Crying - "ES" (Official Audio)

[@milk-yj6kd]

Lyrics, how does the world perceive me perceiving myself? all i care to do is sip on beer and chocolate milk i'm frightened more than usual, lately i do not translate into 'one of the boys' 'lotus flower' or 'chinita' i'm just ES and i'd prolly rather nap than wonder, restlessly: will ya ever be impressed by me? mom doesn't think i fit into the darling archetype, but that's an ancient pair of jeans and my thighs are crafted holy, rolling thunder forget the numbers forget the numbers, please every goddamn family reunion, someone's got somethin' to say how didja become this way? as if i've made a mistake meanwhile, they've slaughtered the cake

[@RoxyLoxy]

the lyrics are already in the description tho

[@cadenhannon3273]

@@RoxyLoxy not many people check description

[@Insurnou]

@@cadenhannon3273 true

[@TwinTeeth]

Can anyone tell me what "ES" means? Edit: So, I searched some more, and maybe "ES" means "Elaiza Santos". The lead singer of Crying.

[@What.the_fork255]

I dont need this song is so good its just burned into my memory

[@ryanrose9829]

found this from a personality quiz about hot chocolate and now I feel like the lyrics are staring into my soul. help

[@aurumskies6367]

mood

[@crabdott]

What quiz, might I ask?

[@ryanrose9829]

@@crabdott oh I forgot lol

[@crabdott]

@@ryanrose9829 Dang, that's all right tho, thank youu

[@edgarallanpoelagusmarjorita]

LOL OH MY GOD I MADE THAT QUIZ ??? IT WAS THE 'make a hot chocolate and i'll tell you why you have trouble forming emotional bonds' QUIZ OH MY GOD

[@Flowerbarrel]

If someone says we have thunder thighs, we’ll be able to say they’re crafted holy rolling thunder.

[@fallen_x]

Bro I read this then scrolled down and theres literally a rolling thunder M.A.P and like.. oh wait I just came across that lyric, uh. Oh

[@bobesponja8151]

"Will ya ever be impressed by me?" that really gets me, over all due to the fact of my self hatred and autism making me feel like shit 24/7.

[@amber_amber101]

I feel you, bobesponja8151

[@slicd5872]

Crumb has a good taste when it comes to music

[@cheezycup]

Right, thanks to her that this song becomes my fav

[@denimflan]

indeed

[@vaxus7073]

I found this from crumb aswell awhile ago

[@i_love_cheese_]

yeah i almost forgot that i found this song thanks to crumb :0 they really are the best source to find cool songs ^^

[@nadamada8328]

Im the Fan from the future, i also gotta thank crumb for finding me this jam

[@calibranese]

As a mango tree owner, this song really gets me

[@GabrielAlves-mu4mf]

Ooo yummy

[@The_SilliestBilliest]

As someone who doesn’t own a mango tree, this song really gets me

[@waxmelted]

As someone who doesn't know anything about how to grow trees, this song really gets me

[@Indigonium]

@@tiredshot.1 mangoes might give depression, but avocados THEY ARE WHOLE OTHER STORY, depression 100% with AVOCADOS!!!

[@sk8boredd]

As a person who does not feel the right emotions at the right time as I was reading this comment, this song really gets me

[@che9112]

might delete this later, but i absolutely adore this song, so i’ll be dropping my self indulgent song analysis here :) ES is a song about self reflection. The song, basically being self reflection on its own, describes the yearning of validation and self-love. It’s about someone who feels that they don’t quite belong. The song starts out with the line: “How does the world perceive me, perceiving myself?” This dives into someone self reflecting, wondering how society should see them as- asking themselves who they are as a person exactly. Who should they be expected to be? The singer then admits that, “All I care to do is sip on beer and chocolate milk.” Beer and chocolate milk are both drinks that one may enjoy and indulge in, and these drinks symbolize how they feel like they’re wasting time indulging in trivial activities and hobbies instead of doing something significant with their life. Their life is simply moderate and filled with doing the same things, and they feel “frightened more than usual lately”, deep down they’re scared for what comes next in the future as they continue to live this way. They feel afraid of accepting change. They don’t translate into “one of the boys”, “lotus flower” or “chinita”. Being one of the boys means to be a part of a social group, often being a group of boys, and the singer doesn’t feel accepted as one of them, not quite fitting into the majority. “Lotus flower” refers to the trope of a delicate Asian woman, and the singer doesn’t want to be associated with or simply reduced to that. “Chinita” is Spanish slang for a girl with Asian features or a Chinese girl, and they don’t want to be simply seen as their appearance or stereotyped. They’re just ES, and they’re comfortable enough in their own identity. They may not fit into these typical labels and boxes society puts out and expects of them, but they don’t want to have to conform with society because they’re perfectly fine being their own person despite not fitting into the “norm”. ES says that they’d “prolly rather nap than wonder restlessly”, providing context that the “beer and chocolate milk”, or the leisures they indulge in are an escapism from the constantly dragging thoughts trailing them. They don’t want other people to define their self worth, but even so they still wonder to those they admire, themselves or the world: “Will you ever be impressed by me?” as they desperately yearn for the approval they struggle finding from others, but most importantly, themselves. They just want to be good enough. They even feel that their own mother doesn’t think they fit into the “darling archetype”, with ES feeling that their mother is disappointed in them not turning out the perfect and dear child they are expected to be like. However, they say that “that’s an ancient pair of jeans”, the “darling archetype” being this ancient pair of jeans they no longer fit into. They redefine themselves, stating that their thighs are “crafted, holy, rolling thunder”; Over time, they’ve carefully crafted and developed into the identity and person they feel true with. Without the burden of strict expectations of having to fit into this “darling archetype” or the views of society in general, they want to feel proud of who they are and have become. ES begs someone, maybe even themselves: “Forget the numbers, forget the numbers, please,” desperately wishing that their self worth didn’t have to feel defined with these “numbers” society seems to always value the concern about. They don’t want to feel ashamed of themselves for their appearance, either, with the mention of these numbers. These numbers could mean things like weight or grades, further emphasizing on strict values they feel so required to follow. At every dreaded family reunion, ES doesn’t feel at home within their family. Their family members always have something to say and criticize them without hesitation, posing the question: “How did you become this way?” ES feels ashamed of themselves when they are asked this, as it throws them into contemplation on where they went wrong. Have they made a mistake in being themselves, for living this kind of lifestyle they have and simply not ending up within their expectations? These same family members are hypocritical, as they meanwhile slaughter the cake- criticizing ES for who they are and what they do as they go ahead and indulge in their own life decisions without the burden of expectation hanging onto them. As observed in this song, ES is a truly misunderstood person. They feel like they don’t belong in society, and so they want to express their true self without this weight of conformity and expectations following them- They want to find self-love in this society that invalidates them. ES doesn’t want to feel like they have to justify their happiness. They don’t want to have to feel like looking for approval from others or to owe anyone an explanation for their identity all the time. They just want to be happy, to feel loved. And so, this song is their journey of finding that self-love within themselves. (something to note is that Z Santos, lead singer of Crying, is non-binary and Filipino. i would like to respect their privacy, but i believe this song is possibly a narrative of their journey relating to gender identity and self-love. a lot of the lines reflect this, like the lines about not translating into “one of the boys, lotus flower or chinita,” and especially reflecting upon strict expectations that might relate to some cultural values in Asian families (like interpreted in the analysis from the Genius website). i love all the beautiful metaphorical lyrics that Z wrote to make such a powerful song. however, i encourage you to interpret this song as whatever you like and i’d love to see more analyses of this!)

[@gillipop1]

Underrated comment.

[@raykotyan]

Omg I was looking for a comment like this

[@che9112]

i’m glad you guys liked my analysis!

[@vaxus7073]

Nope, its not this deep. No idea why people are like this.

[@luuunaatic]

I relate to this a little too much.

[@chopstickingstylus]

here before cuptoast premieres her animation, the song is amazing!!!!!

[@orlaith_2910]

Same ezzy

[@makishizi]

eyyyyyyy

[@4toshaltok538]

ayyyyy

[@0kJh7Uui33]

Æyyyyy

[@beancurdisgood]

" how did you become *this way* as if Ive made a *mistake* " that part hit me so hard lmao also 1:47-1:53 i just realised that this song is about being trans haha maybe that’s why i like this song so much ):

[@Shroom64]

Yeah, that line's raw.

[@SpineStoat]

same :']

[@DaniParre]

Is it really? I noticed a lot of parallels but honestly never put it together.

[@optiscript]

Hahaha, this song is literally talking with me ! Hahahahahahahaha ! Help

[@simplicity4766]

it's not about being trans, its about not fitting into cultural stereotypes or expectations set by family members as a result of culture (among other things probably), which is proven by the "'lotus flower' or 'chinita'" lines. however the lyrics are really open and i encourage everyone to connect to the lyrics in their own way! :D

[@natelexi8449]

god, i listen to this song so much i'm probably going to be the one to get this song up to 50,000 views.

[@Blanksy001]

I've grown to believe I'm nonbinary but it doesn't matter because everyone around me has only ever known me to be and perceive me as a female. My sister understands where I'm coming from, but I can't help but feel like a fake to her. My parents are both religious so I definitely can't tell them. My boyfriend and best friend loves me very much and tells me it doesn't matter to him what pronouns I choose to go by, he'll still love me the same as the day he first met me. But I will still always feel like his "girlfriend". I just wish I could strip myself of my own flesh and ego and disappear into a realm that exists between the fog of reality and nonexistence. It would be better to not be perceived at all than to feel trapped like this.

[@blackcrow4446]

Send some love and support to you!🤗❤

[@blackcrow4446]

It will be okay ÓwÒ

[@ebentaylor]

I've been in your place before and it really hurts to feel this way. But it gets better. You meet new people and introduce them with your correct pronouns, and they will respect that. They won't have any history with you, and it won't feel like they still see you as a girlfriend or sister. Because you're not! You're a sibling, you're a partner, and you're more than you think. Keep going, the path forward is worth it.

[@childeofepickness]

I feel you bro. I’m not lgbtq+ (as far as I know, who the heck knows) but I’ve grown to doubt my religion and I don’t feel like I can tell anyone because I feel like they just won’t accept me the same if I come out and say it. Sending lots of love, I hope you feel better soon! ❤️

[@Elitaria]

@@childeofepickness same. I'm planning to straight up move to the Netherlands and just say fuck africa.

[@sk8boredd]

this song tastes like tears and bittersweet oranges what

[@scaredstiff7176]

I've always thought this song was about being of a heavier size or someone who doesn't fit the conventional body type. However, looking at the lyrics I can tell this singer wanted the song to have many underlying themes, mostly about how the world perceives them as stated in the first line. The singer talks about how people don't see them as "one of the boys," (they might hang out with a lot of boys but not be socially accepted as "one of them" by society or maybe the boys themselves. It can be interpreted in different ways), and also not being a lotus flower (typically an east asian woman who is delicate and graceful) or a Chinita (Slang for a person who has east asian facial features, typically chinese). The first line is easy to spot as them not fitting into traditional gender roles, but the later lines seem to be about not fitting into the sterotypes people in other cultures have about their culture. Chinita is spanish slang (sometimes spoken in a derogatory manner) and therefore is probably not used by east asians to refer to eachother, which is why I say it's about cultural sterotypes. The singer throughout the song talks about how they don't want to care, but are forced think about themselves because society makes them. In the middle of the song they talk about how their mom doesn't think they act in a girlish or feminine manner, saying they don't fit into the "darling archtype." They do a play on words about them not fitting into the role like it's an ancient pair of jeans (maybe showing that they gained more weight than what society deems acceptable which is another reason why they don't fit into the role) and explain how they've "grown" past it into something better (crafted or something they've made for themselves and holy or filled with self love). Afterward they begin telling society and perhaps themselves to "forget the numbers" (could be referencing weight, or maybe anything associated with numbers in their life). They end the song talking about how they don't fit into their family, and how they talk to the singer as if they're living their life wrong. Meanwhile the relatives might be making the same choices but are not criticized for it (either because they hide it or they aren't effected by it). I've always interpreted the last few lines to be about the family of the singer criticizing their eating choices because of their weight, meanwhile their relatives make the same eating choices (with the line "meanwhile they slaughter the cake") but it doesn't reflect on them physically like the singer. The song is really cool and the way they play on words so that they lines have different meanings depending on how its read is very interesting. I hope this analysis made sense somewhat since the song is sort hard to understand on a surface level.

[@pebbledelor]

Holy fucking shit I love this analysis

[@che9112]

i never see any analysis of this song, i loved this! i totally agree here that much of the song is about someone of a heavier weight as well someone self conscious about their appearance and their role in society, and especially them trying to find acceptance and self-love

[@scaredstiff7176]

@@pebbledelor Thank you!

[@scaredstiff7176]

@@che9112 Agreed, I had a hard time finding an analysis online about the song. I found that people on genius had good speculation and we all kinda thought the same thing about what the song meant (Especially with the line Chinita and lotus flower, as they can mean a few things). They have a few more notes that I didn't see before so I recommend checking it out.

[@sodapail]

Lovely comment! You put into words all the things I love about this song

[@kuraijen]

wish me luck, i might be arranging a cover for this to play with my friends. much love to this song, it really embodies how people changed in the aftermath of the pandemic and i can't think of a better song to represent my life right now

[@Moonier21]

Good luck

[@r3ntz699]

how did it go?

[@DarkestGames86]

This song is relatable to the point that the lyrics hit too hard How does the world perceive me perceiving myself? 0:43 I'm just ES..... Probably rather NAP THAN WONDER RESTLESSLY WILL YOU EVER BE IMPRESSED BY ME?

[@dandylions3540]

This song is so deeply personal to me, as someone who's Nonbinary and Asian

[@mangothekomodo9790]

same *pats your back* but it'll be okay, there's a lot of people out there who felt the same as how we do

[@modifiedconsequences]

I'm not Asian but I'm a closeted agender person, and i'm hoping people are respecting your pronouns n' stuff.

[@Finnlover67]

I am not Asian, I am gender-queer though. This song is deeply personal to me too, it's just not about my gender identity for me.

[@iiStrxwbxrryii]

Im Indonesian Christian but asexual in homophobic house

[@cookiiecats]

also asian and nonbinary 🤝

[@sakinax8440]

It's impossible to not replay this song it's just too good😭

[@Jettr0]

Would recommend you go listing to the whole album

[@sophiehalldo916]

This is amazing, I can’t stop listening to it!

[@KaeserLooty]

This song slap me back to reality like anything else

[@spiritwarhol707]

The instrumental section at 1:45 scratches my brain so freaking good.

[@tinyfairybird]

Yes. Enjoy! Live! Breath! Beautiful living being.

[@averymcnamara2127]

ur music inspires me man

[@littlespiritdragon8098]

At first, I didn’t really understand why I kept returning to this song every once in a while. I thought it was just the unique sounds it was composed of and the cryptic-ish yet still understandable lyrics. Now I’m back and pretty sure that I’m genderfluid. So, you know…I guess I related to it before I knew what I was relating to?

[@wolfgirldarkness1]

This song has helped me through so much it’s great

[@galaxyflamingo]

i'm cis, but i relate to this in a way. props to my trans folk in here though, all you guys are valid

[@scrunky8683]

thanks :)

[@lavender3609]

c:

[@modifiedconsequences]

Thanks :)

[@SpineStoat]

@Atlas〖VIP〗 whgdhfgdfv that's so cool :00 /Gen

[@cc.3218]

your not alone buddy, im a cis female but sometimes i just feel like being a male

[@breadsalmon]

reminds me of my favorite animation (by cuptoast) it had this song

[@Aced_Life]

Asi es

[@russellhausauer5734]

Cool sound!

[@lgbtqiarights]

this hurts yet is so nice when you’re trans and growing up in a ‘phobic home. i cry to this

[@lgbtqiarights]

@uwu to me the song is about growing up in an unaccepting home as a trans person, which is my situation. you can interpret however you want, just don’t be an asshole about others’ views of the song.

[@hemoglobing]

@uwu people can interpret a song however they want. - tim

[@modifiedconsequences]

Very true

[@ihatebaseball4826]

OH MY GOD I LOVE UR PFP

[@lgbtqiarights]

@@ihatebaseball4826 thank u!

[@Breadd8838]

I listen to this song while crying! ☺

[@radicool8328]

I'm an autistic trans man, and i just found this song. I feel like I needed it more than I realized.

[@bobesponja8151]

I'm just autistic, and i already feel reletable enough.

[@insectoidabomination]

@@bobesponja8151 I'm autistic and nonbinary, and I feel too relatable to this song for my own good.

[@optiscript]

We are with you ♥️

[@cooldude-vp4lf]

this song helped me though my depression, ironicly

[@Antmcn]

Some one PLEASE make a 1 hour version

[@Antmcn]

When i made this comment KZbin on mobile didn't have loop

[@fantasychan9228]

I can't say I relate to this as much as others, but this is an epic song. And I'm rooting for all the trans peeps who can't get a break for being who they are. Stand strong y'all

[@fatcat5817]

Apologies for them being born mentally ill, I remember when I wished I was born a guy. But, I came to accept the fact that I was who I was. In a sense I learned to love and be satisfied with my existence. Yes, I get annoyed by my own periods. (Just seemed rather pointless and messy) But, knowing the future can be born out of me is something humbling. Falling in love with oneself. But hey, I am just a friendly neighborhood Texan tomboy. 🤷‍♀️ And there is nobody I rather be but me. 🤗 (I recommend digging in your soul) There hopefully should be a locked box with your true self in it. Find it, I hope it's not too hard to access. It is the size of a speck afterall. . The questions I asked to evoke it, was "Am I really like this?" "Who am I really?" "Why do I feel wrong if it's supposedly right?" Self Meditative questions. (My theory: the inner speck self will always fight internally with the "wrong" self. Causing a lack of satisfaction, closure, security, confidence, etc...) Sometimes to the point of...⚰️. Sometimes we have do uncomfortable things to find fufillment in life. Don't be afraid to go out on your own journey, to resync/restart. I wish for people to leave this earth with no regrets. We can't go back in time, no matter how much we want to. Going on till the dark with the ones we love by our side. 🕳️ "Just stay with me, I'll get you there."- Rowf (Plague Dogs ending)

[@caramel9154]

@@fatcat5817 oh. you've copy pasted this.

[@unodosmoltres5783]

Love it.

[@What.the_fork255]

Insane, I LOVE it please make more like this!

[@everydaygremlin]

i feel that i have listened to this too many times

[@porciwall9261]

My ears are crying from happeness

[@shrimplypiper]

i'm non binary, lesbian, and possibly autistic, and though i have supporting parents the main rest of my family isn't so supportive, plus other people who wouldn't get it or would probably ridicule me for being who i am. i also have always wanted to become an artist but my drawings and animations never look as good as my friends' and i don't really feel like anybody likes me anymore, as an artist or as a person.

[@parrotblossom]

Hey, not to be rude or anything, but how can you be non-binary and lesbian at the same time, when being lesbian is when females are attracted to other females? Again, not trying to be offensive, I'm just really confused lol

[@amberthegoldwing6389]

@@parrotblossomno worries, Ik this was posted a long time ago but to answer your question at last - lesbians aren’t just wlw, they are also nmlnm, or non-men loving non-men. So a nonbinary person, as they are not a man, loving another person who is also not a man would be lesbian! Hope this helps ^^

[@parrotblossom]

@@amberthegoldwing6389 ok :D tyy

[@onlineskitty]

can anyone recommend any songs like this

[@cheshirecreeper3743]

online skitty maybe check out Mal Blum or “life worth missing” by Car Seat Headrest

[@LokiTheWeirdo]

I can recommend some with similar meanings. Not so much the beat tho. "Body by mother mother" is a good one for dysphoria. "The Village by warble" is best for dealing with Transphobia and the religious side of it. And if your looking for something maybe darker and gayer the "take me to church" the title alone can tell you it's about religious driven homophobia. Oh! And I forgot who made it but "YOUTH" or "my youth is yours" either one should make the right song come up. It has a lighter tone, a bit happier too, definitely gay more than trans tho. That's all I can think of right now but I hope I helped. 😊🏳️‍🌈

[@eater_of_grass_beater_of_ass]

Off the top of my head for songs with the same meaning, id say "the village" as for song with the same sort of sound I guess I'd say "rät" by penelope scott

[@arminadarin1208]

Home by Cavetown, Lavender by Penelope Scott, Summer depression by girl in red Those are the ones that (i think) have a simular meaning, and theyre the same genre too

[@syntacticalsyn]

Rät by penelope scott :)

[@seasnailfish]

this song right here is what got me into crying, stream get old second wind and beyond the fleeting gales!!!

[@yeetowiwisilly]

this bends all of my expectations

[@toad-on-a-toadstool]

I way more concentrated on the chiptune instumental in the background rather than the song itself.

[@lulla_bow]

Listening to this song to escape my problems of stress and tests and GCSEs? Yes Yes I am

[@tamari1910]

im a lesbian and because ive been doubting myself recently, this song is very relatable :'(

[@ikilledtheradiostar4054]

Idk but I associate this song with oranges.

[@mysterionkenny2358]

When I read that my mine went to Bruno is orange

[@doodlebugugg]

While I know this song is about being non-binary (or at least I’m pretty sure it is) I relate to it a lot as being someone on the autism spectrum

[@kaylakaty132]

How do you know :0 because i want to know the meaning of the song so bad I don't understand what es means so i want to try and know the meanings of the song

[@doodlebugugg]

@@kaylakaty132 I’ve just heard people refer to it as a nb anthem, and since the artist is nb it makes sense. Im not entirely sure tho

[@airfire95]

@@kaylakaty132 ES are the first letter of name and surname of the artist as far as I'm aware.

[@Shroom64]

Cool! I'm also on the autistic spectrum! It's nice to hear from other people on the autistic spectrum, since usually the only publicity we get is about the whole "Vaccines causes autism" debate.

[@SpineStoat]

As an autistic _and_ nonbinary person, I 200% relate.

[@arie1906]

this got into my recommended videos, idk how but i like it ^^

[@arie1906]

Hmm

[@brunomansilla]

Heard this song for the first time on the podcast of tinycartridge

[@Void_Walked_In]

this song made me cry what is wrong with me. also i was introduced to this by crumb

[@kamishima2480]

I fuck with this yo

[@sjaiswal77]

Came from a jrwi animatic, stayed for the song

[@dumpstercub2902]

I am currently having a Filipino transmasc moment

[@siirniighteye]

nepeta leijon.

[@peckmech]

YOU INFOUND YOU AGAIN???

[@siirniighteye]

@@peckmech LEAVE ME ALONE

[@peckmech]

@@siirniighteye IM IN MY HOMESTUCK KICK IM SORRY

[@MSKofAlexandria]

I remember I used to always listen to this song, years ago. It was what I identified as. I was part of the LGBT community, identified as genderfae and pronouns were he/fae. I remember it well. I now am an Orthodox Christian and this song displays the complete opposite of my beliefs. I still feel connected to it, and I pray for everyone reading this. May our Lord be with you all.

[@mikelisavinacco2163]

Cup Toast has some good taste

[@bobatea4732]

I was depressed because of dysphoria so I fell down a music rabbit hole that led me here, to a song about being trans. Funny how that works out, I'm choosing to interpret this as a sign that I'm gonna be ok :) edit: it’s been a year. I’m ok :). Things are hard but I’m getting through it. You will too. I love this song.

[@typicalghost6930]

Whar it’s about being trans. I took it as not meeting up to expectations lol

[@bobatea4732]

@@typicalghost6930album cover, trans singer, listen to the rest of the album, the lyrics too

[@Cosmo_Gaze249]

m a g i c

[@frances06]

y e s ',3

[@unknownuser2972]

I love this song 🤩

[@LittleDreams9]

i remember listening to this a few years ago because of a homestuck pmv and relating to it despite feeling like i wasnt the right 'audience' (cis) for it, coming back to it now turns out i was trans all along lol

[@rorycommitscrimes3226]

I can't hear that one lyric, "rolling thunder" as anything other than "growing tender"

[@insectoidabomination]

i relate to this way too much as an anxious, self-conscious, autistic nonbinary who is constantly annoyed by people about my pronouns and anxiety. also I love chocolate milk so thats another connection

[@fatcat5817]

Apologies for being born mentally ill, I remember when I wished I was born a guy. But, I came to accept the fact that I was who I was. In a sense I learned to love and be satisfied with my existence. Yes, I get annoyed by my own periods. (Just seemed rather pointless and messy) But, knowing the future can be born out of me is something humbling. Falling in love with oneself. But hey, I am just a friendly neighborhood Texan tomboy. 🤷‍♀️ And there is nobody I rather be but me. 🤗 (I recommend digging in your soul) There hopefully should be a locked box with your true self in it. Find it, I hope it's not too hard to access. It is the size of a speck afterall. . The questions I asked to evoke it, was "Am I really like this?" "Who am I really?" "Why do I feel wrong if it's supposedly right?" Self Meditative questions. (My theory: the inner speck self will always fight internally with the "wrong" self. Causing a lack of satisfaction, closure, security, confidence, etc...) Sometimes to the point of...⚰️. Sometimes we have do uncomfortable things to find fufillment in life. Don't be afraid to go out on your own journey, to resync/restart. I wish for people to leave this earth with no regrets. We can't go back in time, no matter how much we want to. Going on till the dark with the ones we love by our side. 🕳️ "Just stay with me, I'll get you there."- Rowf (Plague Dogs ending)

[@caramel9154]

@@fatcat5817 rude.

[@luvulfurz_64]

As a trans FTNB person I really like this song! Don’t relate since my family is very nice but the song is good!

[@fatcat5817]

Apologies for being born mentally ill, I remember when I wished I was born a guy. But, I came to accept the fact that I was who I was. In a sense I learned to love and be satisfied with my existence. Yes, I get annoyed by my own periods. (Just seemed rather pointless and messy) But, knowing the future can be born out of me is something humbling. Falling in love with oneself. But hey, I am just a friendly neighborhood Texan tomboy. 🤷‍♀️ And there is nobody I rather be but me. 🤗 (I recommend digging in your soul) There hopefully should be a locked box with your true self in it. Find it, I hope it's not too hard to access. It is the size of a speck afterall. . The questions I asked to evoke it, was "Am I really like this?" "Who am I really?" "Why do I feel wrong if it's supposedly right?" Self Meditative questions. (My theory: the inner speck self will always fight internally with the "wrong" self. Causing a lack of satisfaction, closure, security, confidence, etc...) Sometimes to the point of...⚰️. Sometimes we have do uncomfortable things to find fufillment in life. Don't be afraid to go out on your own journey, to resync/restart. I wish for people to leave this earth with no regrets. We can't go back in time, no matter how much we want to. Going on till the dark with the ones we love by our side. 🕳️ "Just stay with me, I'll get you there."- Rowf (Plague Dogs ending)

[@caramel9154]

@@fatcat5817 ruuudee.

[@jaxoncarter2electricboogal921]

KZbin really likes making people listen to old chiptune or old songs by people who've dabbled in in it before recently, huh? (Rolling down the street in my katamari, Tally Hall, and now this song)

[@inaku1inaku]

its short,but i like the song

[@ech0p0isin]

this sounds very very very similar to 'credit songs for my death'

[@someweeabu2687]

Whos here from Dovewing?

[@Julia-ob9ux]

Hehehe me too!

[@rosetints4246]

Ahh yes, nifty senpi

[@prehistoricorchid3455]

D o e w i n

[@NutpuffTheWolf]

Me

[@WaffledaCake]

Me XD

[@de-void1872]

i connect to this sogn so much as a trans masc autistic person. it just... resonates

[@supadupashy0]

Not saying she was a good person, but am I the only one here from Lupis Vulpes? I still love this song.

[@najlaazzahra9051]

Anyone here from 2021?

[@cat9424]

wow

[@forestspirit8713]

How does the world perceive you?

[@lazardragicevic5096]

well perceiving myself of course

[@MusicalBlam]

Sipping on beer and chocolate milk too

[@mysterionkenny2358]

being frightened more than usual

[@sonnie8966]

i really don’t translate into one of the boys either

[@ghostkutto]

Lotus flower or chinita

[@sul4]

WWAGGHH im crying by es

[@franolw]

here for crumb

[@franolw]

also- good song

[@orlaith_2910]

Same

[@randomcatmanfax]

no

[@bonithechubbypotato5100]

I like choccy milk :D

[@Gleebeeus]

Came here because of a nepeta lyricstuck. Stayed cuz this slaps.

[@meuikii]

1:24

[@TheNoEyedGirl]

🐐

[@classified8025]

👁

[@AHHHHHHHH257]

y3s

[@Carbon_cat_foot_print]

This reminds me of one of my ocs and myself.

[@Prominent96]

I’m crying cause this isn’t on Spotify

[@sticx.]

it is on spotify

[@Prominent96]

@stick w h e r e???

[@Prominent96]

Tell me now 🔫

[@sticx.]

bruh i dont think any of my replies are going through

[@Prominent96]

Wdym? (The one which in which u said the others don’t go thru went thru)

[@mangoblaze]

Does anyone know what ES stands for ?

[@ya-like-jazz]

Ember Fox A 'chinita' is a ladybug

[@phia3892]

@@ya-like-jazz Its also a degrading racial term for a Chinese woman.

[@lgbtqiarights]

@@phia3892 wow that’s a fun fact !!!

[@anoushkashenoy692]

the lotus flower / lotus blossom stereotype also refers to east asian women being considered ‘submissive.’

[@frey2260]

it doesn't look like anyone has answered the original comment ^^; ES probably refers to the singer's initials, elaiza santos

[@talitinhalps4719]

Pen Palz brought me here

[@decayinsilence]

🖤

[@kiwiisacake]

i learned this from a homestuck video and idk how to feel about that

[@termitetoxin7983]

lol the nepeta one?

[@kiwiisacake]

@@termitetoxin7983 yes

[@Carimews]

Yes omg

[@PointlessPaperBlob]

Same

[@jelfishery]

prepare for a whole lot of views

[@nerco8194]

I like this song but I really want to know what "ES" means

[@sul4]

“ES” is the initials of the lead singer, Z Santos!

[@_marshP]

This......

[@arowoflights1377]

Adventure Time core!!!

[@giovanniwashcool6555]

Is there a purely instrumental version somewhere?

[@mataschmata]

i don't think so, but you can use vocalremover to do it with AI.

[@giovanniwashcool6555]

@@mataschmata Cuts out all the delightful bass....

[@Idiosyncrasy]

Yes, kzbin.info/www/bejne/hZ20Yauqg7Gtepo

[@not_vato]

is there an instrumental?

[@DaniesHere]

For everyone, No this song isn't about body disphoria, trans, non-binary or anything related to that. Just a simple song that you can interpret in your own way, some may see it as this and some may not but please, don't try forcing your thoughts onto a simple song with nice RPG sound in the start (at least I assume because it does sound like that quite a lot. Like a video game song but I know it isn't.)

[@bellcore]

the difference of number of views between this song and the rest of the album…

[@parrotblossom]

Well, a fairly popular animator(cuptoast) used this song in one of her videos so that's probably why

[@PointlessPaperBlob]

I love this song, but sometimes, i need to listen to music without lyrics. Does anyone know if there is an instrumental version?

[@animekiki1727]

I don't understand my personality

[@thechannelforyouandme9376]

You are cool

[@ToelwWorks]

Guys try 1.25x speed it sounds good

[@gnashing_teeth]

Whos here from the Nepeta Lyricstuck?

[@radicool8328]

*quietly raises hand*

[@krawlzdraws6645]

Wait,,, how did you know ;-;

[@arek5391]

:3

[@user-oc5wy2ev8s]

Got here because of magpiied.

[@jeronimoroldan2677]

Solo digo que esto se volvera famoso por cuptoast

[@staringatchairs7844]

three

[@bigdongwilly7901]

Bodega waluigi