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[@9Ballr]

For some people depression is not a temporary problem, it is a lifelong, endless struggle.

[@gloriamartin6261]

It's a Life time of misery 😔 and stress and struggling regardless it's Satan greatest weapon against humanity 🦉🎚️

[@jamminjoe44]

Amen!

[@belindabitzer6304]

Agree. So sad. 😢

[@SylviaHammett]

Yes😢

[@Roland_Bishop662]

Because they dont get help

[@edynfox6368]

People who do suicide by trains have no idea what it does to the train conductor! My brother has nightmares afterwards and has to sleep on the couch bc of the sleep thrashing (his choice). It throws them into a depression for a while. It’s awful! If you’re going to kill yourself then don’t force others to do it for you!

[@jefferyepstein9210]

Its a very selfish act. They dont care about the damage their actions will take on everyone else.

[@Dollbaby630]

I totally agree. Prayers to your Brother for having to deal with that

[@triggerhappy8872]

Why? It’s not the drivers fault, my brother is a train driver & has had 2 people do it & he isn’t bothered at all.

[@christinaotter]

@@jefferyepstein9210 its not always because they dont care. As someone who struggles also with depression and mental health issues. Its not always for a selfish reason or that they dont care. Im not saying its never the case tho but isnt always tho

[@dutchschaefer4983]

@@triggerhappy8872 your family sounds like sociopaths

[@habslover2306]

Peace to the engineer. How horrible for them as well.

[@donnix1192]

I work on the railroad, hopefully be an engineer someday soon, I know guys who have hit and killed people who are committing suicide or tried to beat a train, it is hard to deal with for those engineers.

[@triggerhappy8872]

Why? It’s not their fault.

[@KarenPatrol123]

⁠@@triggerhappy8872 When you witness something gruesome like that??? Like let’s think before we speak. . . . Seriously 😐

[@donnix1192]

@@triggerhappy8872 Of course it’s not, but you are still operating a train that killed a fellow human being, you are the last person to see them before a brutal impact, the engineer has to dump the train and that along with the conductor have to get out and locate the remains.

[@gregorystell6858]

​@@triggerhappy8872You've never been in their shoes so it's understandable you don't get what it feels like to take life unintentionally.

[@Gui.Vieira_]

It's hard to see depression as a temporary problem when you've been dealing with it your whole life.

[@Beautifulpeople44]

Absolutely

[@samsneadd]

as a person that has also suffered and still have my moment, but has seeked help a few times, and a person from Seattle that have lost 4 friends I can type here and tell you that yes you are right. But it can be done IF you want it. But you have to want to see the way to the road of hope. If the person does not see or try to see than they never will.

[@City_Cichlids]

Depression is a choice.

[@paulwoodford1984]

She was killed

[@AlexandrawOfficial_Lexi]

westerners are depressed the countries you bomb have REAL life problems caused by you we arent able to get depressed as we live in fear of the west Look at what you have done to my Ukraine

[@GorillaCookies]

I unfortunately witnessed a young woman step in front of a train when I was 13 years old. The summer between 7th & 8th grade. It was absolutely horrible and 40 years later it still affects me . I can never hear or see a train on the track or in media without feeling horrible and on the verge of tears

[@donnabrooks1173]

So sorry you had to witness that.

[@uMADden]

Yeah, 😢 mine happened 2022, so it's recent and I still get flashbacks of the scene

[@lutomson3496]

I've seen 4 jumpers from the bridge near me such a selfish act and poor safety people picking up the remains

[@oooh19]

That’s so sad! Also when I was around that age (early 00s) we had to watch a video on safety around trains and also when my dad was growing up (in the 60s/70s) a girl he knew stood in front of a train and commmitted suicide!

[@gregrice1532]

That's horrible I'm sorry

[@jackiehoward7300]

When someone is that depressed, they feel worthless and the world is dark. It feels like being in a bottomless pit with no way out. I hope she is at peace

[@invaderzim1265]

Trust me man, she is NOT in peace. She won't ever know peace. You know too well where she ended up at...!! This 💩 is real!!

[@Roadking556]

Look at her! WTF ! She's beautiful and physically healthy. What more of a gift do you want? She was dealt a royal flush in life and folded it. ! Some of us don't even have a pair to work with ! Yet here we are bluffing and working our way through life.

[@Austin-zq1oc]

​@@Roadking556You've obviously never been there. Our brains run on biochemicals not on our looks

[@Roadking556]

@Austin-zq1oc I'm a realist . I take things at face value. I know many who have taken their own life. Everyone of them was dealing with something out of their control. Physical health, drug issues, loss of loved ones with no support .Financial issues, trouble with government agencies.and so on. Accident that caused severe disability. one or more of what I listed can send someone over the deep end. I been there. We only hear about the "beautiful " people . Not the people that have nothing going for them. Biochemical ? If it was that simple, then why is it happening at an epidemic rate? I'll tell you why. Because in general, we're so busy trying to just survive, we fail to realize and recognize the ones around us who need help and love. I can give stories after stories of the people I have failed. My counselor told me I can't blame myself. I played no part in it. Yes, I have. If I had called off work and took a chance of losing my job. I know at least two people would probably be here! Getting mental health care in my city is a joke. You can't get help here unless you have substance abuse issues. Professional mental health care people say they care. But they don't care enough to change their lifestyle for you. Go ahead and tell everyone it's all in their head . Easy statement for you to move on. While the rest of us lowlife who have been there, can't wrap our heads around how a beautiful young smart healthy woman ended it all. That means the rest of us don't have a hope in hell. And all you can write it's a biochemistry problem in the 🧠 brain. And I have never been there. You have no idea. .

[@josephsharp5678]

​@@Roadking556You don't have a clue do you??

[@Stressed2Capacity]

My dad was an investigator for CSX Railroad before he retired. Whenever there was an accident or suicide he had to walk those tracks, take measurements, photos, interview the train crew, etc. The things that he's seen from infants to the elderly still bother him and he has to take anxiety medication. I wish people would understand that their decision can affect the lives of others for decades.

[@danielhall-wl4ql]

I live in eastern Kentucky 50 ft from the tracks . they have been a lot of folks found on these tracks, think some where made to look like suicides. but yea its got to be hell for all involved .

[@henrymorgan3982]

Like soldiers in combat.

[@Jkk55]

It must have been very traumatic for your dad I dont think these desprate souls even stop to think it's just turmoil.

[@donkeyhanger]

She be Training

[@ozman6602]

Yeah I used to do crime scene clean up until I just couldn't do it anymore my last job still bothers me above all others that initially cause to quit after 15 years, but I understand completely the level of anxiety, and also cleaned up after my brother was killed I didn't have too but since at the time I did it every day anyway and so my dad didn't see it, it really hits differently when it's your own family then people you've never met before, I continued to do it 3 or 4 years after that until I just couldn't take anymore, I still have dreams about it And also take something for anxiety, I often wish I didn't do the job as long as I did the money is good but it's really not worth it in the long run.

[@oifiismith]

As a Combat wounded IOF2 gunner. I have been there, where I wanted to quit, but would never put a hurt on the ones I love like that. I have lost too many friends to suicide. It's easy to quit, but life is never meant to be easy. We all will die, that is a fact, but know you are loved, special and it's not a SHAME to ask for and get help. Live life to the fullest and find your purpose to be here on this beautiful world. Much luv🤙 Lamont, Mahalo for all you do, bruddah

[@houseatreides3732]

As a 20yr retired veteran with two combat tours, I agree. Also, these so-called influencers seem to take the easy way out....

[@chimom7112]

Well said

[@joelm6631]

Thank you for your service

[@jxn1056]

Thank you for your service! I'm not a veteran but I understand. I have C-PTSD. It's not easy .it's a constant battle. God, and my babies saved me ❤️

[@flyingjew2994]

Respect to you, sir, for not being a selfish quitter.

[@blueeyesblueskiesahead1612]

Speaking as someone who has battled depression for most of my life, I can guarantee you she didn’t have the capacity to think about how this would affect the train conductor. She was in so much mental pain that all she could think about was ending her own pain. Just my own two cents.

[@lisadawn3009]

Totally agree. They are looking to end the pain and sometimes no matter what happens, they will still do it.

[@Marcuswelby-nx2te]

Who cares

[@suzannell24]

so true

[@vf12497439]

Well spoken, sending a huge hug from the web!! Vitamin D has done amazing things for my psychological well being. 2-3 months of taking it daily before I realized how well I felt…. Google it if your unaware🙂

[@mitchelbailey55]

It's the Truth people always say how could they be so selfish they will never know that pain and im glad they won't.

[@mattshull426]

My wife OD'ed on fentanyl.. Married, daughter 15 years old. Worked for a fortune 500 company..loved, had friends, couldn't wait to come home..l flew back from Orlando for work the night before (only night l ever left her alone)..she stayed was going to drive back to here in Chicago the next day.. I woke at 6am on Jan 4th 2023 to find that she had gotten drunk. Hooked up with a homeless gangbanger, shot up fentanyl laced heroin and was pulled out brain dead from his tent behind a Wendy's dumpster at 330 am that morning... Never EVER understand why people do what they do...EVER..12 years together..

[@Carl_Johnson75]

Im so sorry that had happened to you

[@BigtimeJuicer]

Tough to hear, brother... Can only imagine how hard this was for you, her family and friends. Sincerest condolences my bro. Stay strong and may you always have the strength to keep living, brother.

[@TagCavello]

This one's tough all right. But the way it plays out sounds like she was abducted and forced. Was there a formal investigation into the incident?

[@mattshull426]

@@BigtimeJuicer very tough to get through every single day...

[@henrymorgan3982]

Why?

[@HM-dd3pt]

🙏 RIP Depression sucks

[@friendlikem3gan]

Lamont, as a suicide survivor, I can tell you that at that moment when you decide to end things, that's all your thinking about. Your not thinking about your friends or family. You want out. You want out of your body you want out the pain. In your mind it's not and never will get better. After I was r@ped I wanted out. Nobody could take away the fear, the pain the self hatred I had away. No one could stop the flashbacks. Now granted yes I do have severe depression and was later diagnosed with PTSD but if there is no help for people out there then that's what they will do. They are suffering and can not take it any longer. It's hard to understand, yes, but we live with monsters. These monsters are not under the bed they reside in our head. They are always there and never leave. We never get a break from them. Sometimes, they just get too loud... for the ones that survive and are living now think of them as Soldiers. Why? They are battling the monsters in their head. It's a war that will never end. That's the best way I can explain it. For all the other Soldiers out there keep fighting and stay strong 💛💛🧡

[@billysmith5721]

Stay with us your wisdom is what gives strength to go forward glad you did not act out remember there are no refunds for suicide think first

[@devilghostface8798]

Find God and you'll get the strength to go on ..people forget this .

[@Natty0975]

I totally agree with you. I tried to end my life on August 8th 2001. All I was thinking about was to end my pain and I didn't think about the people around me. If you don't succeed, like it did, it's after that it hits you. You feel the impact it made to the people around you and then you get hit with remorse and guilt. I will NEVER try to do this again because it's NOT the solution ... besides ... life is too beautiful to be wasted. Unfortunately, I had to do it to realize it. Life is beautiful and so worth to be lived to the fullest. If you feel the need to hurt yourself, please get help. Suicide is NOT the solution. There's help out there. Please reconsider your decision. You are loved and you are worth it ! May God bless everyone that reads this comment 🙏🙏🙏❤❤❤

[@zaclampson6088]

I have friends suffering with PTSD and they say that micro dosing helps them. Whatever your path I pray that your soul finds peace.

[@stevieroger7478]

I'm so sorry that you had to suffer this horrible ordeal. 😢 What you say about monsters is true. They are inside of us. But they are also out there. The man who did what he did to you is a monster. I really hope you have had help picking up the pieces, that you haven't been facing your battle alone. x ❤

[@melissaclark6578]

My oldest brother took his own life. Leaving behind a 9 page letter and a few notes in his pockets too. He left behind 4 kids. The youngest only 5years old. Some think medication will solve mental illness but in some cases the depression is so strong that the person is just tired. Tired of the mental illness,physically tired of forcing themselves to do everyday tasks,and tired of their life and the way their situations has turned out.

[@donnabrooks1173]

I agree with you. I struggle with clinical depression and it's hell. I take medicine for it. I also agree with Lamont that it is an imbalance in the brain. As soon as I don't take my medicine I go downhill.

[@clemsonvoorheis3923]

I feel sorry forthe children

[@Noel-io9ze]

​@@clemsonvoorheis3923I feel sorry for him too. People straight away jump to judge but depression can make you think irrationally and tell you your kids would be better off without you. If it were as easy to just get rid of it well then we wouldn't be having this conversation. I hope he's at peace and I pray his family finds peace.

[@susanyeadon6657]

Damn you nailed it. I’m 64. Been fighting depression since around age 10. Turned to bi polar 2. I ended in the hospital late Feb and have been struggling ever since doing the “ let’s try this drug dance”. I told the doctor yesterday he has until November to straighten it out or I’m cashing in. Winter is just tooooo much here. I have about 5 grams of morphine tucked away. Had it open and up to my mouth once in the last three days. Luckily I guess he called and realized where I was and added a new drug to the chemical soup I’m on. We shall see.

[@AlexandrawOfficial_Lexi]

westerners are depressed the countries you bomb have REAL life problems caused by you we arent able to get depressed as we live in fear of the west Look at what you have done to my Ukraine

[@cindybeville5690]

I’m 68 and still dealing with depression sometimes life is so hard. I’m r rarely happy.

[@vanillacreem816]

Cry out to Jesus Christ. Receive him and let him heal your heart

[@henrymorgan3982]

But you go on.

[@armenianmuggerfromgta2041]

Stay strong Cindy, for your Ancestors, for God, & for us. I love you and anyone reading my comment.

[@kaelinreads6748]

Thinking of you

[@Saiyan585]

​@vanillacreem816 After scrolling through twice, you're the only person I've seen mentioning our Lord. 🙏

[@ywc378]

I can relate. I have suffered from depression most of my life, and many times have thought of ending it. When you are in a very dark place, you don’t see any light forthcoming.

[@KING17626]

96

[@christinaotter]

I hear you.

[@sixpackbinky]

@ywc378 Please never harm yourself, pray and ask Jesus to give you peace, he loves you so much he died for you. Accept him as Lord and savior, He will never leave or forsake you. ❤❤❤

[@Lisa-yc1mn]

Watch Robert breaker

[@semperfi6801]

@@sixpackbinky Best message we could give anyone. All things are possible through Christ but we must seek him. I believe that whole heartedly with all I've been through.

[@zappa3543]

You remember Lamont that we all care about you.

[@ItCanChangeYouToo]

we do!! I'd love to meet you, Lamont!

[@kammurabi2313]

This is important because of the nature of many of his stories. It can have a real effect dealing with these things so often. It will never be unwarranted to make sure he's doing ok.

[@deidralong3780]

Me too 😊​@@ItCanChangeYouToo

[@deidralong3780]

I second this

[@ImChris4]

Naw

[@TheMisswoods86]

This is how I know that a beast like depression isn't as simple as everyone thinks. How can someone like her with everything going for themselves decide to take their own life?? She was young, attractive, in good health physically, so what gives?? We dont have an answer because it just isn't that simple.

[@nicolequarterman9728]

Amen preach

[@johnrsherwood]

She probably had anger outbursts at times (that tells people something is wrong). It's a sign to the person suffering from depression, that change needs to happen. Depression is the fear that what needs to change won't!

[@brokenjed]

She was probably abused growing up which set her up for unhealthy codependent type relationships later. You spend your whole life just trying to feel a little bit better whether it be alcohol drugs food "love".

[@chillios2222]

in a depression your world and self views are not relatable to someone outside the fog, you exist within a dark shell as a depressed person, it can mean and often does that your brain itself is not firing, not functioning properly

[@AlexandrawOfficial_Lexi]

westerners are depressed the countries you bomb have REAL life problems caused by you we arent able to get depressed as we live in fear of the west Look at what you have done to my Ukraine

[@matthud7193]

I worked on the Metra in Chicago. Sadly, we had to get briefings for the amount of suicides that happen annually on that stretch.

[@ItCanChangeYouToo]

😮😭

[@Noel-io9ze]

Goes to show the state of this country. Yet instead of dealing with the root cause we have people who think we need better fences to keep people away from trains or nets to catch them if they jump of a bridge or to ban all guns. Those are all solutions in a perfect world which this is not.

[@cathyc9596]

I was thinking how traumatic it must be for the train engineer

[@TheSearchwithLisa]

This is so awful . 😢

[@AlexandrawOfficial_Lexi]

westerners are depressed the countries you bomb have REAL life problems caused by you we arent able to get depressed as we live in fear of the west Look at what you have done to my Ukraine

[@HauntedVirgo]

So sad.. I wonder how the train conductor(s) is doing as well now. Such a horrible incident to witness. 💔

[@FurthermoreJack]

Conductor probably didn't know it feel it or hear it ...

[@Bri_6992]

As someone who’s struggled with depression I can say the mental pain that it causes can make you do and think things that you’d never imagine you would. For some, that pain is so great it manifests itself as physical pain and everyday is exhausting. May Lee’s family and friends one day find comfort and may her mind and soul finally find peace.

[@strawberryshortcake2354]

Very sad, the train driver will have ptsd.

[@abnnuzzinicholasclay686]

That's your opinion.

[@debbiebrantley61]

It’s well known that train engineers that deal with this stuff have life long issues after it

[@abnnuzzinicholasclay686]

@debbiebrantley61 "it's well known" is that how your making a opinion a fact?

[@brendastewart14]

@@abnnuzzinicholasclay686 It happens. It affects the Train Engineer and Conductor also.

[@abnnuzzinicholasclay686]

@brendastewart14 I have ptsd , I don't think you can just assume one traumatic instance automatically gives you ptsd. It's a opinion. Thats all it is by a youtube clout chaser . They get addicted to attention and just blabber

[@leez2375]

I’ve suffered from depression as long as I can remember. My mother treated me horribly from a very young age. Talking to a therapist is not going to help me. I never had a mother love me and that scarred me for life.

[@loloca]

So sorry 🙏🏻

[@forevernight3279]

Its impossible to comprehend if one doesnt have the illness..

[@Summer77700]

You're absolutely right. It is a devastating thing to deal with, and it is heartbreaking to me that she was in so much pain she felt this was the only answer.

[@Lisa-cj6vx]

You are so right...❤

[@Jkk55]

Yes your right, it's horrific for me anyway.

[@ReggieandMiloTheCat]

Totally! “Normal” people rarely have the ability to comprehend, and therefore empathize with, someone with mental issues. If you live with someone like this educate yourself about neurodivergence and be supportive.

[@swansong5263]

What a terrible waste, Poor dear girl. I feel for her family. Bless her heart.

[@sandrosbackyard343]

You can never put yourself in someone else's shoes

[@splintcell22]

Depends on the shoe size

[@sandrosbackyard343]

@@splintcell22 Wtf r u talking about

[@pinecone1321]

I'm sorry but being empathetic is trying to put yourself in other shoes

[@RayfordRaySiegel]

​@@sandrosbackyard343, Where did you learn how to use English? Go somewhere else, to learn it right.

[@loloca]

Absolutely

[@Alan-lv9rw]

I’ve heard every person that jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge and survived said the second they jumped they regretted jumping and just wanted to live. I wonder if the people who didn’t survive also regretted jumping on the way down.

[@BlueberryStinkFinger62]

She was killed instantly and you're right never take a permanent solution to a temporary problem..

[@maxwellcrazycat9204]

I see that she was cremated. Probably best way to send her on her way. Some years ago near me. A woman left a bar and stepped in front of a train. It was horrible.

[@tiffanydean5245]

Unless you have lived with severe depression you can’t understand. It is a daily fight to stay alive

[@ahsatan8997]

It’s a disease. Is cancer always someone’s choice or fault?

[@vickieclark5931]

@@ahsatan8997 I agree. Not to mention, in most cases cancer is easier to heal than depression is. You have a better chance surviving cancer than you do depression because it's mental and that is very hard to treat. Physical problems are almost always easier than mental problems are to fix.

[@stacieclark-benson688]

I knew Lee. I was one of her followers but we came to know each other through email. There really was a reason she did this, but it wasn't widely publicized for the very reason of most of these comments below. People are ruthless & mean! The things I have read about my dear friend has broke my heart. She does not deserve the comments that are being left here. Something I want to clear up. Depression is a monster & so is suicide. The person that is thinking of suicide is only thinking of relieving their pain...they are unable to think of what others will feel when they go through with it. So all of you saying that she was selfish or that suicide is an act of selfishness, are all wrong. Pick up a book or an audio book about depression & suicide & learn something sometime. Please, please...let my dear friend RIP! She does not deserve to be bullied after life & this is what some of you are doing.

[@laureln56]

Her boyfriend Max has his own channel Max and Occy, and from his post a long time ago he said that it was depression and very unkind comments on her channel that tipped the scales to lead her to suicide so he always concludes his videos with “be kind” because of that. People can be so incredibly cruel and words can cut worse than a knife. He also has a mental health group as one of his sponsors.

[@debbiebrantley61]

You got that right,people can really be cruel with comments online bc it’s so easy to say whatever you want bc you don’t have to face the person.it sickens me when I read some of the comments I’ve seen people leave

[@TheShospitali]

Coming to terms with being treated differently, or being treated badly, or having your heart broken, or being tossed out in the street, or whatever we face in this life. Or being shunned. Everyone feels something, goes through something. I think most everybody has had a terrible time at some point. Disappointments to swallow. That's just life. I just ask God to help us all. Because we need his help.

[@laureln56]

@@TheShospitalithat is true but when you are looking at the world through depression you are not seeing it the way it really is. It’s like telling someone who has cataracts to see colors the way you do when as long as the cataracts are there they can’t! Maybe one day there will be a real fix for depression, and I hope I’m here to take some too. Depression robs you of your joy and color in your life.

[@kaliortega8390]

he also said that because of covid, at some point, she was having issues getting her meds been in a out of canada ( she was in usa)

[@MezzaLoey]

Thank you for this explanation. I have been a subscriber to Max and Occy for some time now and often wondered what had happened with his former partner. 😢

[@Kae6502]

Rest in Peace Lee. I hope you found the solice in the afterlife you couldn't find in this one.😥 And thank you Lamont for sharing the stories of SO many souls.

[@DnJar]

Sadly she's not resting in peace she is eternally suffering now she's in Hades and later will be in the Lake of Fire God's word is clear on this it doesn't matter what people think what God's word is is final and the only way that you could be in Paradise is if you were born again Christian and if you are born again you don't commit suicide if you kill yourself that's killing the body and that is the wages of sin is death which is the second death so yeah I don't believe somebody who was born again will end up in heaven and she's not born again anyways and never said that no so she's eternally sadly she's in Hades and later the Lake of Fire

[@Cherry75057]

Sad story. You never know what people are going thru or what's going on on their head. That individual may present themselves as a happy person but are dealing with demons in their mind.

[@SlammingEDdog]

Never take a permanent solution to a temporary problem very wise words spoken by Lamont R.I.P beautiful woman

[@aprilfisher4947]

Long term depression is no temporary problem and any wise person would not say that and neither would anyone who has suffered depression you dont shake it off and when you're at the point of suicide that is all you think about .

[@sternshadowdude2]

@@aprilfisher4947 So you advocate for all people with depression to end themselves?

[@ginaallred1587]

Now that's a silly question. You have obviously never experienced unrelenting anxiety/depression. This is not normal everyday blues. This is persistent, mind-numbing mental anguish that leaves you hopeless and exhausted. Do you really think anybody WANTS to die? What they want is relief from their mental torment. If you can't understand this, then good for you...I hope you never do. But you have no authority to speak about something you know nothing about. Listen and learn. I will repeat what I always say on these threads. Not every problem is temporary. Stop saying that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. That is the heighth of ignorance.

[@roxananunez2735]

She was so beautiful 🙏😪😪

[@cantthinkofone6995]

I began experiencing depression in my childhood, around age 6. I’m 42 now and it’s never gone away, it’s always been there. Even in what should be the more happier and easy times in life, it’s always there, waiting in the background. Literally, not a single day goes by that I don’t battle it and also thoughts of “deletion.” Even with medication, it’s there. I feel so sad when I see stories like this. Though, with a different perspective, my immediate thoughts are like most, as in, “what a shame she was so young and should have sought help” what I immediately think is, “thank god, she’s no longer hurting and can finally be in peace.” It’s a hard life living with this… for those that don’t experience it 24/7, be so grateful you do not.

[@jenniferlloyd9574]

My anxiety started before the age of 10; the depression came when puberty began. I've live with both ever since. I read a poem about loss. Replace the words "your absence" with the words "my depression": Your absence has gone through me Like thread through a needle Everything I do is stiched with its color

[@justice2251]

@@cantthinkofone6995 You said it perfectly 👍

[@margritneuenhagen795]

It is really sad that this pretty girl could not find another way to handle her pain . Rest In Peace young lady. ✝️🌹

[@whipchick90]

Depression is not a temporary problem for me. 42 years straight.

[@jenhasken]

Your description of depression is pretty good. My good friend took her own life four months ago. I still can’t believe she’s gone and I know my life will never be the same.

[@loloca]

🙏🏻

[@BeastmodeA7X]

Rest In Peace Lee

[@Caligirl11211]

I suffer from depression and anxiety and I had those thoughts many times. This is so sad😢😢

[@RockySanchez-fi6tr]

Stay strong for God, its Worth it. I promise

[@linsioux217]

So sad. The pics you used of her were very nice, thank you for remembering her.

[@monikameza4107]

💔💔💔😥 im crying right now because I'm also struggle with anxiety and depressions. Tried twice to take my life when I was 14 and 19. I'm now 65 and still suffer this evil thing. R.i.P sweet girl Lee, hope you are with Jesus he loves you unconditionally ❤️

[@loloca]

I know how you feel 🙏🏻!

[@sepulvedaprince7157]

"If its something from another dimension calling you to come here" I've never thought of it like that

[@ladyyuna2000]

💐🙏🏻 RIP Lee MacMillan (31 Oct 1992-26 Mar 2021) (aged 28) you will truly be missed and my prayers go out to you and your family. 💐🙏🏻

[@DnJar]

Sadly she's NOT RESTING UN PEACE SHES ACTUALLY ETERNALLY SUFFERING IN HADES THEN LATER THE LAKE OF FIRE GODS TRUTH IS VERY CLEAR ABOUT THIS TOO REGARDLESS WHAT UNSAVED PEOPLE THINK

[@DnJar]

Yeah God's word is very clear on it she's not resting in peace she's eternally suffering now she's in Hades and later the Lake of Fire it doesn't matter how you do how you die if you don't have God you don't have and you are not born again you don't have him as your personal relationship as your savior and you don't surrender to him God is very clear you will suffer eternally it doesn't matter if you like it or not that's the facts

[@emiilyjaane7]

Sending prayers to her family. Not her. She caused all of this and had the opportunity to get out of it. Very selfish woman. She is not at peace. She will be in limbo for all eternity, repeating her last moments over and over and over again, for the rest of her eternal life. Her choice, noone elses.

[@ghoward6797]

Twenty Eight.... you just got out of the starters block of life... you had 99 more yards to go

[@invaderzim1265]

Lady Yuna. We need another Final Fantasy 10!!!! I miss that game!😢😭

[@Modeltnick]

You’re a good soul, Lamont, and us viewers hold you in high regard.

[@sallyethridge1393]

Thanks for this story, Lamont.

[@allseeingotto2912]

Crazy , she was young , beautiful and popular , everything to live for and she threw it away 🙏🏻

[@bradt6740]

Being those things doesn't mean anything when it comes to depression. I should know. I mean I think I have positive attributes about myself. I'm book smart, not a bad looking guy, but my social skills are crap and I have low self esteem. I also can't communicate at all when it comes to women. I've had that problem since middle school. All that has led me to depression. It's a tough life out there for some people and I'm tired of hearing some people say "get over it" It's ignorant and it's not a light switch that you can just turn on and off.

[@vincentyanni6252]

and yummy wow

[@007gunlogo]

​@@bradt6740I understand, Brad. Been there myself.

[@terrondt]

It goes to Show no matter how pretty, well off and good life is , if the brain is in a very dark place it does Not matter

[@henrymorgan3982]

Not knowing how much more there is in life than social media.

[@happydayz5321]

Thanks Lamont, Lee was definitely one of a kind and the world is less without her.

[@pennsydude9723]

When a person decides to commit suicide, I can only imagine that it's an extremely dark place of hopelessness. Very sad story Lamont. May her soul find peace.

[@Aaron_Scissorhands]

4:27 People do these things, Lamont, because sometimes the pain is unbearable. Some would call them weak, others would call them stupid or crazy, but the truth is most wouldnt understand unless they were in that very situation.

[@loloca]

Very true!

[@juliejackman2649]

Sadly my brother passed from suicide as well at age 36. I believe they're so tormented that they don't recognize reality. My brother had some circumstances that left him unable to get a job. I do believe very much that I'll see him again and find out if it was one or more of his circumstances or being stuck. Either way it's a tragedy.

[@kavinsky4062]

soo sorry

[@carterlewis0608]

…ï’m in a similar; if not in the same, boat. -this past Thanksgiving, my fiancé of five years decided she did not want us to be together any longer…she quickly rebounded and found another…though it all, ï lost my sense of purpose, lost confidence in myself, lost my job, bills started stack up, ï really saw no light at the end of the tunnel…ï tried to un-alive myself this past March 26, 2024 by means of asphyxia with a tank of helium…ï really couldn’t take it anymore. -was involuntarily admitted to a rehabilitation hospital until April 1st. -ï saw no way out of the compounding situation ï was in/ï’m in. …still, it crosses my mind daily…in y mind makes me feel ï’d rather be gone then continue living with this damn broken heart.

[@Lisa-yc1mn]

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[@ciararyan9370]

@@carterlewis0608I understand. I’ve been struggling for the past few months as well. Too much sadness compounded with depression. I think about my family, though. Especially my daughter. There are people who care about you who will be broken by the loss if you go. There are probably people in your life whom you aren’t even aware care about you deeply. I do believe life is worth living; you have to get to the next day, try to find purpose in things you care about. Maybe adopt a dog or cat; their love is unconditional and it helps me so much. ❤

[@monkeyswearingscuffedjays9388]

@@carterlewis0608 Brother, I will say I have dealt with similar feelings and one thing I will tell you is you are going to want to go out find hobbies and stuff in life that gives you purpose to yourself. Once you do that you will inevitably fall into the arms of the right person, what you need to do is not dwell and move forward like the strong person you are.

[@WilliamSims-yf5wq]

I'd rather talk to someone for hours than to talk about them for a few minutes at there funeral a kind word or listing to someone might make the difference. rip young lady 😭

[@sherrymull2292]

I felt that…thank you

[@debbiebrantley61]

Well said

[@blondinizer4057]

I know her thoughts are at peace now. Sometimes, you can't shut off the thoughts. They play over and over and over again. And without help, those thoughts will take you away. So sad.

[@saveyourselves5923]

I had depression my whole life and didn't even realise. I thought it was normal to wake up every morning with a sense of dread, as if the worst thing had already happened, and to go through every day hating myself and trying to find a reason to carry on. Antidepressants made me feel blank and slightly removed from the rest of the world. Counselling, psychotherapy, CBT, yoga, meditation... nothing worked long term. It wasn't until a bout of IBS forced me to completely change my diet, that I suddenly realised that the sense of doom I'd been carrying like a lead weight my whole life was no longer there. I had no idea it was possible to be totally at peace and content from within, without any effort. Totally unexpected, and led me to conclude that depression must be a physical illness, one that has a cure. Life is beautiful. I'm glad I chose it. I do have relapses from time to time, and I think to myself, "How did I live like that?"

[@annapulit8860]

Schudłaś a wcześniej byłaś grubsza? Jak zmieniła się twoja dieta?❤

[@educational4434]

For the love of God why would you not tell us what diet you switched to after telling us all that? Detail the diet please if that's the cure

[@saveyourselves5923]

@@educational4434 I'd been mostly vegetarian since the age of about 13. Since the IBS and other digestive issues I was having made it impossible to consume vegetables, and because my iron levels were very low, I started to consume mostly red meat. I'd heard about Jordan and Mikhaila Peterson and thought I'd give their weird diet a try. I haven't suffered any physical pain since, all my joint pain went away, my inflammatory markers are less than zero, and my mental health problems all resolved. It's not something I readily discuss, because I understand it's controversial, and in no way did I ever claim it was a cure. I can't explain how. It just worked for me. I don't want to get anyone's hopes up too high, but for those who believe they will be sick forever, I believe recovery is possible.

[@educational4434]

@@saveyourselves5923 Ah! Thank you 😊 What does your menu look like throughout the week now?

[@saveyourselves5923]

@@educational4434 I've been experimenting for the last five years. Went slowly from paleo, to keto and now almost fully carnivore, just trying to find something that's optimal for me. I thought I may have been allergic to something and it turns out I am allergic to nightshades. Mostly I stick to beef, lamb, some chicken and fish, small amount of cheese and eggs, electrolytes, water and salt. I may have the odd avocado or olives and some nori and Brazil nuts for iodine and selenium, some berries from my garden... that's about it. Planning to go beef and lamb only for a month to see what that does. I've learned a lot from people who know far more than me, particularly prof Bart Kay, Harry Serpanos and Dr Anthony Chaffey.

[@audreyharrison997]

Ms.Lee rest in heavenly peace ✌ praying for the family, the lord is with ya'll.😢❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@Lisa-yc1mn]

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[@wrenchman3702]

Very very sad. She was a beautiful woman. So sad she didn’t get the help she needed so she could live a better life. May God rest her soul

[@brendaconnor8742]

Very sad story. Life is to short and precious. Live life and love it. Prayers to her.🙏 Hi Lamont!! Have a great Day.❤

[@TrunkyDunks]

How sad....I wish she would have talked to someone, sounds like she had a bright future and such a beautiful smile. Suicide is never the answer.

[@Jkk55]

People say that but when your at the pits of it nothing seems to help, I am not critizicing you by the way.

[@TrunkyDunks]

@@Jkk55 I have been there myself, and when you ask for help, things tend to improve and you can gain perspective on everything. Following through is selfish.

[@chicbate]

@@TrunkyDunks as a teen I asked my (lousy) parents for help & nobody did anything. My school did nothing. sometimes no one is there to help, sorry not sorry. but that's just wishful thinking--- in a perfect world, yes. She should have. Yes. But who knows who she talked to? Who knows if she felt she had anyone to talk to? I wish this wasn't the case, believe me. But we can't just project that mentality on someone's choice in hindsight. To anyone feeling that way right now, please talk to someone and keep talking until someone helps you. Don't give up just because you know people like my parents who they were.

[@vickieclark5931]

@@TrunkyDunks You must never have gotten that bad because depression is usually not fixable. You probably had more sadness than depression, which is what got you through. Sadness is temporary, which depression is permanent. If you had deep depression, you probably would not be here today.

[@TrunkyDunks]

@vickieclark5931 you do not get to compare your belief of depression to my experience. Attempted suicide is attempted suicide. Don't minimize my life because "if I had it bad I'd be dead". F off. Ignorant.

[@CelticCarla62]

So sad 😢 social media and reality are chasms apart . Break up must've hit her hard somehow . So sorry

[@davidcherbak1326]

I remember that, this is where I live have lost a few friends "Taking the Train" That is what we call it I saw someone get hit once and saw him die in a Firefighters arms..Half the time people are so drunk or stoned they don't know what they are doing that doesn't help the nightmares the Engineers have over these Suicides or Alcohol/Drug Deaths I report Suicides and OD's on a daily basis just doing that gets to me..Thanks Lamont Enjoy the Sunshine of our Beautiful City while you are here. Right after I posted this Fatality by train Montecito, Ca part of Santa Barbara 6/19/2024 Rest in Peace..I have Lifelong Depression.

[@HeyN0w]

I struggle with depression and sometimes it’s easier then other but like today I don’t want to leave my house I wanna lay in bed and just hide from the world I hope an pray she is not suffering anymore my heart is broken for her and the family and friends Ik how ppl feel I deal with it too.. I wish I could control it but I can’t an I hate it cause idk what to do or who to turn too I don’t wanna burden other ppl with my problems

[@sandrapower3250]

Remember you are never a burden prayers to you from ireland ❤❤❤❤❤

[@amethyst205]

The poor darling x

[@Know_Your_Enemy]

To be honest we Should Feel Way More Sympathy for the poor Train Conductor who had to Witness this Person walk into the path of his Train!!! I can only imagine the Mental Issues they must Now Live with because of her Decision!!!!

[@lacadmin2844]

I hope and pray that she is at peace 🙏💐💔

[@oiaiofoster4775]

Gorgeous Young Lady. So Heartbreaking!!!

[@AnnaaMontana]

She probably wasn't thinking. Sometimes a dark wave comes over you and see nothing and it's as if your body takes over . I cant explain it but ive experienced. Poor girl, i get it.

[@quagini69]

you have put it perfectly. I cant stand people who call people who take their own lifes "selfish" etc ..... they have NO idea about that dark cloud that takes over.

[@AnnaaMontana]

@@quagini69 no idea at all. It truly is hell and they'll never get it unless it happens to them, I guarantee it. Selfish are those who judge such a thing they're fortunate enough to never experience!

[@lorileessmallworld]

My daughter stabbed herself nicked her heart, lung, liver. She lived. But is still in and of the hospital. She said someone else told her to do it? And she did not feel it. She is a beautiful person inside and out. She has 3 children of her own that are now living with their Fathers. My daughter has a scar on her chest going from the bottom of her neck down past her belly button. We knew she was struggling. That is why she moved in with us. She was so afraid of dying. I was devastated. I still am. But I have faith. She is back in the hospital. But will be back home soon. Trying to get her life back. I do know this country lacks in mental health treatment. It’s shameful.

[@karenpasos5759]

sending prayers that God wraps his merciful arms around you and your daughter during this very stressful time

[@carterlewis0608]

…ï was admitted this past March 26th and released April 1st…still, the thoughts bombard me daily…ï feel for your daughter. …it’s definitely not her fault. …this life is hard as it is and is that much harder for those with that voice within us that speaks these thoughts into fruition. …daily, ï find myself longingly sighing out to release the my spirit’s negative pain.

[@Figgatella]

Sending prayers for your daughter and you. Hugs🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼😌

[@Killerbee67]

Sending you prayers…..

[@henrymorgan3982]

We pray for your family.

[@wendysmith8246]

That is a sad thing to hear😢 what was she going through to make her feel like there's no way out but death 😢 she was very beautiful and looked so happy in the pictures you shared with us!! But looks are so deceiving!! May she rest in peace 🕊🤍🕊 my prayers go out to her family and friends 🙏🕊🙏

[@user-ys7uo4fw3h]

Someone I was friends with found their only child in their garage back in 2019 he had hung himself this poor kid had problems much deeper than anyone could have imagined he was a sweet kid loving etc and had the best parents I think of him often and can’t imagine how his parents deal on a daily basis rip Alan

[@sandrashevel2137]

Wow that is so sad and one heck of a way to go😢

[@terrallputnam7979]

So sad. It's always a shame when young people die, but especially when they do it their self. RIP Lee.

[@Grumpy63uk]

She had no thought for how this would affect the train driver , devastating for all 🤦‍♀️🇬🇧

[@christihiatt3459]

Thanks so much for the consistent kindness and decency you bring to this platform, Lamont.

[@dianes2652]

Lamont thank you for talking about depression. You have such compassion for others. Stay well and safe. Love you ❤️❤️

[@3xbFilms]

Thanks for covering this story

[@stacykeller3812]

Awe.. I still follow Max and his pup! 😢

[@loujew8973]

For someone who was diagnosed with ptsd years ago, I had to beg doctors for help, I reached a point where I did not want to be here anymore and the doctor was just going to give me some more anti depressants, I had to beg for help. I received therapy and support through victim support from the police ive only got my life back on track in the last year. I've trained myself that when my brain starts negative thoughts I start thinking of things good in my life, my family, the fact I have a job, a place to live etc. And sometimes thinking of a funny video helps, I remember a video of a puppy bunny hopping behind a rabbit making me laugh and that was a video I thought about during my bad times, it sounds daft but it helped. Please.remember your worth, we all go through bad times, but trust me we get through them, time really is a healer and there is happiness around the corner. I recommend the book 'the secret' for anyone who needs a positive mental uplift.

[@RustySpoons6490]

This is so tragic… Lamont at Large, Thank you for remembering Lee and for bringing awareness to your viewers regarding depression and dark thoughts…

[@inscoredbz]

I've dealt with anxiety, panic attacks, dp/dr and depression for 30 years. It sucks. If you don't experience it, you just don't understand.

[@DimiHard]

She was a beautiful human being. I loved watching her and Max's content. I still follow his videos. RIP

[@drivingwithricks]

People call suicide a selfless act, but it's not. I've been down this road more than once in my life and all you want is the pain to stop. RIP Lee...

[@angelabarrera24]

I deal with bipolar depression and it is a constant struggle. My heart goes out to her family. The pain of depression is terrible. Depression isn't temporary for some. Some people, like myself, get no relief from meds. We have drug resistant depression. Rest in peace, Lee. I hope you have found the peace you deserved.

[@HarveyFoFi]

I had this new co worker that was always looked super happy from the outside (my friend's cousin). I used to say, one day I would like to be as happy as he is. He took his own life by jumping in front of a train in NJ. I heard the reason he did it was, because his parents didn't accept that he was gay. RIP

[@rossanctuary5238]

Hey Lamont, you should announce the topic of you're next up coming video's before they get released more often.

[@JimmyGerald]

Lamont thanks for all your hard work traveling just to share the stories of so many different sad unfortunate stories,greatly appreciate each and everyone..❤

[@Angel-jg5se]

I remember this,, never take a permanent solution,,,to a temporary problem,,, 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️,,Thankyou so much,,, for these life long words,,, Thankyou🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@RawOlympia]

So sad! Thank you for your video.

[@brendagroff8478]

How sad.😢

[@jewllake]

Depression is a serious disease. I lost my mom to depression 26 years ago. I'm 49 now.

[@BrittonMorgan-pl9ik]

Thanks Lamont Never Heard Of This Case 😢😢

[@michellesartori6695]

All deaths are terrible, but I always find that the ones that affect me the most are the ones where the deceased individual is around the same age as my own children. Lee was only 2 months older than my youngest daughter, and my own daughter has suffered with mental health issues since her teens. It's a horrible thing to mental illness as it's not as visible as say my own physical disability but it is equally as debilitating. You can look at the videos that the person puts out on social media, but it is only going to show you what that person wants you to see, and it is certainly not the full story. I understand the pain that Lee must have endured, and I only say that because I know what it is to feel suicidal and to try and take your own life. It is such a dark and ugly place and you feel so very alone. I'm sorry that Lee wasn't for whatever reason unable to access any mental health treatment, or perhaps she had chosen not to seek treatment. I think that the lesson to be learned from Lee's death is not to put too much trust in what you see online. I don't know why Gabby Petito came into my mind, but her and her partner SEEMED to be doing great until you get under the surface and the apple was rotten inside their relationship. Please talk to someone if you feel as Lee did. I would happily take your pain away if I could, but I can't. However, I DO understand, and I'm sorry that your life is this way. My prayers go out to the train driver because his PTSD must be shocking! Thank you, Lamont, for this video about Lee! From country NSW Australia.

[@blazinjay85]

My dad is a retired Amtrak engineer and in the early 2000's ran down that line and I had rode with him a couple of times on that rail line. It's a very beautiful run but very sad to hear about this beautiful young woman. My dad has told me stories of when he hit people and that something that he has to live with for the rest of his life.

[@tinadavies7537]

Such a sad story bless her heart thank you for sharing

[@t.wilson5106]

Thank you for the best videos on KZbin, blessings 🙏

[@americanpatriot2422]

Always a great video and presentation.

[@karnizor4051]

Thanks for your beautiful content Lamont ❤

[@frankallday4720]

Depression has no boundaries it effects rich ,poor,young,old,it shows no bigotry or racism it treats everyone the same . If you are unlucky enough to have it it’s definitely a struggle going through life.For many unfortunately they see only one way out leaving family and friends wondering what they could have done. The hardest thing for people with depression is to reach out for help if you can just take that step your family and friends will be very grateful you did.There can be light at the end of that dark tunnel you are stuck in please just go get the help u need. Ones that have got help know exactly how you are feeling and you can be one of them after you get the help you need .

[@softwelveone]

I had the same notion you had about "chemical imbalance" but a few years back the KZbin algorithm suggested a video *"Lost Connections" by Johann Hari* (the book IS FAR BETTER) that gives real clarity about the true reasons of depression... highly *HIGHLY* suggest watching that video!

[@user-ih5yb1ut9q]

the book is very well researched & a great read! my girlfriend recommended it. 🌄

[@JohnnyTong215]

Personal demons can haunt anyone, even those who are wealthy and successful. Kids-in-Mind message of Gods and Monsters 1998. Why didn’t anyone help her in her struggles? Anyone who has mental health problems should get help.

[@tracyrago7187]

Thank you so much for doing this story 💗 I too struggle with mental health that is controlled with meds

[@MoonCat33]

Lamont! What an incredibly sad story, but such a beautiful way u tell it… such an articulate way to explain how she mayve been feeling during her last days. Felt that. Great job 👏

[@washguy9577]

Sad situation 😢