AN EMOTIONAL LIFE UPDATE | ONCE IN A LULLABY

[@joanroutledgeify]

I'm so glad that the Clomid has worked for you, I really hope your scan reassures you next week. I too am starting a TTC journey, no one really talks about their experiences along the way. I personally have gained so much strength and understanding from watching your journey. I hope everything works out and you post the video to help other women going through a similar thing. Xx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

+Joan Routledge thanks so much Joan, keeping everything crossed for you that you get your BFP really soon xx

[@crIms0ngen]

I just found this video (and saw videos/pics with your little one - so happy for the outcome in the end!) But something about your story felt extremely familiar to me. I felt something identical with my pregnancy with my 7-year-old. but I was refusing to test, so I didn't find out until well after my cramps and bleeding were over that I had an almost 12 weeker happy and bouncing around inside me. I have never been able to shake the feeling that I was pregnant with twins, and I've continually run into stories that sound exactly what I went through and I've been agonizing over the years that I missed the chance to even find out if I was ever pregnant with twins. Then that feeling is coupled with worries that I might've lost my little girl had I found out and it was just supposed to happen that way. :( I had strong symptoms at 3 1/2 weeks that hit me like a truck and I know I knew then but kept trying to avoid being disappointed at another negative on a pregnancy test. I'm glad you ended up having a healthy baby boy in the end!

[@EileenVincett]

I have had two miscarriages and am trying to get pregnant again. Your raw honesty about how scared you are is very moving and how I feel the week before my period is due. I'm terrified about getting pregnant again and you are right about miscarriage robbing you of the initial joy of becoming pregnant. Bravo for your honesty. Sending strength!

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Eileen Vincett oh Eileen I'm so sorry you've gone through that, it really does put so much fear in the mix when deciding to try again, it's not fair. I really hope you get your rainbow baby soon xxx

[@historiumgeek]

I can't imagine how much your worry must be hun. I watched a few of your videos today and I was in tears!! Now I dont know whether this will help or make you feel worse but I feel I should share. If you have previously miscarried twins you may be having them again. I know it may not have been certain before and there is no guarantee now, but when I had my twins the cramping was worse than period pains in the first few weeks because of the rate of expansion. Please please dont be scared. In just a week you will find relief, enjoy every moment of pregnancy even if you are too scared to. I sat all through my pregnancy too scared to move incase something happened and now regret it. these words are useless, i know that already but honestly love Im rooting for you....fellow Leeds lass here. all the best xxxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Ayesha B thankyou so much Ayesha! I have actually had someone else mention the possibility of twins but I haven't really had many symptoms so far and I thought you were meant to have loads with twins? I know it's still such early days, I need to try and relax it's just so easier said than done isn't it! Thankyou for your kind words, they are not useless at all, it's always reassuring to hear someone has been in a similar position and had a positive outcome x

[@historiumgeek]

yeah I didnt get bad sickness with mine. I fainted once and that was as dramatic as it got really. the only thing was the cramping and I had a bump at 9wks until later pregnancy with the aches/pains etc. I would say I had an easy ride. I also got a blazing line on the pregnancy test pretty much as soon as I had set it down way before the 3 mins. I know it is so hard to do things and it is so easy to say it. Best wishes anyway hun xx

[@AlexKatherinePhotography]

I'm so so thrilled for you, I have my fingers crossed for you lovely. I totally understand the fear, I already know I'll be exactly the same when my turn comes. I always spend the two week wait thinking "please don't give this to me if you're going to take it away". Hugs to you x

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Alex Kat thankyou beautiful 😘 understand that completely, crossing my fingers for you always xx

[@Heather.0508]

❤ I hope so much you have a happy and healthy pregnancy and that your scan will be the start of the little miracle that's growing within you! I have suffered loss and I am still TTC-ing, determined that clomid will make 2017 our year! xxx lots of love and wishes your way 😊

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Heather Cooper thankyou so much Heather! Crossing everything for you that you get your rainbow baby very soon. Really hope clomid works for you xx

[@margaretd4115]

I am so sorry that you are so very scared. I want you to know that I totally understand exactly how powerful and paralysing those fears are.. I have walked a similar path. Please know that you are not alone. I think many of us have been or are currently experiencing this. Your feelings are completely valid and justified. I get exactly what you meant when you said you want to be happy but your fears can't let you. My advice to you is to be extra kind to yourself. Give yourself time to rest when your body tells you to and distract yourself any ways you possibly can for the next week. The days are long and feel endless during the wait. I will be thinking of you and sending all the positive energy that everything is going OK and that you will receive good news next week. xxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Margaret Canavan oh Margaret this comment has really made my day, you are so lovely, thankyou. All the comments I've received on this video have been amazing and I've felt a lot better for talking about it, it is comforting to know there are so many people who understand how I am feeling xx

[@margaretd4115]

Once in a Lullaby I am so glad that you are getting support and understanding from us all. You are giving do much by sharing such a sensitive part of life and I know it will help other girls who will have to experience this. But I am so glad that you are getting something back from us too. Just to know we get you. There is strength in numbers darling and we have your back xxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Margaret Canavan you are an absolute angel ❤️

[@elisah9756]

We are here for you. Infertility really does leave us so so scared. It's so sad that pregnancy is somewhat ruined for us. I would love to see the clomid diaries. I like that you said you're still here. I sure hope you and your bean are doing well!!

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Elisa H it really is sad isn't it, all we want is to be pregnant and then when we finally are we are so scared we can't enjoy it! Thanks Elisa 😘 I will definitely upload the clomid diary, I think I am going to wait until after the scan next week so I can add a little disclaimer in if it's bad news! X

[@jovlogs2214]

I've got my fingers and toes crossed for you, Andrew and baby. Much love xxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Joanne Newlands thankyou so much Joanne xx

[@josimpson7263]

Becca, I've been thinking of you this weekend after your post on the forum. It's such a hard journey and I remember that wait for the scan like it was yesterday. 😔 Sending you and Andrew lots of love and hoping you get fab news next week. I personally would really like to see your clomid diary as just been referred to a fertility clinic and think that will be our first step. X

[@OnceinaLullaby]

J Ward it's a horrible wait isn't it, feels never ending! 😔 thankyou so much though lovely. I will definitely upload the clomid diary, think I'm going to wait and upload it after the scan so I can add a bit of a disclaimer in if it's bad news but it would be a huge shame not to post it! Really excited for you to have your first appointment with the fertility hospital, has it been scheduled in yet? Crossing my fingers for you like always xx

[@josimpson7263]

Once in a Lullaby I've still got cd21 bloods to do with the gp tomorrow and referral should be sent end of the week. No idea how long it will take for an appointment to come through tho. Will be thinking of you next week. Let us know how you get on. So hope this is the start of many positive scans 😊 x

[@OnceinaLullaby]

J Ward crossing my fingers you don't have to wait long for that first appointment! Thankyou so much, will keep you updated xx

[@ldelaneyj]

I just took my first cycle of Clomid. The doctors told me at my scan mid cycle that there were no follicles so I didn’t think I’d be successful. They told me to go ahead and start Provera, then during my next cycle I’d try 100mg. Well, normally after 8 days of finishing Provera I had my cycle start. But 12-15 days later and I hadn’t started. I’d been cramping substantially and sore nipples. I’d assumed my cycle would be starting any moment. But I went to the doctor for a consult on a surgery (hysteroscopy to remove a polyp and d&c) and found out I am pregnant! After my first cycle. I’m 6 weeks today. I’m feeling all of the feelings you were describing in this video. I’m on 200mg progesterone for 10weeks right now because my levels are low. But, we got our first ultrasound yesterday and saw the heart beat flicker. I’m looking forward to watching your videos along with my pregnancy. You gave me such hope watching your Clomid cycle video. ♥️

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Oh wow huge congratulations Lauren!! Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy x

[@evag2726]

Oh my lovely, I just want to jump into the screen and give you a big hug (and punch whoever disliked this video?!). I cannot imagine how awful this limbo phase must be... as you asked, I personally think it may be better to show the Clomid update when you've both had the scan Xx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

+Eva G thanks so much for the continued support Eva, it really does mean a lot! I know, someone clearly doesn't like me 🙈 thanks for the feedback about the clomid update, I think I'm leaning more towards that too! X

[@KelsiePaige]

your so lucky to fa first round babe, ive failed 8 rounds and now going on injections n its killing me.. ive watched newer vids of yours so ihope this pregnancy continues positively and healthy. i get exacty what you mean by clomid effects im on 100mg of it n sufferd bad hot sweats nausea headaches tiredness achyness n just feeling so unwe n low well anyways congratulations dead happy for you

[@OnceinaLullaby]

+Kelsie Paige oh Kelsie I'm sorry it hasn't worked yet, I will be keeping everything crossed for you that the next round is the one! Can't imagine how awful the side effects must be on 100mg, you are a trooper! Lots of baby dust being sent your way, thankyou so much for the well wishes xx

[@belladigitalworld]

I did the same was frightened to do anything. Jay was a second cycle clomid baby and I know how you feel.. I send you so much strength. I feel like I need to see you and sit and have a decaf and chat with you!. If I could hug you right now I would. Xxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Along Came Jay it's terrifying isn't it, you don't want to move in case something goes wrong and you blame yourself, but logically you know that would have nothing to do with it anyway! Ahhh that would be lovely wouldn't it, thankyou for the support Bella xx

[@ItsKelsiesLife]

If your comfortable, uploading it could be really useful for women on clomid ❤ maybe wait until after the scan, with and add an updated clip at the end informing your viewers what's happening. You already know you're in my constant prayers. Hoping this week goes by so quickly so we can fast forward to next Monday. Lots of love xxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

ItsKelsiesLife thankyou beautiful 😘 xxx

[@OurCRAZYLifeScotland]

I hope everything is still ok and I'm keeping everything crossed for you. I'm sending cyber hugs to you and your husband x

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Fiona McCord thanks so much Fiona 😘 x

[@amandaamrad]

Becca you're so brave ❤ everything crossed for you! Hugs to you all the way from Australia 🇦🇺 Xx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Amanda Moncrieff thankyou so much Amanda ❤️ x

[@lindseys8700]

Thank you for sharing all of this, and I'm sending positive vibes your way. Hugs !

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Lindsey Srinivas thankyou Lindsey xx

[@chrissie9387]

Thank you for sharing. I would love to see your Clomid diaries if you feel you are able to upload but totally understand if you rather wait.

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Chrissie thanks Chrissie! The clomid diary will be up early next week, decided to wait until I've had the scan so I can add a disclaimer in if it's bad news. It will be up either way though xx

[@Loraine1210]

You are so brave, my heart really does go out to you. Right now I wish you were my neighbour so I could come round and give you a great big hug, instead I send you warm loving hugs and I have everything crossed for you.

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Loraine Beckwith oh Loraine you are going to make me well up again! 😢 Thankyou so much that is so lovely xxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Loraine Beckwith oh Loraine you are going to make me well up again! 😢 Thankyou so much that is so lovely xxx

[@GemmaFSW]

Praying you little bubs is a sticky one. Your one strong lady. Upload it Hun. It happened. I have had one miscarriage. It was heartbreaking . Fingers crossed lovely xxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Gemma F thankyou Gemma 😘 So sorry you've had to go through a miscarriage too, it's really is the cruelest thing Xx

[@Sophobsessed]

Sending you so much love babe xxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

+Soph-obsessed thanks so much lovely! Xx

[@dsford6166]

Praying you have a healthy happy pregnancy.

[@OnceinaLullaby]

+Buffy Ford thanks so much! Is Buffy your real name?! If so I am insanely jealous! X

[@18jenben]

Oh, sweetie I will be praying for you. I know the next time I get pregnant I will be terrified too. I have never had a pregnancy that didn't end in seeing blood and then it all being over. I just don't know why this is happening to either one of us. In January my brother in law passed away at the age of 29. I just feels like all of this horrible crap is being loaded on us. I know that your mom is sick. I know you are going through a lot in your life as well. I hope and pray so bad that everything will go great with this pregnancy and you have a beautiful rainbow in your arms in 9 months.

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Jennifer Jackson so, so, so sorry about your brother in law Jennifer, I just don't understand how the world can be so unfair 😔 I have everything crossed for you as always, we will both get our rainbow babies one day, we have to xx

[@HawksGames101]

Love you B. So wish I could get a time machine and fast forward this week for you :( xx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

+Lilypad & Bow love you G xx

[@RACHELHay]

Becca I am routing for you so much xxx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Rachel Hayton thankyou so much Rachel 😘 x

[@sJessicap1]

💗 so brave. Lots of love x

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Jessica Thomas thankyou Jessica xx

[@NanaSaves]

Wish I could give you a massive hug sweetheart thinking positive thoughts for you hun 😘😘😘😘😘

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Karen Coupe thanks Karen, really means a lot xx

[@debtfreebree9172]

Wishing you the best. Just breath.

[@OnceinaLullaby]

Debt Free Bree thanks lovely Bree x

[@pd3873]

Hi just watched your videos and I agree it's really scary and hard time once u get pregnant even after a single miscarriage, I am going through the same journey, can u please share the name of your recurrent miscarriage clinic?

[@OnceinaLullaby]

I was referred to the Leeds RMU on the NHS ☺️ x

[@pd3873]

Which one st james hospital or seacroft Leeds? Xx and can u please share your prenatal vitamins as well? I really like your videos xx

[@OnceinaLullaby]

S S they only have RMU at st james', seacroft is fertility! Before falling pregnant I was taking folic acid and l-arginine and once I was pregnant I just took folic acid and vitamin D x

[@pd3873]

How was the clinic any good?