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[@sisiwx6154]

Oh you sweet angel. Please don't downplay your emotions. You're not being dramatic in any capacity. Your emotions are valid ❤ love you so much

[@Lee_lee_27_7_27]

The most wonderful part of getting older is understanding why people do what they do - understanding everyone is trying their best, and stumbling along, same as me. I've let go of a lot of frustrations I've held onto for years - I need grace, so I give it more freely now.

[@laurencurtis]

Sending you lots of love ❤ I’m so sorry you had such a hard year 😞❤️

[@halfgoddess_halfhell]

Loving the rawness of this video. Yet another reason why I still watch soooo many years later. #BlueSmokeyEyeCrew

[@olaali1000]

Its crazy how human stories are the same everywhere on earth ! I was literally crying with you because although am from the other part of the world & probably have nothing in common with your culture & background but i have lived through exactly the same story. Baby at 7 month , not breastfeeding well, still struggling with postpartum depression, dad died , while he was going through divorce with my mom who he has been married to for 28 years! The guilt , the heartache, the sorrow of knowing that he will never know my now toddler! Oh my god … your story brought it all back again. Worst part is we all were siding with mom through the divorce, we probably broke his heart to death! The divorce was never final. And i never got to tell my dad how thankful i am for how supportive he was to me while i was going through postpartum. Im so sorry dad, i miss you ❤️‍🩹

[@oceanequestrian11]

I’m in the process of losing my mom to cancer… I know the fear of that disease. My heart just BROKE for you when you mentioned your granddad & your son. I cried with you watching this 😢 Sending you BIG HUGS

[@shaaanxo]

I’m so so sorry to hear that. Sending all of my love to you 💗

[@oceanequestrian11]

@@shaaanxo Thank you 🙏🏻 I really appreciate it 🩷 Much love and blessings to you and your family

[@maylex1150]

Hey!! Been here since the beginning and I am so proud of the woman you have become! It feels weird saying that since you have no idea who I am but it’s so beautiful to see the life you have created for yourself. Again, weird to say but you feel like a friend and a safe space. I’m so grateful that you have stayed true to yourself through all these years and not compromising who you are for the algorithm. You’re so real and that’s why I love your channel. I appreciate your vulnerability, it makes us feel connected. Thank you for allowing us to watch along :)

[@FelicPear]

I second this! Shannon, your personal growth has been amazing. I feel like a proud friend, even though I don't know you. The people who watch you absolutely adore you. xo

[@holllydolly]

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[@jenfrawley5702]

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[@unfadingbeauty9725]

Shan you don't sound dramatic at all, this would too be traumatizing to me as well. Yes this year, give yourself grace, meditate, love, breathe,enjoy life.... I appreciate and love your transparency. Love You Shan 🙏🏽💕

[@emilycraddock3557]

Girl, my daughter is 2.5 years old. And my body, physically and mentally, are soo different. I gained over 70 pounds when pregnant and I cannot get it off. I also just found out I'm pregnant again, when I was finally getting to a point where, doctor wise, on the right tract. But this pregnancy I hope to be way healthier with better foods, and working out. ❤❤

[@ladyveracity]

I learned that I cannot shift any weight after a baby until they've been weaned for 6 months. Then it starts to come off--but for a couple of them, that was time enough for me to be pregnant again.

[@Sphynxmum82]

Noone truly prepares you for motherhood. Breastfeeding for some is SUCH a hard journey. That alone messed me up, nevermind the fact I had such a traumatic birth. I wont be having anymore cause I just cant lol. My daughter is almost 2.5 and I am so blessed to have her, but boy parenthood is so challenging. Thank you for being so raw. This is your year 💕

[@Catelaaa]

I loved how honest you were. I feel like a lot of us kinda just hit the ground running after the pandemic and didn’t really give ourselves time to decompress from it. We all collectively went through a lot. And becoming a mom through it must have been hard. I feel like i am finally processing it, i was real sick during it, long hauler. Better now. Anyway appreciated knowing i am not the only one having a rough go and feeling like there is so much awfulness in the world. You asked to share something we are proud of, for me, i figured out a plan to get out of law school student debt. I still have 5 years of extreme frugality to do it, but hoping to have a kid after. Also, i am taking a test for a possible promotion tomorrow, wish me luck, would def accelerate my goal!

[@skylarkbeauty]

Oh, Shan, I’m so sorry you had such a trying year two years ago. You’re so strong and beautiful. I’m so glad you had a healing year. You deserve it. Keep going girl, you got this, momma! ❤

[@bethany92321]

In the last couple months I’ve gotten out of a toxic relationship, lost a friendship, changed jobs, and hit so many mental slumps. But through it all, I’m learning to give myself grace and to focus more on myself and the good. Thank you Shannon for opening up and helping me realize that everyone is going thru something in their lives. Keep your head up, you’re doing great love. Much love to you and your family ❤️❤️

[@Undiscovered1942]

Stay strong ! Xx

[@jesswere1254]

Thinking of you xx

[@leahmedina12]

Just rewatching this again. And wanted to comment this time. Been with you since the beginning and it feels like a privilege getting to watch and a party to so many parts of your life. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. You’re such an amazing person and I’ve loved seeing you thrive and seeing you go through life. Ups and downs. Your videos and vlogs are a comfort to me. It’s just like hanging out with a friend. I’m so sorry last year was so awful for you, and it feels like 2024 has been such a positive one so far. Love the gardening updates in the vlogs 😅❤❤❤❤

[@samanthameyer8419]

If I could LOVE this video I would a million times over. We're close in age and I started watching you when I was about 18 I think...so yeah 12 years, but you've always been such a source of positivity and light in my not so bright life. You're an amazing person with valid emotions. Keep doing the things that make you happy ❤

[@PaisleySlunaker]

As one of your younger viewers who has been watching you for over 7 years. I love you. You are so real and it helps me want to be my realest everyday. You are like the big sister that is just like me and i'm glad I was able to have you all these years. 😘

[@zitabovee3491]

NOT dramatic I can’t even imagine! I’m so upset they made such an error! The mental distress! I’m so thankful he is ok. You are so kind to empathize with other families you are a sweetheart! Beautiful inside and out! ❤

[@ashton12xxo]

I love your realness so much. It is why you're one of my favorite creators. You are so strong, so real, you stick to what you believe in, and it shares such a good message to your viewers no matter their age. Also, your feelings are so valid, it is definitely not dramatic at all how you feel about going through such a scary time. ❤

[@emilycraddock3557]

I have had that same thing with KZbin Influencers I follow. I have unfollowed all of the people I used to follow, except for you. Literally you are the only one who is the same, I follow a bunch of life type people now and I think you still fit into that new part of me. I like your personality, and family etc.

[@daniellekingggg]

Thanks for the honest chat. You have continued to be a KZbinr I’ve consistently watched over all these years because you’ve stayed so relatable and chill to watch. God bless you and your family. ❤

[@Endless_Nameless6]

So sorry for your hardships and thank you for being vulnerable with us. It’s refreshing to hear other 30 something’s talk about their opinions and give solid, relatable advice. I’m 35 and have been depressed for a solid 2 years. The world around us is in shambles and it’s hard to stay optimistic. Social media for the most part is gross to me, I will never get on TikTok, I rarely use instagram and just prefer long form content such as vlogs on KZbin. I hope more people can disconnect from the internet, learn a hobby, hangout with friends and family more, go outside and be active and just enjoy life without being worried about other peoples opinions ❤

[@allanahhickey556]

Oh my gosh yes I have a 7 month old and I’ve found it sooo hard. It’s so nice to see someone like you be real about it and say hey it’s ok to not be ok. I think like you I’ll enjoy the toddler stage more too ❤

[@NicoleElaine0208]

This might be my favorite video of yours and I’ve been following for over a decade. So happ you’re enjoying toddlerhood. My son is 6 and we had a lot of trouble getting pregnant (he will probably be our only) and I’m learning to embrace that and think of the positives of having one child that I can give my all to and my marriage that I can really focus on and… it’s nice we can all fit in one row in an airplane which is nice haha 💛💛 thanks for being so honest. Your growth is so apparent and the wisdom is appreciated.

[@emilysipos6957]

I feel like you are super real. No BS. Very Authentic. I just started watching your videos and i absolutley love you! Thanks for being you 😊

[@Ginmabes]

Oh Shan, I am sending you the biggest hug from Wellington! I can't imagine the pain of the scare with Porter's health, that's completely awful and I'm so glad he is okay. You're so tough and such a good Mum. I have spoken to many Mums recently who have been like "I am traumatised from this!" despite the immense love, so it's really meaningful that you are being so honest.

[@emilycryer]

Been watching your channel for over 10 years, just wanted to say that I love that you've allowed yourself to grow and become an adult, and let your content grow with you. We're about the same age, so it's been so easy to continue watching your channel. You're such a genuine person and I always resonate with you. Excited to see you thrive in 2024!

[@manoek38]

Sending you lots of love!

[@Kiwi_Christine]

This is the first video of yours I’ve watched in some time. You were the first beauty KZbinr I ever watched and I learned so much on how to improve my makeup game. It’s nice to hear you talking about your baby boy. I was reasonably new to motherhood when I started watching you. They say your kids hold your hand for a while and your heart forever. Make the most of the cuddles and his desire & need to have you at the centre of his world. Keep communicating with them well, as they grow up, learning in each stage how best to do that. Bless you Shannon. I enjoy your honesty. P.s - My home is very close to your bach. I agree that it’s a very beautiful town and I am grateful to God every day, that I’ve been planted here. I get to walk my beloved dog on one of the prettiest beaches in New Zealand whenever I want.

[@jessva5591]

You are absolutely not being dramatic about Porter's health! It's heartbreaking seeing them unwell with something "simple" like a virus and being so upset let alone something so much more serious like the possibility of cancer. You are the exact right level of upset about it all. I'm so glad he's okay ❤

[@bdoede96]

I’m Canadian, we had The Wiggles growing up. Me, my sister and our cousins would dance our hearts out watching them. My nephew could careless about them.. My niece on the other hand is obsessed!! I love watching her learn the dances, and watching the surprised look on her face when she realizes that I know them too is priceless. 💕

[@misslesnz]

Thank you for being as raw and open as you have here ❤ I am going through the hardest time I’ve ever had with my 15 yr old daughter, and some of your thoughts you’ve shared here, I really needed to hear. I’m sorry you’ve suffered so much but you truly should be so proud of how you’ve made it through it all ❤

[@carold8950]

This video deeply resonated with me. Thank you for sharing your mental health, it means a lot! I also struggle with anxiety and feeling overwhelmed!

[@LoreanneFeliz]

Just as a word of encouragement, keep it up with your healthy eating habits and never think they’re weird. I spent the whole year of 2023 eating healthy and changed my diet completely and that made an universe of a difference. I lost 70 lbs just by eating nutritiously, with minimal workout (not by choice but because of other health issues) and honestly, I feel amazing. I get less sick, my resistance and overall energy improved, and I feel waayy better. I do just as you say, I eat clean the whole week or at least for two weeks straight and then I treat myself with whatever comes up or what I’m in the mood of. Just see you’re not alone and a lot of us are going through the same or have been through the same journey. I’m rooting for you!❤

[@SherryBaby1107]

Life is full of growing PAINS emotionally as well as physically but we do get Through them and on the other side we reflect the lessons we learn and we become wiser and stronger to handle future situations…all we can do is truly be kind to ourselves through all the ups and downs as life is truly like a rollercoaster ups downs happy fearful but what an excelerating ride! I’ve watched your videos for definitely ten plus years and you should feel so proud of yourself as you are a truly good person with a kind heart 🥰

[@thenewbornunicorn2543]

Shan you are an incredible human being, been watching u for SO many years and no one will ever come close to how genuine and safe place u are. much love to u!!!!!

[@hollyyhollyyhollyy]

Watching you grow and change and adapt over the last 10 or so years has been so heartwarming. You have always been a comfort watch for me as I’ve been growing up too. I’ve always loved that you do what you want and not what’s on trend. Also never apologise for your emotions, I couldn’t even imagine the panic with your little one. So glad he’s ok. How you manage to do KZbin, XO beauty, be a mum and now have a hobby in gardening I’ll never know… SUPERWOMAN!!😂❤

[@Sherbearhaley30]

Shannon I've been watching you for years. To be 💯 I respect you more now than ever. I don't even think you see how much you have grown and matured. It's refreshing to see you being honest and wanting everyone to know that life isn't perfect and it should not be. Your life experience though awful has made you into a wonderful mature woman and mother. You and Hamish have come so far. You should be so proud ❤

[@iannone39]

Shannon thank you fir sharing def can relate, don't stop being you or sharing. Your a brilliant mum and it's evident as soon as we see handsome cute porter....the first us always hard but your young and when your ready try for a sibling for porter it's always good to break any cycle. Sympathies for your grandfather and def you were feeling yuk how could you not and bodies react differently. By the way gardening is brilliant keep it up switch the TV off and listen to it occasionally and your own music that's how I'm dealing with my ptsd.....all the best brilliant mum❤

[@cassierandall1075]

I’m so sorry you had an emotional year, you always have so much love and support around you. My heart broke when you were telling us about your grandpa and porter 😢 I lost my grandpa and my dad within 4 months in 2021. Just remember to always be kind to yourself, allow yourself to feel the emotions and don’t put so much pressure on yourself!! Hamish and porter are so lucky to have you xxxx ❤️❤️❤️

[@aliyahahmad2730]

When Shannon posts, the only thing to do is click 😂 Happy New Year’s babes! x

[@esmeejansen9295]

I have been watching you shan for 8 years ! ( and im 22 😲 ) The woman you were 8 years ago vs now, makes you such a big inspiration for me ! You have grown so much and i hope you are proud of everything you have accomplished and be proud of your tears ! They make you incredibly beautiful 🥰🫶🏼

[@dawnshipley1243]

It's ok to cry, Shan. You need to cry. If you don't let out those emotions, they will back up inside of you and come out some other way. Usually in a not good way. It is ok to express grief. Grief means you loved. That's how God made us. If I was there, I would hold you until you cried all your pain out. You will feel better. You have a great deal on your shoulders, at the moment. It is ok to let others take it for a while so you can grieve. You are so loved. Take great care of you so you can take great care of your family. We can wait if needed. Take care of you. ❤❤❤❤

[@ghostlysoprano]

Oh Shannon! I had twins last year and everything you said about postpartum really resonates with me. I’m still not out of it yet but it makes me happy to see how far you’ve come. I’ve watched you for years and I love how real your videos are! I think I will feel the same way about enjoying the boys when they get older and more interactive! Wishing you and your family a calming, healing 2024 ❤

[@gretaelsh3634]

I started crying too when you started talking about Porter and the scare with his shoulder and cancer. I too get really f-ed up when I think about babies/kiddos being sick and the way it impacts them and their parents/family. It hurts to see hurt, and there’s so much of it in the world rn. Sending so much love and peace to you and health to your family. I have been watching you for over 5 years and I am SO THANKFUL PORTER IS OKAY 😭😭 Take care, Shan. You and your little family warm my heart and I want only the best for you this year and every year. I just had a random Snapchat memory come on my phone of a clip of you trying out some makeup deadass from 2018 and I just thought “wow, I really have seen this woman grow, get married, move, have a baby,” it’s just mind blowing. Still here for as long as you’re uploading, queen. So glad you are finding what supports your mental health. I know I don’t know you personally, but I love you in a person-to-person way and I’m thankful for the ways you’ve indirectly inspired me. All love, xoxo Greta ❤

[@katsweet7463]

Great Kōrero, nice to know someone else was in that painful yet necessary self growth season for the past couple of years. Here’s to 2024 being a year of harvest 🙏🏼 && please don’t stop the deep talks, I appreciate them so much in a world that is so fake & straight up cooked! Happy New year to you and yours from from me & mine ❤

[@genevalawrence-parks1229]

I truly know how u feel my almost four year old has a birth hematoma on her head that they had to watch to make sure it wasn't cancerous and I lost both my grand parents two years ago within 8 months. I am glad u r healing it takes time and you r so strong and not dramatic I luv how real you r. Keep on keeping on girl.

[@holly24682]

You have been through so much in such a short amount of time, and here you are stronger than ever and making sure to fill your cup. So proud of you x

[@bleisicz]

Dear Shan! You still are my favourite KZbinr and love watching all your videos and listening to you cause it feels like being with a best friend. And you are such a huge inspiration as a person, as a business woman, as a mom! Watching you for years as you grow in all areas of life. You motivate me so much! When you talk about the hard things you have been through I would like to give you a big hug! Hope you have tried some kind of therapy to help you process all this. You deserve all the best in life because you are the most wonderful person on earth. We need angels like you. Sending you all the love ❤❤❤❤ Reka

[@jenifergorman1223]

I love gardening and being outside! It’s really good for your mental health, so agree. You should be very proud of yourself!! I’m so sorry about your granddad. That hurts my heart that he never got to meet Porter and that he’s gone. Hugs

[@thatsydvicious]

Sounds like you had a similar post partum experience to me - I only ended up having one kid because of it and she's 7 now and thriving. Watching your kid grow up is simultaneously the most joyful and painful thing. You relive your own childhood as your kid grows up

[@ponygirlusa]

This look is BEAUTIFUL!!!! I'm so happy you're feeling better, Shan. So much of what you experienced would have set anyone back but you used it to blossom into being and doing everything you can to be a better mom, wife, daughter and friend! You're sharing what you did to get through it by nurturing self growth and good mental health with the right foods and wholesome hobbies and by getting that time outside enjoying nature! You never fail to inspire!!! Love your content, no matter what your mood, Shan!!!

[@colettemccartan6663]

You’re such a breath of fresh air, been here from the start and feel like I have grown with you. Can completely resonate with finding balance and separating your identity from work. Love the messages you’re sharing!

[@rebecareyes2972]

This video was like therapy, everything you shared was so special and vulnerable in the most admirable way. I felt so seen, and cried along with you. Thank you so much for sharing all of this. My postpartum experience was so traumatic for me that I have the hardest time imagining having another child as much as I always dreamed of having a big family. My baby turned 2 a couple months ago, and I’ve changed as a person so significantly and I wouldn’t have it any other way because I live a much more wholesome life. like you were saying you just see things so differently now and don’t want to just live in consuming. Sending you so much love 🩷🩷🩷🩷

[@itzcharlie7797]

Shan, I just wanted to send my condolences for the loss of your grandfather. I understand the regret of not being able to see them in time. When my dad suddenly died 2 years ago from blood clots in the lungs I was at school and wasn't able to say goodbye. Whilst the regret feels horrible you need to remind yourself that they'll always be with you in your heart and memories and that is the best way to let them live on. Grief takes time, there is never a set amount of time that you'll grieve for. it comes and goes. Just remember that you're never alone, you have your amazing family and fans to support you! ❤

[@hannahchett6919]

Everything you said about your postpartum journey is the most relatable experience I've ever heard! I bawled my eyes out because it felt like I was listening to myself 😢 Thank you for sharing ❤

[@KarieMelissa]

Thank you for being so vulnerable! I felt all of this. My baby girl is 5 months and I’m still in a funk about all the changes my body went through. She had a scare in the nicu when she was born and I think I still have moments where I have some anxiety. But becoming a mom and seeing you become a mom has been so cool to watch after following you since college.

[@LakinRhianna]

I love watching these videos. I feel so privileged when you open up to us and I love how real you keep it. Here’s to a bountiful garden harvest this summer and a year of self care ❤

[@CC_Babblecock]

Well done Shan, so happy that you’re embracing new chapters in life, everything you said echoes what I think too. You’ve done so much with your content and positivity for so many people, including me, and those of us who love you will always be here to check in, because you’ve been in your own lane the whole time, & that was a smart move as you have created a community. Sending love for a great 2024 mumma ❤

[@karlieprozanski8250]

Thank you for trusting your community enough to share those things ❤ This year I had a baby and also found you have to have a lot of courage and advocate otherwise you’ll get run over/ dismissed

[@Thedebstrangtheory]

You've evolved my love, so beautiful watching you grow as a mama. I think alot of people will resonate with your journey. Proud of you xx

[@appyleelee]

Even with our experiences being so different, I can relate to so many things you said. I'm really trying to give myself grace, while trying to approach my health in a different way. I really realized that I had given up and was just surviving. I want to start living again. I also think you were not even close to dramatic about such intense experiences. You responded as you needed to, to get through it at the time. Self reflection is so hard! I'm glad life is feeling more hopeful for you.

[@shaaanxo]

sending you so much love

[@jogee3276]

Thanks for sharing. I’m 52 and have been a fan for ages, I wish I was this insightful! You’ve done the work and it’s inspiring so thanks! Keep doing you x

[@arswink.38]

I have watched you since i was 12 (ill be 24 in march) i have loved watching you grow into the woman you are as i grow into the woman that i am, and im so happy and proud that you did not go down the same road so many other beauty youtubers have gone. I have both of the palettes you made with BH cosmetics and even though they are definitely expired i still use them almost every single day!! I had to glue the remix pallet back together because its so well loved. Im praying for your healing, growth and peace!! ❤❤❤

[@Mommaslew]

Shannon, I have watched you for soooo many years. I am 58. I am so impressed with how you handled and continue to handle yourself through such difficult times. You have really grown as a person and are very insightful. I’m impressed you recognized the hard times and are giving yourself grace.❤❤❤😊

[@patrycjaprzepiorka8600]

I'm crying with you... I've been watching you from the very beginning and I feel like you were my friend and I'm terribly sorry that you felt that way... you're fantastic and you bring a lot of happiness into our lives, you're real... I hug you very much! Xoxo btw I love the make up!!! ❤❤❤

[@jenniferrhoads3322]

Wow. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences. There were so many things you said that I related to 100%. You are doing an amazing job! My son is 15 now and I seriously can't remember a thing about the person I was before him. I definitely am enjoying this phase more than when he was younger because he's like a full human now with his own thoughts, opinions, and personality. It's so cool. I'm in the States and I watched the wiggles with my son. He used to love them!! Thank you for being you and letting us in. We love you! 💚

[@rebeccafitzsimons3532]

In 2015 I had 2 under 2 and PND. It wasn’t a good time, but you know what got me through? Your videos! Particularly your daily vlogs… you’d just started doing them. You inspired me to eat better and move more and it really helped me mentally. My girls are 10 and 8 now and they’re so much easier (although hormones are kicking in… that’s another story 😂). Sending you lots of love ❤️ Keep being you xxx

[@SamB92]

First off, I just want to say I love your videos and the amount of transparency you have - you're not afraid to talk about the hard stuff, and it's really nice to have someone to relate to. I love the idea of having "New Year's Goals" as opposed to "Resolutions", because I know I always failed mine. Last year was both amazing and devastating for me. I went out of my comfort zone and travelled to a different country solo to meet someone I had met online... who then turned around and broke my heart. The experience itself was magical and everything I wanted it to be, however the aftermath... it threw me into a state of depression worse than any I had ever experienced before. I ended up gaining about 40 lbs after that, and I've been miserable. Which is why my goal this year is to work on losing all that weight, and doing things that make me happy again. ☺

[@melanie-sq5bs]

one of my favorite hobbies is caring for all my houseplants. I probably have like 200 plants. it snows where I live, so I can’t garden outdoors year round and I adore all my little plant babies around my house.

[@vEasyTiger]

I’m so sorry you lost your Grandad ❤ I also lost mine at the end of 2022 and these emotions still hit me out of the blue with regrets and him not being able to meet my now 4 month old x you’re doing a wonderful job with Porter and it is hard adjusting to being a mum and the worry that comes with it all

[@emmajohnston8814]

Sending so much love, you have had a hard year ❤ I can totally relate to the older vibes now as I turn 31 this year and have a Two year old. Your focuses and life changes with motherhood and age. I’ve followed you for soo long and enjoy being in the background watching all your videos and being along the similar journeys as you in life.

[@kodasmoke8106]

I have not watched for months been dealing with the loss of my mom but randomly had a dream of you guys. Sending love and blessing can't wait to see the video

[@shaaanxo]

I’m so sorry to hear that, sending you so much love

[@amaliethiesen6291]

Shan.. i am 23, have followed you for +10. years...all things you said and your thoughts resonates a lot with me. Hugs from Denmark!!!!

[@lanajjelenic7552]

Really appreciate you opening up. Thank you. Have loved watching you forever and will continue to because of who you are as a person and mum, not because of the content ( even though the content is still great). Here's to 2024 and being stronger, happier and healthier. 🩷🩷🩷

[@MsOneLUV]

U continue to show us who u are the kind heart you have!!! I appreciate you so much!!

[@jl79schneider]

Loved this video! You’re so down to earth and relatable, I’ve been a viewer for years and I have always enjoyed your content. I too had a very difficult first pregnancy and he is my only child. It was traumatizing, but he is the greatest gift I’ve ever been given! Hugs from afar, you’ve got this momma! PS I also love gardening!

[@kristinebernhart9495]

Shannon, I really loved this video with you being real and reflecting on your life the past years. It was like a conversation with a good friend. You are so intelligent and such a good person. Best wishes!

[@madlengiefer4970]

I‘m so sorry to hear about all of that. Sending you lots of love. I wasn‘t watching for a while. I feel so lost right now and your right, everyone needs to focus on themselfs and take care. I‘ve gone through the same with some friendships and it‘s hard and not easy. I‘m hoping for a better year for all of us. Thank you i feel less alone now ❤

[@Maria.3838]

Ohh shan. Broke my heart see you crying. Sending you good vibes ❤❤

[@thetrailwalkers]

Shannon, so so sorry about your family loss. Also dont feel bad about your son not meeting him!! 2023 was a really hard year for me with being homesick (as we moved from South Africa to USA in 2019) after we visited SA and depression hit me hard. I gained 30lbs and self medicated with alcohol. Im in such a better place now and 2024 will be ✨️ and amazing!!

[@prettynsleepy1073]

32:39 I 100% agree. I feel it started right as the pandemic was hitting and unfortunately I don’t know if it will become more positive. I’m hoping and praying because the world needs love, peace, harmony, understanding, empathy, and compassion.

[@rachellandrysaunier4287]

You should be so proud of yourself Shannon. I respect you so much as a mom and business owner. ❤

[@courtpaige333]

This is the wholesome video I was needing. Thanks for keeping it real Shan 😭❤️ never change

[@jasminerowe4142]

Thanks for being real. Wishing you a beautiful 2024, full of happiness, good health and great memories. It’s so nice to see someone like you be so raw. You’re incredibly strong and inspiring ✨

[@jessicabevan2198]

I've watched you for a few years you and Hamish and Sally, I honestly love watching you grow, you are such a strong person ❤ I was bullied in school as well so I can relate ❤ sending big hug to you Shannon ❤❤ port is so lucky to have parents like you and Hamish 😊

[@adriannaalexis4840]

Aww Shan..I feel like you needed this talk, I’m sorry you had such a hard year and struggled so bad postpartum. I hope this year is better for you and your family🫶🏼 I’m a quiet watcher but I’ve been subscribed to you for years you’re one of the first few KZbinrs I discovered and stuck❤️

[@InLessThan30]

This was a blessing to watch. Thank you for reminding me to give myself grace. I’m so happy you are thriving in this fresh start to the new year. May God continue to keep you and your beautiful family. ❤🙏🏽

[@lizhyde8743]

I agree! I love the toddler stage too x

[@042mandy]

I love when you open up and do videos like these. It makes you even more relatable because so many of us feel the same as you do on things!

[@sheisit211]

Aww I’m so sorry to hear about your Grandfather (may he RIP) and your son 😢 i’m so proud of you! Made me want to cry for you because I could feel your pain ❤ Hope you and the family are okay and we are always here for you, just as you are for us ❤️‍🩹🙏🏼

[@98TMT]

You are definitely doing your best, I am too! We all are! To live is not easy. The fact that we are still standing means a lot. I am glad you have had a healing year. 2023 was a good one to me too. And please, keep doing the things that you love, it is what has made me stay since 2016 😌👏🏼

[@AussieKiwi1994]

Thank you for sharing all of this and especially the post-partum struggles during such a shit time! I'm due in March and it's so refreshing to hear a raw account of how life happens and it's hard! I'm happy that you feel like you are in a better place. Remember it's ok to not be ok ❤

[@JackieHe520]

Can🙌🏼relate🙌🏼to🙌🏼everything🙌🏼you’re🙌🏼saying🙌🏼Shannon! Been here since 2014 and had a baby last year too, your content is so grounding I’ll always be here to watch ❤❤❤

[@toriburleigh344]

Aw darling, felt your honesty to my core 🫶🏻 Port I a little older then my son and Iv loved watching you meet his milestones while also going through life as we have at the same time. You should be very proud of yourself and your strength Mumma x

[@MaMaLoVe77ily]

Totally understand girl!!!😊.....Yesss now i really like to go outside.....Helps me so much to get some outside air....So yeah girl do what makes you happy and thanks for the talk you help us some times without knowning it...Hope you had a great vacation😊 ❤❤

[@meagantixier9446]

Hi Shannon! I've watched your videos for many many years and I have enjoyed seeing you evolve throughout the past decade.. I am currently 27 weeks pregnant with Mt first child, a boy.. and I appreciate your advice in this video. I appreciate your honesty and raw emotion and the fact that you are able to share these difficult parts of your life. I honestly have grown to care about you so much as if you were my best friend! And I always look forward to a new video from you. I appreciate you so much and I just want you to know that you have made a huge impact in my life. Xoxo xoxo love you!!!!

[@lisacolborne]

Thank you for sharing Shannon! I definitely agree with you! We do not give ourselves enough credit when we have our children. Hope you have a great vacation with your family!

[@jenniicaroline1218]

love you vlogs. I too am struggling with motivation to work out and eat healthier, i havent had a child but i had my whole body change and damaged from an extended illness. some days i cant do more than sit at a computer to get my work hours in. and then i feel too tired to clean, make healthy food, or make it to the gym. the struggle is real!! its been a long journey. im finally better for the most part , my heart and lungs were difficult to heal, and I gained alot of weight. it took a year of repeat scans for them to decide my lungs growths werent cancer, so i think during that time of stress i just ate alot and lost hope. i really feel for you and the emotional year youve had. im sooo glad Porter is ok. :) anyhow. sending good vibes. hoping for a better 2024 for you as well :)

[@madgebaker62]

You brought a tear to my eye seeing you upset like that.I lost my mum when I was only sixteen, it still seems like it was only yesterday. I`ve been following you for quite some time now and seeing both you and Hamish evolve as parents is great. I`m in my 60`s now and I came across a my new hobby a couple of years ago called needle felting. I get such pleasure out of the creations I make and hope to make many more. Sending you big hugs to you.

[@TanyaRose]

Shan you are so bloody strong, I can’t believe all you went thru over the past few years ❤ Iv been subbed to you since you were filming clubbing GRWM in your dads house and Iv always related to you. I needed to hear a lot of this, I’m also a first time mum, my little boy is roughly 6 months younger than port and hearing your struggles hit me, Iv struggled so bad post partum and I’m forever comparing myself to the social media mums or how I’m suppose to be as a mum but you’ve opened my eyes and I know I’m doing a good job. Thank you for always sharing and being so relatable. Hope you and your family have the best year & 2024 is full of love and happiness for you 🫶🏻