez6406
@pedrosanchez6406 3 жыл бұрын
We wants more woman like you Barbie ghetto.
@susanzoeckler4926
@susanzoeckler4926 3 жыл бұрын
Earth angels like you change the world. I hope Victoria takes you up on your offer.
@loghawgtv
@loghawgtv 3 жыл бұрын
She has a calmness about her that you don’t typically see in people that have endured the struggle she has, she is well spoken and in a way charismatic
@KathyBryne
@KathyBryne 3 жыл бұрын
I get her completely unfortunately because its an ugly thing to feel this way.
@dawnst7022
@dawnst7022 3 жыл бұрын
the booze she has been drinking has calmed her while being interviewed
@janethanna9023
@janethanna9023 2 жыл бұрын
@@dawnst7022 duh
@ankedubbert294
@ankedubbert294 3 жыл бұрын
What a well spoken woman, especially considering her life, her experiences. She feels complete with alcohol, so she'll probably never be able to quit, but still, maybe she can find a way out of the situation she's caught in. She certainly deserves respect and love. I'm sending both from germany.
@junqueboi387
@junqueboi387 3 жыл бұрын
I completely agree. She's still highly functional considering her terrible upbringing which surprises me. How ironic that she has no friends yet she seems so likable to me.
@ministryofpeacekmk
@ministryofpeacekmk 3 жыл бұрын
There is always hope for everybody!
@pattylettelier2837
@pattylettelier2837 3 жыл бұрын
She can break that cycle,she has to want it.
@ankedubbert294
@ankedubbert294 3 жыл бұрын
@@junqueboi387 Very likeable, indeed.
@rubymorris44
@rubymorris44 3 жыл бұрын
Yes, respect for her.
@phillipkopp5809
@phillipkopp5809 3 жыл бұрын
"It's medicine for an internal illness." As an alcoholic myself that line was like a punch in the gut.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
@lillyrose3545
@lillyrose3545 3 жыл бұрын
Alcohol is a solution, not the problem. Not a great solution, but there is another- You are not alone.
@kattihatt
@kattihatt 3 жыл бұрын
@@lillyrose3545 are you for real? It might feel like a solution but it surely isnt. If you drink everyday, alcohol soon becomes your biggest problem.
@adrianchadwick9524
@adrianchadwick9524 3 жыл бұрын
Gawd yes
@alidelatierra
@alidelatierra 3 жыл бұрын
@@kattihatt you didn’t understand their comment. From the POV of someone with an addiction, the drug is just medicine/treatment for the pain/problem inside we have . But people who aren’t addicts hyper focus on the substance they don’t understand the issue is emotional/mental/spiritual as well as physical
@tiyailaC
@tiyailaC 3 жыл бұрын
"Girl child ain't safe in a house full of men." -Color Purple (Novel/film) You are strong and beautiful Victoria. I'm praying for your healing in Jesus name 🕊️
@viivimarianna4128
@viivimarianna4128 3 жыл бұрын
True. 🖤
@test-xo6vx
@test-xo6vx 3 жыл бұрын
Good morning, another lesson in how and why to be humble and thankful for all the blessings I have in my life.
@marklesparkle5882
@marklesparkle5882 3 жыл бұрын
Me too
@kathymclain2632
@kathymclain2632 3 жыл бұрын
Me too! Thank you Lord!
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
Life sure has been and is tough for many of these souls.😢💔
@keikopompeii3059
@keikopompeii3059 3 жыл бұрын
Every day really is a blessing
@bruppieo5118
@bruppieo5118 3 жыл бұрын
Her liver’s the real rockstar here. It’s honestly amazing it’s made it through so much abuse for such a long time.
@gailmendez5465
@gailmendez5465 3 жыл бұрын
Right!! I think if she would quit now, her liver would most definitely fail her with the withdrawal.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
Especially with gin as it's especially hard on your liver.
@debbiecraddock7204
@debbiecraddock7204 3 жыл бұрын
If she stopped drinking that is when her liver would die. If i had her life i would have killed myself.
@bruppieo5118
@bruppieo5118 3 жыл бұрын
@@debbiecraddock7204 yeah man no shade on her. Just an amazing organ she’s got there
@dorothydaniel4569
@dorothydaniel4569 Жыл бұрын
No kidding! I have cirrhosis of the liver and did not drink THAT much....that I remember...glad to be sober today
@MB.77
@MB.77 2 жыл бұрын
“Medicine for an eternal illness”. That hit me. Her entire story did. She’s got a good heart and a sharp mind. Her burdens are way too heavy it’s admirable she’s made it this far.. My heart goes out to her. May this lady find some love, some peace.
@adriannedubins8793
@adriannedubins8793 3 жыл бұрын
Victoria, thank you for sharing you story. You are definitely a survivor.
@darcyjohnson7182
@darcyjohnson7182 3 жыл бұрын
I've known people who have died from alcohol poisoning in their late 20's and early 30's. Its amazing she is doing so well considering all of the alcohol and abuse she has suffered. She is a survivor! I hope she is safe. 💜
@MummaQuan
@MummaQuan 3 жыл бұрын
She has so much potential to do great things & help people with her story and her struggle. She could reach so many girls/women in similar situations. I really hope she finds her way and gets some help. She deserves so much better.
@twobrokeguyz1214
@twobrokeguyz1214 3 жыл бұрын
She's pretty intelligent. And she's a survivor.... albeit there's residual shit left from her trauma, but she's strong, and she's a survivor. I'd like to hear her play the piano. I'm sure she has some passion.
@viralbuthow000
@viralbuthow000 3 жыл бұрын
Addicts are some of the most intelligent people out there. So intelligent that they trick their brain into thinking they can’t function without serving their addiction
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
Oh, wow! That'd be great to hear her play!👍👏👏👏💖
@marklesparkle5882
@marklesparkle5882 3 жыл бұрын
Man when I watch these stories they give me so much inspiration! I be feeling bad about my childhood and my past addiction....then I say to myself my shit wasn't that bad. I love this channel it keeps me motivated to stay on track mentally!! Thanks Mark 😊🙏. Praying for you Victoria! God bless everyone!
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
😊💖
@siempreprosperando
@siempreprosperando 3 жыл бұрын
Same
@pinkqueen64
@pinkqueen64 3 жыл бұрын
Prayers for you Meagen!
@MrStickman13579
@MrStickman13579 2 жыл бұрын
I’m currently going through alcohol addiction. My sister is helping me get into rehab. It was fun for the first year or two, but it’s just a poisonous medicine now. It’s hell. But bless those who want to stop. Hang in there guys ❤️
@susanzoeckler4926
@susanzoeckler4926 3 жыл бұрын
"I'm scared of not feeling whole" -- what an insightful statement.
@devsuroop
@devsuroop 3 жыл бұрын
yeah...that struck me as well. Like she initially said 'scared of not getting sober' and then followed up with this comment...which is really likely the crux of it for all/many of us.
@susanzoeckler4926
@susanzoeckler4926 3 жыл бұрын
@@devsuroop Absolutely. There is such a stigma around addiction in our society, a refusal to acknowledge what science continues to show us -- that addiction is a disease & no more deserving of shame and guilt than cancer or diabetes or any other disease/disorder. Addicts heal when they connect with informed and compassionate treatment. And sometimes the journey isn't along a smoothe straight path. Often multiple approaches & multiple attempts are required before a person can achieve longtime freedom from their "substance of choice". The benefits are tremendous, though, and not just for the addict. This problem is so prevalent and pervasive that our entire world will heal in very powerful ways when we finally allow the necessary seismic shift to occur in our thinking. Sheesh. I just realized that I had stepped up on my soapbox! Sorry. I am passionate about contributing to positive change in the way we deal with this hugely important issue. The need to feel whole is something shared by all human beings. Thanks for communicating!
@naznow
@naznow 3 жыл бұрын
Deep stuff. She’s clearly a warrior inside.
@faustinreeder1075
@faustinreeder1075 Жыл бұрын
Huh? She’s a drunk.
@johubble6621
@johubble6621 3 жыл бұрын
My heart broke for Victoria so many times when she told her story, but particularly when she talked of being happily pregnant and the bond she felt with her daughter..
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
I'm glad she had that blessed time in her life.💖
@dawnst7022
@dawnst7022 3 жыл бұрын
i would like to know if she drank while pregnant
@ginaseaton3646
@ginaseaton3646 3 жыл бұрын
"and now it's a medicine for an internal illness" This woman is a poet. I really hope she can one day get out from under her addiction. She's paid her dues a million times over.
@InnaVitamina777
@InnaVitamina777 3 жыл бұрын
My heart aches for the experience Victoria has had but deep inside I have hope she can still make it out. She is tough as a bullet, extremely wise and resourceful. Being on the streets that long I cannot imagine how numb and disassociative you have to make yourself to make it through day by day. I really hope someone that with extensive trauma-based therapy experience reaches out to her and she accepts the help to start the process of healing, sobriety, resource linking etc.. Praying she will soon have her sobriety and a safe place she calls home and finds meaning and value in paying it forward and helping others get out of the cycle. It won't be easy.. It will most likely be extremely difficult.. But she will have another moment to add to the best moment in her life. Victoria, you are beautiful,you are worthy of love, care she respect. We are all cheering for you. Found link. Thanks.
@karyannfontaine8757
@karyannfontaine8757 3 жыл бұрын
Her father was a monster having abused her at 10 years old. Her mother telling her it was her own fault was the ultimate betrayal.
@adriannedubins8793
@adriannedubins8793 3 жыл бұрын
AGREE!!
@vonderloo3184
@vonderloo3184 3 жыл бұрын
Mothers like that are actually jealous of their daughters.
@skinsnation4404
@skinsnation4404 3 жыл бұрын
Not only that but the father also participated in it with his wife’s brother if I caught that correctly. I hate how people look down on addicts instead of genuinely understanding their pain and trying to help. I don’t think most people would survive that type of abuse
@vickicarnes6860
@vickicarnes6860 3 жыл бұрын
Her parents are guilty of murdering her soul!!
@tinasmith7630
@tinasmith7630 25 күн бұрын
U so correct!!!
@katpenner7151
@katpenner7151 3 жыл бұрын
Victoria, it's never too late to get sober. I was 44 when I put down the bottle, I'm 52 now. We just can't do it alone. Sending you so many blessings of love and light. 💗
@BV9429
@BV9429 3 жыл бұрын
Damn you're 52😮 that's not possible
@blucky1250
@blucky1250 3 жыл бұрын
Her brain was trained as a baby to soothe itself with alcohol. Our brain is more powerful than any other organ, hers was formed with trauma, violence and extreme degradation. Considering the circumstances , she’s a freaking miracle by just existing. Alcohol is the hardest most dangerous withdrawal of them all. I’m sober 4 years against far less difficulty..I admire her very survival and I’m rooting for her.
@Tbaby_
@Tbaby_ 3 жыл бұрын
I've met the most intelligent well spoken people in the grimiest and lowest of places. There's a blessing in disguise in everyone
@danetspeaks8708
@danetspeaks8708 3 жыл бұрын
And there is beauty in the struggle 🙏🏾
@leneo1731
@leneo1731 2 жыл бұрын
This made me thankful. I struggle with a lot of shit. Severe depression and anxiety. Even more severe OCD. The worst case the Doctor actually had diagnosed in the County. But at least I'm not drinking. Drinking was fun! Drinking was pleasant! It gave me a calm feeling I'd never experienced before. I felt at ease. When I was 15 I used to buy a six pack and go sit by myself in the woods or the hills and I wrote poems. When I drank my head became quiet for the first time. No need to say it felt like I was home finally. While my friends were partying together, I sat alone. Later in the evening I went to town to meet people, but I didn't need people like my friends did. I cherished the time alone with a quiet mind. Later on drinking wasn't that fun. It was fun meeting people, going out to clubs and dance. But at one point I had to drink half a bottle vodka before I could take a shower. It was absolutely horrible. I remember throwing up a Saturday in the middle of the day in the middle of the city beside a family with children. Another time I was by the church. It happened several places. I wasn't even 20 years old but not once did someone come over and ask how I was doing. I looked pretty normal, I was always clean, nice dresses and makeup. I didn't look like I lived on the streets, that would probably stop many people from caring. Because people on the streets never get asked how they're doing. However. I'm extremely thankful that I don't drink because this could've been me.
@joyceturner2929
@joyceturner2929 3 жыл бұрын
She had so much potential just to be robbed of her future. Life is not fair. She is so intelligent, her biggest regret was not finishing high school. You are a very interesting woman, I wish for you all the best 🙏🏻🙏🏻
@mysticmama740
@mysticmama740 3 жыл бұрын
she has a sweet and wise spirit. So unfair, as she says that "my Dad took everything from me, as a child as a woman...." Just not fair. Imagine her as a girl being so harmed, her spirit and innocence being broken. You cant ever get it back and she knows this. She drinks to numb the pain. Makes sense to me. I am sending love from afar.
@karlkidd1
@karlkidd1 3 жыл бұрын
Alcohol is the comforting mother we never had. Always there, no matter what
@viivimarianna4128
@viivimarianna4128 3 жыл бұрын
SO true & SO fuckind SAD. 🖤
@elinmansson5535
@elinmansson5535 3 жыл бұрын
This is how i feel about processed food…
@karlkidd1
@karlkidd1 3 жыл бұрын
@@elinmansson5535 I was just thinking earlier about, how alcohol can be like "2 days, clean & sober.. let's go," Vs, food addiction. I feel that
@karlkidd1
@karlkidd1 3 жыл бұрын
@@elinmansson5535 what kinds of food do you mean? I mean, my worst would be mac n cheese, 3 cheese shells..
@elinmansson5535
@elinmansson5535 3 жыл бұрын
@@karlkidd1 Well, all the unhealthy crap with carbs, sugar and fat mixed together basically.... cookies, pastries, fast food , sweets etc...Compulsive over eating is like alcoholism in the way that once you take that first bite you can't stop...Even when my stomach is physically full i cant stop because my brain tells me to keep going, its like an obsession of the mind. It's impossible to "get enough" or feel "satisfied" after a few cookies like normal people do. You would be surprised to know how many people suffer from this.... No one talks about it...obviously..i's done in secret at home.
@sharps147
@sharps147 3 жыл бұрын
I can see the child in her and so wish she could feel free. Sending Victoria love and strength
@alidelatierra
@alidelatierra 3 жыл бұрын
You’re interviewing skills and respectfulness are really developing as it comes across the the viewers . Keep it up👍🏽
@nigelatkinson6920
@nigelatkinson6920 3 жыл бұрын
Honest, intelligent and despite her dependency and circumstances an amazing woman.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
Yes!
@ecboston1892
@ecboston1892 3 жыл бұрын
Alcoholics are not usually "honest." Just because she is saying it does not mean it is true. I'm not calling her a liar, but I am saying that people who are addicted must lie, every day all day, to maintain their addiction
@whittneyk
@whittneyk 3 жыл бұрын
Her & my mother grew up with almost mirror image lives & my mom was just 30 miles down the road. You didn’t deserve anything that happen to you! ❤️
@bcc7777
@bcc7777 Ай бұрын
My dad too. 😒
@rainystormcloud7499
@rainystormcloud7499 3 жыл бұрын
I know exactly what she means when she says that she's afraid of not feeling "whole" without the alcohol because the alcohol is what makes her feel "whole".. ✨I know exactly what that feels like...
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
Victoria, Thank you for your interview. I appreciate your honesty. I'm sorry for what happened to you. You sure do deserve to have a good friend to encourage you and show you what a good person you are. Someone to truely laugh with and trust will be with you through the tough times. I wish you well. Much love from Michigan.❤❤❤
@michellehomick6761
@michellehomick6761 3 жыл бұрын
She is beautiful in side and out. Really smart lady. Sending her prayers.
@BroMark1611
@BroMark1611 3 жыл бұрын
The commentary in my head gets so long that sometimes I just say things like I love Victoria and quit a quart of scotch every day March 12th 1991. I'm in Kentucky now, but I fully remember tapering off without a treatment center or any medications. Hit AA every day for three and a half years to keep cleansing from alcohol. Best wishes my girl. I stopped after 25 years at 40. I started out waking up every morning making my sobriety the single most important thing in my life. One day, one moment at a time. It gets better.
@Brillemeister
@Brillemeister 3 жыл бұрын
My story's nowhere near as tough as Victoria's, but I'm 24 days sober and it's kind of hard for me too. So glad I took that first step, though. Here's hoping for better days ahead for Victoria. God bless
@mariahwalter8997
@mariahwalter8997 Жыл бұрын
Currently 4 days sober from any alcohol. I was drinking daily, and things were starting to get scary. My husband was getting really worried about me, he didnt want me to ruin everything just trying to numb my emotions and the pain i deal with since my childhood. Trying to bury the trauma and pain only makes it blow up in your face eventually. Ive learned to feel it and heal from it so it doesnt fester deep inside of my being.
@tiddlesmcdoucheface5536
@tiddlesmcdoucheface5536 3 жыл бұрын
She has a really good soul. She's just broken. I hope one day she'll be able to stick the pieces back together even if they're not perfect. She deserves that.
@adriennef4637
@adriennef4637 3 жыл бұрын
I could totally hang with Miss Victoria. She seems like a super cool country woman like myself. I can relate to so much of what she said about her life. I wish her so much love & peace❤
@kevincarlson4562
@kevincarlson4562 3 жыл бұрын
I wonder how Los Angeles affects her since she's from a rural area.I can't stand people who judge.Anyone with her upbringing would drink.I would,anyway.
@kevincarlson4562
@kevincarlson4562 3 жыл бұрын
@@ItsSauIGoodman What i meant was if I'd been that traumatized,I'd drink too.Such a strong woman despite it all.
@davechristian7543
@davechristian7543 3 жыл бұрын
ya n bet it wouldn't take long before she flogged u lov
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
@@davechristian7543 Flogged? Not US slang. What does it mean?
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
Victoria is interesting and seems honest. She would be interesting to talk to.
@thekatt...
@thekatt... 3 жыл бұрын
So glad I quit drinking 30 yrs ago. Cause if I had lived long enough, this would be me. Thank you Victoria , for sharing your story with us. And thank you Mark, for reminding all us sober folk , how we could have ended up, and how blessed we are today. ❤🇨🇦🌈
@chirabowles498
@chirabowles498 3 жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry for all she had to go through. She did not deserve that.
@hildyboo
@hildyboo 3 жыл бұрын
what an incredibly beautiful and strong woman! She lived through unimaginable trauma and remained strong. I wish she could experience sobriety, Sober she could do just about anything!!!
@rhonda6791
@rhonda6791 2 жыл бұрын
My heart went out to this woman. I’m not underestimating life on the streets but her 15 years with her terrible excuse for a family was worse. Victoria I send love and that you find a spot somewhere to feel whole.
@MEL2theJ
@MEL2theJ 2 жыл бұрын
Thank you for the interview Victoria and SWU
@irismariescott5313
@irismariescott5313 3 жыл бұрын
Another beautiful soul graces us with her presence, unbeknownst to her that she's loved and valued by so many.......I believe (hope) that everyone that sits in that "magical" chair, upon departure, is one step closer to completion.
@unknownunknown-uv3kz
@unknownunknown-uv3kz 3 жыл бұрын
This is mind boggling to me. She has been drinking all her life from what I gather. Alcohol in her bottle, first time she helped herself to alcohol was 4/5. Said her mom was an alcoholic so there's a good chance she was consuming alcohol in the womb. "Never had a chance" us literal in this situation. My Hope is for her to find peace with her past; that's the only way she will ever feel true joy.
@pv4412
@pv4412 3 жыл бұрын
I just want to hug this woman, I actually really like her. You can tell she’s not a bad person, she was just dealt the wrong cards in life.
@terrytownsend5583
@terrytownsend5583 Жыл бұрын
You got long arms
@almaconnor9171
@almaconnor9171 3 жыл бұрын
God bless this poor soul. Locked in a closet and not ONE of her 17 brothers would stand up for her. God help the poor women who ended up with one of them. This woman’s life has been pure hell. But she’s smart and she’s not even bitter. Those people who hurt her will pay dearly some day.
@dawnst7022
@dawnst7022 3 жыл бұрын
people who hurt her pay everyday but that does not stop them being a monster is not fun sad these vids are only showing what happens in every town in america that we ignore
@creetatinirau-bu1zm
@creetatinirau-bu1zm 6 ай бұрын
I wondered why all those brothers weren't able to help her she had alot of brothers
@bcc7777
@bcc7777 Ай бұрын
"Vengeance is Mine" - The Lord
@stellapivovarova5625
@stellapivovarova5625 3 жыл бұрын
Jesus what an unlucky life for this sweet lady. I hope she’s able to conquer this problem. She’s still young.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
She really does look for how long she's been drinking!
@donnabernhard2159
@donnabernhard2159 3 жыл бұрын
This lady IS articulate & smart. And brutally honest. My sincere best to her/you.
@sheshemarie3410
@sheshemarie3410 2 жыл бұрын
I love her. I hope she finds a different way. She's smart. She could help so many people.
@ogadlogadl490
@ogadlogadl490 3 жыл бұрын
My Best friend in the whole world died from alcoholism at the age of 61. He had so much life left in him. Decades of good times and adventures to look forward to. Please please get help for your addiction before it’s too late. RIP CPT Will love you forever fuzzy head.
@kristiwilliams6518
@kristiwilliams6518 3 жыл бұрын
❤ I understand Victoria. I COMPLETELY understand. Love you sister. Hang in there. Keep the hope
@hewgriffiths2092
@hewgriffiths2092 3 жыл бұрын
Hi from Sydney Australia! I love Mark's work and while often it is confronting, those of us who actually consume the content can see the merit in it, both long and short term. Sadly a great many americans either refuse to even look or worse, deny there is anything to look at. I have watched a lot of these videos, and still the one that inspires me the most is old Ruby from Appalachia, search Mark's content and find that one is my advice to anyone who wants a lift.
@ashleee1127
@ashleee1127 3 жыл бұрын
Good vibes to this woman. I hope she finds happiness. She deserves happiness.
@alkais99
@alkais99 3 жыл бұрын
Wow. She’s actually a very beautiful woman and very well spoken. It’s heartbreaking to see the damage caused by childhood trauma and lack of stability and guidance as a young child. Yet, still she seems very smart and kind. I wish she could get the help she needs to get sober and really discover who she is. She also has very pretty hair, too.
@stormy8427
@stormy8427 3 жыл бұрын
Much love to you Victoria, you deserve to get a spark in your beautiful eyes. You are for real, and you can quit the drinking! God bless you🤍
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
@@mihe6212 Oh, stop. Why do you keep pestering people? It's said that people who need love the most, ask for it in all the wrong ways. Sending you a hug from Michigan.❤
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
@@mihe6212 It's not too much trouble. I enjoy hugging people. Not being able to hug much because of covid has been really sad for me.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
@@mihe6212 🤗💖
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
@@mihe6212 Honey, we been through this. Don't you remember? We went through mercy, too.🤔
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
@@mihe6212 🤗😘
@ProphetJayWyatt
@ProphetJayWyatt 3 жыл бұрын
Shout out to Kentucky & all the Appalachian folk who will probably never see this…
@Nooodles2space
@Nooodles2space 3 жыл бұрын
What a strong woman, I truly hope you can get away from the alcohol. I am so sorry your family betrayed you. I just get that genuine vibe from this woman. I hope she decides to get the help.
@tierratrails9554
@tierratrails9554 3 жыл бұрын
“It’s a medicine for an eternal illness” Wow just wow. Existential angst through no fault of her own. I really like her.
@courtneydurham8385
@courtneydurham8385 3 жыл бұрын
You're a beautiful soul. Wishing you protection, love, happiness and peace of mind.🌻
@saudigold50
@saudigold50 3 жыл бұрын
“It completes me.” Meanwhile she is slowly dying. Hoping she finds her way to sobriety.
@dawnst7022
@dawnst7022 3 жыл бұрын
we all are slowly dying kido we are all dying from the point of conception all are born to die
@akibasleuth
@akibasleuth 3 жыл бұрын
QUESTION: Does anyone else watch this videos hoping to TRY and understand people with similar issues in their life because you can't have this candid conversations with the person in your mind when you watch this? That's why I watch all alcoholic videos,just trying to figure out the why. Have a nice day y'all
@JaZmine147
@JaZmine147 3 жыл бұрын
I'm sure if you ask from a place of kindness and understanding, you can ask that specific person you're thinking of whilst watching these videos about their life and their reasons.
@markoembarko9045
@markoembarko9045 3 жыл бұрын
I do!
@sofia5096
@sofia5096 3 жыл бұрын
I watch these as a sober alcoholic to remind myself what it can and will become.
@markoembarko9045
@markoembarko9045 3 жыл бұрын
@@sofia5096 As an alcoholic who bounces between sobriety and going off the deep end, I can tell you it gets worse and worse every damn time. Good on you for staying away from the bottle! I wish you continued strength 💓 It's people like you who inspire me Sofia.
@akibasleuth
@akibasleuth 3 жыл бұрын
@@markoembarko9045 hey how about that pinned comment on this video about recovering alcoholics getting sick suddenly and dying I've been googling and now I'm praying for my loved one to reduce the alcohol intake instead of quitting cold. Is there any truth to it perhaps in your experience. Don't answer if it's too personal a question
@monicaparks2808
@monicaparks2808 3 жыл бұрын
Seems like she has such a pure heart. Never had a shot. I wish we could have a few beers together, I wanna hear some of her stories!
@ministryofpeacekmk
@ministryofpeacekmk 3 жыл бұрын
Why do you want to have beers with an alcoholic??
@monicaparks2808
@monicaparks2808 3 жыл бұрын
@@ministryofpeacekmk Are you legitimately sitting around wondering that?
@ministryofpeacekmk
@ministryofpeacekmk 3 жыл бұрын
@@monicaparks2808 nope, only thought it after I read her comment. Why??
@mikeprice8307
@mikeprice8307 3 жыл бұрын
@@ministryofpeacekmk because the person you are asking why is the OP 🤣
@ministryofpeacekmk
@ministryofpeacekmk 3 жыл бұрын
@@mikeprice8307 yeah, I know. I wrote "her" instead of "your."
@bksmith3022
@bksmith3022 3 жыл бұрын
No comments mention ‘how to quit’ quitting alcohol is no. fucking. joke. And she’s been at it for triple the time most ppl have a problem. I’ve had DT due to alch withdrawal, I don’t think this human will ever give it up. DT is the scariest thing I’ve ever experienced in my life and I was hammered for just a cpl months, let alone YEARS. This person is in my mind, always. Thx mark
@LyndaDixon-k9s
@LyndaDixon-k9s 6 ай бұрын
This Lady/MsVictoria - is horrifically honest. I wish her the absolute Best MsL Melbourne Australia 😢
@YummyGummy77
@YummyGummy77 3 жыл бұрын
I don't doubt what Mark said about he will bring her the moonshine....He said it and he will do it! Mark is a man of his word .....do u know how excited she is gonna be too🤩🤩🤩
@macurban7946
@macurban7946 2 жыл бұрын
Yeah, I caught that. That was cool of him.
@mieshaalvarado91
@mieshaalvarado91 3 жыл бұрын
California isn't a place for an alcoholic to live since we sell alcohol from 6am to 2am everyday. I hope she can relocate to another state & get her life together. She's such a pleasant woman who is drowning her trauma with alcohol.
@maysullivan7943
@maysullivan7943 3 жыл бұрын
If you're reading this Victoria, I admire your bravery and you're beautiful inside and out!
@terrytownsend5583
@terrytownsend5583 Жыл бұрын
Very funny
@Seeker0fTruth
@Seeker0fTruth 3 жыл бұрын
“I’m lonely but I don’t trust anyone…so…” 😭
@fifilamoore1718
@fifilamoore1718 3 жыл бұрын
I 100% agree with Mark , Victoria, I also do think you look good for your age when you consider how your life was from been born , having booze in your baby bottle I think your very well spoken and your so so self aware and honest. I’m really sad that your life has been so hard it’s just terrible what has happened to you , and wish you all the best , take care your a beautiful soul ❤️🙏fifi ( pretty feet with your painted nails 💅)
@Plumeria1
@Plumeria1 3 жыл бұрын
She is looking in remarkably good health for being an alcoholic for so long.
@debbiecobb7195
@debbiecobb7195 2 жыл бұрын
Really like this woman and what she had to say and how she said it, I hope she gets the heip she needs!I just couldn"t stop listening to her story...God bless her😇
@PaulineXCX
@PaulineXCX 3 жыл бұрын
She is a lovely lady I pray she changes her life around sooner rather than later
@doublestarr16
@doublestarr16 3 жыл бұрын
“my mom thought it was my fault…okay, whatever bitch” lmao she gave me a good laugh at that part😂😂 prayers for this woman. ❤️
@sarahnoah3693
@sarahnoah3693 2 жыл бұрын
Holy cow they chained her up in a closet.
@doublestarr16
@doublestarr16 2 жыл бұрын
@@sarahnoah3693 I know…so sick.
@terrytownsend5583
@terrytownsend5583 Жыл бұрын
@@sarahnoah3693apparently
@mikey4103
@mikey4103 3 жыл бұрын
THIS IS SO SAD................IME A H ADDICT .....WAS A DRINKER.........IME 41 HAD A GOOD UPBRINGING......THIS WOMEN IS SO STRONG AND MAKES ME WANNA CHANGE MY LIFE................
@ryanmalin
@ryanmalin 3 жыл бұрын
yeah dude get off H if you want to. Your life will be better. You wont have to hustle so hard to get by. Try methadone. Then after a year or 3, ween off methadone. Good luck brother!
@junqueboi387
@junqueboi387 3 жыл бұрын
Wishing you the best, Mikey.
@ministryofpeacekmk
@ministryofpeacekmk 3 жыл бұрын
You can do it Mikey! You have already done the first step...admitted that you were powerless over alcohol and H. Go to a detox, and they will get you into a treatment center. Do it!! It's a great life!
@carolynrupard2699
@carolynrupard2699 3 жыл бұрын
Victoria, you are such a beautiful woman! Just your voice shows your determination and you are real. You are strong...strong enough to escape this life. You don't have to wake up to alcohol. You are smart and can be better than this. You are aware where so many addicts are not. This will push you, when you are ready to lay it all down for a better way. I will pray for you. Hugs... Ps...your a woman I'd want in my corner...true deep roots from the hills. Mark, did you ever try the shine? Choosing not to drink, I respect that.
@jopeters6135
@jopeters6135 3 жыл бұрын
I lost my son , aged 35 5 months ago. He didn’t drink anywhere near the amount of Victoria. Life is so unfair sometimes.
@Existentialnausea
@Existentialnausea 3 жыл бұрын
All I can say is..... it's a miracle she's alive.
@bintbybint8431
@bintbybint8431 3 жыл бұрын
This lady has something about her that makes me want to hug and look after her.
@kathleendeverna9809
@kathleendeverna9809 2 жыл бұрын
Victoria you are an angel for that comment. I definitely would also let her come here. God Bless!
@kathleendeverna9809
@kathleendeverna9809 2 жыл бұрын
That comment was meant to Ghetto Barbie
@jamiemiller723
@jamiemiller723 3 жыл бұрын
The fact she said not finishing high school as her biggest regret is very telling…they should play this to high schoolers
@thematriarchy2075
@thematriarchy2075 3 жыл бұрын
I see more comments like yours, but they should show these interviews to people who are thinking about having children.
@jamiemiller723
@jamiemiller723 3 жыл бұрын
@@thematriarchy2075 agree with you as well
@leklekjasmine416
@leklekjasmine416 3 жыл бұрын
Damn the first 2 minutes. I understand the addiction of alcohol, it really does ease the pain and make you feel happier. Them hangovers are too much for me. I have to drink in moderation for these reasons
@DayVidsgaming
@DayVidsgaming 3 жыл бұрын
First and foremost. God bless her, What a humbling experience. To listen to her story. My ex wife’s grandfather drinks a beer a day. He’s 75 and more fit than me. Looks like he is in his 50s walking around working around the house. Laughing going to family gatherings.
@cali-sun7727
@cali-sun7727 3 жыл бұрын
It’s possible Victoria.. stand 30 of my 44 yrs and heavily. The trauma and grief has to be addressed in order to get sober. 6 mo here. Wish you the best 💜
@LeslieMBates
@LeslieMBates 3 жыл бұрын
It wasn't okay. It wasn't okay. You were a helpless child. Never ever was any of it your fault. Your father, uncle and momma will pay for what they did to you.
@dawnst7022
@dawnst7022 3 жыл бұрын
how will they pay
@viivimarianna4128
@viivimarianna4128 3 жыл бұрын
Yes.... Karma.
@chosen_one1602
@chosen_one1602 3 жыл бұрын
Old school parenting was tragic back in the day. It took long enough to implement child abuse laws.
@timkellerman4890
@timkellerman4890 3 жыл бұрын
Mark, thank you for the unimaginable work and time you must expend in these heart wrenching humanizing videos. I'm disabled as is my wife and we couldn't give very much but surely you accept contributions. Do you have such a website where people can send you a little to help. I can't stop watching some of the most beautiful, intriguing, and spheres of potential and accomplishments people.
@chosen_one1602
@chosen_one1602 3 жыл бұрын
I feel her pain, I'm the same way. I need to drink everyday. "Am I just a victim of things I did to maintain?"- Tupac.
@georgemaxwell4984
@georgemaxwell4984 3 жыл бұрын
She has really good insight into her situation.
@nikkicaters7857
@nikkicaters7857 3 жыл бұрын
She has a very soothing voice
@Mohjoe62
@Mohjoe62 3 жыл бұрын
I'm from germany.Here in Germany there are dormitories where alcoholics live and get their alcohol every day until they have their level.At certain times of the day they get some alcohol so that they are not withdrawn.I think that's good.Unfortunately,there are only a few of these dormitories.This is only available for older alcoholics so that they can still lead a "normal" life.Love from germany
@mizlynn5167
@mizlynn5167 3 жыл бұрын
I just can't imagine what it must feel like to live and never experience peace or joy..only despair, addiction and heartache.
@MeTubeUser
@MeTubeUser 3 жыл бұрын
Its so fucked up what people do to each other. And in this case a father did violence to his daughter and nobody did anything to stop it.
@amandabeltran6924
@amandabeltran6924 3 жыл бұрын
Good morning everyone and I pray for us all... sending love from BUFFALO NY ❤️❤️❤️❤️ ❤️❤️❤️
@taxpayer9546
@taxpayer9546 3 жыл бұрын
Amanda Beltran, may the Good Lord bless you, may he help us all fm: SF Bay Area.
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you. Have a blessed day from Michigan.🙋✌
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