An Update on my Horses | Rehab, Osteo and Some Sad News

[@nicolebortolussi3320]

Absolutely our souls live forever.. your vision was a hug from God ❤

[@jennielaw6329]

Everyone here in the positive comments has said everything i wanted to say..... I'm definitely old enough to be your mum... I'm sending a Mum hug x

[@jeniferrinehart1107]

Oh Miri….I cried right along with you!! You are such a special soul. I know your ponies were there on the bank waiting to show you they were OK. ❤❤❤❤

[@ginnyferguson3772]

Here here! ❤

[@sherrieshatzen3801]

I also think they were there on the bank to tell you how much it meant to them to have been loved by you.

[@tgburger]

So sweet. Thank you for being the wonderful human you are.

[@fleetskipper1810]

Her yawning and other indications of parasympathetic release certainly prove that you were right, she needed it. So glad you were able to get this done for her.

[@RidingWithRhi]

Oh Miri. What a beautiful thing to have experienced. A gorgeous sign from your lovely babies. And I love the idea of wonderful Nanette keeping Mpenzi close by 🥰❤️ you are such a wonderful soul and horses are so lucky to end up with you.

[@katyasilitch4539]

Thank you for sharing how difficult it is for you as an owner and trainer to be witness to any pain a horse may experience and to the death of a horse, it is a difficult aspect of human and animal relations. I think it's very important to have this kind of open dialogue about this subject.

[@tarrelp]

So, So sorry for your loss!! I have been thru a few myself - definitely life changing events. Yes, you did see them on the other side of the Rainbow bridge. Someday we will all be there with our babies.❤

[@johillwood1975]

Oh my goodness I cried along with you. That dream/positive premonition you had is remarkable ❤️

[@MissJools11]

Loved the clip of Blondie talking when you were tacking her up!!!

[@lucymorganeq6050]

Tilly was so lovely, sorry you lost him, but definitely better a day too early than one too late. A good phrase is ‘there are worse fates than death’. Death is not the worst thing that can happen to a horse, I’d say more referring to passing on an injured horse to uneducated or forceful hands 😞 💜

[@ellierrowe]

Miri, I am so incredibly sorry to hear about Tilly. I cried with you hearing your story about the 3 horses together. I’ve lost many horses in my lifetime and it never gets easier. Bless you 😢❤

[@chrisbethaneymatthews2616]

Oh Miri! Im crying along with you! Thank you for sharing your update, especially about beautiful Tilly!

[@JTG_Performance_friesians]

Just a touching moment .I feel the same and please take comfort in knowing you saw all three happy Healthy and waiting for you xxxx

[@bernadettedoyle3226]

Huge hugs and blessings to you, Miri ❤❤❤ Your love, commitment, dedication and vulnerability for all of your various critters shows how much your care❤️🥰❤️

[@juliajulesiscool684]

You are such a beautiful person Miri, if only all people thought this deeply about their horses needs and put them before their wants and goals 💞

[@sarahjones-jf4pr]

You are a credit to your horses and life in general well done you, and you have been visited by your babies, I was half asleep and got licked on my leg by my beautiful lurcher Sky who I had to do the difficult deed a few days prior and this really meant the world to me and gave me great comfort amid all the trauma and broken hearted feelings. xxx

[@Katy.Lou.K]

Thank you for the update. I’m glad to hear about your horse’s various progresses! Great to hear about Zora and Blondie.. Didi and Happy 3rd Birthday to little Indy! I can’t believe she’s 3! So sad to hear about Tillie, he was one of my personal favorites to watch. I can empathize with the feeling of letting them cross the rainbow bridge, such a gut-wrenching decision. Keep looking for signs, our loved ones souls are always with us. One of my favorite quotes, “It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.” Love and hugs to you Miri. The horse world is a better place because of you. Love from California⛰️🌲☀️💙

[@annaporter538]

😢😢😢😢 you are such a special person with the biggest of hearts great to see blonde and your other beautiful horses ae doing well ❤❤

[@taylorjanejennings]

I absolutely love your ethos Miri, I’ve always followed you on instagram but watching you here is different, more personal. Listening to you talk about Tilly and your journey ‘meeting them again’ had me in tears. I really struggle with the passing of animals and try to block it out and really appreciate you being so open and sharing this with us🥰

[@fleb608]

Im crying along with you too. I had to say good bye to my horse last week. It was an awful day but he had told me he was ready to go. I like to think of it as the last gift you can give your horse after all the gifts that they give us.

[@fleaness918]

Miri, thank you so much for sharing how you felt and all the things you struggled with around Tilly. My two most recent horses I have retired due to kissing spine and multiple complications and the both taught me so much. Luckily they are field sound and living a happy retired life however one aspect that makes me so sad about the horses nature is how little we understand them naturally. We are so removed from nature that we have to learn so much to come to understand them. How has Sue Dyson's research only recently been done and how have all these obvious signs been normalised! I also realised far too late how much I pushed my boys through pain while they kept offering more. I'm so grateful to them for teaching me and hope I can take this knowledge on to give my next horse a happy comfortable life! Thank you Tilly!

[@ctadventures7064]

Got me crying. We have a very special pony in our lives. That we love and adore. I also adore my friends mare. Couldn't imagine losing either of them.

[@margaretmetcalfe9380]

I say this every time but I so enjoy your videos, even though I don't have horses I still love them, so beautiful. I always feel like I learn something while watching your videos. I understand how you feel, I will never get over taking my dog to the vets the last time, so hard and never forgotten. I cried with you, but you have to remember you gave them all the best time while they were with you, I know they could not have had a better owner. You care so much for your animals and they get the best treatment available.

[@lizzief2220]

Ah dear Miri what a wonderful women you are the honesty, humble, empathy and integrity shines through you. It's wonderful to get you updates and witness your evolution and growth. We are all in "earth school" like you say immortal spirits in a meat suit for this experience/life we can not actually die. I am personally very pleased with your evolution with Blondie and more and more complementary support. Excellent as Brenie Brown tells us our vulnerability is our strength 🌻🌼🌳

[@allysmith2284]

I think it’s an honour to be able to make a call to ease an animals pain… doing it before it’s an horrific situation is what animals deserve.. I hope someone does the same for me one day as a human..

[@annejarvis7002]

Am so very sorry about Tilly, condolences to you & George. How beautiful that you were blessed with such a comforting picture of those 3 precious souls at peace & no longer in pain. My riding days are over due to a car accident - as I watched your video I realised that I could relate to so much of Zora's and Blondies' issues🫣. Does Johannes treat humans? 😂 The difference in Zora after Johannes' treatment was clearly visible. I am waiiting for physiotherapy due to sudden deterioration - I can only hope I encounter a therapist of Johannes' calibre. I love your holistic approach to supporting your horses Miri - no other equestrian could or would do more than you for those stunning horses. 🤗❤

[@amykelly3242]

Loved your dream vision! Definitely letting you know they were happy and healthy now- hold onto that message of gratitude 💕

[@amberrose7023]

Oh Miri! I was crying with you. I haven’t had to make that decision with my animals yet, but I know that day will come. Thank you for being so honest. I loved hearing about your dream with your horses and I think they want you to know that are free and okay. I have so much respect for you and the way you treat your animals. ❤

[@kiaradoesart9682]

My dad has a very "farmer" attitude towards aging pets that I really struggled with, until I realized that he was doing for them what he genuinely strongly wants for himself- to go before [whatever pain] is unbearable. He was conscripted into the army in his country during his university years, and I think he probably saw some awful, slow and grisly deaths (he did a lot of scanning for land mines kind of work). Nowadays I think of it like this- you didn't "fail" as a caretaker by allowing your animal to die, death is an inevitable consequence of life- you only "fail" them if they die badly. Otherwise, while it will still hurt you don't need to feel like you didn't do enough ❤

[@Jacob-ep7te]

So grateful for your honesty in your videos, you’re such an outstanding horsewoman. These horses have found their way to you because it’s you who they needed and you have done and continue everything for them ❤️

[@ginnyferguson3772]

Deff take comfort in 'seeing' them in a dream. Amazing how you have transformed Blondie! Zora is just stunning and I hope she gets to 100%. Great update, love your videos x

[@april5666]

Crying along with you, Miri over generous, kind, Tilly's passing out of pain. Making these decisions for our animals who are suffering and do not have a hope of improving and or only facing declining and increasing pain are very hard and painful for us. As one of your friend's said, though, better to make the decision before the animal crashes completely to the point where they can't get up are so obviously beyond their tolerance for pain is the right decision to take. I love your ways with your horses and how you are always trying to find ways to make their lives better and more comfortable. It was so nice to see you hacking with Blondie and Zora. Blondie looks so relaxed and so much happier now that she has someone helping her, listening to her, and completely arresting their expectations for her until health matters are improved for her. So many horses are so compliant and don't express themselves clearly. So as you say, Blondie had to learn to defend herself and communicate clearly to people that it does make her an excellent teacher. I'm so glad she found her way back to you and that your hard work and multiple approaches to solving her health problems have paid off for all the thinking and adjusting you made for Blondie to feel so much better in her body. You can see it all over her body and in her facial expressions.

[@emk7132]

You have served as such a model horse owner for me. So responsible and caring in all your decisions! You don’t know but you also have been validating the path I have been on with my own mare. Remarkably, just slightly after I have been there you have reported your successes with e.g, Warwick Schiller, R+ training, recognizing there is a reason she sometimes does not want to be touched. I have found it to be such a comfort to hear when you, a horsewomen I have so much respect for, have also been finding this new way of listening so helpful with your “clearly expressive” mare!

[@LindaEll89]

Ohhhh my dear I feel you when you talk what happend to Tilly. I had to send my boy ( also over the rainbow bridge (he had severe cancer). I know his big red ( chestnut) friend Esprit would have wait for him, now they are together. Johannes is absolute incredible, the way he treated Zora is wonderful, so happy your custom made saddle of HD will arrive soon so you can start riding her again. And then my/ our absolute fav of your herd Blondes, and there she showed us her fear of men, men did terrible things to her and she made that christal clear to us all. The moment she allowed Johannes to only touching her and give her a treat is amazing. More amazing that he could treat her beautiful troubled head and the releave she had after that. Like magic he. Haha absolute fan of the funny Blondes voiceover, love love love it. Those hoof boots are like chique mary jaynes, she wears them with pride. Lovely update Miri, thank you and have fun with your girls.💖🫶💖🇳🇱

[@sarahwales6276]

So very sorry for your loss ❤😢 I feel like so many of us have had similar experiences, beating ourselves up for what we didn't know, you mustn't, you take such very good care of your horses and do your best, they are so lucky.big hugs ❤

[@vixiepixie1000]

Oh Miri I cried with you, I have never got over making that decision for my dogs, it’s heart breaking. They cane to tell you thank you and that they are well ❤

[@karenking6150]

Crying with you. Also believe in the signs and dreams about them. Big hugs keep up the good work,

[@Katherinekirbydressage]

I’m so sorry to hear about Tilly ❤It’s absolutely fascinating to see the work with Zora and Blondie and what an amazing opportunity for them to have that treatment. Sending love and so much respect for the honesty ❤

[@janl8683]

I don't think anyone ever gets used to saying goodbye to our animals. Tilly had the best life with you and you did the best for him. As we know horses are prey animals to have spent thousands of years learning how to hide any sort of hurt and pain. The fact you recognised he was only looking ok on very strong medication shows how much discomfort/pain he was keeping hidden. They are the best and it is the hardest last act of love you can do. As upsetting as it is. I love that you had your dream of them all fit and healthy. I do believe their souls/spirits live on in the universe, just in a different plane from our world. ❤❤

[@elouiseluvssparkle]

I had goosebumps when you mentioned seeing your horses in your dreams, I only recently saw my dog in my dream who I loved for nearly 13 years and I will continue to do so, they were coming to let you know that they were all together and all okay 💜💜

[@sophienelder]

Although I don’t know you or Tilly, I felt every bit of that and cried with you💔 you do such a wonderful job and care for the horses like no other, I really look up to you x

[@hopefullyeventing]

Just cried along with you Miri, I'm so glad you managed to find some peace. Sleep tight Tilly. x

[@peggyanngetts1425]

Thanks for sharing. I'm crying with you. I know how you feel. I put down my 27 year old gelding ( which I had since he was 4) 7 years ago. He was bleeding from his sinus. The vet could have done surgery but I was counseled by a good friend ( who's an excellent horsewoman also) not to put him through that at his age. I will never get over this. I love your dream/vision of your horses. I believe in life after death and that we will be with the animals we loved. I love your videos and so wish I knew the things you teach when I had my horse. I love your training methods and knowledge of your horses bodies, etc. I'm an American. It's interesting how we both speak English but you have different words for things. I actually love your accent and obviously your love of horses.

[@CAR0TASTISCH]

All your horses are very very lucky for being in your care and for having a human that cares so much. Thank you for all your great work, they certainly all deserved the best and I strongly believe you gave it to them!

[@sallyannefrancis8647]

Thanks for sharing !! I did get emotional just like your other followers. Its because we are following your horses and your journey. Thank you. 🥰🥰

[@muddybootssandytoes]

Oh Miri you’re such a kind soul. The horses are so lucky to have you caring for them and really listening. I’m glad your dream brought you comfort.

[@hopesheehan7159]

I admire you a great deal, and I have learned a ton. Keep hacking! It is the best for the horses and for you! I agree you are a very special person!

[@rotaylor2237]

I’m so sorry for your loss of Tilly miri, you didn’t know at the time. Please don’t blame yourself, I have been beating myself up about Clancy and not catching on sooner. You are a lovely person and you take wonderful care of the horses on your yard. Those you have personally, you do so much. Be sure you know that and love yourself too, because you have such a heart for the horses. I know they know this too. Much love my friend 😊❤

[@fleb608]

You would love Balance Through Movement method Miri! Celeste is the heroine and advocate our horses need for understanding correct posture.

[@leahthompson3810]

So genuine Miri! Sending love x

[@jimmyrid1]

Sobbing with you. Much love xxxx

[@MegF142857]

Sorry about Tilly. Very honest discussion about that difficult decision making for the best you can do for your horse. I dread that point with my current older horses.

[@christinemartindale8715]

So sorry you lost tilly Miri he was a lovely strong horse I remember when you and your partner going to pick him up how sad it’s brought a tear to my eyes.Your such a lovely girl never be sorry for crying as tears roll down my face with you it shows we care. Try to sleep well now.tfs😎🏇😎

[@stormwilde3145]

I truely believe your lovely horses visited you in your dream to let yoj know they were fine and happy....I don't have horses in my life anymore but my childhood ponies and horses still visit me in my dreams as do my dogs that have passed....I am so sorry for your loss but you did your best for Tilly ❤ xx

[@fleetskipper1810]

I’ve been in the exact spot you were with Tilly, making a decision I didn’t want to make. Afterwards, I would wake up in the middle of night with tears in my eyes. Wondering if I did the right thing. My mind knew that I have done the right thing, but my emotions had not caught up with that decision. I’m here to tell you that you did do the right thing. Be reassured. It was done out of true love. Love is unselfish. You did not want to prolong his suffering, which could not be permanently alleviated, in order for you feel temporarily better because you did not have to make the final decision right then. You have my ultimate respect for your decision.

[@nancyhamlin9169]

I am like you.I can’t bear to see horses die either but in the end we have to think of what is best for them as hard as it might be

[@kippen64]

I agree with you about training being fun. Still have yet to compete but will always want to train. Edited to add that I had to have one of my horses put down. I know what you mean about the conflicting feelings you get when you see them being comfortable on a strong pain killer. For him too, it wasn't a long term solution. I currently have a thirty year old pony with Cushing's and worn down front teeth. He's on Prascend and a pain killer and living a normal, happy horse life but I am always aware that without the medication, he would decline and die. So he either continues to be medicated or he has to be put down. His vet is very happy with how he is. So I feel compelled to continue. Big Standardbred hugs from my overly enthusiastic behemoth.

[@pipevery06]

"aren't i lucky to have somebody that makes saying goodbye so hard"

[@AffietheHaffie]

Ugly cried at the end touched so close to heart i had to have Percy our chestnut tb who was only 5 pts due to gastric cancer and it was the hardest thing i have had to do my daughter was born the day after and we named her Robyn after the Robin who lived in his stable ❤

[@LisaKini]

Love you, wish you guys all the best ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

[@JoBegg]

I cried with you, I had to go back and watch the Blondie TikTok again to have a little giggle xx

[@sherrieshatzen3801]

My beliefs seem to be very similar to yours. I am vegan--not that I don't "like" dairy, but I am allergic. I love all of my 4 legged kids. I have mourned each loss. It is never easy. Sometimes it is almost intolerable. Through it all I am able to maintain a sense of gratitude for the experience of having them in my life. Some days I am grateful for the ability to feel so much pain. First I couldn't possibly experience so much pain unless there had also been so much love. I would never sacrifice the love in order to not feel the pain. Then there is the fact that I think part of what we are trying to learn today as a collective is how to co-exist with the pain & have gratitude for the existence of equal amounts of love---if we open to it.

[@lacouerfairy]

Our deceased loved ones leave us signs they're still with us. Keep looking for the signs.

[@francescaengmann9124]

I feel for you 😢 I'm in a similar situation with my boy, I've had to make the decision to have him pts at the end of summer. He struggled last winter, and has deteriorated since then so I'm not going to put him through another winter. I would rather a day too soon than a day too late, under stress and the trauma of him having another flare up. He is only 16, and my heart horse but his body is failing him and sadly it is affecting his mental state too, he's lost his spark and is tired. He is now on medication to keep him comfortable, and he can eat what he wants with the sun on his back enjoying time with his long term friend. X

[@sophieadams9339]

I got very emotional when you explained your sleep meditation! Belive in those signs because they don't come very often ❤ Really enjoyed the update x

[@veronicasmith1147]

You poor dears sad to loose an animal i have a healthy 36 year old mare thanking God for every day

[@katherinestead708]

so, so sorry. It's always such a hard decision, we know we're doing the right thing but we can't help but feel we've killed our precious friend.

[@valeriefergusson269]

So sorry for your loss Xx

[@MarinaCox-o9s]

Big hugs x

[@joeypotter6051]

Better a week too early than a day too late. You did the right thing, albeit a tough call.

[@dreamofskye7400]

Your tick tock is really good and funny.🙃

[@heatherpreece4318]

😂i enjoyed im glad you too❤

[@marialitalo9364]

❤

[@JustHorseyMie]

It is always sad when horses have to be put down. But, if they are suffering, then they will suffer no more, which I think helps me. I've only had to put down 1 horse, and she had shattered her leg in multiple places and torn lots of muscles, so there was no hope for her. It was the first time I had to be part of something like that, and it was hard, but the horse and I did not fit well, and she was on the market at the time because she was too much for me, as someone coming up from ponies, but older, more experienced riders managed her schizophrenic tendencies.

[@auds4340]

How can I get those equitex pads in the US??