ASMR| A DAY IN MY LIFE (HEALTH FLARE EDITION)

[@madsasmr1838]

Thank you for all of the yummy, nourishing words! It means more than you know. I uploaded this video in hopes it would help one less person feel alone . I have been chronically ill for over 10 years so this is not a recent onset health battle. Unfortunately, for the past three months, I have been in an awful flare. I have days that feel better than this one and I have days that feel worse than what you see here. Unfortunately, chronic illnesses is not predictable most of the time. I appreciate all of the sweet words wanting me to not be isolated and potentially live in a space with other people. You have to remember this is all I’ve known for over 10 years and have been living alone for years . I am very capable of it. I have been managing independence my entire adult life . For many people, the option of living with family is not available . Not that I need to be living with family or anyone else. It doesn’t mean I don’t have struggles within flare daily tasks. or crave comfort when suffering. Internally I have peace and happiness. I tend to and prioritize my mental health over anything and have the support/guidance I feel I need to navigate chronic illness. That does not mean I don’t struggle with anxiety, depression, loneliness for my illnesses. Flares never get easier, debilitating pain never gets easier. It’s so heavy. The waves of grief chronic illness takes you on is quite the exhausting journey . Social media is a false reality where we pick and choose the narrative we want to drive our life . I feel that is so harmful and damaging to our society . I want to start really playing an ethical role in my usage of platforms . Which means showing many different angles of my world . Every day is different and I take it moment to moment . Us chronic illness girlies r doing our v best.🤍 As for baby Apollo I have a huge backyard. He always takes 1st priority. The only way me being chronically ill affects him is when my flares are really bad. I can’t always throw his ball. We go on walks when my vitals allow it, I have a huge backyard and there are always tons of toys laying on the bed if that’s where I have to be for the day . He is a very happy healthy beyond cared for sweet Pup. 🐾 Emotional and some physical support is what he is in training for . He is a mini Australian Shepherd and wants to work. They are a beyond intelligent breed that do phenomenal with training. He thrives giving me the support I need. He is not on the clock all the time, and gets so much playtime. Even when laying in bed, we do training of different sorts.

[@loopershibil7714]

Sorry for your loss

[@givekills]

i strongly recommend reading "We Want To Live by Aajonus Vonderplanitz" for your healths sake

[@hiramalik7524]

Hey lovely,m so worry about you,please take care of your self,your family should be with you in 1 house to take gd care of u,u should not live here alone anymore in this situation,,,❤😔 lots of wishes for u❤

[@juliannej5826]

The way Mads needs to explain herself all the time guys 😥 is it always necessary to comment all this to her

[@zcorpalpha2462]

@@hiramalik7524I guess not considering how independent she wishes to be. I guess that’s life

[@arizonaduges]

"They give me friends that I often wish I had" That hit me hard. You're not alone Maddie. Please get stronger soon ❤

[@MAN32108]

you have no clue how much this video means for us chronically ill girlies 🤍 the isolation, the pain, and the tears are a constant battle ; but seeing someone else live our reality makes us feel less alone, valid, and strong which is EVERYTHING. sending a ton of virtual love mads x

[@Sm57204west]

I definitely don't have a chronic illness like this, but I do suffer from long term depression. I really resonated with the "bed is a prison" statement because I'm so exhausted all the time. I don't feel like I deserve to be exhausted because I'm not doing anything, but I oftentimes cannot drag myself out of bed because I'm so tired. It really is debilitating.

[@shelbykathleenv]

I know this is easier said than done but try not to be to hard on yourself. depression is a chronic illness that can impact your physical health. the depression fatigue is real. i’m sorry you’re having a difficult time. you’re not alone.

[@laconsuasmr7429]

What kind of chronical illness she have so sorry😢

[@carrie2469]

Add excruciating pain and debilitating symptoms onto it, and that’s how awful chronic illness is. And there’s no end to it. Sorry you’re suffering so much, I hope it gets better for you and there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

[@eternitysafro1083]

Praying for you Maddie, it truly hurts my heart seeing you battle with your chronic illness. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this with us, you definitely make others who have the similar issues as you not alone. We appreciate any ASMR video. Sending love.🤍

[@augustdearest]

as a potsie, it's so comforting seeing others who just get it. thank you for sharing and raising awareness of those of us who struggle to get by day by day

[@livfiss]

i struggle with mcas mycotoxin illness and autoimmune encephalitis so this resonates so deeply. hearing you speak about watching everyone else go on and you’re still stuck is something i struggle with as well. i just want to say that you have helped me immensely for years. there are so many times where i’ve been on the verge of breakdowns and your videos have saved me. thank you thank you thank you maddie. you are so loved by me and so many others.

[@HaleyJeanASMR]

so much love to you mads. thank you for being vulnerable and sharing this, i know it helps so many. we love you. 🤍🤍 also apollo is sooo cute 🥹

[@tarahamberlyn93]

Ive been watching you for years, i love you and im so sorry you have to go through this, you have such a kind soul a big heart and are so strong. I give so much love your way Maddie❤

[@lovesickmermaid7114]

i imagine this must be a very personal thing to share so thank you for trusting us with this insight into your life. before i came across your channel i didn't know much about the types of chronic illness you have but i've learned a lot from your content and since the beginning of the pandemic especially i've been trying to educate myself more on chronic illnesses as well as how to be a better ally to people who are suffering from them. i hope you're able to gain comfort from knowing that you're not alone and there are millions of us out there rooting for you ❤

[@maddiemoore5309]

maddie, i am absolutely heartbroken for you. i am so sorry this is something you have to go through. i could never begin to imagine the utter pain- mental and physical- that you go through on a daily. the strength and resilience you have, to even get out of bed, is amazing to me. i know it doesn’t feel like it to you, but just doing “the smallest thing” (to anyone who’s not living with a chronic illness) is incredibly productive based on the severe pain you feel. truly wishing you peace beyond imagination, because you truly deserve that. love you girl 💕

[@autumnmoonASMR]

dogs are so pure

[@herprettynails]

“ the bed feels like a prison, my bedroom feels like a prison. “ thank you maddie for putting that into a sentence, that is often how I feel. some days i am in too much pain to leave my bed and go to school or work. my room and my bed is all I’ve known since i was a little girl unfortunately it’s not fun. It does feel like a prison. I’m sorry you have to go through all of this maddie 💕💕 you are such an inspiration and i love watching your videos. especially when I can’t fall asleep. your videos are always comforting and helpful in my hardest moments. you are so amazing and pretty and you deserve the world maddie

[@Alicia_the_short1]

This breaks my heart. Thank you kindly from the bottom of my heart for all that you do. You are strong and loved.

[@XxDaniel317xX]

THIS.

[@francisdl22]

I have crohn’s disease and i was in constant flare for almost 10 months. 3 treatments failed and finally found one that works! I feel for you so much! Stay strong 🙏🏻

[@cd40612]

same 😭

[@kristinavechinski7182]

I empathize with this video more than I wish I did. I have a sleep disorder, chronic migraines, ASD, and more. I'm fighting to be able to work a full-time job but the chronic exhaustion that comes with my sleep disorder is so bad. I never leave my house except for work. My mom takes me to the grocery and out to lunch once a week and I wonder how I would do it without my parents. Your strength is so inspiring

[@carrie2469]

You’re not alone Maddie. I have multiple chronic illnesses too and excruciating chronic neuropathic pain. No cure. It’s exhausting, isolating, and mentally distressing. Thank you for sharing the reality. I’m so sorry you suffer so much too. I hope you know you give so much peace and relaxation to so many and it means the world. Bless you and big hugs 🤍

[@elenie333]

thank you for sharing this maddie. you have communicated such a painful, lonely experience in a beautiful and vulnerable way. the strength it takes to continue caring for yourself AND keep up with your work online is unimaginable. i truly hope you are able to find moments of peace, painlessness, and connection through this flare. you are amazing ❤️

[@hiphiphorina]

hi mads! i love your videos so much and we are so so incredibly proud of you for everything you’ve done. you’ve helped many of us thru out the times and we will do the same for you. watching this vidoe made me see things in a different perspective. although i am not suffering thru a chronic illness myself, there is someone i know who is. watching this vidoe made me realize how hard and difficult life feels with it and to take nothing for granted. Thank you mads, we’re sending so much love.

[@belerinah]

Sweet girl I feel for you. I was diagnosed myself with a degenerative joint disease that works with unpredictable flares. Some triggers are predictable, like high stress. Last night, after a week of high stress that I tried my very best to clam down, I laid in bed in so much pain sleep would not come, even though I was using the great tool that is your ASMR... In those cases it just feels unfair ; stress itself is bad enough as it is, why should I suffer all the more like this ? It's hard. I'm rooting for you. Sending love your way.

[@sarah81894]

Never watched an ASMR video that made me tear up. Watching you cry was heart breaking! I hope this flare up passes soon for you and thank you for sharing this vulnerable side of your life with us 💖

[@wargodest]

Thank you for being vulnerable with us, Maddie. I'm a long time viewer, you're my go-to asmrtist and bring me so much comfort. I'm going through a flare up myself, so this makes me feel less alone in my isolation. Thank you.

[@andi4319]

Your videos have brought me a lot of comfort during many dark days Maddie. I appreciate what you do so much. Sending all my love and hope to see you feeling better soon. ❤️

[@iheartvile]

as another chronic illness girlie who has been struggling with identifying other health issues lately, we love you 🫶🏽 sending spoons!!!!

[@shanatariga82]

I've lived with chronic pain since 2009. It changed my life. It changed who I am. It changed who I am to the point that I've lost friends because I couldn't be the fun vibrant life of the party I once was. It's so depressing. It's a struggle. Thank you, Maddie, for being my favorite thing to fall asleep to and look forward to when you post something. ASMR has helped me so much but you are truly the post I look forward to the most. What you do is the most mesmerizing and comforting😊

[@danimarciasmr453]

You are so poetic when you speak. I can tell you’re wise

[@usern0th1ng]

youre such a precious soul Mads and you don’t deserve a bit of what youre forced to deal with on a daily basis, you’re such a strong woman❤❤❤ sending love your way

[@user-nr8bt3zo3b]

I know some days are hard.. but remember Maddie, you’re doing so well, fighting everyday. I’m so proud of you ! I genuinely hope the best for you ! We love you Maddie ❤️🥺

[@katiemcloughlin1394]

Oh Maddie, this hit hard. I’ve only been following you for a few months and had to look up Pots and what it was. I’m so sorry you have to go through this. You seem like such a beautiful genuine soul and it’s totally unfair you have to deal with this daily. I hope you have really good people around you supporting and loving on you. Keep the chin up girlie and I have everything crossed that this flare up eases soon. Thank you for letting us in and it’s so lovely to see others suffering from pots in the comments getting such comfort from your videos, how special. Take care x

[@gbclutchone]

feel this hardcore as a potsie/eds/mcas/all the other things lol. just trying to do simple tasks, the things you know will make you feel better but you don’t even have the energy to do. i’ve learned to make adjustments to even the smallest tasks to make it more comfortable. i recently got a wedge pillow to elevate my legs which has been a game changer 😮

[@juliannej5826]

Sweet, loved Maddie, we're with you. I want you to know you're my only constant source of friendship and safety during really rough years I'm going through. The fact you share such incredible light and warmth during all that you go through, says everything about your strength and spirit. Thank you for being so brave and inspiring by sharing this. You're not alone and I wish I could step into the screen and actually be there for you, like you always help me. 💗

[@Kejfnsnsmsksk]

I have tourettic obsessive compulsive disorder (the real thing, not the stereotype) and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. It’s debilitating and exhausting, and I constantly feel ashamed for not being able to live a normal life. Most of my time is spent alone in my room. I want friends and a love life and a meaningful career. I try to be proud of the small victories but they just feel so rare. Thank you for posting such a raw and honest video. I think you’re doing amazing 💜

[@Peachyr0se]

I’m sure you’ve tried everything and I don’t claim to be an expert but have you tried an OCD specialist therapist. For years I just tried councelling or talking therapy but it can make it worse. I found a OCD therapist who deeply understood and it was SO much better. I hope you feel stronger soon x

[@NamasteLizzyandLucy]

I’m sending you so much love. Thank you for being so vulnerable and open about your chronic illness. I know this helps so many of us who feel alone feel a little less alone. You are so strong and intelligent and I hope that you know the power of your videos. I am so glad you have your cuddly boy by your side at all times. Sending strength and love ❤️

[@ioanacoculescu]

As another chronically ill person with enough, I understand enormously the confort it brings to not be alone and also how you have to go through the pain without many resources, I love your dog! NSAIDS for me cause bleeding ulcers, the only things at home in my bed or in the hospital that helped me get through were the ASMR videos, so thank you for that and take care!💖

[@melodyiguess]

i was just recently diagnosed with pots. these last few days especially have been hard but your videos have helped so much. we love you maddie.

[@annas4191]

Stay strong ❤

[@elsamarie222]

Ugh Maddie, im sending you so much love! I know how difficult it can be and how lonely it gets, know that we love you and are here for you always🤍

[@usern0th1ng]

i’m so sorry love, we love you so much ❤❤ the doggo is so precious animals are such a gift❤❤

[@AugustAdvice]

I grew up with a father who was chronically ill throughout my childhood. He was on 20+ medications and couldn't leave his bed. As I got older I began to research the medications he was on and their debilitating side effects and had numerous conversations with his doctors and found that they were just throwing medications at him that gave him no relief and actually made his conditions a lot worse so we decided to take him off about 70% of his medications and he is doing so much better now with all the less side effects. A lot of medications side effects can cause painful joints and muscles, which was literally what he was trying to have relief from. It was like a perpetuating cycle. He still suffers from pain but he's no where near how he used to be, which was bed ridden. Medications can be useful but my experience taught me that if you have chronic illness its so important to have boundaries when it comes to trusting certain doctors and listen to your body most of all. Sorry you are dealing with this Maddie.

[@tulipsasmr]

oh wow, this made me cry. as a fellow chronic illness girly pop, this means a lot to see someone with a platform show the very raw and awful side of chronic illness. you described everything perfectly, thank you for sharing this with us 🤍

[@angiexcx]

hi mads, i've been watching you for almost 5 years now & have loved every moment of it. i urge you to remember you also are not alone & to extend the love you give us to yourself. you have been such a light on some of my darkest days. although im not chronically ill, my mental health has held me back from being on the same timeline as my peers; we have to remember, this is OUR life - who is to say how fast or slow it should be lived? sending you love ❤️

[@user-bq7is1fe3s]

I almost have no social life and I been watching u for 5 years now, it hurts me seeing you cry, many of us love u and really wish you the best 😢❤

[@ashpark9334]

i’m finally on the road to getting an official pots diagnosis, i feel so comforted not being alone and having my experiences validated in others

[@Ella-nu9kr]

Thank u sm for being here❤❤

[@lenecouture4909]

We love you so much Maddie. I hope you feel the love all the time that surrounds you because you are truly a light in all of our lives! I have been watching you for so long I don’t remember when I wasn’t watching your videos to relax or fall asleep. Hope you sleep as easily as me after watching your videos 💤💤💤❤

[@doiees]

maddie im so sorry for what u have to deal with on a daily basis & i pray you get better. sending love your way.❤

[@katrionic]

you’re genuinely so strong and lovely for sharing this. i’m sending you so much love, from the bottom of my heart thank you for fucking being brave enough to share this. you definitely make so many people feel not alone

[@aplusisamusttv]

You are one of my favorite ASMR artist. Seeing you cry and sad is completely heart breaking 💔this video hits different. You inspire so many and have saved so many souls, more so than humans with perfectly functioning bodies. Thank you for giving us a look inside your struggles. You are a lucky soul with eternal justice. And your soul will live forever! thank you for always being so generous and making videos that uplift and comfort us. Also, thanks for also showing up and making sure your nails, hair and make up is on fleek! not that it matters but I notice. You are so beautiful. My son and I send you our light and love !! You are appreciated and a legendary healer. You calm the nerves. Thank you thank you thank you. 💗 #aplusisamust

[@Lovelyyfaith-7]

Maddie, you are absolutely amazing! You inspire me to live life to the fullest even when it’s hard at times to do so. I’m so appreciative of your honesty and vulnerability. It’s so hard being a part of a world and, or culture that is so backwards.. that’s why I’m so happy to witness someone being genuinely themselves, thank you for being here and for trying your best everyday! We love you so much and thank you so much for your love and kindness. You bring me so much comfort and joy and I couldn’t be more appreciative for you!! Keep up the great work love! 💗

[@Arterion77]

I appreciate these videos so much. I have svt/afib and when I have episodes, they can be mild or severe and last minutes or hours. It is exhausting... literally. It may be a different illness, but so much of how you described howyour flares look in everyday life really hits home. Especially the part about just trying to get a drink. During my episodes, I've had to literally crawl to the bathroom because my heart doesn't correctly get the blood to my body which means everything from muscle fatigue and pain to passing out. I feel you, Maddie, even though it is different causes. Thank you for giving those of us with invisible illness visibility

[@strawberrymilk-f7e]

omg this idea is perfect thank you so much i love being able to feel like im right with you doing everyday things bc it can be so lonely sometimes to be in pain that the people around you dont experience

[@sampancakin]

i've been watching you for years now and you've always been such a great comfort to me. our situations may not be totally comparable, but i struggle with chronic migraines and multiple mental issues while also trying to work a job and go to school. you being so open about your struggles have comforted me in my own, and i cant thank you enough. you said you want people to feel less alone, and in full confidence i can say you have. watching your videos is like talking to a good friend. you never fail to make me feel better no matter how much pain or turmoil im experiencing. thank you for being here, thank you for doing what you. you've touched many lives❤️

[@eclecticasmr1737]

I am so in awe of you! Thank you for your vulnerability, I think that it is unique on social media to see the ups and downs of life in the way that you show them. Thank you for putting it out there that it is ok to not be ok, and that prioritizing mental health is always the right decision. The positivity and strength that you inspire is staggering. I'm wishing an easing of the pain and a return of some normalcy for you. Truly you're such a ray of sunshine, a pillar to this community, and an inspiration of mine! Sending you all the love and light you deserve (which is a monumental amount hun 💜💜) !

[@audreyurquhart9057]

Thank you so much for this beautiful girl!! I am still newer in my chronic illness journey (about a year) this is so helpful. Sending you all the virtual hugs❤️

[@amoni.k6632]

Maddie this video was extremely transparent and I’m happy you feel comfortable sharing with us your condition. I can wholeheartedly relate to your story, I have sickle cell, a genetic disease causing chronic pain, it’s like everyday as soon a wake up it’s pain. I am a college student, working a a pharmacy tech just trying my hardest to make it all work. It’s so hard sometimes to just get up and eat but i have so many responsibilities it’s like i can’t even focus on myself anymore. Like everyday i feel burnt out i am so grateful to not feel alone in all this. You have been such a positive influence in my life. I realize it’s so much i want to experience, i want to be recognized for more than what I’m diagnosed with. Thank you for making me feels lonely in this world. You are so kind and i really pray things get better for not just you but to everyone reading this❤

[@ScratchNowWithJeremy]

I believe in you 100% Maddie, no matter what this illness is doing. ❤ You are loved, loving, and loveable. I hate that illness and I am praying it goes away.

[@Xsofclarke]

Girl you are not alone we love you ❤️ Mine is nowhere near like yours but I have a hiatal hernia which flares up a lot and slides and bleeds to the point I pass out from being so anemic. It’s so exhausting being constantly exhausted and so damn depressing seeing the work pile up around me. I’m always here for you ❤️❤️❤️ Thank you for sharing!

[@rturner0484]

Prayers for a speedy recovery and health. 🙏🏾

[@iiebonybuildsii.7431]

Maddie, you’re so strong. Wishing you so much love and light. You are truly amazing. Sending blessings your way lovely ❤️

[@Jezell02]

Hi Maddie! You are so strong, truly inspiring💗 I’m suffering with severe GERD for years and had the worst flare this whole month that made me realize I can’t be alone because GERD triggers my anxiety/panic attacks which I already fainted a few times this month. It’s my 4th week coping up since the flare, the first few weeks were hard I can barely eat anything and scared to eat because my body would be in so much pain. I can’t lay down anytime I want because I get painful chest pains and heartburn. Frequent dizziness especially in the afternoons. It was so bad to the point that I never stepped out of the house for 2 months… It altered my life and made me feel left out. Some days I get hopeful and some days it worsens my mental health. But despite that, I’m fighting! And seeing you being genuine with your bad days has touched me and knowing that there are strong people like you out there then I have to be the same too💗 Thank you Maddie.

[@lilahend]

Really hope your feeling better. So sorry you have to deal with this but you are so strong ❤❤

[@chronically.samasmr]

your videos bring me so much comfort 💕 thank you for sharing🫶

[@demolitionlover5336]

maddie, i have pots and hEDS, and this video is so helpful to us with chronic illness. it’s a reminder that we’re not alone, and neither are you. we love you, take care of yourself ❤️❤️

[@Melindah111]

I have fibromyalgia/cfs/cronic migraine and your videos are so helpful as I feel less alone. Thank you for doing these. x

[@gracem7551]

Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable! You are such an important member of this community and I’m grateful you continue to post videos.

[@bellissima77]

sweet strong girl😢 This was so raw and vulnerable, I appreciate you for sharing a piece of yourself with us..and thank you for putting out 100s of videos on two different platforms all while facing the struggles of your chronic illnesses. Your effort doesn't go unnoticed. 🩷 We appreciate you and I'm sending you soooo much love 💘

[@TianaNovaa]

Thank you so so much for this vunerable upload 💜 I suffer from debilitating chronic pain and fatigue due to my endometriosis and I understand the loneliness and grief of not being able to do the things you want to while seeing everyone else move on with their life, sending you so many hugs 💜 and even just watching this feels so validating and knowing other people struggle with the similar pain and feelings as me definitely makes me feel less alone 💜

[@MelodyMeadowsASMR]

Maddie I am sorry you go through this. I also suffer from pots and I related to this video so deeply. Thank you for opening up and bringing so honest and raw with your experiences. Sending lots of love to you friend 🩷🩷🩷

[@liledith09]

Oh Maddie! 😢 Sending you hugs, love and all the soothing comfort vibes your way. You've been by my side for so long and I'm here by yours. I love you girl! ❤️

[@alyssasanne1713]

I’m sending you love. There’s so much peace in you. Through this strong wave you’re learning so much about you.

[@jaimewilson9104]

I thank you for your full transparency into your life. The joy and peace you bring to your fans and clients I wish is reciprocated in healing energy and light Mads. ❤

[@URB4N.0]

You are enough and loved , you’re like a mother to me. I love you so much maddie

[@MissLP]

Sending love 🖤 🫶 Hope youre coming out of your flare. I have a chrobic pain condition and constantly grieve for the life i had before the condition started. This video means so much xx

[@JennaL200]

Maddie, thank you for this honest video❤ I'm not chronically ill but I have severe OCD and social anxiety and I can't work, I don't leave the house, I can't do many many things for myself. I can relate if even just a little bit. I so wish this flare ends soon and you will feel better❤ I hope you'll get to have joyful moments in these difficult days and that they give you the strength to keep going. You will get to the other side of this flare❤ Love and light to you Maddie❤ I have a migraine so this message might be a little off, hope it makes some sense

[@Kejfnsnsmsksk]

I have severe OCD too! I’m on disability because of it. It’s too hard to live a normal life so I stay in my room and just suffer by myself. Most people don’t understand how bad the disorder really is. I see you and I’m in this with you 💜

[@JennaL200]

I'm sorry you have to deal with this exhausting disorder. Let's try to help ourselves a little bit every day so that one day we could live full and meaningful lives. I hope you remember to enjoy your life in the meantime. We have to enjoy the smallest things and be proud of ourselves for making it through the day. I wish you peace of mind and strength to keep going❤️

[@evs6417]

Hi mads!!!

[@JailynSoTalkative]

8:00 🥺🥺🥺 my heart dropped.. we are here for you Mads ❤

[@aronfaelt3520]

We are so proud of you 💛💛💛

[@aikerim19]

Get well soon, Maddie🩵 I will pray for your speedy recovery🙏🏻

[@Avaprincess8600]

Maddie I’m so so sorry you’re going through this. I will pray for you. You are special. You are worth it. Just keep fighting. Your life is not meaningless. You are amazing. Is there anyone that could help you? Maybe moving back in with your mom or dad? I feel like you need help. Your family or anyone. Being so isolated can’t be healthy. I wish you the best…😢

[@carleighq]

I have EDS, POTS, MCAS, vascular compressions, GP, kidney issues + more, and watching this video under a flare-up. Thank you for your transparency and sharing your CI journey. You’ve helped me through so many challenges, and have made me feel less alone. I truly appreciate you and everything you do, and being such a positive, transparent person. Love u mads, sending spoons! ❤❤

[@AsiaSoUniqueASMR]

You are so strong Maddie, we love you and we care so much about you and your health. I will be praying for you and remember that you are not alone Queen❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@BG-qv6dk]

I’m praying for you Maddy. Sending so much love your way 💗

[@JamieHays-li7zc]

Being chronically ill can be so lonely I have colitis, endometriosis, Long QT syndrome , tachycardia, ocular migraines and more it’s like watching everyone live there best life and do everything they want to do while all you can do is sit back and watch

[@melindasr5611]

I am so sorry Maddie, to see you like this hurts. You so young and full of life that I just wish god would heal you. We are all here with you. Please take care of yourself ❤❤❤❤

[@NFSMAN50]

Helloo Maddie, it's always a blessing to see you friend!! So proud of you friend, I always feel comforted and safe here!!

[@rachael422]

The crescent city books are sooo good. I'm so so sorry you're going through all of this. Thank you for always posting amazing content. Keeping you in my prayers.🫶

[@XxDaniel317xX]

I'm so sorry you go through this. I really truly am. I don't know you on a personal level but I am SO dang proud of you regardless. Thanks for making these types of videos and also all the great asmr you give us. Take care!!!

[@millyyyasmr]

Thank you for sharing I can’t imagine how difficult it is to deal with on a daily basis. We love you

[@mollythorpe6307]

I am in the same boat girl, having an ok month, it wasn’t too bad. Got through my iron infusions and didn’t need to get any blood. I also have a two year old little girl now so she keeps me going, my hard days look a lot like this still, just with a little one snuggled up to me. I constantly worry that I am holding her back from a normal childhood because I can’t always drive so I can’t take her to do many things, but she is such a HAPPY girl I just am reminded every day that I am doing my best and to her that is everything ❤ Praying for you to get out of this flare and into a good spot for a while! You are never alone!

[@Masterdre4678]

I know this is a older video but I hope you know I appreciate you being open I too struggle with chronic health problems and some days are just super hard to clean or move around I hate even wearing certain clothing items because it hurts so bad I’m glad u have your puppy to comfort you during these lonely times

[@Pewpew-uw3jf]

Thank you for sharing your experience and your thoughts. I really appreciate the openness that you share with us. It means so much please get better ♥️♥️ we love you ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@kaitswartzlander5594]

You’ve helped me so much Maddie through some of the most difficult times

[@ana8735]

Girl I love you, and I hope you are better soon. Thank you for the video, even though it was difficult for you, you are not alone either. ❤

[@doras9348]

Thank you for sharing, thank you for existing ❤ I know it can get so so lonely , just know you have so many of us rooting for you , thinking about you and praying for you ! Lots of love mads

[@karagrasso]

I also deal with chronic illness, so i definitely feel for you. I also feel as though my bed is a prison bc i have to lay down so often. My heart breaks for you! I hope you are feeling better 💓💓

[@TheCata1408]

sending all my love, all my healing energy and all my light to you Mads!

[@Phoenix-wx8oj]

You're such a brave person Maddie. I prayed for every wish in your heart to come true 🙏

[@patrickwestgard113]

Hope you feel better maddie keep fighting and never give up

[@SamaraMoores]

You are a beautiful soul Mads. I wish I could take away your pain. I think of you often and make sure to send you lots and lots of positive energy. Remember that you are so so loved🤍

[@janetblake6361]

Aww thank you for sharing something so personal. I can relate .just came out of a gastrointestinal flare with debilitating nausea . Asmr overall has helped me cope thank you for your videos and putting in energy to give us tingles

[@darceyfoley6035]

This made me cry from the moment I saw you bury your head in the blanket to cry, stay strong Mads, you are so loved and are so strong ❤️

[@vania_hermosilla]

Have you tried acupuncture? It’s really helpful with chronic pain and to bring balance to the entire body. I’m sorry for being intrusive, but i really think it could help. Thank u for being so vulnerable on camera and showing us a very intimate part of yourself. It’s inspiring for me, dealing with other kind of illness, but i can relate in many ways. You are doing amazing! Big hugs from Chile.