Ash to ash, dust to dust, goodbye 💐

It was a difficult day for Mr AM. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. He was reluctant to go to Monkey Hill on a fact-finding mission - a place that normally gives him solace, just not this time in particular.....

[@PamPreston78]

I appreciate, as I think we all do, the efforts you, MC and the feeders made trying to get some nutrients into her. Her sweet little face touched a lot of people, all over the world, hoping she could survive the way Tiny and Teeny did. RIP little Teensy. Arroz, I’d like to add that none of my feelings for that sweet little monkey, overshadow the sadness I feel for you and the sorrow you’ve had to live with for many months. A difficult journey to be sure. A lot of us care and wish you better times. ❤️🤗💐

[@barbararenaud4809]

My condolences AM. I know how difficult it is to lose a loved one. All we can do is remember happier times. Thanks for the lovely tribute to Teensy. ❤️

[@kated-abq289]

My condolences, AM. It’s so hard to loose someone you loved. May all the good memories of your time with him bring peace to your heart. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[@kimhunter7606]

So sorry for your loss AM. Teensy’s life was difficult to watch, and must have been agonizing at times to chronicle. But you honored and kept faith with her - and us - by telling her story unflinchingly. We cheered her every incremental step forward and agonized at each setback. And though deep down we knew Teensy would break our hearts, because of your refusal to look away, we were brave enough to take it. God bless AM, for this and every story from Monkey Hill.

[@JodieLBain]

Beautifully and well said such a sad time!

[@debbiegonzales8035]

Wow! That was very well said.

[@Jam020866]

My deepest condolences AM for your loss. Thank you for your wonderful videos!

[@j.s.walker3656]

I’m sorry AM, I know how much it hurts. Everyone tried their best to help her but sometimes that isn’t enough. That you care so much and continue to care is what makes this a little easier. Poor Tina, she really did try

[@makingchanges5943]

So sorry for the loss of someone dear to you. Thank you for sharing such a precious memory with us. Thank you for the update on Teensey. Thank you for giving us the opportunity to have a view of these magical creatures in their own natural habitat. ❤😢

[@mona8986]

So sorry for your loss AM. Your loved one will be quite happy with the place of their final rest. Sorry to see you've also lost Teensy, so close to your loved one's passing, when your emotions were still raw, my heart goes out to you... She was so strong and with her Angelic face had fought a good fight, but in the end there was too much odds stacked against her. The only consolation is that she is not suffering anymore and at peace and playing with her two siblings in Monkey Hill Heaven. Thank you for the compilation tribute to Teensy. WE WILL MISS YOU.. RIP TEENSY!!! 😗😢

[@pennyg6581]

Very, very sorry for your loss. This had to be almost unbearably sad for you-then to find out Teensy had also passed… I’m so sorry, Mr. AM. I thought she might actually beat the odds Tina’s babies seem to face. Heart wrenching

[@davekimbler2308]

I was afraid something was wrong with one of the ones ive grown to love and when i saw Tina alone my heart dropped and i shed tears for Teensy , can you image a 66 year old whos never met her doing that ? She will hold a place in my heart forever Good bye Teensy !

[@user-cw7iu6le5p]

Brother your a man I admire and respect. I also am 66 and while I did not cry I am heartbroken that we lost her!

[@lourdeshernandez3710]

Me too

[@sandrabentley8111]

Poor Tina. I feel so bad for her. She let Teensy feed 24/7 for months to no avail. Little Teeny must be in bewilderment wondering where on earth Teensy was. Sorry AM this happened the same day you scattered ashes for a dear one. This made me cry.😢

[@a2Flisa]

Mr AM, my condolences for the loss of your loved one!💙 Thanks for the beautiful tribute to little Teensy! Tina tried her best, as did all of you who care for our furry cousins on Monkey Hill!💖🐒 Thank you! RIP Teensy!✝

[@ajtucker8098]

So sorry to hear of your loss AM, thank you for all that you do

[@joemanzotherealjoebizz]

As if one loss isn't enough, I share your grief AM for the loss of both your loved one and Teensy. Better days are ahead.

[@debvit2353]

I truly hope Tina will be fixed. I never advocate for sterilization, but there comes a point where there is just too much suffering for her infants and it has to be awful for Tina. I don’t think Teeny understands what she was doing or if she knew she was loving her little sister to death.

[@sandrabentley8111]

Deb I don't think Teeny had her long enough to make a difference. It was Tina's lack of nourishing milk. Teensy just could not thrive unfortunately. I feel bad for Tina. So very sad.

[@debvit2353]

@@sandrabentley8111 Teensy was the size of a newborn. She needed continuous feeding, even more so than a newborn because of the poor quality of Tina’s milk. We really don’t know how long Teeny had her, an hour?, several hours?, or even more? It had to take a terrible toll on her fragile body.

[@sandrabentley8111]

@@debvit2353 Indeed.

[@kendee_]

​@@sandrabentley8111IIRC on average they never have them more than an hour to two hours at a time, and we saw that Tina knew how to get her back. It really is just the issue of Tina's genetics and possibly her age. She's said to be one of the older moms in the troop, so age would be a factor in terms of her already dwindled supply.

[@kendee_]

@joeturner9280 She's not capable of understanding that, nor should she hold any responsibility for it. She's not the reason her sister is gone.

[@venetabritt2771]

I am so sorry AM. I will watch this episode later. I can't stop crying as I watch. Maybe in a few days. I just hot too attached to our Teensy. Abd as heartbroken as I am I know you were even more so. Thanks fir bringing her short life to us. She never knew how much she was loved around tge world.

[@katherineashley5712]

😢 We are all so sorry AM, and MC for the loss of Teensy. We know you did your best to try to help her. Take care, both of you.

[@evlynealeshire5850]

My deepest condolences on the loss of your loved one, Monsieur AM. 💐 Thank you for the lovely tribute to Teensy.

[@trishplanck9776]

Arroz I’m so sorry for your loss and the pain that accompanies it. Both for your loved one and Teensy.🥺 I lost my eldest son in July of 2011 and not a day goes by that I don’t think about him and the many memories we made. I don’t even have the words to tell you how much I appreciate what you do on Monkey Hill. I have many wonderful memories from the very first video of yours that I watched when Baty, Dopey and Knotty were just wee little guys. I was smitten from the very beginning and have so much admiration for you and your kind, loving heart. God bless and keep you and may you make many more happy memories in the years ahead.❤️ How I wish there was something that could be given to Tina that would increase the nutrients in her milk so we would never have to watch another one of her babies starve.😔

[@sandrabentley8111]

So hard to see, but wow what a tribute. Magnificent!

[@bratt6902]

My condolences AM for your loss. May all your memories bring peace to your heart.

[@brightsun5479]

She looked so frail last time I seen her. At least she is not in pain anymore. Not starving and flying high with all the other monkeys. Rip teensy. Sorry AM for your loved one .

[@Emzzz78]

Poor Tina. I feel so bad for her and her babies. Only the strong survive though. Sad truth

[@uhaneokalanijames8029]

i think she would have made it, if teeny would not have kidnapped her more than likely hours on end every day. she wasn't trying to hurt her sister though, and it wasn't teenys fault tina does not produce enough milk. but i feel she had the drive to scavage for food to survive just like tiny and teeny did. its just her sister couldn't keep her hands off of her. and she would hold onto her for too long. RIP teensy, you made a lot of peoples hearts sing while you could.

[@kendee_]

On average, rhesus macaque siblings only take them for at most 1-2 hours at a time, and never more unless there's a neurological issue with mom or the sister. More often it's usually less than half an hour. It really comes down to Tina's supply. She's one of the older moms, and there's a reason we've only seen Tiny and Teeny grow to adulthood.

[@Danceswithfishes]

​@@kendee_ Teensy kept fleeing from Tina. Probably kept the baby away for too long. A healthy baby can take it, but Teensy was too fragile for this kind of forced babysitting.

[@kendee_]

@@Danceswithfishes True but almost all the sisters do this, and Tina has shown that she was able to take her back when she really wanted to. We have to remember the toll the 24/7 feeding was taking on Tina, she needed breaks. It's really just an unfortunate circumstance and Teeny was not at fault.

[@Danceswithfishes]

@@kendee_ I don't blame Teeny or Tina. But I do think it was a disaster for Teensy. Tina was letting her wander, which would have allowed AM and MC to help. Teeny would not let Teensy move. That was a death sentence for the poor mite.

[@EmmaDee]

@@Danceswithfishesexactly

[@monicaalvin8239]

Thank You AM for letting us walk with you when you gave youre loved one back to nature. Painful as it was for you it was also a beautiful way to say good bye. I lost my daughter and still think that I did not feel present during everything that comes with a loved once death. I wish you healing, time and space to mourn and find solace i Monkey Hill. ❤ Thank You for trying to help little Teensy and all the beautiful videos of her little life we got to follow. Such a pretty face with beautiful eyes, though painfull to see. I shall miss her ❤

[@angiestylin4u]

Im sorry momma shawna, I feel your pain I also lost my mom in 2023..and also my best friend of 53yrs two months after mom....2023 was a terrible year. Im so sorry you are grieving also. My heart goes out to you and pray 2024 will be better for you

[@triciagiustra9911]

Who is Shawna?

[@dtulip1]

Damn so all through Oct Nov Dec when we were all hoping Teensy would rally, she was, in fact, already gone?! That sucks

[@Chumley555]

Indeed. His videos currently run at around 4 months out of date. Personally I have given up thinking that any of these wonderful monkeys are currently happy and alive, because time and again us viewers find out 4 months later 😢

[@leslie6938]

@@Chumley555 It takes an enormous amount of time to edit videos, not to mention all the other time spent filming them, traveling back and forth, dealing with equipment which the monkeys periodically damage, buying and preparing treats, etc, and all this is on top of AM's regular job and life. He needs and deserves breaks from time to time too. Most of longtime viewers want to see everything he's filmed, so over time the delay between filming and us being about to see the final videos has increased. It doesn't bother me at all, and I hope my explanation will help you and others who share your frustration understand why it is necessary. AM puts a lot of time, money, and heart into generously sharing Monkey Hill life for a relatively small audience, for which I'm personally extremely grateful.

[@sabrinavaughn1203]

I Now Truly Agree 👍 to all this .They have already moved on while I and others are praying endlessly 🙏 🤲 to the most high to help her live & she's been gone 4 1/2 to five months ago, so what's the point ? So I am only an observer not in the present but in the past. Heartbreaking for nothing. 😢 Reconsider?

[@1n1people]

Sending my condolences to you and your family .RIP Teensy will miss you!

[@debrajohnson8030]

Bless her little heart i will miss her and tina tried she was a good mother bless her.

[@lakesidesusan6745]

Uncle AM, it is never over. Ever time you think of your loved one they continue be to live in your heart.Deepest Sympathy for your loss. Their spirit is free, as is lil Teensy's. Gosh she tried so hard. All your fans feel you losses as we consider you our loved one also!💖💖💖

[@lourdeshernandez3710]

Great comment. No better words to express our feelings to AM. Thank you

[@jenniferkelley3777]

So sorry of your loss AM and the loss of teensey. She fought as long as she could. If a few things could have been different, she would be here but I'm guessing and monkey needed a beautiful angel. ❤

[@jcgraham8808]

🎉🎉 I have a potential plan for how to help the next Tina (Teensly I’m thinking) thrive. If I get 7 likes, I will take the time to spell it out, or post it to the gangs page. I need that address again please. I confess I forgot.

[@jcboom6894]

AM, condolences for the loss of your friend that you had been taking care of for months and months and months. And then a double whammy. Do not ever blame yourself for Teensey's death like you did one of her brothers (Tibbins?). You tried, the feeders tried and MI tried and the rest of the world prayed for Teensey but Mother Nature won this battle. I will pray for you, i hope your heart is starting to heal. This is a beauutiful, very touching video. Thank you very much. And thank you for all of the videos you make and all you do for the monkeys on Golden Hill Road. You load that pack with goodies and off you go looking for friends to feed or to help or just to stand and be amazed at their antics and their beautiful babies.God bless you.❤❤❤❤❤

[@Danceswithfishes]

So sorry for your loss AM. Sending condolences and thoughts of comfort to you, and you family

[@hollisblinn7910]

I remember you mentioning you'd just come from a funeral in an earlier video...again, please accept my condolences on your loss. Seeing Tina without Teensy must have further deepened your sadness that day. What a difficult time that must've been for you. If only Teeny could have understood the harm she was doing by babysitting her sister. As a mother, my heart aches for Tina; she clearly loved her baby.

[@vg7735]

I feel like Tina allowed Teeny to babysit. Maybe she wanted to give her nipples a break from being sucked. It always looked like she wasn't trying to get Teensy back. If there is another baby this year, I hope Teeny has one of her own to keep her happy and hopefully she doesn't have milk issues like her Mum.

[@catg943]

Prayers and blessings for you and those wonderful animals. Thank you for your caring and hard work.

[@anaormonde9720]

My deepest condolences to you for the loss of your loved one. May he REST IN PEACE✝️🙏💐 I will miss little Teensy. I cried for her. I will always remember her sweet face. I had high hopes she would make it and was so looking forward to seeing her today. I’m sorry AM it must be hard for you. I wish we knew right when it happened. I don’t mean to critique because I’m too thankful for all you do, but I really wish it hadn’t been dragged on for so long. 😢💐

[@lisapinson2518]

So sorry for your loss AM,she was a precious special little princess 😢

[@paulforder591]

AM, sorry for your loss. I was heartbroken to learn of Teensy's untimely end. Ultimately, Teeny loved her to death, and Tina did her best as a mother, despite her scarcity of milk. RIP Teensy. In nature, it's only the strongest that survive. May time passing heal both your losses. My condolences to you. 🙊🙉🙈😿😭💔💔

[@lindatate7053]

So sorry for your loss arroz, I'm really heart broken about teensy also. I prayed so hard but she tried to hang on. Teeny looks so sad her baby sis is gone. Maybe next year teeny will have a baby of her own.

[@sheilafry2394]

I had forgotten Teensy once looked healthy. So sad. But, we have this next year to Tina having another precious baby and not able to give her healthy nutrients. Bless

[@Danceswithfishes]

Tina did try, but I think Teeny's constant kidnapping was the nail on the coffin. I know these animals are clever, but their instincts get the better of them every single time, and more often than not it's not to their advantage 😢

[@karamichael2577]

Thank you for sharing your story. When you share stories about the monkeys, it is easy to see your heart. Listening to you speak about your loved one is heartbreaking, but I believe your loved one lived a better life, knowing such a kind hearted person. I’m sorry for your loss, but I feel confident that they must have cared for you as deeply as you cared for them because you were a very special person. ❤

[@kitti.r.est.1962]

My Sincere Condolences & Deepest Sympathies, although we are seeing this in Jan. I & others unfortunately know how you are feeling and we understand that there are no time limits on grief, 🤗here’s to hoping you are feeling a smidgen better these months later, & if not understand our hearts are heavy for you, & everyone else who holds him dear in their hearts

[@donnawitteried3213]

Loss of any kind, all kinds, is so hard. Condolences.

[@harlowjademermaid1882]

What a way to go. She was constantly starving, her entire short life. Darn shame. Tina needs to be fixed ASAP. She was needing some alone time from Teensys 24/7 suckling, so Teeny helped out, but here this was the worse thing for poor wee Teensy. RiP

[@carolinemole4667]

My condolences AM. It's hard for me to watch right now as my moms anniversary is on Monday and I'm struggling. Poor teensy.

[@mariaantoniarojas7417]

Mis condolencias para ti que los angeles del cielo te den fortaleza en este momento tan doloroso por la perdida de esta madre hermosa 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@hipdogdsv]

And at 31:07 THE greatest piece of music ever written. And yes, I stand every time I hear Handel's Hallelujah Chorus! I used to sing in a touring choir.

[@user-cw7iu6le5p]

Sister you should join our monkey hill prayer gang

[@amyjesko9434]

@@user-cw7iu6le5pI agree!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE Hallelujah Chorus!!! I was singing along, as sad as it was😢

[@lindabissell7371]

Thank you A.M....Wow... That was beautiful but tough to watch. I don't know why but of all the babies at monkey Hill over the years, Teensy was the only one that I consciously thought over and over "Man...I wish she could talk😥". God Bless y'all💟

[@gloriap6927]

Sincere sympathies Mr. A. M. for the loss of your loved one and for Teensy also. Thank you for trying to help her. 😢

[@jcgraham8808]

Sadly, there’s nothing to prevent Tina from torturing another tiny baby to death next year. It is so sad to lose that precious little girl. I was so looking forward to seeing her grow among the others and thought she had just about made it to a point of being allowed to walk about and be fed easily. Man, I’m sorry Arroz. If it upsets me I know it must be 10x worse for you. I am really angry at a situation that cannot be prevented and we all most certainly will all see again. I’m not giddy about that unnerving routine again. Warm wishes for relief of sadness and being filled with joy.

[@pc3235]

@jcgraham8808 i didn't see any torture by tina of teensy. probably a genetic issues in tina's line that is passed to her offspring since all her kids have been weak. teensy seemed to be permanently attached to tina's nipples and yet she did not grow in her short 3 months of life. it's human to want to and need to blame something or someone but perhaps there is no one to blame here. just nature unfolding with its beauty as well as its not so beautiful.

[@jcgraham8808]

I think you misunderstood. I do believe Teensy was tortured by starvation/dehydration, BUT not intentionally. I only meant that she’ll continue to be impregnated in mating season, and given the variables observed to this point, another weak baby (if it survives to birth) will be born. We will all languish while another baby tries so hard to satisfy the hunger she’s feeling. We will cheer on AM, MC and others dedication to get the baby sustenance and we will wait on the edge of our seats for an outcome that is a very low probability. 2 thoughts: I hate seeing a baby struggling like everybody else, but I hate-even more- the awful heartbreak that AM and MC suffer. It’s much worse for them and it’s like Groundhog Day going through it each season when most of the time it isn’t going to end well. MOST IMPORTANT: I have a silly idea. I know the presumption Tina has poor milk, and that begins affecting the baby in the womb -long before anybody can help the baby. I know we can’t change Tina’s milk…. Or can we? What if, instead of waiting and fighting the uphill battle of finding the perfect time to feed a weak baby.. what if AM & MC began feeding her mango and banana that has been dipped in prenatal supplements, or injected with vitamins? What if they were to sneak here several items on each visit from the moment she appears pregnant? 1) It could help gestate a healthier, stronger baby. 2) we don’t have to keep our fingers crossed waiting for the baby to make it through milk teeth to sneak her goodies if she is stronger and mom’s milk is even marginally better. And 3) if mom is healthier from special treats with vitamins and supplements throughout pregnancy and during nursing time, we should get Tina’s next baby on the ground sooner to begin getting her special servings until strong enough to gather foods as other babies do. I know it is labor intensive (which I can’t help, but maybe a plan we could all get behind offers enough hope to encourage the effort) and potentially expensive (which I, and we, can do something about). Instead of being scared Tina will be pregnant with another doomed baby, what if we attacked the things we can change?

[@pc3235]

@@jcgraham8808 this is a wild animal in nature and it doesn't need the human interventions you describe. hasn't tina had more nutrition in the way of human food that is dropped off to her from the feeders for 3 covid years now? and she has had maybe more than others because feeders might have been paying special attention to her. our human reasoning is telling us this is good for her but is that true or wise? mangos and bananas and the rest of it are not her regular diet, so how do we know she's better off on foods which are not her regular diet? her body is not made to process sugars all year. in the wild maybe they only consume sweet items when those items are in season, which in likelihood would be once per year. and the weak milk thing is just an opinion which everyone is using automatically to explain why her offspring are not making it. has it been medically tested? no. so we have no proof that her milk is poor and is the cause of her weak offspring. she and her babies are not human projects. these monkeys have survived since millennia through their natural survival mechanics. they should not be fed medicine to be kept alive so us humans can feel better. they owe us nothing.

[@jcgraham8808]

@@pc3235 If that’s your position, you disagreed with all efforts to help Tina’s babies? No, the theories have not been clinically confirmed and there is no process in place to do so (that has been discussed). The instinct humans feel to interfere with animals is inherent to our species. Those that have the constitution to stand back and watch “nature take its course” are not superior, or of greater intelligence. They simply have the contrarian opinion to observe and not attempt to help. Funny you mentioned they aren’t experiments, but there are currently over 300,000 macaques bred and raised for clinical testing. They are, indeed, regularly experiments. What I suggested is a graduation and refinement of the current strategy used to help Teensy. There is one monkey that produces weak, undersized babies that have proven lower than normal survival rate. Anything this group does to influence that outcome may have long term effects on Tina. That train left the station with feeders. I’m suggesting we try to supplement her diet throughout pregnancy to help her baby arrive with an improved chance of survival. That’s all. Why would you assume the ultimate path chosen to be negative? What if research was done to determine what supplements macaques could benefit from in gestation? Or, do you assume us morons will feed her Flintstone gunnies? Your rationale is an opinion formed by your experiences and character values. So are mine. Both are wrong, and right, and relevant. If I began suggesting we travel to interfere with a heretofore “wild” monkeys, I’ll review your message, but the “wild” (funny and incorrect) monkeys on GHR are domesticated/wild suffering human interaction for decades now. That is not wild.

[@pc3235]

no, i did not disagree with tina or teensy getting extra food. if it helped them then great. we have no way of knowing that our "help" really helps them in the end even if we are convinced it will. i abhor that monkeys are in fact experiments, that any animal suffers at the hands of humans. humans have no right to hurt them in any way. and that includes giving them vitamins that are created for humans and we have no knowledge how it could affect a monkey. we don't have a medical report of what killed teensy or what in tina might be creating offspring that doesn't survive, so giving tina supplementation would be guessing at what the issue might be. isn't that like a form of experimentation? we have no medical proof she needs it/can pass it to her offspring. you, are correct, this is my opinion, based on my beliefs and i'm not trying to change your mind. it is only what i think. i don't really agree that the monkey hill monkeys are domesticated, not really anyway, because if humans stopped feedings, they would go back to foraging their natural food in the wild. @@jcgraham8808

[@elizabethgutierrez478]

Please accept my sincerest condolences on the loss of your loved one. It is never easy, no matter how old you are. Omg - this is so sad to watch again, just seeing her get skinnier and skinnier. Teensy tried to survive, but she needed milk. My heart is breaking watching her get weaker and weaker. Thank you for all you do for the Monkey Hill residents.

[@bornontherimofchaos]

Tina looks ragged. It's obvious that Teensy's death has affected her. She tried so hard to keep her baby alive. I had to put this post off and get the gumption to watch it. I know everyone tried to help Tina and Teensy. Everyone was hoping that this little sweetie would make it. Unfortunately, as they say ,it wasn't meant to be. I'm sorry to hear of your loss, Mr AM. Even if a death is expected of someone you love, when it happens, all the preparations won't work. You get knocked to your knees. All you can do is take a breath and step one by one. I take comfort in knowing that Teensy is no longer suffering. I take comfort in knowing that any loved ones who has passed are no longer suffering either. Monkey or human, we grieve in our own ways.

[@kitti.r.est.1962]

Bye for now Lil’Teensy, I don’t know what is worse,me knowing you will be Lil’Teensy forever, or knowing that you literally starved to death, with food all around you whether it was from feeders, or foraging, I think that to me makes it worse there are many different ways to go, but being without reach of food and still not being able to eat enough to sustain your tiny body is right up there near the top, A.M. & M.I. do such great work we tend to feel as if you all are our personal little hairy friends 😑

[@PamPreston78]

😢Tina tried so hard…

[@michaelhearn3052]

Sad news, my condolences to you for both losses. Please heal in your own time. Also thanks for the video a wonderful tribute.

[@kimmarievan-ever6599]

My condolences for your personal loss Arroz. Its so very hard to lose someone very close .l sincerely you take time to heal..you need to look after yourself too.. it has broken my heart 💔💔losing Teensy. Tina did all she could as did you and the feeders making sure Tina had good food to hopefully make good milk..but she just went downhill once she was spending so long away from the milk bar when Teeny had her ..she was a bit rough with her..but for a normal sized baby of a few months old that would have been fine..but Teensy was just to weak to fight back and in those moments I saw her really distressed .poor Teeny didn't know of course I'm not blaming her .its just the way it is .shows you how even more remarkable Teeny's success story is..

[@gidgetbrinson7322]

It's so hard to watch , bring tears to my eyes, RIP .

[@johnmarsh6865]

Condolences for your loss A.M. It's got to be frustrating with the loss of Teensy, especially with all that you & others did to try to help Teensy to survive. Atleast you & others tried, sometimes timing & circumstances didn't let it happen.

[@bradenoconnor2987]

I'm sorry for your lose A.M. but honored you were able to carry out the task on my day of birth. I'm sure he will be more then happy with your choice. Its never easy but usually just enough time has passed to have it be a conclusion and solace and finality so that after remembering all the happy memories can shine bright. Those of us that have followed you for a long time and some of the newer subs as well, know how wonderful, thoughtful and genuine of a person you with a caring heart and soul. I'm sure your loved one had a hand in shaping and cultivating the A.M. we have found respect for. In that a piece of them will live on and add a little bit of good to the world. Your somewhat private which is smart, but thank you for the things like this you choose to share as we can all have or will experience similar events in life as well. I hope you found some closure. Ill simply say have a blessed day and whatever beliefs you covet shine bright on you and help you in your time of mourning. I absolutely love the way you capture these monkeys and wish we could nominate the number one monkey-Tube channel. In my eyes you hold that position head and shoulders above the rest. Others have followed your model and I know you make a difference proving shenanigans are not required to present these beautiful souls to the world.😀❤👼

[@marybranch3858]

I am so very sorry for your loss. It is never easy to lose a loved one; whether it be human, or animal😢😢😢😢

[@meredythbeattie5937]

I am so sorry for your loss AM. I know what it is like to loose somebody close to u. It must of been very difficult, after such a loss to come to Monkey Hill and find out the loss of Teensy. A place u go to find solace in your own life, and lose another one so close to u as Teensy. It must be so hard to go to Monkey Hill everyday, and chronicle so many precious lives and loose them so soon. You, MI and all those wonderful feeders truly know how to love. I've learned so much from all of u what real love is for others means. God bless u AM and I pray the New Year brings u lots of love, and happiness. RIP for your friend and our precious little Teensy, the fighter.😢😢😢😢❤❤❤

[@albabassig8736]

My deepest sympathy AM. losing a love one is hard to swallow, but we have to think they are now resting in peace.

[@prpr44]

so sorry for your loss AM...what a time this must've been for you. your selflessness in sharing this especially difficult video w/Teensy's passing....i'll certainly miss her very big brown eyes...just too many essential cards stacked against her to flourish. it's unfortunate that Teeny wasn't able to experience being an older sister to Riy before she was gone. i'm honestly amazed Tina can get pregnant given her status in a mega troop and how little nutrition she gets for herself. perhaps later this year, Teeny w/get pregnant. Thank you for giving such a wonderful final look at the tiniest of Tina's babies.

[@gsmith6026]

NOOOOOO!!!!!!! I held out so much hope for Teensy. I’m going off to cry now.

[@BeTheDragon141]

So sorry for your loss. At least Teensy isn’t suffering any more.

[@bradenoconnor2987]

I saw Teensy never really gain much body mass but had high hopes she would pull through like Tiny and Teeny did in the end. It was hard watching each time we saw her. But she was so cute and seemed to have a really easygoing demeanor. Wether mom was doing her best or surprisingly Teeny was being an amazing big sister and babysitter. I wish Tina had more to give her babies because she produces beautiful, generous and well mannered kids... I'm sad we've lost another beautiful soul we all got attached to and must be much harder on you, as your there to witness each moment first hand. You do a wonderful job documenting all the characters of monkey Hill and allow us all to be involved in a place we may never get to experience like you do. I love and adore monkeys and since finding your channel in its infancy have made it a small part of my life. And thats all in thanks to you. Teensy will be missed but in this beautiful video remember fondly for all time. This day in Aug is a special day for me and was sad to see we lost Teensy on that day. I assume she was just to weak or possible got sick. Each year I worry when Tina gives birth and pray any future babies find the strength and will like Tiny and Teeny did with a little help from an A.M. guardian angel along with others who try and help as well.

[@frenchettepeoples5875]

Sorry for your loss my friend as you I lost my mom to dementia at the same time , she fought hard like teensy , she was 91 , but it’s always hard to let go , my heart broke all over again watching this video and feeling all this loss around us , I pray for your comfort AM .. and my lil teensy is gone now , I wanted so much for her to be like teeny and fight all the odds but she couldn’t hang on but she will be remembered always , hugs to you all I’m so exhausted and numb , I’ll be better I can’t change anything and I have to be happy that I did have my mom for the years that I have , and I got to love lil teensy from a far , and I got to tell you that I’m sorry for your loss as well , as that day I was spreading my moms ashes in the beautiful Koʻolau mountain range over our home in Oahu Aloha my friend !!!

[@sallysorrentino4013]

Praying for ur peace & strength during this time of loss You are much appreciated & needed by us ur monkey hill family, only we can truly understand that this is a double loss for you ❤

[@JodieLBain]

Beautifully said @kimhunter7606, though a sad time for the loss of brave little Teensy - RIP lil girl you will be missed Xx

[@bccradventures84]

I had really hoped Teensi was going to make it. Maybe I’m narrow minded but I think if Tina’s daughter had left Teensi alone she would possible have made it….

[@NDbred]

I am so sorry that you had a double whammy of sorrow! I'm thankful that your friend and the monkeys are/were in your life. I was so hoping Teensy would make it. At least she knew she was loved.

[@joanfreeman7561]

I began to watch Ash to ash dust to dust because iv just lost my oldest sister last month, and am having her cremains sent 400 miles home to us, where she belongs. I am so sad. Then i realized this video is about the passing of a baby monkey, and you know, i think Carolyn would've been fine with that! 😢

[@franceswhite3693]

AM God was talking to your heart, it was not a coincidence that you were spreading your love one ashes at the same time Teensy passed away. He was letting you know they were with him ,in their special place. God has a place for all his creation , he looks over our love ones . May God always bless you for your love of family and his monkeys on Monkey Hill. ❤❤❤❤

[@CharlesH-lg4jo]

IMPOSSIBLE to follow these furry lil friends and not be totally devastated when we lose one at this age! Arroz so sorry for your loss of Teensy and your family member.So sorry friend.

[@ms.harley]

Oh, Teensy. You are in such a wonderful place now, waiting for AM at Rainbow Bridge. ❤

[@sharond14]

May Teensy rest in peace my condolences.

[@Oldnoitall]

I’m sorry for your loss of two of your loved ones ! Every one is feeling sorry for the loss of Tensey

[@jennifer294]

She always had the brightest eyes❤, I thought she was gonna make it 😢,But with all honesty it's gonna happen again until Tina gets sterilized 😢

[@gabriellaalvarado616]

I can't help but feel empty. Usually Tina's children either die earlier on or the rare few make it all the way through, but Teensy was here just long enough for all of us to get extremely attached and not a moment longer. I have a pressing question though- Last month I saw a few comments stating that Teensy died in August. I see commets like this often and unfortunately they are usually true, as this claim also ended up being. My question is, where are people getting the early updates? Or is it as simple as them just asking directly?

[@kendee_]

I saw these comments as well and the person who posted them refused to elaborate where they saw this. It isn't on AM's patreon or anywhere else.

[@EmmaDee]

@@kendee_ very interesting because I too had seen videos where Tina didn’t have the baby any longer, then we went back in time, then all the theatrics of showing the special feedings, misleading to drag us along and since we’re all allowed an opinion, that’s mine.

[@gabriellaalvarado616]

@@kendee_ I know! I think that would be such a good idea for patreon too, giving at least one tier of subscribers access to the current major events. Though I'm also perfectly happy being a member just to make up for the fact that I have YT premium and therefore cannot give AM that well-deserved ad revenue 😔

[@gabriellaalvarado616]

@@EmmaDee The videos where Tina didn't have Teensy *were* the videos where he went back in time. Unless you're referring to something else? I don't wanna assume lol

[@ComDocH]

Condolences on your personal loss AM. I know you took good care of that person over the years. There’s rewards for that. I am saddened but not at all surprised by Teensy’s demise. I think the only way Tina’s family gets to four, is when Teeny has a baby.

[@carolinemole4667]

I'll have to watch the rest when my grieving eases up.

[@marciaanderson9938]

Loss is such an ache inside our very souls. May you find peace in your most unique and pragmatic way- finding abundant compassion for that has been lost and to find that natural beauty which still surrounds you. Let that which you still love, heal your heart. And spend time with all your favorite memories and the ones not so wonderful- you have to walk through them to reorient and learn your story. Just like those monkeys- we all have a story that we carry on our backs and in our hearts. Our loved one never truly leaves us, AM. It is just a brand new way of loving them forever. 💔

[@toddbowers5673]

Sad because it’s probably because she was carried around and not getting some milk from mom. But I think she had something else that is passed genetically and its very low survival rate.

[@lisadaniel5200]

I worry about the fate of Teeny's babies for the same reason.

[@SlowWalkingMohairSam]

Oh, my heart...such sadness to hear of the loss of your loved one AM and double sadness at the loss of our beautiful little Teensy. 😢😢

[@scottreich1207]

Im so sorry AM. We all know how much you and MI had invested in keeping Teensy alive, physically, emotionally and financially. I hope you can be there for MI, as I fear she may take this hard. The young lady has seen so much death in these babies, I hope she doesn't become disillusioned with the work you do. There will be others that need you, and I know you'll be there to help. I hope you are well, and I'm sorry for the loss of your loved one. They will be happy with the place you chose for them, I'm sure. I hope it brings you peace. You're a good man AM. The world could use more like you.

[@pc3235]

boy, do i feel duped. as recently as a few weeks back, it was posted that teensy was alive and had a savior, why not post the truth instead. i don't see the point of us humans attached hoping she'd make it when in fact she had died more than 4 months ago. what an odd feeling. not trying to disrespect and i am very sorry for your loss, am. i hope that your memories of your loved one will bring you comfort. peace.

[@EmmaDee]

Yeah I wish we could just see current videos too. I guess not one soul has a clue as to how she officially died, what happened or when it was noticed exactly? Wonder if she fell trying to get away from her sister or starved??

[@EmmaDee]

Another thing was why all the videos on special feedings for the baby knowing she was dead. It’s called getting views, especially knowing we’re all rooting for her.

[@lourdeshernandez3710]

Hi, first of all I understand your feelings and repect your point of view. In my humble opinion, they did their best for showing us the real situation. In this case, the end was very unfortunate. But, from my side, I am very grateful and thank AM, MC and JW for spending their spare time to make such incredible videos. No matter when they filmed them, it is always a gift being able to watch these exceptional videos. I have been following AM for years, and I have learned soooo much about our cousins. Sorry for my mistakes in writing, as English is not my mother tongue❤. Para mi todos ellos hacen una labor encomiable, creo que ningun documental puede mostrarnos el comportamiento de estos monitos de la manera en que AM, MC y JW lo hacen. Yo tambien lo he pasado mal con Teensy, qué angustia y que pena tan tremenda. Gracias.

[@ML_SE]

Tina's family have seen too much death in their family. Teeny has lost all of her younger siblings to this date. I hope 2024 will be a much better year for them. Teeny might have her own baby and if Tina gets one I hope she gets all help she needs for that baby. 🤓🇸🇪

[@kendee_]

I remember it being mentioned that Tina is in fact one of the older moms in the troop. If true, it makes sense that she may have lost more of her children than we know of considering we've only seen Tina and Teeny grow past infancy.

[@ML_SE]

@@kendee_ I have no idea how old she is but I think Trina is her oldest (living child) and then Tiny but I think Tina has another son, born between Trina and Tiny. Tiny was born 2017 so before that. Together with Teeny and those we know are dead (Tibbin, Tiy and Teensy) Tina have five or six children. She could have some living adult males too. She could be younger than most think she is. 🤓🇸🇪

[@kendee_]

@@ML_SE I was under the impression Trina was her sister, though I understand that can be hard to determine with the older troop members.

[@ML_SE]

@@kendee_ She could be a sister but she's not acting like one and neither does Tina towards Trina. They act like mother and daughter. If Trina was a younger sister of Tina she would be higher ranking than Tina and she's not acting as a higher ranking family member. 🤓🇸🇪

[@kendee_]

@@ML_SE Ahh makes sense, thanks for the clarification. We see little of Trina's interactions so there's an impression that she doesn't interact much with her family, but obviously we only get a glimpse of the real picture.

[@firebirdborzoi]

Blessings to you and thank you for the beautiful video ❤

[@katie3235]

I hope Tina does not have another baby. The last four have come to a bad end. If not for you and the feeders we wouldn't have Tiny and Tweeny.

[@vickirichardson2705]

I really really wish that Tina wouldn't have any more kids unless there's some way to get her milk to be better..... it has to be hard on her to lose her babies. Do you think it might have been different had Teeny not taken her sister all the time?

[@angiestylin4u]

Of course it may have...she essentially starved her to death 😢

[@kendee_]

It would not have made a difference, and I think too many people here are wrongly blaming her for Teensy's death. On average, rhesus macaque siblings only babysit for about 10-20 minutes at a time, and never more than 1-2 hours. Tina was nursing 24/7 for 3-4 months and that takes a heavy toll on her, she needed the breaks that Teeny gave her even if they weren't always what she wanted. Tina could also easily overpower or intimidate Teeny into giving Teensy back if she needed to. It's really just an unfortunate circumstance of her age and milk supply. Both Tiny and Teeny were babysat by Trina and they still ended up surviving, it just wasn't the root cause. I also think it's very telling that Tina let go of Teensy's body only a little over a day after her death. Most times when a baby dies, the mom will hold on from anywhere to 2-3 days, sometimes 4 but rarely. I think Tina has lost many more babies than we know of and is very familiar with the signs of death and the grieving process.

[@EmmaDee]

@@angiestylin4uthank you!!

[@vickirichardson2705]

Oh I'm so sorry for your loss AM and for the loss of Teensy. How very sad, I know how hard you and MC tried to get her nutrients

[@debvit2353]

Oh no. I am so sorry for your loss Arroz. I am also so sorry about Teensy. I know how important these monkeys are to you. It had to be a double blow. My condolences. Do you think that Teensy’s little body just couldn’t handle the length of time and frequency of Teeny’s “babysitting”?

[@Emzzz78]

No. It was her mother’s milk, or lack there of. Don’t blame Teeny for doing what comes natural to her.

[@gsmith6026]

@@Emzzz78But Teeny wouldn’t let her down in order to forage. If she had been able to forage, she might have made it.

[@maybarnard1088]

​@@gsmith6026sadly Teensy just wasn't meant to make it, no amount of what ifs will change that.

[@reesie0809]

I think Tina needs to be fixed

[@piquedamebw6077]

A very good and very sad story. But this ending was quite expected, "mother-daughter" games can't last forever.I read somewhere that only one-third of cubs survive to six months of age. A high mortality rate implies a high birth rate.

[@solbri2758]

So sad for your loss AM. I blame Tina for the death of her precious girl. She knew her older daugther was just obsess with her little sister and yet, she didn't protected her from that crazy girl. She should of kept Teensy glue to her 24/7. Tina, and it's sad to say that, but should be sterilized. What's the point having babies that she's unable to feed properly because of her poor milk? Teeny will be a danger again if Tina has a another baby. I feel she didn't do eveything she could to rescue her little girl from Teeny.

[@jodylien853]

Im so sorry for the loss of your loved one.💔💔 Its really too bad that Tina cant get spayed so no more of her offspring suffer.

[@wifeymommy4242]

Rest in Paradise little one, I'm so sorry for your loss AM, I was hoping Teensy would get better but by the looks of Tina it seems mom is sick as well maybe she had something and passed it to the baby either way I know she's hurting as well, we as mothers do everything we can to protect and care for our babies and monkey mothers are no different. Depression is real and so is grief, I know you AM and mom find peace and know she's not hurting anymore ❤

[@deborahschell9176]

I am sad to see you lost one this yr. So did I. I still cry but I know they're in a better place. My heart goes out. Be at peace my Friend. They would not want us to be mournful too long.