Bipolar, Borderline and Beautiful-Savannah (part 1)

Part 1 of a Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Savannah, a woman with borderline personality disorder in Los Angeles. Here’s a link to Savannah’s follow up video:
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[@Bizarrebarbie]

Thank you mark for giving me this opportunity to be authentic ♥️

[@phoebeb.332]

Thank you for sharing Savannah! 🤍

[@almo33YO]

Listening to you right now in Youngstown, OH :) I haven’t heard you mention anything about it yet, but I would bet anything you have ADHD. ADHDers can spot each other a mile away. You’ve got the charisma, energy, and catch yourself wandering off in your stories. ❤️ Wait. You just mentioned that meth calmed you down. That’s why it didn’t affect you. Ok. Back to listening. Thanks for sharing!

[@Tommy-pe8ct]

Thank you for sharing your story. Have a great day😊

[@DonJefeJefe]

Such a beautiful story

[@nannersguyaners2745]

Savannah - I am now watching this so don’t know what you’ve been thru - pls do what you can to get on top of managing your mental health condition - if you do this while you are still young you will have a chance at a good life!!!!

[@princesjasmyn]

“A lot of guys dream girl”?? He wouldn’t be saying that if she wasn’t attractive. He’s proving her point of being able to get away with not needing anything but her looks .

[@prague7706]

Wow, haven’t gotten to that part but what an odd thing to say.

[@SLITHERIS]

@@prague7706 it’s true though.

[@Amanda-vi3di]

He’s saying that in terms of the old saying “men are attracted hot & crazy women” & by most accounts it’s true! lol

[@heathercrumpler5353]

Her “Song to the Siren” is strong. People love that beautiful, damsel in distress kinda woman.

[@BlondeMafia89]

Mark is a creep...he gives me weird vibes and I don't understand how others can't see or feel it.

[@alxo1064]

Savannah opening up about being in hospital 23 times and addiction to then have mark saying you seem like every man’s dream girl twice is unsettling imo

[@piratedre4d]

This is the comment I was looking for. I had to pause to make sure someone else caught this. She seemed uncomfortable with him saying it the 2nd time. He is so fucking creepy. I'm sure this guy has some skeletons in his closet with the way he operates these interviews. Especially with people he finds attractive. It's disgusting and honestly quite infuriating!

[@efrentroncoso6471]

Exactly!! Also, this woman is a compulsive LIAR!

[@ReadyFreddy1011]

😅 ikr

[@rosajay]

I think he was being facetious…

[@meowecho699]

Not a good message for her and stereotypes men in a bad way.

[@joon148B]

The fact that she doesn’t play the blame game & takes accountability for what she’s done speaks volumes. She seems very highly intelligent despite the poor choices. I hope she stays on track.

[@kalbic]

Real borderlines don't take accountability for ANYTHING. I dated one, this girl doesn't have diagnosed BPD. She might meet a few criteria for it but she needs to meet 5 of 9 criteria to be diagnosed with BPD. She doesn't have the BPD eyes, it's a 1000yrd stare, like they have nothing they care about.

[@davidjones7544]

Trauma does that to people. Almost all people that do heavy drugs have PTSD.

[@CasteloBrancoG]

@@davidjones7544 or bipolar disorder

[@th3_g0dz_of_Vict0ry]

100%

[@jrowlandj]

"Being a control freak makes you want to lose control". Transparent wisdom that many don't glean in time.

[@jessicam5712]

It's true though, look at how many submissive women are type a, perfectionist personalities.

[@dmatthews7423]

Interesting, thanks for pointing this out. I prefer to be in control, but some of my happiest moments are when I let go.

[@skaio.5279]

This just shows how important it is to take care of a child.

[@zellipa]

but she's a dream girl to so many, as M says

[@3dbabe299]

she’s a dream girl to drug addicts, alcoholics and worse!!!

[@derrick9635]

The first 7 years are the most vital .you can't undo trauma from these years . It fkd me up for life.❤

[@seyeli84]

FACTS

[@SLITHERIS]

@@zellipa in terms of appearance yes, she is pretty but in terms of mental stability no she isn’t most guys dream girl unless the guy is also crazy.

[@briterry4961]

It's amazing how much the human body can handle. She has abused her body so much and still at only 11 days sober, she's impressively articulate and manages to maintain her looks. People can be so resilient. As long as there's air in your lungs, you have a fighting chance at turning your life around. I hope she keeps going.

[@CurlsandThings]

I totally agree!

[@marylougeorge9890]

❤❤❤

[@briterry4961]

@@btnhl No doubt she had pretty privileges, but like she said addiction doesn't discriminate. Her body has withstood so much poison and to still have her faculties is such a testament to the human spirit.

[@No_Hookshot]

@@btnhl Goes to show you, genetics plays such a large role in how all of our lives progress...regardless how much society tries to feed you the 'everyone's special' line with participation trophies. She's obviously a good looking girl and has had a lot more financial privileges and opportunities than most other girls in her situation just by 'existing.' The truly devastating damage comes from the stuff you can't see. She stated she was in early stage cirrhosis. It's not reversible and the liver cannot just regenerate or improve. She continues on this path and doesn't quit alcohol cold turkey and odds are she won't be around much longer, regardless how much her body has held on up til now. We all feel invincible when we're young....until we aren't.

[@annaxefta587]

that amazing to u cause ur prob judgmental. most addicts who are functioning can usually get past the twenties decently. she won't hold up ten more years and i promise u that.

[@kariyoung4021]

She isnt lying. If youve been through so much trauma you tend to NOT have the tineline of events in order when trying to remember.

[@Bizarrebarbie]

THANK YOU

[@JoachimLongIsland]

Also people who haven’t been through shit always think traumatised people lie when they finally open up about it..

[@adamhutchings8717]

It's not just about the timeline issues though... 23 times overdosing and 3 A list celebrities?! Lol... Yeah right.

[@jeri5269]

Just saw the other video and had to come back and watch this one . I’m wondering why in the world , if she’s so close to her dad , didn’t he help her when she was a child? That confuses me . I’m only 10 min in maybe mark will ask her .

[@Alaitha]

I have a Bi polar, borderline relative. Her stories sound VERY similar in exaggeration etc. It's just that my relative can go from screaming you in the face over some minor inconvenience and then 5min later has flipped the story to it being that you screamed at her until she cried. I have a very hard time believing her stories, knowing how reality isn't always real for people qith the BP/borderline combo. Especially Because she's just jumping from the next unbelievable thing to the next with no real details. I have no doubt that she has lead a difficult life. BP/borderline is NOT easy, and it makes it nearly impossible to form long lasting relationships and hold down a job, but I do not believe the movie-like parts of the stories she's telling.

[@ejm918]

Her comments around attractiveness and addiction are really true and you don't hear about it often. My long time boyfriend is a really attractive guy and even deep in addiction he was still dressed nice and looked attractive. So he would get away with so much and even get special treatment when he went to treatment centers. It actually is a disadvantage to these people because it takes them much longer to see real consequences.

[@imabeardsley9280]

@@commonsense2680we love beautiful things… that’s just common sense.

[@elizabethandjakesims7479]

@ejm918 yes...I was a dancer for 10 years and most women hate you unless their a fellow dancer . And all men that approach you are married and just want to use you I literally have lived this girls later life with just a few differences

[@milessharette5353]

That’s the way it is for me. My older brother even more so. He passed away 2019. There was not a soul alive who didn’t absolutely love him. Even after using and stealing and lying… he died with no enemies

[@tishainess9339]

Truth

[@tishainess9339]

@@elizabethandjakesims7479😢same

[@Humble_DM]

Mark, be mindful of your words and the messages/impressions your words can leave on someone. This poor woman is pouring her soul out to you/us and you continue to reinforce that she’s a guys dream girl. Twice now at times where she’s getting stuck on how crazy she can be. Saying shit like that, particularly to an addict who is aiming for recovering, is harmful and can feed the fuel of conversations an addict cycles through in their head a million times a day when deciding whether to use or not. No disrespect but dude, think about what is coming out of your mouth….

[@lllllllllIIIIIIIIIIl]

Grow up.

[@tegan_b]

It’s true ! It’s gross !

[@tegan_b]

Be professional or don’t be in a position of interviewing vulnerable people !

[@ewinternetvideos]

The "you're a lot of guys dream girl" was what got me. Like why did he say that?

[@bonniepun]

That bothered me too

[@urbanpotusmedia6179]

Ive had an alchol drinking disorder. Did meetings etc. Good job sharing your experiences, strength and hope. 🙏🏿 To those still struggling.

[@Shannon71172]

Why does the fact she’s beautiful take away from her story ?? I mean people are commenting she’s a liar, she’s trouble, she’s this and that negative. But, if she was homely and disheveled , then it’s oh poor girl, I wish her happiness, etc, etc…….Blessings. 🙏🏼❤️

[@jemimabrown5041]

There is no more important job in your life than loving and caring for your children. She was so badly let down by her mother you are nurturing a future citizen of the world when you have a child. I wish her the very best for the future. I am really glad she is close to her father. Lots of love to her from Scotland. xx

[@bridgetgantt72]

❤

[@jamisonwilson7286]

Thank you! People say mean things. That was beautiful. And our dna is mostly Scottish/Irish. 🙂

[@maggiebrooks2550]

I agree. I think it was President John F Kennedy's mother who said, "The best thing that you can do for the world is raise a good citizen" or something to that effect. My mama used to say it all the time when she was trying to teach us to have a moral compass and it has stuck with me. 😀

[@izebellebluereadsoutloud3715]

We never got to hear why her “wonderful” father abandoned her to leave her in such an abusive household for so long.

[@djhenyo]

In the USA and many other Western countries, men are presumed guilty in family court without trial and denied custody based solely on accusations even though every statistical category shows single fathers to be vastly superior compared to single mothers for the healthy upbringing of a child.

[@yourancientancestor]

Probably idolized him because of the extremes and is missing the flaws

[@toomaskotkas4467]

...Probably her mother got the custody because of the "wonderful" family laws? Never thought of that, haven't you, dingbat?

[@Star-hk6gc]

That is what I kept thinking about. She lived for years in an abusive household so I wonder if dad tried to get custody but lost. Because it wasn’t until she was 17 or so that she moved in with him I think.

[@michellemyers8583]

Maybe the messed up courts gave her to her mom. Full custody and the dad was shut off. The mom must of tortured her father too.

[@shokotatsuno-p5497]

psilocybin mushrooms therapy is beneficial in relieving resistant borderline personal disorder, depression, obsessive compulsive disorder and other mental health disorders.

[@jordanlewis5666]

Heard so much about magic mushrooms I'lld like to give it a try please where do I get from ?

[@Ericbrown-se3kx]

He has the best Psilocybin mushroom in the states.

[@NhanVa]

dr.shaneshrooms products are produced in an AA-rated BRC facility.

[@chang3227]

Dr.Shaneshrooms products are as well vegan friendly.

[@mourningelektraslangwitchm2688]

If you want her to loose her mind completely yeah magic mushrooms will do the trick.. it definetely gives you painrelease, thats true, i experienced that myself. but it also brings a lot of toxiticy in your system which a long time to level again to normal values. so its the best & worst of both worlds.

[@lindsaycallahan8075]

I literally had a 24 year old hospice patient who died of cirrhosis of the liver because he drank, partied too much, and took too many drugs. It is not a pretty or easy way to die. It’s very uncomfortable, painful, among many other things. Get sober and stay sober! Rooting for you!

[@lindsaycallahan8075]

I feel I should add that you don’t typically actually die of cirrhosis, either. Cirrhosis of the liver causes the vena cava, the biggest vein in the body, to swell up and it eventually will burst, which means you bleed out and/or drown in your own blood. So your last minutes of life are usually spent spewing blood from your mouth while it also fills your lungs. Sorry to be so morbid, but I’m a hospice nurse and have seen people die of cirrhosis of the liver many times. Partying hard is not worth it.

[@bch5513]

@@lindsaycallahan8075no doubt. Kidney, liver failure, (or any major organ) are no joke. Drowning in your own fluids not being able to breathe is a nightmare of mine. Especially if it goes on and on..😢

[@christineblanco2986]

“You’re a lot of guys’ dream girl.” Ugh, Mark. That statement made Savannah so uncomfortable and you probably don’t even know it. It caused her to recollect on “waking up in random dudes’ cars”.

[@lunas9655]

It was so creepy of him to say. Like inappropriate and uncomfortable af.

[@savannahjames3259]

Oh yeah there’s videos of this girl that he interviewed that he was basically exploiting her with this other “group” she has since then passed away but yeah he’s not the best guy that everyone thinks Edit looked it up and her name was Amanda he has a playlist of her

[@Grslxi]

🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️it was obviosly said as a joke, thats why she laughed. How can you not get that🤯

[@savannahjames3259]

@@Grslxi people laugh out of discomfort too 🥴

[@Tryingtohelpnow]

@@savannahjames3259 exactly. I said this all along. He exploits these people

[@j_ps965]

“I wasn’t that afraid of dying… I was more afraid of waking up.” Wow, I get that 100%. I relate so much to Savannah.

[@kristinrawlings3436]

I'm so sorry. Please seek help.

[@cindy5874]

Yeh my friend who drinks a couple of bottles of vodka a day says that as well and I never got it

[@mindflowmotivations6575]

Please get the help you deserve. Its better to have a strong and healthy chance at life then killing it before it began

[@marciamakoviecki3295]

That's an old line that she heard somewhere

[@danikealty3419]

@@cindy5874the detox that hits as soon as you open your eyes makes you want to die.

[@Tallulahswonderland]

The “beautiful” aspect is a huge turn-off since other interviewees haven’t received those comments, and the focus should NOT be focused on physical attributes when opening up about trauma. Those physical attributes can be related or even a root to some of the abuse we’ve endured.

[@heatherb9588]

It’s a part of her identity and they way people treat her tho

[@millyslife9170]

Good one, I like her honesty and her awareness of the self destruction. I hope she stays sober. I am glad she takes accountability.

[@essie7]

I was diagnosed Borderline at age 30 after struggling undiagnosed for over a decade. I did the drinking, the drugs, the sex work- all being beautiful. Im now closer to 50 and manage an organization that serves older adults whose lives strayed as well. Sex workers who no longer have teeth, money, or men’s couches. I am clean and sober and serving. Thank You Savannah for being braver at 28 than I could be at even 40. - don’t focus your energy on what happened rather on building what will.

[@insertmyidentityhere]

These diagnoses are all nonsense. Bordeline is actually trauma & post-traumatic stress. I will guess that you experienced abuse, likely sexual abuse, at a young age.

[@janecoe9407]

HER TEETH LOOK FAKE ,NOW I KNIOW WHY.

[@genesises]

@@steakeater4018 getting diagnosed does nothing in itself. realizing what behaviors you have that are destructive and attributing them to the disorder, then working on it relentlessly preferably with therapy (while actively making positive choices) can make you a functional human being not in constant pain/chaos though. in the end it comes down to self awareness, discipline and honesty though.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Congratulations. I was finally correctly diagnosed at 50 with Bipolar and Borderline after a suicide attempt. Unless you’ve lived it, I don’t believe anyone can understand the heartbeat of living with a mental illness.

[@Monkey114]

@@marylougeorge9890 my sister had untreated mental illness and now she is ashes. She committed suicide. Our country pushes mental health aside.No one really cares.

[@kristenturner9284]

The title borderline bipolar and beautiful is weird to me bc so many other people on this podcast have the same diagnosis and do the same things but are labeled addict, bc they are missing the beauty. It’s a little weird that mark you point out randomly “you’re a lot of guys dream girl”. Twice… It’s just alarming that her beauty truly changes so much. She’s a smart girl and cd have a lot more depth in her life. She understands that most men are easily distracted with looks. Even you mark clearly. Anyway… I wish you so much luck and a good life ❤

[@wockqueefa]

the title is just trying to show that mental health issues do not discriminate. a lot of people think of mental health & think dirty people, people you shouldn’t be around, horrible people. but mark is just trying to show you can be society’s standers & still be stung out, have mental illness. & the “you’re a lot of guys dream girls” he means older men who buy girls time like girls w mental illness because they r easy to manipulate & take advantage of, old rich men want a young hot girl to do drugs with.

[@lizzi7128]

I saw it immediately and thought... That's fucking weird. She's gorgeous but what a simp. Ew. Loss respect as I do when men say it to me. It's like yeh yeh, it's all shallow. People are more than that.

[@katconlin2855]

Manipulative and narcissitic

[@jewelseng9900]

Beauty does get u places that normal ppl don’t 😅 believe it or not it is 💯

[@k_j_n1242]

​@@jewelseng9900That does not make it ok. We are not troglodytes who have no ability to self-reflect and critically think about what's truly important and how to progress. Instead of just accepting this type of imbalance, we should do the work to redress the balance. Just because something has always been, doesn't mean it has to always be. The statement 'Beauty is in the eye of the beholder is not for nothing. Asthetic pleasure is truly subjective.

[@pdescham496]

BPD is marked by Impulsivity - Impulsivity is the tendency to act without thinking. I hope you can continue to stay safe.

[@manymoonstraveled]

She is no dumb blonde. I hope she writes a book on her life. I’d read it. I pray for a better future for her 😊❤️🙏🏼

[@shannontaylor7236]

That quote “Give up one thing for everything, or give up everything for one thing.” Wow! That one is sticking with me forever. ❤

[@le_th_]

Let me guess, you have all-or-nothing thinking patterns, so that is why that resonates with you.

[@piggiesmallspodcast9102]

@@le_th_ you don’t truly understand the quote if that’s all you took from it. You must be a “I’m smarter than everyone else in the room” type of person, when in reality you’re just ignorant &arrogant😂 its a pretty deep quote if you can understand it, but seems you don’t, sorry about that for you

[@anthonyryan6716]

That's correct bud

[@steadfast4837]

It is referring to the fact that abusing substances can lead to giving up everything, friends, family, home, or choosing to give up a substance, one thing, can preserve relationships and financial footing.

[@Julybaby12619]

@@le_th_ No.... It's actually a Fact that after years, sometimes less, of active addiction people will give up relationships with their spouses, children, and careers that meant the world to them, as well as burn every bridge they once had. All to get high "just one more time." It sounds like you have never struggled with a serious addiction.

[@georginaburrows]

She’s 100% on point when saying you can’t accomplish your goals and party 24/7 at the same time. Im her age and also a recovering alcoholic - her story reminds me so much of mine. Alcoholism is a POWERFUL disease and i would not wish it on anyone. Edit: Savannah, if you read this im with you and im very proud of you 🙌🏼 it’s definitely not easy for women our age to achieve sobriety in this world!

[@nihilism2925]

Can 1000% relate with both of you, alcohol is the most fucking silent piece of shit ever.

[@MichaelLoves2024]

Ultra pretentious. This is a microcosm of this channels replies, it seems. This is literally elementary. Nothing profound about what she said, it's actually a, "well duh" statement.

[@Turnpost2552]

life is quite simple, but it is hard.

[@lumae7487]

39:39

[@th3_g0dz_of_Vict0ry]

Alcoholism is not a disease; this is scientifically proveable. That's sycophantic at best. Alcoholism, or not? Is a personal, soveriegn choice. Subjective opining, admittedly, but I've seen the worst of it and know it's def not a "disease" as such are classified. Unless one considers whatever version of DSM currently published as even /slightly/ rational or medical truth. Why is there not a "Kindness Disorder" in the DSM v.666?

[@mellowdweeb]

As someone who has also been through many similar experinces shes had, I believe her 100%. People also call me a liar. To me it doesnt matter if people believe me or not, because I know the truth. Experiencing traumatic things makes you realize what truly trustworthy people look like, and thats a very small number of people in this world.

[@RobertMajor-jq2ke]

Very true

[@Julybaby12619]

I am so sorry that you have experienced people who don't believe you. Sending you lots of love.

[@th3_g0dz_of_Vict0ry]

"Waterboarding builds character" ... (from a marine friend) ... but it's rare that it does so ... the vast majority will self perish one way or the other before thinking, "hmmm, this is the most horrific thing I've been put through; now, what can I learn from it?"

[@carladax674]

Dear Savannah, during this interview I heard you asking for help to discover who you really are so that you can ground yourself & do better than what you saw at home. If I'm off, I'm really sorry & please forget this message. If I'm right, here's a tip: Anxiety is the fear of being seen by someone else before you manage to see yourself which makes you a controlfreak that keeps people at arms length. The lack of self-awareness is what causes the anxiety (lack of trust) in he first place. To trust yourself you must be grounded & for that you have to know yourself (as you so wisely said in the video). To trust yourself you must first trust your body so that you feel emotions instead of think them. That's how you break the chaotic patterns of life. Second step is to be able to face silence bc drugs, nonstop talking, avoiding eye contact, etc are all ways to avoid silence, therefore, what you've been carrying in the shadows. Remember feelings are just passing if you allow them to do so, & pain can be healed through grieving. Grieve what didn't happen to you even though you wish you could, & that's how your true self starts coming out. Throughout this process I highly reccomend you start exploring what you love (music, colors, places, food) & fill your life with as much of that as you possibly can ❤ With so much love, Carla

[@bonim5180]

Could not of expressed it any better! Great advice i took this advice from someone years ago and never looked back! 🖖🏼👍🥰💖

[@milessharette5353]

I think she seems extremely self aware. The kind of life she has lived certainly made sure of that.

[@3334me]

I truly think that you’re right.

[@robinsylvester8456]

Well worded Carla. Thank you.

[@celestialcircledance]

" No pretty = homeless '" " No pretty = no free drugs. " " No pretty = no money ." Her words and clearly even at her worst , she knew where her priorities lay . I wish I were that gobsmackingly beautiful but it does have a time limit and a dark side .

[@chrissimpson4322]

She should watch & dwell on the one (maybe she has) last week with the ''$1k per 20 minutes'' at her age but ending up on skid row.

[@charrua59]

She should invest her money or pay for education. Looks fade fast. Plus she probably spend money on dope if she don't Invest. Get out of LA is first priority

[@ladyv890]

This will now stick with me when I feel like I can't get ready in the morning. Lol

[@OaksArmorial]

That’s a cold, hard fact of life although it’s neither cold nor hard if you’re attractive.

[@LisaWallaceDesigns]

@ladyv890 Haha, I like your sense of humor! 😆

[@Mooches33]

She reminds me so much of my best friend growing up. The mental illness, the addictions and being so pretty that people around her just can’t believe that there could possibly be anything wrong. I wish her strength and that her outcome is better than my friend.

[@mariahcararo]

I had a friend like that in school too. It didn’t work out for her either.

[@alanabernstein2081]

My Mom is Borderline I don't believe a word she says Borderlines have no filter, 28 and she behaves like a 16yr old.

[@corinneskitchen]

@@alanabernstein2081 There's no reason to not believe a stranger because of your mom. Get help.

[@alanabernstein2081]

@@corinneskitchen I got help and there are no medications for Borderline personality disorder only therapy, she said she got in the car with dude he wanted to take her to get something to eat and she told him she was bulimic she was just gonna throw it up anyway, bulimia is a serious issue people who have bulimia nervosa don't tell random people they have it and bulimics binge and purge a true bulimic would have ate and excused herself to the bathroom. A lot of her story contains holes like this you do know people lie to Marc all the time for exposure and cash. Your gullible

[@mariahcararo]

@@corinneskitchen pathological lying is a symptom of borderline personality disorder…which this girl states she has been diagnosed with.

[@ButtrNut32]

Not to take away from this interview, savannah went through the ringer but came out the other side with scars but still alive and strong. I am researching myself into BPD. I understand that it need to be diagnosed by a professional but everything that Savannah had gone through and effects are things that I go through now. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in 2022. I’m currently on meds but it always felt like there was something more than just those two and now I’m understanding from others such as savannah. So I want to say thank you for this interview to Savannah and all the others for helping me understand and not feeling alone with this disease.

[@traveliowa301]

Have you figured out your favorite person pattern yet?

[@milessharette5353]

Definitely get the best professional opinion about it. It can be nice to give a name to the monster inside us and easier to blame an affliction so there are a whole bunch of pits one can fall into on the journey of discovering yourself. Its almost guaranteed to be a bad time trying to figure it out on your own. I learned that BPD mostly goes undiagnosed because the people with it are rarely willing to accept that reality and work to keep life in order. But it sounds like you have extremely good self awareness!

[@wilcoxtam810]

It's unprofessional for Mark to call her a dream girl. He's fetishising a girl that needs to value herself beyond her looks

[@th3_g0dz_of_Vict0ry]

Read a book.

[@devontolly1596]

Hearing her talk about alcohol makes me so glad I have been quitting drinking for almost two months now and I'm done. I was an alcoholic drinking hard liquor every night for the last 12 years. It's such a demon and I finally got away from it.

[@Monkey114]

Good for you. I am 10 years sober. You can do it. Stay strong ! If I can be sober, anyone can do it!

[@devontolly1596]

​@@Monkey114thank you! I've tried many times over the years but the difference is this time I actually truly want to quit and my body has had enough. I'm 31 now and have a baby on the way and I don't want to die in my 40s from alcohol. I had enough.

[@ProudAmerican97]

@@devontolly1596don’t ever tell yourself you got it beat tho bro. Alcoholism and addiction is a subtle cunning foe. Go to some AA meetings and work the steps to find the root cause of why you drank so you can address it and stay sober. I hope the best for you bro I’m rooting for you

[@STE_FAN999]

​@@devontolly1596stay strong! Youre baby is gonna need it. I have a 11 month old girl and she is the best.

[@kelvinharrison591]

Prayers for your sobriety and praying for your mind to stay clear and free!!!

[@imchef17]

I work in mental health .... you should NEVER judge a book by it's cover. Thanks for sharing Savannah, I wish you all the best.

[@terrytownsend5583]

It’s irrelevant that you work in mental health

[@philweed1603]

You better judge a book by its cover! That stupid saying has gotten so many people killed. We don’t live in a perfect world. If someone gives you bad vibes, go the other way. Don’t let retards tell you different. It’s ok to stereotype and judge.

[@janellesamuels3385]

I agree. She looks like the dream girl, but being her man would be a nightmare.

[@terrytownsend5583]

It’s bullshit when people start a-thread with I’m this I’m that. Nobody gives a toss what you say you are. You can be whoever you want on this format. I’m a juggler…….

[@terrytownsend5583]

@@janellesamuels3385 maybe she bites pillows

[@starwalkerone4496]

This lady keeps referring to “those people “and “these people “ it’ll be an interesting day for her when she realizes that SHE IS “one of those people” blessings to her🌷

[@milessharette5353]

Shes not a celebrity?

[@MissLadyTreya]

I like her so much,I would love to be friends with her or a chick like her just because she is so candid and honest about her experiences but she never tried to make herself look like a victim. She also just seems like a nice person and its rare to find females that are real and not fake or manipulative or petty.

[@Andrea_k86]

I also have BPD, & I relate so much to Savannah. My mom was an alcoholic & unfortunately passed away 3 years ago. I am currently in DBT & with lots of therapy, there is hope. I am big into health & fitness, so that's been my escape on how I handle my mental illness. It's definitely a battle, but with help & support there is hope. 💗🦋

[@chibby8903]

she reminds me a lot of myself. i’m also 28. except i’m 4 years sober and did the bulk of my SW after recovery with a solid plan/financial goals. you can do it savannah!

[@ilyagulag]

👏👏👏💪💪💪

[@RebeccaBuhler]

I strongly resonate with her story of fighting her mom. I had a similar situation with my mother, fighting back was a pivotal moment of my life.

[@GrandmaEllen]

Borderline personality disorder is often given to persons who have had trauma. What is actually needed is trauma-informed treatment, not that diagnosis.

[@hannahrachelxo2281]

Wow! This is an insane story. Very good interview. I’m happy she explained how horrid alcohol is. People don’t give it enough credit as far as addiction goes sometimes. ❤

[@EMILYHERRERA]

Alcohol is the OG killer. Still the most dangerous in our culture because of the attitudes toward it. People die of alcoholism & alcohol-related accidents every single day. It's not only socially acceptable, but it's pushed onto people in a way to make binge drinking seem normal. It's not. The reason (besides the cultural issues) other drugs are so dangerous is because they aren't regulated like booze is. We have prohibition to thank for that. Way more people would meet their demise on alcohol if it wasn't regulated and tested regularly.

[@sallymiller495]

My mum is in hospital with a fractured back from falling on Friday night after drinking a bottle of sherry, it’s a horrible drug

[@brandyharding7692]

Yeah, almost like most of it was embellished...

[@milld9345]

My gut instinct is this woman is making up a lot of things. I had a friend who had BPD and she would make up elaborate stories about her life. It was hard to know what was true and what was not. I got a similar feeling when listening to this woman.

[@salutedabadd1yadigg]

Same! My daughter is as well and there is 0 accountability from her. No punishment was the result of her actions or lack of. This is common with BPD people, their brain's are literally wired incorrectly

[@b3dubbs72]

@@salutedabadd1yadigg Not everyone with BPD is a compulsive liar. I have BPD and I just have bad emotional regulation and abandonment issues. BPD presents across a variety of 9 symptoms, this girl has high impulsivity and poor emotional regulation at the very least.

[@user-kq3dd7hg5t]

Full of shit, I've known many like her

[@MsNeonDion]

I normally get that feeling when people tell elaborate stories, but I believe her actually.... Nothing she said is really out of the realm of possibility... She's gorgeous, very outgoing personality, and LA isn't a normal city... I've done a lot of what she has as far as the partying goes and know people who do the whole seeking thing and you find yourself in movie like situations and that's just in Jacksonville FL.. LA is wild.... lol I spent a weekend in LA and ended up in the looney bin bc of psychosis..

[@cloudydays6277]

Victim shame much! You’re not a psychologist. People with trauma like myself when u hear our stories can sound unreal but they are real. Never invalidate someone’s pain

[@UncleDoctorG]

Why do all of Marks videos with vulnerable women have a Casting Couch vibe to them…..

[@FUKN_YeR_WIFI]

Cuz he wants to fuk

[@michaelsizemore1398]

Please update her, and thank you for everything. We appreciate you Savannah.

[@taylorslikklewifeeeyyy]

An update is up

[@reneelibby4885]

Mark, I love love your interviews. Just one thing - there's no need to point out when you have a physically attractive guest. It's not relevant to their story - unless they wish to make it so. As a "beautiful": trauma/ ADHD/ CPTSD/GAD and possibly ( big Dr. argument there ) Bipolar person, my looks have added nothing to my life. If anything, they've caused attention by people like narcissists who harm us more. ( My Mom had NPD ) We grow to think it's the only "worthwhile" thing about us, for a while it may even stunt our growth and healing as the relationships/ societal approval may be a distraction. I'm older now and when society deems your beauty has "faded" a bit, the jolt out of that bubble is dramatic. If you haven't been working on yourself all along the way... things get even worse for you. She's told it and told it and told it and at some point that will make it harder on her. I wish Savannah all the best. Thanks for listening.

[@gracelove2774]

Agreed. It becomes a scary thing

[@StartContaversy1]

Saying looks add nothing to your life is not true. I'm sure you've had a lot of opportunity in your life, because of your looks alone.

[@GazaFloatilla]

If you have a bad personality then you're lucky you have good looks fam

[@reneelibby4885]

@@StartContaversy1 I'm sure I have, but it doesn't last and is way less important than developing a good character, displaying kindness, working on relationships and building a sustainable career. So yes, not ' nothing' but at times, oddly detrimental.

[@ryankelly8428]

She mentioned herself that being beautiful and keeping up appearances was an incredibly important part of her life. I think it's perfectly valid to have that as part of the title for this video.

[@dalaimommadrama8929]

I'm genuinely interested to know how she got diagnosed w/BPD & Bipolar 2? Her dad, a great supporter but allowed her to get abused? The 100k? A lot of her stories she looked scary crazy OD'ing, ended up in different states, wild in public but no one would know she was an addict? OD'd 23 times in a year but also, not? She didn't foam at the mouth but also, she foamed one time. DT's but 11 days sober, she looks great. Also, Bipolar 2 is largely depression/less impulsivity. But everything she did was extreme impulsive, no mention of depression. BPD, doesn't want to know what it is but also she elaborates symptoms of it. Reminds me of Trisha Paytas & she has BPD. If you know Trisha's M.O you'd know she has made up many wild stories of her life, LOVES to talk, & very fast nonstop. She also takes someone else's horrific stories & makes them her own. Sound familiar. Just wish we got more details on the trauma situations & less of the wild somewhat sensationalized tales. I'm sorry that I am judging but just wish we got a slowed down version of deeper issues.

[@loriroy1705]

I'm reading the comments and thinking if I'm the only one who sees through her BS?

[@jaimelovemac88]

The strip club story.........

[@dalaimommadrama8929]

@@loriroy1705 right?! I thought that too. I found a couple of people that feel the same. I think because she is pretty that it has skewed people's better judgement.

[@dalaimommadrama8929]

@@jaimelovemac88 She is attracted to darkness, but the flashing lights attracted her but also stripping was never considered dark to her. Making a lot of quick cash but the bathing suit? What about stripper shoes or was she in beach flip flops? The girls would have loaned her something but also usually those clubs have a store nearby with stripper clothes or they sell them directly there in the backrooms. I know this from several videos/docuseries of L.A stripper life here on KZbin.

[@3dbabe299]

@@loriroy1705 like you’re Einstein? Sobriety is a process - not a snap of the finger. You’re standing on ONE side being exclusive. The whole point of SWU is to showcase people of all types to bring awareness of human struggles and bring compassion and understanding to the masses. You may have only a pinhole of reality. This is her story and who cares about the nitty gritty details. Overall she’s being REAL and I BELIEVE HER !!! ❤

[@ericaknesek3266]

This is a great interview ! I hope she makes it and keeps sober.

[@Gorionsbelt]

Her story is amazing, kind of ethereal, very fortunate in a lot of ways, many people could have taken advantage. She damaged her body but never acted like a victim or suffered the inner torment of depression and anxiety like so many of us do. She survived and is actually a really interesting person.

[@jessicakirtley6131]

You know that Dan Cummins bit where he talks about going along with a pathological liar just to see where the adventure goes? I get that feeling with this episode.

[@GypsyRock]

💯 😂

[@student22044]

Indeed, I might watch the second half later, but only because she’s good value as a storyteller. There are so many body language red flags, it makes her an interesting fabricator of the truth. It always surprises me how many people get sucked in, I think we assume the truth as default, and only question things when there’s an obvious fabrication.

[@heathercrumpler5353]

Her “Song to the Siren” is just so good. She is beautiful and well spoken. She cusses a lot and says dude a lot. Otherwise, she sounds incredibly intelligent. Her blood sugar dropping and throwing up blood with her bubbly voice makes it sound wonderful. She says it was a horrible, terrible cycle, of being covered in piss and vomit, because she was afraid of going through withdrawals. Get to the end of it. She tells how much of a toll it took on her.

[@chrisscotthands5883]

Thinking the same, and I am not someone who tends to not trust. But part of this just makes no sense.

[@bridgetthall2234]

I agree. Seems like every bit of this is made up.

[@bijitbora]

She has described exactly what happened to me more than a year ago... The blood vomiting, liver scarring etc. I was diagnosed stage 2 liver cirrhosis. Was in intensive care in hospital 4 times. Then i did rehab 6 months. I had a 35 year addiction problem. My go to was always alcohol. Clean for 13 months today and don't have any urges or triggers after hitting rock bottom and almost dying. I just realised that i was looking for the best drug for 3 decades and i only found the best drug now. It's a drug called sobriety.

[@jaethomas2479]

Good for you! I'm so glad you have overcome this. Stay strong.

[@xBINARYGODx]

[@bijitbora]

Thank you.

[@TiffanyT-LaDolceVita]

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

[@grandexporter]

I hope you are doing well

[@natalibarral4415]

Such a funny, creative, charismatic, magical person. She's way more than 'beautiful', way more than 'any man's dream girl'. Savannah, I recommend you reading 'The Trauma Bond'. I wish you strength and love.

[@diegoshepherd3464]

She is a really interesting articulate fascinating woman. I really enjoyed listening to her story. Thanks for posting.

[@ArteIsVida]

I had a friend who had BPD (she died from cirrhosis of the liver in her 40s). She was the greatest story teller of all time and this reminds me so much of her. Three A list actors…my friend never once admitted she had BPD. She had no identity. She moved to NYC, pretended to be in law school, lived episodes of sex and the city and was high off of the “life” she claimed she lived. Every story my friend told I realized after she passed that 99% was made up. Her whole life was this epic, vibrant, rollercoaster of made up stories. A dark ride. All the characters she told me about I still think about them. I met her when I was 15 years old. I told her I like the shoes she had on. She said “thank you. My mom bought me six pairs of them.” I looked at her and immediately said “no she didn’t”. She didn’t argue. She dismissed my comment and walked away. That was our first encounter.

[@livyjoy1]

so she has a dual diagnosis so Bi polar has a list of symptoms that can very easily impact her in the way that she has mentioned. A diagnosis is a set of symptoms not a person.

[@mikeg2491]

I had an affair with a BPD woman, not proud of it but she sold me a story her husband was abusive and I fell into the whole white knight thing to rescue her, none of it was ever true. She also hid a secret drug addiction from me and was seeing other men too. After we broke up she’d send me dozens of texts at 3am pretending to be other people with burner numbers saying she was going to tell the police, my parents and my boss I was a pedofile and other nasty stuff. The next day she’d be begging for me to take her back. Only when she ODed on drugs did I ever get any peace which is sad to say.

[@ammasophia4663]

Mulholland Drive... It's a movie that is about a woman who fantasises an incredible life.

[@voyagerdrift]

"Lying is really rooted in emotional dysregulation, which is one of the main symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder."

[@nunyuh3693]

Borderlines don't make up stories about their lives that's psychopathic

[@Sarahclarkxo]

I feel like Marc should do his research on mental health more to ask better questions in his interview. And watch the words he uses with people who have trauma, because we are really good at hiding it.

[@AFoodReview]

Yeah in my opinion, he’s an insensitive amateur with a camera exploiting people in a bad light. Literally, a bad light.

[@jsjameson]

​@@AFoodReview⁴4444⅝4⅘t5y66⁶⁸

[@scottdrew6403]

You all are the ones who keep watching him you fuckin cry babies.

[@baterickpatman]

I feel like you should shut the hell up. You realize people contact him ASKING to be interviewed right? Maybe you should do research before posting idiotic bs, decrying a man who helps more people in a day than you will in your entire garbage life.

[@KenSilvers]

cuz yer jealous you don't look like her.

[@_heathen_]

So charismatic, intelligent and articulate, especially considering her upbringing and experiences. I truly hope she stays sober, she could achieve the life she wants 💖

[@tjordanlcsw]

You have so much potential Savannah. I hope you can heal from your trauma and mental health issues and find peace and contentment. Seek people who "help your being" and stay away from those who hurt.

[@RetroDawn]

The combination of BPD, PTSD, and ADHD can cause for misdiagnosis as bipolar. That happened to a woman I know--and she definitely isn't bipolar. She seems to have that combo. Becoming relaxed from smoking methamphetamine seems a decent sign of ADHD--along with her descriptions of her life.

[@upendasana7857]

all these diagnosis"are not grounded in any seriously objective science,they rely on often fairly subjective arbitrary assessments and merely are grouped together behaviours and so called symptoms"that one way or another are merely responses to trauma.They are not rooted in biology as such even though there is very real biological effects in mood changes and disregulated nervous systems hence the need to self medicate. Basically the psych meds also dampen and sedate emotions and feelings,they do NOT treat any imbalance. Its all trauma just in different guises.

[@Zhiivago]

I get super relaxed by it .... Almost sleepy.

[@RetroDawn]

@@Zhiivago Do you know if you're ADD/ADHD?

[@thecosmicmother]

I agree with this. My brother had ADHD and meth relaxed him.

[@Flugs0]

it doesn't really matter it's all the same

[@Stasiaflonase]

I couldn’t finish and after reading the comments I’m glad. Why use ‘beautiful’ in the title? Aesthetics don’t matter. The human being does.

[@justinbridgez]

cux youre weak

[@justinbridgez]

she sat down. she saw the cut.. ask herrrrrrr!!!!

[@Xippone2093]

Lmao yeah just act like looks don’t matter. Why do girls wear makeup ? Why did this girl get all done up? Because looks matter

[@redmanrm1]

She’s a hot ass B. It matters for sure

[@sarahk6254]

Apparently, aesthetics do matter

[@JenSAN4105]

I really appreciate your videos. The perspective it gives me in life is so much better than only seeing through my own eyes. Your videos are part of what has let my empathy grow. I really appreciate your work. I hope you guys keep at it. 👍💜

[@dubei5661]

Interestingly, she never said that lying was one of her problems.

[@EllEss331]

So many parts of her story seem really really questionable. I'll leave it at that.

[@jacopofbargellini4005]

my BPD partner was so beautiful i was in disbilief when she was acting madly, telling fake stories, betraying me, drinking and using drugs, so everytime i was seeing her again i was thinking " she is so perfect that all that happened was just a nightmare, she cannot be like this". Beeing beautiful and with BPD is much worst than looking normal, because they hate to be loved and being so beautiful everyone want to love them, so is a never endind vicious cycle

[@Wildsweetorange]

From a woman who has loved an insanely attractive man with BPD in the past- I agree with you 100%. Also the physical appearance focus is frequently part of BPD. Part of the reason it didn't work for us is because I would say things like "the heart is more important than the outward appearance to me/ I just want to focus on being kind" and his response would be "oooh, and you probably also believe in Santa! Only the outward gets you anywhere."

[@gijsjeheemskerk8412]

The body keeps the score, is a book that I recommend to you Savannah!

[@SallyMangos]

Physical beauty is fleeting. Inner beauty, depth, and other qualities can also contribute to someone being perceived as beautiful.

[@toddsterling4949]

Sounds like a line you give to Fugly People!! Lmao

[@EmEm872]

Yes, thankyou.

[@devontolly1596]

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. What one person thinks is beautiful, the next person might think is ugly.

[@toddsterling4949]

@@devontolly1596 Thanks Yoda!!

[@AncientYouth64]

​@@toddsterling4949.....do or do not....there is no try

[@TristanMurcia]

I believe about 10% of this story.

[@angelsocrazy6269]

Same

[@Kar0024]

She’s unstable

[@Homeschooler64]

Same

[@deadbeatdad2527]

I'm surprised this isn't the top comment.

[@randomlyawesomeness7251]

Reminds me of Ryan Leone

[@MeowNow494]

I had a wicked cocaine addiction from age 18-21 & when I got clean I had SO MUCH RESPECT for alcoholic in recovery. I wouldn’t have succeeded if the sold crack in corner stores, if every restaurant had a crack menu on the table, a crack bar, crack commercials . . . no way. Sober alcoholics are AMAZING and strong.

[@HomeGrownNStillGoin]

Omg you would be such a great motivational speaker. Your realness is needed in the world...

[@chrischristoferson1191]

How this woman is alive is beyond me. And the fact she tells this whole story with a smile is insane.

[@penyarol83]

Probably a sign of emotional repression (repressing the dark and painful emotions, keeping them out of our awareness). And how she said she tries not to think about her childhood - repression. Unfortunately as long as we are repressing the pain, sadness etc. we can’t heal and will remain traumatized and disordered.

[@atibavvdaze3726]

Very blessed

[@fizzykalimetalinka7250]

Remember that she is only 28 and will probably feel a bit different about all that in 10 years or so

[@NaNa-re3wc]

@@penyarol83 Dissociation, not repression.

[@penyarol83]

@@NaNa-re3wc what's the difference?

[@user-vw2jq3to5e]

I didn’t know alcoholism could be THIS bad, literally wilder than some illegal drugs!! Thank you Savannah for sharing your story, you’re an amazing story teller and I’m honored to listen and learn from you. ❤ We are all rooting on you to get sober and live your truth.

[@WMA31780]

Alcohol is by far the worst drug. Then coke, then heroin, then meth.

[@prague7706]

@@WMA31780all depends

[@flapjack413]

@@WMA31780 It ain't no joke. Only one of two classes of drugs whose withdrawals alone can literally KILL you.

[@stinkletoes8285]

@@prague7706 Alcohol caused approximately 140,000 deaths each year in the U.S....More then all illlicit drugs combined...107,000 people died of a drug overdose in the 12 months ending August 2022...including fentanyl..

[@whatta7793]

Alcohol is terrible. And WMA does not know what he's talking about. Meth is worse than coke, heroin is worse than coke. Alcohol/Heroin would be tied > Meth > Coke

[@whoknows6938]

I’m now convinced the celeb she was referring to was Matthew Perry

[@joshua7233]

Wouldn't be surprised if that A-list actor she had those crazy few days with was Charlie Sheen.

[@th3_g0dz_of_Vict0ry]

lmfao

[@brettwitzel]

Based on my experience with BPD individuals, you cannot trust a word they say. They aren’t necessarily lying, they just adapt to a truth that keeps them from feeling abandoned.

[@Just1laurence]

Yeah at the beginning of this vid, 'my Dad is not an addict'. If you watch part 2, 'my Dad is an addict'.

[@BurningFreesias]

@@Just1laurence I caught that, too. And then I found myself making excuses for her like, "Well, maybe she meant her STEP-dad was an addict." but she's had no problem distinguishing the two the whole time, so why would she only then?

[@simjam1980]

They are totally delusional. They tell themselves whatever story matches the thing they are trying to convey. Then 5 minutes later tell something that completely contradicts what they said 5 minutes earlier..and they can't see that they are lying.

[@TheYazmanian]

There also isn't "medication for it" as she said. There isn't medication for personality disorders but rather meds to address anxiety and depression that go along with this particular one

[@Gypsy-Brown]

True…I work with people who have bpd and they all tell stories that are full of lies and exaggerations. They are also manipulative and use other people for their own benefit. All of the ones I’ve known are really good at talking and their tales are interesting even if not true x

[@karljanus8308]

She is either the most insightful woman of her age or she's making shite up

[@depaor50]

As an recovering Alcoholic she is

[@forrestgypsy]

I lost track of how many times she flicked, touched, scratched her nose. "Constantly touching the nose can be a sign that the person is exaggerating or lying"

[@itfitness5791]

Or still doing Coke, is my guess

[@jackattack_8]

It's a drug thing. Almost all coke and ex cokeheads do it.

[@forrestgypsy]

@@itfitness5791 I grew up in the Coke scene. My ex fiance was a Coke addict. He sold it out of our house. I had NO Clue. It nust be some new kind of Cocaine. No one from the 90s touched their nose that much. .

[@katlee2371]

It's a coke thing.

[@jenniferdurso1461]

Opioids cause that too...

[@MultiStats]

She comes across like an actress preparing for a role. She seems pleased with herself somehow--I don't know how much of her story is real. I'm quitting the interview early.

[@cahiami]

First, sometimes people smile or laugh about things that they're actually ashamed about because it's a response to being uncomfortable and self defense. Second, she's clearly not over her addictions because she still talks about them in a fond or even positive light. This is something I also did when I still wasn't over my addictions. Someone even pointed it out to me that the way I talked about drugs and my experiences made it clear to them I wasn't over it yet. They were correct. Don't judge people so harshly when you don't know them, it's clear to me she's still in the throes of addiction and has a lot more work to do. She does a lot of justifying and minimizing especially when it comes to "Alcohol is horrible for me but i've never had issues with other drugs". Again, addiction. Addiction and mental health issues can cause a lot of mental gymnastics.

[@carter4597]

Same. Typical stripper energy lol

[@elevendysevensclub]

As someone with BPD we tend to seem like we’re acting a lot because we mirror others and don’t have a strong sense of self. Depersonalization and dissociation from trauma is also common. It’s part of the disorder.

[@foxxie1702]

I find her fun and interesting, I get what you mean tho

[@jayywatchesjapan3612]

The good thing is you are still smiling and enjoying life. I have been sober 6 years. You have so much potential.

[@kristaquin]

Not afraid to die, but afraid to wake up. That's powerful. Then she says: "You do it all to your damn self." "I did this" and "I created this hell" Girl I hear you, but give yourself grace because you're doing what all humans are wired to do: escape discomfort and seek rewards. Drugs and alcohol do this for you. Nobody gave you the tools you needed early in life to be able to cope with discomfort in other ways (and based on how they treated you, they also lacked coping mechanisms). None of this is your fault...you're simply having a normal human response to awful circumstances. It's never too late to gain those coping skills and repair the damage that was inflicted upon you, especially when you have so much insight already and are full of potential.

[@jonaskromwell4464]

The "dream girl" comments do feel inappropriate.

[@ritafigueira9848]

Mentions that she has a broken foot, so broken it's twisted sideways, boyfriend brings her home instead of seeking medical care, she just goes to bed but then manages to stand on her bed to threaten her step dad? Standing on a twisted, displaced fractured foot?

[@breizebyrd05]

You'd be surprised what adrenaline and drugs will do 😂 My cousin literally had a fractured femur for 4 days and was walking around on it. By the time we got to the hospital she almost lost her leg because she almost severed the artery. She was a heroin junkie and that's why she was able to walk around for 4 days. She didn't want to go to the hospital because she knew that she would go to jail after because she had warrants. I've been stabbed by a girl and I didn't feel it until after I had gotten the stitches and was laying in bed that night. I wasn't on drugs so it was just adrenaline. So let's not make assumptions about what the human body and people can put up with and do.😂

[@lauragibb6014]

Savannah is also a really good example of how childhood trauma can subsequently lead to disorders such as borderline and bipolar. I've studied mental health a lot over the years and am un-diagnosed (what I believe to be) borderline and possibly ADHD. Thankfully now that I've gotten older and done some healing, my symptoms and behaviour have calmed down a lot, but as an older teen and in my twenties I was an absolute spitfire and was completely lost. Even now, in my thirties, I have no sense of self and no direction in life. There's a massive correlation between childhood neglect/ abuse and borderline personality disorder and I hate that people have preconceived notions of what sufferers of that particular disorder are 'like' and also that BPD or any mental disorder is just an 'excuse' for bad behaviour. It shouldn't ever just be the what - always consider the why and that not everything is what it seems. Biggest example for borderline is that we are manipulative. It might look that way, perhaps even be true at times, but this is something that we aren't always aware of and also came about as a survival mechanism to try avoid bad things earlier in life. We can also be incredibly introspective and aware of a lot of our faults or bad behaviour, especially as we get older, but that doesn't mean any of it is easily 'fixed', as we have terrible impulse control and tend to be very self destructive. Personally, I'm also very observant and learnt early in life how to read the room and read other people's moods - again another survival strategy. Once you really get into studying everything 'mental disorder' and really everything 'human', people start to make a lot more sense in general. Although a lot of it is very tragic.

[@candyland8903]

I can relate to everything u said. And I completely agree, the stigma that comes with all cluster b personality disorders is so negative but the reality is those disorders came about as a way of coping and when u don't have a good model of behavior, ur bound to pick up everyone else's also.

[@caroline7693]

I aslo can relate to everything you said.

[@caroline7693]

@@candyland8903 I agree.

[@caroline7693]

@@candyland8903 Even in the psychiatrist world, bpd has huge stigma.

[@katconlin2855]

It also has a genetic components

[@hedgedrisk]

I don’t believe ANYTHING she has to say

[@christinacampbell5952]

I can't believe her dad let her fly to LA with no money when she just turned 18. With all the predators out there. Then wouldn't help her when she asked. That's nuts.

[@christinacampbell5952]

It's weird he threw her to wolves like that, but she describes him as her best friend who's never been an addict. You really can't rely on anyone but yourself.

[@skalidi]

She is such a great storyteller. 90% of it is made up but still very entertaining to listen to. Looking forward to part 2.

[@elcapolalala]

How do you know it’s made up?

[@spencerjane732]

I thought this sounded a like fabrication of events.

[@vanna13v]

Agreed. She had tells, big time.

[@616CardBoard]

100k cash did it for me 😂😂

[@f.taylor]

@@elcapolalala Time and experience. Learning to tell when you're being finessed. For me, I have BPD, and I was off the walls just like her at one point in time before I was diagnosed with the illness. Embellishing is second nature because you're literally a stranger to yourself, you have no real sense of identity before treatment.

[@appalachianfamilyrecipes4647]

When she said she was less concerned about dying and more concerned about waking I felt like I understood drug addiction for a second. For whatever it is worth, I hope you are able to understand who you are and find what it is that will make your soul happy. Life is very short.

[@conorgunderson6733]

I was surprised when she said she was 28

[@violetsky3067]

Autistic ppl often look younger than we are

[@Criptex1310]

You could tell that she is very smart.everybody has their demons and the fact that she is aware of the things she did and taking full accountability its very brave on her part. i can respect that and relate to it.

[@aliciakamm]

The “you’re a lot of guys dream girl” comment is bizarre. I take it Mark hasn’t dated any alcoholics or drug abusers. Is she hot AF? Absolutely. Magazine worthy if you ask me. But dating someone in active addiction is only fun for about a week. The highs and lows, the unpredictability, the chaos, it’s not sustainable and it gets old real quick. Ask my ex husband, lol. If I didn’t get clean one year into that marriage the relationship wouldn’t have lasted more than a very turbulent 16 mos. We ended it at 7 years and what a blessing it was to be sober. Savannah, who cares if you do it for the sake of vanity as you said or any other reason, get sober. You deserve it. The first year is the hardest, after that it gets exponentially easier. Thank you for sharing your story!

[@bigbassjonz]

Yeah I think he was a bit under a spell with this one.

[@mapavlikify]

I agree... this interview makes me feel very weird about the guy. Seen other ones and he acts much more professional. Poor girl, Likely that problem men has with being real with her has helped with her issues

[@minoozolala]

Mark responded to a comment on Part 2 and said that the majority of people making negative comments about her are jealous. wtf

[@lindasacks8572]

I thought he was being sarcastic.

[@blackroseindigo]

As someone who suffers from Bipolar 1 and BPD themselves, thank you for sharing your story and showing us in a beautiful light. 🌹

[@zoehowes1521]

Same here girl, it is a deadly combo, but we are fighters or we wouldn't still be here.

[@megowopwop8545]

She talks quite proudly of her life. Lets see if this is the same in 20 years. All I'm saying is that too many of my friends have gone down this road, thinking they are so cool, and balancing party life and drugs and now in hindsight, most are dead or hugely depressed and made nothing of themselves. each to their own I guess.

[@kaleyjanenigh]

I've got 7 years clean from a 16 year long drug addiction (mainly heroin, some meth, Xanax.. a little bit of everything) and I've NEVER met an addict who "thinks they're cool". We're all broken and miserable. Now, I'm living the life of my dreams, but if you don't get out, you will die.

[@megowopwop8545]

@@kaleyjanenigh that's awesome! Incredible turn around...you are an outlier, and you must have amazing character to have achieved that. Anyone that can come through that, can really do anything. In regards to my mates thinking they are cool, it's frustration on my part. Because they are party addicts, that are obsessed with drugs and partying, similar to this girl. And they don't realise that drugs aren't cool, for some reason in their mind being out of control, being a badass, not remembering, getting high af, nearly dying.. is cool. Being able to tell their crazy stories of how out of control they were makes them feel they are living an eventful crazy life. This girl gave me this impression at times.

[@QueenJaneway]

Where in the hell is social services when this is a child's reality.

[@y.dylanhusband8664]

This woman is just like my mom. She would act the same way on alcohol and off of it. My dad says it’s very easy to fall in love with a woman who holds life so tightly in her hands that it ends up squeezing through the cracks.

[@lauragibb6014]

Something about how your dad described your mum struck a chord with me. A really interesting comment.

[@jewelseng9900]

Wow, that is indeed a very interesting comment

[@Amber_999]

What does this mean?

[@y.dylanhusband8664]

@@Amber_999 it means if u love life so much u just have fun with no responsibilities and you keep doing this eventually it isn’t fun. Things catch up to you. N then u crash and nothings fun. Or something like that. I mean you really just have to read it and get it or don’t.

[@Amber_999]

@@y.dylanhusband8664 I appreciate the explanation but hold the smart remarks please. “Hold life so tightly in her hands that it squeezes through the cracks” is not very straight forward, and honestly doesn’t make much sense. Which is why I asked.

[@3dbabe299]

-what a privileged girl - to be beautiful and smart like she is, to be able to slip in and out of dif levels of life, to be authentic and real - she will SURVIVE !!! I hope she becomes the mom she never had and educates herself to the TENs !!! I did it - all the way. I became a doctor after sev yrs in LA. Now my life has purpose and i’m a servant to many! ❤

[@StylinProfilin3889]

Are you drunk? Authentic and real lmao everything about her is fake , you need help.

[@baublesanddolls]

Smart????? Give me a break!!!

[@natureisallpowerful]

That's not being authentic 😂

[@chelseadonae8601]

❤

[@jer8279]

She's crazy.

[@kitkat8231]

For doing so many drugs, she has a very clear memory...

[@Anoradord]

Being from Dayton OH. After reading the title and hearing her say she grew up in Dayton it already adds up

[@kristiN1214]

I always have such respect for people that can sit there and tell their story…their honest, unfiltered story. I hope she has a good, healthy life.

[@teeona307]

Same and so many people are calling her a victim and a liar it's heartbreaking 💔 she needs to be heard not judged

[@kristiN1214]

@@teeona307the people that are judging the harshest usually deeply unhappy and probably have the most to hide so they won’t be judged harshly…I don’t get it. We’re all humans and we all go through different journeys to get us where we are now, and you hardly ever get unfiltered, honest stories from people about that journey. I just have a lot of respect for her and so many of these people Mark interviews.

[@bec8922]

I don’t even think your diagnosis is permanent it’s called complex trauma. Trauma from so many places, people, events, and beyond. You are a shining light, I love your rawness and realness. I really hope you can keep choosing yourself each day and learning to love yourself more each moment.

[@reelguydid]

love your comment here- helped me, TY

[@alm58asm98]

Unresolved complex childhood trauma leading to addiction. Solution: therapy with a trauma expert, 12 Step. One cannot be diagnosed while using. She has found a family of choice, and knows who is a helper. Resilient as F.

[@TheWhitefisher]

@@alm58asm98 Nobody worth the energy it takes to speak "prescribes" 12 step programs. Gross.

[@GuidoLuzzi]

oh so you're a doctor now!?

[@melaniegrace7707]

As someone diagnosed with ptsd (likely cptsd but the evaluation didn’t cover that) as well as BPD…. They are Not the same thing.

[@alexandraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa]

lol 'I was clinically dead' 'oh wait I'm getting too ahead of myself' I wanted to hear the rest of the tinder date story 🤣

[@shawnfarrell9979]

Chronic abuse makes people so angry. I need therapy because of it.

[@jamesarnold6059]

Her reasoning for getting sober is honestly sobering & seems true for anyone who wants to achieve great things--you can't have both. It's a tough pill to swallow. So much wisdom in that.

[@lauralush23]

I really enjoyed listening to Savannah. I wish her the best in life! Her story also made me realize I made the right choice of never drinking again in my late teens.