Badthings - Ellise (Lyrics)

[@ohdeerheavens]

I suspect I have BPD, although I'm undiagnosed for lack of money, and every line in this song is exactly how I constantly feel. It doesn't cover all of the pain and heartache, but it covers most of it. I don't feel hate towards others (or at least, I rarely do), but I do feel hate most specifically to myself. Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm in love with or addicted to my boyfriend either. My existence feels like a tender bruise, like as said in the song, "been on thin ice my whole life". Although I'm an emotional masochist, and I don't want to hurt others. I do imagine myself getting hurt one way or another a lot, or being hated by my boyfriend, and that's what comforts me and makes me happy. Those are the bad things that make ME happy. I'm saying this because there's someone here who criticizes this song. "Why hate, why want pain?" I don't think it's a choice. At least with me, it isn't.

[@cielthefangirl2876]

He glad u HAVE a bf lol 😅

[@willowwilliams498]

@@cielthefangirl2876 dude read the room

[@hibafatima8795]

I can feel ya, hating yourself and always trying not to hurt others but still somehow messing things up and ending up getting hurt.....overthinking and going through this cycle again and again just to end up at point zero again.....pretty fucked up But we gotta live anyway cuz there's no other option

[@Raq_eyes]

Very beautiful! ❤️🤍💙🖤

[@aliceortiara7639]

Nice song

[@arethanayanika6474]

Salt inside the cut, keep it up Rub it in and kiss me Is it love? Am I bound to you or just addicted? Been on thin ice my whole life Don't make a difference Is it wrong that I still believe you're not the villain? And I wasn't gonna say it But it's getting too loud Looking at me crazy But I'm happy now Flames burn In my imagination Hate, hurt That's where I feel the safest Play, destroy, the badthings bring me joy Play, destroy, the badthings bring me joy Arms around my back Didn't ask for the right direction I attract what the Devil sees and shys away from Leave me be I don't want your help, I don't want your touch I'm not getting freed, no I'm completе, need the chaos I don't need protection And I wasn't gonna say it But it's getting too loud Looking at mе crazy But I'm happy now Flames burn In my imagination Hate, hurt That's where I feel the safest Play, destroy, the badthings bring me joy Play, destroy, the badthings bring me joy On this stainless steel table With the fingers poking at me They surround me, I'm the infant in the cradle Suffocate me, baby break me I can take it, can I take it? (*Laugh*) Flames burn In my imagination Hate, hurt That's where I feel the safest Play, destroy, the badthings bring me joy Play, destroy, the badthings bring me joy

[@lovelyfriendoffline1523]

Don't destroy, only create, rebuild, fix, and make it always better than ever was 💞

[@___a___l___e____X____01]

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[@tmiller6013]

This sounds like Makenzie's theme song

[@rachellenance4913]

I will never like hate. It is one big thing that is wrong with our world! Much worse than war, drugs and ppl that make mistakes. It can consume one and destroy them and the world. Spread the love not hate. And of bad things bring u joy, what bad things??? BC what's bad to one could be medicine to another.

[@rachellenance4913]

Don't mistake that I do not feel hate though, BC I do for the man that raped me. He is pure evil and did it for a power trip. I'm not God but I do not see how one that takes another's "freewill" should be forgiven. Especially after hearing he's raped 5 others after me. And I feel partly responsible for them gets their spirits torn up and it can leave u feeling like part of ur soul was stolen! But I have to much love that the hatred I feel for that nasty dirtbag ( that's my polite way of saying it) to let him take all the goodness of me. And actually changed me a lot but most of it for the better I'm a lot more empathetic and I see that there can be different points of view now always knew that you know could be different points of you but not like the way I feel now.

[@tmiller6013]

@@rachellenance4913 and how do you feel now?

[@rachellenance4913]

The same

[@tmiller6013]

@@rachellenance4913 how long has it been?

[@tmiller6013]

@@rachellenance4913 actually nevermind disregard that question

[@marialeon793]

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