Dark night of the soul is telling you something is wrong, but what? Music by bensound.com

[@ASMRGRATITUDE]

Listening to this while I drive from Seattle to my new job in California! My guardian angel is with me!

[@aprild915]

Some days I have the spark. Some days I don't. I love those days I have the spark, they're the best. I realize that I cause my depression by what I allow. Thank you so much!

[@mollyclock8238]

words, cannot describe, how deeply you have touched my soul, and created in me, an understanding, of myself.

[@BEMEISM]

That's so sweet molly clock. That's your soul opening your heart. T

[@andreasoftheartedsolmontgo7227]

I found you for purpose. Here I was in my darkest hour of thoughts of death, suicide and other dark things regarding lying abusive people. You said entering the kingdom of God and remembering I have a choice to let people in and out of my room (emotional room). I am a healer and I can see, feel everything. I have to remember all the three years of healing work ive done. I can't get off that path, I found peace. Peace that people have been trying to steal. Starting now I am cleaning up my emotional room, to bring back that spark that energy. I feel better already. thank you.

[@cliffkonkle3467]

I LOVE YOU

[@Miss_Sippy]

I have had this knowledge for a very long time. However, when I lost my only child five years ago, the darkness become over-whelming and the battle of my life came upon me. By faith I await my Angels, Light Beings, other to come help me fight this battle lest I lose this go round. NO thing I've ever been thru equals to this trauma. Thank you for this video........

[@walldez3245]

There's no death, Miss Sippy. There's only the absence dellusion. You may not be able to see or hear or touch your child, but he or she sure can! Send him/her your highest feelings of love and joy and peace, and give yourself the gift of compassion, love yourself cause you'll love God. Blessings for you.

[@tatianasolo6519]

Your videos are priceless. There are no words to describe how important your help on this uneasy journey... Thank you so much!!!

[@PoopiePants44]

Thanks for these videos brother. As I've mentioned before, my chest and stomach are full of burning and churning like my insides are all tied up in knots and like energy is trying to move through but can't. It's like chronic pain. Makes me so grumpy. Zaps me. I have so much love to give and gifts to give but as long as I'm stuck with this pain, I'm stuck.

[@BEMEISM]

Have you been checked for a duodenal ulcer by any chance Ryan. just a thought. This can be very hard to be detected sometimes. If you drink milk, does it ease off. T

[@PoopiePants44]

Trevor Ilesley I have had a Gastro scope done and they didn't find anything. Milk doesn't relieve it at all. Crying relieves it. Anger and anxiety make it worse. It's like knots in my chest and stomach and burning/tension.

[@BEMEISM]

Ok so basically, you need to cry a lot, this is good, so therefore its a release right. so it looks like there you have the complaint, and you have the cure. The illness is the emotions then, meaning your experience. I think I had better send Mary Poppins round for tea Ryan. Ok so, don't get angry, then it wouldn't flare up, and if it does, cry your eyes out to balance it all out again. Do you not find it all amazing that the power of unreleased emotions can cause you so much physical pain. Is that a bingo moment. It was for me. this is why I healed myself, just to get out of pain. Hence the b me steps. so when I say balance my emotions, you now know how bloody hard that is right, but, one spoon full of balance my emotions is not enough, you need 2 spoon fulls, 4 times a day. I think you and your beautiful children need a duvet day watching mary poppins. sorru about the sense of humour. T

[@seankennedylakeside]

Emptying your self of pain and conflict....ah now that sounds like a worthy aim.

[@l4dymax1]

I just found you! the day after I had self realisation my whole being is consciousness and now working on the thoughts. I needed to hear this ..all of this... Thank you ❤

[@SuperPhoenixeyes]

I've heard other teachers talk about depression but no one has addressed this feeling with such truth and value. The term Dark Knight of Soul just makes complete sense and sheds light to the fact that depression is the Soul's attempt to rescue you from your own bullshit.

[@kathleenwharton2139]

And Other people’s bull shit.

[@reginarocha6971]

just loved it!!! It really mapped out the whole process, I can now be more at peace and let the whole unfolding carry out its thing, I got it, it's the transformation of the Ego, old self, which is stale and spoiled, and is dying or being substituted by a new awakening, which is unique and fresh and spiritual, it's the Kingdom of Heaven, that is pure light and love, to shine through, wow Trev, thanks, soooo helpful, much love!!!!!!!!!

[@BEMEISM]

Eureka Regina Rocha

[@belovedofgod738]

I have so much empathy and compassion for you and what you have endured. You have however in your darkness tried to drag others with you. Completely understood but unacceptable. It stops now. Have a good day.

[@chkchrycla]

I'm speechless...and amazed...and the timing....back to speechless. Thank You.

[@paulog516]

thank you for having the balls to tell the truth

[@persianprincess90]

Thank you Trevor. ☘️

[@mollyclock8238]

you have no idea, the power your words have.

[@L0u15eM1che11e]

We are what some people called lightworkers. I totally understand or remember since my third eye opened it was like a child again. I knew I was spirit when I was a child didn't understand the set up. I hated fitting in in the end I feel my heart chakra etc I understand myself more and cutting off the stuff that didn't serve me and chasing that bliss. You're not the only one but glad I was led to your channel. It explains how i was able to revise for exams in my sleep as a child. Seeing synchronicity numbers. The elite know all of this. They just don't tell you. Most great people know and use it for self gains.

[@BigMoney21]

WOW you have a Gift it’s like your just talking to me I know you’re talking to everyone so Grateful for you!❤️✌️😊☝️❤️😊

[@joz4630]

Brilliant Trevor! Thank you for another wonderful message! Blessings my brother xx

[@BEMEISM]

Your welcome JO Z

[@yourawakeningconsciousness1004]

Such a great analogy, cleaning up your emotions compared to cleaning up your home. Great video!!

[@danashannon8234]

My old self was just fine. Abuse ruined to me.

[@helenazilberman]

As well shows itself in this beautiful song of Duran Duran with the 'who do you need, who do you love, when you come undone', which presents itself with the other bit of the song 'happy birhday to you, was created for you'. The song has gained other dimension for me. And you, Trevor, have gained further appreciation from me for the help you deliver. Good luck to all in this game that life is.

[@BEMEISM]

Thank you Helena Zilberman. Beautifully said. T

[@LovingAtlanta]

👍Starting to make sense. Gotta listen a few more times.

[@kimtia1091]

Now it all makes sense...I asked the lord why now I know thank you x

[@Bruh-vy3td]

Dude. Yes. Thank you deeply

[@dinosalas6953]

"blessed are the poor in spirit..."

[@iamchannelll]

Dino Salas blessed are the rich in spirit not the poor in spirit .

[@dementoridk1545]

I read be here now by ram dass. At first it didn't make a lot of sense to me. A year later I read it again and understood most of it. I really liked it. I don't know why but I started to follow it's teachings a little by little like actively cutting off attachment and desires. I tried to stay alone quite with my mind and feel some kind of love developing in me. I keep doing this every now and then and it keeps me calm and unattached and helped me help others in ways I didn't know possible. I was full of energy. I knew how to heal people. I could understand when someone was trying to gain attention and overwhelmed them with all the attention they required. I could feel spreading love to them. After a few months I felt like I suddenly forgot all I knew. I felt so so tired, like something sucking up all my energy. Getting into day dreaming and fantasising. Need more and more rest. Was not in my full state. Can't make people around me happy. Can't respond normally. Don't know right and wrong anymore. Lost friends. Always thinking about what the secret code was that I forgot. Was there a code or an idea that I forgot. I read all the books I used to read, watched all the movies i had watched hoping I remember that idea again. Impatience. Feel too attached too attached. Too scared of simple things like darkness and sounds and horror movies. Can't stay alone with my mind anymore. Lost my center. Can't calm. Regular illness.

[@dementoridk1545]

Does any of this make sense?

[@Bruh-vy3td]

Yes I can empathize. How are you doing now?

[@elizabethbetsy1]

Brilliant. Thank you.

[@siminthesky]

the fun is, as i let go of certain people who i tried so hard convince myself that they are good people and love me, i started to fit my good old pants again, and i am very happy about it, since these days we have lycra in everything and not real good 100% and good classic design anymore if it comes to clothings. Women should look awfull, like men in clothes, so men can feel better and superior i guess, so very subliminal conditioning we experience in the clothingshops and ads these days. I heard they even change the real sizes to make women feel low about themselves. It's so silly that some people try to convince us massively that we are useless; why would they bother so much to poison, control and hurt us so much?! I know we are priceless and my old trousers do be good! I bought them in happy times and without ego involved already :) Thanks for your great great words Trevor, you are very artistic, even with your words :)

[@theearthisplane1238]

I really appreciate your work sir

[@urbansetter1]

I've been struggling with self hate and depression since I'm a teenager.

[@EldritchTeacup]

It feels like this thing called life suddenly turned into molasses and I can't swim through it. I'm trying but I'm sinking. It would help if I got out on the other side alright sometime soon. Unknotting a long dormant spiritual side is helping matters. I'm seeing repeat numbers everywhere.

[@BEMEISM]

If your seeing repeated numbers it may represent your repeated mind set or circumstances Eldritch Teacup

[@OzmaOfOzz]

the things you say about cleaning the rooms of our mind and bodies remind me of Louise Hay's teachings, she said the same things :) great video Trevor, I finally understand my depression. But I'm also feeling anxious bcs I can't help but fear:will I ever get through this? when?? I got shit to do, can't be depressed for too long! I wanna B*ME, shed all the old beliefs and shine already! and this not knowing gives me great anxiety. Also, can you give us a tip on how to be grateful for this depression and not attach negative shit and phobias to it? Cause when I find myself crying, instead of thinking I am healing and shedding old emotions, I tend to victimize myself and think very bad thoughts, I can't help it! Please advice, I highly appreciate your videos!

[@daiseyrenta]

Naturalness...I love it!

[@kimgee437]

What you said in one of your videos about visions that are like projecting like in school on wall well I have had a few of them. now with third eye entities are say offering me a flower 🌺 some now are trying to connect with me but I don't trust cause still seeing them in the dark and i tell them I will send them to the light then they are gone I want to connect with people who have passed to lean to be come a medium like you were .

[@stamperfloorcover]

I found this and the birds came in droves.. 2002 San Rafael CA..shh.... don't tell... But they stayed hit nightly news ( the birds ) I was one with a force a spark. That's a long story. And then the teacher me lost it's way.. That path lasted years. Perhaps 4-5 ( not the bird's ) but the enlighten .. Put the plug back on the jug. And let SELF again take over my dark is visible in reflections . The spirit world is real .. So are the helpers the an- sister's , father's father's thats the mustard seed. snakes and birds .. the enlighten state of just being.. With goals of said, " SELF" depression is mere suppression. Relief is the under-skirt of looking at self. A dumpster is yesterday, today is a new day. Play fair with others and your self.. The God helpers come and show the way. God kingdom is inter-self, and with-in our fellows... God-speed my book is me. Just me.

[@tracihill8758]

I know you. Your blowing my mind .I can hardly believe this is happenings. But I guess it is .It really is .The meek shall inherit the Earth. Your message is ment for me to hear .Its time .

[@mateja092]

Thank you Trevor for sharing your words with all your heart. This is the golden message for all who are trying to get fully awakened and are willing to become a true self

[@jackbrennan745]

Once you see it, it can’t be unseen, Once you hear it, it can’t be unheard, Once you taste it, it can’t be untasted, Once you smell it, it can’t be unsmelled, Once you feel it, it can’t be unfelt Once you think it, it can’t be unthought, Once you perceive it, it can’t be unpercieved. These seven kingdoms unite the day the Truth is revealed to the self, from the Self, and the real becomes the Unreal, and the unreal becomes the Real.

[@mollyclock8238]

admittedly, i am a bit on the slow side. when i hear messages like this, i have to replay them, multiple times. (...i only do this for messages that resonate...)

[@BEMEISM]

It's the best way molly clock. Your not being slow at all. It takes time for all words to filter through. Every time you hear a truth, stop the vid, feel the sentence. Sit with it and see where it fits in your journey. There's much healing in words when we fully understand the energy. Words are words but it's how it's said that you feel. T

[@Missmusicdiva]

💯✔ survivor!!!

[@kimgee437]

You were the best .

[@MrTuna8000]

Thank you Trevor for another great video! how do you know it's your true self speaking to you and not your mind?

[@BEMEISM]

it makes you believe its coming in from some where else. Lets put it this way. all I thought about was fashion, women, photography, creativity, the material world. I never wrote, I never spoke spiritual. I didn't do psychic, or healing stuff. I was a man, very much on guard and slightly angry. trying to survive. basically there is the difference, one is the world you know. Then, this other self kicked in. I had to learn everything I wrote. I had to learn to do all the stuff I'm telling my subscribers. the shorter version, is this, "shit, where the fuck is this lot coming from" its like thoughts get into your head, and you couldn't even think about the intelligence that's been down loaded. But, lets say that may just be me. on another short version, its this, your not emotional being. the thought are more pure. more enlightened. they don't judge, it gets you to see the world differently. This is why writing is a great medium. Oh and it still comes through into the mind. If your lucky, you may hear a voice on the outside. It can also come from a feeling that's outside of your self. Imagine an invisible self that's close to you. good question though. T

[@MrTuna8000]

Trevor Ilesley wow! Thank you for the detailed answer! Much love

[@BEMEISM]

I will do a talk on this one Joshua Lee. It's a great question. T

[@MrTuna8000]

Trevor Ilesley Great! Looking forward to it🙏🙏

[@whatisthis-y8w]

@@BEMEISM This is exactly what happened with me. Going through the process of realizing that I need to learn everything that I’ve been teaching. It’s quite humbling, and quite depressing at times. Thinking you’re the teacher, and realizing that you’re actually the student. I’ve been able to transcend this cosmic drama since my shift. Life recently hit me with some personal crisis’s all at one time that have shown me that I still I have work to do… The same mechanism that has been teaching others through me, is now teaching me through experience. Understanding this makes the suffering far more bearable. But the suffering is there. Thanks for this video, and this response. I haven’t heard anyone detail what I’m experiencing like you just did. Beautiful 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻

[@ellencantrell3040]

Yes this is true however I've never found my way. Their going to kill me, if not I'll bleed to death. They've given me injections Idk. I'm an old soul. An empathy light being.

[@xomosmanifestos4580]

Ellen Cantrell What kind of injections Ellen? I am bombarded with negative ppl and memories like PTSD one trauma of devastating lies after another..I feel too much and every comment I take to heart ..I wish I was an observer rather than living in the driver's seat..its just too much and the stress ,pain and heartbreak can become overwhelming

[@cliffkonkle3467]

Who is going to kill you? What kind of injections did they give you. Are you ok?

[@goldscale]

Lovely vid! thank you Trevor

[@BEMEISM]

Thank you Daniel Goldloaded

[@goldscale]

You're welcome! Do you have any videos on dealing with addictions whilst on the dark night? I'm seeing this is a common problem and would love to hear about your views on it

[@BEMEISM]

I don't really Daniel Goldloaded. But I'm guessing the best addition to get into is self consciousness and awareness of healing the self to be able to at least have some enjoyment or meaning to life.

[@momoore5924]

Thank you

[@mslewis191]

This is terrifying!!! 😢😢😢

[@afghosting8772]

Yes, I wish my Dr. had told me about you.

[@thisislaflaretv5250]

This dude is dope

[@bettyboo3075]

This is exactly what's happened to me

[@chrsdaugherty]

Very interesting Trevor! But I be live you sa us we Live in the best era, of medicines, health so you don't know half of the TRUTH ! Like you've & others have stated wiebluvevin a world of pain! But its because we've been lied to & controlled! By the darkness of this WORLD! I love you & thank YOU for sharing ! Your a healer bless you! I will keep.listening ! There's so much TRUTH in what you say! But we don't have a health system in current allopathic drs!, it's about a BUSINESS model that keep a you sick for repeat business! So ! Evil (people are more important than money)

[@chrsdaugherty]

Your are so brave to be on video! Thanks for your perception! Your spot on . Spiritually ,

[@chrsdaugherty]

Would like to have a Skype conversation with you remember I work nights @ UPS prison sentence! Because I'm still paying for Childsupport/ S.S / Income tax, Etc how everyone is living in a trance by those in power . Isn't it nice to believe in big pharma.

[@tellerofunpopulartruths1344]

Trevor I don't fear death I welcome it is that wrong I want to go home but it's like I'm being told I can't

[@erinreis8160]

Mali Brookes words outta my mouth

[@topazzsky]

Me too. Told I'm going to be here a long time. Ugh! What I hate is that I don't know where I want to go, what I want to do, and no one has the answer. I meditate for HOURS! Nothing. I feel like I'm being toyed with. Just want to go home, or given the darn answers because I hate games and surprises!

[@BigMoney21]

My Life might make you appreciate yours ☝️❤️✌️❤️😊 I don’t like sympathy but Empathy is Greatly Appreciated you are an Amazing Infinite Unlimited Beings Of Light Keep Shining ON WE ARE ONE AND I DONT JUST TALK ABOUT WE ARE ONE I LIVE IT EVERYDAY AND I HOPE YOU DO TOO!☝️❤️😊✌️❤️😊✌️❤️😊✌️❤️☝️❤️😊❤️😊

[@kawaiisakura23]

topazzsky Y’all have no idea how powerful your comments were to me because that’s exactly how I’ve been feeling,thinking. Wow 😯

[@candicemariebeadco]

I AM ❤️

[@TJMJR1963]

9:40. That's been the story of my life.

[@iggydiaz7856]

thank you Trevor for shining into my life now pls tell me how do i get started cuz im hurting im angry and frustrated

[@BEMEISM]

Look at the words you are using. Ask your self why you hold within you such words of anger and pain Iggy Diaz. What other words could you use that explains who you are. When we get use to putting ourselves down, it's hard to stop the habit. You have to practice in changing words because words carry energy. Basically your abusing yourself. What if you keep trying to drive the car with the handbrake on, it will burn out. Words are the handbrake to your soul. It's no good shouting at the car because it won't go, same with self. Every time you use bad words, take the handbrake off. Meaning, catch yourself hurting yourself. T.

[@dollycina5770]

🙏🌸🙏

[@elainecook7283]

Perfect.....

[@Thatgirl-g6k]

👍

[@ellencantrell3040]

Your talking about death. I'm supposed to ascend, so when does this happen Our minds and hearts ate being blocked.

[@josephyounes8124]

Helo trevor i ve missed you.

[@DanaBidlake]

your very helpful

[@DanaBidlake]

My friend what do you know about jinn???

[@latinamamai18]

Thank you 😊 ❤️💕🌸

[@BEMEISM]

Thank you Lia M

[@BEMEISM]

Thank you Lia M

[@BEMEISM]

Thank you Lia M

[@Redrizzle187]

How to clean up the rooms?h o w?

[@BEMEISM]

one room at a time. Rooms means, energy chakras in my system

[@Its_me_Ellis_D]

Scariest thumbnail ever.

[@bettyboo3075]

Thank you