an honest mental health talk

[@UnbreakableStud]

This is a safe space, feel free to talk about your own mental health in the comments ❤

[@philhoward4466]

what disturbs my mental health the most, right now, is that i don't know how to put a ❤ in my comments without copy and paste from where someone else, like you, typed it in.

[@zoliancrow]

Hi, I just accidentally found your videos while I was looking for topics about mental health because I had a conversation with one of my best friends last night and he told me about his problems and I want to help him as much as I can. He looks up at me and he trusts me so I advised him to find a professional person to talk about it meanwhile he can talk to me as well anytime. I'm watching videos and podcasts to educate myself. That's how I found your channel. You're obviously very young and you seem like a great guy, highly intelligent and polite. It's so sad that you struggle... I really hope that your parents will find these videos soon and they'll be very supportive and find you the best professional person who could help you get through this. I encourage you to reach out to them or someone close to you (an adult who can help) that you can trust! Wishing you the best and keep on keeping on, never give up mate, your life matters! Don't be afraid to ask for help because that's the best you should do. There's nothing to be afraid of, the sooner you do it the sooner you'll get better and you can enjoy your life which is beautiful with all the struggles in it. I'm old enough to tell you that happiness is just a couple of beautiful moments but those moments make life worth living it. And you're so very young, I wish you have thousands and millions of happy moments! ✌️❤

[@YahyaYoba-ci1xr]

Gentleman Leon ✌

[@Ramsesamonra]

*acknowledging the fact that you don't feel OK is the first step of healing, the second one is seeking help, the third one is taking care of yourself, and the final one : helping others in needs....* *I hope you'll be ok JOHN CONNOR, I like you, you seems to be a good boy, and you deserve a happy life, so try to make it happen....😇*

[@Cyandevoir]

To be honest, I have not many friends and they are always so busy you are my only source of comfort in my dark times.

[@BarryMorales-j6g]

Praying for you, Leon.

[@mercy949]

put yourself first, education don't matter, money dont matter, if u are not well enough tongo to college dont go ,what matters most is looking after yourself and keep going one step at a time ,things will get better anyone reading this please know I have been there and I was on the brink of taking my own life, it was very difficult to hang on still is some days, but it has got better, and it will get better, so just keep going thats the secret, and video like this help so much as its it's good to know were not alone, and we will never meet or know each other, yet its is comforting to know that we are all still there for each other❤

[@lucasflanders8557]

I went through two years of counseling because I was suffering from dissociative disorder, a condition where I had lost touch with myself. Counseling really helped. But I had to hit rock bottom before I was willing to get help. Us men are stubborn in that way. Another thing that helped me was keeping a daily journal, but you are doing that with your daily blogs.

[@jacers14]

I love that you are so open about how you feel to us in this video. That shows how brave you are. Life is hard and it sucks but there are amazing times too. It's a mixed bag. I hope you get the strength.

[@MrJema84]

Stay strong. We want you here.

[@MichaelDelBosco]

Lots to say. Lots thinking about you. You matter. Your life is valuable. What you do and are is important. Sleep. You need sleep. Sleep helps your body and your mind. You make better decisions with regular sleep and enough sleep. There are good teachers, average teachers, and bad teachers. Education is teachers and the system. But that is only one way to educate yourself. In our modern society, you can educate yourself in so many ways. Books. KZbin. Tech school. College. And more. Choose to educate yourself in the best way possible. Never stop learning. We all make mistakes. Forgive yourself. It can be hard. Take the wins in life. Enjoy your life as best you can when you can. Care for yourself mentally and physically. Do what you need to do to best care for you! Figure yourself out.

[@jpwphoenix1701]

I say it a lot but you’re not alone in how you feel and think. I’ve honestly been pretty depressed myself today, tbh. It doesn’t have to be because of a specific reason, although a lot has been going wrong for me recently, it can just come on and hit you like a ton of bricks. I certainly agree with what you said about school/college being outdated in how they work or their teaching styles. It shouldn’t be done in a “one size fits all” way, as each individual student is different (especially if they’re like me and have Special Needs). I can tell you, having worked in schools, I used to mentor various boys who’d gone up through the school being a real handful, behaviour wise. They’d always be in trouble, rarely pay attention in class. But, because I treated them differently to everyone else, looked past the behaviour and properly took time to listen to them, they really changed and even loved coming to school. If only ALL schools and teachers would be as adaptable and looser with the way they do things, they might get better results. Anyway, with regards your own situation, I can totally understand how hard it can be to talk to others about the way you feel, especially if it’s your own family. But, there are organisations such as YoungMinds, Childline, Mind, Samaritans and others who deal with mental health. Some don’t even require you to actually speak on the phone (which I’ve always had major anxiety about myself!), they allow you to e-mail or live-chat with someone. It’s totally up to you whether you choose to contact them or not. But, just know that they’re out there, especially when you’re really feeling bad. Take care and good luck.🤝

[@Frieswayneisthyname]

Depression is no joke. You could be really happy with yourself and your life but then one day you can just wake up thinking all these terrible things about yourself. It's not just passing thoughts that you can brush off, these negative thoughts and feelings consume you. It affects you mentally and physically. You believe you're worthless and that it would be better of if you're not there, it makes you feel like you have no purpose. I've struggled with depression myself since I was about 14. I never really understood why because like you I had a "great life" but I was still feeling it very strongly. It got to the point where I'd lost all motivation and strength, I was sleeping all the time and I felt like a zombie. At first I would cry all the time but then i just started to feel empty as time went by. I never told anyone about it because I didn't want to scare them or be a burden. I had no idea how to cope so I started self harming because I thought I deserved to feel pain and also I did it just so I could feel something. My suicidal thoughts had always been there but I never acted on them until one night in August. I was barely hanging on, the pain inside me was so intense. After I attempted, I immediately regretted it. It felt like now that I'd actually tried to act on my feelings, it put a lot of things into perspective for me. I don't really know how to explain it but it felt like most of my pain had gone away even though my attempt failed. My depression hasn't gone away, I still feel like shit a lot but at least I don't want to die anymore. I feel like depression is something that never fully goes away. You can get help, you can find good coping mechanisms and stuff but there will always be that little voice in the back of your head waiting to come out and completely ruin your life again. I know this comment is very long and might be triggering for some people and I do apologize, I just wanted to share my experiences. I'm saying this to Leon mainly but also everyone else here, you are not alone. I know it gets hard but there's always a light at the end of the tunnel, there's always going to be someone or something out there that will make you stay. You don't even need a big reason to stay, it can be small things. For me, it was silly things like that show Heartstopper (I've been obsessed with it since 2022 😅). Earlier this year I was having suicidal thoughts and everytime I had them I thought "Wait but if I die, I won't be able to see Heartstopper end" 😂😂 I know it's silly but it did help. But yeah, that's all I have to say about it ❤️

[@vernerheiskell1415]

Your story makes me think you reached into my brain, heart and soul and then put into words my entire life. I also still deal with depression but I am happy to still be alive, granted there are days where I still question that but each day gives me the opportunity to find another reason to go on. I have never found any one thing to look forward to each day but I continue to look. Some days all I can do is sit alone and cry. I honestly should not be here right now because the first person I went to see when I was in my late 20's early 30's, should never have been working at that time due to she had recently been in a car accident and was still suffering and on meds which caused her to go o sleep while I was pouring my heart out. When I finally realized I got up and walked out, got into my car and sat there for nearly an hour contemplating what my next step would be. As I saw it, I had two choices, go and end my life right then and there because no one could even be bothered to hear me out and help me OR figure out how to help myself. My choice was to die or live. So I sat there and cried my eyes out for nearly an hour and decided to live. It worked. BUT, depression is always there lurking around every corner and now I also have anxiety to go along with the depression. I am still struggling daily but I am trying to look at positively in that I am still here and that there is a possibly that I will have a good day. This is for anyone who will listen, keep going, you will find that not every day is going to be a bad if YOU allow it, but you have to do some of the work to look for. It will not just fall into your lap. If you need a hug, then close your eyes and feel my arms wrapping around you tightly and securely as long as you need it. Keep your chin up and try to make something positive happen in your life every day no matter how small that something may be, count it as a plus for that day.

[@vernerheiskell1415]

@@johnryan3913 I am so sorry for your loss. One day at a time. Look up and let your partner know that you WILL continue on if only to keep their memory alive. Then day by day, pay attention to the sunshine and then all of the beauty around you and though each day continues to be a struggle, there is some relief that comes through. There will always be sadness and tears but occasionally there will be a memory worth remembering and a smile to help get through another day with the hopes that tomorrow will bring another. Please don't give up.

[@vernerheiskell1415]

@@johnryan3913 Don't let depression and sadness win. Find a way to wake up everyday and find a reason to live! I know it can be difficult some mornings to even pull the covers back and face the world. Feeling connected....is/can be difficult....but you press on and hope for a better day and tomorrow. Hope you find whatever you are looking for.

[@EllaCruel-bp9jm]

Bro you really don't have to apologize about the long comment because i have had the same experience since i was like 10 or 9 i guess but mine only got worse when i was 13 and i only realized it when i was 14 because i was like reading about Lil nas x and the Weeknd and I saw the word "depression" and realised that they are saying the exact things I have been feeling and since then it has just gotten worse and turned into so many different things like anxiety disorders and anxiety attacks. But just like you got obsessed with Heartstopper in 2022 ,I got obsessed with with it this year when season 3 was released and I have not been suicidal since this year because i told myself that I have to accomplish my dreams first and feel like I have done something with myself and that is how I have kept myself going since this year even though that empty,numb and shitty feeling can't just leave you alone. And Thank you so much for sharing this it makes me feel like I'm not alone. And please find a reason to live and wake up everyday.

[@MJaaaaaaay]

Mental health is incredibly important, and it's vital to remember that asking for help is a strength, not a weakness. Sharing your feelings and thoughts on platforms like KZbin can be a therapeutic outlet, allowing you to express what's on your mind, but it’s equally important to connect with a compassionate professional who can help guide you through life's challenges. Having faced dark moments myself, I understand the weight of "triggers" that can pull you back into those feelings, and it's essential to develop strategies to manage them. College and secondary education can feel overwhelming, but it's okay to admit when you’re struggling. Utilize college counselors, lighten your load if possible, and seek out supportive communities where you can connect with others. In a world that often encourages comparison, staying true to yourself is paramount, and your openness is already a remarkable step towards healing. Remember, life is a journey full of ups and downs, and though it may feel heavy at times, like it did for me, there's hope on the other side-I found joy and love, proving that things can and do get better. Keep moving forward; your resilience will carry you through.*

[@ilovefishess]

Bro I can relate to what you have said so hard, for me suddenly once education got more serious and there was this huge pressure of being good at it to live a good and meaningful life I got really depressed. I mean I did realise no matter how stupid the school system might be it can be nessecary in this world for survival but I think once you are done with it and are able to adjust to it I'm sure then you'll be able to find a great job which will allow you to live a more furfilling life. As for now you are doing your best and your content brings a lot of meaning to many people!!! Keep going

[@Pupperonipuppy]

Education isnt for me too bro. My mom said that next year, when im 16 and if i show im financially stable, I can get emancipated and live by myself. I'll be dropping outta highschool, but my mental health will skyrocket because i wont be in this household anymore. Youre not alone bro.

[@jaymakormik6779]

Education isn't for me EITHER, bro. Maybe education should be for you at least until you're out of 4th grade learning.

[@Pupperonipuppy]

@@jaymakormik6779 NO WAYAYAYAYY. SOCIETY WOULD CRUMBLE. I JUST WANNA HELP MY COUNTRY LIKE MY BROTHER. He wants to join the army and i want to work on a farm.

[@lukeisfiregold2101]

I think it's ok to not know you propose yet. Just love yourself and all that other stuff will come when it's time. ❤

[@davesullivan1985]

As tough as it is right now, I feel like you are actually on the right track by resisting what doesnt work. The systems of our society like the education system are largely outdated or even broken, and try to put people in a box as opposed to helping bring out their unique talents, and it can be pretty depressing. Don't assume people in positions of authority know better than you - I hope you will trust your instincts. While you may decide to use the system to secure a financial future (though it may not be required), focussing on what you love and doing things the way you think they should be done will help inspire others and may help you feel more like yourself. I wish you well, putting yourself out there like you do certainly will help others feel less alone, so you are already living a meaningful life. Peace

[@exequielvistaofficial]

I love you, Leon.

[@bartkuipers]

brother you aere so very amezing 👊👍👌 health its very good you doing it amezing great ceep going

[@patrickkennedy5308]

" a true ninja knows when to fight and when to hide in the shadows" Master Wu/NinjaGo

[@Bubble3320_]

I really hope things get better soon. I hope you're feeling alright today

[@MasterX14]

I had depression back in 2021 due to being bullying by people. It actually made me think of bad thoughts, and my family had to help me even though it did stress me out. I almost quit KZbin because of how far the drama went. Luckily, people encouraged me not to give up and to ignore the bullies and trolls. I don't know where I would be now if some of my subscribers didn't motivate me to continue my journey on KZbin.

[@McLovin_2007]

I hated school more than anyone, which is why I didn't want to go to college. I didn't want to sit in a classroom after High School. I joined the Army instead. I've struggled with mental issues also. I deal with OCD where I'm constantly checking things many times. I have trouble throwing things in the trash, because I don't want to throw out something by mistake. If I finish a bag of chips, I look inside the bag several times before throwing it out. I overcame depression after praying about it, but still deal with anxiety. You said you have a nice life, but I can't say the same. I was raised in poverty, and still can't break free from it in my adult years. I've failed in every job I've ever had, and never lived in a nice house. I only know shabby houses in disrepair. I still don't have the nice house I've dreamt about since childhood. I've never dated or slept with anyone. I'm stuck in the suburbs without a car. The only thing that keeps me going is chasing unfulfilled dreams and unanswered prayers.

[@CalvinWalkingstick]

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way. Please consider speaking with a counselor/therapist who can help you sort out your thoughts and feelings. They are trained in effectively helping you. You are an incredibly thoughtful and caring person. Please give your mental health priority. You truly do matter.

[@jqpitt]

I'm a lot older than you but I had those same feelings at your age. And, honestly, I still do. One reason I watch your videos is because I still have so many regrets from my school days and teenage years, I want to see you succeed and make better choices. Get whatever help you need now. Don't let temporary problems f*** up the rest of your life.

[@markpenny9293]

Leon, you just told us and we are your online companions. We care, so how much more are your REAL family/friends are going to care. If you can't bring it up in person, link them to this video. What if you do collapse into self harm? And then they find these videos... and they just scream at themselves... why didn't he tell us? We would have loved him through this. Yes, we made some mistakes together, but at least it was together. Real love is messy Leon, but at least it is real love.

[@Jefferson-603]

Ugh 😕 peace and strength Leon! ♥️

[@PhilipWeisman-dl4ik]

This video is your explanation. Show this to whomever you choose. ❤

[@PhilipWeisman-dl4ik]

Gay advice columnist Dan Savage and his husband started the INTERNATIONAL IT GETS BETTER program to help suicidal LGBTQIA+ youth at risk. Famous and non-famous people record their life journeys overcoming self doubt, homophobia, bullying, depression and suicidal thoughts. Check it out online. Meanwhile, l fought depression but retreated from life into a corner of my bedroom. One night l decided it wasn't going to get any better ever. Took pills and alcohol. Threw up the most disgusting black tarry stuff imagineable. After a 28 hour sleep, my Mother asked how l was. She said l scared the Hell out of her and if l intended a repeat performance not to do it at home. Otherwise, l needed to call a mental health counseling service immediately if l wished to be under her roof. Best decision l ever made. That was 50 years ago and l am 72 now. "Suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary situation". " The hardest thing is to ask for help". The Horse, in THE BOY, THE MOLE, THE FOX AND THE HORSE.

[@ОлегКудров-ъ4з]

Hello dear Leon! Know that somewhere in the south of Moscow they are worried about you and love your channel. Books, music, sports, love for animals - to help you!)) Thank you!)

[@teddyhawkins6256]

Love you man

[@stephenchilds4052]

I definitely don't feel like my self over the last few months and my work is very demanding mentally and physically. It all takes bits away from your self and it's hard to be yourself somedays.

[@mjkelldog]

When somebody breaks their arm, they go to the doctor to get help and get fixed. Mental health is no different. It is a part of the human condition and people need to rely on professionals to help them work through the issues in the most effective way. Passive thoughts of suicide is a red flag young man. At the beginning of this video you talked about your stomach, not feeling well, etc. That is all stress related symptoms to your anxiety that you’re feeling. I’ve only watched a few of your videos and can tell that you are right, intelligent, inquisitive, etc. But you’re also getting in your own way of healing. College is anxiety provoking because it’s a new place and it’s a different way of dealing with education and learning. College is mostly learning to conform with the way the world works. That’s difficult for somebody young and new to the system. Please give yourself a break. Please breathe. You’re gonna be OK. Although you’re feelings and situation may seem like you’re the only one going through this, believe me you are not. You are normal and you are going to be OK. If you are leery about talking to your mother about getting help, go to the college because there is a counseling office and a health services office that can get you in to see a counselor to discuss these important issues and work on a plan. Reach out to me if you want any help or direction. As a counselor and social services worker for many years I am a little concerned about where you are.

[@chuckduran4118]

Parts of education are important but sometimes college is not for everyone or might not be the right time for someone. Trade schools are fun and give you a purpose. Talking about how you feel is a good start and not keeping bad feelings in is important. I have an ear if you ever need on.

[@terminator2judgmentday30th4]

I want this guy to play in the next Terminator

[@HECTORMONTALVO-le9cn]

Definitely!👍

[@mauriciosilva1145]

Educational system sucks by it's enterity, actually, from a broad point of view, educational services and work places are not fully ready for every kind of people, those are not as welcoming as what is promoted to be in these terms. I also know by experience, since even have finished school and college, I've had and years after I still have this feeling of have failed in all these aspects. Now I see myself doing my best here and there to restart my life completely and achieve things from my time wasted, but ngl to you that this feeling of being suffocated by people and enviroinment does not exist anymore, because it still is where it is, so I know how you are feeling.

[@Cyandevoir]

Why do I feel the same as you. To be honest recently for the past few weeks this I do not feel like I am my usual self. It is fine to not be fine.

[@vernerheiskell1415]

Leon, in the U.S. they have come up with a website that you can go to, answer a few questions, pay a small fee and be assigned a professional to speak with and if you do not feel comfortable with that person you can ask for someone else until you find someone that works for you. You should check your area to see if something like this exists in your area. Or maybe community health centers would have some services available. Remember we are all her for you and offer up love and support. Let us know how we can help and I'm sure you'll have all you can handle. Stay safe and remain strong.

[@chefboyrd65]

be strong sometimes i get this way as well we have too be strong also reach out too people as well even if you dont want too it will help trust me

[@andyphillips865]

Leon,not all people r ment to go to school or college. I hated it. Our brain's are all different. I Excell in music,preforming and being creative. Sounds like u might be the same. U love media, so Excell in your passion man. Never be afraid to seek help no matter how strong u think u are. Take some long walks and enjoy this beautiful earth and scenery God created 4 us.

[@FrenzyFranzl]

Religion or spiritual beliefs aside, we all have our own way of learning that helps us best, like me, I learn best by self-teaching, which I would need accommodations for

[@alexkx8599]

What do you want the future to be with things? Even yourself?

[@roland-friedrichstricker4027]

Hi, Leon 🙂 I can imagine how you feel, as I faced similar challenges when I was 18. I realized that I could not achieve my dream of becoming a chemist, which was the biggest aspiration of my life. One day, I found myself in such a dark place that I considered ending my life. However, I chose not to go down that path. Instead, I changed my goal and decided to study medicine. Ultimately, I achieved a much better outcome than I could have if I had succeeded in becoming a chemist. Life is full of surprises, isn't it 👍By the way, you are a great talent on KZbin 🏆👍

[@grey124]

Leon you are such a wonderful person please reach out and tell your parents and get some mental help. If you are troubled with college drop out or make some of the changes that you want. We would miss you so much if something bad happened to you.

[@GregoryFlury]

Dude. Higher education isn't for everyone. Find what makes you happy and go with that. You'll find that once you get immersed in something that really sparks your interest, learning will come that much easier. You're a great guy and I wish the best for you. Find some help or counseling. I appreciate your videos and look forward to hearing more from you. Stay strong and positive my friend.

[@unknown23673]

Honestly, education isn't for me either, I haven't been to school in a long time (I'm still enrolled) and it's scary. I know I need to go but I feel like I've left myself behind, so much pressure for exams and to do good and yet I don't even understand what's going on during lessons. School drains be so bad and it's horrible that it's the only option. I know I do need to get back into school and I plan on it, but I keep telling myself this and I don't do it. So frustrating. I just wish I could go back in time a year and correct my wrong-doings. Go to school and keep getting the good grades I was getting.

[@lucasfromdavalley]

Like they say "leave that town before it kills you" get a fresh start, truely helps alot. Does it fix everything? Definetly not, but makes it alot easier to cope with those problems. Leave your problems behind in a sense i guess, my bad for the rant lol.

[@OCCA]

hugs

[@ilovetotri23]

Just my opinion. If you share with your folks just like you did with us they would be grateful and try to help in a way you felt comfortable. Stay well. Peace. ❤

[@ilovetotri23]

@@johnryan3913 That is fair.

[@olafb4826]

Hello Leo, we the community are with you! Feel depressed . We like you.

[@garethcampbell7557]

Made sure safe space it’s not easy control trying distance way thinks positive things for you keep of mental health also I had my mental health issues myself as well don’t be afraid to take care yourself cheering

[@PlanetSkipping]

Hey Leon, I'm sure there's a mental health counselor at your college who will help you. They see a lot of students anonymously (I work in administration at a university so I know) and are there to help you with no judgment. They make it very easy to schedule an appointment because they know how scary it is for young people to admit they are having a problem and need help. Do yourself a favor and make the appointment!

[@YahyaYoba-ci1xr]

I love you Leon

[@TheExciteMike]

Totally random comment but I love the artwork on the door behind you.

[@sajeelnasar]

Stay positive. I suppress my negative thoughts because I live alone. Maths is a bugger for most. Pie is the devil's work.

[@mdavidmullins]

I know this isn't the usual advice, but: Think less, do more. For some reason we aren't taught this in our society, but our minds follow our bodies. You can take a perfectly beautiful day and ruin it by overthinking and focusing on what you feel is wrong. You can literally snap your fingers and change how you're feeling. Your past and your emotions are not your destiny.

[@mullencat2]

Please reach out for help, you will feel better and much safer. Please don't try to go through this alone, their's no prize for doing it the hard way.

[@peter.marshall]

Have you considered asking your GP about Counselling? Perhaps a face-to-face chat with a Professional about the things you seem to be bottling up would be helpful?

[@kewldude90]

The Educational system was created in Germany 100 yrs ago to create workers to conform drones. That why most of education is repetitive think with in the box, and not independent out of the box. It is more to conform and obey leadership.

[@teaganporter4338]

I have the same stuff damn.

[@alexkx8599]

Have you ever heard, Michael Jackson's, "Unbreakable", from his 2001 studio l.p. entitled, "Invincible"? It's the first song on it.

[@tahran5782]

We will pray for you unbreakable States

[@hope-bx5he]

❤💙💚💯

[@Russmatthews85]

Have you thought about maybe doing a work based apprenticeship instead of college... It would mean you are still learning a skill set but not in an outdated educational facility... It may be a way to get this funk to clear ... But respect for being honest about mental health keep going bud

[@HECTORMONTALVO-le9cn]

Bro don't talk about suicide you're so young and have your whole life in front of you. I know that feeling that there's no hope. I lived most of my life in Puerto Rico because my foster parents, who are Puertorricans, took me there as a kid and my life sucked! At the beginning I couldn't speak Spanish and was always discriminated. I left Puerto Rico 12 years ago and my foster mom made a show because she didn't want me to leave her cursed island. Anyway I arrived here and the government mistook me for somebody with my same name and ruined my life. I ended up homeless and lost my career in the medical field. My family turned their back on me. I felt like garbage but my faith kept me alive even in the streets. After a year in the streets my hospital's social worker found me a place to live and gave the down payment. Eventually I found work as a translator. And now I'm stable. I suffer from major severe depression with psychotic features, post traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, paranoid personality disorder. And all because of what the government did to me. But I'm medicated and in constant therapy. And I'm doing fine. I still think about suicide but my faith in the Virgin and Jesus Christ keeps me from acting out. I think you should tell your parents and seek professional help and maybe medication. We love you Leon and we don't want a world without you bro. Take care.❤

[@oceanchaser]

College does the same thing to me i dumped it because it got me down . I went to a training course for 3 months worked with a group of other students got a certifcation in bio science and landed my first job and expanded from there . Know 25 years later i have alot of knowledge with a well rounded resume thats the way i went . Plus with out a college degree i still make good money. . So college is not for everyone . Jim

[@M00nGlitz]

I think you need a good oounselor to help you though these difficult feelings and emotions. They're all perfectly natural for someone your age.

[@donaldturner2684]

1) formal education is not for everyone. Are there possibly trade/ tech schools nearby that you could explore? 2) I know what you said in regards to suicide, but whenever I hear that word it causes me concern. You should talk to someone...parents, guidance counselor at school, or a hotline. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. 3) Your life is definitely worthwhile. You can never know what your absence would wrought should that come to pass. You touch the lives of many with your KZbin posts. You have probably watched the movie "It's A Wonderful Life". If not watch it. It's an old black and white, but it's message is very poignant. Pulling for you Leon!

[@67Endgame]

❤

[@caliom8427]

Things will get better, I promise you, but it won't happen overnight. You are going through tremendous life and body changes. Stick with it, you sound exactly as I felt at 16 xx

[@benwilson9150]

Leon go get help now man. Life is hard and unless you get things sorted now it will get harder and harder and harder. Now for some words you and others might not like but it comes from a good place. Your generation are becoming very soft (foe lack of a better term) and when you don’t like something you just quit. That being said your generation needs to turn this around, I am not just suggesting putting up with it but becoming stronger at self advocacy and coming together as one and demanding change, your generation may not be the change makers but you could certainly be the change starters. I think there isn’t an adult who is coming to retirement down to late 20’s that wouldn’t agree with you around the education system not being fit for purpose anywhere in the world. Your generation needs to be the ones who make things better for the generations to come as the ones before yours have just put up with a broken system. Teaching practices have become harder as your generation and younger have been treated like adults from a young age rather than kids and I believe you are paying the price for that as we are seeing more and more mental health issues, we have expected kids to adult from a young age without having the experience of being a kid, it is breaking people not having what was the traditional childhood by being told you are naughty and disciplined (not talking physical) and also being told you are good and rewarded. Things have changed so much and I feel for the kids younger than you what pressures they are going to need to deal with unless your generation can influence change.

[@ImHandsome8902]

ES NA AYER ABADDON AVAGE 🙏

[@mullencat2]

May I ask what you're going to college for, what profession are you wanting to do?

[@naeemurrehman6901]

Boy you should start traveling.. It will definitely help you..

[@Billie26-y3o]

I can understand what you are going through and feel being honest about anything is hard but unless you talk to your family you won't be sincere with yourself.

[@philhoward4466]

if i lived in UK you could tell me things you want someone to know. but i don't live in UK. and i am not connected to House of Howard even though Castle Howard looks quite beautiful.

[@vaylon1701]

Hi Leon, Nothing to be ashamed of and you have every right to question life and what it means to you. But please understand, all young people go through this for a while and its because your life is not really yours yet. Once you break away and you are the only one making decisions for yourself, providing for yourself and building your own life, you will understand what truly bring peace to your mind. It doesn't matter if you are always broke or have money coming in at every turn, its your life and you get to play the game on your terms. It does get a entire world better in just a few years. As for college? This is what I told all my sons. If you can maintain a 3.8 or higher GPA, then go to college. If you can't?, then you are just wasting time. Find something else that puts a spark in you and jump in head first and I will support you 100%. Lots of people have college degrees, only a very tiny portion of them are able to use it. The rest are working in service industries and other occupations that don't require a degree. Besides, now a days tradesmen make much more money than people with degrees. Lots of love my friend.

[@joeyb7186]

Make another vlog with your hair combed back, it looks handsome on you.

[@Dailylife-offi]

U look like Greyson

[@V.G-HM]

I believe that God will show you a way out of the mental impasse. For example, He will send you a real friend. It's pity that I'm far away, otherwise we would have ridden a motorcycle together.❤

[@r4h4al]

Maybe prioritise your mental health & stop going to college. ❤

[@SyedMuhammadAtif-]

Hello where' are you from

[@bradleyfair1266]

Your asking for help in this video.

[@bradleyfair1266]

your mom and dad are great people to trust with your thoughts,they been through life try talking with them they love you bunches.Stay positive.

[@alexkx8599]

You are VERY beautiful. Do you know that? I also HATED college. I'm a drop out. Don't do as I did though. Stick through it. I also HATE our educational institutions here in the U.S. I don't have good answers though. I can list the problems though...

[@OwenAllen-z9b]

Brother, I am sorry that you are down. Life is not always happy. Admitting that you need help is a good sign. IF you really are feeling dark and like killing yourself---by ALL means --ask for help. There are people who care. Besides that, i recommend that you read the Bible...read the book of Job....God is real and He will answer you....but you have to ask...ask..ask for help. The one thing that the Lord---who created the universe and is a supernatural being does not like though is someone who comes to Him in pride. Humble yourself....One that that I have found to be true is that those who do not have God find other means to fill the void...whether it be drugs or sex (yeah, porn), or some other obsession. In addition to faith, you need to be physically active...go outside every day....enjoy the health and the world. While everything and everyday is NOT 'happy' every day is also NOT sad.

[@RamessesIX]

Oh, so their approach is unengaging. 🤔😕 Possibility a bit of a naive adaptation from books to computers. Education really should be more about strategies to inspire and not just dumping data.

[@MohaMoha-o3l]

Fayn 9ol?

[@jaymakormik6779]

Who's with me?!..........