taking a break from uni

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0:00 intro
1:12 wanting to do a gap year
2:51 struggles in 2nd year
3:34 how uni affected my mental health
4:59 do I even like computer science?
5:59 uni feels like a backup
6:42 what is my dream then?
7:13 how I feel about university in general
8:25 feeling like I’m wasting an opportunity
9:42 why I still might come back to uni
12:42 why I was afraid to share this
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[@theezzia]

Honestly it’s crazy that we’re expected to know what we want to do for the rest of our lives by the time we are 18. That’s just an insane expectation of us. Almost everyone I know that went to college either changed their degree or just dropped out.

[@MrWhymedude]

you must be surrounded by losers

[@almilahak224]

Same age, same year, same reasons and same thoughts. Feels like this video is one of the signals I've been getting about this issue. However, my parents are too emotional to listen to me and give me a chance to get out of this wrong path.. I wish luck and motivation for all who go through this. It sucks.

[@cupcakebecka]

not surprised by this at all! sounds like the right decision for sure, can't wait to see what you do next

[@supervert1491]

I normally don’t post comments on KZbin videos, but I just wanted to share my thoughts on this topic because it’s something I’ve also done. First off, not that it matters, but I 100% agree with what you’re doing and I wish you the best! It’s smart and brave of you to asses your current situation and realize it’s not your true dream. Many people are simply too afraid to make this leap of faith and just live life ignoring that voice telling them their not truly happy. Successful people like yourself listen to that voice and are typically rewarded. As for your plan A, I hope it works out! I too took a gap year from uni and as an American, I faced some judgment, but I was able to find a piece of myself while taking this gap year. I wouldn’t say I have figured it out all the way yet but it definitely helped. Best of luck from some random dude on the internet :)

[@ludivinemusyck9552]

I'm currently on a gap year, and I can tell you that it was already the best decision I've ever took. I learned so much, grew, learned a new language, and I am beyond happy to have finally realized that life isn't always supposed to look like what people and the world expect :)

[@ellaosterman9049]

I went to university right after high school and i felt that i was wasting my time there, i was stressed and upset all the time. I ended up taking 2 gap years and finally after 2 years i decided to come back. I COMPLETELY changed my major (and when i say completely i mean from language and literature to biochemistry) and to be honest, i feel happier than ever. I finally feel that im in the right place and if it wasn’t for these 2 years i would never go into biochemistry and any science at all. Everything happens for a reason and if you feel like you need a break to think everything through then do it! Excited for your journey!

[@tacticalcheeks]

THIS IS MEEEE!!!!!!! This past school year has been exceedingly difficult for me. So much so that I have been in a rut with both academics and life. At first, I didn't know what was wrong, but it wasn't until I read an manga called Blue Period and the main character Yaguchi explained a problem he was facing. His whole goal was to just get accepted into a specific college. That's it. He had no plan once he got into that college of what he was going to do and how he would use the college to benefit him. As a result, he is completely lost and is currently at a standstill on how to fix his situation. That is where I am. I only worked hard in high school to GET INTO college. Not to actually experience it or learn from it. As a result, I am at a complete standstill on what to do. I feel as if time is running out, but as you said, it really isn't (ignoring that we all do have a death day lol). I haven't spoken to anyone about it yet because I have been thinking the past five months on whether I truly want to, but I DO want to take a gap year and I will. Your explanation on how you are doing plan B without ever taking a stab at plan A is what I've noticed is the same thing I am doing. I do not want to regret much in life, and I don't know what will come out of a gap year for me; however, I do know it won't kill me, and that is enough reason to try. I can't wait to grow alongside you as we both get our lives together and work towards constructing our different versions of Plan A.

[@ejey6716]

"I do know it won't kill me, and that is enough reason to try."

[@omenayao5579]

well said freind hope it will work out for you. Im very proud you came to this conclusion and are brave enough to do it! good luck.

[@aaryanoir]

Damn Anna, this almost made me tear up because you've put into words, something that's been on my mind for a while now:( i'm almost halfway through the first year and it hasn't been what I expected at all (and I'm in a pretty great uni in the UK). I just need a break. You're really brave for doing this and wish you good luck for the future!

[@sachahill1967]

I experienced a similar thing when I firstly attempted University as an eighteen year old straight out of high school. I ended up dropping out due to my mental health tanking and spent the the next few years healing and working full time. Now as a twenty three year old, I’m making the attempt to return to University. Things take time and that’s okay! It’s important to enjoy your life! Wishing you the best of luck with discovering what your Plan A is! 💗

[@_NadiaT]

Im taking a gap year DURING my studies too!….it feels like we are a rare group haha. It’s a scary decision tbh, especially cause I’m taking it with only one year to go. But genuinely, it has been such an amazing time (especially for my mental health)! I did an internship and have plans to travel and do things for myself later on. I find those who take a gap year before/during uni actually become a lot more comfortable with unpredictable situations and adapting to change because we have life experience outside of school - and that is definitely one of the unexpected advantages I’ve experienced during my gap year. Best of luck to anyone in the same boat💛

[@mikeshh9938]

Me too

[@mehtab4237]

tbh before i joined uni i took a gap year and in hind sight im so fricking glad i did because me mental health was absolute trash then and i had NO IDEA what i was doing. The gap year really gave me alot of clarity, time for healing and learning new things, so when I did later decide to join uni, it was much easier to see what steps I was taking and why i was taking them. Thank you so much for sharing this with us, we're all rooting for you and also dw too much abt loosing your audience because I'm pretty sure most of us, regular viewers are here to just see you lol regardless of what you are doing atm, and new viewers who come along will also enjoy your content im sure. I hope this was reassuring and it must have taken alot of courage to finally make a decision that felt best for yourself so you should be proud of yourself! c: anyway we're all here for you and thank you for existing

[@paucatmer]

Look I’m 26 atm, I did my degree in linguistics and when I finished it I started a degree in psychology so… it’s never too late🥰🥰 do what feels good for you!!!

[@aino8958]

i fully support your decision, aaahh i'm so proud of you anna

[@sara-du2ep]

SO PROUD OF YOU for making this difficult decision! Can't wait to see what the future holds for you

[@zeeyawaani8431]

It takes so much courage to take steps like this!! And you've taken a measured step. I hope you succeed in this new chapter of your life! Rooting for you 💖

[@tabi8488]

Thank you so much for your honesty about "the cycle". It happened to me this semester too and, girl I am struggling... I hate falling into this cycle of procrastination and being stressed all the time... But watching your video helped me to cope with my own feelings a lot❤️

[@se6237]

I took 2 gap years before starting university as I didn’t know what I wanted to do and worked for a year between undergrad and masters, it was exactly what I needed and I’m in a much better position now because of it! Do what you feel you need to do :)

[@jas_313]

This vid and your last one has been so accurate to my current headspace, what I’ve been through over the past two months and just so similar to stuff I’ve been going over in my head it’s crazy. It’s feels odd to thank you for your genuine thoughts and life situ but thank you sm for sharing it🤍 Life is crazy af, and we’ve all gotta chart our own paths. All we gotta do is hope we end up where we wanna be, even if we don’t know where that is yet.

[@sapphirefrancis0121]

I'm literally so proud of you for doing whats best for you, I can't wait to see whats next you're gonna smash it

[@akritiyadav.]

i completely resonate with the point you said about being stuck in a cycle. being so overwhelmed about work that you cant even do work. it took me MONTHS to break out of that and im so glad you took the right steps for your own well being. wishing you the absolute best for the upcoming journey

[@yoonmin_lifeexoxo6577]

I love this!!! I started watching your channel to help with my productivity and motivation because I felt really lost but you now changing things up just reassured me that there are so many paths and different ways to achieve your goals and dreams in life!! I can’t wait to watch your journey!!!

[@standsformari2134]

Being Brazilian and seeing this prices for your education is just insane thinking about how I pay absolutely nothing for mine

[@levantaaaaaaaa]

These prices*

[@emdntn3399]

sounds like such a good choice for you! i’ve taken a gap year too because I want to travel and work on my own personal hobbies. I felt so alone for not going to uni straight away and felt people looked down on me, but I really think it’s been the best decision i’ve made :)!!!

[@emdntn3399]

I kind of felt like I had failed myself and my family because explaining it to them was a bit difficult like you said, some people are quite traditional.. but now I have had the time to see that it’s the best decision for me right now :,)

[@lutauwu6280]

You’re so brave to take this decision 🤩 We’re so proud of you and we’ll be here not matter what

[@ipshitagoel9444]

very proud of you for this!! love u anna

[@aphroditerr]

I know for sure that I’ll still be following you AND I’ll care because I’m going on my 3rd gap year this year unwillingly and I feel like a total failure and as if I’m wasting my life and seeing someone around my age not going to uni is extremely reassuring tbh. I truly hope you can find all that you need from this gap year 💙💙

[@lydia7052]

I just want to wish you good luck in this new path and I'm really excited to see how this decesion will impact your life .I hope that you will grow much more through this experience

[@sheamuzembe1007]

I really resonated with this. I just finished my 2nd year of Computer Science and it was definitely the hardest year thus far. Also with transitioning due to COVID. Thank you for speaking on this because sometimes you feel like you are the only one who is struggling or feels that way. Hope you figure everything out!

[@rashi3716]

More power to you girl. I'm so happy that you did what was in the best interest of your mental health. Lots of love!

[@fatnamazianewarsiewicz6991]

take your time!! - don't force yourself to do something that is going to stress you out, you can always try it again in the future and if it doesn't work out then don't force yourself to do it. you need to take this time to relax, you need and deserve it.

[@udoyxyz]

Seriously! you are a blessing. Thank you for sharing this. You are awesome

[@HaeDjoengineering]

you're so brave anna can't wait to see you living your dreams i wish u the best of luck and i'm sure u'll make it

[@anaorlando2494]

I'm about to start my second year in uni and I totally understand you. It's so stressful to think about other options, plans and the "what if?", as well as feeling dissatisfied with what you're doing at the moment. I think you're very brave and I hope this gap year goes well for you! 🥰❤

[@ZACCCHEN]

Anna you 100% got this :) let’s go 🚀 so so excited for this new Chapter 😊

[@afellowweebo7014]

I took a gap year before my uni started because i felt like I'm doing things (studying) like a robot with no goals and dreams. I really had none and so after a lot of thinking i took a gap year and gave myself a rest. It really helped. I felt the same like you so i truly understand you just trust yourself give yourself time. Now my uni will be started soon maybe this month or next and I'm really excited and feel fresh...best of luck for you!

[@abdoume1406]

gorl it doesnt matter if u change abit in ur content we dont watch ur vids only because of ur school life but mainely because of ur great personality ily so much ! and i wish u the best in ur plan we are rooting for u😘😘💜 cant wait to watch this series

[@itshadilee770]

I'm so excited for ur coming adventure and i hope you share with us every step of it love u ❤️

[@PhoebeJones]

well done for putting yourself first, Uni is such a big thing and is so stressful and so many people can relate too, there is so much pressure to be living your best life and thriving at uni and thats just not reality, thankyou for sharing this and being vulnerable, go get that Plan A

[@vntutorials160]

You are so intelligent,productive and a very inspiring girl !! 😇😇😇😇

[@sakurako3591]

Anna im so proud of you! And as a student, i feel you. Cannot wait to see what's coming next :) Love you!

[@annaolleta]

Loved it! I feel the same!! You made the best decision for yourself!! I am so happy for you!!

[@thomasmineo]

You go girl takes courage to do something like that, super motivational😁

[@evaklent8958]

i'm so excited for what the future holds for you!!

[@koushika4555]

You go Anna! Do what you love. Really proud of you, since you can finally have time now and your mind and body will have some good rest. Do what's good for you

[@maggie525]

You’re so brave to do this, to do what you want! So inspiring!! Can’t wait for your future videos XD

[@nancyycruz]

I'm so proud of you for fighting the fear of time passing you by. Its a concept I been dealing with for a long time and sometimes it feels as though you're alone and no one really understands. Your example of Plan A and Plan B really struck me because its been something that I been wanting to put into words and I just haven't been able to do so. I 100% understand you! Having a degree is something I want, but I'm not completely sure that it is the one thing in the world thats going to make me the happiest. Here's to finding out what we really want out of life. Here's to finding out what Plan A really is!! 💗

[@hmm2095]

Go for it girl excited to see new phases of your life🥰✨

[@samriddhisingh5354]

U used to post uni related videos but this thing is much bigger n better, uni videos were about getting successful in school /academics but now you're taking a bigger picture!! So in for it!! Hope u find the best in this year and more, you are really inspiring

[@yuvikasingh5482]

No matter what you do, you're relatable. I have dropped this year too. I'll go to uni next year and I'm just prepping this year. Whatever you do anna... I'll support you in it. Love love

[@kathrynbyoutube]

This sounds great for you, and I hope this year really gives you space to explore new things! I think being really intentional about how you spend your time is a rare but valuable endeavor, and it's wonderful that people can see it in action here on KZbin. I did something similar when I was near your age, although my point of departure from the academic path was deciding not to attend graduate school when that was the expected next step in the science field I was studying. What I did instead (software engineering) ended up working very well for me as a lifestyle, so I haven't gone to back to formal education. It's been about a decade now, and I'm really glad I was thoughtful about what I was doing instead of just following the socially prescribed script. Take care and best of luck!

[@divyagupta8091]

All the best for whatever you are going to do.❤️

[@hpjmrd702]

good luck!! i hope your plans go well:)

[@ayahammouch883]

I admire you! It takes a lot of courage to do that, I hope everything goes well for you :)

[@emanuelymendes7063]

It's good to find people that are in the same situation because it looks like we aren't alone. When we grow up, we realize that life is not a script to all people follow. Each one has your time to do the things, as the example of the subject in the video. Enjoy your gap year and don't mind others' judgment.

[@mekdi7237]

I am in that type of situation right now in uni. thank you for sharing this Anna and I know you will do great on your plan A. Fighting🤗

[@attiafatima]

I followed my gut and chose to leave an excellent professional opportunity that I had once dreamt to have but in the end to live a balanced life needs peace of mind and I have no regrets taking a career break sometimes in your life you need to take a break and get your priorities right

[@sgjbslover]

Thank you so much for this video. I can’t put in words how important watching this was to me. Just thank you

[@anushkarangwani8949]

Love the way u feel free now

[@shriyaarunkumar8224]

i totally support all your decisions. you can figure it all out. i know it! all the best for your future

[@zhamiliasatygulova1104]

it's crazy how I have been thinking about this for around a months and I'm too scared to take a step. and on top of that being a scholarship student, it adds up a lot more. but this video gave me a feeling like universe is trying to give me a sign. unbelievable. thank you so much

[@aya.luxury.couture]

Im so grateful i have Anna in ma life i swear .. You changed me into a whole differennt person dear i love you so hard ❤ i wish you the best and i just want you to know you making a change in this world dear ❤

[@diamondcentury21]

The colours in this video are top notch! So pretty 😍

[@harpreet8066]

I am so excited for this journey of yours!!!!🥰✨

[@physicianskitchen]

I just want to say I admire your honesty with yourself and your self awareness. I was a potato compared to you at your age 😄 I am sure you're going to do awesome whatever path you take

[@lilianadinemellouhi8532]

I'm super proud of you , best of luck

[@matylda.m5369]

Anna, thank you for this video. You have no idea how much of what you have said helped me.

[@boikanyontsimane8641]

I'm currently in my first year of uni having come in straight after high school and I'm considering taking a gap year. I literally had to pause this video to write this because it really articulated exactly how I'm feeling now. I was straight A student in high school and in South Africa where i'm from, gap years were pretty much only for people who were going overseas (our uni academic year starts in February so it's kind of a forced gap year) or people who failed grade 12 or didnt get good enough marks for the degree they want, so i didnt even consider it. Now I'm realizing both how burnt out I was at the end of high school and how not ready I was to go to university, and how I have all these passion projects that I want to pursue but trying to do them during uni is literally killing me, especially since im studying engineering. It feels like a really scary decision, but also an exciting one and I really hope I'll be able to go through with it. This video is so helpful; and relateable so far, so thank you:)

[@busisiwezulu5508]

Babes you're me and I'm you💖 Hang in there, you're not alone💫

[@zofiasitarska3615]

as someone who doesn’t know what to do with their life, this video was really helpful and nice to know that i’m not alone :) i wish you all the best, and i hope you have the best year

[@kalliopilyviaki]

Thank you for this so much, honestly in the same place ❤️

[@seyagami07]

thank you so much for posting this video it made me tear up while reading comment section and seeing other people having the same problems cause im also 19 and really dont know what i want to do with my life and uni and all of that stress that comes along with school work dont make any help either. i tried to attend classes and do my best in studying but last year i got so used to online classes therefore this year was like a hell to me. and the saddest part is people around me think im just being lazy? i'm not in a gap year but i just gave up on this semester and sitting at home, doing nothing and taking my time. the next semester starts in march so i hope this time i can bring myself to go to school otherwise i'll be done with it :')

[@BeaMajerova]

oh my god, right now I´m feeling the same way you probably felt in this video and you helped me to sort out what I want now, thank you, you are amazing!!

[@glassofchai9047]

this was a great video. best of luck. i also took a gap year after my undergrad and it has completely changed me, my dream and what i wanna do for the rest of my life and its just been 6 months.

[@Oldjaan]

I’m so happy to see someone who prioritize their mental health over something that everyone think is “more important” And I’m looking forward to watch your next videos!

[@evaalcala4238]

Mucha suerte en esta nueva etapa

[@preetkahlon9103]

Big fan ,I really obsessed wd ur videos ♥️

[@soanna9394]

Been there, done that. 💯 rooting for you, we got this 🙌🏾

[@ASMAA-om5os]

i'm so glad you did this and i wish you can figure out what you want in life soon! , after my first year of university i knew i wasn't happy with what i'm doing/studying but i kept on doing it anyways , now 4 years later i kind of regret that i didn't change my life at the very first but that's okay because i learned from that mistake , I'm still young and i still can do a lot

[@aakansh5340]

you are the one which i am depended on.... so i love you always and always support you just do what you want and i know my dream girl must do that and i know you always make a right decision ❤️

[@talitaneres7054]

something I love about Brazil is that public unis are COMPLETELY free and the best in our country!

[@mimimarinho5268]

you make me feel better about my attendance and ur sooo relatable

[@jagratikumawat7218]

best of luck with your decision you are going to do great things :))

[@iamxiaoyu]

You are so brave to make this decision! As a same age college student, I also wonder about what I want to do in the future almost all the time. I’m definitely looking forward to seeing more content on this topic!

[@ggabigoncal]

everyone's paths are different, so for me, the only way to know that you're going in the right direction is if you stay honest and true to yourself; and it looks like this is exactly what you're doing, so i'm sure that you will not be wasting any opportunity but rather taking advantage of one. wishing you a good 2022!!! looking foward to your new series :)

[@aradhikagandotra9795]

You have always been my Biggest motivation ...And I belive in you And I love you❤

[@maja.bb38]

It's so nice to have someone with the same way of thinking. I'm cheering for you!! I finished my degree and I'm not happy with it at all. My whole education was focused on job I really don't want to do and because of that I don't really have any experience in other areas. Now I'm trying to figure out what to do and it's really scary because it feels like I wasted my life, my family don't really understand me and this pandemic really made me socially anxious. I'm hoping that this year will bring us something good and help us figure things out because I'm really sick and tired of my life now. I wish you the best!!

[@gwentan8476]

What's the degree you took?

[@shyamliisingh]

I’ve been watching you since leaving cert and this was a huge surprise for me but as I watched the video I understood where you’re coming from and i wish you well and hope you don’t end up regretting this decision whatsoever :)

[@seenamsiddiqui1999]

Thank you for this video 😭😭❤️

[@RitishaSingh-rd9tc]

All the best, much love ❤

[@idgaf8389]

How exciting 😁 so happy for u and wishing u the best.

[@sanveeh]

i get you mann, im going through the same, gonna take a gap year too

[@mohamadnuur1684]

Wish you the best anna

[@issyxox8416]

revisiting this video thanks to auto play and i can’t believe that now you’re in barcelona living your best life and working towards your goals. so many of these comments were so ignorant and there’s something so rewarding to see that it worked out so well for you. i’m so so proud and inspired by you!

[@akatanna]

I feel the same way about that having a degree is like a plan B, i know its not my true goal but its just something i also want to do (for now), and i figured out i can do it while i figure out what i really want to do, or just doing it slowly, as in enjoying what im doing right now. I think nothing its more important than being okay with yourself and with what you’re doing in the present moment. Of course you can do things because you want them to be done, because you want the final product but its much easier if you enjoy it while you’re doing it. So, no pressures, I’m definitely gonna stick around and continue to watch your videos because yes, i did follow you because of your study-related videos, but i also really like your content, no matter if its study-related or not.

[@martinliendodongo]

Yo creo que todo el mindo tiene un tiempo determinado y lugar para hacer las cosas, si sientes que este es el xamino correcto, te apoyo y siento que todos los que te seguimos tambien lo haremos. Se que despues de este descanso que te das encontraras que es lo que realmente te hace soñar despierta, un saludo ;)

[@rumeysasaglam]

you are really brave ı wish you the best

[@hurariabawar2709]

Oh my god!!! It was such an amazing video

[@-takova1796]

Anna I can’t believe you’ve made this video. This year I started uni and I chose economics and mathematics cause it was my dream to persuade “difficult” career. After 3 months I’ve understood that it’s completely not for me. I believe that we have the same feelings: about uni, about running out time etc. Thank you so much for it, I definitely feel supported right now 🥺

[@SB-qt8qj]

Hi Anna, just wanted to say you took a bold decision but that's a good thing and no, you're not running out of time everyone's pathway/journey is different your health always comes first tbh, good luck! :)

[@enfantdelaPatrie13]

Такое нужное видео сейчас, спасибо ❤

[@sanghitabiswas2364]

Love 💜💜 u dear, Anna✨ Keep going 🌸