Big Love: In the Beginning (Episode One: Post-Partum)

[@denas1983]

I can't believe I'm just finding these- they're great! I always loved Nikki- always a drama queen, but there was so much more to her than that. She had deep rooted emotional and mental abuse from her past and was so self conscious. Her cocky way was how she covered it. Of all the characters, hers was the most in depth, I always felt.

[@ChaoticSerenity]

Her character was an excellent and brutally honest portrayal of unresolved trauma. She’s vicious and unlikeable at times, but they are a defense mechanism to mask the intensity of her pain and fear. It was only when she was able to rescue her daughter and give her a life that was taken from her was she able to reconcile even a small part of what was done to her.

[@LadyArdent]

The thing is Nicki's concern was right - Barb and Bill both married her to have children - and when she fought back she was treated like an outcast for it - before they knew she was on birth control they were taking her off to the doctor to get checked, when they found out she was discarded only the fact that she had a terrible secret / reason did they take her back. Whereas Margie who was married for lust was allowed to stop having kids - Bill even says as much. Nicki really was used.

[@oldorleans9583]

MissDee yes it's sad I think that they chose her for breeding. I think they initially had her because Barb was ill and dying, once she survived and could no longer have children, Nicki was expected to carry the burden alone, I think that they thought she would because of where she came from, Juniper Creek and the woman were expected to breed there and I think that's what they expected Nickollette to do, the women where she came from did as they men asked and I think they expected her to be the same and do as she was told. But Nicki was strong willed and didn't want to have tons of babies, I know she loved her children but it didn't feel natural to her, in the series we saw her struggle with bonding emotionally with her children, she was trying to over compensate with spending money on them instead of showering them with love, I feel like Nicki got better at it as the show went on, especially with Cara, but she definitely struggled at the beginning. I can't imagine being in a situation like that, where you are expected to keep having children until you can't anymore, I do think she fell for the DA she worked with for her father, unfortunately she she did as she was told because although she knew her father was evil she still loved him and wanted him to be proud of her and acceptance of her, I think if she had met him in a different way she would of left Bill and would of been happy to live a one man relationship, but that wasn't to be, I would love to know what happened to the wives now since Bill died, I wonder if Nicki would now be the only wife in a relationship, I would love to know that now, it's been years since I saw the ending but I do remember that Margene was going on as a missionary but I can't remember what happened to the others, I would love to watch these again, but it's expensive to watch here in the 🇬🇧, I can't afford the box set, which is a pity because I'm having some chemotherapy and I could use watching this again to take my mind off reality for a bit, Thanks for uploading these, I wish someone could upload the series for us to watch, but I know KZbin would probably take it down, but thanks for these, it gives a glimpse back into the series, And a break from reality so Thanks so much 😊

[@misterpuppypants1095]

MissDee they were all used for his ego- but found a sisterhood like no other after he died- then there themselves.

[@AnahataMaryjane]

@@oldorleans9583 i hope you are doing better.

[@nicolina1026]

@@misterpuppypants1095 I think the show demonstrated he did truly love them, despite his ego issues.

[@yourinnerlawyer4035]

It's a tenant of the religion and people abuse it.

[@plentifullove30]

Still missing this show in 2017 😳 I rewatch it a lot.

[@kaseyMmm]

I do too! I watch all five seasons regularly because I wish I had a family like this...

[@plentifullove30]

@@kaseyMmm I know!! What is it that's SO addicting about this show! I live far from my family and we are such a small family now as well. Something about the home feeling and family I enjoy so much while watching this. At times I find myself almost wishing for a sisterwife.. 😅..guess it's because I'm so lonely being a stay at home mom away from my family and friends for so many years now.

[@kaseyMmm]

@@plentifullove30 I find myself wishing for a sister wife too! I’m not even Mormon : ) But I’m not married and don’t have children so I guess I just get to dream a bit about white picket fences x My siblings and parents apply certain conditions to our relationships so I love that this family may disagree or transgress but they always ultimately forgive and accept each other at the end of the day ❤️

[@memom010605]

Oh, how I loved this show. R.I.P. Bill Paxton so sad!!

[@ArkansasEllie]

WHY AREN’T THESE ON HBO?? 😱 How did I not know about these?? Big Love is my favorite show! Oh thank you thank you!!! Never take them down! 💗

[@TiffanyHall-mi4ym]

Wasn't this show on HBO?

[@ang8158]

I love these "behind the scene" scenes...how it was before they had 3 separate homes.

[@Heathobsessed]

Barb's hair is freaking WILD. Remember when she made fun of JJ's wife's wig and said there are charities that give out free GOOD wigs?! Apparently Barb didn't call them

[@Showaholic]

Thank you for uploading these! I'd never seen them before. Nikki totally looked like the postpartum depression kind.

[@Kingoftheworld500]

Bill had years off of the compound to leave it behind and Nicki was obviously traumatized leaving Carolyn and trying to find a new calling. Bill brought a second wife in while Barb was on her death bed, and he married a woman who was clearly hurting/ brainwashed. He should have known better and helped Nicki leave her family's influence if he was going to eventually marry her.

[@laurasmith14]

This prequel explains why she was taking the birth control pill! I’m glad they did this… But again still baffled as to why HBO doesn’t have this along with the entire series! As a subscriber I can watch the entire series but these clips don’t show anywhere

[@773SleepyHollow]

RIP Bill Paxton.

[@priscilabortolotti9729]

Missing it in 2019. Great show!

[@neongirluk]

I love it when Nikki and Barb are getting on.

[@3piper]

Nikki was my favorite.She was such a drama queen!!

[@dukemantee2978]

I agree!

[@meryseconde283]

Drama queen? What she says here goes beyond the show. Just listen back and think hard about it. Would you like to be some belly used for reproduction? Think hard man.

[@whitealliance9540]

I first fell in love with this actress from this show. Plus bill paxton was prime in this show. Sad how he died

[@-itsMadi]

How have I not found this until today!?

[@dukemantee2978]

I guess you just weren't ready, sweetie. and yes, RIP to Bill.

[@pat5star]

Laura Gambrell Don’t feel bad...you found it 3 (*THREE*) years before I did!!! I love this series, too, and only by luck today (March 1st, 2019) did I happen to learn that these webisodes even exist! I am rewatching the entire series for my 3rd time now (since it originally aired) and because I had a question about a certain actor that I was looking up did I happen to learn of these 2 pre-episodes. I really don’t understand why they’re not included with the series and why I can only seem to find them on KZbin.

[@tredinyamoore3716]

Laura Grambell And The Rest i Just Learned Of This Series From Vlad TVs Interview Of Rapper Boosie Bad Ass🤦🏾‍♀️ And i Came Across This And Everyone's Comments. I'm On The Hunt Now For The Entire Series To Watch 🤦🏾‍♀️😁👍🏽

[@crackedbuddha]

@SenseOrSensibility Barb gave birth to Sarah, Ben and Teeny before battling cancer for several years. Nicki was brought in to nurse Barb through chemo, etc and during that time Bill began to toy with the idea of plural marriage. Once Barb was in remission, he proposed the idea to Barb, who eventually agreed.

[@squidrides6339]

I miss this show too.

[@candaceu3157]

She might have been hormonal here, but throughout it seemed she didn't really want to have children. But she wanted to have Bill all to herself.

[@ronniebishop2496]

Candace U My daughter went through this. I was a nervous wreck.

[@jenniferrsmith2012]

She had insane trauma. This wasn’t even her first child! Can you imagine the pain and anguish she was feeling and couldn’t even tell anyone.

[@katrinalisa2002]

Nikki seems so young here..although since Wayne is her first son and she married Bill at 18 it's possible she's only 19-20.

[@CodyChromeBand]

Everyone: it is spelled "Nicki"

[@ronniebishop2496]

Chloe Sevini was tremendous

[@KingofgraceSARA]

Sevigny

[@godonlyknowssarah]

"Mama pajama!"

[@ronniebishop2496]

What a bunch! lol I love Jeanne she’s from my hometown Tulsa.

[@kaseyMmm]

I love Jeanne too, I always wish she was my mum!!!

[@ronniebishop2496]

Reagan McDermott She was a friend of mine in Tulsa. She was on tv locally and one night I saw her and she said she was moving to New York and take acting lessons and the next time I saw her she was in Basic Instinct the great movie with Sharon Stone and Michael Douglas. Amazing

[@theaddictedprepper902]

I miss his show!!!!!

[@noneofyourbizznizz5375]

I've just gorged on this series this last month. Just finishing S4. I have to say I thought I'd of hated Nicki buy actually she's ended up being the most interesting part of the show. She is presented as a love to hate character. The characters I really dislike are Barb (although she's been improving in the latter half of S4, her worst was S3 and the first half of S4) and Bill. He's such a spoilt, hypocritical narcissist. But I feel as if the producers were trying to insist that he was actually a decent character I should like. I really do not. Bill past S2 has been brain ache.

[@TehCocoRainbow]

For everyone's info: I'm a Mormon, and I say this on behalf of my church: Originally, very early on in our faith, some members of the church did practice polygamy. But this practice was banned in 1890. Groups have broken away from the church over the years-some of these sects of the faith do practice polygamy, such as those on this series. But they are not Mormons and are not affiliated with the church; in fact, if a Mormon today was found to be practicing polygamy, they would immediately be ex

[@jmcfintona999]

Megan A if the orginal members of the Mormon church were polygamists doesnt that make you lds guys the ones who broke away and therefore not Mormons? Also please stop knocking on my door at tea time it's annoying.

[@lizziebkennedy7505]

@@jmcfintona999 No, because the core church banned polygamy. You'll have to put up with the sects.

[@TeriLynn923]

@Bossk333 I loved this show when it first came on. I didn't like seasons 4 and 5 and I really hate how they ended it.

[@row7642]

I am just watching this (season 2), should I watch these now or wait till I finish the series?

[@kellyfeger]

Damnit where the hell are these episodes to watch in their entirety?

[@teal_panda_8434]

Theyre only webisodes so much shorter

[@misterpuppypants1095]

When I first saw this- I wanted to be part of the famiky♥️

[@ronniebishop2496]

I wanted to be Bill lol.

[@hayley8715]

This show does a fantastic job in showing just how many lives can be deeply affected by abuse and what nonsense religion is.

[@CutTheFat]

HAHAHA, "I just smell like crevices and sour milk"

[@crackedbuddha]

@IloveKirby Caralynn was a product of her short union with JJ as a teenager. She was a secret until season 4, I believe. Barb and Bill knew nothing of her until then, so they wouldn't know about her at the time of this video.

[@crackedbuddha]

@Bossk333 It didn't jump several years. It jumped eleven months, I believe, or just over a year after Bill's death.

[@texasjaco9385]

I think these episodes were either meant for just flashback scenes, or pilot episodes. They weren't weren't used because they decided to take the first season in a different direction. They wanted to open the show with all of them already married, and a few years already into each marriage. I wish they would've opened it with the first season of how they all became to be married. Or at least use the episodes for flashback purposes,to see how it all began.

[@patriciakhan.6115]

where is full episode

[@californication751]

Even back then, Nikki was such a pain lol I loved the entire series, but she made me cringe every. single. episode. I couldn't stand her or the judgemental, big-headed self-righteousness, nor the default setting she's got that makes her forget about the copious amount of lies and transgressions on her own conscience. She just rubbed me the wrong way every episode. That said, the actress playing her did a superb job lol She really embodied that character. I doubt anyone could play her better.

[@luzmarinagil6564]

Puedo ver completa está serie y ESPAÑOL.GRACIAS

[@GShumway132]

What's this from? I've never seen this scene.

[@jaymillymills]

hbo showed "extra" clips to subscribers

[@lostchild06]

@RoslynJoyJohnson Well really she doesn't. Her first kid she left behind to JJ's first wife to take care of her. She really doesnt know how to take care of a kid and has seen what happens to the other women in the compound so I think this is her being real.

[@tashiria212]

I can't believe Bella Thorne is in this show

[@SuperZombiepimp]

where did you get this? was this like a extra on a box set or something?

[@oldorleans9583]

SuperZombiepimp I think that they were web episodes bought out on KZbin

[@paulinahernandez5883]

Where can I watch this prequel ?

[@batgurrl]

thanx for the upload - never saw it - great insight into Nicki. frankly, she seemed like a 'distant' mother, and Margene seemed liked a better mom to her 2 boys. is this from HBO website?

[@supervirtuouswoman]

They were best friends.

[@thegreatonecometh200]

+Anita Alford no nikki took care of her when she had cancer and then bill started bangin her out and then he convinced her to marry them!

[@chanaberlove8720]

thats not what the show claims. they didnt sleep together until they were married.

[@lessons1930]

what a wonderful and natural way to live. I love this show.

[@koncertLive]

Bill Paxton acting reminds me of eating when you have the flu, Even tho your eating bland chicken broth you still have to choke it down.

[@mengoingabroad8576]

why is the sound so low?

[@laurasmith14]

I’d like to know why HBO doesn’t even offer this. I subscribe and I am currently watching this series. I only found out about these pre-quails when I looked up some of the actors and actresses on IMDb. To be honest, my first question was whether the actress who plays Tansey a.k.a. Bella Thorne was even white. It was just a curiosity thing and then I also looked up Jennifer Goodwin and it showed this as part of her acting credentials. I’m still confused as to why HBO doesn’t offer this even though I can watch the entire series and even little clips but they don’t have these clips?! So strange

[@Ilovekirby]

Uhhh....what about Nikki's daughter, Carralyn(sp?), with JJ?

[@PeterShieldsukcatstripey]

Ouch. Mama pyjama.

[@crackedbuddha]

@Bossk333 You never know what happened in the future for those characters after we left them.

[@meryseconde283]

So dark but so true. Fuck patriarchy.

[@queenbee9874]

I hated Nikki she was a sneaky liar. And why can't the women have many husband's? This religion is F ed up

[@brdpitt]

A show about Mormons

[@xanderjames3635]

not all polygamists are Mormons and not all Mormons are polygamists. I'm Pentecostal and I'm a polygamist. I have a husband who has two other wives

[@annaelisavettavonnedozza9607]

@@xanderjames3635so you’re crazy & you’re breaking the law

[@jaykapolka6111]

Even though im catholic i've decided to follow the principle. how many of you ladies are with me?

[@jazz123214]

Crickets...lol

[@dukemantee2978]

I'll pass. Especially cuz I ain't even a lady!

[@melissacummings531]

I think us women need more than one spouse not the other way around. Consider that, one handy, one weathy, one best friend to hang out with.

[@lizziebkennedy7505]

That would be sweet FA.

[@kaseyMmm]

I’m Catholic too, but haven’t been successful in this - have you?

[@sireugenecourtney5797]

360p super sucks for big screen TV.

[@ronniebishop2496]

Poor poor Bill. Hahahaha

[@pravoslavnamodlitba9419]

ФАННИ И АЛЕКСАНДР, ШВЕЦИЯ ИНГМАР БЕРГМАНН

[@esrapk]

Such a loving family! :(

[@mohammedal-johani667]

How is learn english quickliy

[@hearts4mariee]

It's 2018

[@JacklostYedmore]

what season

[@oldorleans9583]

Sid Walker I think these were made as mini web episodes for KZbin

[@graca4984]

well, i love big families but i would enjoy a similar family but inversion of this one ? Do you now what i mean? ; - ) lol

[@raymeldboss1593]

do you come from a similar fam?

[@chitsb]

Many husbands. That would be nice! Or would it? 🤔

[@graca4984]

i was being a bit ironic. but maybe is time to for women to do like mormand comunities and have those plural marriages: one wife with 3 husbands?! ...and than call it a sisterhood.you knows? and by the way i don't came from a similar fam but was a fan of this "big Love" episodes.

[@RACHELLEflo]

Wendy Williams anyone?