bang chan moments that make me cry

[@katolga5775]

We are all gangsta until Chan starts crying 😭😭😭

[@haneenalbash3435]

whay bang tshan cryy??

[@CrazyGamer-dc6my]

my weakness T-T

[@katolga5775]

@@haneenalbash3435 Coz Felix was eliminated at that time .

[@prakritijena5175]

Lol... Gangsta? I lost it wen I was asked to get tissues ready...

[@notwerkinginthishouse8634]

@@prakritijena5175 Yeah, Chan deserves the world i swear, but the world doesnt deserve him tbh

[@techinadam2009]

“I’m never gonna leave you behind” from someone who actually knows how it feels to be left behind. This will always always break my heart.😷

[@vidapogacnik7106]

I just stopped crying and then i saw your comment😶😭

[@re.pulse.d__]

true

[@ggstan2439]

Why he knows how is be left behind? Sorry im a new stan

[@anniesplace96]

@@ggstan2439 I think that it is because he saw how his friends debuted while he didn't :(

[@nevaehsarchive_]

It’s very true and the fact that he kept that promise makes is 10x more heart warming

[@simp217]

The way that Channie took the blame for Felix’s elimination was just so sad :( they are truly the best Aussie bros I’ve ever seen..

[@Jin-iq6zg]

what happened like what did he get eliminated for?

[@winukkawilson3555]

I think he got eliminated to not be in JYP or the group idk though

[@fel1xsunshine]

@@Jin-iq6zg i think jyp said he wasn’t able to keep up w the rest of the group but i could be wrong

[@Keara23]

@@Jin-iq6zg he got eliminated because at the time his Korean wasn’t the best so jyp told him he wasn’t ready

[@lashondajones3382]

i was a bawling mess at that

[@nichocolas]

chan telling felix that he won't leave him behind is still the greatest pain in all of stray kids

[@マヤ-f9r]

literally one min in the vid and I was already in tears and I’m a new stay

[@GenF91]

Yeah 😭

[@Ajlvskpop]

And he kept his promise and look where they are now

[@gsmarie]

Being a new member of the Stay family...This breaks my heart to know that they were once separated 💔 😔

[@bang_chan_is_my_father]

that made me cry.

[@sandyc.4630]

Chan waited so many years to debut, and I couldn't be more glad that he got to debut NOW, as the leader of a group, really the best leader a group could have

[@HannahandGuineaPigs]

But he has so much on his shoulders. He says it’s fine when haters attack him, but in the inside it’s a wreck, always stress

[@emmasiomai-tm6yh]

There will always be more stays than leaves As long as there is hope, and support, you will be able to do what you would like

[@SwitPea-Lani]

@@HannahandGuineaPigs Haters are selfish people. They don't even think the hardships this kids undergo, much for Chan...they just rant and rant. They only think about their own satisfaction. Selfish & Greedy People. Disgusting attitude of a person.

[@raechxn6501]

his situation was literally the "good things come to those who wait" thing

[@maropsen]

"I should've been there" You can't be everywhere, Chan. You did your best! And look at you now, a world-wide known artist. You deserve the world, boy ❤️

[@zohrahassan1134]

Could you please tell me what happened? I’m somewhat new to them so there’s a lot I don’t know.

[@maropsen]

@@zohrahassan1134 oh hi! Welcome! The boys were a part of a JYP survival show, where they showed their skills to form a group and devut together, but there were two people who had to be eliminated. At the end, they were Lee Know and Felix. Chan was the leader of the group and felt guilty that he couldn't help them and felt it was his fault for not getting them to stay. Luckily, JYP, their boss, brang them back together, and they debuted as nine members! Fellow Stays, correct me if I'm wrong on something here, I don't know everything either.

[@tanya.1784]

@@maropsen thank you for this! new stay here

[@zarasara1586]

@@tanya.1784 Welcome to our Family ❤️

[@ebrukilic6220]

@@zarasara1586 no its must be ```welcome to our kingdom```

[@luffluffy7]

"I'm never gonna leave you behind" *TRUE FRIENDSHIP*

[@godsmenudududu8416]

It's not just a friendship they're like brothers... 😖

[@weirsten749]

yup..

[@boshrasorder8744]

meanwhile my friends will trade me for their homework being done by someone

[@lunarlino]

This made me cry 😭 😭😭

[@hakancakmak2562]

😭

[@grazi__ps2473]

sometimes I just wish I could hug him and thank him for his existence

[@jisungslvrr]

same 😭😭

[@rosebud7645]

Yeah, I've endured two sexual assaults this year, and I just have to say that without Stray Kids and their constant smiles, I would be dead right now. I have felt like killing myself nearly everyday, but they show me that there is some good in this world. I just wish they knew how much they mean to those of us in pain constantly.

[@car-amel-01]

@@rosebud7645 I'm so sorry to hear that, i hope you're doing okay. I understand what your going through and i send you all of my support

[@sonic1fan94]

​@@rosebud7645 I'm so sorry to hear that to. You are so incredibly amazing and I'm so happy to hear you get happiness from stray kids and that they helped you. I and so many stays are here for you whenever you need us💛💜.

[@joons_bonsaitree3005]

He is so sweet and amazing. He blamed himself when Felix got eliminated he takes all the pressure and burden so the other members don't have to. He is the most generous, humble, sweet, and caring person to exist. He deserves the world but the world doesn't deserve him. Please protect and love him with all your heart Stays.

[@btslover4354]

I know right he’s the sweetest 🥺

[@anjumanbaber9]

Yes I agree and he is a amazing person and amazing and beautiful leader and he is my bias

[@richaviswanath8647]

I feel so bad for him. He works and tries so hard, only to get the brunt of everything and everyone’s pain so they don’t have to take it themselves. He’s truly such an amazing person and he deserves the world.

[@fjr7489]

He's litterally the best he helped stays go thru much he puts all the pressure on himself the best leader

[@despoinakorkida7204]

As a baby stay i am trying to give all members as much as love as i can .they deserve the world and Bangchan is an amazing leader and person

[@shabnamabbas8298]

Chan is just like a dad who loves his kids and protect them and works hard he don't even get his sleep Broooo I really admire this guy

[@HannahandGuineaPigs]

He’s so smiley and happy in the outside but so heartbroken and stressed kn the inside. Yes, the others do too, but especially chan since he’s the leader

[@Gray.Karen333]

I can't imagine SKZ without Felix and Minho. There, I've said it.

[@ghofranelaouar1164]

I'm happy that JYP gave them the chance to debut.. their are awesome dancers.

[@hayleynavarro8844]

Petition for a bunch of Stays to get together with the sole purpose of beating the crud out of JYP for trying to eliminate them👍

[@kautsarnadhimnovaldi6498]

I want to ask why they as the eliminated ended up debuting anyway? I asked bc I can't prepare my heart to watch the survival show skagsnsjsksh

[@ghofranelaouar1164]

@@kautsarnadhimnovaldi6498 minho because he forgot his lines in a performance and felix because korean is like a target language (he was not completely fluent) but you know JYP.. he saw that they aheve a lot of potentiel so he gave them a chance.

[@kautsarnadhimnovaldi6498]

@@ghofranelaouar1164 oohh, so they were like recruited after it all ends or there was like a wild card round or smth?

[@Douglarce02]

Dude... honestly from man to man... i have *SO* much respect for this guy, the way he talks to the members, the way that all the members are close family to him, how he care for them, how good of a leader he is, and many many MANY other things... really makes me have a lot of respect for him

[@haohao8199]

Thank you for appreciating him Some people don't really appreciate him like you did he is a member of straykids he goes by the name of bangchan Would be so helpful if you check them out Thank you .....

[@SiD-ly6pg]

@@haohao8199 pretty sure he knows who he is.

[@haohao8199]

@@SiD-ly6pg happy then :)😀

[@staywithnoeasylife]

(Trying to bring positivity because we are all crying) The legend says in the 7 years Chan was a trainee, he lost a piece of himself every year *Pieces of puzzles he was meant to find later* He was missing his home *He found his home in Felix* He lost friends, some debuted without him *He found a friend in Changbin* He lost his teenage years *He found his childhood in Jeongin* He lost his reason to go on *He found his inspiration in Hyunjin* He was missing his family *He found a brother in Seungmin* He was filled with dark thoughts *He found his hope in Han* He lost his happiness *He found a reason to smile again with Minho* He was meant to find *THEM* (Not original by me. The video I took this from: kzbin.info4Ct-qay5Bzg?feature=share I may have word it wrong but you got it) Edit: I didn't expect people to cry more lol😭 Let's cry together y'all

[@momenachowdhury1414]

I was the first to cry at your comment it is really touching

[@face664]

I was holding it all in till i saw this lol. now I'm a mess

[@kyayaarmahi]

This was supposed to be positive but why did I cry harder after reading this 😭

[@HannahandGuineaPigs]

I just realised. All it took was to find his 7 kids to find himself again

[@someonecool2771]

Why why I starting to cry a lot because of this comment it was supposed to be positive

[@nanzeal]

He's seriously the best person in the world. Plus the best *boyfriend* material.

[@ilavyuu2775]

Yesss i agree😭❤️

[@bitoddinnitt]

@Alexia lmao

[@sarahvoggenreiter6583]

Omg yess I agreee😢

[@haenzochiko4818]

@Alexia where is the clip 4:32 from?

[@jeonginamo919]

"Daddy" Material✊😭

[@pvrkminte9812]

the moment chan apologized to felix when he was eliminated, my soul left my body. IN ENGLISH TOO

[@ninx617]

What was felix eliminated for??

[@ninx617]

@Amna Milić ohh thnx ....m a new stay..still getting to know stray kids

[@jaynista]

@Amna Milić so he was eliminated from stray kids? how come he is still in the group now a days? im sorry im new

[@LostJellybean]

@@ninx617 That's what am thinking

[@giannamb1112]

1:00 (timestamp in case anyone's wondering/haven't gotten to that part yet or smth idk)

[@Doumas..pillow_]

Fun fact: He doesn't even knows i exist but he's a literal father to me, the father i can wish for, the father who protects me and motivating me, cheers me up after a breakdown, Thank you Chan. (I know he doesn't sees it but yea)

[@emmasiomai-tm6yh]

He is Stays #1 zaddy

[@bubblingbrook2132]

This is so beautiful. ❤‍🩹 I'm really glad you found him and he found you. Stay strong, friend ❤❤❤❤

[@SalamanderMagic]

"always find me" "i'm never gonna leave you behind" holy FUCK my heart

[@MuscleboundKage]

Ngl I expected to last longer than a minute and twenty seconds without crying. 😭

[@Keth637]

@@MuscleboundKage everyone is in tears 😭😭💔 right now

[@cec1980]

4:58 everyone:hugging chan Hyunjin: 🕴️

[@wtrsfm]

Changbin: I'm too dark for this shit

[@mahtabn.b5230]

@@wtrsfm I was crying but this made me laugh 😂 thank you

[@tootuo]

i probably looked like a psychopath just now... i was bursting into tears but when i saw these comment i burst out laughing... 😭😭

[@love.music4ever]

I think everyone is F in skz except hyunjin and changbin,am i right?

[@jaz5117]

BANDBJWNXI I DIDNT UNDERTAND UNTILL I SAW IT I CACKLED SJBDJX

[@xokirsten]

chan in his secret account disliking this bc he’s embarrassed

[@cocohailey1983]

LMAOSKSKAGHGSDFFGGSHYEHETTFFJTD

[@starstablefolk5641]

💀💀💀

[@zahra-pl4se]

HAHSHSHSHSGS

[@4STRAYA]

I SWEAR I WAS CRYING TWO SECONDS AGO THIS COMMENT LMAOJSOJS I HATE YOU 👁💧👄💧👁

[@beaalyannaa3660]

LMFAODBSHDBDHDJDHSIDJDHDJD THIS COMMENT 😭😭

[@Sofiebarnsey22]

watching this in 2023_2024 is sad because he no longer has chanie's room to give us online hugs and that makes me cry more

[@justarandomperson7376]

So....anyone else’s eyes sweating? 👁💧👄💧👁

[@DianaHernandez-or8sd]

i started crying so much after he said "I'm never gonna leave you behind" Like omg idk but I just broke down

[@jenniferannacarina]

My eyes were dripping with sweat, got kinda hot in here real quick ig (´• ᴗ •̥`)

[@ava-graves]

Yeah a lot actually 😭

[@daddyandmami8327]

Not sweating but raining

[@9-star2]

yeah it's kinda warm in here, in the comment section too

[@butter_free__8]

So im gonna tell u guys a story of a boy A amazing brilliant kid left home at the age of 12, to pursue his dreams. He came to a whole new country not knowing anything. He had to find his own place there. He became a trainee in one of the 3 biggest companies in korea. (Only boy out of 800 people who auditioned). He trained for 8 whole yrs. His friends debuted and he worded harder. When he was in class 9, he lived all alone in the huge dorm. Still worked hard. He was going thru so much mentally. Still worked hard. Then came 7 new amazing boys in his life. (As he said "these boys came into my life and ye basically saved me"). He worked even harder. He worked till 5am in the morning, and showed up at the office at 10am. He guided his boys. After all he debuted with his most cherished people on earth. Things didn't get easy tho. He still worked hard. He slept so little, that during promotions and preparing period be got up to 6hrs of sleep a week. He (and the kids, especially 3racha) made about 100 song in 3yrs. He did vlive every week for his fans. Then he and his boys won their first win. They cried. They won their rookie of the year. They won the 2ed most number rookie of the year award. They has the brightest smiles on their face. They say the most comfortable word for their fans. They put out the most amazing stages. They make thousands and millions of people's day not just there fans'. They do their best and tries to do better every time. The boy's name is chan and the boys are skz. The fans are stays Best leader bang chan, best boys skz Stays are here to stay by our 8 amazing boys. ‼️ *EDIT 4: (I had decided to not edit this comment ever again but this is important) SO I DID NOT ADD WJ CUZ SKZ IS 0T8 !! WJ GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH SKZ OR STAYS!! HE IS A SOLOIST !! STAYS NEED TO REMEMBER THAT!! IF ANY OF YOU DONT LIKE HIM OR HIS FANS THEN DONT BOTHER ABOUT THEM!! SIMPLE AS THAT!! stays have taken this way too far!! The tiktok incident was UNACCEPTABLE!!! PLEASE!!! PLEASE DONT RUIN THIS FANDOM!!* ‼️ I personally don't Stan him or have anything to do with him since I started stanning skz as OT8... BUT AS A STAY THIS IS SOMETHING I MUST ADDRESS!! *DONT HAVE TO READ THE REST* Edit: something very personal: the most precious person to me, my grandpa died today.... He was someone very different and special to me. The person he loved and adored the most was me... I don't cry easily... After seeing him lay there I cried a lot... We used to talk over call everyday.... Even day before yesterday we talked so much and laughed... He was so strong. I'm not asking for pity... But just needed to open up cuz I can't open up to people... Edit 2: hey I'm sTrOnG 💪🏻😁. So don't worry. And tmrws (18th Dec) my 15th birthday day. I have exams thoo 😩😩 Edit3: so apparently I ain't that strong after all... After 41 days of my grandpa passing away my mom's younger sister passed away.... I couldn't leave my bed for 2 entire months, my social anxiety got so worse that i couldn't be with my family even. I cried to myself. Got bad insomnia. And my mom noticed I was going through a lot, she knew I am terrible with expressing myself. I used to ghost my best friends. Then At one night it got soo bad, I didn't sleep the entire night and cried... The next day Han droped alien... I remember texting my friends saying "isn't it crazy how there are songs that just exist which speaks exactly what your feeling and going through".... Alien became a song meant a lot.... I realized to me skz ain't like the other groups/soloist that I Stan.... Anyways after that study pressure increased and thighs got better eventually... But honestly my social anxiety is still a really big thing... Yet again mom noticed that (moms really are amazing huh)... I don't go out of my home. Leaving home is overwhelming and tiring... But Chan said *"we fight what we fear"* so imma try me best and fight it... 😁😁

[@l._.l07]

oh my god your going to make me cry.....thank you for writing this comment i hope this will motivate me to do the things that i want to accomplish

[@jxnearmyjkc2040]

@@l._.l07 fighting :D

[@makiyoon89]

This made me cry✊😔

[@butter_free__8]

@@l._.l07 I mean u shouldn't thank me. Thank the kids for not only just existing for doing their thing and going against the flow for their dream, yet not losing themselves. I'm still very young and small but I have big dreams. I WILL accomplish them. I will work hard. That's what they taught me. U CAN DO IT TOO😁

[@l._.l07]

santa Mahpara WISE WORDS FROM SOMEONE SO YOUNG OH MY DAYS YES YOU WILL >:D

[@sophiasecleter5090]

It's sad because he's tired, stressed and going though alot and I can't be there to hug him. Bang Chan your doing great ❤

[@joeypiper2000]

han: we are family me: *dramatically dies on the floor crying*

[@rekhastanlystanly568]

Same me too lol😭

[@Almaa1607]

Same😭❤️

[@sandyc.4630]

wasn't that changbin who said that?

[@DorothyVienot]

For me I couldn't stop crying until the end of the video 😢

[@HannahandGuineaPigs]

I died when channie was taking the blame

[@mayakade1565]

That one dislike is Chan cuz he’s embarrassed about his emotions

[@jiya4634]

Nope.... Its wj he made diff accnts to dislike this video 🙂

[@mayakade1565]

찬니 여자 lol

[@galauincaibing4201]

@@jiya4634 wow he made 9 different account now

[@alienfromtheplanetoftoes1646]

자베리아 woojin must have A LOT of accounts. do you think that 10X disliked too? 🤡

[@mai.2622]

@@alienfromtheplanetoftoes1646 yup 🤣

[@ink008]

Bangchan is literally the most supportive, best leader ever. He'll always have skz's backs.

[@sunbonwin]

I'm not a stay but I love stray kids and I'm thinking of stanning them after seeing this🥺💗 it's so heartwarming

[@psykosss]

stan themmm they are so precious!

[@bellapark2444]

Ohhh you really should. They are worth stanning :)

[@hannieyammie7496]

Hey stan them pls they are very precious gift from God...

[@squiggle.64]

Please do join our stay, we are a lovely fandom and we will welcome you🤗❤️ Stray kids saved my life and they are my happiness, they are truly amazing

[@justastayzen4858]

Im sorry but ur pfp- lmfao i was just crying 2 seconds ago lmao

[@anikaandan7765]

chan deserves the whole world, literally. :((( *im sobbing*

[@strayhours]

But this cruel world doesn't deserve him 😔

[@alienfromtheplanetoftoes1646]

Arianne Andan couldn’t agree more

[@prettyfreak4269]

just curious, did bang chan have anything to do with the return of felix and minho?

[@alienfromtheplanetoftoes1646]

pretty freak no don’t think so. JYP just knew he was missing them and skz wasn’t the same without em

[@rese237]

Ow wow.... we met again HI ARIANNE HAHAHAHA but it's true tho he deserves the whole world... literally....

[@Faeriecorener]

I swear I just started stanning stray kids and I am emotionally tied to chan😭 I just love him sm

[@Bigfeetchan]

Same! 😭

[@Anchalsarsar19]

Same to same

[@tpwksammar7303]

i am not even a stray kids fan and i feel a connection to him😭😭

[@musicallover5039]

To you, it's been 9 months and it's my beginning and I relate to you sm 🥺🥺🥺

[@yraurella]

omg same he's so precious 😭✨

[@wajeeharashid6797]

him and namjoon 🤝 being two of the best leaders there ever was

[@dannapasos4724]

I would trust both of them with my life.

[@wajeeharashid6797]

+ hongjoong + taeyong + kun + suho + shownu + leeteuk + chorong + jeno/mark + jinx2 + seongcheol + daeyeol + hui + onew + jaebom + soobin + keeho + hyunsuk & jihoon + seungsik + yeji + sowon + jihyo + hyebin + eunbi + suyeon + irene + jisung + solar + yoon + taeyeon + solji + hanbin + jungwon + hyojung + haseul + sangyeon.... there's way way more but I've been watching these groups recently so they were the first names that popped in my head

[@wasabichicken1215]

They are the definition of Leadership.

[@eodijib2876]

You can't name only two....all the leaders are doing their best...they are all so good to be in the position...beside AOA leader..

[@wasabichicken1215]

@@eodijib2876 You are correct, we can't only name 2. But the thing is that If we name all of the leaders in the world, It will last a life time.

[@paddy_black]

Chan taking the blame for the eliminations will never not haunt me 😭😭

[@unicorngirl12347]

seeing bangchan cry is like the whole world is falling apart, he's the best leader and always will be. bangchan, STAYS will always be with you the whole way, we love you so much.

[@dhwitikashukla6276]

Hi moa

[@unicorngirl12347]

@@dhwitikashukla6276 haiii

[@rcppcsk1589]

Seeing Woojin hug him closest last made me so heartbroken. Chan used to have support from an older member, but now he carries all the burden himself.

[@babyrhino1025]

Ikr. I mean the leader should have someone older than him to lean on. In his case there's no one older than him now🙂

[@mouhoubsalma7758]

So true I missed them so much together

[@bratzyydylii8498]

i was just gonna say this, esp after the australian concert speech where he said he doesnt talk abt his problems to other members or say anything to them but only does to woojin and knowing now that woojin left just breaks my heart

[@loonatheuniverse8146]

DAMN i miss Woojin i miss SKZ Ot9 so much

[@luizelima_arts]

@@loonatheuniverse8146 Same,i became a Stay when SKZ were already 8 but i miss OT9 so much :(

[@sparshitasahu2539]

Chan saying he is embarrassed Because all his fellow trainees had debuted already and he was still a trainee wrecks my heart. I read somewhere that BamBam and Chan were supposed to debut as a duo but he got put in GOT7. They were close friends, and I know how it must have felt, watching your friends move forward. (GOT7 could've not been the same without BamBam and I know putting him in that BG was the best decision)

[@janel-brawlstars5059]

stray kids crying is the saddest thing ever.

[@zenzen962]

chan is our emotional support kpop boy. but we only know a little about wat he went through and wat he still goes through. he hides his 'demons' just so we and the rest of skz can be happy. we dont deserve this man 😞

[@jiya4634]

Im crying even harder now😭

[@The8888Best]

people who have suffered the most and got trough it is the people whose smile feel so genuine, who hugs like there's no other day.... that's what I see in chan

[@christimariam3093]

Without chan there is no skz He is what is holding the group together one of the best human being and leader Always being there for them I love him and wish him all the best

[@ahaha5057]

I really hate that he doesn't see how great of a leader is. He's done so much for the group and for the fans, he's not just a leader to the boys, he's a leader to all of us. I hope that one day he starts to see that.

[@paula50000]

This hurts even more after you know who got exposed

[@jiya4634]

Yeah right.....

[@alanasgf]

What are you talking about?

[@fartenjoyer3000]

@@miintsan6349 w00ja1l*

[@avror_atiny6497]

@@fartenjoyer3000 love that u censored his name I can cry just thinking about like why?

[@Tissamloukili]

It's not 'exposed' but falsely accused. He's been proven innocent weeks ago so there's no need to spread more misinformation 👍🏻

[@sherwinh1661]

he recently in a vlive mentioned he was lonely and alone from 2011-2017 period and it was a dark period for him. that scene broke me

[@olgaalicea7476]

Chan has done many sacrifices to save his group, and for STAY. Not only he has done sacrifices, but he also protects his members and his fans. He has passed many hard times during predebut ages, but he never gave up. Leaders are the people who take most of the responsibility, take Chan as an example. Take RM as an example. Take any leader as an example. STAY have two things to do, love them, and of course, love Chan. Thank you Chan for teaching me the responsibility each person has. Thank you for teaching me everything you know. Thank you for loving us. Thank you for being there whenever I was sad. Thank you for everything. ----love, STAY.

[@kaaaaaaw]

It's 1 am and I'm fuxking sobbing🥺

[@oifelixcomeherebro1746]

SAMEE

[@simonbhandari6783]

same omg-

[@girlwithluv2695]

SAMEE HERE LIKE LITERALLY

[@universepic3005]

LITERALLY IN BED RN SUPPOSED TO BE SLEEPING

[@BluePepper1130]

its 3 am here and yes

[@iamacaratstayingonapurpleg6059]

Ok so as baby baby stay of just two weeks old and celebrating Bangchan's bday first time with him I came here searching for more of him.. I've seen only 1% or less than that of stray kids or chan in these two weeks and after listening to some of their songs from this album and thinking that "yes this music is my style" and after seeing members being funny and finally I saw this human.. This human After listening to him just a few minutes I decided to stan this group for a lifetime.. I just heard from him everything I needed to hear at this point in my life. He told me "some ppl have some point in their lives where they go astray. And I've been there too. Not being able to work towards your dreams. On what you want to achieve. But that's okay it happens to many ppl it happens to me" I just want to let out everything outta my heart idc even if nobody is gonna read this but I just feel like wanting to out my truth on somewhere public. I had a dream. I have a dream. I started working on it since college days. But after some point I started to laze off too much, almost became irresponsible and addicted to smartphone. I've spent like 3 whole years wasting my life when I know what to do, when I could have everything I wanted to do perfectly and I could have achieved my dreams already. So many ppl who have put their trust on me are still waiting for me..trusting me.. but I became more and more corrupted when I started to lie, hide and fool ppl. No matter how many times I've tried to come out and tell to my close ones that I'm not working towards my dreams, I'm just playing around using that as an excuse.. even after many confessions I couldn't find myself going back to reality. I kept lying again. And again. That I was hating myself literally all throughout these years. That is the worst part cuz I know this is not me. Why am I like this? From when did I become such a person? How can be this evil? How did I get courage to fool ppl so easily when I couldn't even utter a lie before? Who am I? Which is me? What is real? But I knew I still have some kindness in me, goodness me, humanness in me. That trust on me is what led me survive it otherwise I would have done something worst. I had crazy thoughts but I was not brave enough to end myself. I'm just a coward and I just had thoughts and played with words as if it's so easy to say I should die. And that I don't deserve the love and trust of ppl around me... Some times I just gave up on me I was acting like Ok yeah this is me. I'm evil. I'm ugly. I'm destined to go to hell. Lets keep living like this. I even thought if I'm just living a phase of my life to write on my history that "I lived like this Too". And Some nights I just cry silently hating myself. While at this point today I was on the gave up phase but But I knew.. I'll change. Life keeps going on thru its own flow so I know I cannot defy it for a long time. 3 years was definitely a long precious time wasted but now at this point here I am, watching this video I just, at one moment in the middle, idk why I put my phone down and started bawling my eyes out and feeling shameful and asking sorry to God.. I just wanted to write this out and sign off. Idk if this time too I'd break the promise. But I just don't want to spend anymore time on anyone apart from my dreams. Just like them.. just like him.. ten whole years he was alone just working for his dreams. With nothing else in life. With just hard work, hope and dreams. Good bye

[@Bella-85]

Stray kids is an amazing comfort group and they have helped me so much through everything God will forgive and change you if you let Him and I’m sure Chan was scared and he was tired and he almost quit but he worked hard and kept going. I hope your okay now :)

[@arthub8425]

I know how it feels honestly I went through the same phase.....I wanted to die....I didn't want to live.....l was devastated, frustrated,depressed.....Until I found kpop it gave me a reason to live to smile to have hopes to forget insecurities they made me realise everyone is going through a lot these days even small children are worried about something they thought me I am not the only one fighting alone so that is why........I cleared all my problems......I knew this would be hard but I deserved it....And now here I am as an Kpop fan a human who loves herself Stray kids, BTS etc I hope u are doing well now remember never give up keep on going and u will make it to ur happiness and ur goals 😊😊😊😊❤❤❤❤

[@Divine...]

You are brave. Trust me and I am proud of you. It's hard to even realise that we are wrong. But you accepted it. And now you are true to yourself. I know you will get through it. Whether you achive your dreams or not, you are a great person. You are the same person who cares about people and who don't want to lie to them, hurt then or else you wouldn't have cared. Sending love and blessings ❤️❤️

[@arin397]

he’s the most hardworking and pure human being ever

[@hannieyammie7496]

Our leader chan is the best leader .

[@1202CH]

Dang, I really wanna meet this guy someday and give him the biggest hug ever! Bangchan is literally so admirable to me. He's not afraid to show his emotion and tell people how he really feels, and as someone who struggles with that, it's refreshing to see it. 💜

[@roger0008]

Should not say. But I am actually jealous of people close to chan whom he adores. I really hope we find a lovable person like him.

[@nadjar9190]

Chan adores all stays, he may not know you personally but as proved many times he appreciates every single stay equally❤️

[@user-headcake]

0:27 I totally didn't just hug my phone.

[@kayradilaycagan]

At least I‘m not the only one XD

[@bxnnyjeon.97]

When chan said to Felix, “I’m not leaving you behind” that is the most saddest line of skz😭

[@sethcoronado]

him crying over felix getting eliminated got me in tears too. 🥺🤧

[@elisha8734]

the bonus clip made me cry bc of the lyrics :" bang chan best boy

[@Stanskzbts]

Whenever i see all those clips of Bangchan,i ask myself: "will i ever be able to find someone like him?" And honestly it is one of my wishes,maybe my first wish....

[@anindyalarasati2665]

do you know why im here?? I want to make myself cry because crying over bangchan is worth it- Periodt-

[@aejo9779]

He is the reason why I started to stan Skz. I've fallen in love with him after knowing how sweet he is for the stays bcz of his weekly vlives. After that I started to like skz lil by lil. And now am a stay. And Chan is forever my bias. 💜

[@courtneychan_]

Me rn 🥺

[@CHTM1205]

Me rn

[@Mtbissick]

I have a crush on him

[@alxmon6478]

We all know that out off everyone in the entire world Bangchan loves Stray Kids the most. Everyone there he chose. They’re all friends, all family. I hope as a fan that no matter what road they take in life, they can stay connected.

[@idkdan6333]

anyone else crying in the club rn 👁💧👄💧👁

[@writershaven7049]

i just sobbed super hard in the bathroom

[@hyunjinworlddomination1116]

This is why I love him so much. Personally, he's the best leader in any Kpop group out there. When I saw him cry in this video I cried too. He's so precious. He trained for so lang and so hard, and now he finally is in skz, and we can't stop loving him for who he is. I love him too much, WE love him too much. This is our Christopher. This is our daddy jk. It was a good choice to make him the leader. Chan deserves the world and I'm not even exaggerating. Chan is too precious. I keep repeating these because I can't even explain and express how happy I feel for him through words. Chan, I know you're not reading this but the chance isn't 0%, if you are ever feeling sad or having a hard time, STAYS ARE HERE FOR YOU. STAYS ARE HERE WITH YOU. we love you so much Chan, you don't even know it. I'm just another broke stay here dreaming to actually meet you guys, but even though I know it will never happen, I will not, I will NEVER EVER stop loving you guys. Honestly Chan is one of the reasons why I stanned skz, when I watched his vlives, my face always lit up with happiness and delight. We really do love you. Chan, thank you. Thank you for being with us, thank you for spending your time just to make stays happy. We can't be even more happier to know that you actually love us. We love you more. Thank you Chan. Cheers to the Best Leader in the world!

[@Iateyourfridge101]

“Always find me, yeah?.. I’m not gonna leave you behind.” That line breaks my heart and it will even more if someone ever tells that to me.

[@alidadorin1360]

now we can add in their victory in Kingdom too. Another golden feather. Props to Bang Chan for being the best leader that SKZ deserves.

[@khays815]

Now, Billboard #1 they keep make us proud

[@theprettiestgirll]

0:28 is it weird that I hugged my I-Pad-

[@jiya4634]

Nope we all do this

[@mikaylajesuslovesyou3954]

I do it every time!

[@sugarplumprincess6833]

No, it's not. I always do it (just because it's Bangchan, and I'd never refuse a Channie hug.

[@sugarplumprincess6833]

@@shakthisivakumaran8918, not to forget that if you reject a Channie hug is basically a serious sin-

[@succulent3300]

@@sugarplumprincess6833 Big sin, like, Satan won't even accept you.

[@debbieann410]

Thank you for not giving up Bang Chan, thank you for waiting patiently on your "Stray Kids".. I salute your talent, pure talent and hard work, your handsomeness is just a plus point. But we are here to always support and STAY with you 💖

[@rowlet6727]

Who disliked this beautiful video? Heartless...

[@l._.l07]

nah there is two now someone wants to die..

[@rowlet6727]

datonenctzen 3 NOW!! OMG!!

[@miyoumina6367]

Madashgoku Gaming now 4

[@moonchild6261]

No one actually disliked this..... They were just crying so much that they pressed the wrong button!!!

[@l._.l07]

@@rowlet6727 NAH THEY GETTING THE GLOCK PUT IN THEIR MOUTH..37?!

[@greenshadow1859]

hear him singing demos right now hits differently.... "it's where my demons hide" chan's room 56. 28/4/2020

[@grellsutcliff9565]

In the first clip. I was already in tears. I loved that hug. Chan Is so precious

[@wasabichicken1215]

I haven't been a STAY for a long time like others but it hurts seeing this because Chan is literally the definition of leadership. He is one of the only souls on earth who care a lot about their loved ones. He works hard to accomplish his dreams and goals. Seeing him cry is hard because he is a kind soul who waited for people to debut with, but that moment when you realize that you are losing them is hard. He is literally one of the most hard working people I have ever seen.

[@moarmy_but_not_interaction1280]

Actually, I'm a MOA and an ARMY. But I realized this group has a very good leader. I'm sure they'll grow much bigger in the years to come. They're very successful. I'm not a fan, but I support them. 😊🤟🙏🙏🙏

[@Ann200181]

hi, i am a moa and army too, in the past month i've got to known straykids and admire how their whole group has many personal stories! i think its another group that i want to support fully with my ♡

[@tutterbear98]

I really love how many people are Stay, MOA, and ARMY, cause those are my main groups rn (plus Day6 but that's not too related to this). I realized though that between Chan and RM I really like good thoughtful, well spoken leaders.

[@taemin2505]

I'm an moa, army, once, atiny and a stay

[@starrynight4416]

Stay, exo-l, army here 😌✊🏻

[@zodwamhlongo4455]

Stay, Army Moa and Engene

[@denissewoo]

Omfg he used to be so freaking small now he is all grown up and he is doing such an amazing job as the leader of Stray Kids 😭😭❤❤

[@ladybugmobile]

1:58 chan being minho's hyung always makes me soft

[@Bangchans_big-gyat97]

Minho around the youngsters Minho with his only hyung:

[@nazaninasadi1266]

I'm not even a stay and I only know Chan from posts here and there..but I'm crying..he's so precious

[@zoe.__1007]

Are you stay now or not ?

[@elivile.]

I wasn't planning on crying tonight but here we are; crying to someone who I actually look up to whilst I'm older than he is. Geez, the power that he brings to the table.

[@armyignacio3467]

I'm crying😭 (that part when Chan and Woojin hugs, waaaah I cannot 😭)

[@heuly1532]

I'm so sad he left... 😭

[@armyignacio3467]

@@heuly1532 yah me too☹️

[@fkubra8133]

CHOSEN 23 why he left? I mean not the official explanation, is there any other reason?

[@armyignacio3467]

@@fkubra8133 according to the company he left due to personal circumstances

[@armyignacio3467]

@stan svt for clear skin yah☹️ I'm so disappointed 😭

[@roudahalqatari4549]

“I’m never gonna leave you behind” 🥺😭😭😭😭😭

[@Panda_11607]

I started sobbing when chan said"I'm not gonna leave you behind" to Felix And the song after really made me really happy and that he is the person i know 🥲🥲🥲🥲♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ We lovw you Stray Kids ♥️ Always and forever ♾️♾️🥟🐥🐺🐿️🐇🐶🦊🐷

[@belugawhale1857]

6:02 Oml his voice is so sweet and I started tearing up when I heard this 😭😭😭

[@nalidamakenzie7182]

words honestly cannot describe how much chan means to me. i've only been a stay for two months, but he has impacted my life and has inspired me in so many ways. i remember watching one of his vlives for the first time and he was talking about the lgbtq+ community, and i remember him talking about coming out, and as a closeted pansexual, it brought me to tears.

[@bebaios]

same, I know stray kids thanks to him, I love them and I love their music, but It's Chan the one who got me the most, because of his uniqueness as a leader...an open minded person who talks about anything, accepts the opinions even the hate, gets hurt by the world but never stops loving it. Such an inspiring and hard working person. I literally found out to consider him my favorite idol because of his persona

[@chel91]

do you remember what number episode that vlive was???

[@nalidamakenzie7182]

@@chel91 no i don't sorry :(((

[@chel91]

nalida makenzie thats okay! i’ll end up watching all of them eventually heheh

[@lilacsstay6518]

I relate in every way.

[@y3ll0w_ju1c3b0xx]

Looking back to this moment, Chan has always had the qualities of a great leader.

[@dorathyearl9132]

1:03 I couldn't hold my tears 😞 everyone needs a bang chan in yheir life and we stays are lucky to have him ❤️

[@Wiz-dc6hj]

Those words alone . . . Everyone needs to hear it, and Bang Chan said it

[@imamultistan7779]

He worked so hard and yet people hate him for not keeping the group as 9 even after knowing woojin left because of some family matter... Bang chan deserves the world y'all 😭💗💜✨

[@roxannemiller6961]

Don't worry we got ya.❤

[@laurenbarrie1431]

I very rarely see Minho cry so aswell as chan and everyone else crying this is what topped it for me

[@s1ckdolly]

Seeing Chan cry actually broke my heart..

[@skzstaybpblink242]

I'm crying now.

[@Rin-pz3rp]

Me2 😭😭 Im a new stay 🖤

[@Kayyy1909]

When I saw Woojin and their cute bond I started crying more

[@missvampire9858]

Me: *crying hard* *Chan singing Demons and look at me Me: *smiling* Like...i cried cuz of Han running to hug Chan after his heartwarming words😭😭

[@brendamedina3265]

I'm so tired and I feel alone... Stray Kids are the only thing that are making me feel happier this days. Specially Bang Chan... He's such a good and strong person. His laugh, the way he support his friends. I'm really proud. So, when he strarted to sing Demons... Wow, that touched my heart. Stay, please be strong, because this holly Corona is making a lot of pepole like me crazy. ♡ Thank you 4 the video, was amazing. ♡♡

[@rosierrd21]

Wow same here sis I have a bad time too I feel really tired hopeless , wasted , alone even though I’m only 13 I feel really empty but straykids always make me happy also bts like they encourage me a lot my parents don’t understand that and they keep judging these boys ur comment made me happy I will stay strong thanks fellow stay ! Be safe

[@galebmohamed8455]

Same here kpop heals me in a special way and btw ur not alone, we will always be here for u😊😊

[@seunglixsburntpancake]

I cried so much watching this. Channie I am so thankfull that I got to know you, the moments that us stays have shared with you will stay with me forever. I was going through such a bad time and then you came. Words are unable to express my gratitude. Chan is my safe zone. Thanks to him I feel like I can truly be myself. I laugh, cry and smile all because of you. When the day comes that you will all go your seperate ways I will never forget these memories. One day it will all end but these memories are forever. I love you so much Chan, and all the other StrayKids members. You truly don't know how much you mean to me.❤️😭

[@babymochi5823]

1:28 his "I'm so sorry" broke me...this is the first time I see Chan from this side,the broken side💔please give all love to Chan cuz he's the best leader in the 4th generation 💜

[@goingprobably]

5:20 I was in the middle of sobbing and Han doing that made me laugh

[@Anona_]

I am glad jyp brought felix and minho back after elimination or skz would have never been how it is now 😭

[@jas3335]

i hate that i didn't know of them soon, everyone in stray kids especially bangchan deserves all the love, appreciation and hugs in the world, it's really rare to come across someone who's heart is so pure, but at the end of the day, i'm still glad i found out about him even if it was a little late. i hope he sleeps and wakes up with the best and prettiest genuine smile everytime and has the best days filled with giggles and cuddles ❤❤

[@andrea9275]

They're gold, really 😭😭 more like diamonds

[@adhithithalla7288]

Bang Chan is seriously the best leader.

[@annego191]

I became Stay this January 2021 but I can say than Chan really deserves the world. I love him so much 😭

[@mariedikinz8995]

yaaaaaa same here best leader ever!!

[@sudhar792]

To this day, I still have tears in my eyes when I watch the clip of Chan saying "I'm never gonna leave you behind."

[@nicolagerstenberger7225]

He is so a good leader and a woderful person

[@chilonewme2168]

"I'm never gonna leave you behind "aww that line🥺😊

[@Urviiiiii_6]

He gives the warmest online hugs and u can't change my mind. His hugs are the best.

[@호두_walnut]

But also when he got a hate comment in his live he still said “I hate myself too.” What gets me is that he said it like he doesn’t do any work for stray kids😢. But if Bang Chan wasn’t the leader it would be good but not as great as Bang Chan😢😢😢😢❤❤

[@katja1985]

He's my biggest role model. Everyday I look at him and think :"okay he got it. He made it, so can I." he inspires me and helps me to stay alive. I'm so happy that these boys /men exist because they (not only Chan but he leads the pack) did so much for me without even knowing. Thank you. Thank you so much

[@dirtynoodlesoup]

6:29 “I want to shelter you” he has done that with the members and all the fans ❤

[@neroflower6716]

Just knowing he literally grew up elder training makes me think how AMAZINGLY patient & strong he is. The training days made ur life hard, being alone, choosing members, helping them, trying to debut as 9, eliminations, debuts, hate, leading, writing, composing, singing, rapping, speaking many languages, approaching as a leader, loosing a woojin, dealing w/ controversy about hyunjin,....... U passed through all & u can see u R getting stronger, clever & more handsome😘. I rly wanna say this to u, U are literally perfect for us stays & u will be to ppl who will need u but still don't know u & skz. Don't give everyone ur kindness & sweetness cuz not everybody deserves it. Don't be too stressed on haters cuz that's what they want. 10q for existing & for making & being leader of straykids. Ur worth is more than anything u could imagine so pls be sure that there are aLOT of ppl by ur side at ur best/worst. Skz is on the stair of success , don't stop from climbing bc a gum is stuck on ur shoes. We LUUUUUUUUUUV U❤💜❤❤💜❤! Cheese= kzbin.info/www/bejne/j33XdpZjoNuCp6M Thunderous= kzbin.info/www/bejne/e5LWqIqfrLKJqZo

[@jelly397]

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[@neroflower6716]

@@jelly397 💜💜💜