Thank you brother.... great work. Jai maa kali. Jai parshurama... my favourite character from ramayana. I always found drawn to him. Today felt like he spoke to me to give direction of going deep into devi kaali sadhana.🎉
@krishnaveerabhishekchalla27943 ай бұрын
Was eagerly awaiting for Lord Parashuram's role after yesterday's Nimittha magnus opus
@MrBadshah212 ай бұрын
In your last video , you said that it's best to begin your sadhna journey from doing anushthan of Ganapati puja . Could you please, throw light , on this topic , how to do Ganapati puja . l mean , whether I should begin with , performing Shri Ganapati naam jap or reciting Shri Ganapati Atharva Sheesha . What should be the daily number of recitations.
@yadatimoorthy74723 ай бұрын
Namaste Guruji. Just started Bhairava sadhana. Todays episode on Parashurama and Maa Kaali is astounding. You are blessed by Bhairava and Maa Kaali and we are fortunate to see and listen to you with Bhairava and Divine Mother behind you. As you said i feel she is Aadi Shakthi directing you. I can sense the spontaneous flow of thoughts. Pranams
@TaraTantrika3 ай бұрын
It’s always been her running the show behind the scenes for the world. I almost laugh about hearing “free will” because it’s only by HER will and blessing that anything gets granted to us. Jai Maa Kaali 🪬
@AmanSingh-qs4lv3 ай бұрын
Bade bhaiya aur mata kaali ke charno main sadar naman....... Maa ki kripa se aap jaise margdarshak mila mere punya karm safal ho gaye...... Jai bhairav baba jai maa bhagvati❤❤
@arvindmohite70343 ай бұрын
।। ॐ काळभैरवाय नमः ।।
@sreeca7Ай бұрын
Thank you sir
@devashish_pawar3 ай бұрын
In the darkest nights, your light shines the brightest, Guiding your devotees through the storms of life, O Dark Mother, your love is as boundless as the universe. Bless us with courage to face our inner shadows, Grant us the wisdom to see your divine play in all, Maa Kali, you are the ultimate reality, the source of all creation. Jai Maa Kali Jai Bhairav 🙏
@achalabadve3 ай бұрын
Om Bhairavay Namah 🙏🏼 thanks for contemplating in details about Lord Parshurama 🙏🏼🙏🏼 wonderful video🙏🏼👍 Please keep guiding sadhakas 🙏🏼🙏🏼
@anindita1283 ай бұрын
This is so true 🙏🙏🙏 There are people in my lineage who even start as Ram bhakta etc. and by old age realize Ma Kali is the ishta.🙏✨
@annanyakaawle21222 ай бұрын
So well explained, 🙏
@spiritualseeker9993 ай бұрын
😍 Never expected you would post! You are making us addicts of your videos and towards shakti upasna♥️ Thankyou ♥️ Bhairav kalike namostute🙏 Om bhairavay namah🙏✨ You are the bestest guide I could ever have♥️
@chayanknightheart3 ай бұрын
Forever grateful to Maa, Baba and Praveen Bhaisaab for these videos ..... Jai Maa Kaali, Jai Baba Bhairava ....
@SChakravorty-zb4sz3 ай бұрын
You have described it so beautifully. Avatars and their connection to Maa is really wonderful!!
@CTejasKesharkar3 ай бұрын
Thank you Om BhairavKaalike Namostute ❤ Aadi Shakti Blessings for all ❤
@shalinikohli25073 ай бұрын
Always in awe of how devoted you are. Learning from you and always grateful 🙏 ❤
@nishaap58873 ай бұрын
Birds cheering for Kaali yuga❤
@vikyathshetty-cc6bi2 ай бұрын
Kunjarugiri which is located near Udupi(Tulunad) from there he threw his axe.
@kirtinaik32923 ай бұрын
Our village aronda in sawamtwadi has the famous bhadrakali sayanbhu temple .she has come there itself and once in year on 10 th may is celebrated for her birthday.
@tanayachodankar62963 ай бұрын
You and OM Swami ji are for me the most honest,real Gurus out there. There is no pretense,just unparalleled devotion to your path. Your thoughts are also aligned. Blessed to receive guidance from the Lotus feet of Swamiji and you Sir❤
@kirtinaik32923 ай бұрын
Devi sadhana is definetly very powerful along with shree bhairava but very less content on bhairava is seen on net
@anuj2323323 ай бұрын
Pranaam bhaiya Jai maa kali jai bhairav baba
@VikramSingh-dj5hh2 ай бұрын
Jai Bhairav Baba 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Jai Maa 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
@RVarsh3 ай бұрын
Bhaiya ur upcoming Ramakrishna paramhans❤🙏
@Subhasis0073 ай бұрын
For Me Delhi is Far away Sir, My first Goal is Bhairava and then Maa Kali... Please pray to your Amma sir, I can get Both Of them, I know I am sounding little bit greedy but if you pray for me she will listen.😊😅 Please tell the Name Mantra of vagban parshuram if possible sir🙏🙏🙏 Om Bhairavakalike Namostutay 🙏🔱🙏 Om Batuk Bhairavay Namah 🙏🔱🙏
@KarmicVagabond3 ай бұрын
Delhi is far away. First goal is Bhairava. Nicely put.😊
@Varthali4673 ай бұрын
Birds and squirrels behave like this when you activate divine energy inside you or around you. That is my analysis as per my experience.
@aumkaram83 ай бұрын
Jai Bhairav Jai Ma Kaali Jaghadhambha🙏🏽
@archanasharma68913 ай бұрын
My question of morning message has been answered again. Thank you, feel so blessed.
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
And without any pappa karma too ☺️
@geetharamadas4483 ай бұрын
Namaste guruji. Thanks a lot.
@korakatar79212 ай бұрын
The temple of my ancestor's kula devata at Kunjargiri in Dakshina Kannada is also believed to have been built by Parsuramaji in honour of Adi Sakti. Nearby hill also has a temple of Parasurama and the priest there told me that it is believed that Parasurama ji meditates in a cave in the heart of the hill below.
@romaboodoosingh29043 ай бұрын
Om skakti ma blessings to you baba🙏🇹🇹🌹
@MsTammi1252 ай бұрын
You've made such a impact on my life. ❤
@sun-1613 ай бұрын
Thank you for your video and for your reassuring message today ❤🙏
@bhuvaneswaria49633 ай бұрын
🙏🙏🙏💐💐💐Eagerly waiting for your videos sir 🙏🙏
@shivsimhashivsanjeevisripa49863 ай бұрын
Ahobhagyam to hear such precious knowledge Namaskaram
@Saugatt3692 ай бұрын
Jai mAA KAALI❤ FROM WHERE I CAN CONNECT YOU FOR UPADESHA??please reply
@jackjohnson23092 ай бұрын
Don’t worry about the noise of the animals on our parts, your voice comes through much more clearly than they do 😁🙏🏽
@darapudeepthi3 ай бұрын
Thank you for the reply to my mail in this video. Thank you brother
@sumitapandey26543 ай бұрын
Krishna is Kali and Kali Krishna Prabhuji🙏. That is all I know and I feel, all I need to know.
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
Indeed that is the way of KaliYuga
@The_inner_ascent2 ай бұрын
Thank you for the information 🙏🏾 ❤
@pj-nz6nm3 ай бұрын
What is the purpose of this game of creation, preservation and destruction, repeating this again and again. Are we just a small character of their big game, They created us and again we are seeking them, Do gods have ego because they need shadhna, nama japa to impress them, otherwise will not get moksha, just like buttering your boss but in a very sophisticated way to get promotion. Please clear my doubts. I am just confused guy, sorry if i said anything wrong.
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
Yes, it is a cruel game.
@SR-mv2mf2 ай бұрын
Even I have the same doubt as you but I explained this to myself in some way. My view is that we are chanting their names and praises so that we can get on the same “vibe” as them. For example it is like their phone number which we are dialling and calling them. Even we also have free will even though they created us we still are making choices and creating our own karmas too. They can’t influence our individual karmas once the wheel of karma is in motion even GOD gets stuck in it just like Krishna who got cursed by Gandhari.
@Quezecotl20123 ай бұрын
Throughout history, birds have been considered messengers between the human and spiritual realms. They are believed to carry messages from the divine or the deceased, bridging the gap between the earthly and the ethereal. Birds have long been associated with freedom, both in a literal and metaphorical sense. Thanks. 🙏
@SR-mv2mf2 ай бұрын
He already knows that and explained in nimitha video
@hrishikeshtd7013 ай бұрын
Please make a video surrounding by dogs and cows.....I love those previous videos...that also has different effect....
@guruprasadbhatgundkalbhat81002 ай бұрын
Gurubhyo namah, many many pranams for your videos, I was doing some devi japa and trying to complete certain number, but sometimes distracted, lack of focus, lack of determination to sit for longer duration. In your videos you have mentioned only bhairava baba hold and sustain the energy of maa, before starting japa I just did 108 om bhairavaya namh and I was had very good energy and mental state for japa and able to complete how much I wanted.
@uttamjaiswal96872 ай бұрын
Aahh..badrkali ..❓️kali...❓️....maa durga ...❓️
@MrBadshah212 ай бұрын
In your last video , you said that it's best to begin your sadhna journey from doing anushthan of Ganapati puja . Could you please, throw light , on this topic , how to do Ganapati puja . l mean , whether I should begin with , performing Shri Ganapati naam jap or reciting Shri Ganapati Atharva Sheesha . What should be the daily number of recitations.
@rajmalajaiswal54452 ай бұрын
❤❤❤
@Happilylife2 ай бұрын
Are we allow to putt jasmine flowers on the neck to Maa Kaali
@praveenrKalaBhairava2 ай бұрын
Yes
@reddbando79952 ай бұрын
Namaste, thank you for these videos ,it has really helped to increase the perception of reality , I would like you to shed some insights about the ganesha; how this shiva shakti plays around , also is there stories that corresponds to each of the chakras having made certain sacrifices made by the shakti and all , i was asking this beacuse in our stories it is heard that the ganesha head was taken by shiva to see his wife.. if you at any time are willing to talk on this, i would like to hear it from you . thank you
@PraveenKumar-bi8ri2 ай бұрын
🙏🙏🙏
@MrVkipin2 ай бұрын
Hi. Your videos have taught me a lot about bhairav baba and maa kali. Quick question- can you explain what is the difference between kalabhairava ashtakam and Teekshnadamstra kalabhairava ashtakam? I don’t find anyone who has spoken about this clearly.
@suvirkoul26672 ай бұрын
Kalike sharnam
@deepthisreekumar50202 ай бұрын
Swami, thank you so much for sharing your knowledge and experience. Can you please talk about Bhairavi Devi 🙏
@anitasalunkhe73773 ай бұрын
🙏💐🙏
@baron2902 ай бұрын
Sri matrey namah! Guru ji please shed some light on the story of encounter between bhagwati kali and gorakshnaath Q-2) whqt is the difference between sri rudra in vedas and baba bhairav in tantra? I am trying to be a sincere upasaka and these answers hidden in these videos really help me. Sri matrey namah!!!
@Subhasis0073 ай бұрын
If Possible sir please tell the Name Mantra Of Vagban Parshuram for Japa.. Om Batuk Bhairavay Namah 🙏
@sahebkspoor19142 ай бұрын
Om shri kaal bhairavaya namah Jai bhole
@sharma64._.4633 ай бұрын
🌺🖤
@vikramhutke85313 ай бұрын
❤ Will you please say something about Kali sahastranamam.
@SR-mv2mf2 ай бұрын
Yes am also interested in this topic
@Aumy12345-y2 ай бұрын
Is it ok to do "OM Kala Bhairavaya Namaha" namjapa rather than " Om Bhairavaya Namaha' . please answer guruji . Jai Bhirav baba🙏🙏
@praveenrKalaBhairava2 ай бұрын
Only for advanced sadhaks, after putting good amount of time in Batuka and other nama japa
@Aumy12345-y2 ай бұрын
@@praveenrKalaBhairava thank you guruji
@sidharthchaturvedi15193 ай бұрын
Sir please make a video on all info about mala
@nayankonwar57563 ай бұрын
✡️🙏❤️
@kirtinaik32923 ай бұрын
They say konkan region is parshurams bhoomi .If u can put some light on it .Their r many temples including parshuramas in konkan region which had many shatriyas
@AdarshNR212 ай бұрын
Can kali sahasranama be listened..I do listen 3-4 times per week..I have heard one should not.. but don't know I can't stop...I am having kali photo as wallpaper and bhairava also in my phone from past 3 years (before also I loved her so much) i personally tried to change the wallpaper..but only for 3-4 or maybe a week and again cant resist and puts her picture... whenever I feel too low (not low, but sad) i cry seeing her photo...all this don't know why...
@praveenrKalaBhairava2 ай бұрын
Listening. No issues. If Reciting, proper procedure to be followed.
@AdarshNR212 ай бұрын
@@praveenrKalaBhairava I want to recite may I know the proper procedure....
@itishamishra91373 ай бұрын
How to combine maa kali and bhairava sadhna?
@mrunknown12113 ай бұрын
anna can i chant hare krishna mahamantra and "om bhairavaya namaha" on the same day??
@AumKalaKali3 ай бұрын
What are the means in which a sadhaka can contribute to dharma raksha? A small video of a shadhaka on dharma raksha would be appreciated. Aum bhairavaya namaha!
@praveenrKalaBhairava2 ай бұрын
Nithya Upasana is all one needs to do for DharmaRaksha
@Ravikumar871263 ай бұрын
Bhairavakaalike namosthuthe 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙇🏻. I am very much connected to Mahadev from my childhood.. If i listen mahadev song tears automatically come into eyes. i do mahadev's Abhishekam with full of happiness &nama japa always (in my mind) but not louder.. I know how much mahadev love MAA & how Maa love mahadev. But i am always doubted or scared that.. mahadev is bhloe ,so if do any mistakes in my Abhishekam or pooaj ..he accepts my pooja & bhakthi. But in MAA pooja,there is much process & many materials for her pooja,& if i do any mistakes or if i miss anything may be she doesn't accept my pooja. I am always scared of it.. that's why o didn't get into Devi's pooja. I always think her pooja is somehow difficult & long process & many stotraas & If don't do all that she won't accept me as mahadev.. I wanted to be bhakth of MAA also as Mahadev ..but all these make me doubted. That can i do her pooja ..? Can i afford..? Please tellme what should i do to get Maa in my life ... I want to do sadhana of Maa Thankyou 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
She is very much bhole too ☺️
@Ravikumar871263 ай бұрын
Should I do Maa sadhana(nama japa)..? Or Bhairava sadhana(nama japa) will get maa into my life.? I'm sorry.m iam poor in English.🙏🏻🙏🏻
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
@@Ravikumar87126 you can add 108 names
@paramvirsingh70112 ай бұрын
Please make a video on vatuka bhairava and whether vatuka bhairava can give moksha to a sadhak or not.
@uttamjaiswal96872 ай бұрын
Baba can we use shpatik mala or Kamalghta mala for bhairav baba sadhna...I'm not getting original rudraksha mala ...please reply....🙏 Jai bhawani 🙏
@praveenrKalaBhairava2 ай бұрын
Rudraksha is easily available online and there are sellers. 5 mukhi Mala is easy to get
@PoojaKakkarr2 ай бұрын
Hello guru ji, these days all i'm hearing as it appears on youtube is mahishasur mardini and starrt dancin and naga stuti a lot, i remember once my grandma told me nagas are our ancestors, what should i do next to find out why is this happening? please help.
@user-zb8zn4ej9x3 ай бұрын
Sir can you tell me if there is anything to include with japa in nitya sadhna please suggest if there is anything as i am begginer starting tommorow my nitya sadhna Thanks sir Jai baba Jai maa
@quartz97933 ай бұрын
Plz explain the difference between bhairav and bhairavi as devtas...i worship devi bhairavi...can i take all that you have talked about bhairav to be true also for devi bhairavi..and if its not a problem can you make a video on bhairavi too
@WatchWorthy-0073 ай бұрын
Hello Praveen Sir, Thank you for the great content. Way to go!! This is a completely different topic. But since you are into both dogs and spiritual stuff. What is your perspective on dog's deaths. Especially due to tragic incidents and which no one saw it coming. Is their time on earth ended or due to human errors they're abruptly taken away. Do they have fate like humans. Are their birth and death decided by Gods? Thanks.
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
Like humans, some dogs have a spiritual purpose
@WatchWorthy-0073 ай бұрын
Thank You Praveen Sir. 🙏🏻
@neharani.t.e67353 ай бұрын
I never realized amma's importance till this video. Being born in kerala with family temple worshiping badrakali and shiva.. i grew up singing hymns of amma during athazha pooja.. during childhood i used to be more frequent into her temple but as time passed went away for college and habit of visiting her became less.. i think i should ask her forgiveness for going away from her.. Dada how to start her prayer wen im doing bhairav sadhana now? It has just been 2 months i started bhairav sadana With 7 mala . Can you please guide me?
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
108 names Asktakams Can be added in Nithya upsana
@pushb64193 ай бұрын
Another interesting video. Lots to think about. Would 108 names of Maa Durga a good place to start for including Adi Shakti with Bhairava sadhana?
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
Yes
@nishantjogadia89422 ай бұрын
Guruji, could you please make a video on how important is the control on 5 senses while doing Bhairav sadhana? How does it affect the path towards Bhairava?
@kchandrasekhar51043 ай бұрын
Namaste sir,how to know maa Kali grace on us ,please tell me please
@Ravikumar871263 ай бұрын
Yes sir..
@teertho11143 ай бұрын
love from Bangladesh😍💗💗❤❤❤❤ i am doing nam mantra japa of bhairava from 1st jan... i promised myself that whatever happens i will sit and do japa 8 mala everyday but i cant do it everyday at the same time . and i dont have a mala. i count on fingers. am i doing wrong? plzzz plzzz plzzz reply...❤❤❤❤
@shubhumrajput36203 ай бұрын
Thank you so much bhaiya, can you tell how to take a. Sankalp what are the things that we can do and we should avoid how to choose a mantra? Thanks ❤
@rahulrao67573 ай бұрын
Question. Why create things filled with flaws and spend eternity fixing it.. Or is it fair to blame brahmha for the imperfections.. I cannot think of a benevolant God create life..where one eats another for survival.. Why is cruelty the epi centre of survival.. Or is it just existance [never created, always just existed] that we and the divine both suffer... If existance is sufferimg why are fighting it...if cruelty is the core of creation....no options..just live life out..cause there is no answer....
@ameynaik21203 ай бұрын
What mantra to use for bhadra kaali sadhana which can be done along with bhairava nitya upasana I do Om Bam Batuk Bhairavaya namah 11 malas for a year now guruji i need a guru or atleast a direction i dont have any intentions of disturbing tour karma just want to rise in my own sadhna journey
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
Pls begin with nama japa, AUM KAALIKE NAMAH. 108 names etc
@rajanrengasamy3 ай бұрын
Namaskaram, thank you 🙏🏽 very timely advise 🙏🏽. I have a question are you able to help me understand the relationship between Muladarani, our mother and Muladharam, Sri Ganesha. Separately if the mother permits a session on Batuka Bhirava and from him how do we progress to getting the grace of KalBhairava and or from him to the mother. Apologies if these are basic questions. I’m learning m. Thank you 🙏🏽
@jackjohnson23092 ай бұрын
I know this is probably the area in which a guru is essential, but generally speaking, how does one go about Sadhana to the necessary deities while not feeling that one is neglecting worship of Maa? For instance: you and other have said start with Ganapati Sadhana if it’s never been done first, as is the typical way of things. Then, to “graduate” to Batuka Bhairava Sadhana for x amount of time before “graduating onto Bhairava/Kalabhairava etc Sadhana, which is all necessary to properly worship Maa. I understand this and am perfectly comfortable with the idea of moving up to the highest in stages, but I can’t shake the feeling that I’m neglecting Her in worshipping Them. I know in many senses they are “abhed” or “indifferent”, but the perception of difference in the context of Sadhana makes me unsure how to progress for the moment. As of now, I do Ganesha Gayatri Mantra daily, and I do Rudra Gayatri and Bhairava Gayatri on Mondays, and Kali Gayatri on Fridays, as well as listening to their respective Sahasranamas regularly on those days as well. Without a guru, and having come from a different culture, I only do those few things that I understand to be appropriate without proper guidance.
@praveenrKalaBhairava2 ай бұрын
Higher stages don’t exist without Her. She is the whole Journey. Be it any deity; that may be your Ishta, she is the one who can accelerate your sadhana. Always add her with your Nithya upsana.
@nikkumar41092 ай бұрын
Sir is buffalo meat consumption allowed in Hinduism ..? Please guide.
@shouravdebnath76113 ай бұрын
Namaste Praveen Ji, You have explained Maa's Lila in such a beautiful way. I didn't have this kind of clear explanation before. Thanks a lot. 🙏🙏🙏 I started with simple Bhairavi Maa Sadhana, then after 2 months Bhairav Baba entered into my life and I sarted Bhairava Nama Mantra japa. Does it mean, Maa herself wants me to be fit for her Sadhana?
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
Yes, indeed
@shouravdebnath76113 ай бұрын
@@praveenrKalaBhairava Ji, thanks a lot again... 🙏 🙏🙏
@vinayakbhide92243 ай бұрын
Wonderful ❤ Can you suggest a mantra of mahakali without any beej mantra in it? A nam mantra maybe
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
AUM KAALIKE NAMAH
@vinayakbhide92242 ай бұрын
कालिके नमः या कालिकायै नमः ?
@triptisengupta7643 ай бұрын
Thank you so much Dada, This video has really helped..Do I need initiation before start worshiping Maa kali...plz bless
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
No initiation for Nama japa, 108 names, or asktakam, kawacham
@triptisengupta7643 ай бұрын
Thank you so much Dada...Thank you so much
@sujaysuresh28923 ай бұрын
During your Bhairava Episode you said we need to be true to our birth circumstances, like if you come from a non-veg eating family you follow that but here we see Parashurama does the exact opposite so I'm a bit confused now How did Parashurama reach that level when he was doing the opposite of what a Brahmin was supposed to?
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
Avatars are to learn from, not emulate. I am sure you cannot destroy the Kshetriya vamsa 21 times either.
@SR-mv2mf2 ай бұрын
If am doing practices for Lalitha Tripura sundari, Ma Kali and Das Mahavidya Matangi, do I also need to do any Bhairava sadhana?. What is your view?
@praveenrKalaBhairava2 ай бұрын
If you place maa kaali below any other feminine or masculine divine form, she will move away, that’s my tip for you ☺️
@SR-mv2mf2 ай бұрын
@@praveenrKalaBhairavaI love Ma Kaali so so much, but I also love Lalitha Tripura Sundari, Das Mahavidya - Matangi and Krishna. I feel no affinity to any other deities beyond them. Aren’t all these deities aspects of Mal Kali anyways??
@praveenrKalaBhairava2 ай бұрын
@@SR-mv2mf You may love all, but to attain Kaali, you must only chase after that form. That is the secret.
@Nik-xr9kd3 ай бұрын
Sir i am a veg and what if we dont eat naivedya of bhairav baba which is not veg. Is the paap will i get or eat naivedya is ok for veg also?
@himanshuthiaria13433 ай бұрын
No need to be non vegetarian.
@user-zb8zn4ej9x3 ай бұрын
Hello sir can I start my nitya sadhna from Monday ( that is tommorow) or I should wait for Friday or Sunday as Rajarshi nandy sir said in his video to start from Friday or Sunday And can you tell me to include what things in my nitya with japa Please reply sir Jai bhairav baba Jai maa
@praveenrKalaBhairava3 ай бұрын
Start the day the thought comes.
@user-zb8zn4ej9x3 ай бұрын
Ok sir by baba and maa blessing I will start tommorow Sir can you tell me that what to include with japa in nitya sadhna Thanks sir Jai baba Jai maa
@m_swastik2 ай бұрын
Namaste !! I have an important question from my point - How to overcome fear of sadhana ? I mean there is an urge to start but an unknown fear of some kind .
@praveenrKalaBhairava2 ай бұрын
How can you fear sadhana?
@m_swastik2 ай бұрын
@@praveenrKalaBhairava not sure brother. But a lot of questions, doubts about self and own capabilities some contradictory thought give a different kind of jittery answer anxiety. But as I mentioned there is a very strong urge to start a disciplined process. But in past whenever I have tried, I have not kept my word to do a simple meditation. May be that is why a bit worried.