Are you transgender? Female to Male/FtM Part 1

[@taylorgarrett9551]

I don't know why I just want to look like a boy. Flat chest, no curves, and more masculine face. Also when people call me sir or use him his pronouns even by mistake, it feels right.

[@meldembinski3274]

Taylor Garrett I'm the same way. I don't necessarily see myself as a man with facial hair and muscles- but the concept of no curves etc is appealing. I have no idea if this makes me trans

[@ashlynkaleigh]

same!!!! I want to dress like a boy have hair like a boy a flat chest and everything

[@schiffer1518]

Looks like me. I don't like curves or breast, I'm not like other girls that like to show their body and to seduce the boys. And I hate people looking at my body.

[@kaydeekiczynski1641]

Taylor Garrett same

[@drawlingdingul8681]

Same

[@venetiaplays]

am I the only one who was crying through most of this video because everything she said was so true about yourself

[@jyssadigital1185]

I cried too cause at first I wasn't sure and then as she got into the depression, cutting, and anxiety, I started crying because I realized how accurate it is to me

[@J355Y-h]

me too I already know how dysphoric I am I just want to feel happy

[@jodi_15th18]

no i cried too.

[@itsphilip7132]

I did too

[@reximmortuos3870]

VincentPlays I cried too. This video helped me realize that I actually do have dysphoria.

[@notreal3163]

Me: AHHHH I HATE MY BREASTS AND VOICE I WANNA STAB MY BODY AHHHHHH Me: *next day* *feels low dysphoria* maybe i'm faKING IT OH NO THIS MUST BE THE CASE Me: *next next day* ah there it is, welcome back dyshoria. Shall I go get the icecream for when i'm bound to be crying on the floor? Me: *next next next day* *feels low dyshoria* oh no i might be faking it

[@hachi1357]

Oh god that's so me-

[@gacharinkiti6709]

why is this me-

[@blueartille]

I didn't feel high dysphoria for a while (probably due to repression, it was a Big struggle at home) so I thought I was nonbinary for a whole ass like eight months before the dysphoria came Flooding back and I was like ... :')

[@picklesarefortheweak4981]

SAAAMMMEE. Gaslighting is the worst and most painful when it comes from yourself

[@yogurtpotatoflavored1116]

I don't like being called out like this..

[@sheebiedeebie]

I just constantly stress. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing a round and feminine face. I hate my genitals. I hate having this feminine body. but, I fear that I will regret transitioning. I picture myself constantly as an adult and being a man, but sometimes I have severe anxiety. I have no clue who I am. Most days I can look at myself and say "Yeah, man, you're a dude." And others it's just confusion. confusion and stress. I just want to know who I am.

[@sheebiedeebie]

additionally, some days my genitals don't bother me. I don't like them, necessarily, but they aren't on my mind. I do often hide my breasts to the best of my ability, risking harming myself by wearing two binders. Even if I'm wearing just one, I rarely take it off. I sleep with it on, I wear it during exercise, I just can't get myself to take it off most days. I feel like above all else I know that I don't want my breasts to be seen. I want them hidden. I didn't experience dysphoria as a child, though I was considered a tomboy by some, I wore dresses and skirts (maybe that's just because I hated the feeling of jean back then) but now the thought of wearing one makes me sick.

[@Toby-if6rg]

Grayson H Honestly I feel the same way a lot of the time. I really just feel neutral and confused usually. Also, you said you wear two binders and even wear one when you sleep and exercise, and while I know how terribly hard it can be, you must please not do that. Wearing binders that often can really damage your ribcage and put you in even more pain, physical and mental, since I doubt you can wear them while healing. Just try your best and do what you can to focus on other things. Good luck, I hope you can figure things out too :)

[@supermoonbunny_7005]

Grayson H Same here. I'm somewhat young and I'm afraid that I'm to young to transition. I'm so scared of regretting it later on.

[@itscode3931]

Grayson H same omf..

[@thnksfrthwntz9735]

i'm dealing with exact the same thing :/

[@soybean6518]

My mother was okay with OTHER girls being tomboyish. It's just that, she wanted ME to act like a lady. ''Wear this dress'' she said, ''Let me put this makeup on you'' she said. Even if I hated it, I just wanted her to be happy, so I lied about wanting to be 'feminine' or wanting to wear makeup. I told her I was a lady. I surpassed my real identity for so long, convincing myself I was a princess. After watching this, I finally choose to come out to her today, and tell her i'm no longer a little 'girl' any more.

[@wendyamador7262]

soy bean how did it go?

[@quinnmystic5583]

I know how you feel your not alone...how did it go SIR :) (btw you are handsome no matter what anyone says)

[@Kelsi101a5o]

Ok why did you describe my life

[@ashtonhunter4727]

I had the same problem until I started saying ‘no’. She now says nothing about my gender and sexuality unless she needs to, but it still makes me feel terrible when she calls me her ‘daughter’.

[@beckyyule1228]

dresses, make-up =/= being a woman

[@skym6334]

I'm ftm and I don't mind being a girl and stuff, but it doesn't feel right. I think that having breasts and curves or whatever is sexy, but I don't need them. I want a V shape torso to impress the ladies or something lol. I'm being honest. I've been like this since I was 4 years old and it took me about 11 years to accept that I was trans.Now I'm 15 and I have a girlfriend and she knows everything about me and sees me as a dude. I honestly don't just want to transition to make people perceive me as a dude or whatever, I want to feel comfortable with myself. I used to be an anime fan, but now it got boring for me. Everything got boring so I have lack of interest in idk whatever stuff. I hope I can take testosterone someday :I I got a lot of stuff I want to do, but my body discomfort stands in the way

[@ariellelefebvre]

Sylan Lano I support you a 100% ! Being yourself is the most wonderful thing ! I wish you good luck in your future transition ! :)

[@qill15]

I feel exactly the same

[@thatoneepicenealex7432]

thank you so much for this comment tbh. i have similar feelings and emotions and as i'm currently really confused and questioning my gender this comment is really validating and it helps a LOT. thank you and i wish you the best of luck 💕

[@Shinpew]

I hate how much all of this applies to me...

[@Sam-tf9ip]

Same, I really don't WANT it to apply to me. But I found this after intense dysphoria yesterday and suicidal thoughts.

[@cxelvmm]

Yeah it can be hard but you will learn to accept yourself

[@justapersonbeingstupid3645]

Shinpew same

[@Ekho_on_paws]

Same :(

[@melg.9028]

I don't even know how I ended up in this video. I'm not struggling to find myself, I already knew I'm a trans man. But I really think that this video can be really helpful for other people. So, good job doing this!

[@TheTransitionChannel]

Please share this video (and my channel) with others. Also, I will be uploading more videos on how to come out, on different struggles which are common such as fear, social anxiety, etc. People when are they are getting started are unaware of what resources are out there. Thank you for the positive feedback by the way.

[@charlielittlechild]

Jeremy Roy G. I'm a trans man too :-)

[@Holden2003hr]

Jeremy Roy G. Same here. It's nice to see it being discussed and presented in this way. I'm happy i found this channel.

[@monicaflores3481]

Im a Happy transwoman

[@someguy9344]

Same

[@gayairconditioner8977]

Can I still be transgender if I don't want muscles and facial hair?

[@ryanbuckley6246]

Hattori Satoshi yea, there are cis men who don't want muscles or facial hair, so I don't see a difference between them and a transguy ehi doesn't want those things.

[@ryanbuckley6246]

*who

[@yashedaskipper8356]

Hattori Satoshi Absolutely!!

[@kingdollop-head743]

Hattori Satoshi Yes

[@isaacs8783]

Not all trans boys on T become extremely masculine. Some only loose feminine features and body fat distribution

[@williamhistoria]

This video made me cry, my mother drills it into my head that I'm not trans, but even imagining having a male body makes me feel better. Thank you so much. I'd donate if I could, but unfortunately I cannot. I wish you the best

[@suhld8662]

When she explained how signs of dysphoria is e.g. when someone may hunch their shoulders forward and then pour their shirt away from their body. I was like omg I have done this exact movement for a very long time. Just stumbled across this video, but it helped me so much to better understand what might be happening to me. I am recently questioning my gender identity. I have always been more boyish, and when I was little, I thought I would grow up to become a man. This changed with my puberty, when I realised I was born in a female body and expected to dress and act a certain way. Therefore I have always been very quit, and always trying to fit in with the girls. Now that I'm in 2.g (second grade gymnasium in Denmark) I have come to understand my gender identity much more! And this video has helped me extremely! hope it helps every other person who's dealing with dysphoria too! - and I'm from denmark - so sorry for any spelling mistakes ,':)

[@Ezra-gx2oq]

i do this often too. i've always slouched even before puberty but i always felt... off. yeah, i had self worth issues for sure. but i never felt like... a girl? my mum had to force me to look like one, by wearing makeup. and i just felt like no matter what i'd always look like i was in drag or something. since i was a kid, i always leaned more towards the boys side of things. the toys, the clothes, costumes, idols, sometimes game characters. whenever my boy cousins got a boy toy or even video games i got jealous and wanted it. whenever i dated i always dated girls or was attracted to girls. though my relationships felt different, almost incomplete. now it's starting to make more sense: it's because i don't have the correct parts to be in a relationship and i don't want a girl to see my body because of it. and i always felt i was too rough or manly feeling to be female if that makes sense. and now, it doesn't bother me to be called rough or too boyish. it's a weird feeling not a bad one though.

[@artheanti-dinosaur5241]

I think I'm transgender but I don't really know. Maybe I've just been pretending to be a girl for so long. I feel like I'm lying to myself as a girl, but I really wish I could look like a guy. I'm scared that I'll turn out to be a girl all along. Whenever I think about it I feel really guilty and nervous. I'm 110% certain that my mom would accept me, but still... I hate when people use she/get pronouns, but I'm okay with my birth name because it's androgynous. I feel like I'm lying, because these people are saying that being trans is a thing totally created with humans and it's not natural. I don't know. I need help.

[@millieg7818]

Same to most of this

[@radiantsun]

Same. I've been cringing whenever people call me Ms. Or other feminine pronouns but it's not like i experience intense dysphoria.. I just want to be taller and appear more masculine, not bc I want to be seen as a man, but because I DONT want to be seen as a woman.. I'm so confused :(

[@elliotmydude]

@@radiantsun hey this is an old ass comment thread but i think you should all do some research on nonbinary identities :)

[@ra1l389]

@@elliotmydude Agreed.

[@kerserzthescientist8899]

After years of suppressing how I felt about my body and gender identity, I came out to my music teacher four days ago. I couldn't physically talk about it without having some sort of breakdown, nor could I actually get my vocal cords to work, so I wrote her a letter. I gave it to her, walked off, and told her to find me when she had read it. Eventually, she returned and told me that what I had written was so moving that it had made her want to cry. She was so understanding and supportive - literally she is the most wonderful and caring person I have ever met. I just wanted to hug her. Even before this, she had kept encouraging me to be myself as I felt smothered by my family. I could never have opened up about the chasm of insecurity within me without her. P.s. I needed to get it off my chest because I hate my breasts. XD

[@quinnmasters8775]

I used to wear a jacket everyday in middle school to hide myself. I'd feel insecure without it. Was this dysphoria?

[@frankiero4203]

If the parts you wanted to cover up were strictly female, ie: breasts, hips, female body fat areas, then possibly

[@Mary-qz5cq]

OMG.ME.I DO DAT.I thinking have dysphoria

[@Mary-qz5cq]

*think*

[@lazieisnotdead]

Quinn Masters I do that as well sTiLl, I do it to hide my chest and waist,, mainly because I’m not out to my family and I can’t get a binder

[@therespectedlex9794]

Maybe, but perhaps some other reason, like that you have been abused? Or, you don't have to 'flaunt it' anyway if you don't want to.

[@brokenjarr]

Everything she explained is EXACTLY how it is for me.. Ugh..

[@jackyvergara9240]

SAME

[@bakinqcookiez6874]

Same here :/

[@brokenjarr]

Hope you all good in your transition..

[@kimichelejim]

Eunice Cheung I am not transgendered; my daughter, or might I say son, is. I love and accept Alex as is. Woman or Man! Please do yourself a favor and tell someone you are comfortable with and whom you trust to not be judgemental. If you don't have such a person in your life, please see a therapist... :)

[@arigarcia2947]

Me too. I started crying. And I hardly ever cry...

[@jackyfanatic]

I know I have dysphoria and i've been at this realization for so long. But there are times when its really bad and then times when I start to accept my body. The problem is that I don't know if I start accepting it because i'm trying to repress it or deny it. It has been especially tough on me now because a good amount of friends have come out as transgender recently and are going through transitions and it pains me seeing them being able to live their life how they want it. So I don't know if its dysphoria or just something that i've developed to think so that I can fit in. All more negative thoughts are based on what my parents would think if I was transgender so I can't give myself a clear answer :(

[@TheTransitionChannel]

Cisgender people (these are people who are not transgender) do not have these pains around other transgender people. They do not get triggered by other people transitioning. However, often times someone who is transgender does get triggered by someone else's transition because they are envious. I think you are still struggling with some degree of denial and repression, possibly, because of what you fear other people will say about your being trans. You said your parents may have a negative response... but what if they didn't. What if they accepted it? How do you feel about transitioning then? The answer to these questions should give you more insight into yourself.

[@TheVeryAngryShrimp]

+The Transition Channel I know this comment is nearly two years old, but when you said that trans people get envious of other people's transitions, that raised a major flag in my head. I've stopped questioning myself because it takes a lot out of me mentally and I figure I'll just cope with the feelings since they're not bad enough to drive myself to self-harm. But whenever I see other transgender people and how good they look during or post-transition, I get jealous. I want that. I want that for me. And I can't get that. :/

[@thatoneepicenealex7432]

this comment really helps tbh cause i have similar feelings. thank you so so so much. i wish you the best of luck in life 💕

[@lazieisnotdead]

Guacabrole same

[@chewchew233]

I cried at the end a bit, I think I'm actually trans...

[@kaydeekiczynski1641]

Masato Rin same and I’m scared to think that, that that is mind but it scares the hell out of me

[@trinity2396]

@@kaydeekiczynski1641 agreed

[@everlovelycosmetics7381]

same

[@selvaforuh]

Me to

[@notyourfiend9946]

I feel more comfortable sitting slouched down in my chair cross my legs like a boy and even slouch as much as a boy And people say you should stand up straight to show you chest and it's uncomfortable sitting up straight Yes I'm a girl and I've thought of me being a boy and it seems better for me

[@shortysutter]

This messed me up. I just always assumed I wasn't trans but like this stuff opens you up.

[@evilboy8568]

me: **makes myself look like a guy using faceapp** dad: you aren’t one of those transgender people are you?? because then I would have to disown you hahaha me: hahahahaha very funny

[@shiroh3581]

Oof same

[@trinity2396]

Tbh when I really think about my gender (usually around when I start questioning again which happens often) I always think about how if I were a guy and how much more relaxed and comfortable I'd be in my own skin

[@ThePesident]

Thank you so much for making this video. I've known I was trans, but I always doubted it. This provided a lot of clarity, and I really appreciate it.

[@ryanseditz7110]

This so is great, and you were totally right. There's not much provided information on Transgender, and not transgender. There's not much provided information on Genderqueers, Non-Binary's and Genderfluid's, too. This is so amazing and so helpful, this is actually helping me. Thank you so much. Thank you for posting these and helping everyone out here who is struggling with their gender identity

[@Spookdog]

I feel as if my body is very wrong, I've had dysphoria since a very young age, but I don't even understand what I'm dysphoric about.

[@lmaomariaishere9450]

I'm crying. This is so true. Im so scared to come out

[@xXFallenOneXx]

So, I didn't know that I was trans when I was younger. I never fully identified myself as female. I never liked pink and I didn't do the typical girly things but I never was a tom boy. As I got older I had my first period. This scared me, I knew what it was but somehow it still scared me. I was afraid people would judge me for it and think was weird. When in reality now that I'm older I realize that's what I thought/think of myself. Then my breasts started to come in. My friends would comment on how they could see my breasts when I was running and how I needed a bra. Whenever anyone mentioned this to me i felt extremely uncomfortable in my own skin.. I immediately went to my mom asking for a bra and I wouldn't stop bothering her until she got one for me. Later on I began feeling even more discomfort towards my chest, at this point I didn't want to "become" a tomboy because I was already getting bullied. Looking back on these memoires I realize I did a lot because of peer pressure. I wore dresses and acted like one of the girls because I didn't want to be bullied. I wasn't myself.. A year later I get into a new school. Going from my experiences from my old ones I knew I needed to wear dresses and be "girly" to not get picked on. During this time I resorted to cutting and I became really depressed. After about half of the year i didn't care anymore. I stopped wearing dresses almost completely and started to wear jeans, shirts, and a jacket constantly. I started to be a little happier but still I was depressed and would cut occasionally. Then the year after that I got into a art school. This is where I was able to meet many different people. I met my FTM friend Cody I realized I related to him a ton. I started to identify as trans. I came out to my parents and they seemed to be really accepting of me. They don't truly understand it but they are trying. My disphoria has gotten a bit worse as I've been getting older and I'm getting a binder tomorrow. I'm wearing as much male clothing as I can find and I put away my dresses because i don't wear them anymore. I'm finally being myself and I've gotten so much happier. I stopped cutting and I hate myself a little less. This video helped me when I first started to question myself. So yeah, thanks I guess

[@marox9478]

I hope you're okay now!!!!

[@ashbarclay2746]

I've never had bad dysphoria, but when it comes to my chest, well, that's a different story. Literally everything she said about trans guys trying to hide their chest is what I do on a daily basis. When people accidentally call me a he or a him, which happens often enough, it just...I dunno. It feels normal. And when things happen like, once I was out with my mates (who are all guys) and one of my mates friends arrive and you know, we're doing what teenagers do and messing about and stuff, when he calls me a he. As soon as he said that, my friend corrected him and told him I was a she. I did my awkward smile that I sometimes do when people correct whoever called me a he or whatever. I hate being called a she. This video is good. It explains a lot. Thanks.

[@euphratesleap6008]

Oh my goodness the 'pulling your shirt away from your chest' thing speaks to me on a spiritual level. I'm definetly one of the peeps hiding their chest with clothing/sports bras/picking at shirt....I feel called out honestly. I've been toiling over this question for many months now, thinking and answering questions with my own telling replies and history and I think I might come to accept that I might be trans. Thanks so much for your videos, really. Your voice just wraps it up in the most calming way and I love it

[@looovliv_2430]

Well ......... my everything was just explained by a 5 minute video 🙆‍♀️ I THINK IM TRANS 😐🍵

[@crxxzy_bat]

This video makes me realize how and y I feel much better as a man and I now know I'm trans guy even though I'm 11yrs

[@lyndonleedalee1738]

Thank you. This video is a bit old, but I've been struggling with this for years. As soon as puberty hit, everything felt wrong. I'm in the middle of social transition and I hope to medically transition ASAP. I was a bit unsure, but now I'm positive. Transition is the right way for me.

[@thecomedyclownfish1731]

Agh and now I have to tell my parents😖😫 I've know for maybe twoish years that I'm a boy. I'm only fourteen should I come out? And if so them what advice does anyone have? I want to come out before high school so back to school shopping is all boys shopping and so when I meet new people at this school all they see is a boy not a trans boy

[@coryklein2703]

Same same same same

[@Brynstein7]

After watching all 3 videos I realized that I had met all the criteria stated for being transgender and after getting my courage up I spoke with my best friend of 20 years and told her that I was in fact transgender and since the age of 5 had been secretly dressing as a woman and had very strong feminine emotional feelings.She immediately made me feel comfortable and told me she would help me with my transition . After 54 years of hiding, an emotional burden was lifted and now I can become the woman I always knew I was . Thank you so much for helping me realize I am not alone in this world , You are truly remarkable in your understanding of my and others like me needs to be who we truly are.

[@youdontknowme6815]

When she explained what dysphoria is; that had me feel dysphoric 😅

[@jennieh.5605]

This is probably one of the most helpful videos on this topic

[@gvtlezz]

Ah nostalgic, I remember watching this video a few years ago when I was all lost and confused about myself. :’) Idk why but this suddenly popped up in my recommendation again.

[@NNJAx]

this is the realist channel.

[@mellicollable]

3:50 is totally me! Good video, thanks :)

[@satanhatesher9882]

You said "imagine you could never change it" and then I suddenly started crying

[@TheJuansterMonster]

this is probs the most non problematic and pretty accurate clinical look at being FTM from the perspective of a presumably cis clinician. not bad

[@meowJACK]

Almost 2 years now since I saw this video and it changed my life forever. I've come so, so far since then and I can't even recognize the person I was when I first saw this. Eternally grateful for this video, it really and truly saved my life. I'm alive for the first time ever

[@beepbeep4126]

This is the second time I've watched these videos in almost an entire year and I'm only just now accepting that I do have dysphoria, so I'm just going to thank you for making this video

[@r.s7343]

i never thought that i am trans before i thought that it's normal to feel not right and idk i'm in shock🙈

[@quinnmystic5583]

This video just makes me cry.everything she says applies to how I feel. I am a transgender male and my relatives have never really accepted me.i just feel lost.i have been wearing a binder lately ,that makes me feel very good.and my little brother is actually referring to me as a big brother now....I guess everything is going to work out...

[@reecebuckland1167]

This video really helps and cleared something up for me even though I already knew I was transgender. Especially about the part where you were talking about how not everyone identifies with intense dysphoria and that simply knowing you'd feel better not being perceived as female still meant you had dysphoria it just isn't as evident. I had been struggling with that and thinking maybe that makes me less trans or something and then I'd think know I still struggled with it. This just really cleared it up.

[@poorlydisguisedalien4678]

This was so...eye opening. I knew you didn't have to flat out hate your body to have dysphoria, but I didn't know all the other little things (that I happen to do/feel) add up to dysphoria.

[@Halario02]

3:22 Oh - that's really good to know. I've been questioning my gender and when I think about being male or being more masculine, it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.

[@1PhotoGeek]

Thank you! Good video and I wish you all the success in your practice.

[@meowJACK]

I will always appreciate this video. I spent the first 4 years of my adulthood in deep, deep denial of the fact that I was trans; I had accepted myself as a teenager, but due to overwhelming fear/anxiety I began to repress my identity around 18 years old. Despite the fact that I had crippling dysphoria and many other telltale signs of being trans, I actually managed to successfully convince myself for awhile that I was not trans and it had just been "a phase". That's how deeply I was repressing it. Of course, you can't repress something like this forever, so it was bound to come out eventually... I had this habit where I would go on Google or KZbin and type in things like "how to know if you're trans" and I would always try and pick out tiny things from those articles/videos/etc. and be like "see, this one point they made doesn't apply to me at all so clearly I'm not trans" - this was just a coping mechanism to help myself continue to repress my emotions, and as she addressed in the video, TYPICALLY cis people do not find themselves looking for resources to figure out if they are trans. Especially not over and over and over, over the course of several years. Yet somehow it was totally logical in my mind that I would be constantly looking up things like that. In hindsight there were soooo many glaring signs and I have no idea how I managed to deny it for so long haha. Anyways... one night I was looking up the usual "how to know if you're trans" and I stumbled upon this video. And god damn, it changed my life. I think it was a combination of this video saying exactly what I needed to hear, and it being the right time in my life to finally accept myself. Whatever it was, this video spoke to me on a deep spiritual level. I barely made it 20 seconds into the video before I started sobbing. I watched both parts of this video and by the end of it I just put my phone under my pillow, buried my face in my blanket and sobbed for a really long time. Absolutely every little thing she described in the video applied to me, the big things and the little things. I began to reflect on my life, my childhood. I couldn't deny it anymore. I was terrified. I was in a long term relationship with a very straight man who I loved with all my heart. We lived together. I didn't have a job, hadn't had one in nearly 2 years. The point is, transitioning was very scary for me and it required completely changing my entire life. But I knew this was what would make me happy. I spent the entire weekend basically writing in my journal nonstop and crying. I came out to him after the weekend and we both cried a lot, he tried to convince me I wasn't trans/I didn't need to transition... there was a lot of heartache. We did have to break up because unfortunately he could not be attracted to me as a man, and although it hurt I understoof that. Coming out to my family was the most terrifying thing I've ever had to do, as they are religious. But shockingly they accepted me. It has been several months since I first saw this video and I can't believe how far I've come since then. I can't believe how much has changed in my life. I cut my hair, got a whole new wardrobe, legally changed my name, and I'm starting T next week. I finally feel like myself. I can finally look at my reflection in the mirror and not hate it quite as much (I seriously could not look at myself AT ALL when I had long feminine hair). I am so so grateful this video exists. I don't know where I'd be right now if it weren't for this video. Thank you so much.

[@galaxybatter8317]

Thank you so much for uploading this video, I've been really struggling with this for a long time and this video really validated the feelings I've had for a long time.

[@vyro.2315]

now i know why i have crippling depression, anxiety, and BDD since the past 4 years. im non binary and possibly ftm trans. thank you so much for this.

[@kishochan92]

The Dysphoria-part with the questions had me crying. I've never heard such things spot on and they really hit hard to hear. I tried to see a therapist before, but due to fear of getting found out by my parents I ceased all contacts in that department. Part of me wants to take up that contact again when I move out, to see how all this feels. I do feel more comfortable being called a man though, or whenever I bind. (Something which I haven't been able to do for a while due to weight-gain and troubles with my back) A ftm-boy I were togheter with helped me get more comfortable with these thoughts before, since he accepted me for being as masculine as I am, it made me really happy..

[@alextheduck8449]

Any future updates? :)

[@mejans.k9575]

this video is what made me realise I was trans I like to watch it sometimes especialy when I'm dysphoric. I just broke down earlier because whatever part of myself I looked at I felt like I wanted to throw up and simply being able to feel that I have a body shaped like this reduced me to a shaking crying mess on the floor. I just want to say for anyone else feeling as bad as I am, crying doesn'take you any less manly please don't hold it in even if you need to find a quiet place and hide away for a while please don't be afraid to cry

[@_asantesana_squashbanana_]

I just wanna give her a hug! I love the way she explained everything. This is a valuable source of information :)

[@Moochietobu]

Thank you so much for this video. It really has help me through my journey as I try to discover who I am.

[@adamwise1111]

It's strange, because for most of my life I never really felt uncomfortable as a girl. I didn't really feel anything because I never thought about it. But one day for some reason I did think about it and I was like "hang on, I could be happier." It took me a lot of questioning and cross-dressing to figure out exactly how, but I think I know now. The point is that I wasn't unhappy, but I wasn't super happy either. Being a guy will probably make me happier, and that's what matters.

[@laurenvandenbosch4051]

I feel exactly the same as you. But for some reason I feel like I need strong dysphoria to transition - how can I give myself permission to transition for euphoria?

[@majoplazas3172]

Recently I've come to terms with being trans. Watching this video reafirms what I had previously come to the conclusion of. thank you so much

[@jay-sd3dk]

her voice is so calming and she explained it so well

[@nteabioaticks__]

This made me cry, the thought of finally loving the body I'm in just makes me happy.

[@nomad7196]

I like your voice and the tone of it. It's very calming.

[@trinity2396]

Wow I was so confused but honestly this helped me ton?? I was always off about dysphoria and if I had it but now that you explained it I related a ton and near the end when you mentioned imagining yourself as your desired gender and what not i started tearing up and became super self aware about my body? wow I never thought anything would help me this much thank you

[@lilasziv8945]

Man. When I was little, I never really cared all that much about being a girl because there was no discrimination. There were a few times though when my guy friends would correct their gendered speach to incorporate me. Like dudes to dudes and dudette. That always bothered me. I was actually able to play Huckleberry Finn in fifth grade and it was AMAZING!!! I got my hair cut and I started acting more masculine and a girl even called me cute! I LOVED that experience so much ^^ It just felt so right to me. I passed as a boy and I was ecstatic! I recently came out to my parents as gay...I've tried to talk to my mom about my dysporia, but every time she shuts me down. She says I can't be a boy. It really hurt me. So I came out as gay instead. I told my sister about how I feel and she understands and supports me. I just don't know what to do now. My parents are STILL getting over the "shock" that I like girls. I can't imagine what they'd do If I came out as trans.

[@savannahtineo8526]

wow, I can relate to this 100% I've always thought I might be transgender, but this video definitely clarified it for me

[@Sunnyomori649]

about a year ago i had a dream about asking my mom for a sex change and woke up right before i got it. I spent the week thinking "No im a girl i cant do that no way". Now i think im trans but i cant tell. could this be a sign of dysphoria?

[@blueartille]

"imagine if you could never change [your body]" *immediately starts crying*

[@emolookingguy8277]

I watched this to help me try and actually see if I was trans, because I didn't want to transition, or be a 'trans-trender'. I realized I would actually REALLY be happier with a male body, thanks.

[@pasteldanandphil5194]

when i was a young teenager i had dysphoria without any understanding what it was, still looking back i always hunched forward wore loose shirts and never never left the house without a big sweater of jacket to cover up my chest. its kind of weird how i came up with methods to counteract my dysphoria before i even knew about it consciously. honestly it was such a relief when i found out i was transgender so that i could make sense of my pain. and it is much easier to fix my pain when i know the cause of it, before i knew what was wrong specifically i had no hope of the inner suffering going away and tried to kill myself hundreds of times throughout my middle school years. i think its great that this video can help explain things to other transgender kids so they don't have to suffer as long as i had, its easier to have hope for improvement when you understand your situation. my life is better now that i have started transitioning and i hope for all the best to my fellow trans men.

[@skivtz]

I don’t know what I am. A boy? A girl? I’m so confused. 🤷‍♂️ 🤷‍♀️

[@yian95954]

Genderquestioning ?

[@beastinout7291]

You could be non binary, were you dont really have an affinity with either gender. Being non binary is usually harder since its dony identify with 1 gender so you have to find a middle ground, some transition or get surgeries.

[@rileybarton2088]

This was extremely helpful

[@freyugh]

I get dysphoria but I'm uncomfortable with being seen as male??

[@cocomcalister8408]

Maybe you're non binary

[@freyugh]

Coco Hofer Eh. I would never identify as non-binary just because of the immense hate that non-binary people get tbh.

[@jjayjae_]

Same here. I'd just never publicly admit that since I like being taken seriously and non-binary people are hated on for being "special snowflakes".

[@isaacs8783]

Thundered51 choose another word that means the same thing? There's a few out there that are used. Why do you need a label for your gender? Can't we all just be people

[@okchun]

me too kinda, I'm not uncomfortable being seen as male but he/him pronouns are so hard to get used to

[@perfidiousprophet]

This did provide a lot of clarity, I was worried I was making it up. Thanks

[@thenakedzombie5987]

I'm going to see a gender therapist in the future, my gram has to call for an appointment, but before I though I wasn't dysphoric because I'd hear trans men say how much they were depressed before they transitioned or how they wanted to commit suicide and I'm not like that, which is what makes me not believe I'm trans. But hearing you say, "If you say you'd be more HAPPIER or FEEL BETTER as the opposite gender shows signs of dysphoria." makes me realize I'm dysphoric. I do feel I'd be happier as a boy than a girl, I'll vision a boy naked, not for sexual reasons, but jealousy reasons, I'll look at boys at my school and wish I were them, or I'd wish I could look like them. I say the same about girls, but I'm overweight so when I say that I'm thinking about their weight, not body image.

[@alx3296]

Oh my god thanks This really helped! And yes with the part feeling better by being male and not being perceived as a woman I totally relate I didn't realise I actually had Dysphoria But it makes sense now 🤔

[@braydenodonnell5134]

Your voice is so calming to be honest (I know it’s off topic)

[@steampunkhelmet8827]

She's so calming and non judgmental throughout the whole thing, woah

[@p1xelware]

3:13 I'm about to cry... that is me, and I don't like the idea of being transgender :( it makes me feel like I'm going to feel lost and tired for the rest of my life. But I'm also VERY scared of big and important decisions and I don't know what to do :( I always repressed my feelings, and I don't know what the heck happens with me :/. But when I repress something it usually ends up being true. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING WITH ME, I just wanna run away from everyone, dissapear and sleep in a quiet place with my ideal body :/

[@subscriberswithnovideos-ql3cc]

Honestly thank you for making this video. I think I'm transgender then I'm not then I am and I just get so confused this helped a bit

[@madmuziq]

I knew I was trans before watching the vid but... a part of me was hoping I wasn't... hoping I wouldn't have to go through this struggle... 😞

[@lazieisnotdead]

For me, I keep questioning if I’m ftm or a demiboy but I don’t feel female. I keep telling myself that I can’t be trans because I like stereotypical ‘feminine’ things. Pretty clothes still catch my eyes, i still love flowers and I grew up playing with the toys my parents bought me. I was raised and my parents wanted me to be their ‘princess’ and so as a child, since I didn’t really understand the concept of having my own opinions, I just agreed with them. I would let them dress me up in pretty Cinderella dresses and such. Although I never really enjoyed it, I didn’t really dislike it either. I just always though ‘this is how girls act’ and since I hadn’t been opened to the LGBTQ community I went with it. When I found the LGBT community in sixth or fifth grade I found out that I was bisexual, with a preferability of girls. I had always thought girls were super pretty, and attractive but I thought everyone felt that way, and I also thought boys were attractive so I just saw myself as straight. In seventh grade is when I began to question my gender. I felt male, and I wanted to present myself as male so I cut my hair and began wearing things like jeans and hoodies. I hadn’t ever understood why I felt so disgusted and like throwing up when I saw my breasts and genitals which are those of a female until I found the word called dysphoria. Although I present myself as a male, I use a masculine name and he/him pronouns I feel like I’m just letting everyone down, and because I like feminine things I feel like I’m lying to myself. I’m just confused and I don’t know what to do about this.

[@MiaWalker174]

i like when i get called a guy it makes me smile and ive always wandered "what is i was a guy?" but i never thought that id feel like this

[@aethelleonxx4508]

This is all true about me. I'm 11, female and would rather be male. I found this video helpful as I'm telling my parents that I'm trans. Thank you for making this video, and yes I died like and subscribe 🙂

[@junggiebeom5261]

Well i told my parents about me being ftm and they did not support me and started to yell at me and were mad and now they force me to be female and wear dresses and all that girly stuff Someone help me

[@somedwarvenwriter7535]

I usually assume I prompt any reaction I have, be that joy or sorrow, about changing my body. When she said ‘imagine you can’t change your body ever’ my heart dropped and I teared up. I didn’t mentally force that. It was so natural. I know what my prompted emotions feel like and that wasn’t it. Frick frack I do have dysphoria. Well damn it. There goes all of my money. Damn it brain. You ass!!! Why can’t you get along with my body!!!!

[@yian95954]

Some people are trans but hate themselves being trans (want to stay "cis") are you one of them?

[@fr33f4l4st1ne]

you are literally incredible. thank you so much.

[@Ezra-gx2oq]

i want to mention with gender dysphoria. i didn't use the typical coping mechanisms: alcohol, drugs, ect. i actually overate. i think i'd overeat to numb the pain/discomfort of gender dysphoria/anxiety/depression. some ppl might feel similar. i turned to a lot of junk food. another thing id' do is lay down a lot cuz u can lay on your chest and not feel it. this brought me relief but it also wasn't good cuz i just lie in bed all day lol. also, some suicidal thoughts here and there, and self destructive thinking. ex: "i'll never feel right," / "i'll never feel like myself," / "i'm disgusting cuz my face looks wrong. it's ugly cuz it doesn't feel manly enough or not mine/how it's supposed to be boyish.

[@emma_aa04]

I started binding a year ago, I am 14 now. I also cut my hair really short that year. My mom once noticed that I was wearing a sports bra under my shirt, and the way I pushed my shoulders forward while sitting and she told me "Dont worry, when you grow up, you'll be happy to have boobs" But I just dont feel comfortable looking in the mirror, and seeing my round face and my feminine body...

[@irrelevantbuticonic8971]

Wow when you said that people will use sports bras, arch their shoulders forward, and pull their shirt tight, I was like woah. I do that a lot and I didn't even learn it from anyone

[@edno2829]

never been so uncomfortable and so relieved at the same time.

[@teonow5952]

Thank you so much for this it helped so much!

[@adventuringinavan2253]

Thank you this video was very helpful and I iv always felt like I was a woman I really don't like my body as a Male and I'm going to start seeing a therapist and start transitioning from male to female

[@SG-zp4fz]

No change scenario: incompleteness Transition scenario: peace and longing

[@samanthafranco9694]

welp I was unsure and had been waiting to see if I'd out grow this feeling since I know my family wouldnt really approve but today I said mabye I should go over all the information again to be 100% that I could explain it properly if I did want to go through with it. and I happen to find this video and though why not? for this to touch me so emotionally is just surprising but I would like to thank you for helping me realise I'm not going to change

[@beautifulimperfection6271]

Thank you for making this video. It helped out a lot.

[@aujuleawash4385]

when she said to think about how it would be of you didn't get transition and when I did.... I STARTED TO CRY!

[@kninenights]

I'm so lost. I know I'm not female but I don't know who I am. I've forced myself into the female role over the years, but in games where I can customize my avatar I pick female but make them as masculine as possible. Wide waist, narrow hips, flat chest, thicker arms and legs, but I choose a softer face. I'm depressed but I don't know how much of that is connected to my feeling of not fitting in as a girl. Part of it, i know, is a manifestation of my grief and bullying. But I do feel dysphoria often. I hate having a chest and will try as much as I can to avoid wearing v-necks, or tight shirts, or dresses and skirts. I don't know what to do anymore.

[@expression742]

I have a feeling im trans but im not 100% sure, ive always wanted to he a guy but ive always still had that feminine side of me so i started questioning myself and experimenting with masculine things such as names/pronouns/changing my style whether that be in games around my friends to see if i felt comfortable , but had to hid it from my parents as their transphobic n homophobic, im a person who loves bl stories but recently everytime i see a cute gay couple i get jealous and i rlly envy them. But the thought of being trans and actually transitioning scares me, ive never had those childhoods other trans ftms had at a young age. I’ve thought about being genderfluid but id never feel like a girl, id feel like a guy but just feminine, im just so confused 😭 has anyone got advice or experienced this?

[@FreshestBleach]

I've been on T for around 6 months now and I am so happy with how I am turning out. I love strangers seeing me and thinking I'm male. My voice dysphoria is gone and my body dysphoria is lessening. I was always sure I wanted to go on Testosterone and transition since the day I accepted myself and found out I could. I'm starting to be more confident and happy than I ever was. I wasn't even nervous about getting on Testosterone. Then again, I just really hated my body. I know it's different for everyone and lots of people are scared but I know so many transmen who were scared to start T and did it and they are really happy with how their body is coming along. Just my two cents.

[@officiallytriggered5821]

Mate bless you for this video, I needed to hear this. Now I'm sure what I am thank you so much.😃👌

[@flyinghigh3683]

This hit me very hard, I began to cry very hard. I have many suicidal thoughts, I cut, Because I feel it helps. When someone calls me a female, and use she/her pronouns I feel like crying, I feel depressed. I am very dysphoric about my body, when I look at myself in the mirror I feel uncomfortable...like it isn't right..I cry afterwards. I wear a binder, and I tend to wear my shirt the way you described. I denied for three years about my feelings, but I cannot shake them...I can't...and my mother told me it was a phase. She believes I am just genderqueer, that's what I told her to get off my back. And whenever someone calls me by my birth name...I just feel a wash of anxiety and sadness wash over me. I picture myself in a male body, I picture the day I could get top surgery...but it feels so far away. Like I could never reach it...Like I will never reach it. ....I have no clue what to do anymore 😢😭😭😭

[@yian95954]

(At least you're mom accept genderqueer...)

[@brooklyncampbell7389]

God, this vid is basically me. What's troubling though is that I'm also on the hefty side (faaaaat.) Most Clothes just feel... uncomfortable? Like with tight things, it's like "No, don't like this, it shows off my chest and hips." But if I wear something like a baggy men's shirt, my chest makes it seem as if I'm fatter than I already am. I just wish I could cut off my boobs. I don't know if that is necessarily just the issue or not. I've been questioning for a little over a year, wether if I'm Nonbinary or Trans, and this video admittedly helped a lot. Gotta run and watch the second one, see ya'll. Edit: ...I think I might be Trans. I need a bit to process this lol.