Crack Addict interview-Marlon

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Soft White Underbelly

Soft White Underbelly

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@angelafranklin1994
@angelafranklin1994 3 жыл бұрын
One time with a “friend”= 20 years of addiction. Good one for kids to listen to.
@aaronm.3581
@aaronm.3581 3 жыл бұрын
Right before that he said he was getting drunk and snorting tons of powder every weekend. Seems the addiction began long before the "one time."
@aliciablanchard2500
@aliciablanchard2500 3 жыл бұрын
@@aaronm.3581 Crack will turn someone into a completely different person though. If you compare the two drugs you will see a whole different level of low and one that will hold on to you for the rest of your life. That’s the difference.
@babyclown
@babyclown 3 жыл бұрын
And it is that quick. So scary.
@amelie9271
@amelie9271 3 жыл бұрын
The love of my life was very much like this man. He was so bright and so insightful. I lost him in August last year, in part to his addiction. He was such an amazing man, he never stopped trying to get back on his feet after falling. He was my best friend and I miss him every minute of every day. He would get clean and build this amazing life and firm foundation for a year or two. He would be a pillar in the recovery community…other people looked up to him, he was so loved and respected….and then he would disappear and go on a binge. He would lose everything he had built in a matter of months. I always kept my finances, career, and my home life separate from him for this reason. For 17 years he did this dance of insanity. It was difficult but I always loved him, albeit often from a distance. I wish he saw in himself what I always saw in him, then he may still be here. Addiction is cunning, it’s powerful and it’s baffling. It doesn’t discriminate. There are so many incredible human beings suffering from this disease.
@ctrl_alt_delete4729
@ctrl_alt_delete4729 3 жыл бұрын
So sorry for your loss 🙏🏻! Your words are absolutely beautiful 🥰🙏🏻🥰
@qumi369
@qumi369 3 жыл бұрын
My condolences. Addiction is a manipulative, sly beast. You can confide in it and run away from your problems in it but you can’t escape from it. So sorry. Hoping you’ll heal and forever keep his memory in your heart. Sending my love❤️ ❤️ ❤️
@amelie9271
@amelie9271 3 жыл бұрын
Thanks y’all. He wasn’t a bad man at all, he just had a bad disease that is coupled with and exacerbated by bad choices. I was so lucky to be loved by him and I cherish the time we spent together when he was at his best. I hope the man in this video finds some peace and serenity also. He is worth it.
@fionarobins4958
@fionarobins4958 3 жыл бұрын
I'm sorry 4 the pain u must be feeling losing the love of yr life 2 addiction💜 I'm 48yrs old& 23yrs into heroin addiction,I own my own home &work in my family business therefore I have always been able 2 pay 4 my addiction,so I don't have 2 steal,or sell my body or do any of the other terrible things we addicts do 2 fund their addiction...Thank u 4 being understanding,I can't imagine how hard it must be 2 love an addict...💜Peace,love&empathy....🙏💜💕💜
@Lulumelon333
@Lulumelon333 3 жыл бұрын
Sorry for the loss of your loved one. I appreciate you sharing as your words are very much relatable.
@amydnwa5776
@amydnwa5776 3 жыл бұрын
This man is conscious of his situation but yet so far gone. I hope he gets salvation. I wish you well Marlon. Stay fighting, you still got it.
@leeleemee
@leeleemee 3 жыл бұрын
Perfectly said.
@jussaying6345
@jussaying6345 3 жыл бұрын
This is mark most honest video that man has real issues with crack and very well aware of it and wants help bad I hope he gets clean Read the Bible and ask God for help because evidently he can't do it on his own
@GlobalPeace365
@GlobalPeace365 3 жыл бұрын
his environment is his worse enemy, but mimics being his friend - similar to the RHCP song, 'Under the Bridge'.
@tylersrevenge
@tylersrevenge 3 жыл бұрын
I wouldn’t say he’s so far gone, but you can definitely see how cocaine leads to people who are too far gone to talk the way they do. It’s like you can see the racing thoughts going through his head but he still is kind of able to actually make sense of that.
@decapitateallcops3214
@decapitateallcops3214 3 жыл бұрын
Salvation? I hope he get clean.
@loudnoise4576
@loudnoise4576 3 жыл бұрын
Crack is such a horrible drug that’s ruined so many amazing people. I’m praying for you Marlon you are so much more than your addiction.
@StrawberryFields4ever65
@StrawberryFields4ever65 3 жыл бұрын
Yes he is!!
@nikkidotts1279
@nikkidotts1279 5 ай бұрын
YESSSSSSSSS!! SO MANY FUCKIN AMAZING FOLKS AFFECTED BY THIS BULLSHIT!!! I HATE THE MUTHAFUCKA THAT COOKED THE FIRST ROCK UP!! I KNOW THEY DID NOT KNOW THE DEVASTATION THIS DRUG WOULD/DOES BRING!! THAT'S Y I KNOW AND UNDERSTAND THAT THIS DRUG WAS INVENTED BY THE DEVIL! IT'S TOTALLY DEMONIC IN EVERY WAY!! IT HAS DESTROYED FAMILIES, RELATIONSHIPS, JOBS, MONEY, ETC!! CAN U REALLY IMAGINE HOW MANY PEOPLE WOULD HAVE BEEN SUCCESSFUL, LIVING LIFE, LOVING LIFE AND FRUITFUL?????!! CAN U IMAGINE HOW MUCH THE DEVASTATION HAS BECOME A "NORMALCY" FOR THOSE AFFECTED???! CAN U IMAGINE THE CHILDREN WHO'VE HAD TO LIVE THRU THE PERILS OF THIS ADDICTION & ADAPT TO WHAT IT BRINGS????! THIS DRUG WAS DESIGNED TO DESTROY BLACKS & LATINOS & ANY FUTURE OF THEM OR LACK THERE OF!! AIDS, CRACK COCAINE, POVERTY & THE COLOR OF OUR SKIN HAS BEEN A BATTLE SINCE I CAN RECALL!!! PRIOR TO CRACK COCAINE THERE WAS A SENSE OF PRIDE & DIGNITY POSSESSED BY THOSE OF COLOR, REGARDLESS OF THEIR MONETARY SITUATIONS! THE BLACK MAN FELT PRIDE & PRODUCED FOR HIS FAMILY & IN RETURN HE WAS THE KING OF LIFE ITSELF!! WHEN THE "WHITE MAN" FIGURED OUT AN INDEFINITE WAY TO CAUSE DESTRUCTION, HE POURED LIFE CHANGING DRUGS INTO IMPOVERISHED NEIGHBORHOODS ACROSS THE COUNTRY & WATCHED GENERATIONS DESTROY THEMSELVES & ONE ANOTHER!!!! I HATE, I LOATHE CRACK COCAINE & THE ANNIHILATION IT BROUGHT! STAY STRONG MARLON, STAY FIGHTING!! PLEASE DON'T DIE IN ADDICTION!!😢😢😢😢❤❤❤❤
@thomasruwart1722
@thomasruwart1722 3 жыл бұрын
Marlon definitely has talent. He is well-spoken, thoughtful, empathetic, introspective, and his poetry deserves to be in a book or a song. Marlon is amazing!
@efgjkk975
@efgjkk975 3 жыл бұрын
“I don’t qualify to judge anybody.” Right when he said that, I was glued to the screen. So we’ll spoken & aware. Incredibly talented with his words, presentation, etc. Marlon has so much potential. Marlon if you see this, know that this internet stranger is routing for you!
@FunkyTomo
@FunkyTomo 3 жыл бұрын
I agree... Great comment!!!
@viktoriavennice3864
@viktoriavennice3864 3 жыл бұрын
The poem at the end did it for me!! My God… Marlon God is waiting for u to put your crown back on King❤️❤️🙏🏿🙏🏿
@mzfancy4767
@mzfancy4767 3 жыл бұрын
This man is crying out to God and I see that he is tired of his lifestyle and wants a change. I wish him many blessings.
@nastybastardatlive
@nastybastardatlive 3 жыл бұрын
Dont hold your breath.
@mzfancy4767
@mzfancy4767 3 жыл бұрын
@@nastybastardatlive Don't waste ur breath or thoughts with negativity. Be blessed luv.
@mist....6312
@mist....6312 3 жыл бұрын
Amen. Never giving up hope because the good lord above can help us to change anything. We only need to put our foots forward and try our hardest to meet him halfway. And I believe this man has set forth to do so. I believe in you Marlon, you will make it. God bless....
@13MorningStar666
@13MorningStar666 3 жыл бұрын
You people been waiting for your God for thousands of years lmaooo give it up. Grow up.
@mist....6312
@mist....6312 3 жыл бұрын
@@13MorningStar666 WOW....be very careful about the things you say and the way you think??? So GOD BLESS YOU!
@shanitagabriela6617
@shanitagabriela6617 3 жыл бұрын
I cried watching this interview. My brother struggles with crack addiction and has struggled for 15+ years. He reminds me so much of him and this made me see a different perspective for sure. I wish so much there was something I could do to change my brother's situation. I used to get so mad and lash out at him for not kicking the addiction. I had the "just stop doing it" mindset. I hate this drug so much. When he said he could be doing good for a month and then he will destroy it all...this happens multiple times a year for my brother. Marlon, thank you for this interview. My heart cried when you did. 💔
@jusrealthetruth5831
@jusrealthetruth5831 3 жыл бұрын
Marlon was so inspiring in letting us know how crack addiction has a very strong hold on a person Kids please don't let anyone influence you to do drugs these testimonials show how bad it will turn out for you Treat yourself better than that!
@KapteinFruit
@KapteinFruit 3 жыл бұрын
Man that verse he was spitting was fire.
@heidiho5179
@heidiho5179 3 жыл бұрын
I wish we saw lyrics like that produced more often. There are people with real stories to tell!
@IAmRaine1980
@IAmRaine1980 3 жыл бұрын
It made me think of a DMX prayer for real.
@KapteinFruit
@KapteinFruit 3 жыл бұрын
@@heidiho5179 I totally agree my dude
@respecthumility1417
@respecthumility1417 3 жыл бұрын
He doesn’t hold what happened to him as a kid responsible for his using. He owns it. I can respect that. But at the end unfortunately he is still stuck. I wish him to get out. God bless him.
@momof2boyswithautism
@momof2boyswithautism 3 жыл бұрын
Agree! So many people blame their past for every single thing they do that damages themselves or others. We have a society that is so easy to blame others for their actions.
@nooddood6904
@nooddood6904 3 жыл бұрын
@@momof2boyswithautism blame is copium. understanding is seeing the intricacies of causes and effects
@kylabrooks658
@kylabrooks658 3 жыл бұрын
He really needed to vent. I hope he finds help and cleans up. He’s a good one that the world could use.
@thekatt...
@thekatt... 3 жыл бұрын
💙💙💙
@tre5559
@tre5559 3 жыл бұрын
i don’t know if he was freestyling or he came prepared with the but he went crazy 😭💯
@rhettmelton
@rhettmelton 3 жыл бұрын
Sway45
@rolandorzabal1955
@rolandorzabal1955 3 жыл бұрын
I like how Mark is transparent with how he used to feel about the people on skid row
@heykerryann
@heykerryann 3 жыл бұрын
2.2M subs and he acts like he’s broke from paying to interview people with little to no overhead. Mark spare me. Not all your viewers are 12.
@CeePee15
@CeePee15 3 жыл бұрын
@@heykerryann ridiculous, this is more of a philanthropic thing Mark does. Do your research, educate yourself before judging.
@rolandorzabal1955
@rolandorzabal1955 3 жыл бұрын
@@heykerryann he has stated that he does not get paid from KZbin
@heidiho5179
@heidiho5179 3 жыл бұрын
@@heykerryann You can’t get advertising unless you’re “family friendly.” Despite the fact that I can’t think of a more valuable educational tool for families.
@heykerryann
@heykerryann 3 жыл бұрын
@@rolandorzabal1955 then we MUST believe him
@4my3hitos
@4my3hitos 3 жыл бұрын
Reminds me of my brother. He struggled deeply on this earth. Hopefully this wise man finds his strength. Keep fighting. You have lots to give
@mikezehnder2622
@mikezehnder2622 3 жыл бұрын
Same
@mallorihaze3016
@mallorihaze3016 3 жыл бұрын
19:57 That was beautiful raw and you're not crying alone Marlon. Best of luck to you 💜
@brendaandjohnroark-rivera7710
@brendaandjohnroark-rivera7710 3 жыл бұрын
Having been with an addict for years, it's not just the relapse that hurts us. It's knowing what, who and all actions during the relapse that affects us. The lies, the feeling that our loved one chose to use and disappear while using, that hurts. The missing money, it's just so darn painful. I do wish you all the best!!!!! You are WORTH it!!!!
@christinaa.mirabal1799
@christinaa.mirabal1799 3 жыл бұрын
Love you Marlon. You are lovable, you deserve unconditional love. Forgive yourself, love yourself. Most people don't go towards what will make them happy, but what is familiar. Very often what is familiar, is toxic.
@sherrycallaway6578
@sherrycallaway6578 3 жыл бұрын
Sounds like he just wants his love ones to love and accept him no matter what... know his heart ... understand him... be by his side til the end... heartfelt sadness and pain... intelligence and sensitivity... Great interview... God bless.
@Fikrehager
@Fikrehager 2 ай бұрын
Ppl it’s easy to say just accept as their are. But if you love the person as a person, brother, sister, father etc. It’s hard because you have feeling and hope for a better tomorrow. So this happens to the love through out their live. The pain is unreal, I can’t explain it. I am sobbing writing this. I seen it happen to a love one and friend. It’s like you are dying with them slowly, it hurts. You are never really happy as long as they are addicted. Don’t judge their live ones because they are suffering with them differently. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽praying for everyone.
@shabienskaachil8729
@shabienskaachil8729 3 жыл бұрын
The poem had me in tears. So beautiful
@shonda1973
@shonda1973 3 жыл бұрын
I am 5 minutes into this and this man is so smart and articulate. Am I surprised? Absolutely not! My ex-husband was very much the same way but has been sober now 13 years....like a previous commenter said drug addiction is so cunning and deceitful!
@ivymosaics
@ivymosaics 3 жыл бұрын
What a lovely man. Drugs suck. Sending prayers and hope.
@TayLovelyDove
@TayLovelyDove 3 жыл бұрын
His story is powerful, it shows his easy it is to find ourself so far removed from where we started. We can’t always blame our family , our trauma or our disappointments because in the end we have choices. I think he needs to understand that addiction isn’t something you just quit. You need help. And that’s ok. He spoke of his mother being tired… it requires him to become tired too.
@xdandychiggins
@xdandychiggins 3 жыл бұрын
facts.
@kimwagoner1147
@kimwagoner1147 3 жыл бұрын
Around the 13.00 mark that's the truth. I feel so sorry for this guy. He is speaking from the heart. When your down and out and need help how many friends come around then. In my case I had none.
@nickgomez6272
@nickgomez6272 3 жыл бұрын
Its such an eye opening experience, went through it myself. It made me a cold motherfucker for a minute, but eventually it gets old, and you forgive them and most importantly yourself. God bless
@cakepudding3220
@cakepudding3220 3 жыл бұрын
Same
@marylougeorge9890
@marylougeorge9890 3 жыл бұрын
There's a cost to making and keeping real friends.
@SB8-8
@SB8-8 3 жыл бұрын
Well he just broke my heart this morning....... Marlon, you can make it, healing strength and positive energy to you sir.
@leklekjasmine416
@leklekjasmine416 3 жыл бұрын
He still looks good for his age though. You honestly couldn't tell he's an addict by looking at him
@kgreene460
@kgreene460 3 жыл бұрын
You're right Itty, Marlon looks handsome and healthy on the outside, but the thought patterns he vocalizes are completely self destructive, which he recognizes. Marlon, I hope you finds your way to a better life.
@aaronm.3581
@aaronm.3581 3 жыл бұрын
Crack does not ravage people's body or mind nearly as much as people think. It's a bit of a misnomer.
@Seeingisntbelieving
@Seeingisntbelieving 3 жыл бұрын
@@aaronm.3581 the crackheads I see are ravaged and torn down. I will agree functional addicts don’t look too bad.
@dteezy2
@dteezy2 3 жыл бұрын
What beautiful poetry. The pain was so thick in his voice I felt it through the screen and it made me tear up. Sending all the love in the world your way Marlon.
@donnabell638
@donnabell638 13 күн бұрын
I have been in tears watching this. Marlon, you remind me of the love of.my life LB here in the Uk. Just like you he is articulate and intelligent.and a loveable character. He has spent 25 years on and off in prison since aged 16. I will be there for him till the end. Addiction is destroying.
@KatieBlue16
@KatieBlue16 3 жыл бұрын
Hi all, I'm a subscriber from Liverpool UK 🇬🇧. I find these uploads so addictive. All the people interviewed have such interesting life stories, not least so very sad childhoods. Mark, I think you're helping these people more than you realise. A listening ear, and getting years worth of demons off their chests. Not all hero's wear capes 💯👌🏻
@angelegabe7770
@angelegabe7770 3 жыл бұрын
💯〰️👋🏽〰️
@istateyourname4710
@istateyourname4710 3 жыл бұрын
This was beautiful & raw. Thank you Marlon for showing your beautiful vulnerability.
@atreyuatrium9342
@atreyuatrium9342 3 жыл бұрын
As someone who struggled with a meth addiction, I know how it is. I wasn't bad to the point of self destruction, thankfully, but I could tell that it was effecting the ones around me. I couldn't walk into a store without catching someone's eye. 2 years clean and now I have a wife and a kid and I still struggle. There's times I want to relapse but I sit back and look at how far I came and what I have now compared to what I had then. My women lost her Mom to an O.D. She didn't get to meet her grandson but I can tell my son when he's older how great she was when she was sober. No high is worth losing them. I hope you find yourself and overcome the addiction. God Bless you.
@yayaitsme6481
@yayaitsme6481 3 жыл бұрын
@Sepiafluxx
@Sepiafluxx 3 жыл бұрын
His soul is so raw. Loved listening to every word he said
@bambadalam91
@bambadalam91 3 жыл бұрын
Wow.. this man is amazing♡ Drugs are his Goliath.. if he could overcome them.. NOTHING could stop him.. he could be anything, a leader, a motivational speaker, he is so smart and articulate. Even after using all these years... his insight.. he speaks his truth.. I like him. There is still time Marlon♡♡ 💪
@ninacamille7696
@ninacamille7696 3 жыл бұрын
He has a good heart, the drug is just overpowering him, praying for him. Reminds me of my father 😥 addiction is a serious disease
@jemmas2299
@jemmas2299 3 жыл бұрын
Keeping seeking God my friend. He's the only thing that's worth anything in this life. Love you.
@marciabernard3820
@marciabernard3820 3 жыл бұрын
Thanks for this 😊
@chartmanbrock
@chartmanbrock 3 жыл бұрын
No truer words spoken.
@willsmith39
@willsmith39 3 жыл бұрын
My friends and family are the only thing that truly matter to me in this life. Not some magic man in the sky whose going to - very conveniently 🙄 - be the answer to life's struggles.
@chadmcclain3462
@chadmcclain3462 3 жыл бұрын
🙌🏾🙏🏽
@jennyjenilton
@jennyjenilton 3 жыл бұрын
This was so good. I love him! This gave me chills
@Jivolt
@Jivolt 3 жыл бұрын
0:51 Let’s take a moment to appreciate the visual beauty of this.
@MrStiv75
@MrStiv75 3 жыл бұрын
Stay strong soldiers, The world needs you!!
@DahntayW
@DahntayW 3 жыл бұрын
Mark is yoked. Love these interviews, just got clean and trying to find a reason to these are some motivation. Appreciate these so so so so much mark.
@fionarobins4958
@fionarobins4958 3 жыл бұрын
Well done u for getting clean,it's not easy,I'm 23yrs into active heroin addiction,(I'm lucky 2 own my own home&work in my family business so I can afford 2 pay 4 my habit,),getting clean&staying clean is very hard,💜peace,love&empathy🙏💜💕💜
@heidiho5179
@heidiho5179 3 жыл бұрын
@@fionarobins4958 I hope you find a way to greater freedom. Suboxone and Kratom have worked for me. I prefer Kratom because of fewer side effects, but it’s too expensive for me to stay on. I don’t have a goal to get off maintenance completely, at this point, cause I started using opiates legally, due to chronic pain, and wasn’t addicted til I lost my doctor (not for abuse reasons) and bought pills on the street so I wouldn’t lose my job. That was before we realized they have fentanyl in them and all that, and things progressed to where pills were too expensive…the usual story. I ended up losing my whole career and I never thought I’d end up doing dates again (I was turned out as a teen), but after a shoplifting bust, that soon followed. Suboxone saved me from having to generate all that money every day, so I could stabilize my life. That doctor moved, too, and that’s where Kratom came in. Later, I got another Suboxone doc. If I had even heard of Suboxone when I lost the first doctor, I could have skipped the whole mess! I think pain doctors purposely don’t tell you about that because they don’t want people going to the clinic and saying their doctor got them hooked on opiates. Either that or the addiction medicine specialty is so far removed from physiatry and other areas where they treat pain. In any case I i’m glad there’s more awareness now of these options. I wish that people knew Suboxone and Kratom cannot get a true opiate addict high. It’s just an aid in the struggle but it’s still a struggle. I’m not opposed to Methadone either. Anything that can free up your resources to not be living in the street is a way to start working on recovery. I sure hope you are able to find a better way for you. I know it’s not as simple as a program for everybody. I also, eventually, found a great IOP treatment program I couldn’t have done it without. Hope & blessings to you!
@sovietchampagne
@sovietchampagne 3 жыл бұрын
@@heidiho5179 Are you getting kratom from head shops or do you order online? What quantity do you buy in and how much do you consume in a day? Kratom is much more affordable if you order it in quantities like 250g, 500g or 1kg at once.
@bigdejj
@bigdejj 3 жыл бұрын
awesome! wish you the absolute best! 🙏🏽🙏🏽💜
@DahntayW
@DahntayW 3 жыл бұрын
@@fionarobins4958 shit u need a bf??? jkjk i dont wanna be clean but im giving it a try i guess kinda. i hope youre doing good.
@robyn_byrd
@robyn_byrd 3 жыл бұрын
There's something about a black man's tears. Keep fighting Marlon. Draw your strength from the support of this channel..
@adriand1181
@adriand1181 3 жыл бұрын
Mark we need part 2 please! I wanna hear more
@stevedavies4058
@stevedavies4058 3 жыл бұрын
I Relate with guys so much, I wish him all the best - you can do it Marlon, just never give up!
@dianabanana3817
@dianabanana3817 3 жыл бұрын
He reminds me of DMX. There is so much depth to his suffering and his gift. I pray he gets delivered from the pain and destructive desire ❤
@ThePresentation010
@ThePresentation010 3 жыл бұрын
Crack heads..
@beatrixb3586
@beatrixb3586 3 жыл бұрын
Damn that was real talk. Especially the second half of the interview. It’s incredibly difficult to come clean and talk about your addiction and what it’s led you to, much less to sit in front of camera and do it. More power to you Marlon, I respect your openness and vulnerability.
@djblondi138
@djblondi138 3 жыл бұрын
i hope he gets his shit together...life is better on the other side.luv the poetry
@fionarobins4958
@fionarobins4958 3 жыл бұрын
Dear Marlon,your a very special man who could help so,so,so many people,with what you've learnt thru your addiction,please try 2 get yourself straight,obviously firstly 4 yourself,&then your family&loved ones,but then 2 help other addicts that are suffering with nowhere 2 turn...peace,love&empathy from across the pond🇬🇧 🙏💜💕💜
@ladytaz39
@ladytaz39 3 жыл бұрын
His rap/poetry bought me to tears. I understand the struggle he’s going thru. I felt this one. ❤️❤️❤️
@s.d.mitchell9505
@s.d.mitchell9505 3 жыл бұрын
Your videos have taught me that everyone has a story, and taught me to have compassion for these people.
@in-ri9uz
@in-ri9uz 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you, Mark. That was POWERFUL! I felt his anguish… Marlon speaks about disappointing others, I think it hurts more because he keeps disappointing himself. HBO are you tuned in? This is award winning documentary material.
@dirtypatwalsh
@dirtypatwalsh 3 жыл бұрын
That poem was great at the end…real interesting cat!
@Scandinavian_Pride
@Scandinavian_Pride 3 жыл бұрын
My parents divorced when I was 3. So idk what it's like to have that kinda love. I can't even imagine how that feels. Then mom got married four more times; my dad three more times. I'm 48yrs old now; I'm not putting blame on anyone, I never have because down the years I've pieced my parents lives together & I see their hurt & struggles. I see why dad called me a no good piece of shit; that I'd never amount to nothing. His dad (my grandfather) committed suicide when my dad was only 12. I left my mom when I was 13 to live with my dad; that's when my life changed. Mom didn't drink or do drugs but dad did; I wasn't use to being in that life style. I went from a happy kid to surviving a drug infected world. The only time my dad ever told me he loved me was 2 hours before he was murdered in the streets. It's a long story. But the day I decided to move from one parent to the next, is the day the window of opportunity for a happy productive life all but closed. I didn't write this for pity. I wrote this to help answer that 1 question I see/hear a lot- "why do people do things like that?" This is not a complete answer. It's just a piece of a very complicated problem. In the end, "everyone's life starts in the home."
@thematriarchy2075
@thematriarchy2075 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you very much for sharing. Yes, life starts in the home. I wish you the best❤
@rckism4198
@rckism4198 3 жыл бұрын
its insane how good he looks for his age and his decades of addiction. never judge a book by its cover i guess. i hope and pray that he finds a way out of this.
@ebonehood270
@ebonehood270 3 жыл бұрын
This was so powerful! The poem was beautiful
@dwannasandifer6847
@dwannasandifer6847 3 жыл бұрын
Most realest...absolute best description of addiction of all of Marks interviews..I get it...totally get it ..coming from an addict here.
@jussaying6345
@jussaying6345 3 жыл бұрын
💯👍
@DOROSKI
@DOROSKI 3 жыл бұрын
You can do it marlon!! We’re all rooting for you!!
@TheTristanmarcus
@TheTristanmarcus 3 жыл бұрын
The wisdom of experience - great guy 🙏🏽
@GambiG85
@GambiG85 3 жыл бұрын
God bless you, Marlon. I haven’t smoked an ounce of crack in my life, but I see so much on myself in you as a fellow human being. You are a beautiful person and a survivor of pain.
@kimberelyjones9509
@kimberelyjones9509 3 жыл бұрын
Wonderful interview - my spirit has been uplifted.
@millions2nette
@millions2nette 3 жыл бұрын
Very interesting and wide range interview. I would like to here or see and update on Marlon, in a couple of weeks.
@jussaying6345
@jussaying6345 3 жыл бұрын
Me too
@joycoful
@joycoful 3 жыл бұрын
Perhaps a year - he’s got potential to overcome ..
@Sunshine-gh6vy
@Sunshine-gh6vy 3 жыл бұрын
The poetry at the end was touching …. Oh my goodness 😩❤️ I literally cried when you cried. Marlon you are a beautiful soul with a story to tell. I’m so happy you told yours
@teemariethatsme8075
@teemariethatsme8075 3 жыл бұрын
I felt this in my heart. I hope this man is successful at leaving it alone. Speak brother.
@tristanb9445
@tristanb9445 3 жыл бұрын
Soon as he said “ I don’t qualify to judge anybody” I gained major respect
@rogieru8796
@rogieru8796 3 жыл бұрын
“It’s not all it’s cracked up to be” he said ,omg that is so fitting ! What a sad case , I have a friend that turned to crack and he has not stopped in 3 years .
@ctrl_alt_delete4729
@ctrl_alt_delete4729 3 жыл бұрын
Thought the same thing!
@leeleemee
@leeleemee 3 жыл бұрын
“It’s not all it’s cracked up to be”. I caught that reference as well 🤨. Although I feel compassion for his struggle, as a family member (especially with children) I wouldn’t take the risk of socializing with him in person. Safety.
@heidiho5179
@heidiho5179 3 жыл бұрын
I caught that too. It’s definitely not!
@blazefairchild465
@blazefairchild465 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you Mark for a revisit Marlon. He reminds me of a friend from my old neighborhood. Who ended becoming sober at 29 & turned his life around. He ended having a great sober life. Marlon don't stop yourself from being successful. You can do it. Be a good son, love your mom extra for the days you screwed up. With alot of love comes commitment ,then with that you will start to finish what you start. You need to work on that, then emotional maturity will help you work on your addiction. I wish you all the best.💕🕊️
@wesleyAlan9179
@wesleyAlan9179 3 жыл бұрын
This was a great interview, thanks guys! 💜😁🤟
@jussaying6345
@jussaying6345 3 жыл бұрын
100😉
@HUMBLE909
@HUMBLE909 3 жыл бұрын
Great, great interview.
@jussaying6345
@jussaying6345 3 жыл бұрын
The best one I've seen so far
@nealjohnston954
@nealjohnston954 3 жыл бұрын
Superb Mark! This is one of your all time greats. Very, very intelligent, and very moving. Absolutely riveting and fascinating. Thank you so much. Its fascinating what; and how we can interpret and learn from these videos. Some of which take on a life of their own, and can 'take flight'. Like this one does - as a kind of testimonial. 🤲
@jussaying6345
@jussaying6345 3 жыл бұрын
Absolutely 💯
@johncothren603
@johncothren603 3 жыл бұрын
That poem gave me goosebumps instantly, God bless!
@Ashleyiza
@Ashleyiza 3 жыл бұрын
Thank you Mark. You and these people never go unnoticed 💕
@SHADOWURLD
@SHADOWURLD 3 жыл бұрын
Doing them drugs opening you up to demonic possession... this is literal. This guy is intelligent and understands
@RZ42148
@RZ42148 3 жыл бұрын
Yes! 💯
@mallorihaze3016
@mallorihaze3016 3 жыл бұрын
Marlon, call your Mom. One day you won't be able to. I'm only a few mins in. I never comment this early! 💜
@StrawberryFields4ever65
@StrawberryFields4ever65 3 жыл бұрын
Wow...I knew almost IMMEDIATELY that Marlon was a Christian. What a blessing he gave us with his testimony. I am praying that his hopes and dreams come true. God bless him.
@TT-cj3ek
@TT-cj3ek 3 жыл бұрын
I felt this . I’ve been there . When the pain of staying high starts to hurt worse than the pain of getting sober , true lasting change can begin . Life is beautiful , I hope he gets and accepts the help he needs
@teashiaincrediibleh.3646
@teashiaincrediibleh.3646 5 ай бұрын
Marlon, your contributions count greatly but your time is different than time. When one's an addict their time is usually behind some years so when you say everything you've done for others is all washed away when you mess up its just that you may have messed up so many times while disappearing to resurfacing to do it again and again. What if multiple people who you absolutely love continually let you down over and over again for years upon years? ❤❤ God bless you ❤❤
@neichathomas3539
@neichathomas3539 3 жыл бұрын
I wish you the best Marlon. This was a good interview.
@bigsister47
@bigsister47 3 жыл бұрын
Don’t cry Marlon it’s going to be alright, Lord Jesus shine in him and on him , become the water 💦 of life in this man
@luvleeana
@luvleeana 3 жыл бұрын
I really like this guy… super smart and loving. So deep… all addicts are amazing people. Their brains are incredible
@a.wanderer5006
@a.wanderer5006 3 жыл бұрын
Brilliant spoken word but this dude is insightful and wise enough to know he has to give it up already. It's astounding how ever intelligent people can have such huge blind spots. He externalizes what he is doing with his life by saying, "I just need a little acceptance. It makes me want to be what they think I am" only to justify his actions. He clearly has moments of cognitive dissonance - he doesn't want to see the impact of his addiction on his loved ones.
@mist....6312
@mist....6312 3 жыл бұрын
I believe we all have a demon within us over one thing or another. One glutteny or another, But drugs are a very hard glutteny when we know that it is a passageway to evil. These are the things that make us enslaved in our lives.. I am the same age of this man, and I completely understand the ways of this world. God bless you brother, you know right from wrong, you will find the right path. Keep praying to the good Lord above. PEACE......
@theministryofpeacekmk4156
@theministryofpeacekmk4156 3 жыл бұрын
Amen. 🙏✝💖
@User_92020
@User_92020 3 жыл бұрын
Yes i do
@thekatt...
@thekatt... 3 жыл бұрын
Mark...not only are you opening people's eyes to how the cycle grinds on through the generations. But these videos help many of us who watch. By making us grateful for every second of our sobriety. Because that could be me. That should be me, or my kids, or my grandkids. With every single video, I am aware of how blessed I am. So, thank you Mark. From the bottom of my heart. ❤🇨🇦❤🌈
@Sarajanesjourney
@Sarajanesjourney 3 жыл бұрын
Marlon it's never to late to help yourself again because you are worth it!
@meetmaxdream
@meetmaxdream 3 жыл бұрын
This channel is a gift to the world. Everyone needs to see this. Amazing story from an incredible man. "I'm not qualified to judge anybody" that shit got me in tears. What a beautiful soul. Stay strong Marlon. You can repair them broken wings, I see your angelic spirit. It beams from within. & lord, the way you speak. Your story is a blessing. Mark is one of the most impactful creators of all time. This channel giving hope to the hopeless and a voice to those who feel like their life, their story will never matter. Let me tell yall, it matters. These are human beings. Thank you, thank you so much for letting these people tell their story. This channel is giving me a reason to live. A reason not to give up on myself and my dreams. You will never know what that means. Love and prayers to Marlon, Mark and all of the interviewees. 🙏 love yall, & I really mean it💕
@blackcosmos
@blackcosmos 3 жыл бұрын
Marlon ask some really good questions. Never underestimate an addict n try not to treat them bad cause their human beings fighting a tough battle...
@stephaniemcbroom9615
@stephaniemcbroom9615 3 жыл бұрын
Praying for you Marlon, I believe in you.. you are a kind smart man. You are so much more than you know stay strong and focused...bless you dear one...
@lisac8088
@lisac8088 3 жыл бұрын
You nailed this interview! As always!! Bravo!!!!
@wallygee2198
@wallygee2198 3 жыл бұрын
Marlon I am your age and looked back and did everything you did, it hurts but you made it and hopefully you can help others but do your best to take care of yourself first make sure you realize that God kept you on this earth for some importance keep doing your best to love life and wish you the best
@thebestseason5034
@thebestseason5034 3 жыл бұрын
He’s very wise, I agree with everything he said. I wish him success.
@lisaclarke2920
@lisaclarke2920 3 жыл бұрын
Marlon, you are a very talented man. Besides the actual addiction, I see this little merry go round happening because in a weird way, you have associated the rejection from your family as being the truth. When you get things together, you get a fright and subconsciously say, I am a failure and I dissapoint people, and so you bring this into reality. You really can be who you want to be Marlon. *big hugs* I hope you write more poetry, it's beautiful and had me in tears
@patriciaque197
@patriciaque197 3 жыл бұрын
Great interview! Marlon, when you do decide to cease and desist, do it for YOU. It's trying to cover up your inate talents...let your light shine🙏💛🙏
@melriini8280
@melriini8280 3 жыл бұрын
He’s a sweet man. I wish him all the best.
@matthewlindsay5323
@matthewlindsay5323 Ай бұрын
Man I got to say I've never seen so much humility in all of these interviews that I've seen by mark. This guy know exactly what he's doing and he's aware of it. Am I excusing his lifestyle and behavior? Nobut like he said, I have no room to judge anyone. No room whatsoever. I can actually see myself grabbing a beer with this dude, and I don't like hanging out with people. I'm an introvert to the core
@maggiegaru6612
@maggiegaru6612 3 жыл бұрын
This series of videos is profoundly important to people like myself (from flyover rural Ozarks) wanting to understand the extreme differences in American society. Like Mark, I find it impossible to blame many of his subjects for the terrible circumstances in which they find themselves. I am thankful for the plain old rural setting where I grew up.
@themoose66
@themoose66 3 жыл бұрын
I'd like to see more of him! Had my attention the whole time!
@quashawna1
@quashawna1 3 жыл бұрын
Intelligent Black Man . Praying for health 🙏🏽
@alyssagolden4444
@alyssagolden4444 3 жыл бұрын
Love this interview and him I would love an update soon ❤
@lukecronquist6003
@lukecronquist6003 3 жыл бұрын
He knows how addiction really works
@patricialucarelli9669
@patricialucarelli9669 3 жыл бұрын
Yes!! My heart and understanding is with you.❤️
@meetmaxdream
@meetmaxdream 3 жыл бұрын
"I just needed a little acceptance.." "It makes me wanna be what they think I am" touches me so deeply. I feel the same damn thing. I hurt myself because people hurt me as well. I'm trying not to destroy myself cause people hurt me anymore. It's hard when you develop that as a way to process pain and cruelty but I know you can break that pattern. It takes self awareness & strength but I think you have so much of both. I know I do too.
@tanyadunn6977
@tanyadunn6977 3 жыл бұрын
So sad! Wishing you all the best🙏🏽😊
@oki2660
@oki2660 3 жыл бұрын
I love his honesty.. The past is there but move on. Stop living your past trauma. He was great to listen to.
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