Blue October- It's Just Me (Hidden Track)

Track found at the end of 18th floor balcony. exclusive to the original foiled album.
i do not own this song
Justin about his daughter..
I lost a piece of me in you;
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I cared quite a lot.
You see but lately I've been on my own.
Yeah one, but one by choice.
You see, thats a first for me,
There's only me, yeah theres only me,
And now I realize for once,
It's just me.
It's just me.
It's just me,
And I'll find a way to make it,
There's noone left to stop me.
Here I go.
Can we take it from the top?
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I'm already spent living half my life undone
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.
I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again.
I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends.
I've tried to push them all away,
They push me back and wanna stay
And that's one good thing I have.
I'm gonna feel a peace in me,
I'm gonna feel at home.
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor.
I don't wanna hurt no more.
Yeah it's just me.
It's just me
And i'll find a way to make it.
There's noone left to stop me.
Here i go, can we take it from the top?
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.
So why so long?
So sad, i wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.
I used to be the one who won before.
I used to smile but dont no more.
I'm living just to watch it all go by.

[@rikastone3391]

One night just left the CD playing after 18th floor balcony and like 4 minutes later i herd this song and fell in love with it

[@ashleymeyer1366]

I can't imagine the emotional experience of this discovery

[@viper8872]

Me too !! Do you hear the change when he says don't take it from me to don't take her from me???!!

[@Kendojin]

@@ashleymeyer1366 accidental discovery of hidden tracks are something I don't think we'll have again... I was listening to my blue October CD and had it on Repeat All. It didn't play the first song again.... I was confused, and thought maybe my CD Player needed new batteries But I saw the timestamp kept rolling... And I fast forwarded the track. I heard noise, went back a little bit, and then let it go I had listened to this CD a few times before discovering it. I cried 😭

[@MLJP820]

That's how I found this song

[@Foboi-hm1rf]

Me too... It's my favorite but the sad part is that I really relate and understand it now... As tears drop silently as I sit in my car alone

[@shelbyjones1400]

Funny thing is back in the day you had to listen to the last track of the cd and wait 13 minutes of silence to realize their was a bonus track. now it's just on KZbin Lol

[@jeda3047]

Shelby Jones I legit thought my headphones had broke down and bought new headphones.

[@fancymonkeyman4139]

I know, right? At first I did it just to see how long it would go, and there it was.

[@TheClearpuddle]

Lol I remember the day i discovered this. I was gpimg thrpigh a particularly difficult time in my life. I had no idea what a hidden track was. I had just finished listening to the whole album on CD, and i just kind of drifted off into an emotional weird place and just what into the next room doing something mundane. Imagine my surprise when this song suddenly came on. What a surreal moment in time.

[@alienjess7038]

Heard it on repeat at 15 years old and now I am 29. For some reason I remembered it, searched and found it here and it still made me cry. And I related to the song even more now.

[@johnnymarvelous735]

I’m 29 now and feel the exact same way

[@nothingnobody6688]

Thanks for sharing. Caring xx🙏❤️ from Australia

[@johnathanlandry6437]

29 and same

[@rubyramirez1982]

I was only 9 or 10 when my depression started..this band is everything to me. Justin's lyrics really made me feel like I wasn't alone.

[@mikecorrado63]

I know this is an old comment, but what went wrong at such a young age?

[@isiahgilbert9467]

Michael Corrado alot can happen to kids at this age and younger my 1st grade I had to help take care of my dad wipe his but carry him to restroom nd cook for my ma but they hardly shown appreciation I couldn't go to sleep wondering if they were gonna go in and bust my butt for something I didn't do and school well heh u know its shit in a town of pop. 300 music is ur only friend and this band had played an important roll in my life as well

[@conniejohnson5272]

hey micheal:) a lot of the time we are born this way. we have low coping skills and are usually very sweet, sensitive people that just react badly when we hurt. i have been this way since i can remember. it just got worse when hormones kicked in around 11. yes, i had an abusive dad but he didn't cause the depression...he did however pass in on to me in his genes. i still have pain at 48 but i have learned to cope a LITTLE better. we are very reactive to others and need a lot of acceptance and understanding:) thank you for asking. education is the key. and LOVE!!! love rules the world!

[@conjured_up_skeletons6178]

I'm glad depression is not a part of my life. Ain't dumb enough to have kids.

[@zackaryhilf6118]

Sometimes trauma happens when you're so young you don't even truly know why you're just like this and don't know any different

[@Ayelen013]

I had this on my CD player and when silence came I thought the player had stopped, so I continued studying. After minutes and minutes of silence, this song began and I flinched a little from the suddenness of it haha, but it was such a beautiful surprise, almost felt like magic. I will always treasure that moment.

[@katagood7237]

I enjoyed reading this thank you x 😊

[@awesomel7059]

I am still here 10 years later and I have to say that I love this song

[@Clayton8424]

The most beautiful lyrics are "I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends, I try to push them all away, they push me back and want to stay and thats one good thing I have"

[@thescoggfather]

Still loving this in 2020

[@payla8308]

2022

[@heavenkept]

"I'm living just to watch it all, Go by."

[@jhonstars6874]

Here still in 2019

[@salimmulla6484]

too many kids 10-14yrs old I've seen on this thread..dont let that depressive mindset fester so young my friends. be strong there's a lot of life ahead of you.

[@MyMUSEJIMIN]

This song will never get old. It still touches my soul when I listen to it. 💙💙

[@ronnieparks9748]

The one song in the world I can't hear without tearing up.

[@connorbenavidez5923]

December 8th, 2020 best band forever..

[@aagussp]

I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again. I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends. I've tried to push them all away, They push me back and wanna stay, and that's one good thing I have. que linda cancionn!!

[@michealamackenzie4586]

This song is so desperate to be happy it kills me.

[@uniqueJoGee]

This is such a perfect comment. It really resonated and hit me I don’t know how to explain why. Thanks for sharing.

[@EvetsZerimar23]

I can relate to this. “They push me back and wanna stay and that’s one good thing I have” Very true. Appreciate those who stay with you. But also, “I’m living just to watch it all go by”

[@mattbelinski7760]

My entire family!

[@samanthavandemark2557]

I still listen to this 7 years later

[@davidlongcore5846]

So sad I wanna be strong... I'm gonna feel a peace in me, I'm gonna feel at home. I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone. I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor. I don't wanna hurt no more. Makes me cry everytime.

[@DeadM337]

I can't express the feelings of sorrow and encouragement I get from his music. It lifts me and drops me. Makes me realize all the lies I tell myself. Keeps my depression in check and makes me try harder then I ever thought possible.

[@artawesome30]

I literally can't listen to this more than once just because it's so sad.

[@laurapowell3516]

I'm the last one who commented on this song, but it is really good. I loved this album. STILL LOVE IT.

[@jommysalami227]

This honestly might be my favorite song off the album, and I hate that it's not on spotify

[@Ayelen013]

Same. It still frustrates me how it won't come after 18th floor balcony

[@TheFloridiot]

"I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again. I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends. I've tried to push them all away, They push me back and wanna stay And that's one good thing I have. I'm gonna feel a peace in me, I'm gonna feel at home. I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone. I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor. I don't wanna hurt no more." Those are the most beautiful lyrics I've ever heard in a song.

[@nelly1823]

my dad used to have a 2001 green lincoln LS, and he loved night car rides through our town. he’d only play foiled and i always remember him letting 18th floor balcony play out and he’d turn it up on this song.

[@InsomniacGrly]

I lost a piece of me in this song :) Even when I'm feeling dead and numb, this song touches my soul and my heart.

[@meatheadgaming7061]

I found this song when it came out. It still hits the same.

[@wildcatludlow5891]

Hello im only 15 and this band has helped me through my life. My entire life i have had well a horrible life with my father in the picture(Or any guy really becuase im afraid of men; I cant trust them)..he kid napped me from my mom when i was in fourth grade and told me she didnt want me nor did she love me any more. As a kid i had a hard time believing him and thinking if this was true or not. As i got older my father and i didnt have a relationship.. For my safety i moved.with my mom to a different state and i was on my way with my mom to work when she played this band in the car. It relaxed me so much that when im stressed or scared or just not wanting to be in this universe i simply listen to this band. But my cd got scratched and i havent been able to listen to my favorite song with out it being live that if i cant hear it soon im ganna freak out. Im trying to say that if it wasnt for this band i probably wouldnt be here. So thank you blue october...but i miss the old gang. The new is ok but the older was the best. Love you guys and thanks.

[@charleswarren6982]

Get help, I too have felt the same, cry and say what is heavy on your heart

[@aspenrider6280]

Hey, My name is Aspen and i have had a pretty crazy life also. Blue October has helped me though so much that it is crazy! If you ever need anyone to talk to or just a friend to come too, Feel free to email me at [e-mail] Things will get better for you. Aspen

[@wildcatludlow5891]

Thank you guys 💕

[@aspenrider6280]

your welcome! best of luck to you! Hope you have a great day!!

[@wildcatludlow5891]

U too

[@joshl6462]

Googled the song even though I have it just to give it a thumbs-up. This is my favorite Blue October song, and out of 3000 songs I only have around 50 rated at 5/5, like this one.

[@bobblehead7002]

**heart falls out of chest**

[@Kendojin]

I miss the height of CDs, because whenever a song was over, and there was more than 5 seconds of silence, I'd fast forward right away.... Listening closely for a hidden track I forgot that this was my favorite song on the album. I guess you could call it a hidden track in my brain, except I had to wait for 15 years of silence to discover it

[@davidstuart3123]

The rush of memories from this song is overwhelming. I remember sitting in my truck (2005), listening to this album. This track never failed to bring me to tears.

[@VampireAddict101]

I absolutely ADORE Blue October! They're my all time favorite band! I can relate to pretty much all of their songs. They are just simply amazing. I love the fact that some of their songs are delightfully depressing. :D

[@Oldmankingspiffy]

My sister gave me this cd right before I went on my second tour to Iraq… this song was on repeat that whole year

[@justinziegler6239]

Ive always been greatful for this song...it gives me hope that i will reconnect with everyone ive tried to push away...there is alot of good truths in these lyrics

[@theodorurhed]

Finally making it out of a long bout of depression and this song came to me. Such powerful lyrics. Living a half life, watching it all go by and finding the strength to be whole again and finding that the people you've tried to push away in sadness have stayed with you. To anyone going through a tough time out there - stick with it and search in your heart and you will eventually find love and wholeness again!

[@sippa23]

I think that these guys are one of the greatest bands in the world, and it don't matter how low or happy you feel your fave song that they sing always makes you feel warm and happy or gives you that unexplainable thing that helps you get through the day!! They are deffo on my bucket list

[@goincoastal28]

I met Justin one evening after a concert and he told me so much about his music. I feel like I could have written about 1/2 his songs myself. I would tell him something i was going through and he would point out exactly in what song he was going through them same thing when writing it. He is an amazing beautiful but torn soul!

[@laurapowell3516]

Feels like you just walked in got to get to see him writing this song at his piano.

[@mindgames50]

Nobody will ever know, or feel. 14 years later I realize My demons are my own, I realized for once; it’s just me.

[@PsychoxXxTeddyxXx13]

this song made me cry when I first heard it... and I was at school...lol I love it. Very beautiful.

[@runeboyz7]

justin reminds me im never alone and that there is someone else out there that does understand me and ho i feel. i wish i could just hug him. thats all i would wanna do

[@petunias1949]

I saw Blue October in Toronto. I will never for get that concert it was just amazing! Not only a terrific singer and song writer, he just draws the audience to him. It was one of the most awesome times of my life, and I will never forget that night.

[@BriannaSweetheart]

Such a beautiful song!

[@BlueOctober1231]

No one could word it more perfectly, than Justin... And his music is the reason I'm still living...

[@yesterknight]

....Still defines me; as much as any one song can define a person. Wonderful piece. Absolutely wonderful.

[@systemsick41]

This is one of the best Blue October songs of all time! More people need to listen to this song!

[@whoopla1095]

This. Is my life right now. Exactly how I feel...

[@guardiangarasu]

I love this band. I have had my heart broken so many times, and this band helps me to keep it together as best i can.

[@XavierJay20]

It was a late night, my first love and I laid there with our newborn just listening to this whole album. I remember that night so vividly, the darkness, the position of the bed and other shelves/dressers, this song, it was so peaceful. A perfect moment, one that I could live in forever.

[@brandyngraves5131]

someone should do me a fucking favor and put this on Spotify

[@conniejohnson5272]

amen!

[@dt4l6969]

A year later, and still not on spotify. :( What the heck.

[@QueenRukia]

I have looked for this song by itself for SO long. All the songs on the Foiled album are so perfect and heartwarming.

[@waldoversteckt1053]

it's just me and i'll find a way to make it

[@petunias1949]

This song is straight from his heart and soul. The words(I spent my life living half undone) I relate too.I got to see them in Toronto...was the totally best concert ever!! Everything sung with such feeling. I truly love this band.Also a great entertainer.

[@lXedalinl]

I was laying with my gf at the time listening to 18th floor balcony, we started to talk about how she might need to move to Canada, heartbroken we held in each other in silence when suddenly, "i lost a piece of me in you" Chills. Was like a moment out of a movie.

[@fancymonkeyman4139]

Takes me back.

[@narutardourannote]

This song is beyond relatable. This is my favourite Blue October song because it got be through a stage of depression in my life. This band is so inspirational and amazing!

[@user-bx1wg3tt9t]

I am a Justin that battled depression also! Love this song, helped me years ago and it still affects me…

[@MrKricket311]

One of my favs by blue october. I love these guys and I dont think anyone around me understands how much they helpd me out.Cant wit till the next time i can see them in New Mexico!

[@574daniel]

Without blue October I wouldn't be here today

[@artawesome30]

This song is so pretty and so inspirational...and the band is just amazing!!!

[@conniejohnson5272]

i am 48 and have always had crazy anxiety and depression. add in add and ocd and i was a mess. i had no idea everyone wasn't just like me. now, after some working medicine and the Lord and this music i understand i need to look past my disability and move forward. i still have spells but i can truly say i feel pretty good:) keep moving forward and never look back. forgive and love! yes, mental illness is bred in us. nothing has to happen to make us this way. WE are also the majority. I had no clue. keep your heads up and keep loving:):):):) because that is all we want and need:):):)

[@walking22]

Saw them for the third time live and it is differnent every time. They are the best live. I heard Justin play this song for the first time and it was incredible.

[@WhiteOni78]

For those who are saddened, I wish for this song to be more empowering. Rely on yourself, you're stronger than you know.

[@rhawke805]

So much emotion in Justins voice. Awesome.

[@GuineaMiss]

Perfection. Thoughts and emotion stop racing around in me. I can finally relax. Everything will get better soon.

[@EllatheUnenchanted]

Blue October is utter perfection

[@MrDustin115]

This is amazing! I Love The Music from Blue October! Im from Germany !

[@spiraticus13]

This song has helped me through some serious stuff in the couple months...blue October will forever be one of my favorites along with staind and pearl jam

[@GCF-Media]

I remember having a cd walkman and had a ripped version of this album. Took me many listens in the dark to realize this was there the whole time. No matter what band i may like, ill always come back to blue. Im doing better now but hold everything in. But i guess maybe i never got better. I just got better at hiding the hurt.

[@katiestait8138]

💕 This 🎶 so much 💕

[@iliimaster]

damn so much emotions running through when i play this.... beautiful i love this band and the connection they seem to make with these beautifully written lyrics

[@I-dont-reply]

Still stands 12 years later..

[@lindsey314]

i say go out and buy the CD :]

[@kmacmuzikmafia27]

God this song still makes me cry, seriously one of the saddest songs on Earth.

[@torontavio]

i attended the foiled concert in Toronto.. i remember it was FREE, at the mod club. had an amazing time, i still fit in my 10 dllrs Blue October shirt. this is the first time i hear this track.

[@yesterknight]

1 hidden track = 1 new fan; love it man.

[@valmeriza]

I love this song. On the 'Foiled for the last time' CD it's with the Carmen Rizzo mix of X Amount of Words. I found out about it onc when I let the Remix keep playing. I heard it really softly becauseI wasn't intentionally listening to the mix. I wish it was as an individual. THANKS FOR POSTING!

[@ufocallermanuelp]

Beautiful art

[@battleshipmonster]

Oh my god, I was at their Columbus show on April 17th. It was absolutely amazing.

[@suzannewilkins8190]

You had me at the piano much love

[@Itsthatperfectoceanview]

So Rainbow is gonna make us all cry, i see

[@anime1fan5]

I love this song so much, thank you Blue October.

[@1girllygirl]

What A AMAZING TEXT!(L) Love it!!!

[@patrickcaige]

This song bring me to tears :( I relate to this song so very much! Best piano song ever

[@EvetsZerimar23]

This album is everything

[@kqbmuse]

@Rckrangl8 Thanks for the info. I was able to find a copy of the first release with 18th Floor Balcony as the last track with the hidden Its Just Me at the end. AWESOME stuff! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

[@narutardourannote]

This is without a doubt my life song :) It makes me cry everytime I listen to it.

[@narutardourannote]

Such a beautiful song and so sad

[@sydneyhope121]

I love this song

[@vitinamolgaard2048]

It is Just me....this is how I sign off.

[@rtristan23]

Badass song thanks For uploading it!

[@ghashrat]

I heard this song live last night. very moving experience, and you could tell that justin was moved just by singing it.

[@ICaughtThePhotoBug]

I feel so lucky the track I got with 18th floor balcony included this song, I didn't realize it until I heard it on my ipod, and I had a little panic/jizz/fangirl attack, ugh it's just fantastic

[@Luv4luv000]

recovery is a b---- that can sneak up and bite us, just when we think we got it. But that's the life of an addict..You give me hope.

[@artawesome30]

this is the most beautiful song EVER. I cried the first time I heard it

[@LegacySilence]

Everybody has that band that they can always relate to in every song, this is my band. I love them, i just don't know how to tell people how i feel, but they do.

[@damientorres8988]

Me and my girlfriend at the time had broken up so I was listening to this album of course once I finished it I just let it keep on playing the background was nice then I found this gem and it had me crying even more

[@13raffygirl]

this is my favorite song

[@jjmac12345]

I saw them perform this live last night, it was really incredible.

[@user-km4ji2gq2w]

Masterpiece.