BPD Therapy Vlogs - Week 3 (TW: Emetophobia)

This week we were taught about Distancing. I hope this is helpful to some of you out there! TW: Emetophobia
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[@emmellingwood]

So proud of you for sticking with therapy! I always panic before my sessions too. It’s always so good to know I’m not alone ❤️

[@blackblackheartsss]

I have ocd but not bpd and I found this very helpful/interesting! The things about not being able to control bad/undesirable things happening is something I struggle with daily x

[@itsmelindseyg]

I have ocd it's very hard. I hope you're getting through

[@misssammypie123]

I just got diagnosed with bpd today (although I’ve had a hunch that I may have had it for quite a while now) and I just want to thank you for providing us with this content that is so insightful and helpful for us who don’t have the best services at hand. Lots of love Claudia!!

[@FiesenMoepp]

So proud of you, Claudia!

[@rasheedawilson752]

I am so proud that you went to your session despite being ill. I am proud of you!

[@amiyeyo]

this video just shows how admirable your ability to reflect and persevere is. it's an inspiration. speaking of inspiration, stunning outfit omg

[@jasminomran8690]

thank you so much for sharing this! your bpd therapy series is really helpful for me, aspecially because I can't go to therapy sessions that specialise in bpd right now

[@MGthief26]

Honestly feel proud listening to you talk about the program each week xx Glad you're finding some good lessons in it xx

[@alanat7754]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey and what you've been learning. ♡ I live with IED (definitely enjoy this name over BPD) and i can relate to basically everything youve spoken about in this video. 😂🙃♡ It really helps me feel more understood and also helps me to try and gain a better and more healthy perspective on how i can better live with this disorder. Thanks so much :) ♡

[@rob-silent]

Hi, Claudia. Your vids sometime do inspire me to write down a quote... "The angel with broken wing does no harm, other to theyself. Be calm, be helpfull, be this nearby hand. So the angel sees, acknowledges & ascends to the stars of they dream." (Ethie Loughibonn) bonté

[@enchantedforestprincess7968]

So glad the session went well! 😊❤️

[@orangepulp392]

The best thing I ever realised for myself with the whole hyper self awareness and criticism was I didn't have to think these thoughts and I am literally getting nothing out of them. I don't get any gain or happiness, it makes me more socially awkward than less. Realising that helped me just dismiss the thoughts and think about something else.

[@ninac8253]

wow. i know everyone has already said it but i am so, so proud of you.

[@samanthavettel4793]

Yeah girl, look at you! ❤️❤️ Very proud. You’ve been very helpful to me as well throughout the years. I don’t have BPD, but I do have other things going on, and your videos are helpful in not feeling alone. And your ASMR videos are among the most calming I’ve heard really. I watch the first one you made often when I want to fall asleep.

[@lemcy1256]

This sounds a lot like mindfulness to me... It helped me a lot. Especially the question: "Would you ever treat your best friend/the dearest person in your life the way you treat yourself? Would you allow anyone to talk to them the way YOU talk to YOURSELF? Often we are so cruel to ourselves... But I assumed you knew of mindfulness already. Sorry, I'd told you if I knew you didn't.

[@RhoadesLessTraveled]

So proud and glad you stuck through and went to the session. I feel like I can take a lot away from these videos even just for some of my own issues with anxiety and PTSD. I would LOVE an ASMR with the things you've learned. Please do that if you have the chance. I look forward to these every week! 💙

[@cloroxbleach175]

Why are Lesbians so weird lol

[@liamodonovan3437]

Iam so proud of you four sticking with it your such a strong woman iam glad the therapy sessions are going well for you love you Claudia

[@ginah8995]

I'm finding these videos so helpful, thank you so much x If your worry with food is around food poisoning, perhaps an initial step could be eating vegetarian food when you're alone as it's so much harder to get ill. or if it's a choking worry, soup? Apologies of you've thought of these - I know unsolicited advice isn't always helpful but had the idea and you're obviously free to take it or leave it!

[@charlotterose4290]

I love this video, so helpful informative and interesting

[@achilleus9918]

Claudia, this is potentially a weird question but it occurred to me while watching this that you might have a helpful opinion: when you're in therapy, or reading about coping strategies online, do you ever find the language patronising or alienating? I've found that medical and psychological language always makes me uncomfortable and feel like I'm being talked down to, and the idea of 'challenging my thoughts' just makes me defensive (especially since I know logically that my anxiety is irrational and I don't truly believe any of the things I'm anxious about will happen - it's as if my body is anxious despite my brain, I suppose).

[@aboutagirl5085]

I relate to this, I think it can seem like it comes from an assumptive place- like you're being told someone knows all about you when they don't. Being told you should have challenged your thoughts kind of sounds like it's easy and should have been obvious and can demean and take away from everything you are going through. I was defensive about even acknowledging I was ill for a long time and at one point didn't believe anyone could help me. I learnt to try to accept things people were saying and to try things out even when my preconception of them was that they were 'ridiculous' 'stupid' or 'patronising' meditation and mindfulness is something I dismissed for ages, but I found that after persistence it does actually help me. So its fine to be irritated at what someone suggests to you, or what you read, but maybe come back to it and try it out from a calmer space. I also really hope this wasn't patronising :L genuinely talking from personal experience

[@TheKingMacgregor]

Shout out to Claudia's outfit in this vid. It's gorgeous.

[@butterflypooo]

I can’t hold my breath for that long either XD XD. Why do they expect ppl to hold their breath for that long ??? XD XD. Awesome job girl !!!! :D 🌼👍🏻❤️

[@malin943]

So relatable

[@GothGoneWrong]

I'm finding this series really interesting and helpful and want to thank you for posting your journey

[@yb958]

I had CBT for my emetaphobia and it realllllly helped !

[@aboutagirl5085]

My session was a bit weird because there were people that hadn't turned up previously. So essentially there were new people there that I wasn't used to, and half of the people I was, seemed to be absent. I was also really anxious going but for different reasons- I've just been assigned a support worker, she helps me do things that other people find really easy but I can't cope with. So I had to fill out a load of paperwork with her before I went. Any sort of change to routine or change in people around me intensifies my anxiety. Then I got freaked out that we would be late. She took me there and we got there on time but my anxiety was there for a while throughout the session. This might sound odd but do you ever get this horrible dread that people are going to perceive you as 'being able to cope' and I mean literally anyone- family, doctors, mental health specialists, whoever? Don't know what's going on with my mental health at the moment I'm swinging in and out of huge anxious periods. Sometimes it feels like everything's great, and I'm still getting very angry. I find it really frustrating to have to fill in those questionnaire things that check in on 'how depressed you are' because I honestly don't understand how that's accurate and it's never going to represent me in the next moment. I'm scared that people who add the scores up are going to come to the assumption that I'm somehow great when maybe I am in the moment but the past month could have been horrific to me and it makes me feel like I'm competing to be ill, just so it can get taken seriously, and really that's ridiculous. Why should a questionnaire filled in in two minutes, give some meaningless score that is not at all accurate of the suffering most people who have filled it in have had to go through? Had a period of almost constant dissociation which I think is supposed to be bad, but sometimes I find it helpful because it stops me doing anything irrational, or having to deal with horrible emotions or thoughts. Right now all I know is something is better than it was say, a month ago?...but that doesn't mean I'm okay and don't need support? Does that make sense?

[@aboutagirl5085]

Sorry to add to my massive essay but my one of my best friends said something that resonated with me and I just thought of it. I was having a miniature breakdown in front of him about everything that had been happening to me and he said something along the lines of 'you have an illness but isn't it just the same as viewing the world differently? You are still you, but now you have this label that describes how you experience things better, for yourself and other people. And that doesn't affect who loves you. ' I thought that was a really good way to sum it up- a label is essentially a lens that people can look through to understand you better and realise that this isn't about you, it isn't your identity, this is about an illness, and finding the best way to help you and accommodate you with that illness.

[@osheaeimear83]

The aggressive guilt is making me think I need to see a therapist again.

[@orangepulp392]

How is your degree going? I hope you're doing well!

[@AMOEDEN888]

People just don't want to understand , that's the problem I've experienced. Sadly ASMR triggers me ( traumas ) and I dissociate

[@videoswithparisxx2937]

Secretary ASMR roleplay videos

[@JohnGlover-qg1to]

Secretary roleplay videos ASMR

[@Toyon95]

ASMR!

[@I_am_BiG_Al]

I have cluster b bpd apprently

[@davedogge2280]

Heyup Claudia, I'm going to watch this and tediously yet again request that you and your brother make video comments on the up and coming Game of Thrones episodes.

[@jovankrstic1851]

You are cute :)

[@ALBUMOF2008]

Hey gurl

[@davedogge2280]

I saw you comment on my Be Calm With Becca ASMR video comment a couple of days ago. It's a small world and Becca is the best UK ASMR clothes fashion artist I reckon.

[@SackKickingFatMan]

Do you still have a P.O. box?