MyHouse.WAD | The DOOM Mod that Drove its Creator INSANE

[@jsElsa]

i tried to watch this video stoned but sobered up halfway through bc i was so engrossed in the video i forgot to keep smoking. Damn

[@stupidratt]

Now do it again, but sober THEN stoned.

[@marinasaenz2756]

@@stupidratt can confirm this is the proper way, 10/10 never been more freaked out or paranoid

[@Justrandomeperson]

​@@marinasaenz2756y'all ain't sipping lean? while smokin Y'all Should try it out.

[@LocalUrbanLegend]

that’s how you know the shit is good-when you literally forget to keep smoking lmao

[@dylanmonstrum1538]

If I watched this high, I'd have a panic attack. Not even joking. I honestly have no idea how you people do it.

[@maura_edwards]

Finally… as a lady it always frustrates me when no one mentions out bathroom demons… glad they were finally acknowledged

[@noahvadertheberserkerpacki6604]

So that's what happens in those stalls with the weird bowls in them... I always wondered why women's bathrooms weren't just urinals since everyone knows women don't shit.

[@maura_edwards]

@@noahvadertheberserkerpacki6604 obviously. I confirm I’ve never shit. Those bowls are actually the bathroom demons beds

[@noahvadertheberserkerpacki6604]

@@maura_edwards Oh thanks! I'll look into it more. My college restroomology course is accepting extra credit for any interesting details on how people use the restroom. I'm sure professor Lidshit is eager to know how other genders use their facilities... "The wonders of the world can truly be found as the bottom of all toilets," he told me. What a wise man.

[@bellAa_akaPlusheen]

omg, like dont you hate it when blood demons sppAWN on our used pads then make a mess? ughh (no offense for the demons, theyre nice)

[@maura_edwards]

@@bellAa_akaPlusheen that’s literally the worst babes. But sometimes it has a silver lining. I befriended my period demon

[@bread7932]

As I was a janitor I can confirm that is a normal woman's restroom.

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you for elevating our humble comments section with your professional perspective

[@badrum_real]

period joke alert! period joke alert!

[@arcaneSae]

To be fair i cleaned bathrooms for 5 years and i agree the womans bathroom is worse

[@Shenorai]

I was a hospital housekeeper. Can confirm this as well.

[@cumcumcum148]

As a person who lived in college dorms for five years and hearing every day about some shit happened in women wing bathrooms I can agree

[@jaysshittyvideos3039]

I wanna point out, the song that plays from the car radio is dubbed "The Most Mysterious Song on the Internet". It was played on a German radio station once in the mid 80s and that's all anyone knows about it. No title, artist, label, etc has ever been found. Some people have speculated that it comes from another dimension/reality.

[@WobblesandBean]

It's definitely not from an alternate reality, but it is a fun mystery. It reminds me of all the great music I can't access anymore because they were local bands who don't exist and never digitized their music.

[@crowmudgeon]

Yeah, this is another big example of just how plugged in this map is with its target audience. Crazy stuff.

[@EmeraldEmsiron]

I think the best part is that it perfectly meshes with the vibe of the map, despite it seeming upbeat, like This song somehow feels perfect for facing demons in a strange manifestation of memories and trauma, despite neither the lyrics nor the actual music having any connection to that.

[@shingshongshamalama]

If whoever the irl "Veddge" is turned out to actually be the original creator of that song that'd be the most amazing twist ending ever.

[@eltiolavara9]

thats such a dumb theory lol things can just get lost

[@minaxa]

Thank you so much for the honor of helping with voicing in the video!

[@crowmudgeon]

Dude it was such a joy and it made the video SO much better. Thanks again for your help!

[@WobblesandBean]

You sound so much like RagnarRox, and I mean that in the best way possible 💜

[@gnobblarthehouseneger2646]

U voooice soo preetttyy

[@ToasterBurns]

You did amazing and it made it sound so real

[@BoyOHBoy123]

yo the trtf dude 😁

[@runlittlerabbit]

About the "theory" that the book "House of Leaves" IS the house itself, it's less a theory and more of an unspoken truth. Remember what set the Navidsons spiraling into madness? It was when they used super-accurate laser measuring and found out their house was 1/4th an inch larger on the interior wall than the exterior. Now, look at the book. The front cover is 1/4th an inch shorter than the pages within.

[@crowmudgeon]

What the CRAP

[@neurohack9038]

@@crowmudgeon Do some research.

[@Mr_Top_Hat_Jones]

What the actual hell? I’ve owned the book for 20 years, and couldn’t even make a guess as to how many times I’ve read it. Yet, while I obviously know that the cover is shorter, I never made the connection that it’s 1/4 of an inch shorter. I have always tried (sometimes unsuccessfully) to stay away from internet theories. I revisit *House* every few years, and usually develop a new theory (or add to one of my existing ones). Edit: Looking at it now, there’s even a picture of a damn ruler that’s visibly protruding from under the cover. 😂

[@saltypineapple8371]

as a graphic designer, house of leaves blows me the fuck away and i aspire to be as good as the author who designed it. this BLOWS ME AWAY HOLY SHIT. I haven't even finished the book, im only a 3rd of the way there, but I was wondering why the cover was always shorter than the rest of the book and that it was a pseudo dust cover jacket as well. because its both 1/4th short and can extend past its limits. fucking. wow.

[@PyramidCat_]

Man, I've never even compared this in 7 years of owning a book - I thought it was just another design game with the reader. It's amazing!

[@salemwhite2446]

If the pepis room joke didn’t fully win me over then the bathroom demon joke sure did, this is my kinda video. Long form video game analysis with the perfect touch of humor, you’ve got me hooked and I’m officially subbed

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you so much! Thrilled to have you here!

[@sammyjones8279]

It's the smallest thing, but the fact that you *still* tried to turn on the sink at 1:13:50 even while in purgatory shows you truly get what this map, and really doom as a whole, is all about

[@crowmudgeon]

Gotta check everything lol

[@Cheestroanasty]

Hitting e on every surface 😎

[@VinesEntwined]

When he said "i think this is normal" when entering the women's bathroom, got me dying! Yep its like this everyday thats why we have gun and ammo dispensers 😂

[@crowmudgeon]

I'm glad that your local Walmart keeps things well stocked 👍

[@FatalHog]

Even a BFG for those special occasions.

[@chillyavian7718]

I would like a free ammo dispenser, everything is ridiculously expensive nowadays.

[@Abraxium]

My house... in the middle of the street! My house... it's as normal as it seems! My house... please don't check for demons under the sheets

[@jadefox33445]

The end hurts so much. I love how deep this game is.

[@crowmudgeon]

Haha I feel you there. I was so happy with how the end for this one turned out

[@youtubestuff683]

So this is before watching your video in whole, but I have watched other people cover this here is my theory. I believe Tom and Steve were a gay couple but neither is the author. Its pretty obvious that they were married as everything in the map leads to this. Now why do I think neither are the author well thats because they are both dead you can find their obituaries in the game news paper articles talking about how they are both having a funeral at the same place at the same time both having a spouce mentioned in the paper but neither being stated to be survived by that spouse. I believe Tom died in a car crash thats why we see the car crash in the woods after hearing the news Steve ended it as he couldn't go on. Now about the baby crib and stuff I believe this has to do with the author more specifically I believe the author loved Steve but was female and with Steve being gay and in love with Tom it would never work out, Steve and Tom wanted a child so the author offered to carry a child to term with for them but the child didn't make it. Through grief, guilt, and pain, the author still desperately wanted to be with Steve and started to take medication to under a go transgender change we can understand this due to the bathroom in the airport and the bathroom signs changing after you take the pills. Also Tom didn't die immediately in the car crash as implied he made it to a gas station where he called for help and was rushed to the hospital but he died there you can tell this when you go to the hospital he's the person that flat lined. The reason why I think there are three characters that this mod is about, and why the Author loves Steve specifically is because the author keeps referring to their friend not friends passing away if the author knew Steve and Steve and Tom were married it would go to assume that the Author knew Tom as well but its hinted at in Journals and other things in the game that when they talk about their friend they are talking about Steve. The author hated Tom for taking Steve away from them. This is my theory based off of what we know.

[@youtubestuff683]

I can't edit my other post but I accidentally swapped around Steve and Tom. The author loved Tom not Steve

[@gross-galaxy]

The griffin mcelroy pepis jumpscare really got to me lmao i havent seen those videos in ages. Really well edited and thought out video dude!

[@crowmudgeon]

I've got a buddy who loves that video, threw it in there for him haha

[@WobblesandBean]

GIVE ME THE BEPIS 🦜

[@QuikVidGuy]

He finally found the Pipis

[@benthadragon]

I have the theory that him and his friend are the same person. And it's all a metaphor for the death of one's innocence and past self, feeling like the person you once were was died and the person you are now is someone completely different.

[@crowmudgeon]

I second this. I definitely think they're the same person, not sure how that works with their whole friendship, but it's hard to be sure about anything with this map. I like your addition of it being a metaphor for big, life-altering changes.

[@Jeekc]

@@crowmudgeon The top comment did say the creator went through a divorce a few months after releasing the map, this may be the "big, life-altering change" as he and his then-wife spiraled into the inevitable.

[@crowmudgeon]

@@Jeekc This is my current theory as well. It's honestly really heartbreaking

[@DANCERcow]

No, the friend of this mod it was dedicated to in the secret grave , Thomas allord is a real person who did die. Not some dumb metaphor.

[@benthadragon]

@@DANCERcow can I have a source for this information?

[@oldfashionedboots2774]

This is literally one of the best videos I’ve seen in a while- the “happiness must be fought for” made me sit up and go “no way- a horror game that wants you to… not be sad?” That spoke to me deeply- as someone who has struggled hard with medical depression and anxiety- it’s so easy to try and pretend that the fake beach is happiness and that we have to accept that this is the way it will always be Really and truly thank you for making such a fantastic video, really this has been the highlight of my day

[@templar19]

As someone who's read "House of Leaves", the idea of Will Navidson owning a realty company is hilarious. It's like Kratos from God of War I leading an anger management class.

[@PhantomTMac]

I was scrolling through TikTok one day and came across a video about MyHouse. The wife of the map’s creator had commented on it and going to her profile confirmed it was her. She had videos of the house and explained the Pumpkin Rick reference. Her name is Amy, which explains the “A” in the hearts in the map.

[@crowmudgeon]

OH MY GOSH YOU'RE RIGHT www.tiktok.com/@bananapantsamy/video/7237105427266309422 www.tiktok.com/@bananapantsamy/video/7237151800221044011 THANK YOU SO MUCH, THIS MADE MY WEEK HAHAHA

[@PhantomTMac]

@@crowmudgeonNo problem! It was an exciting find for me as well! My mind was blown!

[@everythingsalright1121]

Welp she comments theyre getting divorced. Well thats depressing. So much for the love messages

[@crowmudgeon]

I think it's because the map was done as a way for her husband to cope with the divorce. Wouldn't surprise me if all these different areas we see through the map are memories the two shared---embittered by dissapointment as this chapter of their lives comes to a close. That said, I think that saying "so much for the love messages" is a bit cynical. To me, it reads more like a testament to the love they once felt. It's been immortalized in some way through this map. "We really did love each other. We genuinely thought we could make it work, and even if we were wrong, I never want to forget that we tried"

[@calvaryishere1632]

you say "so much for the love messages" like that's all that mattered. This is a video game for gods sake, just because you put a little XOXO in a message doesn't mean jack shit. I carved my ex and I's initials into a tree stump, and she's an EX for a good reason. @@everythingsalright1121

[@kryptik.6422]

Damn this video is surprisingly powerful. The subject matter is profound of course, but the narration elevates it greatly. This is genuinely one of my favourite videos I've seen in recent memory.

[@crowmudgeon]

Really happy to hear that :)

[@scmontgomery]

​@@crowmudgeonI agree. Your narrative style brings a whole new depth to the things you cover. Your tone, metre and thoughtful consideration of the materials is refreshing.

[@harrogeorge7878]

This didn’t make me sad, until the end, being called out so hard filled me with emotion, I don’t call for help and I drown silently, I avoid effort and I am terrified of needing help. I feel I would fall prey to the desperation and fear, but too stubborn to ask, for help.

[@crowmudgeon]

Life is really hard dude, and unfortunately, the way our minds work is that we only seem to ask for help as a last option. We feel like it's wrong for us to go to others with our problems, but it's so much worse to try to keep everything to ourselves. I totally feel you on the avoiding effort front. It's been a long journey for me to actually do anything with my life. There are 3 pieces of advice that really changed my life: 1. Aim up, no matter what. By setting good goals for your life, you accept direction into your life. Without direction, no amount of effort can bring about change. 2. If it's worth doing, it's worth doing poorly. If it's worth it to drink 64 ounces of water a day, it's also good to drink a glass of water a day. If it's worth making it to class on time, it's worth it to show up late. Just getting 1% or even 0.01% better each day is better than nothing at all! 3. Don't feel like you have to want the things other people tell you to want. For me, I didn't realize until after college that I didn't really care about having a degree. I just wanted to get some work done, and I was already equipped with the skills I needed to learn. Some people end up working hard at careers they don't care about when what they really wanted was to stay home and raise a family. It's important to be in tune with yourself and your emotions so that you can really figure out where you want your life to go. Anyway, I don't know if these will be helpful to you, but they were to me, so I wanted to share. I hope you have a good day, and thank you for your comment :D

[@ashevalentino]

god you're such an underrated content creator, you've made such an enjoyable video and im literally so upset i didn't find your videos sooner

[@crowmudgeon]

All good, they were just waiting patiently for you. Glad to have you here :)

[@Thor-Orion]

Why are you upset for finding his channel and having an entire backlog of content from him to work your way through?!

[@ashevalentino]

@@Thor-Orion u know what that's mad true

[@scmontgomery]

@@Thor-Orion I think its more of a "where have you been all my life" vibe.

[@Dr.Drumbas]

You uploaded this like 5 minutes before I sat down to do some class work, I tried to put it on as background noise while I was working (like I do for most video essays). Then 15 minutes in I got distracted with the “crushingly difficult challenge mode where you have to complete the level while blinded by you’re own tears” forgot what I was doing, then proceeded to watch the entire video all the way through. This was a phenomenal video, and I’m glad I took a “short” break from my class work to watch this lol

[@crowmudgeon]

Haha thanks for watching, I'm so glad you enjoyed, and I hope your class work goes well :)

[@sashageorges4643]

God never knew how much the simple statement of "happiness must be fought fo"r has changed my perspective. Subscribed! I don't normally like game walkthroughs but this is art. Art built on art

[@crowmudgeon]

Glad you enjoyed! Thanks for watching!

[@BlackRoseCloud]

No kidding! It is a simple but powerful statement. Happiness doesn't just come with contentness it requires effort, it has to be fought for.

[@v3nik287]

The spookiest scare for me in this video was seeing your sub count. Jesus you deserve so much more, this moved me to tears and I was already familiar with the mod. Great job!

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you so much!

[@madisontucker6803]

I had never heard of this game (I wasn’t really a doom player), but this video so far has been fantastic. I love these type of horror games. It’s such an eerie feeling and yet, it’s like you can’t stop digging. I’m only 10 minutes into the video and I’m so invested. So fantastic work to the creature of My House, and fantastic work to you for such an awesome video. Like I said, only 10 minutes in and I am so fully invested. You’re an awesome writer, and I can’t wait to see more that you do.

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank so much! I hope you'll enjoy the rest of the video :D

[@justinkoehlerr]

with this type of quality im so surprised your videos don't each get hundreds of thousands of views, keep up the good work bro! 👍

[@crowmudgeon]

I appreciate that! Glad you're enjoying!

[@illhark]

they definitely will soon, crow's getting like a hundred subs per hour right now

[@joshuac4772]

I've seen people ask, "are video games art?" Well, this mod, of a 30 year old game about slaying demons, is absolutely art. It certianly deserves a Cacoaward.

[@user-jl7cz2pe6d]

Here's another secret: if you go to the attic in the normal world after you release the Mirrorvile, you can actually see it in the mirror staring back at you. Also your size changes between the two versions of the game. In the "intended" release you're much smaller. Kinda like the different rooms in the brutalist house

[@CatWizard08]

Honestly, a part that got me is the fight for happiness then the hospital and pills and the guy saying to not give up yet that’s something that stayed with me

[@crowmudgeon]

I'm really happy to hear that!

[@Mordecai02]

As much as I found the hospital scene genuinely gripping and captivating, I also appreciate the small, subtle bit of humor in how one of Player's first actions after 1:14:10 entertaining the possibility that they died... is to 1:14:29 try to get a soft drink and a snack.

[@casperghosts5036]

For some reason the only thing that actually made me almost cry in this was the way you said 'and you're not alone' and showed the fucking dog. Jesus man. What a masterpiece of a video. You really work hard to make your videos on subjects feel like a reflection OF the subject itself. I really really respect that.

[@officialtoddhoward69]

The part that unnerves me most is that I still can't figure out if the creator is simply playing a character for the sake of the map's experience or if they are truly serious and in need of help

[@LostMediaArchivesIncorporated]

It is a new type of horror we haven’t seen before. Seeing a gameplay of Doom that is modded into a horror type game is so interesting. We hope there is more games likes these and more mods that are scary. Also keep up the good work on explaining the whole story and lore behind this mod. Everything else, that’s all we have and always have a wonderful day 👍

[@crowmudgeon]

I think the whole DOOM modding community is gonna explode. More than it already does

[@BlackRoseCloud]

There's a few mods across various games that are starting to show a very interesting personal kind of horror. There is a SM64 mod B3313 I think that's the correct number. But it's kind of similar, a seemingly never ending experience that almost seems to change as you progress with subtle scary details. (Though it does have one hilarious jump scare)

[@thatonemiddlechild9641]

Alright I’m gonna come out and say it, I’ve seen only a handful of your videos but the way you create them and edit them ( weather that’s you or another person still ) is very impressive and, if your keep pouring the passion that you do put in each video, then I say you are on track to, maybe not now, but definitely in the future become one of the much more popular KZbin channels without a doubt in my mind. The way you talked to the player in this one and the way you slowly made yourself sound like Steve or someone to be thought of as a sort of antagonist are just little things that I and probably every one who watched this Very much enjoyed! Keep up your amazing work man!

[@crowmudgeon]

I handle the production myself for the most part. My wife was a huge help with the extremely lengthy scripting process for Vita Carnis Explained, though, and I'm tremendously grateful to her for that. These last two scripts combined would nearly equal the length of a short novel---about 28,000 words and almost 100 pages, so having help with that is, as you can imagine, very appreciated haha I love that the sort of character I was playing came through to you so clearly---I had no idea whether or not that would translate, but it really seems like it resonated with at least a few of you, and that's all I ever wanted haha I really love the whole process of doing this. From research to production to publication, each step is uniquely motivating and enjoyable. I've been blessed with a lot of time and opportunities to learn the necessary skills to put these together, and I'm really excited to continue putting that all to use to serve you guys. Thanks for the incredibly kind comment, friend :D

[@thatonemiddlechild9641]

@@crowmudgeon you are absolutely welcome! And I forgot to say this in the original post BUT, the way I ( and probably most others ) watch KZbin is I look for more popular KZbinrs because there content FEELS like they have the years of experience to make there stuff good, when I watched your Vita Carnis video, I assumed that you had around like 500k-1m subs and when I went to go hit subscribe yesterday, I was shocked to see only 4k, now that may be because the type of genre of videos you make is a bit less main stream ( which right now is subway surfer underneath Peter griffin for some reason ) but the way you format your videos and the way they come out so GOOD, like you know what is good and what’s not good, especially when covering horror it’s something that if I ever wanted to make a channel, your definitely the person I’m going to be taking notes on! All in all I hope your future with your family is awesome and this year you gain all the traction you need to keep this spooky horror train going! Alright now I’m done lol.

[@thatonemiddlechild9641]

@@crowmudgeon you are absolutely welcome! And I forgot to say this in the original post BUT, the way I ( and probably most others ) watch KZbin is I look for more popular KZbinrs because there content FEELS like they have the years of experience to make there stuff good, when I watched your Vita Carnis video, I assumed that you had around like 500k-1m subs and when I went to go hit subscribe yesterday, I was shocked to see only 4k, now that may be because the type of genre of videos you make is a bit less main stream ( which right now is subway surfer underneath Peter griffin for some reason ) but the way you format your videos and the way they come out so GOOD, like you know what is good and what’s not good, especially when covering horror it’s something that if I ever wanted to make a channel, your definitely the person I’m going to be taking notes on! All in all I hope your future with your family is awesome and this year you gain all the traction you need to keep this spooky horror train going! Alright now I’m done lol.

[@crowmudgeon]

@@thatonemiddlechild9641 This must have slipped through the cracks, sorry. Thanks again though, very much appreciate your sincerity :)

[@shadow_shine3578]

Yes you talking to the player was absolutely amazing

[@cuvpake]

This is an impeccably produced video holy hell It felt like I was really going through a story, with its ups and downs so fully realized and described that I can't help but be immersed This video really deserves more attention

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you, super happy you enjoyed it so much :D

[@angelstios]

I’ve been going through an incredibly rough patch in my life. I really wished to give up, I wanted to. I was heartbroken-I still am-at some personal things that happened recently. I have watched videos and analyses about ‘My House’ and it quickly became one of my favorites. That was before I could find major relatability in it as well. This video has made me feel hopeful, I suppose. Life’s kicked me down pretty much… all the time. There’s definitely relatability in that aspect, but also the relatability of feeling as if I’m circling around the same loop in different settings all the time as well. ‘Happiness must be fought for’ stuck with me and stuck with me hard. I’ve been alone all of my life. I still feel like I am despite still having friends and people who love me. I choose to face things alone. I choose to because I hate screaming for help for nobody to come, for people to actively ignore me-or even worse-make me a spectacle. That’s what happens. My problems are my own, in my opinion, and I still choose to face things alone despite my knowing that it’s destroying me. I don’t deny that I need help, I know I do, but I cannot receive it. Once more, that’s just how life is and has been for me. Don’t think this makes you opening up any less useful. In fact, you sharing your testimony on loneliness and depression means a lot. I feel alone right now. I think I always will, and it’s okay for right now. I was, as (sort of) stated previously, I’ve seen videos on this previously, but this offered some new insights on certain things. The loops, coming back to loneliness and being alone, feeling disappointed by giving up, My House as a general. It’s new to me and it’s meaningful as well. The possibility for hope, happiness, love, etc. isn’t necessarily new, but it definitely stands out this time around consuming content around My House. The fact that love, indeed, is real. So is happiness. So is everything. Loneliness, despair, anguish, desperation, and more are real as well, but it’s important to fight for happiness. You AREN’T alone. You ARE loved. You are REAL. And it is OKAY to feel those ways, but it is NOT okay to give in to the despair, sadness, desperation, and loneliness. There’s always something out there worth fighting for. If you cannot find it outwardly, you need to find it within. It will not be easy, it never will, but the reward is worth it. It’s going to be worth it. You just have to get up and fight. You have to fight for yourself, if not for you, fighting for everyone else and everyTHING else. And even if you aren’t fighting for anyone or anything, you’re still fighting. You still are fighting. You still are you. You still **are**. You just are. You’ll end up on the real beach, the sun gently gracing your skin, waves cascading before you, and seagulls making noise above. You’ll be there one day. Thank you. TL;DR thank you for making this video this has helped me a lot right now. Even without the ability to answer every question, to tie up the loose ends of everything. Sometimes that’s just how things are, and it’s okay. Thank you.

[@crowmudgeon]

Hey there, sorry it took me a while to respond to this, there have been so many comments lately haha I appreciate your openness and your continued fight for happiness. It makes me so happy that this video was able to resonate with you in such a positive way, and I hope that it was able to inspire some hope within you. Have a good day, and take care of yourself :)

[@MelissaMiss]

I am an avid consumer of all things horror, especially games and ARG's. Your channel is the first I have come across that feels like your heart and soul has been poured into it. You spin straight poetry with your explanations and theories. I look forward to all future videos!

[@jackbauer9881]

*the map creator telling him not to play the pk3 version of the map* crowmudgeon: so here we are on the pk3 version of the map

[@crowmudgeon]

We had to get in there somehow lol

[@jackbauer9881]

yup. still a banger video. i watched another person do it before watching your viseo and your video is more in-depth and interesting

[@saintsaltine3909]

Your narration style and voice are absolutely perfect for audio stories!!! It’s so natural and personable but also perfectly dramatic and fitting!!! I wouldn’t be surprised if you ever did voice acting for an audio drama or fiction podcast

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you so much! Probably a good time to drop the news that I'm working on an audio horror series for members haha first episode should be out later this month

[@b.mahfoudhwejden893]

this isn't a video this is a whole experience and an emotional roller coaster holy shit i'm amazed. the way the tone of the vid switches from being cold and disturbing to funny to emotional is insane omg. i didn't expect a horror game explanation to get me in my feels lol but i geniuenely appreciate the part where you open up to the viewer and that "grief is the ultimate isolator" line really hit deep. your videos are top tier istg. i'm litteraly using your vids as a reward system, i get some school work done, i watch one

[@crowmudgeon]

Dude that's so freaking nice, thank you 😭

[@ardantyadenniskristiawans.516]

holy... this video is too good to only have 28k views. it deserves more than that, the edits, the voiceover, the story telling, the explanation, and the way you uncover the WAD is just amazingly splendid

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks so much, that means a lot :)

[@lispy0nline]

10:15 I LOVE THE TALKING HEADS

[@crowmudgeon]

PLEASE support the wonderful artists who did fan art for this video! 1. The awesome art of Mudgeon in the Ring doorbell camera was done by JaysRandomthing over on Twitter. Check him out here! twitter.com/jaysrandomthing 2. The second piece of terrific fan art was done by Busy6host, who doesn't post his art online anywhere, but you can catch him chilling in the Discord. Thank you both so much for submitting fan art, it's a joy to see your takes on this character :)

[@cintaxic6430]

You should pin this! Amazing artwork 😁

[@DonoZ420]

Your video quality is insane and I hope you blow up the way this video was put together and your other videos is incredible keep making amazing content

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks so much!

[@stridal9084]

yo bro keep this content up and i promise you you'll blow up this stuff is fire and the memes you use add a goofy kinda wendigoon vibe

[@concept5631]

@@crowmudgeon Is this what it was like to be in the creepypasta community at the peak of Slenderman?

[@VerloCC]

I absolutely HATE accidentally parkouring onto toilets and into mirrors, so annoying.

[@probablywrong3816]

So I'll be honest and admit I wasnt a fan on the psuedo roleplay going on, but I love this video for what is mostly a small segment in the later areas. When you talk about *your* experience. Thats huge, and something not a lot of people do. People find patterns and hints in the art and craft a story that suits it, which sure you did, but you also told us that the art made you feel, and why. I really like that. I think its infinitely more important to talk about why an art piece made you feel a certain way, than to try and explain it away with a story.

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks for your input! I'm glad you were able to enjoy the video in spite of the bits you weren't a fan of, that's much more encouraging than just dropping a "cringe" or something like that lol

[@WhimsyWhespir]

Dude!! I can’t believe you aren’t getting more attention, all of your videos are so high quality with a tone similar to Nick Crowley but with the ability to joke around with the topic at hand. Your editing and the research that goes into your content is amazing! I’ve watched around eight videos on this mod already and you still managed to keep me interested and wanting to know what you had to say next. Your theories are also very interesting to hear about and overall your videos just incredibly enjoyable. Loved this one on top of the others and I can’t wait to see more :D

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate the kind comment, it's very motivating to hear that people enjoyed this video so much as I knew it was going out to compete with a lot of content. I'm so happy you enjoyed, and I'm hyped to put out more videos for you :D

[@bouncer6ix]

I've watched several vidyas on this, and I have to say, yours is just brilliant. The way you presented it was so touching and personal. You're the first I've seen come to the conclusion that the two characters could be the parallel versions of each other. I teared up watching this. You did such an amazing job presenting everything and tying it together, especially the way you included the hospital scene. I also hadn't seen anyone get to the backrooms without noclip. Thank you for opening your heart to us, and I hope you're getting the help you need. That trash is nasty to deal with. Gorgeous work!

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you so much! I'm so glad you enjoyed the video so much!

[@nrub3049]

Wow man congratulations, I just watched the Vita Carnis video and I was expecting something similar here, but this video was more than just an analysis, it was an amazing and beautiful experience. I am hoping to see more of your work and the fast growth of your channel.

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks yo :D

[@sm0kysoulcynics579]

the way you set out this whole video like a narrator and a main character really let my imagination run while imagining everything from a 3rd person perspective. it really drove what you were saying into my head and made me genuinely think as i let my imagination run, and my immersion was at its highest. i really liked the way you did it! overall, very enjoyable video.

[@eljaminlatour6633]

0:41 nice "dog of wisdom" reference.

[@Monarch_Godzilla]

I've only watched 2 or 3 of your videos yet I'm so invested. Good job with everything!

[@crowmudgeon]

Awesome! Thank you!

[@chillyavian7718]

The beginning legalise combined with ‘this thing is beyond mortal man’s ken, don’t touch it’ is surprisingly funny.

[@crowmudgeon]

Haha ikr. "This may be a sentient, malevolent, and altogether cursed map, but it's MY sentient, malevolent, and altogether cursed map and DO NOT claim otherwise."

[@VDiddy5000]

Not gonna lie, this is one of my favorite videos on MyHouse; I could fire up a few paragraphs alone about your ideas on the “reflections” present, and elaborate on some of the things you pointed out (or didn’t)… But I don’t know if you’re really here for a college essay in the comments section, so I’ll just gush about one thing: your composition and storytelling of the entire thing, from first House to the final Fight, was phenomenal. I was quickly invested in you and “Me” as characters playing the map, but my favorite but is just that little extra at the end made me invested enough to want to see you-and “Me”-not only keep fighting, but *winning*. You’re the only person I’ve seen narratively place the Hospital section during the Fight for Happiness, as most people just stumbled upon it earlier and assumed it was just a reference to the Car Crash dream. And, now that I’ve seen it done, I absolutely *cannot* unsee it, because it’s just so damn narratively good. Most play throughs I’ve seen involve people dancing past the enemies to get to the Campsite, because the number of enemies present is too much unless you’ve nabbed the BFG and are well-stocked on ammo; instead, you stuck your ground, fighting by plasma, rocket, shell, and chainsaw until death tries to take you, and you said “No.” And then you went back at it again…you fought for your Happiness, and it was amazing to watch.

[@crowmudgeon]

Bro drop the college essay lol, I don't typically watch other people's analysis before doing videos like these so I'd love to hear about some stuff I missed XD. I did watch an analysis for this one of course, but I specifically went with a different theory because it's boring to always hear the same ones lol I really had a challenge set out for me to begin with because PowerPak's video on this map is one of the most incredible things I've ever seen on YT. I was so inspired by it and yet... How could I make anything even *remotely* similar without making it the same? At the very least, any way I made it different seemed like I would really just making his video worse. I realized I needed to take some risks---to make some choices that might ruin the video---on the hope that I might end up with something I'd personally never seen before. I wanted to make you feel like a part of the story---to recreate that sense that the narrative was scrambling to find its way into our reality. That also meant taking away my own sense of narratorly omniscience. I'm supposed to be in control of things, but here I am, even more lost and confused that the player haha. The hospital scene was the logical conclusion of that idea---letting the narrator slip out of the story entirely, before the whole thing crashes back together in a climax of corpses. Anyway, all this to say that I'm really glad you enjoyed it lol Your comment along with several others have been so motivating. I spent months agonizing over this video---trying to make sure that these ideas made it across to the viewer rather than being stuck in my head---with no promise that anyone would see what I saw in it. It's such a rush to read comments that are practically quoting thoughts that I had weeks ago. It gives me a lot of hope for where I might be able to take this channel with a bit of perseverance, and some reasonable breaks haha

[@VDiddy5000]

@@crowmudgeon Well, you sure sold me on your narrative! Believe me, I’ve watched several dives into MyHouse, including PowerPak’s, and I think you provided a breath of fresh air with it. A lot of people do try to wrap their head around the narrative, all analyzing, dissecting, and processing the oddities within the map and Google Drive, but honestly I think you’re the first person to point out that, by playing the map, WE are now a part of the story. Like, it always bugged me how the dreams in the Journal aren’t translated 1:1 in-game, such as the drowning dream: instead of sinking down, being pulled up by an invisible force, and emerging in a cavern of some kind, we instead push ourselves up, wade through the House, and end up in some Poolroom section. Likewise, the Daycare dream doesn’t feature Shrek, nor do we encounter any crying stillborns. However, when you factor the *player* into the narrative, it all suddenly clicks: of course these “dreams” aren’t the same, because we’re encountering them *after* the Journal Writer did(I am absolutely unsure if that’s Steve, so I’ll not refer to them as that). I didn’t even think of this until you pointed out the car: it’s outside the Brutalist House, the Airport, the Daycare, and both version of the Gas Station…almost as if someone else has been to these places before us. If we give in to dream logic, it’s certainly a possibility that the cars represent the presence of someone, or the idea that someone has transitioned or journeyed in some way from one place to the next. Speaking of transitions…there’s one big elephant that everyone has to point out: the Airport bathroom sequence, and what it means. Grabbing pills after fighting off monsters in the women’s bathroom, which has its sign swapped with the men’s bathroom after you nab the pills (or fight the demons, I can’t remember the exact trigger)? It certainly says something that nothing else in MyHouse does, and I would be hesitant to say it…however, there’s one detail that a whole lot of people miss or ignore. When you go into the men’s bathroom, regardless of whether it’s before or after the events of the women’s bathroom, you can stumbled across a stall where the toilet isn’t filled with water, but instead with blood. Again, I don’t want to outright say it, as a cis dude and all that, but all of that combined with the location(an airport) being a transitional space, along with the fact that you have to take a dangerous flight all alone, ending finally with a leap of faith that…returns you to the house, safe and sound in a bed? Well, the only thing I don’t want to speculate on is whether or not it’s Steve or Thomas, but that’s because it’s quite possible we have a third person involved here anyway if the Obituaries are to be believed. Now, to change gears a little, I really want to dive into another concept you introduced to the narrative that, in retrospect, should’ve been damn obvious, and yet I swear your the first person I’ve seen formulate the idea: Reflections, or more specifically, how different things in MyHouse as a whole can mirror each other. One that I caught(that maybe you didn’t mention on purpose) was the Dogs in the Brutalist House…I’m not entirely sure if they’re the *same* dog anymore, but instead are actually Reflections. My reasoning is that both dogs die, regardless of whichever one you go after; while this would make sense if you go after the Bad Dog, since it’s supposed to be from a child’s perspective, it doesn’t make so much sense if you off the Good Dog. The Good Dog is the adult perspective version, the one you would see after growing up; killing it shouldn’t affect the existence of the “previous” iteration, because time and continuity and all that. However, if they’re reflections of one another…then perhaps we maybe have an understanding as to why Steve and Thomas share so much in common, up to and including the end of their lives. The Dogs are reflections of each other, just as Steve and Thomas were…and when one dies, so does the other. Perhaps like Steve and Thomas? I’ll admit, it’s a little flimsier than my previous point: after all, one of the sketches in the Google Drive is of the Bad Dog, and one of the photos of the house in the Drive shows that a dog lives with the family, though I can’t remember of the top of my head whether it’s a German Shepard or not. Anyway, the Drive points to the idea that the dog Thomas’ family had did indeed scare him as a child, leading to his imaginations of the Bad Dog as an adult. Still, the linking of the two could still be a reference to reflecting each other, just not in the same way as it’s implied elsewhere. Finally, I want to mention something I was curious about; you specifically didn’t mention the origins of the Gas Station, namely that the journal author had a dream about it, nor that there’s a photo in the Google Drive of a Shell station sign with the words “Unknown-Stopped for Directions” underneath it. In fact, speaking of that Station, there’s quite a bit of curious things going on there. Firstly, while it’s not the only location to feature a Mirrored version, it is the only one whose Mirror is quite different to its normal form. The Mirrored second House, and the Mirrored Underhalls map, are both fairly “normal” aside from their flipped assets; however, the Station’s Mirrored version is actually a grislier place to go, with the car present at the station and what is clearly a crime scene going on inside, given the blood splattered anywhere. To be honest, even the regular Station’s setup is a little fascinating: it’s the one Dream area that’s almost 100% a recreation of the dream it’s based off of. We locate the crashed car, follow the authors bloody footprints the the station, and find nobody there, as if we just missed the author getting into the cab and leaving for the hospital. This is personally another reason I love that you put the Hospital bit during the final moments you’re at the regular Station, as it reflects(pun intended) how the authors dream ends with them calling a cab, and being taken from the Station to the Hospital. You know, speaking of the Dreams, I really think that it’s strange that the Station is the only one to have a Reflection at all; your can’t burn the Mirrored House down, there are no Mirrored Dogs to deal with, you can’t flood the Mirrored House, Mirror Shrek is thankfully a non-entity, and you don’t have to board a Mirror plane to leave Home or something. And that’s all fine and dandy, I suppose, and it and the Dream itself apparently arose from an actual location someone encountered, as evidenced by the photo, so maybe that’s all there is to it. It just seems odd, and I don’t have the neurons to figure out why. While I’m here, there are two other things beating my neurons in a battle of wits: ƨllɒʜяɘbnU itself, and the sketchbook drawing of the Blue Keycard. Firstly, while fact you can go through ƨllɒʜяɘbnU after leaving the Mirrored House is both funny and thematic(given that beating Underhalls sends you back to the House and that, thusly, beating ƨllɒʜяɘbnU sends you back to the Mirrord House), it’s also…kinda pointless? Beating ƨllɒʜяɘbnU means you arrive at the Mirrored House, which is a reflection of the second iteration of the House; this means you lose the keycards from the first iteration, including the Blue Keycard you’d need to nab the plasma rifle from the Brutalist House. I’m not sure if the keys are used anywhere else in the map, but I’m more confused as to why a location like the House, which doesn’t want us to leave and constantly mirrors its layout in other places, would allow us to play an entirely-mirrored Map02 just to laugh at us when we return to the Mirrored House? And I’m just as confused about the Blue Key sketch; it’s clear that the three sketches are of important things, as we have the Bad Dog, the Blue Key, and the House sketched out(note that it’s the second iteration of the House, as it has the angled roof that allows for the attic space…don’t know what that means though, as older Doom maps were limited with the geometry they could use thanks to the engine, so the first iteration could actually be a “limited by OG Doom” map). Since these are Thomas’ sketches, it makes sense that the Bad Dog and the House are here, but…why, of all things, the Blue Key? There’s got to be something with it, since out of three sketches it’s the ONLY colored one. Sadly, I’ve got nothing here beyond that. Edit: one thing I actually did forget…what’s the deal with the Campsite!? It literally just is there, no journal entries, no photos or sketches, nothing. Its impossible to even speculate about because there’s no information to use. And…that’s everything I can think of, for now. Honestly, after all this, I don’t think you missed a ton; you said yourself that this map has a lot of red herrings, and maybe some of this essay is exactly that. I just love to think and stew lmao

[@VDiddy5000]

So, it’s ya boi again, back because I enjoyed the video so much that I wanted to watch it all over again…and something else might’ve just clicked for me. You make a couple of good points towards the end of the video that started this thought process: you emphasized the mirroring between Steve and Thomas, and you mention how “My House” isn’t the same as “Your House,” while also mentioning the journal dream entry where Steve presses through the mirror. Soooooo, wild thought: MyHouse is essentially Thomas’ house, at least in its basic forms, right? So…what if the Mirror House is actually Steve’s? Firstly, there’s the daycare dream, where Steve mentions the crib in the attic; you point out that it doesn’t make sense, given that the crib is in the Mirror House, and he doesn’t have the mirror dream until months later. However, if the Mirror House is actually Steve’s House, then of course he would know about the crib upstairs in his own home! Speaking of the mirror dream, what’s interesting is that Steve never mentions the mirror in the attic at all, despite the fact it exists in both Houses. But if you go back to the way he describes the dream, and compare it to the Cheat Text mentioning the mirror in the attic, they don’t line up: the Cheat Text implies a fear of what’s behind the mirror, leading to it being covered up “just to be safe,” whereas Steve embraces the mirror and even becomes the one winking back. My thoughts on this are the Cheat Text is from Thomas’ perspective: when Steve pushes through the mirror and winks back at “himself”, he actually winks back at Thomas, who then does what the Cheat Text says and covers the mirror in the attic, “just to be safe.” This might actually explain why all the Dream Houses exist as extensions of Thomas’ House: because they’re Steven’s dreams, they can’t exist as a part of “his” House, and therefore exist on the other side of the mirror. Doesn’t quite explain the Gas Station, though it is also the only other place we ever see real imagery of, so perhaps that dream is as much anchored in both realities as it is fantasy?? EDIT: …I should really finish videos before I do thinking 🤣 five minutes after I stopped to think, you started spelling it out pretty much like I’d thought of it, because I’m a dumb-dumb and forgot this part of the video after watching it three weeks ago 🤣 nevermind, carry on!

[@rand0mlyhere]

I, honestly, clicked on this video expecting horror in the physical, rather than psychological sense. However, I don’t say that in disappointment. I thoroughly enjoyed this video, and the humor you sprinkled in helped keep it light-hearted enough for me (a horror lightweight) to not feel like I’ll have fears of demons, bathtubs, etc for the next week. The psychological, heck even philosophical angle this video took towards the end was a surprise to be sure, but a welcome one. I love food for thought like this, it gives me something to focus my erratic mind on for a bit. The tone shifts as well; during analysis, comedy, and interactions with the player were executed phenomenally, and never felt forced. Basically, all of this is to say: Thank you. Thanks for this video, and thanks for shedding your own light on this mod. I.. Actually wouldn’t have heard about it otherwise. Though I may never get around to playing the mod myself, the way you presented it was glorious.

[@crowmudgeon]

Dude thank you so much for such a kind and sincere comment, I really appreciate it 😭

[@nosauceyesrough3576]

The quality of this video had me stunned when you said you were nearly at 1k. I had just assumed you were at a million +

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you friend :)

[@paresseuxravenhurst85]

Bro there is playing this map and then there is the experience of this video. The way you wrote it, the way its edited, the way you make it a journey instead of just a narration. Oh my god. I had never heard of you before, I literally was introduced to Vita Caris through your explained video that was randomly recommended to me. I cannot explain how happy it makes me to see you have grown literally 2-3k followers in the last 24hrs since i found you. Obviously I'm one person among now thousands, but your really do deserve this. I've played this map. This? The first half was like playing it all over. Im only halfway through the analysis, but I got a little overwhelmed and had to stop to write this. Nah, I dont know what the point of this comment is, but im absolutely awestruck and I really hope you take this success and run with it. That you'll be great. Give yourself breaks, keep up your creativity, grow it. I'm rooting for you like hell, man. Consider me here to stay!

[@crowmudgeon]

Dude what an awesome comment, thank you for making my night. I really wanted to make this an experience that could be special for people who've played the map and those who know nothing about it alike, so you confirming to me that it was able to do that makes me sooooo happy. I'm really eager to hear your thoughts on the second half of the video when you get to it haha Really excited to have you here for the journey bro :)

[@paresseuxravenhurst85]

@@crowmudgeon For my thoughts on the second half; I wish I had more to say than quiet, understanding agreement on the second half. As a writer and artist, I kind of struggle with the idea that writing and art are subjective. I absolutely have a certain way that I draw and write my stuff to be interpreted. But I think after giving it all a moment to sink in, I feel like that's part of what made the first half feel like a whole new experience. Because it *was.* I was seeing your experience, instead of mine. Your view of the story, on loneliness and the necessity for community, wasn't something I ever got. As someone who's had to fight grief on my own, I had a notably different reaction to it(something I won't throw onto you, I don't have the proper medium nor brain power to explain THAT bag of cats). But I think this has honestly given me a new insight into the idea of subjective media and it's strange and kinda comforting, in a way, I guess.

[@WobblesandBean]

It's like the Night Mind video on House of Leaves, only a million times better and a million times less pretentious.

[@crowmudgeon]

@@paresseuxravenhurst85 I definitely still think that for most stories, there is a point that can be drawn out of it. Something definitive, correct, and intended. But with this story, that intended interpretation is just for you to feel whatever the level makes you feel. It was an enlightening experience for me as well.

[@ToplessTopics]

how do you not have ten million subscribers? this was so well done. I love how it's not just a video essay, it's a narrative-driven story. I would never have the patience to play through all this myself, so I really appreciate your thorough and entertaining deep dive into it. Bravo.

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks so much! I appreciate the kind comment :)

[@nicolethorson8186]

That bit at the end about asking for help really affected me. I kept thinking through the video that I'd never be able to beat this mod, and when you said the only people who could were people who asked for help, I realized why. I never would have asked for help, because I never do. It's a mixture of pride and fear that has caused me to make a great many poor choices in order to save face. The way you framed asking for help as a strength and not a weakness really made me understand how backwards my thinking was

[@paintandplaygames5044]

When I clicked on this video, I really wasnt expecting the profound journey you took me on. In a weird way it's kinda helped me understand some things. Thanks, my dude! Keep up the great work!

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you! I appreciate that and I'm glad it resonated with you :)

[@scronch355]

I have already seen a video of my house.wad, and I keep stumbling on more and I keep being like “is this the one I watched is this the same hellscape I’ve explored once before, are there new things to be found?”… Some times it feels like the house itself is pulling me in.. like it… misses me? It’s like it has a hole that it wants me to fill.. I *cant* stop watching it won’t let me go I’m scared

[@Shade_sShadow]

I was not expecting to be taken on a saga when I started this video.

[@Avafaid]

I work in the animation industry and have been having a particularly bad spell of burnout and lack of inspiration. Today, I binged a bunch of your content in the background and felt the unprompted urge to be more productive and creative than I have in a long time. Thank-you for sharing your commentary.

[@crowmudgeon]

Oh my goodness, I'm so happy to hear that! The idea that anything I've made would help you feel creative is just wonderful. Thank you so much :)

[@SaberTabby]

Just finished watching this and wow, the way it's made is just amazing. Ive watched many of Crow's videos before and he always manages to make it feel like he's actually talking directly to the viewer. There is so much more I want to write about just how well-written and just over all immersive and amazing this video is

[@LocalUrbanLegend]

bro the unexpected Griffin McElroy memes had me screaming lol well-played old sport

[@LepidoliteMica]

There were a couple things about the video that set me off early on (not commenting on how Shrek vanishes after you go through the daycare hallway the first time, for instance), but when you reached the ending of the ingame content and there was still 20 minutes of video I knew this would have to be the best MyHouse video out there. This interpretation is by far my favorite to date, collecting all of the distractions and red herrings together to an extent that no one else has managed.

[@crowmudgeon]

Yeah, there were certain details I opted not to draw attention to throughout the video because I wanted to really focus on creating a well paced narrative. This way, my video can exist in an ecosystem. Lots of people will watch multiple videos on the map, and this way, they can enjoy all of them a bit more. New things in every one :)

[@b.mahfoudhwejden893]

the way he read the whole exhortation with the ominous sounds and all and then went in a cheery voice: "So here we are on the pk3 version of the map :D" it's only the beginning of the video and i'm actually dying of laughter lmfaooo this channel is a new favorite

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you so much, this really made my morning :)

[@ToasterBurns]

I enjoy how crow isn't the one pkaying but someone else saying he is there for the ride

[@crowmudgeon]

It was really fun to write the video that way!

[@Ethan_Wheeler]

Dog 1's name: GREAT DESTROYER OF THE UNIVERSE Dog 2's name: *_C U P C A K E_*

[@imperialguardsman5726]

Y'know i don't know if i'd call MyHouse a horror experience. It can be spooky, but it's also an oddly hopeful experience. It's purpose isn't to scare or terrify you, it's to tell a story, both yours and the creator's. And in the end it does that. You fight for your happiness, and you get it, and the creator's story also gets told. In the end, after a lot of hardship, everyone prevails. So i wouldn't call it a horror experience. But i don't know what to categorize it as.

[@crowmudgeon]

It definitely doesn't just go for one thing, it tried to create a variety of tones and emotions. I still think it can be called horror, it still very much plays like a horror game and it's made to be confusing. Stuff like the bloody bathroom just wouldn't fit into another genre.

[@OttotheOtter0]

Bro, you deserve so much more subscribers than you should have, 4k?! You deserve a lot more attention. This video is amazing. And one of the best I've heard so far.

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks dude! That means a lot. We were at 1k like a week ago, you guys have been going wild out here 🤯

[@OttotheOtter0]

​@@crowmudgeon I'm glad you're getting more attention, hopefully you can get to the high numbers! I would be so happy to see you get that far, I can tell this is something you enjoy(Just by my opinion in seeing you in this video) and I would have a pleasure seeing you work your way up to the highlines!

[@WobblesandBean]

​@@crowmudgeonIt's so refreshing to find a hidden youtube gem before blowing up. You're going places, dude.

[@owensowders5329]

Absolute Masterpiece right here, with story telling that gave me chills. I've seen a summary of MyHouse once before, and it failed to stick out to me but I'm glad I gave it another chance. This was so much more than just a summary

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you! It makes me so happy that you got so much from it :)

[@wassapM8]

This stuff is underrated. Feels way longer than a movie, yet only about one and a half hours. The philosophy is extreme.

[@crowmudgeon]

Haha my philosophy degree finally coming in handy for something Thanks for watching 😀👍

[@wassapM8]

@@crowmudgeon yw

[@alaxeverything4143]

as someone who has been obsessed with MyHouse.WAD and has dealt with some really bad depression, this was a fantastic analysis and video. Your final take away from the map was very insightful, and connected to me a lot since I've been fighting an uphill battle against my own grief, guilt, and depression. I think your video perfectly illustrated the feeling of fighting for your happiness

[@crowmudgeon]

I'm so happy that the video resonated with you, thank you for watching :)

[@Ryetzi]

Why, Salutations fellow MyHouse enjoyer🧐

[@crowmudgeon]

Greetings 🧐

[@namenotfound34]

M'lady

[@sarene6939]

Fantastic video!!! The analysis in the second half and citing your own experience with the media and the themes as part of the journey weas extremely insightful. Incredibly well written, and despite the ambiguous nature of the work you were still able to close it out in a way that felt complete!? A+++++++ your content and your passion deserves way more subscribers!

[@crowmudgeon]

I'm so happy you liked the video so much! I really love this mod and it was an absolute blessing to share it with you all. Thanks for taking the time to let me know what you think, it's so helpful and motivating to hear from you :D

[@elerdy3237]

Remember, Happiness isn't just *worth* fighting for, it *has* to be fought for.

[@derontanzil6939]

oh my god, that ending got me spiraling into deep thoughts and its just insane how good this video was, i cant wait for angel hare

[@therighteousbeaver]

This video was one of the best I’ve seen. The way you tell the story by mixing typical video essay explanations and the story you tell with the player being a character you are talking to and leading was really well done. Bravo!

[@crowmudgeon]

Having the player be a character was probably my favorite thing in the video, it just made it so much fun to work on! I'm really glad you enjoyed it! 😁

[@veloc.raptor9136]

I absolutely love your style of delivery, it mixes meta commentary, gameplay commentary, review commentary and acting like you are just playing the game for the first time. A really good choice. keep it up

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks, will do!

[@majubengel4491]

I really loved the way you make your videos, i became a fan, the way you tell the stories is so intimist! Also the last part, about depression, hit home and you nailed in expressing this feeling. I became a huge fan after two videos.

[@krokojee]

I just finished watching the video, and it was genuinely really amazing I had to watch it in multiple parts as when I started it was shortly before I had to sleep, but I'm really glad I went back and watched more during the breaks I honestly really like videos that are longer like this, and your videos overall seem really interesting so I'm glad I've started watching them

[@crowmudgeon]

Glad you enjoyed it! Thank you for watching!

[@Velkhana22]

Wasn't expecting to end up crying by the end of this, but here we are. Thank you so much for making this, it's been a good way to end my day after a rough therapy session/year. The comment about hating hope is so friggin real.

[@PapaZannie]

I just watched the liminal park video and now this one and I must say, I’m super impressed by how you’re telling these stories. I love how in the liminal vid you interacted with the text like they were there and all that - I thought that was super creative, and now you’re interacting with another entity appearing to control the character of the game, complete with head shakes for responses and everything. I would’ve expected it to have just been gameplay footage and not you making it part of the story you’re telling. Fucking amazing dude. Have my like, subscription, and notification bell. Also, my comment box is haunted here. As a lifelong aspiring writer, this is amazing. So glad I found this. Wish I could do something like this

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks dude! I really appreciate that :) You can definitely do it! A few lessons I've learned that have been helpful: 1. Make *something* even if it isn't perfect (it never will be) 2. Focus on storytelling rather than writing individual paragraphs. This will direct your writing based on what your story (and your reader) needs, rather than what we as writers instinctively want to do---write a LOT. 3. Having a lot of good ideas isn't very important. What IS important is learning to accept when a good idea no longer fits the story. When you take a good story and cut all the "pretty good" parts, you're left with only the *best* parts. 4. Develop some sort of personal methodology or style for storytelling. My style is built on three pillars: repetition, a three act structure, and the returning home part of the Hero's Journey. Trying to do these 3 things has helped me to put together better stories, even if I don't always apply them super well. I'll also point you to some good resources that have helped me to grow as a writer. The first and biggest one is Brandon Sanderson's lectures on writing. They're available for free on KZbin and are both edifying and entertaining. Next up is a newer channel I've been watching called Writing with Andrew. His work covers much more atomic and abstract topics, but they're all very practical and applicable. I particularly enjoyed his recent video on Scene and Summary. Hope this helps out some!

[@PapaZannie]

@@crowmudgeon wow! Thanks for all of this! You seem like an awesome person. I will definitely be taking these seriously and I’m gonna start seriously writing again now. I’ve been inspired

[@ramseyzev5179]

this hit me really hard on a personal level, especially the "i hate asking for help, but i'm terrified of being alone" part. thank you.

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks for watching :)

[@mlmxiao8691]

for the hour and 44 minutes you spoke, i feel like i was hypnotised. you explained this and narrated the video so wonderfully, i was completely captivated in all honesty. the sense of grief, loss, hope and loss of it in this game is astounding, and you managed to communicate that so wonderfully. the way you, and the game, interact to the audience provided such an insane thought provoking video im actually speechless. i cant wait to see more from you man, this was an actual masterpiece of a video, and im so glad i saw it, and so amazed that you captured my attention like this, thank you!

[@crowmudgeon]

My goodness what a kind comment. Thank you so much! This made my day :D

[@Extendo23]

Holy shit man this genuinely one of the best videos ive seen in my decade watching KZbin. It was mind-blowing getting to the part where you talking about being so close to 1k, i had assumed I stumbler across another channel with 100-500k with how good the quality is. Huge props man, this video was absolutely phenomenal. I am now subscribed and cant wait to check out your catalog

[@crowmudgeon]

Thanks dude, it makes me so happy that you enjoyed it that much 😁

[@venaimin]

"Negative nostalgia" Bröether I think we call that *trauma*

[@exxcalibur6562]

I am sorry but HOW BEAUTIFULLY WAS THIS DONE. What a great video making me care of a game I didn't play in my life and with a great message of hope behind the lines of despair. Thank you so much for your work. As someone going through a hard time the part talking about fighting for your happiness really gave me some feelings I didn't know I had.

[@crowmudgeon]

Hey thank you for watching dude. I know that life gets really hard but thankfully we aren't supposed to do it alone. That fight for happiness doesn't have to be a battle you win by strength, sometimes it just takes reaching out to someone in openness and honesty

[@GreetingsField]

admittedly I was terrified when you said "you know what helps me relax.?" because I thought the answer would be Raid Shadow Legends or Better Help.

[@SaucySauce-]

genuinely one of the best video essays I've seen as of recent, and its definitely one of my new favorites, its CRIMINALLY underrated too, keep up the great work man!

[@crowmudgeon]

Wow, thank you! I'm glad you liked it so much!

[@oldfashionedboots2774]

“Sift through the remains of Shrek’s atomized corpse” was not a sentence I ever thought I’d hear 😭😭😭

[@crowmudgeon]

My favorite line out of the whole video, I'm so glad you pointed it out lmao

[@T3CH-SUPP0RT]

just a few away from 1000 a month ago and now you're nearly to 25k! Excellent work and I'm absolutely loving the content MyHouse definitely seems like a journey that both the player and the person playing it have to make it through as they try to decipher their own grips on reality and coming to terms with what they're going through

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you so much!

[@archivefish]

how do you manage to make such high quality videos wtf you need more subs

[@Error_4x5]

My jaw dropped when I stumbled into level one of the Backrooms

[@crowmudgeon]

sameeeee

[@talyaplays51]

33:39 scared the shit out of me I jumped lol

[@ryguy9876]

My House! In the middle of our street! My House! In the middle of our street!

[@woodlandcollective]

My house! In the middle of my house! My house! In the middle of my house!

[@darkfeeling97]

Amazing job! I have already watched multiple videos about and breakdowns of My house but this one was hands down the most well executed, engaging and personal one! I've watched a few videos of yours prior to this but I never truly realized how small your channel still is, because your production value is really good and your scripts make you seem like a very competent and perhaps seasoned (script) writer. I wish you best of luck in growing your audience as well as in all aspects of your life, keep going strong and be proud of your work! (and at the same time I hope you give yourself enough breaks and keep an eye on your mental health, I personally find it really easy to burn out if I experience a lot of success in an area where I already have high standards for myself)

[@crowmudgeon]

Wow that is some extremely high praise haha, there are some absolutely BANGIN' MyHouse.WAD videos out here. PowerPak's vid in particular was super inspirational for me, so I knew I had to make a pretty radical departure from his to get something good yet original. Risks had to be taken and I wasn't sure at all that they would pay off in the end. I'm happy with it for sure though. It's thoroughly *me*, I think, if that makes sense. This script was certainly my favorite thing I've written---complete and cohesive in a way I've never achieved before. I have a decent amount of experience writing, though my list of completed works is very short lol. More than most and less than very many. It makes me really happy to hear that the script resonated with you :D Thanks so much for your viewership, it means the world!

[@meme-a-licious844]

this channel is so underrated with only like 8 uploads 3k isn't too bad you should cover a creepy pasta called the grieving cover vibingLeafs one tho its the best

[@crowmudgeon]

Yeah I have certainly been very blessed to have this audience considering how long I've been on the platform. I'm glad you're enjoying the content :)

[@approachingetterath9959]

been listening to this while sitting on the floor going through some old storage crates of mine that hit me with nostalgia, but also reminders of the depression i dealt with for some four or five years in my late teens/early 20s before i finally had the sense and strength to seek professional help. what hit me the most was you saying that down there you hate hope itself. this. a hatred of finding a way out and feeling better. it's what makes it so treacherous to fight. i clambered up from the floor and to my pc before autoplay could kick in because you deserve a like, subscribe and this comment where i also want to tell you that this was a great analysis, documentary and piece of entertainment.

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you. That sounds like a fun afternoon of memories, glad I could keep you company and be a part of that quiet and special moment in some way 🙂

[@hamsalad1989]

Yo i started watching your videos yesterday and i just wanted to say i love your content and i think you deserve way more subs

[@crowmudgeon]

Welcome aboard! I'm so happy to have you here, enjoying the content :D

[@hamsalad1989]

@@crowmudgeon just finished the vid and i want to say you are the best narrator ever you really make it feel like i’m in the story and your helping me it’s awesome! And i love how you change the mood with the change of the game

[@crowmudgeon]

@@hamsalad1989 That actually MAKES my day dude. That was 1000% my highest hope for the video, and so the fact that it worked well for even one person is just amazing to me. Thanks so much for your support :D

[@hamsalad1989]

@@crowmudgeon glad i could tell you my opinion and the production quality of this video was great and i loved the little memes spread around!

[@envy_ous]

the message that you managed to apply to this mod is phenomenal. i've struggled with grief and depression myself, and the only reason i got better was because i asked for help. this video put my experience into words, and it was honestly so beautiful to watch. thank you for everything you bring to your channel, and please, never stop overthinking every little detail, because it helps you come to these conclusions that have the capability of touching so many of your viewers. so, thank you.

[@xnitram4611]

the storytelling and presentation in this video is absolutely *incredible*, and the explanation/interpretation at the end is phenomenal and the perfect resolution for the way you set this up definitely going to be checking out more of your videos when im done watching this one for sure!

[@crowmudgeon]

Thank you!

[@imperfect1797]

I love your description of "House of Leaves", I used to love reading but lost the time to read through as many books as I used to. House of Leaves is one book I will forever recommend. It gives you a whole new experience to reading and actually makes you think, the book wants you to make your own conclusions and hypothesis about not only what the house is but ponder about the family's dynamics as well as find what "truth" you can in both Zampono's and Johnny's writing. Please to everyone go grab a copy, you might need your own if you end up enjoying the box. ( I've marked and highlighted and added sticky notes through out my copy, if that tells you anything about the complexity of the book and it's contents)