dandelion hands - self harmageddon

[@madelynhernandez3375]

Everybody reacts to this saying its amazing and relatable and all. But I can't ignore the fact that the artist is in so much goddamn pain to be making stuff like this. I'm sorry :(

[@qxob2123]

Madelyn Hernandez I can’t ignore all the people that say they relate

[@JimmyBoy452]

Making art is what makes it worth :)

[@dreamsun69]

@Jay Crawfordno, its not like linkin park

[@koenthepadawan2244]

@Jay Crawford Wtf not at all lolxD

[@ramonaof12thdimension13]

Making art is how some of us cope with the pain

[@taylerwilson1682]

i love how 96% percent of the comments are people being kind and so pro-each other in the comments section. i wish that everyday life could be filled with people as lovely as the ones who have been so loving in this comments section, but i shouldn't wish i should start making it happen, right? everyone is treating each other as equal, we all understand what the common goal should be yet isn't. i really love the love.

[@taylerwilson1682]

common goal of humanity*

[@SofiaSantos7]

Have a beautiful day, friend! Lots of love 💜

[@taylerwilson1682]

aww thankyou so much! your comment made me tear up!

[@taylerwilson1682]

Sofia Santos awww thanks my gal - you have a beautiful day too!

[@taylerwilson1682]

upseti spaghetti im laughing too hard at this

[@eligiblbachelor]

“ I won’t be free until I die” this part hit me like a goddamn brick. It’s something I actually think about a lot. It’s like I’m being perpetually trapped in a cycle of feeling the worst I’ve ever felt for months and then feeling like I’m on top of the world, asking myself why i felt so bad before and laughing at how stupid I was for feeling that way. Now that I came back to a depressive phase I really started to think if it will always be like this i’ve really been wondering if I will ever be completely free from it , I just want to function properly I feel defective , I’m so tired of this, I only get one life why do I have to waste it like this.

[@Lauren-fx6hn]

I feel it too. Every single word

[@nightskykitty]

I’m sorry you’re going through that. Thank you for sharing, you’ve made me realize something about myself. I hope you’re doing better now and days. Much love!

[@starrynight_._]

this is exactly how I feel and I just didn’t know how to put it in words

[@xo_lexie]

definitely sounds like bipolar!!! I have that same feelings hhh I so hope you are feeling better now!

[@lunaa5323]

yeah it really feels like i won’t be free until i die and it makes makes me so mad because i’m literally 15 i shouldn’t be feeling like that

[@ch33344]

I'm crying I'm so sorry for every one of you

[@reggina6297]

Thank you.

[@starlit-rain]

Me too. Worst of all I have friends who suffer from this stuff, thinking about it makes my heart ache and break

[@whalienabi]

Exactly. Stay strong please, to anyone who can relate to this by the tiniest bit. Please remember that I love and support you, please please please take care ❤️❤️❤️

[@ru406]

thank u bby♥️✨

[@Stick_and_stone]

Don't be.

[@oaao8312]

Usually electronic voices against ambient music is really scary when you're alone... ...but this just feels like a heartbeat translated into music...

[@krystierochelle6544]

i seriously don't think there's any other band that make me feel so content with my loneliness. i'm glad to be so sad because it means i get to appreciate all of the wonderfully-depressing bands in life.

[@linny3012]

Yeah I was thinking the same thing!

[@splashderp]

+Overclocked Sound Card talking to yourself online is weird luv

[@splashderp]

+Overclocked Sound Card nah, I'd rather not since im not into bestiality :33c if you think that's what a furry is you really need to get off the internet

[@taylerwilson1682]

i dont think the comments section is a place intended for others to tear down perfectly beautiful people, thanks honey xx (but also the fact you think its okay to tear someone down for your mere opinion on their physical appearance is disgraceful and honestly eye opening at how stupid some people can be).

[@taylerwilson1682]

the physical appearance of someone doesn't determine how they could be as a person, this girl could be a mass murderer or she could be mother Teresa in the making I don't know that by her physical appearance and im not dumb enough to form an opinion based on what I know about her (also she's not even close to a "fatty")

[@DizzyClocks]

you calm my anxiety down i love you so much

[@dandelionhandsband]

man jeez wow you're too sweet :~)

[@RaiNIceDog]

Let me fix it **ahem ahem** by watching this video you are sponsoring selfharm (indirectly) P.S. this is a joke

[@chamomilehands]

@@RaiNIceDog funni joke.

[@ch1kkapo0m85]

@@RaiNIceDogman this is not funny at all, keep educating yourself

[@Ihatefarikalittastesreallybad]

@@RaiNIceDog not funny

[@cypher4021]

I remember listening to this during a bad moment at 3 am and feeling something different and lighter like I could stare at my ceiling for hours and be content with life in a way unlike the rest of the time where things just feel like someone put a grey filter over life and things feeling heavy and then this just makes that feeling seem millions of miles away and things are light and free. I want to listen to this everyday for as long as I can I love it so much

[@jazmineflinkman1337]

[@marior3479]

Cassie same time. i feel you.

[@amandawest5302]

yes

[@clarav1938]

Cassie Same. What is it about this song that can just turn a really awful mood around?

[@fatboyoficiale]

I really sympathize with anyone who relates to this and while my voice may not matter to any of you or you think your voice wouldn't matter to anyone else, just know that someone is there for you

[@dakotahope599]

Fat boy lovely boy* :)

[@fatboyoficiale]

Thanks mom

[@madelynhernandez3375]

Fat boy this meant a lot to me ♡

[@kib6049]

Fat boy u r sweet

[@fatboyoficiale]

+•3• hmu

[@blakexavier6206]

I won't eat until you say that you love me, i wont sleep until you can't sleep with out me i wont breath until i take your breath away i want to be alone but i want you to stay i wont eat until you say that you love me i wont sleep until you can't sleep with out me i wont breath until i take your breath away i want to be alone but i want you to stay i wont be free .. until i die i wont be free .. until i die

[@dakotal7427]

remember, you are not your feelings. just the person who experiences them. the days get better.

[@dakotal7427]

im still having a hard time remembering this myself

[@nesomaru9043]

Thank you, I hope things get better for us both

[@anon4571]

Seeing how pure these comments are compared to the rest of the sections on this hell-site almost made me cry. Thank y'all so much this is beautiful

[@dakotahope599]

Yea the comments are pure 😂 sureeee. Everyone here wants to die apparently

[@anon4571]

Dakota Hope yeah I'm sad as shit

[@Hoarderindenial]

how are you now?

[@anon4571]

cece langer still pretty sad ngl

[@samsloth7140]

the girl who showed me these beautiful sounds wont know how i feel about her , how these sounds remind me of her .

[@bindubuddies7363]

[@barryaustin6742]

lucky that u met someone like so. where did u guys meet?

[@siegemound]

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[@flaminreds505]

I can relate

[@samsloth7140]

we met online , I didn't think anyone would relate uhm

[@spectears3806]

i literally just sat here and cried to this song for 3 hours

[@madelynhernandez3375]

slimedog I feel you dawg... the more you listen to it the sadder it becomes

[@prodashibe]

hello hun! i know its been four years but i hope your feeling better

[@ThoseWhoHaveFallen97]

For years I’ve always listened to this song thinking it’s from a romantic perspective, but recently I’ve separated myself from my abusive mom and it has taken a completely new form. Ive always just liked the way it sounded, but now these lyrics hit me to my core, they describe so vividly the feeling of needing love from someone who doesn’t love you . It hurts but it’s nice to know many people have felt similar things are we’re able to reshape them into art

[@ethanrappaport9675]

this whole lyrics is so deep. "I wont be free" especially because it shows that he is willing to be a slave to this person that he wants to be with. He is harming himself and endangering himself just for someone to love him. He is willing to do that for the rest of his life just to not be lonely. It shows his true pain and what he's going through. There are 6 lines to this song but it hits so hard :(

[@Michael-wl9bj]

relatable

[@Stick_and_stone]

Sounds more like trying to guilt trip someone into "loving" But Idk maybe that's accidental

[@someonethatexistsprobably9656]

It’s exactly how I feel

[@kaogirlgaming]

this is fucking beautiful. this doesnt even have nearly the amount of views it deserves. such a precious jem, so glad i found this. i fall asleep to this most nights, dandelion hands makes me feel so strange and i absolutely love it . thank you nick for calming me down

[@aenemahatebrees3019]

gem*

[@failmaddog]

^bruh way to ruin it

[@forgetmenotfaery]

IKR

[@kasetbakkal]

actually, we dont need to ruin this song with more viewers you kno

[@Scarletkillerxz]

This song simultaneously makes me so sad and so happy, this is a gift.

[@Nilzerb]

I get really bad when I get heartbroken. I can't eat without getting sick for quite a few months. I'm going through that right now, and this song hits me hard. i miss sleeping with my other half

[@vennyventricide9587]

Time is such a weird thing.

[@whalienabi]

Hey, I hope that you are doing much better since you last commented this. Stay strong, and please take care of yourself. I care and love for you ❤️❤️❤️

[@paladinstorage6501]

It hurts atm for me too.

[@HikiOmo]

I feel that lol

[@slowdance2softrock727]

Someone somewhere is gonna read a paragraph you wrote 4 years ago, when you were alone in your bedroom listening to this song... that is fucking crazy.

[@ivemcfallen9117]

Does reading it 5 months later count?

[@dobbysrightsock]

3 years

[@n30n_sp1der7]

reading your comment after 3 years :)

[@snicky4660]

ay bro i did it

[@slowdance2softrock727]

@Sammich fuckin mad

[@natalie6162]

Listening to this song while surrounded in complete darkness is strangely comforting.

[@em_mmeow]

i hope i heal from all the things no one apologized for

[@Mcdonalberger]

I started listening to this song (mostly Dandelion Hands) at ten years old praying to god someone would love me for me. Now im dating the love of my life but it isnt all sunshine and rainbows. I hope to whoever is reading this that you have an amazing life that you love and no matter what i support you and love you!

[@veronicasawyer3211]

There's something weirdly nostalgic and calming about this.

[@honeymothangelface8752]

ultimate anti-anxiety.

[@mochitochiofficial]

Does anybody else want to listen to this song while laying in a treehouse during the winter? Like you're completely surrounded by snow?

[@largelump3613]

WOWIE ZOWIE AESTHETIC VHS OLD TV IN THE SNOW AND RAIN shut the hell up

[@skato7291]

@@largelump3613 You've had a month to self reflect. How are you now though?

[@chelseasanchez8970]

welp, i ended up here at the end of my depressing binge. i found this.

[@eartheclipse8]

same here... I feel horrible

[@kammeh8456]

same here buddy, every single time i ending up listening to this over and over

[@jameswilsoncroft1265]

Chelsea Sanchez yo same

[@andrujk]

talking to people is a way of self harming

[@tris1865]

Arguably the worst way of self harming

[@alba4387]

lol

[@lacevein]

It depends on who it is. Some people could be a way of reducing "that" feeling, and some people are literally the worst type of self harm. This is literally coming from an introvert :')

[@lilithlikethedemon]

I never knew trying to die was so peaceful and normal and okay to feel

[@luckifan90-dj7zq]

the loneliness just caves in

[@crownedhorde9988]

this song hits pretty hard when your lifes been nothin but a whole trainwreck, being practically betrayed by someone you trusted to death and not much later, worrying if your enough for someone else

[@snug_as_a_bug]

i know its cliché but watching the person you love fall in love with another is one of the most painful things you can experience. i love her, but shes never coming back.

[@NutchieProductions]

i used to listen to this every morning walking to school last year, it made me so calm

[@lucidlysophie673]

this is actually my favorite video on youtube, you're great.

[@anotherlight8]

i keep going back to this song, i haven't listened to it in a long while but it's very comforting. it just puts me at ease. it's personal and raw, its beautiful

[@nicole8946]

Well, he sleeps fine without me every night, I know I don't take his breath away, and he's sure as hell never going to tell me that he loves me. Guess that leaves me dead.

[@crustyboogers]

the vague ball of guilt and grief festering in my stomach since i was 10 years old is unravelling like yarn

[@TheRedTigon]

Everyone is saying this is relatable, but this sounds like something my abuser would say as a form of guilt tripping. Or maybe they have at some point, and the memory is just suppressed.

[@Stick_and_stone]

I thought of that too, that it sounds like guilt tripping. But maybe it's meant less literal than that.

[@junomitts1131]

i could close my eyes and imagine myself at peace to thisit soothes me

[@cantirk3146]

There's something about this sort of song that, though they don't have a lot of lyrics, the 8-bit like sounds, robotic sort of sounds it, for some reason they are the ones that make me the most emotional. I want to find more of these sorts of songs but I'm not entirely sure of what other artists with a similar sound

[@FandomGarbage]

unrelated but i love ur pfp !!!

[@BigShloopy]

Vulnerability at it's peak

[@whateverlexi5070]

this weirdly hits home in a really selfish and possessive way. because i'm bipolar i fixate on people and feel these things all the time whenever i find people that i just fixate on. it's terrifying and i hate it, but this song kind of calms me down.

[@Catw123]

This video actually stuck with me, I had a friend who lied about killing themselves and I didn't know until now and I was so depressed and always listened to this because it reminded me of him

[@taptart]

Dandelion hands is the only band who can make me feel content with my loneliess. With my sadness.

[@z1mr145]

i could die right now and i'd be fine with that and i want every one in my family to be fine with that

[@dakotahope599]

Well they obviously wouldn't be, they love you, shit head.

[@lilnumboffical]

I can relate so much with this statement

[@nathanprescott7535]

I won't be Free Until I Die I Won't be Free Until I Die

[@woogusaurus1445]

ay mate how r u doing today?

[@shrushtijoshi8372]

Why is it that when youre going through a bad time with someone you love youtube always suddenly starts suggesting you sad songs to add fuel 2 ur fire.

[@dandelionhandsband]

devil algorithms my bad dawg

[@jackhogueison926]

I’ve been sad for 3 years now someday you will realize that silence is loud

[@_jaclyn_dalessandro02]

she'll always be my whole universe i will gladly keep suffering forever knowing that she's getting even a taste of happiness

[@PotassiumPoisoning]

It’s been so many years, and it hurts so bad. That’s art

[@PotassiumPoisoning]

I sang this to myself until I ended up in the psych ward, I think it’s a sign of growth that I can hurt with it now and just ache

[@shokusho]

what happened to u bro

[@rarefiction4690]

someone please be my friend

[@educatedscum5306]

rarefiction friends are good

[@madelynhernandez3375]

rarefiction it'd be a pleasure

[@pissgangster]

I will be your freind :)

[@vonevol]

hi

[@dakotahope599]

Me too

[@ireallylikeworms5915]

i really, really thought things would be better by now, but it feels like it just keeps getting worse

[@c1ndrevv]

I really hope things are getting better for you now. If not, I really hope they do soon. Just remember that it may not be your day, or month, or year, or even decade, but it always gets better someday and you are loved and you matter so much! ❤

[@snogwaijb235]

am i the only person who thinks that while this sounds cool, its kida late and now im scared because of the voice?

[@InvalidPersistentName]

snogwai jb it's never late

[@skag109]

I never in my life ever thought id come back to this. Its weird to be writing a comment here since i never thought i would. Its like i never actually left its amazing. i love everyone in this comment section just as much as i did 4 years ago

[@emisannn6722]

When you are loosing someone so important to you and even though you know it, You still drain yourself. These words are beautiful. Thank you so much

[@monstertruck5801]

"I won't eat until you say that you love me" I need thay reminder otherwise I can't go on with my day happily. I want to hear it over and over till I can't forget it. But for now the forgetfulness will consume me until he decides to take my breath away again.

[@AdiAni-Rae]

anyone else get a feeling deep in your chest when you listen to nick? it's been 5 years i've been listening to his music and i still cant describe that feeling i get everytime i hear his music. heavy, but light as a feather. absolute legend, thank you for getting me through life dude

[@burningblaze7820]

“I won’t be free until I die” hits far too hard when I think about my family and just other things that have held me down, myself especially

[@dirty_wastelander_]

This song is so calm, I love it so so much. The love in the comments is so outstanding. I want everyone to stay happy and stay alive.

[@dthingo]

Sometimes I feel like there's some parasite growing on my chest, so i come back to this video to read the comments. It makes me feel more calm when this happens.

[@1twothree4]

this is art. i love this so much. im so glad i ran into this. perfect timing too.

[@lavendermilk5107]

this is such a beautiful work of art but every time I hear it I cant help but think about how much pain the artist must be in to make something like this...

[@quickhands8706]

luv how the synth sounds like someone hung up the phone on you after he says "i won't be free until i die" makes it feel so genuine, like i'm reaching out for help and being ignored. and gotdamn if it ain't true. I won't be free until I die.

[@Melvas101]

My partner and I are going through some rough times, I literally couldn't eat because I was vomiting over the stress. I've been sleeping in hour intervals for awhile too because I miss them and over trauma of watching my best friend die recently. It feels so hard to breathe like I'm suffocating and I honestly don't know what I'm doing anymore. It would be so much easier to die but here I am listening to sad songs still alive.

[@dakotahope599]

Good. Cause death is eternity and life is always changing. It won't stay like this. It's just now but now will pass

[@ruby-yl8fe]

i know you most likely won’t see this but i hope that things got easier for you and that you pushed through. i love you and i’m proud of you.

[@Melvas101]

@@ruby-yl8fe it's been 3 years since lol, that partner and I ended up breaking up but it was for the best. I turned 20 this year, I'm spending thanksgiving with my best friend, I'm going to college soon to be a nutritionalist. I've grown a lot in the three years and definitely experienced worse including a physically abusive ex. But I'm still here, and listening to the same songs that I used to listen to when I was sad reminds me that I got through that, and I can get through more. Thank you 💕 I hope that youre doing well, I love you

[@Melvas101]

@@dakotahope599 I wish I saw your comment sooner, thank you 💕 I love you and I hope you're doing well

[@ruby-yl8fe]

@@Melvas101 i’m so happy that you’re doing better and i wish you luck in college- always remember what an amazing person you are and how much time can heal.

[@freshpyrope]

i remember listening to this for the first time. it’s the first song i heard by you, it’s great. i love it, been re listening to my playlists hahah.

[@freshpyrope]

jeez. i didn’t even know i commented on this? it’s been awhile but, relistening again haha. nice.

[@aaronmoon1805]

@@freshpyrope i feel ya. also hey fellow homestuck

[@eyeofhorus393]

These words hit different when you're with someone from when you're alone

[@Vaporewave]

Is it weird that I can't relate to any music like this at all, but still feel it deep inside and feel emotions you can't express? I suppose i'll never feel love which could be sad, but I'll never experience feelings like this either which sounds like a good thing, but at the same time so many people go through this and I probably will never know and just be like "damn that sucks, dunno what you mean!".

[@chaingigan7545]

self harmageddon, that's quite clever.

[@vargoro]

what a nostalgic dream

[@valentinaaguirre1895]

+Jonathan Vargas it's oniric nostalgic y'all.

[@princessminmin1785]

were just suicidal kids helping other suicidal kids

[@hippykitty6936]

I hope she's sound asleep right now.. and I hope he's up in the same mess I'm in. I hope her day went better than they have been going, and that his went worse than ever. I long to feel her embrace.. and his is nothing but a regret. I wish I could be there for her because I know she needs someone. I hope he's alone and hurt like he left me. I won't be free until I know she's safe, until he's gone, and until I die.

[@TheRedTigon]

I love comments like these, feels like a personal letter. As this comment is three years old, I hope you found your closure

[@whytho000]

How can internet strangers understand me more than my own friends?

[@breadbread4709]

found this song during lockdown 2020. this will forever be my comfort song

[@cool-gd1zp]

its so refreshing to know at least someone understand the way you feel. When people confront me on my self harm issues they rarely show true understanding, but this song is able to translate something so difficult into music and its so so beautiful. Thank you so much for your music.

[@axlimsfhjdlmb822]

this is seriously one of the most beautiful songs ik

[@bkdgbasura]

The slow rhythm threw my heart into a gradual pit of yearning for something I've always wanted but never got the chance to have

[@kxruu3062]

I was feeling the happiest I've been in a very long time, everything was alright- I was talking with my family, spending time with them, even opened some early presents and just feeling so much safer than usual. But it's weird how after all of that, when I finally climbed into my bed, I felt my heart drop, almost like it was being held by chains which were slowly shredding it to pieces, and all of the sudden I felt the worst, most awful sadness within such a short amount of time. This has happened a few times to me, and I have to say it catches me off guard every time - the way I can feel so much joy and then, in a few short seconds, I can feel absolutely nothing at all. I turned to this song as soon as the feeling overcame me, and I'm glad I did. It comforted me as I knew this was the start of a bad depressive episode that I, once again, have to pull through. Thank you for producing such a beautiful song. Also, if anyone is still reading this, I'm so sorry, and I really hope you feel better soon. Nobody deserves to feel this way.

[@spiceesnail5243]

Fell in love with the music, stayed for the fanbase.......and the music

[@andjela7847]

you are absolutely amazing, your songs are so beautiful. thank you for making such good music!!

[@sortahungry8217]

20-24 I played this album on repeat and I have never been more comforted about being sad than I have listing to this. It helped me move forward even though I wanted to stop. I did it and couldn’t imagine hearing this now without giving thanks…thank you for being you.

[@russt8163]

Like the current of a river that gives you no chance to grab onto anything before it pulls you back under. Depression. It’s all incredibly hard, slow, tiring. Until you lay on your back and let the current carry you, going nowhere but enjoying the view.

[@plushs]

every time i come back to listen to this i get the same feeling i had when i was a terrified little kid and coming to terms with too much in my life.... not a lot has changed but i think im going to be ok eventually. if u read this i cant thank you enough for all of this beautiful music, it's helped over the years. i hope youre in a better place now too

[@Lildeadthing420]

this is the most beautiful thing Ive ever heard

[@cerys9476]

this is how i feel now but if i lived by it i'd die.

[@littletastylittlegamesmmmm8628]

these lyrics are very disturbing when you realize this song is about self harm

[@bebitokoi1627]

whenever my depression gets really bad I listen to this and it helps me feel less alone.

[@jazmineflinkman1337]

This music is the only thing that brings my mind peace. But it makes me a little happy that im not the only one who loves this music. im in a difficult place right now.... i ran away from home to live with my boyfriend, But now idk how to feel about him... I always looked at myself as the type of person to not go so far. But here i am, In another school, No friends, No family... Just the music ive always loved. To all of you out there... Youre ok and there are people who love you. I promise...

[@fishstick5113]

this was the first song i found from u guys back in late 2021 n been in love since

[@jasperlarkin6586]

as someone who has borderline personality disorder this is really relatable

[@qxob2123]

God of psychosis how is it relatable?

[@koo44m]

I know someone with borderline personality disorder and they were really obsessive over their partner and I think if they heard this song at that time they would've said they could relate.

[@serireicanon]

just found your music today and i love it so much

[@frescade7578]

I sometimes wish i could stop breathing for just a day or two, then maybe someone would have an ounce of care about my well being. Maybe its better to stop forever. I wont be free.

[@9awesomeness]

bpd ruined my life, and i mourn the person i could have been without it. i wish i was easier for people to love

[@lost_potential22]

gosh this song makes me a magnetic fucjfuck im sappy sad and happy. beautiful contrast and I love how the lyrics remind me of going through separation anxiety with one I truly miss.

[@acediaethos4469]

i first listened to this about a week ago and my initial reaction was "uh... okay?" because of the voice - i wasn't expecting it. but i'm back here today, in the middle of discovering, listening to and downloading music from bands like dandelion hands and crywank, and i just realised how in love with it i am. it's been in my head for most of the day, i'm downloading it right now and i know it's going to help me sleep tonight. thank you for this music.

[@plusherss]

i love your music so much, i listen to it when i get in a hard place, and your music always reminds me that life always gets better and i have to keep my chin up, smile, and keep going. thank you for everything.

[@violetlovesyou]

this makes me feel incredibly empty but in a nice way

[@kaittttttt7]

I've never been so content with being alone after listening to this

[@NobOdy-rz4iu]

This made me so calm.

[@BowieBandit]

Thank you for existing