Child loss : how to survive the first six months

[@cuddlesanddaisy]

My heart goes out to all who have lost a child. I lost my Amy in 2016. She was 27. Words cannot describe.

[@jamesalchorn341]

I lost my son Jessy on January 17th he just turned 34 , I thank God that I am 62 years old so that I don’t have to suffer this for a lifetime. This pain of losing my son is unbearable and I don’t know how to cope with this hell. The only relief is sleep but then I have to wake up again and the nightmares continues and it start all over again. Thank you for making this video it means so very much to me.

[@kellymetz2535]

I'm sorry for your loss James. I, too, lost my 34 year old son. He passed March 21st, 2024. I'm also 62. Frank was our only child. It is truly unbearable.

[@marciahill7016]

I lost my son Rex on my75th birthday 2 days ago. He had a terrible painful life Everyday was a struggle . He had multiple physical problems plus addictions. Poor wandering soul. Im only grateful he died in hospital in a clean bed. It could have been in his home which he had destroyed n was not nice to be in. He's been spared the endless cycle of very poor health, losing all his friends and the fear of me dying before him and him going into complete meltdown. 2 days before he passed he said no matter how bad I've treated you (his mental health made him into a Jekyl n Hyde person) remember I LOVE YOU. I've got to hang on to that. I made the solitary bus ride to the mortuary yesterday to see him. He was trussed up in a sheat n icy cold covered in a Gothic horror of a Purple pall. I took the sheet down n kissed him and stroked his beard n hair. Some kind angel had trimmed his beard. Hair n beard were baby soft. Some anonymous angel had cared. Then the lonely journey home on the bus. It was my 75th birthday the day he passed 2 days ago on thev28th. I won't forget his anniversary. I bet he is laughing at that as I'm old n a bit forgetful! Now all the arrangements. My other son n the rest of the family are leaving me to it. So very alone n broken. At least I'm now 75 n haven't got too many years of missing him. Yes I shall live n am throwing myself into my painting but.. no mum or dad should have to go through this ultimate pain. bless you all on here. My 47 year old child knew he only had a lifetime of addiction n pain ahead of him n I know he didn't want to live. He only hung on for me. Hes out of his pain n I am picking up the burden of grief n carrying it for him. I'm hoping he is at peace in a kinder more loving place. God bless you all here.xxx

[@marciahill7016]

My 47 year old rex passed 2 days ago on my 75th birthday after a very difficult life of diabetes, v slight facial deformity plus lots of other health issues brought on by mental illness n neglect of his diabetes. He also got caught up in drink n drugs that turned my kind caring n deeply spiritual son into a Jekyl n Hyde person. He wanted to die n let all the neglect cause a series of strokes. I've just listened to some of his voicemsils n am destroyed. He was saying mum please help me etc. It's very early days but all I can console myself with at 75 it shouldn't, hopefully be too long to wait before I follow him. I, and Rex are Spiritualist by nature n believe we are on this earth to learn and then we leave when we are called. This gives me a minute hope but, I justvwant him back. I do hope you are feeling a bit better. I found that video a help Xxx

[@jamesalchorn341]

@@kellymetz2535hope you’re finding some peace my friend my heart is with you

[@jamesalchorn341]

@@marciahill7016hang in there it is so hard to live with my friend

[@veeherreraJanecka]

I lost my 44 year old son just 12 days ago. Can’t sleep. Cry daily and also want to die too. I can’t fathom that I lost my child. All of his dreams are gone too. So much to mourn. One thing that helps me is that I know he s still part of our family and we still love him. Thank you for this video. I feel the physical symptoms too. I also can’t taste my food , the world is colorless to me now. My baby ! Forever44

[@itravisoni]

May Jesus richly bless You.

[@tomjones8608]

I just lost my boy yesterday. 39 years young. I'm following you down that path

[@veeherreraJanecka]

@@tomjones8608I’m so sorry. Sending strength and prayers. 💙♾🕊🕯🙏🏽✝️💫

[@sueparker4391]

I lost my son Bobby six months ago. He took his own life. The pain is awful. In some ways it’s hard because when you lose a child through illness or sad you know the person would want to be with you if they could be but with suicide your loved one chose death. I miss him. One of the hardest things was sending his passport back knowing he’d never have any of the adventures he so loved again

[@saghisadighi4776]

I lost my only child a month ago in a car accident ! He was 26! Thanks for sharing your story. So I know I am not the only one feeling this way! Peace

[@Go2God]

Oh. I'm so sorry for your loss. Same here a few months ago. 26 years old. My sweet son. My gift from Heaven. Gone. Car accident. I'm so sorry. Hold to God. HE will help you.

[@WeMissIan]

Thank you for making this video. My son died too. I'm forever broken. I must say that I died with my son. It took me almost 3 years to start living again. That's when I was able to start to work, and it is when I was able to join a FB group. I felt so alone, lost at sea, at night during a hurricane, without anything to keep me afloat. Now I still feel lost at sea, but I have a sturdy boat, navigation and am able to survive. But I will spend the rest of my life at sea.

[@nikkih2468]

Amazing analogy. I’m so sorry for your loss x

[@WeMissIan]

@@nikkih2468 thank you💔❤

[@Readzboox]

That was so beautifully written and is a great visualization to understand how your feeling

[@jennebeattie3168]

Also out at sea. No sturdy boat yet though 😭🌊

[@angelapage4927]

Feel exactly the same x Can resonate every word you say ❤️

[@daisy13joyce]

It is my dear son's funeral on Monday the 18th ......... He was 43 when he died in his sleep. Post mortem was inconclusive, so we do not know so far why he was taken. He was my youngest, and really closest son. I was only chatting to him on the phone for over an hour the day before, and he was just being David, happy chatty............................ My world has been turned upside down, I have lost my baby, my son, my friend,

[@childsweethearts]

I'm so sorry for your pain and loss. Thank you for sharing your story. I'm losing my daughter to advanced cancer, kidney failure, and other illnesses. I try to be in denial, but news all over the media about Catherine, Princess of Wales recently is making denial very difficult. I don't know how to cope and turning for answers on KZbin is how I found your video. I've never been a drinker, but 8 years ago, I bought a bottle of vodka in case I went through another traumatic experience. It remained unopened until today. I don't know how else to numb the pain. Perhaps I'll become an alcoholic or die from heartbreak.

[@marciahill7016]

@childsweethearts dear fellow mum. You won't become an Alcoholic you will put your hard hat on and follow me and all the other mums (and dads) on here and absorb our strength when yours fails you for a bit. The pain in my case comes over in waves. In between times you can actually enjoy things. Everyone will go to spirit at the time alloted when their work is done. Not a minute before or after. Your beloved has her life's mission n only she can do it. She's earning her wings. All you can do is be there for her and give till it hurts. We are with you all the way. Be assured someone, somewhere is thinking of you every step of the way. Xxxxxc

[@christinaeilers3562]

Please don't consider using alcohol to numb your pain. That's how I lost my son, seek help. Hugs!

[@jomama5186]

Your son was who he was because of you. Remember that. You did an amazing job and please be proud. So ery sorry for your huge loss. ❤ 🙏

[@corazonliva6117]

I am a single mom, i lost my only son too 3 weeks ago he is just 10yrs old due to seizure the hospital cant controlled it until his vitals drop, my whole world is shattered in to pieces, its me and him we love each other so much, ever since that happened every morning when i wake up, i always experience this unexplainable feeling of emptiness, the feeling of you are not a mother anymore brings too much pain, in every part of my body, especially my chest..

[@TamaraKozak-c3i]

You are a mother, Your son needs your prayer, you visiting his grave...and your love. Mother-child connection is immortal,

[@marciahill7016]

@corazonliva6117 of course you are a mother. Nothing can take the bond of mum n child. He's passed to spirit, and when u pass the love will draw both of you together again.

[@maihoang8567]

I lost my only daughter on Christmas day , we loved each other so much , its crushing me . 30 forever

[@kimmoore1738]

I am so very sorry.

[@MMOKC-z4x]

We lost our 15 year old son on 03/10/2023. Thank you for this video. You articulated everything we have been going through. I can’t believe we are in this nightmare. I just miss my baby boy so much.

[@mariaisabelssss]

Exactly what I'm feeling right now. Lost my 13-year old 4/12/2024.

[@brendaweiser2028]

Thank you so much. I lost my daughter just after her 18th birthday. She had struggled with drug addiction since 16-17yrs we thought we would always would get her thru. But despite 3 rehabs, meds, counseling, she didn't make it. The pain of losing our only child, never having a wedding for her, never having grandchildren has been overwhelmingly painful. I didn't want to live without her. It is hard to imagine ever being able to smile or laugh again. But somehow I did many of the same things, support groups of parents who have suffered loss, friends, books, even a medium. It is possible to come out the other side. ❤

[@maihoang8567]

You are not alone. I lost my only daughter on Christmas day to addiction and a lot of me went with her , the pain is crushing.

[@mylifeisbeautiful5242]

I lost my dearest son one year and 29 days ago, and my pain has not subsided. The guilt and pain of loss are so deep and painful that it is difficult to put into words. No one will ever understand our pain. And God forbid anyone should experience it. The suicide of your own child is the worst thing that can happen to parents. It completely turned my life upside down, I lost the meaning of life and motivation for life. I often hear that I have another child - my daughter for whom I must live. Yes, it is true. But how can one child replace another?! After all, all your children are equally dear to you. Your heart feels like it's been torn apart, and it bleeds endlessly. Rest in peace, all the sons and the daughters, forever gone from the life of their parents. Lord, grant them the Kingdom of Heaven! Lord, give us, parents who have survived their children, the strength to endure this loss and continue to live for the sake of their memory, and for the life of our living children and loved ones. Rest in peace my dear son. I will always love you! You will be missed forever.

[@floraramos6422]

@mylifeisbeautiful5242 I lost my 37 year old daughter January 29, 2024 due to her taking her own life too. It has been a nightmare for me. The pain is unbearable and I have to work tomorrow as financially, I have too, otherwise I would just prefer to stay home and do nothing but sleep and eat....

[@mariewright3839]

So sorry for your loss. I too lost my son to suicide at the age of 29 this December 19th 2023. I totally understand your feelings. I am not the person I was. That person died along with my son. I am moving forward in my life carrying a giant hole/void with me. His loss is beyond bearable. I pray daily to God to let my life be of service and good to someone or something. I pray this prayer for you as well. The Lord bless you... Numbers 6:24-26

[@tommybutler2454]

You dont have anything to apologize for. Im here, using my husbands tablet, because we lost our daughter last week. It is a hell of a club. :( ❤ 🙏

[@jomama5186]

This is going to help us a lot. Thank you so much. We have to go get her baby too. Just over a year old. This is so hard. So very hard. The waves are really hard, but we let them happen. We loved her so very much. She was a beautiful person and her soul was just as beautiful and this wasn't what we were planning and not what was supposed to happen. Thank you from the bottom of my soul. She was precious.

[@ouridabatouche475]

I lost my son, my friend my spiritual friend a month ago. It is as you described. I don't know how to to survive every minute. I feel like dying with every breath. I miss his jokes his touch and still nobody knows how hard it is to survive. I have a daughter, a beautif child for whom I have to fight and survive. Thank you for sharing and putting this thing in meaningful words. God be with you and all fellow parents who are going through the loss of a child. Lord! have mercy on us!

[@domsigno41]

I lost my daughter Charlotte to cancer this year. She was 8 years and 9 months old and bravely fought for 2 years. There is no words for how broken and lost I am.

[@Fufux0rs]

So sorry for you loss.

[@kimmoore1738]

@@domsigno41 My heart breaks for all of us. I am so very sorry about your little girl. I lost my only, my 34 yr old son to suicide 2 months ago. He was suffering terribly and I couldn't get the right help for him.

[@janetbeyke7510]

I am so sorry. I also lost my Charlotte, she was 18 and away at university. She passed off a heart condition that she lived with since age 3. We both know what it's like to love and lose a beautiful Charlotte. It is so painful and I wish you peace.

[@PearsHoney]

Thank you for speaking up. This is helping. Hasn't been 4 weeks for me yet. He was 15.

[@purplegloveasmr9420]

I am so sorry for everyone in this comment section whose ever lost a child. I can't imagine the pain and the void in your hearts. I pray that one day you will fell peace.

[@farahsharif5162]

My five year old daughter died 4 weeks ago , so suddenly . This video has helped me alo ❤❤❤

[@amirahcle1680]

Your experiences hit home for me. You made so many references that I totally identify with. My daughter died on March 1, 2023, so as I write this, her passing hasn't even been 3 months. It was comforting hearing you share what it's been like for you. Thank you 💔🙏🏿

[@1sweetea]

How are you almost a year later. Genuinely asking as I have lost my daughter 3 weeks ago💔😔

[@kathybradbury]

I just lost my daughter and two granddaughters. I mostly cannot think about it at all. Without Christ I really couldn’t bear it…as it is, He is bearing me.

[@firstlast6292]

Wow, I am so so sorry, how completely terrible for you and your family.

[@Globelle]

I am so incredibly sorry for your profound loss. I am so glad your leaning on Jesus. I am praying for you and your family

[@kathybradbury]

@@Globelle thank you ❣️

[@jenb9274]

I lost my son Trevor 3 weeks ago. He was 29. Tomorrow is Mother’s Day, I can’t imagine ever celebrating anything again. Thank you for this video and I send my love to you and all of us who are enduring this horrific experience of losing a child.

[@liveacousticsound]

I feel the same way, holidays are impossible now, and I am in no mood to pretend I am okay.

[@pudik2008]

My heart breaks for you! You won’t feel like celebrating without your beloved son. I know I didn’t,I asked ppl not to wish me a happy anything,how can your heart survive that much pain. Do what you have to do to take care of yourself. Your whole world has turned upside down. Sending you hugs and healing! 💔💔💔🫂🫂🫂

[@NoMoreTears64]

Thanksgiving is in 2 weeks and then Christmas. I cannot imagine celebrating anything. My son died of cardiac arrest day before yesterday. He was 29.

[@liveacousticsound]

As it turns out, against my inner desire, we are hosting TG this year. My wife still wants to do these things. I do it for her, not because I want to.

[@suetaylor5758]

@@NoMoreTears64. I lost my son 9 weeks ago. Im looking for a group of people but haven’t found one locally.

[@gingerbee6719]

I lost my Beloved son Erek December 2019. It is the most Horrific unfathomable thing i have ever experienced.... My mind body & spirit is lost without my Beautiful son. As someone mentioned, its the WORST CLUB IN THE WORLD TO BE IN. A very Cruel thing, that our children were robbed of their chance at Life....I love & miss you so very much Erek, Infinity, momma... 😭😭💔💔💔

[@drishtitopposhorts6025]

I lost my only daughter ( in the photo) 12 year 9 month old on 24th May 2023. I can't imagine myself without her. I don't know how to live without her. She was very much devotional and had trust in Jesus Christ. She prays to God and reads The Holy Bible every morning and night .

[@nnn7847]

Thanks for the courage to put this video together , I lost my 25-year-old son on 11 Oct 2022. We are struggling. We trust God as HE showers us with grace every morning. Every emotion you describe, I'm in there. I just can't handle people who are checking on me , though I find when in the office because it's busy, no focus on me . The downside of that was that I had a breakdown triggered by work pressure . Praying for all families to be healed 🙏

[@jclilstar1973]

Amen. I my 33 yr old son passed in nov 2022. Its been hard but its only by the grace of God that I am blessed to have people in my life that allow for me to grieve and cry. Its been so unreal to know that hes not here. I thank God for all hes helping me through this .

[@yogalivingwithkaren2119]

Yes, keep close to your faith. I lost my son on September 24th 2022. His name was Conner and he died in a car accident and was 21. What really helps is waking up, lighting a candle for our sons, and pray because God is close to the broken hearted. Our wonderful boys would want us to be happy, they would want us to do great things to honor them.. God Bless

[@sunsetangel1445]

Hi Nikki, thank you so much for making this video. I lost my daughter a year ago, she was 24 years old. The pain is so indescribable still. It is tormented, horrific, and without words. I never thought I would have to live with a constant broken heart. Once again, thank you so much I may God continue to give us brokenhearted parents, lots of strength, because we really need it.

[@jennebeattie3168]

The physical pain caught me SO OFF GUARD!!! Nearly a year and a half now and my body is ravaged. The pain. The adrenaline rushes. The fear. The anguish. Like you said, there are no words.

[@hshafer5412]

I agree with the chest pain issue. It was very surprising. I lost my 21 year old son a little over 2 months ago. I couldn’t eat for a few weeks either. Maybe a bite or two the second week. I felt like I was dying, too. I still do from time to time. You are very brave and very well-spoken. It is so comforting to know I’m not alone, but I am very sad that you are going through it as well. Thank you so much for making this video.

[@floraramos6422]

When I lost my daughter a little over a month ago, I remember crying when they gave me a piece of pizza to eat that same evening. I thought I would never eat again, as she wasn't able to eat anymore...

[@ruthwalsh500]

I still am crushed and it’s been seven years since my son died at 34 from a brain tumor. Crushed and brokenhearted are not exaggerated words. There really are not words to describe how you feel.

[@radiantbird]

I lost my only son, who was 23 years old, almost 4 months ago; extremely suddenly… he was my life and only family.

[@cherrieperkins5065]

Thank you for this video. I lost my daughter on March 1, 2023, from cancer. She was 48 and left behind her husband and 19 year old twin daughters, both of whom are austic. I could not bear this journey without my Jesus walking and carrying me at times. My granddaughters keep me going as my husband and I are their caregivers part-time, as their wonderful daddy has to work. We are retired. My husband is 74, and I will turn 74 in August. Our lives will never be the same, but we know we will see them again in heaven.

[@Anne-wi5sm]

You’re so brave doing this. It’s seven years since my 26 year old daughter died and I struggle. Health issues took its toll and I have retired early from NHS. I no longer have a relationship with my brother and sister. They have given me the least support. Not once has my sister who lives abroad picked up the phone and spoken to me. The smallest of expectations I would have liked has never happened. Those who you expect to help and understand are the ones who least step up. It’s too late for me now and I feel like i grieve for the loss of those relationships too. But it is what it is and every time I’m at my lowest I try to give extra love to my two other children ❤

[@Fufux0rs]

I am so sorry for your losI feel same as you. Ty for sharing.

[@rebeccacaulton7988]

This video not only helps those going through a similar journey to my close friend Nikki (this is her video and journey) but is a valuable tool for anyone also trying to understand and support a loved one going through such a horrific journey so please do share it with your family and friends so that they are able to understand more about your journey with loss. Nikki, I think you are an incredibly brave to have done such a video to try and help others. It's incredibly raw and still hard to believe talented and very much loved Cameron has gone. x

[@brettsylver]

Thank You, Thank You. We lost our son on January 13th, 2024. He was 20 and was away at school & we NEVER saw this coming. I just sent your video to my wife because she would like you and hoping what you shared will offer some comfort that we’ll make it through as we’re raw and utterly destroyed. Thank You Again for sharing your experience - your video really helped me this evening. For you and for everyone having to live through the horrific experience of losing a child - I pray that we’ll all find some kind of peace. Not sure how we’ll get there but seeing you just 7 months in front of us, gives me hope we will. Thank You Again For Sharing Your Journey. Brett

[@SpanishAngels2020]

Wonderful video and thank you. 😰 You’ve said everything I feel after loosing my only child, Daniel, September 22, 2020 at 19. I still remember the knock on the door from the police. I fear I will never recover from that moment.

[@ank5282]

Thank you for your video. It's just over 7wks since i lost my 18yr old from accidental drowning. He was swept away and we haven't got him back. It's nice to hear someone describe my feelings too. It helps me give permission to myself to take my time, even though i have others asking when I'll go back to work. I can't think of coping with that. Even going to the shops is filled with anxiety as i don't want to see anyone i know so i don't get stuck in an uncomfortable conversation that i can't handle. Sending love to all our hearts ❤

[@jasonwest7476]

@@gracie45I am so incredibly sorry to you & the OP! My condolences!

[@mylifeisbeautiful5242]

​@@gracie45I can't believe people do that to you and I am so sorry for your loss. Remember, you are not alone, my friend Gracie. God is always next to you. My heart with you....❤️‍🩹🩶🙏

[@angelamorris4679]

you just described child loss exactly how we all feel and we cherish the ones who stood by us through it all xx Well done Nikki ❤️❤️Xx

[@iammoositheuntalkativecat9845]

I lost my 23yo daughter last yr. She was a victim of medical malpractice. It was just an ERCP gone wrong & delayed intervention after. I can’t forget how she suffered so much from a supposed to be less invasive procedure to remove just 2 gallstones. I was forever broken too and haunt by guilt that i was not able to save her. I cried and can’t sleep every single day continuously for 3mos. It’s the 4th month my brain is processing the realization that I can’t get her back anymore . I do cry almost everyday still & i felt the damage it caused me physically & emotionally. I do experience brain fog too like my brain is trying to erase my traumatic memories. I do felt my head sometimes like get numb. You never know the intensity of pain not until you get in that situation. To parents who lost their child especially to the mothers, i feel you. It’s the most painful thing to lose a child. Esp to those who are victims of crimes. I can’t imagine the pain. Until now i pray that my child is in a better place now with no pain and sufferings.

[@josephthibeault4843]

the loss of a child in still unimaginable for me after many many years❤

[@danniparis8898]

First off, I’m so sorry for your loss! I just lost my youngest (21 yr) son 6 weeks ago. I’m struggling so bad. This is my first KZbin grief video to watch. Thank you for posting and sharing. I know it must have been hard to record. But, I do believe this is what you are meant to do. Thank you again and God bless.

[@caroldanzer3621]

Thank you so much for this. My boy was 35 and passed almost 3 months ago - it’s like a horrible club I’ve joined. You are so brave to have made this - well done ❤

[@evangelesong6319]

Im so sorry for your loss. Im crying and praying for your healing. Jesus loves you so much. He is the way, the truth and the life. Psalm 34:18 - The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. ❤

[@lawr1]

Thank you for making this video. I do think it helps others. I'd watch more. I lost my 9 year old son Dylan 6 weeks ago. He was healthy. The doctors missed his burst appendix. My wife and I are struggling to come to terms with it. We feel everything you describe. I can't find that many videos I can relate to so it's "good" to find this (good is not the word!). I hope you and all of us get through this ok. Thank you.

[@ChildlossUK]

I’m so sorry for your terrible loss. Of course you are struggling it’s catastrophic. Sending hugs useless hugs to you and your wife 💔

[@amarismith2573]

My condolences 💐 I truly wish none of us had to deal with this everlasting pain

[@jasonwest7476]

Oh my I’m so very sorry for your loss! My condolences. I hope you can heal as much as possible 🙏🙏

[@christine-mariedcsm]

I lost my daughter, my only child, yesterday. She was only 14. I am so broken right now and I don't know how to proceed. As you mentioned early on, you had things to do for your son and that kept you going. I'm in the same position right now...Once I've finalized arrangements for my baby and fulfilled promises to my daughter, I don't know how I will continue on after that. My heart has been shredded. Thank you for posting this video.

[@cherylbrooks6797]

So sorry ! Hugs 💔🙏🏾❤️

[@curtistinemiller4646]

So sorry for your loss,I lost my special needs daughter in February of 2022,Jazana'e had Rett Sydrome ,Epilepsy and Scolocisis, I was her caretaker,I was numb,and in shock ,I cried daily and I had no appetite ,,Just feeling drained daily Early this year in January, My youngest son Gabriel was killed ,,this literally took my breath ,it was physically very hard on me ,Grief can be all consuming it affects your appetite, your mental state,physically ,my equilibrium and every aspect of your daily activity is affected...Rest Easy Jazana"e Rest Easy Gabriel 🌼💐💐

[@cherylbrooks6797]

💔🙏🏾❤️

[@curtistinemiller4646]

@@cherylbrooks6797 Thank you ...♥️

[@kierneynelson]

I highly suggest the book “Imagine Heaven” to anyone who has ever lost a child or a loved one. Praying for you and your healing 🙏🏻💞

[@MultiBeckyGirl]

I want to thank you for taking the time to help us broken hearted parents. I hope you find strength in the fact that you are making your son proud and honoring his memory. I'm very sorry for your loss. I lost my 29 year old only son Justin 5 months ago. I have experienced everything you described. I miss my old life, the one with my son in it. Thank you again....🌹

[@ChildlossUK]

Thankyou for your kind comments and I am so very sorry for your terrible loss x

[@amysingh9943]

It's been 6 months since my daughter was taken from me she was 26 yrs old. I am so broken 💔 I needed to hear this😭

[@allisontork]

Child loss ends who you were. It’s never done. God’s peace is rare, most of us feel we don’t deserve his love. Losses like this magnify. Yes pain is beyond words. I admire you. I feel numb, dead myself. It seems selfish to wallow in this, yet I don’t know. Yes, hardly know future, or care about it. Try. Don’t know if one can live, go on. Some kinds of pain devastate the being. Be there for others… wish I could. Immediate family grieving too. I stand alone. Nearest and dearest, far from me. Your so lovely. Yes, I became absent… now divorced. Glad you made it, not everyone does. Broken heart syndrome… yes hospital. Thank you for sharing.

[@bernadettemcgowan938]

Thank you for sharing, really helpful advice for anyone sharing our journey. I lost my son January 2022 and can 100% relate to everything you've said. The worst club in the world to be in. Im so sorry for your loss of your son. Please keep sharing your experiences it is invaluable to all parents who've suffered child loss 💔

[@nikkih2468]

I’m so sorry for your terrible loss 💔

[@spiceynye813]

I lost my son just days ago. He was 46 has a wonderful loving wife and I have been living in their home for a little more than 2 years. My son was the most beautiful person and he's my daughter in law's love of her life. My pain is double for I feel her pain too. I am grateful that I have her and that I'm here with her. We are an extension of the love my son left with us and we are giving it to one another. This is such a big help I can't imagine not having her right now. She is so wonderful to me. I am going through everything you mentioned I'm in the early early stages. I cry all day and I sleep alot because I have no strength to move. Thank you for sharing and making such a lovely video this will help me as move onward.

[@mariacasillas4947]

Excellent how you described your grief...I feel and have felt each and every emotion as I too lost my only Son in February. He was 38yrs old and was so happy. We lost our joy the day he left us.❤ Your video helps. I know that it was difficult to make. Thank you for your courage and God bless you.

[@veeherreraJanecka]

I am so sorry for your profound loss. I lost my 44 year old son recently too. It’s the most painful thing and I wonder if I can carry on.

[@mariacasillas4947]

Hello. Thank you. I am sorry for your loss. Please reach out to family and friends like she mentioned. That has helped me so much! May God bless and keep you in His Holy light of protection. 🎄⭐🕊

[@anneware9123]

You are a very brave woman . My full admiration is with you. thank you . I am so sorry for your loss and I fully understand . You are not alone and you are helping so many others going through this nightmare. SADs is on the increase in young males due to vaccinations. Their hearts are affected . Myocarditis in young and old. An important fact. So many more families will be experiencing loss due to SADS as time progresses. Horrendous . I agree . The reality of this kind of loss is Beyond comprehension .

[@PamelaJuneFraser1962]

Thank you for this video and I am so sorry for your loss. I just lost my son May 16, 2023. I can relate to so many things in your video. My heart hurts so much. I miss my boy 😭 Life has changed forever.

[@TheDabshear]

I also lost my 48 year old son on May 16, 2023. He was murdered in the most brutal way… I am shattered❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[@oraclera6934]

Yes I just lost my 11yr old daughter my only child Dec 18,23. Im here with you (hugs)

[@elimac1462]

Thank you for your video and I’m so sorry for your loss of your son. My eldest daughter passed away suddenly in May. My heart is shattered, we are completely heartbroken. I’ve been through a lot in my life but this is a whole new realm of hell on earth. The pain is horrendous. I can relate to what you said about brain changes. I have adhd and the grief of losing my beloved daughter appears to have decimated already compromised executive function. I want to be able to consciously grieve and learn to sit with my suffering, no matter how hard it is. I am not the person I was before my daughter died, and won’t be again, there’s no ‘going back to…’. I don’t know who I will become. I have to keep going for my family and my self. I also agree with you about not putting extra pressure on. I also have a strong belief in the afterlife that has been bringing me some comfort. To all of us who are grieving, may we find comfort and peace within our grief.

[@elvindoherty1028]

Thanks I loss my oldest son at 24 keep surviving 🙏🏿🙏🏿

[@karlaclements4701]

When my aunt lost her 11 year old son, I was 11 too. Her pain was immense and I was too young to know what to do. Thankfully she had (still has) a daughter to live for. Your video makes me want to call my aunt and tell her how much I love her.

[@YoungKashmere]

Me and my wife lost our 2 year old princess this past May and I’ve been struggling with depression and grief ever since. Therapy is in the equation now but I always end up back to square one dealing with her not being here. I want to thank you for sharing your story. It’s helpful seeing other parents talk about the experience and how they deal with it. This is the most accurate description I’ve seen of the journey, the pain, and how it all feels. Blessings to you

[@Fufux0rs]

So sorry for your loss man. Me and my wife lost also our 2,5yo daughter last July. She has twin sister that keeps us busy but it is so hard to keep it together. To see her sister grow bigger is fuking heart breaking. I miss her so bad ive started to imagine lately that she sleeps with me when im in bed, sitting beside me when i watch tv, trying to feel/remember her weight when i picked her sister up. Video is on point. I feel like my family has left me alone after funeral. Im at anger right now and not sure what to do next coz i dont have the strenght to deal with that. Me and my wife barely getting through, we love each other very much and talk much so that keeps us going. Much love for your family and I hope you can recover someday.

[@YoungKashmere]

Wishing strength, clarity, and love for you guys as well

[@Fufux0rs]

@@YoungKashmere thank you

[@YoungKashmere]

@@Fufux0rs thank you so much. I totally understand. I go through a wave of emotions daily. Stay encouraged. Blessings to you guys as well

[@julesindigoblue4441]

Thank you for this. My son Adam walked in front of a train on my birthday, November 2, 2021. He was at university…..and this came ‘out of the blue’. It’s been 17 months and I’m not getting any better. I do want to join my son. This catastrophe has broken me and to move forward seems impossible. It doesn’t get better…..you just learn how to walk with the grief. It becomes familiar. But at my age, there’s no next chapter in the book of my life.

[@jennebeattie3168]

I too lost my 14 year old son in May 2022. His name is Branson. I am SHATTERED. The pain is indescribable. Thank you for posting. I have subbed ❤

[@Wom3nAndCh1ldr3n1st]

From the US. I'm sorry for your loss. I'm struggling with the same feelings after discovering my son on the morning of April 19th, 2024. Gaaaawd! It hurts!

[@jclilstar1973]

I lost my 33 yr old son in November 2022. He took his life. I miss him every day. I thank God that I am able to grieve with the right people around me. That let me cry and dont make me feel bad or that i should just get over it. Im so sorry for your loss for your son. Your in my prayers

[@sirius3531]

@jclilstar1973 I'm terribly sorry for your loss. There's a book called Dark Side of the Brain by Lance Burdett. It deals with suicide and its impact on families. I apologize if I'm hurting you by recommending you this book. I lost my only child last January.

[@a_wintima]

Thanks for sharing ❤. I lost my only daughter 4 weeks ago. I can’t describe the pain I’m going through now. She was a part of me, I’m empty and shattered 😢. It was just the two of us😢

[@claireredfern5880]

I identify. Just the two of us .Now I'm on my own without my daughter .She was my whole reason for living

[@puehisbunny]

My son will be forever 21. When I lost him I told his dad through a face full of tears...the only way we will get through this is we have to know that he is gone forever and we will NEVER be the same....NEVER..

[@uniformitydubliner9691]

You CHOSE to make that possible when you CHOSE to breed but the victim was only here for your personal pleasure of being a breeder. Breeding is so selfish and cruel.

[@kariconover4036]

Hey uniformity dubliner, shut up. You have absolutely no right to say anything. Having children is from God. He wants us bring bring children into this world. Sometimes God brings them home. And we will be united with our children again. They are with us and waiting for us. I do hope you find Christ in your life.

[@ireneshilling1849]

What a nasty nasty comment to make

[@nicholasdmello3400]

i have lost my son Nathaniel , aged 30 , a month back to a road accident , worst thing is that it was a self accident , in the early hours of the morning away from home. The photo of his body has broken me , it comes to my eyes again and again. What you say is exactly true for all those grieving . The pain is yours alone , no one else will understand , so the best advise if at all , is to connect with those undergoing the pain of the loss.

[@iriafriconnet4763]

Thanks I needed to hear you I lost my son a month ago he was 32 and a light in our lives I miss him so much and I wanted to die

[@nicholasdmello3400]

@@iriafriconnet4763 How do i console you, knowing what i am going through , close to 9 months since my son died and it seems like just yesterday. N yet life must go on ,keep telling myself that its one of those tragic things that just happen in life. try Meditation, get out n walk , go to the gym, listen to soft music , keep yourself busy , at least that will help to lighten the pain.we have to live with it till the rest of lives.

[@russmhunt]

I lost my 18yr old son on July 2nd 2023 . He just turned 18 on April 2nd, and had just graduated. I helped him buy a dirtbike, and it only took 2 days to lose him. And.....so here I am as a emotionally strong male who is heart broken.

[@saflatty]

Thank you for being so strong to do this video for all of us who have lost a child! Everything you said resonates with me completely. I lost my 27 year old daughter on Mar 17. I know we have to create a new life for ourselves but boy is this difficult! Today I actually enjoyed a bike ride! That’s a good sign🙏🙏❤️❤️

[@CharlotteWilliams-gg7dt]

I'm at the 8th month of losing my son. You've described everything I've felt. My son was amazing and irreplaceable, but he got mixed up with some bad friends the last month of his life. He was poisoned. If only they knew how beautiful he was. How he loved and supported his lifelong friends. But he's gone forever. And nothing will ever be the same. Forever 16.

[@amarismith2573]

I loss my 11 year old daughter 7 months ago and I just want to say I admire your strength and will continue to follow in my time of struggle with the passing of my daughter my condolences I wish we didn’t have to feel this pain

[@simonajurcova1879]

Thank you for your video.i really appreciate you share your feelings,i just lost my 10 months old boy due to wrong treatment we are devastated..it only happened 2 weeks ago ,i never tought pain like this even exists...we have another son thanks god but our beautiful sunshine just went to heaven...the only thing helping me is to believe in spiritual world ..i know he is angel and we gonna meet him one day.we all will meet our children 1 day ..i feel exactly same as you do so hard to explain.i dont like when people want to advise me and they never have this experience ,life changes in 1 second.i am so sorry for your loss .😢

[@tieshiamcgee3427]

Thank you for sharing this information!!!! I’m sorry for your lost, I lost my son Feb 2023. Everything you said is accurate, I’m battling health issues that I’ve never had before. I’m have come to grips with seeking a grief counselor. This is like a never ending nightmare. Again, thank you!

[@suetaylor5758]

I lost my 25 year old son 9 weeks ago. This video is helpful and has given me some hope that I will function some better in the next few months. Many of these points hit a chord with me. I haven’t been able to look at photos yet, I’d like to but can’t yet. I’ve had trouble finding a group of bereaved parents.

[@aprilbird9064]

I just lost my 28 year old daughter two days ago. I am in constant pain, along with her twin brother, dad and service dogs. My daughter is now free of continuing pain for over 16 years.

[@fs181818]

I am so sorry for your loss. You have done a fantastic job making this video to help other families especially mothers to go through grieving process.

[@michellearnold1230]

I’m so sorry for your loss. You should be very proud of yourself. I lost my beautiful son 4 months ago. He was only 14. Every single thing you said is spot on. I’ve done it all. These are the ONLY things that will help. Our hearts are still shattered but a nugget of peace sometimes gets you through a moment, an hour or a day. Thank you! ❤️🙏🏻

[@JasonMorris-n3l]

Thank you Nikki you are wonderful I lost my stepson September 24th in Iowa Devin Woods I really miss that boy I really do. Stay strong 💯

[@justChrisjones]

Thank you for doing this thoughtful video it really helped me. It's been four and a half years for me losing my son. You're very accurate what we go through.

[@LiseWrigley]

This is so very well said. You did a magnificent job. So organized. I too am a bereaved mom and this is the first video I've seen about it. Your video is a great gift to all of us. You are surely doing your son proud. The only three things I would add are: the word surreal. The pain is so intense emotionally and physically it is almost out of body. " A state of grace". There are some times it is so terrible, that it is almost as if there is some other worldly something carrying and holding you. Giving this glow and comfort. I am not religious, but if I were I'd say God, Jesus, the holy spirit is comforting me. Maybe it was actually my son...Whatever it was, I felt so grateful. The third thing to say is you were very compassionate mentioning your family being incapable of support due to their own grieving. I have not been as generous. And you are so right this is not a time to be working it out. There is no resiliency. One needs to just learn to survive. Please know fellow bereaved parents, that the pain does ease over time. No you never get over the loss of your child, but you do start having " normal" days. Though you will nevrr be the same person again. I liked what you said about pulling on your mommy boots for your daughter. Good on you. In closing, when people tell you to "move on" and " get over" your child, politely tell them to stop that nonsense. Grief is an expression of love. Love need not be gotten over. Bless you my dear fellow mom. You are still very much in the early days and the fact you did this video shows what a good and caring mom you are. A huge hug from Canada.❤ 12 years and 10 months without my precious only child.

[@TheDabshear]

It has been 8 weeks for us since my son was murdered. I was just telling my husband yesterday that my life feels surreal after losing our son. Surreal, especially when I realize that during those moments when I feel normal, I remember and feel guilty that I had other thoughts that were not about him. Our son absolutely loved 4th of July fireworks and I thought maybe this year he was looking down on those brilliant explosions and enjoying them too.

[@LiseWrigley]

@@TheDabshear Sending you a great big hug. I am so very sorry to hear you lost your son and in such a terrible way. You are at the very beginning. Remember to take care of your body. Eat, sleep, get some fresh air, walk if you can. These will help you survive better. Don't make big decisions for a year. Some parents find that smelling their kid's phermones in their clothes is calming. It sure was surprisingly helpful to me. ❤

[@marebennett2773]

It’s very important that you take the time to grieve after the loss of a loved one. Grief is built up love with NO where to go!🙏🏽

[@bredaogrady-k9y]

I will pray for all us broken hearted parent's God is close to the broken hearted only God got me some what through at times and my remaining son my world is all now l care about l shut down a lot ❤

[@demetrahampton5833]

I can not put into words how much I related to your touching video. I lost my only child 6 months ago, my was 20yrs. He was a joy & the best thing I ever done. I miss he so much it is unbearable sometimes. But I also know that he is at peace & in a better place than now🙏🏾

[@GoBlue2222]

lost my beautiful 26 year old to cancer that was misdiagnosed as ulcerative colitis until the last 2 weeks of his life He was totally dependent on us was Aspergers a beautiful intelligent soul completed university with honours and learnt how to drive / was also rejected in his endeavours to find work we were planning to open a small cafe once he was better but lost him in 6 weeks We are devastated and all the things you talk about I am there going through it I am not the same person

[@TheDabshear]

Thank you for putting into words what I am feeling. My son was murdered on May 16, 2023. I can’t talk about it to others… These waves of absolute grief grip my heart and all I can do is sob. I am shattered, broken and want the pain to end.

[@samueljrdemalata451]

My son also died May 19,2023,,,he was just 14😢,,,,this feeling in my heart is heavy ,,,it's so hard that I still put his plate on his side of the table,,,I miss him so much,,,,

[@TheDabshear]

@@samueljrdemalata451 Saying I am sorry seems so meaningless but knowing we are not alone helps. The grief is mental and physical. I will pray for you🙏☮️❤️

[@Sean-sr1nv]

Hey how have you been doing?

[@tracyharwood6675]

Thank you for this very honest account of this dreadful journey. We lost our 31 year old son Sam 18 months ago - up until the 18 month time I really struggled to find a reason to live and go on but I have to say now - today I can say the gloom has lifted although the sadness remains but I can now see a future. I now know that my life journey is to love my loved ones - husband, daughter, step daughters, grandchildren, brothers, close friends, cat and dog as well as I can. I truely believe in the end, there is nothing else more important - everything else means nothing.

[@AshleyAnnVlogs]

I needed this! Thank you! I just lost my son 5 days ago and hearing “it never gets easier or better” is so hard for me. I want to hear that joy can be found again!

[@stefanm651]

Beautiful and brave. Thanks for sharing.❤

[@gradosa8272]

😭I’m feeling numbness. I can’t concentrate or think about anything. I don’t know how I can move on. Lost my enthusiasm. My plans for life were entangled with her physical needs. Only praying it’s holding me to life. Lost my father 5 weeks before losing my precious daughter Sofia. Lord open your hand and received her soul.🙏🏼😭🙏🏼😭

[@nicolehardin8823]

This was really good to listen to. My 17 yr old son just passed suddenly. I am still waiting for the autopsy for why he passed suddenly. Thank you for posting this.

[@sherrysutin1405]

Thank you so much for sharing your loss. We lost our grandson Jonah who was 16 3 years ago. Everything you said is so true. There are no words only tears. My heart breaks for you & your family.❤

[@dougenderle4701]

Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts and experience, we lost our amazing and extremely musically talented oldest 34 year old son in June His Birthday is next month December … I am in so much pain without him here It has been life shattering. I believe there is hope of seeing him again as a believer in Christ I am shaken to the core even in faith This is something that is out of natural order and I hate that any parent has had this most tragic horrible experience in life. Again thank you for your video and your bravery… one momma heart to another it ought not to be

[@Ccollura1]

Thank you 36 days into the loss of my precious son Spencer 31 years old passed instantly from a massive heart attack. Your honesty about your grief brought me comfort in knowing I am not alone in my pain.

[@adventurecoalition3690]

Your story mimics mine very closely, thx for sharing your story. This has helped tremendously. Wish there was a love button instead of a like because this deserves a love ❤️

[@jillharleman1441]

Please keep making hour videos this one helped me so much ❤

[@DonegalGreen]

I just lost my Mom days ago. The reason I'm watching videos about losing children is because my Mom was like a child to me. She was 86 and I'm 49 but she called me "Mama" and "Nana" because I filled that role for her. Your description of everything is exactly what I'm feeling. I didn't have any true children but Mom was my little girl. Alot of times I feel liked I failed my girl because I couldn't always give her exactly what she wanted or needed especially as she was actively dying. She wanted nothing more than to get out of that hospice bed at home, put on her clothing, go somewhere and I obviously couldn't do that for her because she couldn't walk anymore. There were some blessings - hospice gave her a really nice bath and hair wash hours before she died, she was allowed to be dressed in her clothing and shoes, we had time to visit with her, a woman sang to her days before she died and Mom tried singing along, and people I hadn't necessarily talked to or seen in a long time really came through for me. The only glue keeping me together is going on as if she is still here on Earth - I've washed the clothing in her hamper, have made her bed, served her breakfast this morning, played songs she loved, kept everything how Mom would want it. I wear the gown that she died in and I can't wash her scent off of anything she touched before she died. I talk to her all day. I use her body wash. Sometimes I just wish the love we have for people can make them come to life because believe me if love could do that, all of our loved ones would still be here. Thank you for your video. It is one of the things I've seen that truly makes sense to my heart and relays exactly what I'm feeling. I know she's here - she called out to me this morning. I've encouraged her to call out to me everyday because I'm here. I love you Mom more than anything. I am more than sorry for your loss Child loss UK. Keep your son close, he still loves you and needs you even though the physical body may not be here.

[@revn9203]

Thank you for sharing and I hope you continue to cope with the loss of your beloved mum. Your story resonates with me. I lost my mother three years ago due to medical error. She was 87. I too was her caregiver and she was the only family. As you do, I too try to feel her presence . Living every day is a challenge. For me the added regrets and guilt and the failure to protect my mother torment and overwhelm me. Time cannot heal the wound but we have to continue to survive.

[@karenmanford2479]

Thanks for this video - I have recently lost my son aged 23 yrs -like your beloved boy there is as yet no cause to his passing - my life has changed forever. The pain is unbearable 💔

[@ashton5655]

Thank you! Had a sibling recently lose a child and I've had loss in my life, but not a child and I just want to help support her through it. This has been very very helpful.

[@StacieWright-v3j]

Thank you for this video. I lost my son 5 weeks ago under what looks like very similar circumstances to you. Having no answers is hard. How can this happen to healthy 19 year old boys? Please keep doing your videos, I will be watching for sure

[@MrDharmasuta]

Saya tahu kesedihan anda, saya mengalaminya di 30 Maret 2021. Anak laki-laki saya saat itu berumur 15 tahun meninggal. Terasa bermimpi kehilangan anak laki -laki tersayang. Saya mengajak semua yang kehilangan anaknya untuk tetap bangkit dari kesedihan. Semoga anak-anak kita selalu berbahagia.....

[@toniburcher6601]

I lost my son.. my only child to suicide 5 months ago. Your video was very helpful. And gave words to my feelings that I just haven't been able to do. God Bless you

[@gemmadargan5722]

Thanks you for making this video. I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my son 16/3/23. He was a twin 😢Sending you love and strength.❤

[@kimmoore1738]

Thank you . I lost my only child, a son, 2 months ago. This video is helpful. I appreciate your love and compassion for all of us who are in this.

[@matshidisomolefe1903]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. Loosing a child is the most painful thing ever, I wish I could wake up from this nightmare. You have been a great help to me