Chasing Goals While Losing Oneself: Getting My Life Together VlogㅣEp 1

[@briangreer8463]

We all need to love, respct, & heal our inner child.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Yes!

[@albraun-sq6rg]

Stunning! Don’t ever stop exploring your talents! We get to grow with you at every stage. Thank you Shay!

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you so much Al! Hi to your wife!

[@IanCrouse]

WOW Shay. As someone with severe depression, I have never seen my thoughts put into film before. AMAZING job. I will certainly share this video with my therapist. THANK YOU. Oh, I love you and all that you do, too. With all due respect to your relationship, of course.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you so much for sharing Ian! We respect you too!

[@Randy30165]

What a moving masterpiece!

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you for that Randy! I so appreciate it!

[@jamesvermeulen4695]

What a beautiful video, Shea. It was a wonderful depiction of what we have all felt at some time in our lives. Stay safe and be well.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you for appreciating this video James! 😌

[@StevenThomas-mz8lb]

Organizing your life and maintaining your purpose is a constant process, that continues while you age on. We all go through the same life changes, some handle it better than others.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Very true Steven!

[@Biarritz60]

❤❤❤

[@frank5436]

Wow Shay! You have poignantly created a powerfully emblematic message beautifully revealing the importance of staying in touch with our inner child and reminding ourselves that everything's going to be okay, to stay playful and remember to love ourselves. Thanks for this exceptionally cinematic reminder.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

You are so welcome Frank! 😌

[@Mark-pw1yw]

Conceptual by design, non generational by importance, an absolute message for everyone 👌

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you Mark!

[@jspice-kl2wc]

You have reached another level, not sure what level it is but you there, love the tick with the phone brilliant. Thank you.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

You're always our great fan Joe!

[@rorybellamy2533]

nice Shay , like a Silent movie , a poetic short film. very appealing and peaceful. like a thought on a page of a book in lifetime

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you for that Rory!

[@batsignalcomics6433]

It's just amazing, Shay . The thoughts of remembering to be a kid every once in a while made me wonder when was the last time I had fun. Thank you for sharing such wonderful advice.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

You're welcome Steve! 😌

[@ervinalexander1734]

Ms Shay this video is a blessing for many people ❤😊

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you for saying that Ervin!

[@francoisl8260]

Very interesting montage Shay! So peaceful at the same time. Thank You!

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you Francois! 😌

[@lanec5672]

Whatever it is, it's not hurting your creativity any.. well done, beautiful one.. ☺

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you Lane for appreciating my creativity. 😌

[@reneschou2687]

This one is on another level… makes me cry every time I see it!! Magnificent!!!

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you so much for that Rene! 😌

[@davidkarl5192]

very creative video Shay. you have a lions heart.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you so much David!

[@Michael_Lane_Fishing]

A nice vid Shay. You got your Morena going too.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you Michael :-)

[@NineToes19]

Hi Shay. It’s Phillip again. I watched this video again. Videos like this of your younger self talking to you and the way you do this type of video really have a way of pulling emotion out of me. I’ve messaged you earlier when I watched this video. First, these videos you do and put together are very well done. Shay, they’re done so well, it pulls uncomfortable but necessary past memories and feelings from MY past. The problem is, I think about them daily. Shay, we’ve all had things that hurt us and stick with. We lose loved ones. We took a chance and messed it up, or didn’t take that chance we should have. We’ve all handle a thing or two wrong in our past. Shay, may I tell you some things about me, even if it’s in a public message. Shay, I’m 60. I live my life day by day. Not controlling or giving any thought to my actions, character or decisions. Shay, I never knew I was getting old, even in my 40’s. I’m 60 now (July 11) and it’s hit me. Hard. I’ve spent the last 7-8 years going to doctor to help with my blood sugar symptoms, but when I feel bad and have blood sugar symptoms, I measure my blood sugar and my numbers are good. No doctors can figure it out. I was in a major car accident in 1982 at the age of 18 years and 78 days. I’ve had issues with my brain. Psychiatric problems. No one can figure those out either. 36 years later and I think I finally found meds that work. 5-6 weeks ago I had to go to the emergency room for surgery because I had a 9mm kidney stone I couldn’t pass. This make 10 kidneys stone in my life. I won’t go through the specifics, but I’m in pain and things are not good. Since the car accident 1982 in which I suffered a very serious concussion, when my head should have been crushed, killing me, I’ve had back and neck problems. But, 13 months ago I had another very, very bad problem with my back that prevented me from going to work. I’ve seen more doctors about my back issue over the last 36 years, I can’t recall the number. But, in this last 13 months, I’ve seeing my 9th back doctor. In the meantime, since none of the previous 8 doctors could find anything, my employer had to let me go. And don’t have a job because my back is still messed up, my head is better but not right, and now a kidney stone, all together prevent me doing anything more than sit in my recliner. Wasting away. I have lost a job that I was very good at. On any given day, I had between 7000-8000 customers. But now, I’m just wasting away because I can’t move much or for very long. Even though I’m 60, I’m too young to have all these medical issues that can’t be figured out by doctor’s and specialists Your videos like this one, bring out the intelligent I should have had 30 years ago. Shay, the thoughts and emotions I feel when watching videos like these are emotions, feelings and thoughts that I usually notice, but they are more like real lite clouds, fog or mist but it’s not affecting my emotions or memory. Shay, I’m guessing you know, having those responses by someone who’s in and put together a video like this, is a very good ability by you and your efforts. You bring out very difficult and uncomfortable thoughts I’ve pushed far down or pushed far away. I made some very serious mistakes but was blessed by God when I lived instead of dying a quick but brutal death. I have not liked American society for about 35 years now, and it’s getting much, much worse. 1st world countries have 1st world problems. I really want to move to the Philippines because, so many people say good things about the people there, and for me, the people make or break a country. The people here in America are about to break this country and the Filipinos are making that country. Shay I know something happened to you a long time ago that must have been worse than my past, but with my physical and mental issues and having the emotions a thought about my past is really hard for me. Shay, Filipinos don’t need to be like the west. I know a lot of Filipina THINK they want to be like America or the west, but that effort needs to be thought about more carefully. I’ve seen the bad of the Philippines and Filipinos. Has the Philippines seen the bad and f America and the west and the so called ‘normal’ people here. Have they seen the poor parts of our country and how mad, violent and want to steal? While the poor in the Philippines smile, survive by very good resourcefulness, instead of stealing and killing? There was a time, not too long ago, where some poor, bitter, angry, defeated and frustrating people would kill other for a pair of sneaker (American tennis shoe). The Philippines should strive to be the best culture and people possible. The younger people of the Philippines starting to act like too many Americans. It’s not good. The Philippines need to really advertise to tourists more than to expats. Then, take that money to improve healthcare and get more of the jobless poor jobs. Grow to be the best country the Philippines can be. Not America. You’re a very good videographer. You’ll get better. But Shay, don’t leave the Philippines. You have the intelligence, ideas and talent to help make the Philippines more famous. Thank you for your videos, and for having the rare ability to pull deeply buried emotions and thoughts. You’re strong, intelligent, attractive ( inside and out), and quite talented. Keep pushing. Take a big step towards the success you dream of. Take chances. Get in touch with someone who will look at some of your videos. Include one or two of the videos where the younger you calls the current you. Don’t be like me and so many others and regret you didn’t take that chance, that keep of faith. I hope, for Filipinos sake, the Philippines does NOT wind up like America, Canada and the UK. Apologies for the long message. These are the thoughts and emotions videos like this one brings to the surface from a deep, dark place. You have what it takes Shay. Take a leap of faith and that next big step in your videography dream. You’re blessed with this talent to stat in the Philippines and be a world wide name. Have a blessed day. Smile, laugh and cry. That’s a full day. That’s one hell of a day. Take care, stay safe and keep pushing forward. A big fan of your work and mind, Phillip. 🙏💪✌️

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you Phillip! I am happy with every step.

[@lorandmagyar]

Why I hang out with kids so much. They are much more fun. In fact I recently bought a minivan for more seats to stuff the kids in👍

[@reflections_with_Shay]

That's special!

[@miketrahan777]

Very heartwarming inspirational video Shay. Your creativity keeps flowing so good. 😊❤👍 🙏

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thanks Mike!

[@miketrahan777]

@@reflections_with_Shay Your welcome 😊 Shay. ❤️ 🌟

[@icemaster54isaac86]

Hi Shay! I hope you are doing well and staying safe!

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you Isaac!

[@expatguideph]

wow pang movie kayu ni Shay, amazing, keep it up :)

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you so much, Leah. You're doing a fantastic job with yours too.

[@NineToes19]

Hi Shay. Phillip again. I posted a long comment, and in it was me telling you how I saw your character as a woman and how I’d like to meet a Filipina who had many of your character traits. I was not coming on to you. You have a boyfriend. I’m not interested in breaking up relationships. I was giving you a sincere compliment. No strings attached. I don’t know if it is natural for you to be that way or not. But, it seems to come across as natural. Shay, I hope you understand that you are an excellent example of what a Lady (not a woman or a girl) should be. Not just in The Philippines, but all over the world. As you may remember, I live in America. There are so few Lady’s here, it is like Lady’s here are harder to see, observe, find than a needle in a rice field. So Shay, whether you know it or not, that is a huge compliment, and you’ve done it all on your own. You’ve been through a lot, you’ve kept a level head. Your mind is right. You are a strong woman among the strong minded and determined people of The Philippines, given everything Filipinos go through. Am I going to meet a Filipina with the exact same character traits as you? I don’t know. But, going through your journey with you, as much as you allow us, has shown me that there are still real Lady’s in this world, and that gives me hope. I guess to fully understand what I mean by the hope you have given me, and other men, that there are still true Lady’s in this world, you would have to spend a few years in America. Not being a Lady is now a cultural thing here in America. Look at all the men from America that go to The Philippines. It’s not just for the beautiful women there, the lack of concern about the age gap, and it’s not only because, at a certain age, men here feel invisible. Many of those men have been married. To true Lady’s that stopped being Lady’s at all. It takes time, energy, effort and discipline to be a true Lady, and it cannot be easy, yet you, and many other Filipinas, are true Lady’s. I know it’s not easy and sometimes takes a lot of work on the Lady’s part. Many compliment you on your videos, which are fantastic. I’m not sure how many compliment and give you recognition as to how much of a true Lady you are, and how hard it must be from time to time to be a true Lady. Because of your hard work mentally, physically and psychologically, you have given men all over the world real hope that true Lady’s do still exist in this crazy world. Be proud of yourself. It’s not an easy thing to do, but you do. Good job, Shay. Remember, I believe men and women can learn from each other. I, and many other men, have learned from you there are still true Lady’s in this world and, speaking for myself, because of you, I have learned exactly the type of Lady I hope to find someday. The bar is set high now. But, if I find a true Lady, I will do my best to appreciate that about her so she can continue to be a true Lady. But, if I don’t find her, that is ok with me because, I have always wanted a true Lady, but haven’t found her, which is why I have never married or had kids, and I’m 60 years old. At this point in time of my life, I will not settle for anything less than a true Lady. I would rather die in peace, than die with all the drama created by women or girls. So Shay, thank you for giving me the hope that true Lady’s do still exist in the crazy chaotic world we live in. Take care. Stay safe, strong and take pride in the fact you are a true Lady. A diamond in the rough. Phillip.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you Phillip. Be well.

[@ianshields-ml6sl]

love you shay i really want one of those mobile phones were did you get it hehe xx🤔🤔🤔😘😘🌹🌹🌹

[@reflections_with_Shay]

It's my landline. We're still in ancient times 🤣

[@ianshields-ml6sl]

@@reflections_with_Shay 🤔🤔🤔🌹

[@DwayneC-o4d]

Dwayne C Hi Shay very interesting video. As I always joke with you no one knows what's going on in a woman's mind 😂. That being said here is my thought. No matter what happens in life. Good, bad it takes time to adjust. But in the end we all comeback to the person who God made us to be. It might take time but if God created you with a good heart like yours Shay that person will always be there inside of you. Ready to jump back out into life and say I'M BACK 😂❤ Take care

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you Dwayne!

[@NineToes19]

Hi Shay. Phillip again. I have things I’m dealing with right now and I wanted to watch this, thinking maybe I could learn something, but it was only 5-6 minutes long, but I watched anyway. I watched your latest live stream where you changed your background once and the discussion was about legalizing divorce there. I recall you saying that, sometimes you make a video from something that pops into your head, even a memory, among other things. This was one of those wasn’t it? It seems to me you were thinking about all the things you’ve done to get your life back since something bad happened to you a while back. Maybe you thought about your dreams when you were young. And doing what you’re doing is one of those dreams. You don’t tell anybody about what you’re going through, especially the bad things. How the hell do you do that and still make the right choices? Shay, you’re getting so much better at making these videos. The things that come to your mind, then turn them into videos is amazing. What an easy, convenient and efficient place to get ideas for your videos from! Well Shay. Whatever you went through or whatever you’re going through, keep thanking God for another sunrise and sunset, regardless if the time between was good or bad. Easy or hard. Regardless of whether you’re happy or sad. You’re progressing nicely. Don’t forget that. You’re about ready to take the next step of your dream. I think this would be a good one to send to somebody who might be able to help you achieve your goal. I’m going to say something, but I want you to know something about me. It will make sense. Again, we are 11-13 hours apart. You see tomorrow before I do. You have a boyfriend. I’m not coming there anytime soon plus, I grew out of having a.crush on somebody a long time ago. Rest assured, I’m not one of THOSE guys! This will make sense. I promise. Shay, I find you to be a relatively low key kind of person. Yes, you are a strong person. You seem calm, relaxed and contented. You are a smart, intelligent and elegant lady. And, as you already know, you’re an attractive woman. I say that to say this, I would love to meet a Filipina who has many of the same characteristics you have, except maybe telling me what bad things she is going through. Even if she just wants me to listen without offering to help. Make sense now? LOL! 😂 Now, back to this video. I was in a major car wreck and nearly died from multiple hard hits to the head. I can’t remember much of my first 18 years of my life, but what I do remember, is all bad. It’s hard Shay. I don’t have mountains to go to where I can just exist without the noise of life. It’s good you take advantage of your access to the peace and quiet of mountains. You’re getting so good at these videos. And your ideas for a lot of your videos are amazing. I imagine some videos like this one are helpful to you too. You’re doing great with your videos and in life, Shay. Don’t forget to thank God for every sunset and sunrise you get to see. Even if you don’t actually see a sunset or a sunrise, God got you through the day and onto the next day. You’re doing an outstanding job in life from where you came from. Keep fighting. Keep climbing that mountain. You’ll make it to the top. And when you do, celebrate that time with yourself and God first, then with your kids, then with the ones closest to you. Then, you can take a deep breath and call your younger self, and tell her………you made it. Apologies for how long this was. I felt lead to tell you that. I hope it was more encouragement on top of what you get from others here. Take care and stay safe. Until next time, Phillip

[@DonaldWilliams-g2o]

Evening Shay watching this video reminded me of a very dear friend of my and I will share with you what I once told her maybe it makes sense to you anyway here it is: The most amazingly beautiful thing GOD has ever created is a self aware strong intelligent independent woman. There is no star that shines brighter or wine that taste sweeter. A woman that understands her worth is more valuable than the rarest and most precious of gems. A woman becomes more exquisite with time and absolutely perfect within her imperfections. A gift more refreshing than the water of a mountain spring and more comforting than a grandmother's hand. A woman who is willing to open herself to show her vulnerability is God's single greatest creation; Never forget that you are that woman!. Recognizing the woman in the mirror is not merely a Queen but a warrior who has endured pain, frustration, and lost, and has made countless sacrifices to ensure the safety of her loved ones day in and day out, you MUST give yourself permission to love yourself and put yourself first, it's not you being selfish it's you ensuring that you will continue to have the strength to fight for what is most precious to you.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you!

[@DonaldWilliams-g2o]

Ms. Shay I have been watching and enjoying your videos for some time now, and you're truly appreciated the thought and care that you've put into selecting your content resonates with your followers thank you.

[@gotaplay]

This is getting serious Shay ..😢

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you Paul! 😌

[@larryc9617]

too many distractions shay, your a lovely woman but when you want that time alone head to the country, no phone, no music just find yourself a big tree to sit under, over here is usually a big old oak tree or a chestnut tree, just close your eyes, shut off the monkey chatter that goes on in there head and just be, let your soul free to observe, you will be surprised what you can see without looking for answers. Have a fantastic week my friend 🙂

[@reflections_with_Shay]

I always go to the mountains Larry!

[@larryc9617]

@@reflections_with_Shay more like big hills here hahaha, next time I go fishing or into the country i'll get a photo to show you, first thing in the morning looks like heaven, looks like clouds below you but is just morning mist 🙂

[@Jerry92128]

Wish I was there to comfort you.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

I'm good Jerry! These are my creative moments 😌

[@Jerry92128]

Ok. I was just concerned. Thanks for letting me know you are ok.

[@MK-gr9qz]

Its a little bit sad,,, you need less you you you, and more we we or us... but i love your content as a artist...

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you so much for appreciating our art!

[@dannydenton1731]

If...and I say if... If told you have i terminal cancer..would you be still interested. I live very close to you and I'm still full of life.

[@reflections_with_Shay]

I will be there for my partner in art and life just as I know he would be there for me. I believe that most Filipinas would say this.

[@secretsq100]

Omg can you please tell these bleeding hearts it’s just a skit! On a more lighter note do your real name start with S and end with A? Just curious

[@reflections_with_Shay]

Thank you! This video came out of a creative moment. And no. :-)

[@secretsq100]

@@reflections_with_Shay I really didn’t think you would respond. I just thought with you being Mr Ron’s ? And being so desired by everyone there’s no way you could ever be dismayed. Btw True artist don’t have “creative moments” they are creators by nature 24/7. I see with my minds heart not with my eyes and ears. I truly do understand your need to have limits on exposure though. The real Shay?🥀