I was in pain before I became numb

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[@atascodetiempo6013]

Link to the playlist on Spotify : open.spotify.com/playlist/5NN4DJLhNLREhLdgdGqtMc?si=33c989fb23cf441d

[@Vlad-fq3mk]

Karma says once the heart gets to heavy with pain, people don’t cry. they just turn silent, completely silent.

[@olliefoster5331]

I am silent with my feelings, even from myself. It's safer that way. ❤

[@brandonwinter9918]

its true its trauma you get tired of feeling the same way about the same things day after day the things just keeps piling up your friends start to leave because they say your distant because you dont care anymore when its not that you dont care its that you feel that nobody cares so why should you act like something your not friends stabbing you in the back people who you thought were family people who you thought you could never see yourself living without then you just stop feeling because when you feel it leads to expectations and expectations lead to disappointments and disappointments lead to more pain so eventually you stop expecting things from people and things get alot easier for a while then you start to notice that everyone expects everything from you and nobody is willing to give it in return so you stop helping and after so long you forget how to feel and once you cross that line i dont know if there's every any way back out of it you can try to care but it never works your just stuck on autopilot.

[@djfaded420]

The last time i dated, i stopped talking and socializing in general because of the hurt i gave to my ex. Took me 3 years to realized that i was the monster as i wanted to make amends (which i recently done) saying that i was wrong to hurt her that way.... At the same time all i wanted was to see her smile but all i gave was hurt.... When i was catching up with life. I made peace with my demons that i been bottling up for so long as i stay completely quiet on life.... All i wanted was a smile when i dated her but having to let her go only to see her smile with someone else hurts me... But im grateful she's happy. Even though everytime i speak to her, i smile it off but when she isnt around. I fight myself. I know she's alright at the end as i spend nights in and out thinking on the things i done that affected others. Even though my soul is tarnished.... It's not hallowed (fromsoftware pun) but all the less, i know if i end up saying "i always loved you" when times are tough for her, i wouldnt be able to forgive myself to see her ultimately hurt by me again. Deep down i say to myself that maybe I'm doomed to be loved. For years i seen love could only make and break people. I know that deep down if i ever end up telling her how i feel, i fear that one of us would die. I fear that if i make one fuck up, i would roam this world alone like i done throughout my whole life. But.... The love i want to give her is the love she needs. But im bad at choosing my words even though i break myself to love others. But that's not love.... It fawns me to say it but i cant lie to myself. Even though i don't know how to love.... I want to learn how.... But idc what i want... Because it's ok for me to be at peace to those i wronged. Even though deep down i would give anything to anyone.. I'm selfless. But fuck..... It's so hard to live alone... At the end of the day my soul is looking at the right place even though she deserves everything..... But its ok knowing that karma is doing its doing on me.... I could finally breath at ease knowing she's ok

[@fotisk5680]

Idk what karma says but sometimes i just feel like i ran out of tears

[@cubeofmeat4982]

Is it because we grow stronger or we just grow more numb

[@uchihakitten4094]

It’s something you’re born with, this feeling no one seems to understand.. yet “the unseen ones” know exactly how you feel!

[@based_prophet]

Yet it's nothing if never found

[@ismoeillob4108]

It was never Lost yet we are still searching and as we search we still found nothingness

[@animesevenday2612]

Love from Türkiye to all my international brothers here

[@foulmoodcentral2830]

No more thoughts, no more words that cut through my marrow. no more clutter, no more platitudes. no more appeasement, not even to myself... just this sweet, cold and hollow place where everything that hurt me used to be. to the void with it all.

[@smritithakur9164]

Look how peaceful being numb is.. Look how calm everything is.. How no one even notices, Talk about my agony, See how much my thoughts are paining me, Look how the sounds are getting mighty, Overcoming the reality, There seems some light in darkness.. Some happiness in numbness..

[@Mashita_Kills77]

did u write this? It's goth and wonderful

[@smritithakur9164]

@@Mashita_Kills77 yes! I wrote it. Thank you for appreciation.

[@jacktheripper5662]

​@@smritithakur9164amazing job lady it's arguably the most meaningful thing I have read this year

[@smritithakur9164]

@@jacktheripper5662 An arguably meaningful thing, is a well weaved comment as well. thank you, sir.

[@cof...]

I understand the title well. When you go through a heavy load of pain, psychologically speaking, eventually you go numb because your brain is trying to cope with the inability to process severe, ongoing trauma. Things and people shut down when overloaded.

[@godofchaoskhorne5043]

"I was miserable before I knew I was no longer happy, and bowed with responsibility before I knew I held it" - Severian of the Seekers of Truth and Penitance

[@NitemareAfterKrismas]

I remember having a drunken conversation with a friend of mine, about wanting to live a happy life. But that was before we both went to war. Now I’m the only one who drinks alone.

[@Nikkimancina]

I’m so so sorry for your loss my friend

[@thecode9078]

Keep your head high soldier. Sorry for your loss ❤…

[@SirArtorias]

You're introducing me to tunes I'd never heard, and I'm in love. I can't believe most of these are Turkish, and I would never have discovered them otherwise - in fact, they are so underground and difficult to find even with their names. I was only familiar with a few Turkish songs from Ibrahim Tatlises and a few well-known ones from Turkish TV series.

[@Zeynep-pu9jf]

Same!!

[@Doodenx]

we've been blessed

[@fatihrime]

We don’t know them too. They have 3-4k subs and 100-1000 views. “hidden gem”

[@trisnawulandari6988]

me to!!

[@Healthytruth]

Turkey stole everything from Armenians . 🖕🏽🇹🇷

[@justkeepmovingforward.3888]

Why , you ask? I gave up. It seemed never ending , and every time some hope glimpsed at me , despair put it out. That fire that was keeping warm , I don't remember it. All I remember is that trying became unworthy of my existence. Sure I didn't know at the time , how could I. Faith , trust, yeah I knew them , before what seemed to be a long nightmare that wouldn't end. "I" was there , somewhere I didn't know, somewhere cold , only cold. Confusion was a lot of my emotions, as I tried to make sense of what looked like a foggy picture with no ends. Though I remember those hands , they shut me up as I was in pain , over and over again , till my pain began to lose its meaning. Hopelessness never gave me the cold shoulder, and thoughts of "why" never seemed to lead me anywhere. So I shut up. Or at least it looked that way. It was raging, underneath the surface, my anger towards everything that led to that moment, the shame they faced my naivety and hurt with , as I strived to make them happy in a desperate attempt to save myself from the prison they put me in. I tried. I really did , even when my being screamed at me to stop , I didn't, I couldn't. It was my final stand , nowhere to go from there. My last shot to freedom. I didn't care at some point about none of it , it just hurt too much. I went blank , my mind full of silence , but kept going. They didn't seem to be satisfied with my sacrifice , and it looked like they never will. Waiting for a day when some fire would warm me again, I layed my being to rest behind the wall , hidden from any expectations of warmth. Maybe even scared of it , it was too unfamiliar , with no trust, I craved something I was hiding from , But never stopped looking for. Idk why you would read this comment but know you know a piece of my story. I know how cold it can get , trust me. I just want you to know , it's hard now but will get better , it's tough now but will be easier, you have what it takes , you always did. Keep moving forward.

[@justkeepmovingforward.3888]

@@SunnyDlite84 no need , it's getting better.👊

[@xGsn_]

Crazy part is i keep thinking im finally numb to everything and nothing would hurt anymore and then i realize im not numb enough yet. Happiness seems like a dream that only in movies you can achieve.

[@smritithakur9164]

Sometime when the days will get better promise me you all will return..

[@FeralSkittlez]

Finally a playlist where not only do i not skip songs, but can repeat ❤

[@04EO]

I’ve been trying to remind myself that the ideal of being numb is caused by pain and suffering which never truly fades no matter how numb we may seem to feel we’re all still live beings.

[@TV-tu8so]

I'm not a music connoisseur, I can't judge a song based on its lyrics or melody. But the songs touch my soul, I just can't stop crying, Im sorry. You can skip it, I just want to go crazy for a minute. I suffered from emotional abuse, and I knew this when I was in middle school, my family was the one who caused it and they deny that they caused my mental problems now. They often tease me about how I was born, about my looks, my personality, my friends and sometimes my hobbies and dreams. I don't have a voice in my family, I can't let them know when I cry, they will make a fuss and get reasons from me, reasons they WANT to hear. I can't be too happy because they'll think I have a problem and bother them. I am not allowed to be sick because I will not be able to do the housework and the medicine will be expensive, especially with my heart valve disease. I'm afraid to be with my family, I try to go to school as soon as possible, and I don't eat with them much. When we sit down to eat, they just always ask about my studies and relationships, they judge my friends, talk bad about my friends when they're not around. I can't do anything, I'm tired and I'm sick of what I've been through, they've done so many bad things, but one thing makes me completely lose hope that they can change. On that day, just about half a year ago, I decided to talk to them, I lost control of their attitude, I didn't mean to. After all the words I said, the only thing they cared about was "I can't love you anymore, I'm sorry." And when they asked me why, I was completely dumbfounded, they never heard me, and when I said the only thing they cared about, they asked me "Why?", when the answer was already mentioned before. They think I'm unfilial, uneducated, wretched and many other things. I don't love them but that doesn't mean I hate them, they are my family. I always tell myself that I must love them, respect them, be grateful to them no matter how wrong they are, because they are my family, and I am not the right person either. But gradually, over the course of all these years, the balance has tilted a little more towards "Hate". I know you can't read this, but I still want to say. "Can you please let me sleep without scolding? Im tired of my sick and life already." To you, the person who created this playlist, thank you, atleast it can make me relax for a short moment.

[@atascodetiempo6013]

I could swear I cried with you once because what you wrote, or rather what you went through, was so hurtful. I won't talk about hope as nothing will change no matter what I tell you. Sometimes no one can prevent the things we cannot change in life from harming us. This experience is one of them. I'm sorry I couldn't ease some of your pain. I'm sorry for being too foreign to be with you. I'm sorry I couldn't hug you and make you feel good. But if we meet one day, I promise I will hug you tight. I will stroke your hair for you to sleep. Please accept yourself as you are. Live as you know yourself. Follow your dreams and do your best.

[@TV-tu8so]

@@atascodetiempo6013 Thank you, it's not much, but you make me feel a little happier, it's funny when strangers care about you more than your family, haha.

[@glasslilacs]

@@TV-tu8so I've been here in this situation with you. It's so heavy of a burden to bear. Thankfully, the silver lining is that it's possible to go elsewhere when you get of age. You CAN move away. You CAN live a dignified life with other people. Your family will always be your family, but thankfully family often get stuck in their ways but change their attitudes when they get some distance. One day you'll be able to get that distance from them and your relation will be different. Hang in there my friend. Sincere hugs and kisses from me, who has since gotten away and has a better relationship with their parents.

[@Nini-rc2tw]

i sincerely believe you will recieve the happiness you deserve and all the negative energy and people would nit be a burden for you and you will live a happy and fullfiling life with or wothout being in touch woth your parents. ❤❤❤🫂🫂🫂

[@Joyce_TheWriter]

Eu acho que é justo odiar aqueles que lhe odeiam e lhe fazem mal, e amar somente aqueles que lhe amam e lhe fazem bem. Por que você daria a eles o que eles não lhe dão? É injusto. Lhe desejo dias melhores.

[@sk8rlad]

I was a soul before I turned into a ghost......

[@H.art22]

❤️

[@sk8rlad]

@@H.art22 🖤

[@joeyom90]

don't bother yourself, no one will fkn understand.

[@struggleryoutube]

Anyone reading this just know your struggles will have an eternal reward if you live as a good person despite your pain. Reuinited with the lord all your suffering will be washed away and you will look back knowing you did your best, god bless you all ❤

[@thecode9078]

Amen ❤

[@Nikki-co1xk]

I’ve become so numb I can feel you there

[@wlink639]

I am at this point again. They say it's all temporary but it never ends, I always return to the same except it's only even worse with time.

[@7ossamelsayed346]

damn felt that

[@chaosdweller]

Get high and get weird and feed yer head for a bit haha, it sure helps me haha, heck ! ....the next day after pulling a all nighter and feeling what y'all normal sapiens in yer diminsion feel all night haha always! and I mean always ... lubes everything up for me like the tin man haha the next day haha, well emotions are connected, .... and if ? yer walking around as wound up as Atlas all day cuz of secret war on yer race that yer last of haha , u probably would get something out of some happiness vs being on E all the time ya know haha, makes sense to me haha, but then again this obviously is only applicable to people not living as a hostage or a slave , or a pow, or locked up abroad in 3rd world country ofcourse haha, otherwise it might be a regressive situation for y'all maybe? haha, guess u gotta get real real miserable somewhere?( like a long stay in a muddy trench in a war for ex ) to get to this point I think 🤔............. haha, yeah but y'all don't sound too far off haha, I hear marriage and kids will do that to some eventually haha, even though the only guy in the USA wanting marriage it seems haha, ..... man that feeling of freedom is wonderful feeling isn't it? haha.... yeah I miss it haha, want my USA citizenship back big time! .... haha ( no I'm not making a sarcastic joke saying big time about my accidental extra attention here no haha ) , wait till y'all have a thousand dollars u earned from yer taxes to spend in the states but u can't cuz yer cells( u also pay for with male servant work) owner operator experimenting on u says 1 day nope , yer a robot 🤖 , and u owe even though u don't know yer a bot and u don't know how u got in debt except for getting extra attention in the attention economy that everyone wants (attention)now haha (best idea I got about my debt honest lol! ) and that no sorry I can't allow ...u the bot in debt cant buy that new legal creatine with yer blue collard $ here domestically no haha (another true story btw haha) then if ? u get a family member to sneak in some legal contraband lmao! ...... there's no where to store it before radicals get there hands on it making it into something else entirely (usually poison) haha! ......yep I swear on my life ✋ it took me 8 yrs to figure out 🤔 how to take creatine as a lifter without getting poisoned like in past haha, from the time I had roommates I mostly trusted, to the start of being on my own haha, .....it literally!!!!!! (another 100% true story from a senior citizen here) took a long and arduous labyrinth of a long line of trial and errors' and near tears haha to get me to a point where I could be slightly boosted naturally as a athlete competing against other 23chromosime males in cut throat competitions in a small pond taking place against 1st world country citizens with clean food and drinks and supplements for ex , while doing the fastest growing manliest sport in the world lol! ..... yeah it got tough at times around here u could say haha, btw did I mention all my clothes (only ones I like lol! )get torn up when I'm at work or the gym ? haha to give you another mental pic haha , matter of fact! ... haha that's how I got here actually haha, yep that killing room lifestyle does a # on yer brain 🙃 haha....., I tell you what haha, worst is the guns being moved around near my head in my room while I sleep 😴 haha! ....god that's worst haha, but yeah they were really on to something there I think? haha yep even became obsessed with that movie for a small 🤏 moment with only 1 pyche and 1 mind ironically enough haha, then many yrs later haha somehow ended up getting SJWs and radical local common folk haha to basically just do it (still happening ) all on their own themselves haha , I guess there good ol rural 🤠 independent diyers around here haha which u gotta admire some I guess? haha ......., sad thing is haha, I no longer can socialize due to being a really sick guy haha and have literally accidentally made my own prison in indefinite complete solitary confinement and shut and locked the door with no known key haha, and the only time I really feel alive now is when reflecting on my real life nightmare I'm currently watching go on in here between my ears haha( kinda like the narrated ether scene in fear and loathing haha ) , especially when they assume it's all cognitive failure and not pychosis haha, and then later breaking down the whole prior social situation as some may ? go by like they do sometimes labeling me a invalide cripple and then later giving a college lecture on what's going on that y'all usually are all completely unaware of lol! oh boy that's a real hoot! lol! luv it haha, makes me feel alive haha, luv being the fool , and later teaching those same people saying I am , about the new social trends and algorithms there completely unaware of (my personal fav haha) or don't wanna admit I know about haha, that's me feeling alive right there haha, hmmmm..... now that I think about it 🤔........., maybe? from this angle ? .....I can learn to enjoy the whispers as I walk by when walking through the local market after getting the gumsion to go to town haha, maybe philosophicaly I'm looking at it all wrong here even when talked about in public in the present (most frustrating btw )haha, yes ...... maybe? realize that I can just teach them something later in a lecture, preventing me from ever getting pissed off again about getting called a special needs kid in public haha , yeah! .... that's it, just visualize teaching them what I (me) know I could (due to the percentages of people that I talk to that are completely unaware of the patterns of human behavior around me and them in the same setting I'm getting insulted in lol! that are all being recorded with photographic memory evidence that they don't usually have when doing the same things in the same place time after time haha and my memory of 🤤 faces when talking about this subject I like is my proof lol! ) that might be the key for me dealing with the less self aware people around me saying hey look 👉 that's the cripple guy in public haha, yeah I'll just visualize this truth next time haha, or visualizing this later on basically haha, well anyways maybe that helps y'all? haha.

[@Lamont_Smythe]

I've forgotten what it's like to feel good it's been so long. It's such a torment, existing like this, knowing what I've lost. I am forever soulless, hopeless, and alone.

[@kirito1361]

I used to feel , i used to feel things , anger, sadness, fear, happiness connection . I used to feel the excitement of just watching you walk into the room and giving me a smile, i used to feel the love i had for you , i used to feel and now i dont, tho i know i should feel a lot of things but i dont think i can its sort of like a part of me , a part that felt things has been cut off , removed and the only things i can feel now are a numbing pain and sometimes an known guilt as i try to wash my pain away with random stimulations just to keep myself sane.

[@henisksa]

same bro, I'm sorry. Hope that everything will change in future

[@eoghantheuntamed9613]

The title's basically my life. Been through a lot of pain and now I have become numb to things so I wouldn't get hurt anymore.

[@boxingelfis1499]

That makes sense, but, do you feel that you are numb to the moments of joy too?

[@cidar4750]

@@boxingelfis1499 It's probably different for each one, but your question might be irrelevant in many cases. Imagine you have a plate full of salt and you have to eat it all at once - salty, eh? But no worries, someone might think - there are some sprinkles of sugar, does your tongue taste the sweetness, when your mouth is full of salt with some sugar? "Can't you just focus on the sweetness?" someone might ask. Well.. salty would be something - numb would be the absent of that. People might chuckle or laugh, but it's kinda hollow in the bigger picture for some of them, consumed by the void that surrounds their feelings.

[@boxingelfis1499]

@@cidar4750 I understand. I honestly was not trying to be patronising and putting it like: "Oh, just ignore your pain and loneliness, and concentrate on the happy things!" Why I asked that question was because I wanted to know if, in that numb world that has cleatly hurt them so, there is a ray of light in their life, something they truly enjoy with unhindered happiness. Something they look forward to that makes some days not feel so bad or long.

[@bryantorres6629]

'Are you proud of what you did?! What have you become?!' "Myself.."

[@naturesambiance531]

This is exactly what happened to me. But I’m not gona give up. I hope with can help people with my content. Whatever you’re going through remember you can do this and you’re all special, love you all and all the best for 2023! ❤

[@polkol8502]

Yeni yila girerken, tarifsiz hislere layık bir liste...

[@SadmanSadman-gp4og]

I am numb why My fear would torment me every moment, my sadness would crush me, my traumas would destroy me, But I also miss beautiful things, I lose the beautiful feelings that a song would produce in me if I weren't dead, I miss moments of pleasure, I lose the ability to empathize with my characters and be able to enjoy their stories, I can't get excited about anything, I only have to leave this world, I will do it in the most elegant way I can, At last I will be able to rest, this music expresses my desire and my pain but at the same time it makes me remember why most of the time I am numb, Good morning, afternoon or evening, enjoy these melodies.

[@user-jx8qv8ni3f]

Pain was *something* , at least. All I have now is a reflection of my own sins, a shell of the man I used to be. Never numb yourselves folks, take everything in and be grateful that you can at allé

[@m3rt7132]

işte aradığın türk yorum, video harika bir sanat eseri.

[@siirimsiduslerim]

ÇOCUKTUM, DÖNÜYORUM. Evet çocuktum, inanabiliyormusun? Hayranlık duymadım hiç sevmeye. Çünkü severdim, bende herkes gibi. Çocuktum, büyüdükçe yine dönüyorum büyüyen küçüğe. Benziyordu semalar eskiden gözlerine. Şimdi derin bir yalnızlık düştü şiirlerime. Buzlu bir cam ardında yağan karı özledim. İlk aşkım geliyor aklıma,bak!şimdi de boynum büküldü. Mahcupluk düştü aksanımın servetine. Çulsuz kaldı hislerim aynı eski cebi delik halim gibi. Para girmezdi cümleme, çünkü bisküvi satın alırdık. Hep mutlu kalıp hayallere dalardık. Kin sardı her tarafımı... Büyüdük ve kin ile tanıştık. Ahbaptı sokak sevincleri bana. Yalnız hissetmezdim kendimi, kendi fikrime karşı. Yalnız kaldım, büyüdükçe kendimle sınandım. Çehrem geliştikçe,simam sertleşti. Unuttum sevmeyi,unuttum beni. Unutamadım seni,unutamadım kaybettiğim beni. Unutulmuş hisler arasında,bir Toygun doğdu. Kazanmak için kendinde keşfetti giz dolu yurdu. Ahval çetinlere düşünce satırlara koştu. Yeni ben ile eski beni aradı durdu. Eskiye gittiğini görünce şaştı. Çocuktum büyüdükçe yine dönüyorum, büyüyen küçüğe... Duygulandın mı biraz? Yaşadın mı sözlerimde çocukluğunu. Yediğin ayazı ve unutmadığın intikamları. Yaşadın değil mi? Zihnim gelişti,zihnine hükmediyorum. Kalbinin kapağını,bir türlü açamıyorum. Çocukken iki gülüşürdük,şimdi dişler görünmüyor. Sahteleşen yüzlerden, sırma olmuş menfaatler akıyor. Evet zihini bilirim,ama seni tanımıyorum. O yüzden kapıları açacak cesareti bir kağıda yazıyorum. Eyy! Çocukluk sana geleceğimi biliyorum. Misketleri hazırla,topaç cihan da,sana dönüyorum... Mısralar yetmez ki, seni, beni sığdırmaya. Son bir kaç gündür farklıyım. Gamsız adam duygusal takılıyor. Namsız büyüyen her fidan gibi büyüyor. Gözlere bakınca, gülen toydum, Toygun oldum. Ölüm gelse kapıma,düşüncelerime hafif kalır. Düşünmekten ölüme koşan bir çocuk için. Sevda kırıldı benim bahtıma, uğramıyor şu aralar. Gözden geçirdiğim nice yenilgiler var. Sevda onlardan biriydi oysa. Yeniden hatırlıyorum sevmeyi, anlıyorum kıymetini. Çocukken sevip uzaklaştığım ne varsa,daha çok seviyorum. Saf ve temiz bir kalbi pırlanta yapmanın yolu nedir? Hadi bu soruya cevap bulsun piyanonun sahibi. Cümlelerim, kalemim nazarın da hışıma uğrayıp gark olur. Harbim teninin garbın da,mazime yapışan şark olur. Kuzeyim,Güney'im sen iken, bülbül talihsiz kalır. Çiçekler bahcesin de,yaraya bir Toygun cümlesi merhem olur. Görüyor musun? Yine yetmedi satırlar. Neyse ki Toygun yabancı değil, mısralar misafir eder ağırlar. Bazen pes edelim mi diye düşünür de,Toygun her mısra için bir kafiye yazar. Süsler ki, her satırın kalbini çalar. Satırlar güldü de,sen okuyamadın hiç yazımı. Belkide okuyamacaksin,belkide anlaşılmadan yok olacağım. Belki de basit bir toprak olup göçecegim. Herkes gibi yaşayacağim belki de. Belki bir tek orda düşünmeyeceğim bu kadar. Boşuna geliyor bazılarına,ama hiç boşuna gelmedim bu cihana. Varolmamın amacı yazı yazmak mı,yoksa hayaller de onu yaşatmak mı? Özlüyorum galiba eski beni,sana geliyorum. Aşık olduğum vilayetin en varoşun da,egemenliğe ve huzura koşuyorum. Yalnızım artık,yalnız bir kulum. Acziyetten süslediği mi sandığım bir kaç satırla sana geliyorum. Çocuktum, büyüdükçe yine dönüyorum büyüyen küçüğe. Ve sana geliyorum. TOYGUN

[@user-mb2fg2nm3h]

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[@semiramis777]

Ruhuma dokundun, en çok da toygunluğuma.

[@siirimsiduslerim]

@@semiramis777 unuttuğum bir paylaşımı bir daha okumamı sağlayarak sende beni geçmişime sürükledin Toygunluğuma 😊 teşekkür ederim

[@blacktee6685]

It’s windy out there , I’m lighting a candle and enjoying the vibes ! Thanks for this playlist

[@chaosdweller]

Yeah just the other day especially haha trash cans blown everywhere haha , can u relate to this like me ? haha, yep it's like how did they know? haha, anyways yep it's weird haha back when it was socially acceptable for me to be hard haha I was kind of a cry baby even with the extra Atlas like load haha I'll admit haha, but now ever since the nervous break down during US COVID time haha, I've literally lost my ability llegitimately cry cuz of the numbness haha, but now with the extra live cams on me possibly? hooked up to the web haha while I'm under the microscope haha and my sinus issues as I age , plus the overactive sebaceous glands that some know about, plus my newer habits of sitting less sitting is like smoking apparently I read this after I learned my joints didn't like it ahead of the sapien scientist like norm even though I don't know what's good for me like a dog on a pet food commercial haha, anyways so that too , which causes huge tear duct drainage from all the above haha, plus the new narrative that wasn't even there at all lmao! during the hardcore normal man cry baby yrs haha vs now and the current international socital narrative (THIS TIME PERIOD ACTUALLY 🤬EXISTED OK I SWEAR ! ON MY LIFE!!!!! I WAS ALMOST TREATED NORMAL F&$@ ) haha ,........ which is...... haha, more or less Atlas the same as everyone standing around watching Atlas the titan waiting for a buckle from under the weight as the big sign of the # 24:in there somewhere? haha , yep that's my new lifestyle now honest to God truth haha , I'm assuming you'll get the abstract metaphors here haha, now...... , that's the 24/7 universal web narrative in this man's world that I was once apart of haha, but now with the: intergalactic spiritual world war I'm raging against the entire homo sapien genome haha ,( they started it ) and my new numbness that started at the same time as pychosis oddly 🤔...... haha, I can't go a week without a sniff from a cold while in a bad mood, being me crying like a girl would... haha, same thing goes with the tears that's rolling from my face currently due to newer rnr habits like with the afirmentioned mentioned by this unknown advanced lifeform haha, yes ! .... right now as we speak my left eye is pouring saline haha yes! haha, just like everytime I try to weld with the guys (can't again excessive much saline dripping ), haha, ......yes I do admit it, sometimes when sad , I do have flash backs of my hardcore cry baby yrs and the mental images of those freakout moments pop up in my skull similar to a movie being projected from past events to fit the act and feeling I'm no longer capable of haha, yes ........ haha it's true, and I'm assuming?????? that's were all weird week noises are coming from haha isn't psychologicaly and studying yer own brain disease fun !? or what? ! haha, .... that's what is going on from my pov haha , and again no fluid leaves my face there , unlike the other moments declared...as the big signs yer/ we're (yer species lol!) we're looking so so ! hard for haha, ....yes good job everyone 👏 y'all all caught a ex of a flashback of stress /trauma induced pychosis from multiple humanitarian crisiss from a numbed 24 chromosome man who now is completely confused on why? everyone is now celebrating and pointing and laughing at me 😐 after pychosis good job 👏 common humans haha, then they'll make a few hit songs with there "gold nugget find " usually lol! at this same exact procces unfolds on a monthly basis now unbeknownst to most y'all lol!( like norm lol!) as I observe 👁️ y'all from the less old crazy senile seniors pov lol! .... haha, oh man! haha it's really! big big business! now for those in the know haha , yep catching what looks like emotional weakness coming from me is now the cotton picking rage of the age now haha, it's either funny or troubling when u find out it's literally all 100% sapien idealogy being eaten from the full idealogy dumpster in the alley (😋 mmmmm) haha ! .... but yep I'm now the guy my wrestling coaches wanted me to be pychologically as a man haha, I once cried inappropriately after getting beat only cuz I was having literal neurotic weak mind moment during the match haha ( during my hardcore cry baby yrs lol! )after getting beat by a guy 1 day I could beat bad and did hrs later after the coach THANKFULLY 🙏 got in my face and kinda scared me for being mentally weak pussy out there during and after the match that day haha, yep I'm now 35 and I'm finally there haha, where he wanted me to be haha, man I'm mean as hell now too haha, but I can't help it now due to afirmentioned so I kinda get a pass lol! .. but yeah sometimes u need that flick in yer nut like they did in forty old virgin lol! thankfully he was there to do it with only words lol! .... which proves my point btw needing help focusing, after I claim to get beat from vast amounts of the other sapien breed doin me lots of bamboozles😐 on fight week and day against guys I could normally beat or almost beat with my mind right in MMA not for nothing... haha so see ! I never was just making weak excuses for me claiming I needed help with my nerotism / anxiety in competition or during fight week in past especially now days since molecule got out of the bag lol! .... never got help unfortunately so I quit lol! yep all a true story I finally made it yrs ago lol! no more real tears haha, ofcourse don't expect YOUR economy to go with any of this lol! no .

[@Doodenx]

why is this like exactly what i needed

[@kirito1361]

Melodies convey the message that words can't.

[@mathematicallymad1902]

In pain there is silence which become deep and deep

[@alireza9132]

Dude take his playlist from heaven

[@Liv_Says]

I used to play the violin, viola, and cello. It’s amazing laying back and imagining them play. Imagining myself being able to play again some day ❤

[@atascodetiempo6013]

I'd love to hear you play them

[@jh-or8ft]

00:47 what the charging sound!!!!

[@atascodetiempo6013]

Hahahahaha! Omg sorry, I didn't noticed that.. I can fixed that don't worry.

[@atascodetiempo6013]

@Meliha Nur Şahin yep 😆

[@lonepheasant3489]

It's ok the only place I felt like I ever belonged that wanted me to stay and didn't push me away no matter how ugly i was or all the awful things I'd say

[@noo.o7465]

I clicked because I’ve never related to anything more than the title. However, I stayed because I really loved the pieces, keep up the great work!!

[@tar8628]

I’m bad at words and fluent in silence, hope you read the feelings well.

[@alissealonzo1628]

I don't know about you but listening to this gives me peace.....

[@dmtdreamz7706]

There is a popular belief that people with psychosis are more creative than the general population. This idea is based on the observation that many famous artists, writers, and musicians have reported experiencing symptoms of psychosis or have been diagnosed with a psychotic disorder. However, research on the relationship between psychosis and creativity has produced mixed results. While some studies have found a link between certain aspects of psychosis (such as schizotypy) and creative thinking, other studies have failed to find any significant association between psychosis and creativity. It's important to note that having a psychotic disorder is not necessary for being creative, and not all people with psychosis are creative. Similarly, creativity is not a symptom of psychosis, and experiencing psychosis does not automatically make someone more creative. Furthermore, while some people with psychosis may express themselves through creative outlets, it's important to remember that psychosis is a serious mental health condition that can have significant negative effects on a person's life. It's essential that people with psychosis receive appropriate treatment and support to manage their symptoms and improve their quality of life.

[@silverherring319]

Does anybody know the artists? Especially for Soğuk?

[@silverherring319]

The Artist for most if not ALL of these songs is Hiçkimse. They have a youtube!

[@sylviaslat]

I loved that song as well!

[@hakim.mkacher]

@@silverherring319 Link please

[@KitYukio]

@@hakim.mkacher Lazy

[@noone3887]

@@KitYukio 😭😭

[@dhuy-ti9os]

Heartbreak: Music is universal

[@eli_soto]

I can not stop listening to all your beautiful Playlists. This one particularly touch me in a way that it is almost scary, but also, gentle enough to make me feel that it is okay to cry for the things that I really loved, for the things that mattered for me. Thank you so much for sharing this wonderful pieces with us. I enjoy them really deeply in my soul.

[@kara-mc5hj]

The songs are from Hiçksime & Serhat, go on youtube and give them a like! Let s appreciate their work🫶

[@tanishqhooda]

This with Electric Guitar 🤌🏼

[@aishaarsh]

To be honest I’ve felt this way for so long I don’t even know when it start or why, I just keep forgetting everything it’s all just a daze. I don’t feel anything yet everything all the time.

[@itsrose1437]

I was in pain when I was 10. Now I'm 15 and can't feel anything. Sometimes It's scary, seeing my peers and I think with myself that wish I was normal like them...

[@olliefoster5331]

You will feel again. Heal first, find your identity and purpose and it will come. I promise ❤

[@itsrose1437]

@@olliefoster5331 💖💖💖

[@struggleryoutube]

The Caterpillar has to struggle out of its cocoon on it's own to gain the strength to become a butterfly and fly in it's true final form. Humans are in a sense the same, we are not our true selves until we have had to use every last drop of our strength and will against nigh impossible odds. In the end it's up to you to break out of that cocoon and become a beautiful butterfly 🦋❤👍

[@itsrose1437]

@@struggleryoutube Thank you I always wonder that I was very young to become a butterfly, But it's life and sadly It's not fair. I'm now strong enough to protect myself against bad things. It's just that I didn't have a good childhood but now I learned many things. Thank you dear stranger

[@nooneofimportance934]

This is so good to listen to when you go thru your emotions just to feel them fully. Sobbing is part of the enyoinment❤ i love this playlist

[@soroushsedaghat7664]

One of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard ❤

[@GregoryGodfear]

The breath of death can be smelled, miles away... a date which cannot be delayed... oh how wonderful it will be if you suffer as me... how beautiful the world is for those who can see, none would belive what is inside me... A light of love, to keep me warm... forgetfulness, beckoning... the date with death I remember, his breath I smelled... Time has come, yet there is so much to be done...

[@Bedlu77]

İsmini hiç bilmediğim, defalarca kez duyduğum parçalar. Hiç birinin Türkçe isminin olduğunu düşünmemiştim.

[@megumin.o1]

aynennn yaa

[@kevinvictorbalandra7354]

So moved about these piano

[@sonsaliseoriginal]

Kırık pencerelere sahip kalbim. Manzarası çok güzel, içi soğuk bir fırtına gibi yüzüm. Masalların en güzel bölümü gibi hayatım, Tüm kötü karakterler, düşmanım. Asla iyi biri olmayı seçmedim. Dibine kadar reddediyorum iyiliği. Bana iyi olmayı öğretmişti ailem. Geçmişe dönüp, değiştirebilseydim eğer bunu, En kötü, en acımasız nasıl olunur, onu öğrenmek isterdim. Tek verecek cevabım iyilikten ibaret olmamalı. Her düşene, sadece ben gitmemeliyim kaldırmak için. İyi olmamalıyım. Çünkü iyiler, kaybediyor bu cehennemde. Çünkü iyiler, savunamıyor kendilerini. Herkesi kendileri gibi iyi sanıyorlar. Bi kötü karakter, gelip mahvediyor her şeyi. Baksanıza bana. Yara üstüm başım. Dışarıdan nasıl görünüyor bilmiyorum ama, Ruhumda hapis yatıyor aslında içimdeki çocuk. Şeytanın prangasını asla gevşetmiyor kalbim. Kulaklarım asla işitmiyor sözlerini. Ben reddediyorum iyiliği. Öyle sözlerimden ibaret değil bunlar inanın. İçimde nefret filizleri diktiniz. Beni yere düşürdü her kaldırdığım. Elimi tutan, asla uzatmadı bana elini. Hep kötüler kazandı. Ben sadece izledim. Kötü bir şey iyi olmak. Acımasız bir şey, iyi kalabilmek. Herkes iyi olamaz belki de. Bu yüzden reddediyorum iyiliği. Bu cehennemde, adalet en son uğrar bize. En son, ölmeden önce aklına geliriz herkesin. Asla aklının duraklarına bile uğramadıklarımızın. Bu yüzden, iyi olmayın. İyi kalmayın. Kalamayacaksınız zaten. Er ya da geç, tüm iyi kalpliler, İçlerindeki şeytana, yenilecekler... AhmetB.T

[@EhlonnaFae]

I'm sorry, who told you, you could make such masterpieces?! Look at that art! Listen to that music! MMUAH~ 🤌Perfection!

[@caidasindesamparo_]

the reason why I'm still alive is she... she is broke, i can't do anything for help her. If I can do it... In 4 months I will be there Believe in me my dearling.

[@anonymous4244]

Hello Are you ok?

[@albertcooper6420]

Keep you in my thoughts and feelings for you now and this music is the message that you need to know how i fell get a card reading and find out how much I always have been trying to find real words to help you and this is what I came across

[@Karolina-yx3iu]

So beautiful. Pieces I've never heard but I fell in love with them since the first second. Literally the best description on how I feel inside. Bless you❤️

[@endi3192]

I was clinically numb for most of my life, now i am in so much pain i need to go back..

[@Yourallowedtosmile]

Some people believe in Karma I believe we get what we get You see a trash bin I see potential Does that make me a trash bin? Or does that make me potential You think I am silent But silence speaks volumes I'd rather be silent Than wear all the costumes In this life Yes the pain is too heavy But like water it evaporates When I get hot and sweaty.. I know lions I Know friends I say I don't But that depends... Who was waiting For the plunge Spinning in circles For the done It wasn't pain It was bliss Un tiss to this When I get quiet you just wait Something will come by For you to love or hate...

[@N8_Presents]

even pain becomes joy

[@mj_out]

So beautiful. Love this melancholic style.

[@_dreamer_25]

When an artist creates a playlist ❤️❤️ I'm in love❤️❤️

[@wolvesneverlie]

Every time that I feel a kind of sadness coming, I return to this playlist, and bro, that's amazing.

[@noura3310]

This playlist is everything

[@chaosdweller]

🤔

[@Koklo931]

this playlist is on another level fr

[@Angel-wolf679]

Beautiful music indeed.

[@Zeynep-pu9jf]

This is so beautiful 🖤

[@VergiToplayanEnderman]

Hey, a guy from Turkey. I didn't heard this songs before too. When i see name of the songs i just shocked and became happy about it. Anyway, i am not feeling ok for like a last 3 4 year. I get use to be "Not feeling ok" but like a last 3 month i am struggling about it. And i just can't remember correctly but i thing some friend of mine recomended this playlist (she is struggling with some things to) even if she didn't recomended it, i am thankfull for the youtube algorith. And listening this playlist, reading other people comment about their struggle made me feel ok. Knowing not beeing alone in the dark helps. Because of that i shared my struggle to. So, i want to thank you guys for sharing your thouts and struggles and i want to tell something the person who read this. You are not alone too. Stay strong. Becase i will stay strong.

[@seabasssfitnessevaluation3852]

No amount of words nor actions will fill this void

[@tiffanie6043]

I'm currently having a mental breakdown and I can't listen to this playlist till the end because I can't help but feel a wave of hopelessness that is consuming me from the inside. But I'm still gonna thank KZbin's algorithm for showing me this at the perfect time. After being numb for so long sometimes all of the pent up feelings will explode and it's just one of those days for me. I need a good cry before putting up a lie that would convince people I'm alright, all over again.

[@mikefryn2520]

its okay i got u

[@siddharthtiwari2910]

Stay strong brother there are more like you going through things and are holding on, the best thing about time is that it passes!

[@babyyin6183]

Stay strong Nothing last everything will change for the best Have faith 🙏

[@Justishaaa]

You ok now?

[@Vextipher]

Being numb is like a platform that barely keeps you afloat and when emotions begin to flood you lose the footing you barely had. Now it changes from standing to swimming, don't let them drown you if you can swim, just keep swimming. There are others swimming with you, around you, I may not be close enough to reach you but I'll be here if you need to tell someone you're not alright.

[@howdypartner6398]

this is some of the most based music I have never heard. Well done. I don't know if you researched and found it or what, but you did excellent. Bien hecho, ni siquiera fue un atasco, mejor una lista liberadora.

[@rtrg7296]

مساء الخير كل عام وصاحب الموقع الجميل كل عام وانتم بخير

[@atascodetiempo6013]

Thank you, I wish you a good year too.

[@__loveball]

thank you for posting, beautiful music

[@noefloresarriaga1473]

childhood dreams track is awesome thank you for sharing this

[@zara5325]

This collection is awesome! Since I found it, I’m listening to it constantly. And the image is perfect. The first round i listened to this collection, i felt the urge to draw the image ❤.

[@jamiederticrowley6880]

I really enjoyed this piece

[@b.h.h]

what a great songs specially Görünmez İzler love it and i love the play list💞💞❣💕

[@reappdm3378]

*This kind of music used to make me feel worse.* *Now,it just makes me accept the vainness of everything and live in the moment.* 🖤

[@grey_sinner]

This was mesmerizing..

[@Nwfw]

vibes..

[@gioingaming666]

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS BEAUTIFUL MUSIC ❤️

[@sajadshabani4367]

Fantastic 🙂👌🏼

[@veraladin]

So good playist. Thanks. ✨

[@deadinside-rl1rg]

In fact... perhaps the music, which is an insult to her to call it music, is more than music... it describes so little of my life.

[@leeli4692]

This is amazing

[@face_m_less2702]

Can't be live more😢

[@stillkyne]

good mood🖤

[@agiftofcompany]

Not numb... I'm finally at peace.

[@MiaGarcia1234]

I get used to them and they leave. I was hurt a lot, and today the same thing happened, and today will be the last

[@user-td9do6mx3i]

Прости, но я всё ещё люблю тебя. Отпустить тебя будет моей самой сложной задачей. Надеюсь ты счастлив. Со мной или без меня, это уже не важно. Я благодарна тебе за всё, что ты для меня сделал и за то, что мы пережили вместе. Я устала жить воспоминаниями о тебе. Прости ещё раз, я не должна была появиться в твоей жизни

[@Pillsbury_Tho]

I feel that

[@karlostouro]

i cant stop crying wtf

[@dio-the-reaper]

That depiction of me is good especially with this beautiful music

[@based_prophet]

The writer of the first song died from starvation in a concentration camp to note this was he second to last song to write but the only to finish

[@yatotusa]

MAY ALL MEET SOMEDAY SOMEWHERE OR NEBER 😊

[@lilninotriste7491]

why do I feel nothing and everything…and why did I have to feel everything at once when we first met….I wonder especially now…now that my soul aches from the longing for you…I love her more than I’m happy to admit…I don’t care that she was far away…I wanted to hold her tight and keep her safe…I don’t want to sit here and complain, or anything like that, she was the good one…she made it all worthwhile…I found my religion in the sounds of her voice…I found my home in the reflection of her eyes…I’m sorry love…I will get better…I promise…I don’t expect you to wait, but I hope to regain the relationship we once had…you’re still my number one…I’m sorry to whoever reads this. I’m a mess, I know that. She needed security and comfort…not action and solutions. I was too ignorant to realize…too selfish to acknowledge. I am ashamed. I am ashamed of the way I interpret the world and peoples feelings around me. I love her. I love you Salma. I swear I’ll find a way to become better…for myself…and for us. If you move on however, I will be just as happy to congratulate you. I hope your studies go well. I hope you find the man you need. I know I am not that. For that, I am sorry. au revoir…je t’aime…

[@noone7989]

I need to free myself for a minute. It has been more than two years when I had not writen anything satisfying. It hurts so bad becouse I dream about becoming an author and publishing my own book in the future. And here I am, looking at an empty project just to type another "I have enough". Someone would say that I am desperate and they might be right. But it hurts so badly. Imagine that you really want to do something, you already have an idea, a plan for everything and suddenly you can't even start, something is blocking you. I wonder if I had already reached my limit cause it feels like it. Sometimes a thought that I no longer have an ability to write is driving me insane. I don't know what should I do; give up or still try even if it feels meaningless. And I know that I would still try becouse life without it feels empty. I hope that this comment would help this playlist grow. This pieces are beautiful and this channel deserves more attention. Have a great day or night

[@atascodetiempo6013]

The reason you can't write may be because you think you should. Your soul may be perceiving this as a necessity and thus shutting itself down. You may be limiting your sentences because you are rushing yourself. It's nice to have a specific plan. You started somewhere and managed to get there, so congratulations. It's up to you to decide whether to continue or not, but you need to adjust your approach to this issue. Some of the sentences are nice, some are foreign to that paragraph. These are the things that can happen. You could try approaching writing from a slightly different angle. By preparing yourself various questions, you can answer them and find out what is holding you back. You are definitely not incompetent. I'm sure of that. Therefore, when you finish your article, you will come back here and I will listen with great pride to what you wrote about the book.

[@noone7989]

​@@atascodetiempo6013 actually I didn't try asking myself questions and you may be right, this seem like a good idea, I need to try it. Thank you so much for a suggestion, I really appreciate it :> It is true that I am forcing myself and I can't help it. That is because i just really want to do it and the thing that I can't write anything is pulling me down; maybe I am looking for a proof if I can still do it so I put more and more pressure? I don't know, it's such a weird feeling, I can't even explain it. Thank you so much for your kind words! It makes me feel so much better and I hope that I didn't make you feel bad, sad or anything; I didn't expect anyone to read my comment. So thank you so much again! Have a great day or night ^^

[@birpalto]

Yaşamak bir zamanlar debelenirdi içimde kıvrak ve küheylan, şu an ne yaşamak ne içimdeki atlılar kalmadı. birpalto

[@birpalto]

oysa herkes ölmeliydi Acı yalnızca ölümle geçer diye ölümü bekliyorum

[@birpalto]

Evet birpaltoyum ve paltolar da ölür :):

[@H.art22]

Amazing

[@Requiem_z]

아 분위기 지렸다..👍

[@spaghettibrain]

Dünya hala çok karanlık Ve ben hala kan kusuyorum