Amanda Palmer & The Grand Theft Orchestra - The Bed Song

"The Bed Song": from Amanda Palmer & The Grand Theft Orchestra's album, 'Theatre Is Evil,' get the track FOR FREE / NAME YOUR PRICE at AmandaPalmer.net: bit.ly/AFPshop.
video script/concept written by amanda palmer.
directed by Michael McQuilken -www.qmotionpict...
produced by Jennifer Harrison Newman. Filmed on location at the Richard B. Fisher Center for the Performing Arts at Bard College on August 22-24, 2012 as part of a Live Arts Bard residency.
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Production Company: 8ft. records
Cinematographer: Sarah Lasley
Starring (in order of appearance):
Amanda Palmer
Joby Earle
Adina Verson
Stephanie Roth Haberle
Sean Haberle
Lynn Cohen
Ronald Cohen
Extras (courtesy of Bard college):
Miles Joris-Peyrafitte
Jake Williams
Cassidy Harris
Kate Edery
Rebecca Wagner
Dalia Toth
Ned Moore
Edmund Smith
Fabrice Prepetit
Alexander Hacker
Sarah Kuhns
Fraiser Kansteiner
Mary E. Gilbert
Carley Gooley
Editing and Special FX: Michael McQuilken
Director of Photography: Sarah Lasley -www.sarahlasley...
Production Coordinator: Ryan Anas @Estrella_Mar
Production Design and Lighting: Christopher Ash -www.christopher...
Hair and Make-up: Justin Tyme - www.justintymea...
Wardrobe ("sheet dress"): Kambriel -www.etsy.com/sh...
Camera Operators: Sarah Lasley and Rachel Puchkoff
Assistants to the Director: Mary E. Gilbert and Carley Gooley
Assistants to the Producer: Kate Edery and Oliver Bruce
Assistants to the Director of Photography: Rachel Puchkoff and Kye Ehrlich
Bard College Staff:
Director of Theatre Programs: Gideon Lester
Senior Producer: Bob Bursey
Production Manager: Vin Roca
General Manager, Theatre and Performance, Dance Programs: Robert Bangiola
Assistant Production Manager: Bonnie Kate Anthony
Production Coordinator: Matthew Waldron
Master Electrician: Walter Daniels
Technical Director: Mike Zally

[@tinejakobsen230]

This is possibly the saddest song in the entire world. What she sings about is so tragically ordinary.

[@pixiesinthefog7312]

+Tine Jakobsen yes. correct. totaly agree

[@nenagravil]

This is absolutely the saddest song in the world.

[@huw3851]

Yes, and now I want to cry.

[@charchar9014]

I feel like this story is written in my DNA. makes me bawl every time.

[@theIAMofME]

My daughter got a tattoo because of the lyrics of one of your songs when she was in college.(She showed it to you in St. Louis HA) It turned out a bit bigger than she imagined. LOL I don't care. I'm her mom. And you helped her when I didn't know how. She broke up with her first love in college and I KNEW what she was going through. I knew all I could do was listen. I was so scared for her. She was so into the Dresden Dolls then. She emailed you. I have no idea what she said but, I'm sure it was expressing her love of your music and how it was allowing her to "survive". YOU responding to her and WHAT you SAID helped her get through it. What you said turned things around for her. As a mom, I can never repay you for that. You mothered her when I knew but, didn't know how to help. What ever you said in that email to her helped her take a different focus. THANK YOU. Update in 2014 at 25...she is an amazing woman that I look up to and LOVE so much..my daughter, my child...grew into a lovely young woman.

[@Nameless-dw5nv]

theIAMofME this is beautiful!

[@ChildOfAnAndroid]

I hope she's still doing well and you too, thanks for posting your beautiful story.

[@ashleymarie3714]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@OrigamiMarie]

It is years later and I cried a bit at the end of the song, and then more from your story. Thank you. I'm watching this because I was on a Neil Gaiman video binge, and watched a video with him and Amanda Palmer (they seem to be beautifully in love), where she was describing writing this song -- I haven't listened to much of her music before. I was married for a while once, for several years, but we grew apart and he wouldn't do anything about his snoring and I slept in a different room because I needed my sleep for my career . . . then our politics went separate directions and he crashed his career and I left and I'm happier and he's probably still sad. Life is just one story after another, isn't it?

[@Frotsie]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@raissacindy]

this song gets even sadder when you presence this lack of communication every day. Its like I am seeing my parents on the screen. It's also amazing, in a way, that humans can have the same problems under so different circumstances

[@akee129]

I was trying to figure out why i like her music... and then i caught myself thinking about the story... and i realised shes a damn good storyteller.

[@samarria777]

I always break into tears the moment i hear her sing "I long stop wondering why you dont answer" Its so sad. yet its so beautiful

[@shannonjapan]

+samarria777 I do the same thing only always at "I would have told you if only you'd asked me". The regret is just so poignant there.

[@killerfoxraspberryplays8903]

samarria777 if you’ve only asked me

[@crunchycrayons]

*911*- "911 whats your emergency?" *me*- (sniffs) "my heart"

[@robbwijnhausen9914]

This song came out shortly after my divorce and it so clearly described the death of our relationship...it was frightening...it was tragic...it was spot on. This is the song that allowed me to move past a lifetime of "men don't cry"...it allowed me to feel the pain that that I had shut away...it allowed me to cry unashamedly (eventually) and it still brings tears to my eyes whenever I hear it (sometimes even on purpose). As always, thank you, Amanda! I will forever continue to wear Slayer shirts to your shows...

[@paulplayspoorly]

It also happened to me and my ex-long term partner. My suspicion is this type of relationship is rather more common than we think it is.

[@janellgrace8283]

I was taken to an Evelyn Evelyn show, and Amanda did some of her solo work afterwards. This song was one of them. I’d never heard it before, and let me tell you, it had that same effect of causing me to burst into tears right there in public that it still has after multiple listens. She just nailed that feeling of a young relationship that drifts apart over time even though all of the milestones we think we want are being achieved. She does it in a way everyone can relate to because, as someone else said, it’s “ordinary”, this slow death of what was once so special and intimate, but that doesn’t make it any less tragic.

[@marklong4629]

I am a grown man and this makes me cry... and yet I listen to it again and again.

[@thomasarnt2933]

me too

[@jessicah3450]

most women will find that totally hot

[@NeilMunro]

I'm with you dude

[@sharonjonker2334]

Stupid

[@AquilaArbites]

I don't think this song could ever make me not break up emotionally.

[@kittykat490]

I still can't sing along to this song without getting too choked up for any sound to come out. This is still one of the most heartbreaking songs I've ever heard.

[@roberttisci6503]

I'm 70 and I saw her perform this in Raleigh, NC. It was a small venue and I was paralised! I listen to it often. She is a great pianist!

[@Sumizome54]

As someone with extensive social anxiety, I really have to say that this song has helped open my eyes a little bit. I cry every single time I listen to it, but I feel like its message has helped me feel not so... Afraid of asking people, well, what was the matter. I always have to listen to it more than once.

[@davidr687]

This is the kind of song that reminds me to tell my wife and kids everyday that I love them, that they are so precious to me, and I cherish them. Now, go do it. Don't be afraid to be honest. And don't risk carrying regret.

[@pixiesinthefog7312]

your comment and this song makes me love hearing my dad (I'm 11) telling me that he loves me even though he picks on me. and it makes me appreciate that I hug my parents before bed every night. :")

[@chriss2507]

I hope five years later you still feel the same. I am 38 now and I don't know what I am more afraid of - telling my father that I love him or regretting not having done it for years when the time comes and he passes away.

[@andrewjeffries8721]

"I would have told you if you'd only asked me." Ouch. Yes, I can't help but think of a relationship that I had in the past that could have been different. *sigh* Thank you, Amanda. Peace.

[@rexingtonfunk]

This song is so clearly a fable, and one I will heed to heart for sure, but does anyone else just get filled to the brim with despair at just hearing a few chords from this song? I am obsessed with Amanda so I listed to this song til I knew it by heart but now I can't. It makes me deeply weep with sticky longing and loneliness.

[@janellgrace8283]

I absolutely love this song, but sometimes I have to skip it when it comes on because I just can’t take feeling that way at that moment.

[@elleyuay1340]

So yeah... there I was rewatching this video and optimistically thought "Hey after listening to this over and over again last year, this surely can't make me tear up again now. Right?" Man, was I wrong. T_T #loveyaAFP

[@maybemanda2]

When I was going through a rough time with my husband, I would watch this and sob because it out it better than I could.

[@yvetejera4482]

Any one else cry their eyes out?

[@RoaringFlameCat]

This song is so powerful. Every time I hear it I am brought to tears thinking how important communication is. And how sad it is that some people lose it for so long. Amanda, thank you for bringing such a beautiful and powerful song to light.

[@rosetylerfanatic]

A lifetime of beauty and tragedy shown in 7 minutes narrated by one of the most heart-felt true-to-life songs I have heard in a long time...A masterpiece.

[@squarerer]

The story gets to me every time I hear the song. To think how many people go through life dealing (or NOT dealing) with their relationships in this way... I've been there. I hope the song serves as a wakeup call to people who've ended up in that place, where asking seems impossible. Your relationship(-s) and life a dead end. We have to ask. The art of fucking asking. We won't always get the answer we want, but even the wrong answer is better than remaining in the vacuum of that kind of life.

[@LEEVIEW]

I just want to say, I'd love if Amanda saw this. This song, along with so many of your's really touch a part of my soul and heart (not to get fully cheesy here) but there is something about this song especially this that just makes me so emotional, I honestly think you are a complete creative genius, along with Neil (my favourite writer of all time) I find between both your works that it's like a surge of creativity and passion that really inspires me not only do the things I want without doubt. So thank you. You may never see these words but know that there is a boy somewhere in Scotland, Somewhere a little miss-understood, a little miss judged and a little miss guided but spurred on and trying his best to "make good art" fully inspired. thanks.

[@Wowthatsabighat]

Every time my husband tells me he misses my tiny ratty studio apartment when we first started dating, I think about this song and cry a bit inside.

[@roiybenkel682]

Exhibit A: We are friends in a sleeping bag Splitting the heat we have one filthy pillow to share And your lips are in my hair Someone upstairs has a rat that we laugh at And people are drinking and singing Van Halen and Slayer On a ukulele dare Exhibit B: Well, we found an apartment It's not much to look at, a futon on the floor Torn off desktop for a door All the decor's made of milk crates and duct tape And if we have sex they can hear us through the floor But we don't do that anymore And I lay there wondering what is the matter Is this a matter of worse or of better You took the blanket so I took the bed sheet But I would have held you if you'd only let me Exhibit C: Look how quaint and how quiet and private Our paychecks have bought us a condo in town It's the nicest flat around You picked a mattress and had it delivered And I walked upstairs and the sight of it made my heart pound And I wrapped my arms around me And I stood there wondering what is the matter Is this a matter of worse or of better You walked right past me and straightened the covers And I would still love you if you wanted a lover And you said, "All the money in the world Won't buy a bed so big and wide To guarantee that you won't accidentally touch me in the night" Then I said, "You must be right" Exhibit D: Now we're both mostly paralyzed Don't know how long we've been lying here in fear Too afraid to even feel I find my glasses and you turn the light out Roll off on your side like you've rolled away for years Holding back those king-size tears And I still don't ask you what is the matter Is this a matter of worse or of better You take the heart failure I'll take the cancer I've long stopped wondering why you don't answer Exhibit E: You can certainly see How fulfilling a life from the cost and size of stone Of our final resting home We got some nice ones right under a cherry tree You and me lying the only way we know Side by side and still and cold And I finally ask you what was the matter Was it a matter of worse or of better You stretch your arms out and finally face me You say I would have told you If you'd only asked me If you'd only asked me If you'd only asked me

[@grumpycat2092]

Still makes me cry after all those years

[@arieldanielle23]

I can't believe this song is as old as it is. I still remember the day it released.

[@robodragonn9506]

TLDW: communicate with your partner so you dont have to be super distant for years on end

[@Foofoothegoon]

Yep. Crying now. Lovely.

[@HandWarmingRobot13]

I'm really comforted by the fact that Amanda looks like she has tears in her eyes and is on the verge of tears at the end of the song, because I always am too. It's nice to know it's a shared feeling.

[@gpeddino]

Wonderful song. Probably Amanda's masterpiece.

[@Kangamoos]

How is it 11 years on and this song can still bring me to tears? Magical.

[@shannonclarke7330]

I can't stop replaying this, my eyes are sore and i look like shit but god this song makes me feel alive in a bittersweet way.

[@kevinlatour6360]

+shannon clarke i had to stop watching it because i got so bad i would cry at just the first piano notes.you see, i've been in that bed. im watching it now because i downloaded her sheet music and it's hard.

[@pixiesinthefog7312]

+shannon clarke same here...

[@anotherview7937]

Have a sneaking suspicion this artist will only be universally recognised for their incredibly relevant and rare talent in a few decades like Cohen or the Velvets not that it matters much if you found her today. A pioneer. A bonfire of flickering blazing poetry and song bathing us all in our best light and making shadows magnificent. I bet Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab smell amazing on Amanda Palmer.

[@DonnaJaneSwallow43]

This song is so moving it makes me feel like crying. What a very powerful message,

[@samturtle4220]

5 years and this song still gives me instant shivers. The best kind of shivers.

[@nigellacey6858]

This is the most passionate song I have ever heard - absolutely brilliant

[@MarcelinoSoliz]

13 people have never felt this kind if pain love and loss or felt like they were losing the other person and were too afraid to ask what was wrong. So many things this song brings up so many regrets or things to learn from. I never want to take my partner for granted nor sleep back to back

[@shelbytaylor4301]

no matter how many times, i can't listen to this song without crying.

[@malvadodoctortocino7472]

The first and probably only song that makes me cry.

[@megandethloff4513]

I was warned not to watch this but I had to watch it out of curiosity. I should've listened. I am now a crying mess

[@xSuicidalxxLovex]

I hold back the tears the entire video but right when she sings, "I would have told you if you would have asked me." I start fucking balling.

[@nxrvouss]

This got to me. I flooded my town.

[@NovaStella_]

***** That's a twist: "How was your day, sweetie?" "It was good, until the Water Nation flooded the town."

[@heroicactofvandalism]

Played it to my husband and after the first bridge he begged me to stop. He was crying. We have just come out of the beginnings of TBS ... We both held each other & cried.

[@TheTanyas13sonnets]

I cry everytime I hear this song. But the video helps me cry a little less...only because Amanda's beautiful face makes me smile.

[@ardynm]

I think it's great timing. "Don't be like this! Talk to your lover!" is the message I get from this song. :)

[@lhea1957]

But... But... BUT... WHAT WAS IT??! WHATWAASTHEMATTER

[@lumanianilin1198]

The matter was... Well, we'll never know, and neither will them, since they never actually talked about it... So the moral of the song is, DON'T HOLD BACK, be truthful to your feelings, is better to regret something you did than something you didn't

[@soozidarling5629]

Nothing. Nothing was the matter. They both were doing what they thought the other one wanted. Neither of them were communicating their needs, and neither of them reached out, and they both would have done whatever the other wanted if they had just asked.

[@rawbabymama]

Or they would have spoken of it over a hundred times, promises would have been made and broken, over and over and over and over as the rejected partner died inside every day, her heart breaking repeatedly, until she was destroyed.

[@DominaDiabolica]

It's just as heartbreaking as I expected it to be. Amanda never fails to make me feel such a range of emotions in the space of one song. Still wiping away tears.

[@wonderlandthestoryofmadnes8075]

oh goodness... I haven't felt this pang in my chest over a song in a really long time... Amanda your music changes lives. Even the small ones.

[@Plottoberry]

The ending is tragic but beautiful. I love how delicate it all is.

[@andrewtabori8367]

This is heartbreaking, beautiful, romantic and desolate all at the same time. Proof that Amanda is truly one of the most under rated artists around. Cant remember the last time a song made me feel so sad and joyous at the same time.

[@Harleymotor]

Man it’s been years but I still tear up at the last line “I would have told you if only you’d ask me” cause it’s the realization all this time was wasted cause they didn’t just talk to each other; and we’re only truly honest when they died.

[@robsyko7783]

I'll never be able to listen to this without crying.

[@sussumuTV]

I used to almost cry with the old version... But this video... And this version... I'm like drowning in tears.

[@antoliimayra1356]

10 Valentine's Days later, this still hurts to listen to in a beautiful way.

[@crimes]

As a person who is not very good with relationships, this makes me fear for the future.

[@literosexual6541]

Makes me cry every time!

[@zoghart]

I've always loved this song, because it breaks my heart.

[@Ozn90049]

Exquisite metaphor. Beautifully structured. Poignant. Respect. I am new to this artist. I am now an instant fan.

[@y0ink1]

Robert Ozn Welcome to the club :)

[@Ozn90049]

y0ink1 Thanks, y0ink1. Friend Blake English introduced me to her. An utterly unique artist. Amazed at her ability to express herself outside of the mainstream and at same time achieve wide audience. Fascinating woman.

[@ladyashyistehsex]

Welcome! Don't forget the tissues. This woman is superb with expressing such strong emotions.

[@goldenfox6322]

Robert Ozn Ahh, yes, welcome! I saw Blake English perform with her on stage in Atlanta this year. It was spectacular, he has a wonderful voice. It's great to see people being introduced to Amanda Palmer. =)

[@YimonCatman]

I’ll never stop listening to this song.

[@bexwild7383]

This still breaks me into tears every single time I hear it

[@matildabredberg1920]

Ten years later and this song still makes me sob. Going to go hug my sleeping wife now

[@keeperofowls]

I was crying even before everyone died at the end. But it was a good kind of cry. Beautiful. Sublimely, heart-rendingly beautiful. Thank you.

[@jimcoker7917]

That’s the first time in my life a music video has exceed my expectations after hearing the song. Thank you.

[@caitykoala]

I tried to watch this again after a day to see if I could make it through without crying, but it still got me. Those last few lines and the final scene are heartbreaking

[@bridgetsarita7879]

I cry unabashedly every. Single. Time

[@mparis130]

I've never, ever cried at a song before, but I am sobbing right now. Beautiful video and a lovely representation of the lyrics.

[@renaperry8259]

This makes me cry.

[@blackenedhatter]

I try not to listen to this song very often, it always makes me cry.

[@grashopper8]

I didn't think this could strike me. I've been crying for 15 minutes. To waste your whole life and your whole love, just by giving up so slowly that you don't see it - ripped out my heart and I needed that - seems it's still there....

[@morbidiculous]

I lived this song for 12 years before realizing our apathy was killing us. Even though I'm in a beautiful, healthy relationship now, I still sometimes experience bed phobia. This song reminds me daily to try, no matter what.

[@fawrtrenty5443]

this song really gives that horrible feeling of fear that feels wonderfully beyond comprehension

[@rachelvanvaneveld3112]

ive started falling in love with here a lot of years ago with the Dresden Dolls, but this song squashes my heart every time..and still go back and put it on replay. still makes me cry

[@Tionois]

When I heard The Bed Song for the first time, I cried. The second time, too. The revelation the final verse brings hit me like a litghtning, didn't expect it at all. This song had become my favourite out of the album before the album itself was made. Thank you for turning it into such a beautiful video, Amanda.

[@normal42]

Can't listen to this song without crying. Video, crying twice as hard now.

[@shortydancer425]

The first time someone showed me this song/video, I burst into tears. I really hope I never have to know what that's like.

[@shortydancer425]

Thank you

[@beitniear]

Does anyone else get that hanuntingly, beautiful feeiling form this just like when you listen to "Send in the Clowns"? Well done Amanda Palmer. Beautiful.

[@musisKat]

This song reminds me of sleeping in my parents' bed with my mom after my dad passed away. It just feels so empty, cold, missing.

[@shelbytaylor4301]

I have this song on my "Good Shit" playlist that I put on shuffle while driving or cleaning and whenever this song comes on, I end up getting punched in the heart every single time.

[@Thiefree]

This song breaks my heart. We often don't get that one last chance... best not to let anything important go unsaid. x

[@MissesMoonsValley]

I really love you Amanda and everyone in this band. This made me cry but that's ok. It's more of a reminder to not be afraid to ask the ones you love about problems buried underneath the facades that we put up in daily life. It reminds you that you have to work at love. Ich leibe dich, Amanda Palmer.

[@TehAmelie]

Gets better every time I hear it. And now it has pictures!

[@HaysoosLovesYou]

I've never described a bed as heartbreaking before this video.

[@christinataylor493]

Amanda...gets me every time - VERY emotional - speechless...

[@LanceyLoveKH]

This song is so tragically beautiful.

[@MissLoki84]

This is one of my absolute most favorite songs from Theatre is Evil, and the video is so much more heartbreaking. This was perfect. And the release date was perfect, too. For a holiday centered around romance and gifts, this reminds people to communicate openly and honestly with their partners. Sometimes we all need that little reminder.

[@The6794]

WHen i saw Neil Gaiman read it, i knew it would love the song. And when i saw this video...Well, i can't believe i just cried. It's wonderful. THe video is perfect for the song. WONDERFUL.

[@JessicaLieb]

What an extraordinary song from an extraordinary artist. I've grown up with Amanda Palmer singing the songs of my soul... my angsty, ridiculous teenage years with the Dresden Dolls as my soundtrack, and now hearing music like this in my 20's, connecting with my fears and thoughts as I age. I hope to hear more from her soon. Amanda, you're my hero. Thank you for being you and sharing yourself so freely.

[@rakash0500]

Devastatingly beautiful. I cried like a baby.

[@MadlyNadly]

Uuuuuuugh stop making my cry Amanda Palmer!!! This song is so catchy and beautiful and so goddamn saaaaaad.

[@roberttisci6503]

I saw afp in Raleigh NC. She is quite accomplished pianist! I think a good number in the crowd were shedding tears at the bed song!

[@Nina9020992]

OH the tears the tears the tears. What a beautiful piano line. Amazing video.

[@Trigramatic]

I think this song just cut my heart out. And now it's rolling under my desk.

[@BiscuitMakerHeather]

This song has just ripped my heart to shreds since the first time, the video just gives me a mental movie for the anguish. You are a master Amanda. I honestly love this song but have to skip it often to avoid feeling overwhelmingly sad when I should not.

[@sylviacreamer3642]

I'm two months fresh out of an abusive relationship, and I don't usually get so personal in comments, but I think about how Amanda speaks about her fans and how impactful their sharing of these things ARE to her, so here I am. In the last few months of that four year long relationship, I listened to this song a lot. Often on repeat. Our story was a lot different in many ways than the one told here, but I often find that a bed can hold a lot of complicated feelings in any relationship in which one lives with another and shares it, and some lyrics came over into the context at which I experienced them perhaps differently than the way that Amanda intended them, but that's okay. It was how I needed to hear them, at the time. I would lay quietly in that bed beside her, because she had to sleep for work and I had a sleep disorder that had me on a different sleep schedule than her, trapped awake in the bedroom and the dark because it was the only room in that house that was air conditioned and wouldn't make me heatsick. I would listen to her breathe, and think of all of the things that I wished I could say to her, that I would have said to her if she would have listened, if she was the person that I had perceived her to be entering that relationship. If I'd ever actually tried to talk to her about it, she would break down and the end of the conversation would be summed up by how it was all my fault, actually. She would call our bed HER bed. She would complain about me clinging onto her in my sleep, crushing her between the wall and the edge of the bed, but I would always wake with a foot of space between us. If I was that clingy in my sleep, why wouldn't I wake up holding her at least once? Why does my best friend who I share a bed with now confirm that I never do anything like that? I deal with chronic pain and often need to eat in bed so that I can medicate, and she would always complain even when she ate in the bed herself. She always asked me to hold her, to touch her, but she always had an excuse as to why she couldn't do the same for me, unless she was touching me in ways that only served to please her. This song, alongside a lot of Amanda's songs, helped me find the strength to get out. I'll never stop being thankful to that. I'd been gaslit into believing I was my ex's wife, though we'd never married, and right now I'm in the process of understanding that I was never her wife, but I am struggling with fact that I still feel divorced, and I think that's gonna keep me coming back to these songs for comfort for a long while. Thank you, Amanda Palmer, and thank you to anyone else who takes the time to read.

[@SianMaci]

ugh god Amanda. Making me cry here.

[@ilovebarbra2]

I just now today 5/15/2014 became a fan of this extraordinary performer. Thank you to my daughter Jessica for introducing me to Amanda Palmer.

[@ByMakeupForever]

Crying. I am just crying. I just. I am crying so much. So many tears!

[@tzvrchka]

Amanda, you truly are one of the greatest human beings ever.

[@djamby]

What a way to start off Valentine's Day.

[@StarLightStruck51]

Aw The Video Made Me Cry Like a baby ..I hate to think most of us will end up like this couple

[@LunaLiddell]

I always almost cry while listening to this song, but now that there's a video I lost it completely.