FINALLY SORTING OUT MY MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES - STEP ONE

[@qwertyqwert2772]

You hit me right in the feels my spud❤️ very surreal to hear you speak what you said as it felt like those are some thoughts and realities that have been marinating in my brain for quite some time now. I suffer with that wanting to die bullsh!t. I try to make myself feel better about it by blaming it on the fact that I have had sedative anaesthesia multiple times and it fried my brain cells and now my stupid brain just wants to keep going back to that state hence the wanting to die ideation. The drugs they pump us with for C sections etc running thru my system after birth, trying to parent while my body is being run rampant with the after effects of those drugs stuck in my system. Can't think straight, can't do things, can't function. My brain and my body don't connect and my spirit and soul have died and gone to la la land. I've been told so many times by people that I thought cared about me to "go and talk to somebody". I have been there and done that and they continuously try to treat you for things you don't even have or want to be treated for all while trying to tell you that what you think is going on is irrelevant. Take this pill anyway and come back in a week. I'm not doing that anymore. When does it fkn end. Fml. ❤️

[@cheyannejane]

oh wow! I know what you mean about your brain and body not being able to connect, I feel the same way which is super frustrating, just feeling as if I exist, with no real purpose. I try to help people to try and feel like I'm doing something worthwhile but I always end up being used or taken advantage of which makes everything so much worse and I end up back to where I began. I have a feeling it will never end unfortunately and We will just have to learn to live with it, which scares the shit out of me and I don't want to live this way forever. Which then brings on those Intrusive thoughts because I just want to give up. It all seems way too hard. Lets hope we can feel better soon aye? Thanks for watching x

[@xjaimee91]

Thank you for being brave and posting this. I have now seen a psychologist 5 times and i have alot of BPD symptoms, depression and anxiety too

[@ashi_xx1893]

Thank you for sharing and I’m sure you will help someone in one way or another!

[@cheyannejane]

you're very welcome. I hope it helps someone, I know that watching other people's journeys help me out so it would be nice to give back :)

[@AussieHobbit]

So glad you have taken the first steps! sending you so many positive vibes for this journey!

[@dorywoods2929]

OMG this is hilarious, only because I felt like ive written it. Thank you, im not alone. Top Lady sharing this

[@dorywoods2929]

ive been on Zoloft for years too and it does nothing!

[@yeahyouknowit176]

I was diagnosed with BPD 13 years ago. I am 37. I knew you were about to say BPD when you did. I was also misdiagnosed with BiPolar in the early stages of trying to find a diagnosis. Thanks for sharing this video with us all

[@jesswere1254]

Good luck! My partner was diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, and your symptoms sound very similar. Very good to find out what's happening. Hope things get better for you x

[@moniquef4737]

Oh also did u hear about the new vape laws? Thank you for posting this, much love

[@amandamosman4491]

Sending big hugs 🤗

[@TheElephantsLaundry]

love you darling