(Almost) sight-reading Korngold concerto 2nd mov

[@Binny_707]

I love the content you put of just you practicing. I had a burnout with my violin that I had to stop playing for about 4 years cause of the mental trauma gained from playing the violin my whole life. I couldn’t play without getting stressed or depressed. But recently, I decided to pick it up again to try and fight against those traumas. I want to learn to pick up a violin and play for fun without beating myself up by putting expectations on myself. I don’t do competitions or concerts anymore, do miss playing with others tho. But seeing you show a realistic depiction on what practice looks like is inspiring and calming knowing I can do the same and am not alone, so thank you for posting this content. It truly has inspired me and brought some relief ☺️ I hope there are others out there who feel the same or are going through the same thing I am

[@Binny_707]

Hey! I saw your reply but never got to it. I still remember what you said, though, and wanted to reply. But yeah, competitions are realllly rough, and I know exactly how you feel when you see others just do things naturally and wonder how they do it. Perhaps you have found an answer already after having taken a break from the violin. I at least found an answer when I to a break that may perhaps help you (and if not, then I apologize for wasting your time). I learned that the violin somehow stopped being a form of artistic expression and had become a measure of my worth. But like how you started learning different languages, I also decided to try out other forms of artistic expression. I picked up the piano, writing, drawing, etc. And after doing all that, I saw how silly it was to put the violin and having a burning passion on a pedestal. I’m not saying that I think playing the violin is stupid, I am currently trying to learn Sibelius violin concerto in d minor so I’d be a hypocrite saying so. But I learned a few things from exploring other music genres. I dated a rock head during the time I quit playing the violin. It was an interesting pairing haha as he is an electric guitarist who is in a heavy metal rock band and loved drinking beer. Meanwhile I loved playing the piano by myself and love listening to Rachminoffs concerto’s all while drinking fruit juice. I got to listen in on his band practices. His band would play for fun. They would miss up, they weren’t the greatest, but that rawness and not being perfect just made it seem much more authentic and sound amazing. It is like old 90s and 2000s music that had such a groove to it and was enjoyable bc it wasn’t all so auto-tuned and perfect. I think that is what makes the music so much more enjoyable and pleasant to the ears. His energy rubbed off me, and I’ve been happier just playing the violin and actually enjoying the process of creating a better sound I want. It was never about what others thought and more so a personal intimate hobby one should have fun with. I think it might just be the elitist culture that is predominant in the world of string instruments. But your channel which I hope really does grow is a deviation to show that you can be a solo violinist too that just plays music for fun. I feel like I don’t see that often. I see more solo guitarist, singers, pianist, etc. who just have the instrument in their place but not a lot of violinist. And no, your comment did not sound like you are a victim or anything like that. I also shared my stuff too so we are both in this together haha. But you shared a story and opened a channel which takes a lot of courage, that’s not victim mentality but more so ambition to change. So keep it up and maybe one day a community can grow :) and yes, I’ll give Macho Alfa a try