Body Dysmorphia And OCD Have Taken Over My Life

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An actor suffering with body dysmorphia and OCD takes four hour showers and has spent $150,000 - and it’s ruining his life. Taking four-hour showers, wearing latex gloves and only eating from disposable plates - Stephen Fode’s battle with obsessive, compulsive disorder has been a “life long struggle.” The 49-year old also suffers from Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD) - a psychological condition where the sufferer’s view of their appearance is so distorted they hate their looks and strive for perfection. To date, Stephen has spent over $150,000 on plastic surgery and cosmetic procedures and goes days without eating and he runs until the point of collapse.
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[@sarahsimone8825]

He has a good attitude about it. Power to him for trying to overcome his problem.

[@SugarDippityMel]

End my life is it bad that i laughed

[@poppykok5]

Mr Malfoy...I take the sickeningly brutal annihilation of TWO THIRDS of the ENTIRE population of European Jewish citizens VERY seriously, & I don't think using Adolf Hitler's name...even in jest... for "fun," amusing...How would YOU feel if YOU were a Jew & had innocent ancestors that were STARVED/HUMILIATED, while losing ALL THEIR DIGNITY before being SLAUGHTERED & having their corpses just tossed aside in huge piles like garbage??? Even though you're probably a very decent man, If you were Jewish you'd surely take it more seriously...

[@poppykok5]

Mr Malfoy, somehow I Knew you'd come back & tell me you were Jewish... :-)

[@FlowingDepths]

I was just thinking the same thing. I'm glad he found a job that works for him, and sees his disorder as not being him, just being something he has to deal with.

[@15LaDell]

Dysmenorrhea is very painful for every women, and it is for me indeed. But when Im in my eccentric moods sometimes I can enjoy the twinge, it feels like I'm being stabbed in the uterus repetitively, or in another discription, a strong person busting through my lower abdomen and squeezing the f💜ck out of it. However sadly the throbbing causes fatigue and irritation not to mention rounder fuller breast and sensitive, tender nipples.

[@nathanmester4585]

1:04 that plate throw tho

[@oceancurrentsea]

Nathan Mester haha acting like he didn't achieve the impossible.

[@jessicaroch3446]

Nathan Mester damn that was perfect lol

[@Chicabubbo]

Nathan Mester yeah right!!

[@stefan98TH]

lmfao i didn't even notice that. that is boss lmao

[@Keewaf]

LMFAO

[@brandonbright858]

I totally know how this person feels. I am not that severe and it's made me shut down many times. I don't know how he copes. I am praying for him.

[@julclarkson]

@Budhi Malu what do you mean exactly?

[@Ethanprankster11]

Hi Katie let's b frenz.im completely fine but I love making frenz .🙂

[@rebeccaorourke7237]

I feel so bad for this guy, his whole life is focused around these two disorders, poor guy :(

[@lol-comedyshow5373]

becca ami sometimes I have a voice in my head saying you have to stand here or say this otherwise something bad is going to happen to you I hope it gets better

[@menace2societies]

LOL-Comedy Show how you’ve been doing?

[@declanmclean9670]

@@lol-comedyshow5373 that’s demons! And when i say demons! Yes i mean literal evil spirits! The bible calls them liars! These voices are lies! And even you know it yourself, it doesn’t feel apart of you or even ur own voice but like another person in ur mind critiquing you! Call out to Jesus, i know i sound Dumb but He’s real!

[@declanmclean9670]

@Talsong Kingslayer nothing i said was With disrespect or downplaying anything. so don’t put that burden on me. i Dont care what you think about my views.

[@grayskindablue]

@@lol-comedyshow5373 sounds similar to how my OCD started. I hope you’re doing alright two years later man

[@MrCodxGlitchesx]

Why the therapist look and sound like they lady who makes the super suits in the incredibles

[@britnieatkinson3119]

mollo pollo you are truly awesome

[@memaymoo8088]

No cape!

[@emmaplaysuke]

haha the therapists' name is eda and the lady in incredibles is edna how funny

[@MattRobb]

omg it is exactly like her

[@smileymadness3353]

mollo pollo OOOOHHH DAWLINNNN

[@sadfatlarry8355]

Stop commenting about his looks /who he looks like believe me as someone who struggles with bdd it makes it worse it may seem harmless to you but when you obsess over you looks ppl comparing you to others is heart wrenching

[@sariahjohnson7237]

Someone with common sense

[@sharbee8033]

So very true 👍

[@_politefrog_8892]

Negative comments could literally cause someone with BDD to end their life. Compassion matters.

[@venus_as_a_boi2278]

I'm sorry but when the lady in red peered through the side of the door I bursted out laughing I thought that was so funny omygod lmao wtf!

[@angelscarlett3387]

lmfao same

[@keirastrom3503]

Shine MC I thought I was the only one lmao 😂

[@alisha2016_]

Shine MC lol ikr 😂😂😂

[@sarahbear1674]

RIGHT I WAS LIKE WHATS THIS BITCH DOING 😂

[@ayakhaled3581]

ikr .. I was like wtf is she doing .. that's supposed to be sad 😂😂😂

[@JJ-pj7wn]

Did anyone else see those plate throwing skills????

[@omgxwtfxily]

I know people find this funny but I can see/feel his frustration in having the compulsion to discard the first plate.

[@Anonymous-ip8td]

I can't imagine how he feels when he uses the bathroom

[@mel4776]

Anonymous imagine a public bathroom

[@Anonymous-ip8td]

He'd probably suffocate

[@heatherrose9709]

Anonymous I'm sure he can stay away from public bathrooms. i haven't used a public bathroom in like 10 years

[@laurenbeth5139]

I try not to use public bathrooms but sometimes you just cant make it. how do you do that?

[@chickennugget1569]

Heather Rose public bathrooms are actually usually way cleaner because they are cleaned a lot..well most of them

[@raeraemackay5497]

I've had body dysmorphia for most of my life, it is a horrible disorder that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.

[@SamurottNetwork]

Rae MacKay my bdd is rough my face is extremely asymmetrical from the side. my nose is deviated, my ears are uneven. more cheekbone on the left uneven eyebrows uneven lips, and my head has a little more mass on the left. it's so bad that I try to talk to people on my "good side". even taking pictures in different lighting can cause a panic attack. I now my flaws are there but people don't seem to notice. I've recorded myself and I've confirmed my imperfections but no one realizes it. I've contemplated suicide, I've gained weight because of bdd. what seemed to cause this was being heartbroken. I feel below everyone else. my bdd is literally killing me.

[@raeraemackay5497]

Creek Vermillion I feel your pain, and even though I've never met you or seen you, I can promise you that you are loved, you are beautiful, and you deserve greatness. Keep fighting the good fight, and I hope thing only get better for you. xox

[@lulu486]

I wish you the best. Keep strong, you got this ❤️

[@sadfatlarry8355]

So much kindness in these comments, I'm yoused to ppl just not understanding my bdd its honestly 80 percent of my life it's so debilitating ppl just think I'm vain and don't get how this can take over my life as it has

[@pinkywinky7207]

@@sadfatlarry8355 i would recommend to all of you to check out my podcast on the topic, i just want to help and offer understanding because online there isnt much support anchor.fm/dartskive-heads/episodes/Explaining-BDD-eafc5v

[@ItsokTodie]

Body dysmorphic disorder has ruined SO many parts of my life it's so bad it's ruined my grades, physical health, mental health even hurts people around me it's ridiculous how insane bdd had such a gigantic impact on a persons life.

[@starkiller23610]

OCD is horrific, I had it for years and it shortened my day by hours just cleaning

[@user-od9xe5oy5s]

LiverSpottedHunk how did you get rid of it??

[@isabelapastoriza9920]

You don't.

[@cheappyv5156]

Isabela Pastoriza u do

[@Godschoosen1]

Isabela Pastoriza therapy,will power and mind over matter

[@sacinqu]

you can.

[@HereWeAre101]

Hey Stephen if you end up reading this, you aren't alone! I've got several diagnoses under my belt including those two and while currently I'm in a pretty recovered stage I remember the absolute torture it was to deal with. You can keep going and survive and get better! I believe in you!!!

[@csdf-tv1017]

+johnny miller Sauvagerie')

[@Nothingbutdust92]

What's your problem?..

[@Nothingbutdust92]

Same here, I have all those same disorders...

[@dakotalafontaine6873]

anonymous recruiter You do know that a lot of mental disorders are genetic right? Or they are caused by outside experiences. It's a chemical imbalance in the brain that is involuntary

[@SonKunSama]

You can do it baby, you're beautiful. Never give up.

[@msgymnaststar]

I was diagnosed with OCD at 6 (showed symptoms at 4). It literally stole my childhood. I also want to mention that I've NEVER been a clean freak. That's a HUGE OCD stereotype that only some people experience!!

[@mollydelacy9007]

he kinda looks like caitlyn jenner anyone else see the resemblance

[@thehound9470]

Molly De Lacy I thought Steve Tyler

[@yeegalsuzi8353]

Molly De Lacy lmaoo ye

[@Nadiesalevivo]

Yes

[@Stephy221]

yup

[@leannemo7382]

Definitely see Steven Tyler with the slight simian features and his mouth/lips. This Stephen appeared to be good looking in his youth, but he sadly thought he needed the surgical work. I hope he won't get any other plastic work, since his image is now being accepted into the acting arena, as he is; "don't try to fix what's not broken". The therapist is helping him to mend what's mentally broken inside. Poor guy...I'm glad he's taking positive steps forward, so he can feel happiness.

[@oliviax3397]

Anyone else see Janice Dickinson and Steven Tyler? Feel so bad for this guy he seems so sweet, it's always the good that are cursed with evil, not fair

[@alstinson]

No one without OCD will ever truly know how much we suffer, mine on the daily feels like living with a form of schizophrenia. It actively attempts to ruin every activity, every pleasure and contentment and true happiness becomes a horribly rare thing.

[@rachelrosen5501]

I have OCD and body dysmorphic disorder. I feel for this guy because I know what it's like to be him... well minus the anorexia and plastic surgery thank God

[@Nothingbutdust92]

I have all the same as him, but my OCD isn't related to cleanliness that much and I'm almost over my anorexia as well... But I know how it feels. Seems like these disorders go very much hand in hand :(

[@bellawherethehellhaveyoube4894]

Rachel Rosen Same with me. The combination of these two can make me very miserable at times.

[@bellawherethehellhaveyoube4894]

AsausaShizuka92 It's said that if you have OCD, you are much more likely to have BDD as well because it is a form of OCD.

[@pinkywinky7207]

I would recommend you to check out my podcast on the topic anchor.fm/dartskive-heads/episodes/Explaining-BDD-eafc5v

[@pinkywinky7207]

@@antonio-9153 then you dont have OCD

[@omgxwtfxily]

This brought me to tears because I can relate so much. OCD has ruined my life.

[@AwesomeCandy244]

4:53 that's how he used to look wow

[@ninabean4857]

Basic Bird ikr..totally changed!

[@ninabean4857]

Agree

[@taylorrichards7566]

Basic Bird he was gorgeous ;-;

[@haleigh2366]

Basic Bird ikr

[@keepXonXrockin]

I suppose that's already post-op though. the photos from his high school years at the start are more accurate of what he used to look like.

[@Brandonian]

He seems like a great person. I hope he can do it. I can’t help but root for him.

[@khonkhosilelihle7414]

He's breaking my heart.

[@Brandonian]

@@khonkhosilelihle7414 I’m sorry man, I can’t help but root for the guy! I really hope he can overcome it. He’s not ugly. He seems really coherent. He’s just has these conditions that have taken control of his. But I truly hope he can pull through!

[@heyitsadrie]

Poor guy! I hope he gets better

[@15LaDell]

Dysmenorrhea is very painful for every women, and it is for me indeed. But when Im in my eccentric moods sometimes I can enjoy the twinge, it feels like I'm being stabbed in the uterus repetitively, or in another discription, a strong person busting through my lower abdomen and squeezing the f💜ck out of it. However sadly the throbbing causes fatigue and irritation not to mention rounder fuller breast and sensitive, tender nipples.

[@kristinaclark4264]

Moon Orchid wtf does that have to do with the price of tea in China??

[@AndreaMartinez-gn1oj]

OCD is hell. I get how he feels

[@tracygrey8781]

I could see the pain in his eyes as he spoke to the camera... I wish him all the best for his recovery & his acting career 💛

[@ofira211]

I was diagnosed with both of these disorders. However, after a few years I've overcame the BDD. But the OCD still kicks my ass but is not as severe anymore. This guys struggle is taking a great physical toll on him. It does get better, don't give up.

[@pinkywinky7207]

Could you please tell me how you overcame BDD?

[@siobhangibbens4068]

I completely understand how OCD can make you stop eating. I have completely been there. Anxiety disorders are brutal, I hope he gets all the help he needs so he can live a peaceful life.

[@pareenp]

He seems like a good guy , hope he gets fine soon😊

[@christinej.4404]

Poor Stephen, I had OCD for a few years now and I got to the point where I could't leave my house without checking the front door about 30 times. I hope he gets better, wish him the best

[@omgxwtfxily]

What helped you?

[@ServantOfAllahforeveratpeace]

Same here.

[@menace2societies]

how yall been doin?

[@leahmay1506]

He's so beautiful! I know it wouldn't be easy for him to hear that and from a fellow bdd suffered I understand but I view him and he's just amazing. You can also tell he has such a warm spirit. I really wish the best for him ❤️

[@slushywithalilwushy]

Damn I feel so bad for him 😔

[@brittaniebaruch9321]

He reminds me of Steven Tyler

[@mercynjeri6938]

Spot on👍

[@isaiahzanti5969]

1:06 that plate landed perfect on the wall

[@sophiewiddikins]

I have OCD and BD. It's the most horrible thing to suffer with both at the same time :( I feel for this guy! He's doing something about it which is incredibly brave. I will never get rid of my OCD but my therapy helped me so much

[@ameliaq.7481]

How does he take 4 hr showers w/o the water going cold?

[@billymadden7676]

Ever heard of a tankless water heater?

[@ameliaq.7481]

Not until just now.

[@stylesofbeyond]

Amelia Q. Lmao... I went to one of those countries like yours once and I couldn't understand why the hot water runs out after like 20 minutes or so...

[@ameliaq.7481]

I want one...

[@ameliaq.7481]

I don't know how to help! D: I believe in prayer, so I can pray for you. You may need to talk to a pro, but a temporary solution may be to use dry shampoo every once in a while instead of putting soap in your hair. That'll at least give you a break and you can take shorter showers. 💕

[@melissalove2463]

Don't mean to be inconsiderate but I think He looks like Caitlin Jenner!

[@rowdeo8968]

Lissa Milesy its plastic surgery that clones these people i would jump to my death if i felt like this all day

[@aestheticgarbage6671]

What an insult. I'd hate to look like that ugly old hag. He looks way better

[@ItsNikkiLizzi]

Lissa Milesy I thought the exact same thing?

[@ItsNikkiLizzi]

Lissa Milesy !*

[@melissalove2463]

End my life I was in no way trying to insult this poor man I was simply having an opinion on who I thought he looked like.

[@reallcy]

I quite like his personality - surprisingly positive attitude for someone living in such a way.

[@peacelovetv95]

Speaking as someone who's had OCD, social anxiety, and paranoia for about as long as I can remember, these things most definitely take over your life and make you hate yourself. Because it's in your head and other people don't know or understand, you feel like everyone resents you when you physically can't get yourself to do things. Or when you start panicking over things that are everyday things for other people. It's isolating and makes you feel incredibly alone and frustrated.

[@mickeysandoval9244]

I'm so proud of him for seeking help and his spirited attitude. I really love his therapist. wishing him the very best.

[@TechXSoftware]

He would be good at art.

[@Jerrydupris]

TechXSoftware Nah he would be really OCD about it

[@jpg9480]

SEB guy I agree. nothing would be good enough.

[@laura09284]

I had a slight problem with bdd back in high school. Because I was bullied in middle. I kept picking at the skin, checking myself in the mirror constantly, and I over plucked my eyebrows.. if I looked in the mirror and I felt ugly my whole day was ruined and I would avoid eye contact at all costs. That caused the panic attacks as well. I went to therapy and thankfully I was cured. Not cured but I didn't bother me anymore. I felt ugly back then, but I grew up(:

[@Nothingbutdust92]

I have lived through the exact same thing... Picking at my skin, checking myself in the mirror constantly, plucked all my eyebrows away, panic attacks + anxiety, depression, OCD and anorexia. It started in middle school because of me being bullied at elementary school and I failed high school all because of that. And I never knew there were others like me out there :) I'm glad you're doing better now...

[@SamurottNetwork]

AsausaShizuka92 my bdd is rough my face is extremely asymmetrical from the side. my nose is deviated, my ears are uneven. more cheekbone on the left uneven eyebrows uneven lips, and my head has a little more mass on the left. it's so bad that I try to talk to people on my "good side". even taking pictures in different lighting can cause a panic attack. I now my flaws are there but people don't seem to notice. I've recorded myself and I've confirmed my imperfections but no one realizes it. I've contemplated suicide, I've gained weight because of bdd. what seemed to cause this was being heartbroken. I feel below everyone else. my bdd is literally killing me.

[@Nothingbutdust92]

Creek Vermillion I'm sorry to hear that :'( It sounds very similar to my own experience...

[@Sheabuttahbaby]

Nothings worse than severe social anxiety

[@DinsAFK]

Chara Wells Hitler

[@trevorphillips3075]

panic attacks

[@dasa1974]

anorexia,though i don't think comparing mental disorders is wise,like for me anorexia is the worst cuz i had severe anorexia,but if i had social anxiety(I do get very anxious in social situations and sometimes cry when ppl i don't know get close,but it's not as serious as the real disorder)I would think social anxiety is the worst,soooooo.....

[@Sheabuttahbaby]

Trevor Phillips I get panic attacks from social anxiety. It's all the same

[@maramel2482]

how can you even compare when mental ilnesses arent the same for everyone. usually by having bdd you get social anxiety because you feel so ugly. its always easier to say 'id trade this for that' when you havent had it. its all subjective and just pretty ignorant these comments

[@kurtis1246]

Its so hard to control, and adjust my mind to not letting it take a hold of me.

[@metahluna504]

Sending love and light your way Stephen

[@niciqueen]

he looks like Janice Dickinson (if that's how you spell her name)

[@samanthaferricher6338]

Jazmine S omg you're right! I knew he looked liked someone famous but I couldn't place it!

[@dragonsky799]

Totally...thank you!!!

[@jewelonly1046]

Krsawa Erish You got the right combo lol

[@Cheers_Motherfucker]

More like Angelina Jolie

[@nil-8026]

And Steven Tyler of Aerosmith too

[@crustypizzacrust124]

I have OCD and when I was a kid in elementary and middle school it was so bad i would have tantrums and so many other things and I wouldn't want to talk which was hard because I was super talkative and it's gotten so much better over the years but I'm also really scared cause I can feel it coming back :( this man is amazing for being able to live his life even with all the pain he's in. OCD for me was and is a mental and emotional hell. I'm 15 by the way.

[@angelross2311]

I have a minor case of OCD and I thought my life was hard but when I watch stuff like this I realize how little OCD affects my life. I hope he can get help and not let these disorders stop him.

[@Leonor1990vdb]

I used to have BDD. Horrible disorder. Thank you for being so honest about this topic❤️ wish you all the best

[@hi_im_cc]

As a person with OCD, I can tell you right now that having it is like having the devil whispering in your ear and if you don’t do what he says, he tortures you.

[@scarlett7958]

Exactly

[@paulaingraham6253]

I had severe OCD as a child. Now, it's very very mild. Almost gone. It's workable!

[@elfgirl2009]

I have both and it's literally a living nightmare. I'm crying so much because I know exactly how he feels 😭

[@CarolineMickle]

Thank you for sharing. More like this please.

[@edenbishop6132]

This is so sad

[@stabraq]

where the hell did he get the money for plastic surgeries if he doesn't work ?

[@existentialcrisis8321]

Save. Don't eat. Don't buy much in general.

[@dominicaaaaa5547]

Yeah my friend has never worked and he's had cosmetic stuff done I think if people are very determined they will get they money somehow. A very sad illness anyway all the best to this guy ❤️💙

[@BidenSUCKSS]

I've had every stage of this mental disorder that Steve has. It was hard to live a life with it, but somehow with the help of antidepressants and some therapy I was able to bring it down by a lot. I feel much better.

[@gabriellebraswell3306]

I have extreme OCD panic attacks and PTSD . i know its difficult stephen but it will get better one day im cheering for you i know you can get through this

[@s.deegan3740]

This guy seems like a nice guy and I hope he gets through this

[@Lo-Fi-Go]

He should set up a house cleaning business.

[@rayray9438]

When he was in the fat suit and he used the spare tire as a pillow to rest his hands on 🤣

[@beestille5487]

I'm actually really proud to see this

[@amandarosefoell703]

I feel really bad for this guy. My brother has OCD and ADHD and it's been so hard for him throughout his life. He now works hard to control his disorders and lives a pretty normal life. Hope he gets better.

[@Crispr00]

Who gives him all that money?

[@breadandbone7928]

Clorox Bleach he has ajob

[@Crispr00]

Or else it gets the hose again what is it ?

[@breadandbone7928]

Clorox Bleach office job i am pretty sure

[@ameliaq.7481]

At 4:44 it says he works as an actor and lives with his mom.

[@5664788]

Fucken mommy the enabler prob took out loans,..how the fuck does he afford a constant shrink,..all us tax payers.

[@kaissoupstore7647]

I have an eating disorder (avoidant restrictive food intake disorder) and a lot of it is caused by OCD. The basic things, like not being able to eat food a certain way, and my variety of foods I eat are limited to about 20 things (I will refuse to eat anything green, as well as things that touched anything green). The main things is that when my parents call me downstairs, I have to wait exactly 5 minutes before I go down, I will cut my right thigh and arm just to feel the pain because for some reason I want to feel more on my right side and not my left- it's kind of hard to explain and it's totally stupid. For the past 6 months I've been going to therapists and programs to treat my anxiety, OCD, and weight restoration. For anyone with OCD out there, do the things that go against your compulsion rituals, because you'll feel terrible for the next 40 minutes, but eventually you'll get better.

[@omgxwtfxily]

I hope you're still doing well.

[@FatimaKhan-oe7hz]

I hope you doing well in your life with this Chronic disorder I'll pray for you 🦋🌼

[@arsaeterna4285]

We're all behind you Bruce

[@Mtz2604]

I hope that the approach you are taking to manage your conditions gives you the results you're expecting. I hope you have piece of mind and feel that you're recovering your life. I hope you're mental health in general improves. I suffer from 4 different psychiatric diagnoses and is hard to live with support and even worse without it. I'm glad your mom is involved and helps you. Get better and wish you the best.

[@raccooncity2627]

Those piercings are ridiculously big.

[@walterdekaey]

RaccoonCity Theo may be not clean!!!

[@DenZerda]

😭💀

[@bohdilama]

I can see that his mom has had some work done as well.

[@masey423]

I really, really hope that you find your way through these things. I know what this can be like, but please just try to believe me when I say you look wonderful. I'll send you good vibes today!

[@mimilovebug8503]

he may be different but i am so glad he found something he enjoys and is happy :)

[@timmccaffrey1326]

Jesus!!...this helps to put our problems into some kind of perspective..poor guy.

[@MsPookie2]

he looks like Steven Tyler but yes ocd and anxiety r no joke they will take over your life n def do act against your personal will it's a heartbreaking thing

[@whyisthereaholeinmybutt4274]

Good on ya man!

[@MsNooneinparticular]

OCD is completely incompatible with happiness. My first episode of intrusive thoughts started at age 10 & was accompanied by my first depressive disorder. Nothing scarier than losing control of your mind.

[@sendtoanthony]

I wonder if cannabis would help with OCD?

[@cassandra7430]

I tried that, didn't work for me

[@kristens.7879]

Lieske Hoogeveen me too lolll

[@Cassanduhhh]

Yea, weed isn't gonna make him depressed.

[@lhppresents]

Ray Cyst I think cbd or strains higher in cbd could but... otherwise idk. I've had OCD since I was a little girl, and I've been smoking weed for years, it hasn't helped me. Dialectical behavioural therapy did though.

[@cassandra7430]

It has helped me with my anxiety for a lil while and made me calm but that went away real quick. But everyone is different and maybe it will help other people

[@PassedTime2788]

May peace be upon this poor man!

[@shaisaunders2979]

Wow! Wishing you the best.

[@Cat-xn8js]

I was afraid to click on this video because I suffer from both disorders and I’m in the exact same situation as this guy…this poor man I know exactly what it feels like to be in his head. My body dysmorphia is hurting my family because i talk about it all the time. My OCD has also been around all my life. I can’t get plastic surgery because my OCD tells me that it “doesn’t count”. I hope he gets better….my god…

[@alisonthegreat]

My cousin shows signs of OCD and she’s only 10 and I hope it doesn’t turn into this

[@Abbiekakez]

When someone says “that gets my OCD going” etc, I kinda want to scream at them. OCD is not a quirk

[@deneilbaker]

He seems so sweet and gentle

[@tapcort]

Hope you get better dude :)

[@navbravic1355]

He said he's never heard of anyone who's gotten rid of their OCD. I'd say you just don't notice those people because they're of course not displaying symptoms. I had a pretty severe case of it as a kid and grew out of it luckily. There are stints when minor symptoms come back, but there are ways to knock it out. I don't know if I can really articulate too well what those methods are (I think I cope mostly subconsciously), but I _do_ know that obsessing over the problem is the worst thing. The second someone brings up my "tics" or I think about them, I start feeling the urge to indulge in them. My own (totally subjective) theory is that it's a vicious cycle that has to be halted at some point. Weirdly, I actually think that ignoring the problem in this case--pretending it doesn't exist and actively focusing your attention elsewhere--is part of the solution. This could be part of a therapy regimen--I'm not advising anyone not to seek medical help. But if they're not suggesting something resembling this method, I'd at least try it out.

[@proudboricua6102]

And how he pay for all those plastic surgeries if he is not working

[@katlara9161]

Omg the way he talks is just so calming

[@mrsb8455]

Bless him I deal with anxiety and panic disorder and life a lot of the time feels like hell its so hard and even I can’t see an end in sight hang in there guy :/ seem like a sweet soul

[@TheAskesis1]

Where did he get the money for surgery? Geez,

[@almira.shakur.lawyer]

V Blondin !!!

[@falconpunch2855]

Functioning mental disorders are for the rich.

[@abigailescobar1001]

I don't have any money and i have Ocd. Bad combination

[@tacopizarro]

He was pretty handsome, now he looks like a really bad Wes Anderson. I still feel bad for him tho since he has so much mental problems. Let's hope he'll get better

[@kleinergrashupfer]

Convictive. dont say that. He can read this, and feel really bad....

[@Coolkaylee340]

No. He looks like Steven Tyler

[@kerrisepulveda2064]

Kaylee Ollivant Or Bruce Jenner (a couple years ago, obviously).

[@mattmarkus4868]

Convictive, that's why it's called mental illness you witless dope. Also, your opinion on how he looks is most certainly irrelevant.

[@Shakabrassiere]

Where'd you find pictures of him before surgery?

[@Sleepyfartt]

Poor guy, I pray he gets better. What a sweet soul.

[@rebekahharkins2022]

this is honestly heartbreaking so much respect or how strong he is

[@rebekahharkins2022]

*for

[@TheTacosrocksocks]

this is depressing because I relate.

[@shuvanhaldar8320]

My laziness was too great for my OCD to affect me cuz it would take too much energy to touch something too many times.

[@pineappleflow2876]

Don't take this the wrong way, but if laziness overpowered it, i doubt it was truly a mental disorder.

[@wabbahabba]

He seems like a beautiful person and I hope his life gets better. He isn’t ugly at all. 🙏

[@nursepls4110]

I completely and utterly understand how he's feeling. OCD is horrible but when it's severe, it's excruciating. I hope he heals and finds happiness.

[@emdaowl5865]

Stay strong your beautiful!!!❤️😍❤️😍❤️😍❤️❤️😍😍

[@ladyglittersparkle8614]

DIYDaOwl

[@lunarblueberry1669]

DIYDaOwl you're*

[@bridively6867]

this man is inspiring.

[@hkairsoft3091]

is anyone else super impressed with that throw of the top paper plate at 1:05

[@wingwaabuddha]

It's true you will never truly remove OCD, I've tried many times. You can shake it, but it comes back. As it said in the video, the best way is to keep busy... OCD always is stronger in times of boredom or free time. I've lost years off of my life if you added up all the times I wasted doing the obsessions. I'd like to think it has positives, like many people with OCD have quicker reflexes I find, but its awful in every other sense.

[@lettonster]

only you care about your appearance, no one else does. besides the majority of people think they look weird including me. my only advice is get a motorbike, you'll be completely anonymous in full gear and riding a bike gives a sense of satisfaction nothing else can come close to.

[@Nothingbutdust92]

I can't believe I just happened to stumble across this video when I happen to have all these disorders myself, BDD, OCD and used to have anorexia as well. I failed high school because of these disorders and still struggle to pursue a career because of that... Incredible... I know what he's going through, they all showed up in my early teen years too. But luckily my OCD isn't really related to cleanliness that much...

[@Baoaa123]

I had such bad OCD when I was younger, so glad that I managed to get over it, everyone around me was terrified I would end up like this

[@Chicabubbo]

1:04 look at the plate he throwes away!!

[@iamyourmother250]

Ender Fox IKR!! Like.. he's a PRO at throwing plates! 👑😂