Dealing with sudden death of a spouse | Kelly Bills

[@KrisMcCauley]

I lost a partner suddenly In her sleep 7 weeks ago and this has been the most comforting podcast so far. Thank you both.

[@serpadre87]

I'm so sorry for your loss... I lost mine 8 months ago. It's still a nightmare, but I can feel some progress already. It takes time and just focusing on *now*, every day, every minute, for as long as you can do it. Try to avoid dwelling on the past or on the future, as it's pointless and only adds suffering. Sending you lots of love. Take care

[@samanthasmith4038]

I am so very very sorry I can't even imagine that pain and heartbreak and the shock and despair.

[@philaman1972]

Condolences.

[@sts.556]

i lost both my kid one at birth and one 26 year old , now my wife of 40 years is dying from kidney failure stage 5 , im afraid to do it again , i will have lost my whole family

[@ruthreuter9813]

To everyone below that states they lost a spouse, I am so very and extremely sorry. I have never married, so I cannot fully know. But, I wanted to share my thoughts and prayers to each and every one of you.

[@AmyMart]

Today is 1 month since my husband suddenly died in my arms. I knew when I was trying to revive him that he was gone. They worked on him for so long, I knew.... I can't get the visions out of my head. I don't know how, after 28 years, to live without him! I am broken! I want to hug him, I want to smell him, I want to talk to him again! I don't know how to do this! I have dreamt of him one time, and i could feel him. My head buried in his chest, feeling his arms holding me. I want to dream of him like that every night, and im afraid I won't. The pain is unbearable. 💔

[@dellasmith6960]

I’m so sorry for your lose. I just lost my wife of 4 years, 4 months ago. I just had my first dream about her Tuesday gone. I hope me and you have many dreams of our spouse because the pain in grief is unbearable. Her birthday is tomorrow. So if you can please pray for me.

[@newyork6437]

@@dellasmith6960 ..i prayed for the both of you.i lost my wife a few weeks ago after #41 years of marriage.Life without her is'nt worth living to me.Had a gun in my hand more than once being ex-military.The empty house with her stuff everywhere makes me feel like i got hit with a sledge hammer every time i walk into the house.May God Bless you and give you strength.

[@newyork6437]

I understand you and i can't even see her in a dream no matter how hard i try.=(

[@michaelbsarmiento]

How are you holding up?

[@moochnhowzn]

@@newyork6437 it’s not living it feels so lonely and empty and pointless. I have been here for nearly 2 months and it feels like everyday takes forever

[@gephrygeph6480]

My wife was diagnosed with stage 4 gallbladder cancer April 27, 2023. Chemo did nothing to slow the disease. She was placed on in-home hospice October 17. My daughter, her daughter and I provided 24/7 care for her the last two weeks of her life. She passed away on the morning of December 21, 2023 with me and our daughters by her side, holding her hands. Darla and I were only together for 6 years, married for 4. In that short amount of time, we packed more love in than most do in a lifetime. We were, without a doubt, MADLY in love - my kids, her kids and all our friends always told us so. Her daughter described it as a "relationship for the ages". My daughter once joked that she came to visit, not to visit but to watch Darla and I interact - she said it was a beautiful kind of bond we had. It's been just under 2 months, and these have been my hardest days. At 2:00 in the video, Kelly says there is hope; I do believe that. He also says there is light at the end of the tunnel, but for me, the tunnel is very long and very dark...but I cling on to the hope and know it will get better. I will never forget my true love and will carry her in my heart for the rest of my life. If you're going through this, do know you can grieve with hope. It's a long, lonely road that you have to take one step at a time, one day at a time. Don't be afraid to reach out to friends, family or complete strangers at grief help lines. They are there to help, if only by listening to your story and struggles. Best to all.

[@samanthasmith4038]

I am so very sorry. That is so awful. It's terrible how some people get cancer and have to suffer and get diagnosed with a terminal illness and others go to live healthy long lives. And others just have to suffer so bad. It doesn't make sense

[@eskylover65]

And this is why I’ve stayed single for 30 years because the sheer thought of loss is too much after losing my brother and parents when I was young. God bless

[@annekariuki4734]

Marry ,,not all die early,,you might live together to more than 100

[@annekariuki4734]

Marriage is very beautiful,just don't fear death...be positive be filled with optimism,life is for the living

[@lindastick4559]

My son died February 18,23 at home that morning of heart complications. My daughter-in-law heard an awful sound coming their bedroom, She tried CPR but being a litte girl she was afraid she wasn't pushing hard enough, 911 stayed on the line until the ambulance arrived. She called me I met her at the hospital at 6 am.Sorry but Val died. They were boyfiend and girlfriend when he was 16 she was 14. Throughout high school they dated, They had 2 awesome boys at the time one 11 one 14. My daughter-in-law has experienced everything he has spoken. His death changed her and she is still grieving. She loves him so much still today. She believes also she will see him again.

[@naomisgram1]

😢

[@BauhardOostendorp]

I lost my wife suddenly on Friday 5th January 2024 the morning in hospital it was a big shock to me my heart felt like it was broken to pieces of losing her specially how I gonna tell the boys that she has passed on it still hurts but I need to be strong for them but we trying to cope with the support of family and friends but we're together for 18 years and still had big plans to continue to strengthen our future but God had other plans that we must not question but in due time will understand have a blessed day god bless

[@traceygreen6633]

❤

[@McAdder441]

Thank you for this video and for Kelly Bills sharing his grief. I too lost my wife. She was diagnosed with Stage 4 Cancer in July of this year and passed away in my arms just under a month later. It's been 5 months since and I too am living minute by minute as Kelley described. We were married 25 years. We built a life together and now I don't see anything meaningful in the future. He had a lot of parallels to my experience with my grief, and how him and his wife's life was. I felt like everything he said matched our life together. Except that, we didn't have kids, and he is so blessed to have them and can see his wife's attributes in his sons. Thank you both for putting this out there. Too many of us men who lose our spouses we loved dearly are sometimes forgotten. Thank you again 🙏🏻

[@telelsky]

I lost my wife jan this year 2024 and i feel i can feel you and Kelly. So relieved to have …...

[@philaman1972]

My condolences.

[@philaman1972]

@@telelsky My condolences.

[@RobertJung-bj3fo]

It's so fucking hard i lost my best friend Amy my wife why the fuck do we got to go though this shit

[@philaman1972]

@@RobertJung-bj3fo My condolences. I cannot even begin to imagine.

[@duckman1956]

I am so sorry I lost my wife with cancer in the lungs 4-19-2024 the pain was so hard on me we was married 27 years 💔 😢 I just can't believe she gone 💔 she was my soul mates 💔 I don't know what to do with my self I am 67 years old. I just can't get over this thank you God bless us

[@npenick66]

I'm in Flagstaff. On 1/5/24 my wife of 20 years was fighting a minor flu, the kind the kids bring home every holiday season. She was feeling a bit funky so I bundled her up in her new Christmas blanket, she had her cat Mandu in her lap and her ear nibbling rottweiler Tyson at her feet. She was in her recliner, I got her some cold meds and set up a humidifier for her and took our semi verbal autistic son to the other end of the house so that she could get some rest. When I came back a couple of hours later to take the dog out so she could rest her lips were white. She was gone at 52 from a stupid f'ing flu. Influenza 2009A according to the medical examiner, even though she had the flu shot. I 'retired' at 38 so that I could be with my oldest son from a previous marriage (I had custody) and our new son who turned out to be semi verbal autistic. My wife, Kim, was just a sweet person. I don't know any other way to describe her. She was a goofy dork who obsessed with feeding people, gardening, critters and our sons. Just a loveable goofball/dork who happened to be a solid looker, modeled in her youth. When I found her I attempted cpr even though she was clearly gone and rigor had already started in her hands and neck though it had only been a couple of hours. There is something indescribable about touching a body, especially a body of someone you loved. Attempting cpr is on someone who's gone is a horror. Some things can't be unseen. She must have passed within minutes of me tucking her in. Our autistic son has an obsession with recording everything on his iPad, makes it interesting to use the restroom, had recorded me getting him his dinner, if you could call heating up a red baron frozen pizza cooking. He also recorded me tucking in my wife and her saying 'thank you and I love you' before we went to the other end of the house. I have to give a big nod to the cops that showed up. They helped me keep it together so that I didn't freak out my autistic son. They helped me keep him from seeing anything bad. They were wonderful people. Her death was bad. Still can't make sense of it. But our son's vid shows her smiling and thanking me and saying I love you. Then she passed in her sleep. I can't understand it but I also can't be angry or guilty about anything. As several people have told me, they can't imagine a better/easier way to go. Grief sucks, never really experienced it before but grief really really sucks. Trying to explain to a special needs child that Mama is never coming home is a type of pain that I never knew existed. Thank you for sharing this vid. I'm not a sports guy, don't give a crap about that stuff but my boy has a brass set, no way I could speak so clearly. I'll pray for you brother. I'm still FUBAR hoping to find my way to SNAFU. I hear you. I'm gutted, I'm an empty shell, but faking my way through each day for our sons. Hopefully someday I can be whole again. Not optimistic, but hopeful.

[@Otessa-j4u]

My life is a constant torture since the death of my Husband Robert on 07 September 2022. He had an integrity that very few people have. I would marry the same man every time. ❤️To all in a state of grief and other sufferings.

[@McAdder441]

❤😢 My heart goes out to you. I lost my wife this year on August 12. I know what you mean, I would marry my wife over and over again. She can't be replaced.

[@rachelwesterman1223]

That's how I feel. I was so lucky to have him. I can't believe I lost him at 41. I loved every minute we were together.

[@ariaahmadi7864]

💔🖤

[@masonstrickler4650]

Lost my wife 2 months after we got married and 2 days after she gave birth to our first child together. We were both 24. Its was 08/11/2023 my mind is in shambles I’m trying to just focus on our kid but I also need to grieve so I be there emotionally for our kid. It feels like I’m sinking in quicksand.

[@rollercoasterpodcast]

I am sorry for your loss. More strength to you.

[@McAdder441]

❤😢 My wife died August 12 this year. It's unbelievably hard. Nothing can be said to ease the pain. I know. My heart goes out to you. So sorry.

[@suegardner3588]

I am much older than you but I lost my husband you said it perfectly. My mind is in shambles. Sorry, it makes me feel not quite so alone.

[@moxymouse1231]

❤️🙏❤️🙏

[@matataulilo9582]

I lost my husband the same way 4 weeks ago. Thank you for the podcast.

[@tomsmith1847]

Lost my Wife last week.Having a great time and she died in the lobby of a Marriott lobby.Worst pain I ever felt.

[@philaman1972]

Condolences.

[@bethanystebelski]

My husband didn't die,but my momma died on April 29th 2023. It is so refreshing to see another man love his wife so much. In under a year, my dad was remarried and blocked me and my kids out of his life. He started dating other women 2 months after my mom died. I miss my mom more than life. She was mine and my kids world. Thank you for sharing this. It might be hard but it is beautiful to hear how you talked about her.

[@truejoie]

I'm so sorry you went through that. I've heard other stories of men remarrying fast like that after a spouses death...and I can only imagine how much it must sting for the family left behind. I don't think it's healthy for the person either if they didn't give themselves time to grieve.

[@lilianyee-joy9188]

What a beautiful testimony. May God strength you. Be strong God is faithful. Amen

[@denisesteinbrink1598]

My husband passed also, it the most torturous way to live every day. Take care

[@conniecon7910]

Did he ever say what his wife passed from? Loving this channel so far. Praying it continues to grow and reach more viewers. So great.

[@rollercoasterpodcast]

Yes, his wife passed away due to heart arrhythmia. Thanks for the support

[@lesleywalters7343]

I know how you feel, it will be three years this August when my husband passed suddenly. The unexpected is devastating. I know the feeling of feeling lost, a part of you gone, accepting the reality that he/she will never walk through the front door. This type of grief is emotional and a roller coaster. But if it wasn't for God, I would be lost. God bless you. You and your boys are in my prayers for daily peace, strength, and comfort.

[@louislabella278]

My wife went straight to God in a blink of an eye 3 weeks ago. 50 yrs married. Really hard. Thanks for sharing.

[@pauladime6307]

Thank you for sharing your amazing story. 🙏🏼❤️

[@silverowlthrifter]

I found him on the floor, he was 63 and had just retired. We had bought our dream house on the lake. We had a new granddaughter. I gave CPR and then my daughter did for 10 minutes until the EMTs came...2 days later he died on our 35th wedding anniversary.

[@philaman1972]

Condolences.

[@guenverdijo]

I also had a very traumatic experience losing my partner when he had cardiac arrest while he’s sleeping last March 17, 2024!We’ve been together for over 2 years and we are happy together and his passing is really sudden bcoz he is always healthy.I lost him so fast like in less than 10 mins of the arrest he was gone.😢😢😢I missed him everyday.I feel so alone now that he’s gone.I know that he is always by my side.I can feel it everyday.May my love Niño Cruz have eternal rest.

[@adkison2003]

I am so sorry for you loss. Absolutely devastating for you and your family. Sending my deepest condolences. What caused her sudden passing ?

[@judithocasio2926]

OMG I am sorry 😢 I have no words. Its even harder when its not expected OMG your children my God bless you and give you strength and inner peace 🕊️ it will take much time to feel at peace God is with you 🙏

[@irenebell6024]

I lost my husband 4 years ago we had been together for over 30 years we had 3 daughters and we were his life as he was ours, we miss him tremendously, I hold on just for the girls he got to hold his grandkids which I thank God for, I wish he could have had more time. My heart hurts so much our youngest is about to graduate I think grief it’s hitting her now I believe she threw herself into school but now it’s coming to an end she is breaking me down because I stuffed this feeling down so far but it’s coming back, we are getting sick a lot I know we are just grieving, lord help us please.

[@fembot521]

Lost my husband the same way, except he collapsed in front of me. I had to call 911 and do CPR. Luckily my two kids were upstairs. Autopsy and pathologist couldn’t say what killed him. He went into a fatal cardiac arrhythmia and there was no explanation. It’s so devastating. My companion, my love, my future, my best friend and best father any kid could ever have, all gone in an instant. Like Kelly, the night before he came to bed early and said he was tired so that was interesting. When it’s your time it’s your time. Thank you for this podcast it’s been an amazing listen. It’s been 3 years for me so I am finding myself again.

[@marynolan3471]

A great human being, unselfish rearing his and his wifes boys. God bless him greatly 👏🏼🙌🏼❤️

[@ronaldmejia551]

I wish I can get on here and tell my story it will beat all the stories of my wife and before and after she passed and she was a mortician and owned her own buisness I will tell you all my wife did her job so good and took care of the decedents and their families but it is other types of funeral directors and morticians that are straight evil they do not care about life or death they just want to rob you of your money

[@christineskead1663]

This might sound out of place, she died peacefully right next to the person she LOVED.

[@leesacoles9154]

My brothers ran through the house trying to off each other on a regular basis. We all just tried to stay out of the way. 😖

[@tyjay5974]

i lost my GOdess (My Life my Wife )in a accident i lives but my Angel my Life passed away since i have gone to all the people who are supposed to help no chance i cant Breath cant eat just suffering and a slow torture, i m a Musician 78 years my (Goddess ) 82years i have No chance just living cos i mscared to do what i like to do, My Darling Margrit i miss you so much your Ty , Ty jay (you tube lady soul live )

[@janellefriday1097]

I wonder if my husband had seen 10 to 15 years ago, maybe he would have loved me more.

[@susankardaras5512]

I feel your pain, literally. I was married for 3 months and my husband was leaving for work and I said "just one more kiss." That's the last one I got. He was killed in a car accident that day. 47 years later and I still love that man. I can still see him clear as day, smell his cologne and I remember how he always protected & loved me. Life goes on, but you're never the same.

[@Mimithegr8]

@@susankardaras5512 omg 47years later… I am in the beginning of grief now 5 months with a 4 month old baby… I cannot imagine how long you’ve been without him 😇😭😭😭😭

[@LindaHart-iy6po]

@@susankardaras5512 Absolutely the truth 🙏🤗🙏prayers 🙏

[@sylviaAguenther-zc9lg]

@@Mimithegr8hi there Mimi, just came across your reply to the lady that lost her husband of 47 years, wow I also believe this to be awful, but U still young & u have a little one who will help you through it. I know times may get tough (sometimes just walking in to the room u break down & u get emotional ) cry& cry let it out, it’s the best thing for the soul. Stay in peace ✌️🦋

[@sylviaAguenther-zc9lg]

Hi there Susan, I just came across your post & wanted to reach out to send condolences. 💐✌️🦋stay in peace, so sorry for your loss😢

[@michellerock3543]

God bless you both during this unimaginable pain.

[@bigpoke7043]

I lost my wife recently.. I’m so broken😭😭💔💔I’m dreading going to her funeral. Don’t know if I can handle it.. it’s too much.. I can’t believe she’s gone.. I love her so much 😭😭💔💔. Loved her more than anything.. she was my everything 😭😭💔💔

[@dellasmith6960]

I’m sorry for your lose. I’m in the same boat as you right now. 😢please keep going.

[@Mimithegr8]

Loved him more than life. Needed him more than air. 😢

[@philaman1972]

My condolences.

[@vyvyienewalser6798]

One only knows this feeling ,when one has walked those steps.

[@annekariuki4734]

​@@vyvyienewalser6798sure.its not an easy way ,,I've walked the road 10 years this august it's never easy but God is with us God our anchor

[@sectortech12b8]

Lost my lovely wife of 46 years on 10-24-23, god bless you, we were best friends

[@samanthasmith4038]

I am so very sorry for your loss I can't even imagine

[@sylviaAguenther-zc9lg]

Hi there, just came across your message & wanted to send u condolences 💐😢, she must haved been a wonderful woman & u a wonderful man 46 years that beautiful 🦋✌️💕

[@dianac1411]

Too many people are just suddenly dying.

[@tturner7786]

Thank you for sharing this, your story. I lost my wife 15 years ago from cancer. I just want to tell you and all the broken hurting people who are watchhng this so soon after the death of loved ones. The pain does get better. Life does feel so slow for years and everyone grieves differently but though time doesnt heal every wound it does reduce the pain. But go after the pain year after year. Talk to those around who understand because they have suffered loss. God will help us heal. So will our dearest friends and family. But never stop reaching out. Even now 15 years later im remarried and i still need to keep healing. The pain goes away mostly but that place in you that loves that person never goes away completely and thats ok. And ive learned there are levels of healing. Our brain and heart have to block the most painful memories at first because its too much. But eventually we can go back and walk through those horrible memories and deal with them. Keep going... Keep healing.

[@mildredday3126]

' memories are gifts that death cannot destroy' thank you for being honest with your experience. Praying for comfort and peace.

[@torisefaamaligi3315]

Hear all...Lost my wife 8 days ago to a car accident...I'm going thru it...Tough, tough, tough is an understatement.

[@anjarae8828]

That's so recent I can't imagine what your going through. I'm so sorry for your loss 😢

[@yennguyen-uj3ri]

I’m so sorry

[@lorrainemarquez1569]

I am so so sorry......😢

[@guchetyarn]

I lost my spouse 3 yrs ago to a motorcycle accident. I pray that you find Peace and understanding through your grieving process. Such a tough journey, but you WILL get through it. 🙏 May she rest in Heavenly Peace

[@cheapsk8drummer789]

Thanks for sharing Kelly. I too just lost my wife July 1 of this yr to brain cancer she passed in our home in bed holding my hand and it is a trauma that plays on repeat in your head like a infinite loop 😢 heartbroken

[@philaman1972]

Condolences.

[@chantalschultz4847]

Oh my God that was exactly the same for me!!!! I woke up to my husband passed away during the night and I woke up in the morning and I knew he was gone and he had also been gone awhile 😢😢😢 worst trauma of my life don’t know if I will ever get over it

[@heatmizer74]

To everyone on the thread God Bless, I lost n twice to Brest cancer on 10/10/21, I really don’t know who I am anymore like many have said, the sharpness of the pain may have dulled a bit but the emptiness has always been in full effect, part of me died that day also and it’s never coming back, I know I will see her again…..this is the hardest road to travel 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@jacquelinemcgowan8164]

My daughter passed away suddenly last year and I am so heartbroken, i am so heartbroken, there are no words, I have cried every day and the reality causes me to gasp at times and i feel the anxiety, please be kind to people and for those who are suffering like me be kind to yourself and let the tears flow, its the bodies way of dealing with the stress and Jesus was a man of sorrows He is my all in all.

[@guchetyarn]

So sorry for your loss. May your daughter rest in Heavenly Peace

[@rosafranco9184]

Am so sorry my dear, am so sorry

[@rachelwesterman1223]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my partner of 12 years, Steve, a month ago. He is the love of my life. I desperately wanted to see him in dreams or feel him but I haven't had any signs. I had one dream where we were out walking and our sons were there. He told me that I had to carry on doing nice things with the boys. I said I couldn't and it seemed disrespectful. He told me I had no choice now. I don't know if that was just my mind or if it was him.

[@ChicReal]

I'm deeply saddened by your loss. 😢 My heartfelt condolences to all who have lost a loved one. May the Lord give you all much needed strength and comfort as you navigate on your journey. 🙏🏻💔🙏🏻

[@laurenmarie3897]

28:21 This is absolutely the most soul crushing thing I’ve ever heard

[@GeoffOdom-nn4ez]

Yes it is, but it is true. I have not felt my wife or dreamt of her since she died 3 weeks ago. It kills me.

[@tamNrod17-4ever]

I don't know who you are but i lost my husband to a rare cancer, one day at a time is all we can do, also have two young children life is not fair but Jesus Christ has been their for me

[@michelleeggers719]

I hope that not today but, at some point.... he'll find a wonderful person to help him raise his sons and be a great spouse to him. 🎉❤

[@serpadre87]

I lost my girlfriend a month ago, after more than 14 years of relationship, 9 of them living together. She was 38, I just turned 36 two weeks ago. She had a flu, but was also infected with a strep A bacteria. She went from that flu to dying unexpectedly of sepsis in just 2 days. We were so happy together, not a single fight in all those years. We had so many dreams… now nothing makes sense, everything is pointless. I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel right now… Thank you for sharing your story, Kelly, although it's hard to hear that 1 year after your loss it's not getting any better 😭

[@McAdder441]

Your loss is heartbreaking, and I feel your pain. I lost my wife to cancer 5 months ago. It was a sudden diagnosis with only less than a month when we found out about the stage 4 diagnosis that she passed away. I wanted to comment on yours because I too am lost. That nothing makes sense and everything is pointless. We built our lives together and that future no longer exists. It's devastating. I am trying to think of a new life, and doing something totally different, but I am totally broken. I just want to let you know that there are those of us who are in the same boat. Not sure if being in a sinking boat and looking over to the other guy on your right helps, and realizing we're both going down. But, I just wanted to share with you.

[@serpadre87]

@@McAdder441 Thank you for sharing that and I'm so sorry for your loss… Knowing I'm not alone in this boat, even if it's sinking, definitely helps, so thank you for that. I hope we can all get through this and find a way to, somehow, enjoy life again even without our loved ones. I want to believe that's possible, but it's also true that many days I just don't want to live anymore. I hate this 😭 I was already happy and had a wonderful life, I don't know why it was taken from me… Take care of yourself

[@McAdder441]

I hear you. I too would rather be next to her in heaven. But I know she would not want me to give up on my life. So I just cry two, three, or more times daily. I agree with you, I hope we can get through this and find happiness again. Peace be with you ❤

[@kendrahughes8622]

In my experience, it takes about two years for the fog to clear and start appreciating life again. Hold on! You got this. It DOES get better.

[@serpadre87]

@@kendrahughes8622 Thank you!! And I'm sorry you had to go through this too. For me, it's been 8 months already and I can feel the progress. Sadness is still all over the place, I miss her so badly... but I'm much more functional than I was just a few months ago.

[@TheLittletroyboy]

I can totally relate to this podcast, my spouse and best friend of 20 years passed away 1 month ago. Shelley was having back surgery, she died during the procedure, I can't even begin to tell you how I felt when the doctors came out and told me. In one moment your shattered into a thousand pieces. Our grandson whom we were raising is totally destroyed, he's 13 yrs old. I don't even know how to begin to pick up the pieces. The greatest advice from this podcast is to be present as you stated, don't take anything for granted. When I left for the hospital I had no idea my whole world would be changed.

[@rollercoasterpodcast]

I am sorry for your loss.

[@McAdder441]

😥 I am so sorry for your loss. Your story is heartbreaking.

[@samanthasmith4038]

How does someone keep living after something like this!? The pain and despair is torture

[@daytonjohn777]

Was she vaxxed?

[@jamierussell3296]

This is the first time I’ve ever heard someone articulate the same experience I unfortunately went through. Waking up to his phone alarm, the trauma, the experience my son went through that horrible am, the 1st year mark of feeling lost still and the utmost sadness. The 1st 6 months I had PTSD of fire truck sirens. No one would ever understand. The sudden loss is unimaginable, especially as parents of children. Hugs! If you do see this, after 5 years, it does get better. However every milestone of your children, it will come back and other memories of life being married, you will never forget and always love him.

[@anjarae8828]

I'm so sorry for your loss

[@samanthasmith4038]

I am so unbelievably sorry for your loss.

[@misstbikini]

I lost my husband recently and suddenly and I so wish it was me and not him we are best friends. I miss him so much. Thank you for this video.

[@tturner7786]

@kellybills i prayed for dreams of my late wife... It happened a coupke times over 5 years plus..and each time i woke up thsnking God and feeling like i was so blessed to have a moment of her again. It hurt but it was so incredible. I think you will have some of those moments. And they will be a beautiful surprise. Peobably for your boys also. Unfortunately we can't make it happen. Hope will come back. You will make it and the pain will get less. Blessings to you and your boys

[@julial1450]

Thank you for the video I Lost my husband of 15 years January of this year suddenly unexpectedly it really hard to move forward when you lose your spouse especially when you really love them

[@annamaegrout8159]

U never forget. It has taken me amost 6 years to even be ok at all. We have to go on but not easy.

[@GeoffOdom-nn4ez]

I am here because I just recently lost my wife suddenly. It's only been 3 weeks ago she passed away. She was 48, I am 52, and we had our entire adult lives to live and love each other. Her death has shattered my outlook on life. We have two children (18 & 19) but they will move on to have their own lives soon. The thought of not having her here anymore is devastating. We were so in love it was sick. Never went anywhere without the other. She went on work trips with me so we would not have to be apart. I am heartbroken and would give any amount of anything to have her back.

[@michellefrench6617]

❤

[@julial1450]

I am truly sorry for your loss I recently lost my husband 5 months ago 57 unexpectedly it so hard it hard to get around thinking that they are gone very heavy and heartbreaking

[@michellefrench6617]

@@julial1450 ❤️

[@philaman1972]

Condolences.

[@judystreich7333]

My condolences for you both, the heartache is sometimes unbearable. Your grief journey will be a personal one of trying to heal a broken heart of which most people do not understand. I feel your pain, my loss was a year and a half ago and still the realization of him never coming back still does not seem real.

[@3l-livestock]

Thanks for the video it hits close to home.sorry for your loss.i lost my spouse a year and a half ago,she had a cosmetic surgery and 17 days later she went to sleep and never woke up.healthy no harmful intoxicants in her life ever.still trying to sort through it all.i thank you for this video it helps.god bless you and your family.

[@luzedie1275]

I came across this video in my own effort to deal with my own grief and the loss of my husband. We were together for 27 years. He passed away 6 years ago from cancer. Your story touched me deeply, thank you for sharing and I am so sorry.

[@rollercoasterpodcast]

I am deeply sorry for your loss.

[@luzedie1275]

@@rollercoasterpodcast Thank you for your condolences and for taking the time to show you care.

[@danilaroche1156]

He will marry again. I hope he does with no fear.

[@Fallinangel312]

At least you know she loved you my husband walked out on 4 daughters never to see us again

[@aliciaburbank9962]

I lost my husband of 31 years on Sept 27! This is so hard. One day he was here, the next day he was gone. My heart is broken.

[@CaponeCabin]

I'm trying, I live also minute by minute. My husband passed 3 months ago. Our anniversary came this month, Christmas, I made it through Thanksgiving.....I feel the statement he said..... this has destroyed me.

[@rollercoasterpodcast]

I am sorry for your loss. You got this

[@McAdder441]

❤😢 Christmas was very hard. It was my first one without my wife. My heart goes out to you.

[@philaman1972]

Wow! This broke me. I cannot believe how strong this man is. Indeed, *everyone* has to experience trauma in life.

[@danilaroche1156]

No one is exempt from trauma. That's why we need the Lord. He helps us in everything. If we let Him.

[@janingham1823]

Your wife and my beloved husband were cut from the same cloth. Goodness. 4 mos for me. The pain is unbearable.

[@RobertJung-bj3fo]

My God this sucks

[@tonyamcgrew5891]

i am so very sad, i miss my husband so much, not fair. I as well live minute to minute

[@olivebradley-v8c]

My husband of 52 years dropdied in front of me and then lost my eldest son A few years later of prostate cancer

[@SimonTrageser]

Kelly I don't know if you will read this but you are the definition of a man How you described the outlook after this event and the "leadership" aspect as one of your values and the fact that you show up despite everything 4 Months ago I lost my girlfriend at the age of 28 due to a nasty cancer. Every second of my day my thoughts go to her and at the moment it is just about figuring stuff out, minute by minute. Rethinking the last moments a lot at the moment and it crushes me. I felt your story deeply and I salute you for everything Thank you for sharing this

[@rollercoasterpodcast]

I am truly sorry for your loss. Strength to you.

[@McAdder441]

I totally agree. I lost my wife 5 months ago. So sorry for you loss.

[@SimonTrageser]

@@McAdder441 I have you in my thoughts man I feel you and I am deeply sorry what happened to you

[@GavinTremble]

The grieve and emotional pain from loss of a loving spouse is intense. My wife died one month ago. It's a tragedy of great proportions because it disrupted our life. But thru counseling I've learnt that I can move forward to reconstruct my life. And I intend to turn my grieve into a new future. But I guess it's gonna be a long process...

[@DaRandomOhana]

This story is so similar to mine with my sons passing 7 years ago... only difference is that I can’t say that he went peacefully which still haunts me til this day.

[@jennifersanders2456]

Terrible how young healthy women are dying. Is there a connected cause? 😢

[@rannerobin2787]

My husband was killed in a car accident. It was evening & I was watching TV. Knock on the door - two policemen - just like on TV - I knew

[@ariaahmadi7864]

My most hand some most strong kind pure husband got killed suddenly by 2 stupid young teen boys (gang)in Murray Utah over our own parking spots I’m destroyed our he was everything to me I mean everything after his loss our life got destroyed I can’t be the same mom same person to our 4 kids I’m so scared to live this life with out him he was our protector

[@traceygreen6633]

Senseless!!!!! I'm so aorry

[@patriciaanzelc5386]

So sorry my husband was murdered as well. Many years ago. ❤

[@jn3098]

I’m so sorry for ur loss I lost my wife 2 weeks ago I can’t go on. !!!!

[@ronaldmejia551]

My wife died April 22 2023 One night we seen angels fly pass us 3 am I told her to make a wish she said she wants to be 43 and cancer free her birthday was exactly a month after may 22 she got her last wish 43 and cancer free but I lost my soul that day no one helps me they just want to be nosey and see what I am doing only my mother and my grandmother and my Attorny and wise lady are here for me I have been drinking 8 am until I go to sleep all day everyday I never got drunk and threw up all day everyday for a year and a quarter now my body is messed up and I hope I’m not dying I want to live until 91

[@kats_journey_00]

There have been so many of these sudden deaths (heart attacks and people dying in their sleep) these last few years. It's so sad.

[@katm41]

Not if but when 💔 so true

[@cyn7869]

I know this pain. 💔

[@lydiatimoteus9835]

I'm So sorry 😭💔

[@RF1972.]

My heart hurts for you.....I know how you feel....I lost my son ....if it weren't for Jesus my Savior I could have not coped.

[@pickingupthepiecesofme]

😭😭😭😭so sorry man

[@Mimithegr8]

“Then you’re just left alone” … dealing with that is agonizing at least. But Is now my reality after my boyfriend died 4 weeks before giving birth to our daughter.

[@ariaahmadi7864]

My heart goes out to you 💔

[@johnnatisin-x9w]

God bless you sir. I promise you it gets better with time. I lost my wife suddenly three years ago,

[@sandramadaris7814]

Tears here...2 and 1/2 yrs since my husband died from mesothelioma cancer. We were together for 30 yrs. God is my biggest steadfast comfort...

[@proficyink2114]

Same th8ing happened to my wife a little over a month ago. Im still in shock. 37 years together. We just had out 35th anniversary on May 13th.

[@anjarae8828]

All these comments are so sad ,I'm so sorry. That's such a long time together I'm sure you shared so many wonderful years and memories together. I hope you can reach a point where you can smile when remembering memories, I can't imagine how hard it must be right now . Your in my thoughts and prayers ❤

[@sunilkumar583]

From 1979 to1983 ,i lost my brother 22 yrs( i don't know how he died),in 1980 i lost my first wife 20 yrs died (drowned) in 1983 my dad died( H &;eart failure) my second wife was pregnant at that time.i got depressed never recovefd

[@isabelitawarren8947]

I completely understand when you said I had to put on face deep down you are broken , I’m the same I lost my husband over three months and I put on my face everyday but deep down I’m shuttered couldn’t move forward on waking up without him beside me . God bless

[@LindaHart-iy6po]

🙏🙏🙏God be with you 🙏

[@garyleitz3865]

My wife died of pancreatic cancer two years ago. I still cry I had her for 55 years.

[@bremass851]

Thats tough man

[@nataliaguitarmusic]

i never want to go through this pain, i love my man so much💔

[@sonjaanderson5998]

My condolences for your loss!

[@jwhite1974]

Kelly I'm so sorry for the loss of your wife. Can I ask where you got your hat? The meaning behind it so fits my Tina that passed 4 weeks ago.

[@eskylover65]

And this is why I didn’t marry, beside I didn’t want to go through the loss

[@clarky417]

i lost my wife on 1-13-19 she had muscular dystrophy. i took me over 3 years to let go. she went to bed and didnt wake up. i really thought she would out live me she was 20 years younger than me. i was 40 and she was 20 we were together 12 years.

[@McAdder441]

❤ I am sorry for your loss 😢

[@michellewall6598]

💔

[@leesacoles9154]

What caused his wife to pass away??