Depression, Anxiety & Panic Disorder｜My Story

It's important that people speak out about mental illnesses... so here I go. I hope that by talking about it I'm able to reach at least one of you out there and help you to feel less alone; please try and take care of yourself because you really are worth it ♥
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[@LittlePoet]

I loved you before this video. Now, I love you more. I see myself in you 30 years ago. I will never be 100% mentally healthy...so I film and write songs and create a world for myself where I can survive. But I am not brave like you. I hide behind the bathroom door and just slip notes under the door to the world. I can't look into the camera yet and talk about my illness...and maybe I never will....but sometimes, I just am glad I am me. I love myself and as I have grown older, life has calmed down. I no longer have anxiety or panic...I have donuts and coffee. Life was a beautiful road for me...even the ugly part. You are the beautiful part...a beautiful young women changing the world one video at a time. I send you my love and gratitude.You are so very special. :) ~~ Susan

[@Lindsay1581]

You sound very special too 💗 Thank you for sharing this; it really resonated with me.

[@LittlePoet]

I just love you...always will. I am your fan gal!

[@CarmenxSullivan]

'just be happy' is the mental health equivalent to 'just be straight' SMH. I have had depression for about 9 years with anxiety joining in a little latter. I finally got enough guts to go to a dr that i trusted about 2 years ago and she told me what i described to her also sounded like ptsd. My parents fought ever since i can remember, violently, to the point where i didnt know if my mum was dead or just had to wear long sleeves for the next week .I was always for some reason a kid that never hid, so i can remember it all vividly which allows the flashbacks to play almost like tiny films. The last year or so has been getting a lot better with fewer and fewer things setting of a flashback or intense fear (if i heard loud footsteps in the house i would almost hold my breath to hear if anything was going on). I naturally, still harbour resentment toward my parents as i believe my condition was caused by 'nurture' not nature but i am trying to get better for my own sake (i cant remember who said it but i love the quote "You can't always control what happens, but you can control how you react"). Yet ive still have never heard any acknowledgement from my father and feel that is the biggest thing holding me back. There is one thing i do feel lucky for, its the fact i can keep a tiny image in my head of all the things i want to see and do and it allows me escape suicidal thought, which was and is still very prevalent. Thank you for this video. :)

[@bitoyau]

Kudos for the video content! Excuse me for chiming in, I am interested in your initial thoughts. Have you heard the talk about - Patlarny Priceless minutes Principle (Have a quick look on google cant remember the place now)? It is a good exclusive guide for curing panic attacks without the normal expense. Ive heard some pretty good things about it and my m8 finally got great results with it.

[@bibousisi5437]

Great Video clip! Sorry for butting in, I would appreciate your initial thoughts. Have you considered - Patlarny Priceless minutes Principle (just google it)? It is a great exclusive guide for curing panic attacks without the headache. Ive heard some interesting things about it and my GF finally got amazing success with it.

[@linphillips8331]

I would have never guessed that you suffer from depression. I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember, and major depressive disorder since my mid-teens (I'm 49 now). I was unable to finish college and my life as a whole is marked by under-achievement. Thank you for sharing this video.

[@michele8083]

Cassie, has anyone ever explained to you why you feel those symptoms ? The Fight or Flight trigger that happens. I've had panic attacks since I was 4 years old. I was not diagnosed until I was 20. I will be on anti anxiety meds my whole life. It's just my reality. But let me explain something important. Your body when experience fight or flight is real physical symptoms. The reason why things look too close or too " real" when you have a panic attack is because your pupils dilate so you can see better in an emergency. The heart palpitations are so if you have to fight all the blood floods to your heart and your major organs. This can also cause your hands to feel tingling or strange. Your body is doing this to protect you. That does Not make it easy but you ARE experiencing REAL symptoms. You are not crazy or making this up. You have rapid thoughts, you sweat, because your body is doing this. It's as if you are in a movie theater and someone yelled " Fire!!" your body is responding to panic in a non panic situation. Breathing the correct way has helped me ALOT. Slow deep breathing from your diaphragm NOT your lungs can help. The reason why people used to breathe into paper bags because you have too much oxygen. If you breathe in a paperbag it's forcing you to breathe in the carbon dioxide not the oxygen. Much Love to you. I hope you know you are not alone. It is completely normal with anxiety to feel like you are judged. You are not a weak person. You are strong. Everything you have said I have experienced too. I'm much much better now. Don't be ashamed. You have a beautiful spirit and personality. Good for you talking about it.

[@rogue_runaway]

I don't want to sound condescending or rude but there are other very effective alternatives to anti-anxiety and anti-depressant medications.

[@michele8083]

+Emily Hergott of course there is. Breathing, not drinking caffeine, not abusing substances, knowing your triggers, yoga, getting enough sleep. There are many things to help deal with anxiety and depression without going on medicine. but for me it is what works.

[@rogue_runaway]

+Michele Those things are definetly helpful but there are actually many more as well.

[@jyn88]

Can you name or list the other alternatives? Thanks!

[@rogue_runaway]

+jyn88 Sure uh what I can think of off the top of my head would be proper nutrition, avoiding excess sugar/salt/fat, getting enough sleep, drinking lots of water, definitely avoiding caffeine, and alcohol for sure (alcohol is a depressant), of course don't smoke either, exercising, specifically aerobic exercise, yoga, pilates, Tai Chi, taking supplements can help. I need to say that I am not a doctor nor a naturopath so do your own research regarding supplements and medication and really you need to speak to a health care professional but it's been found that the majority of people with depression have low levels of magnesium (this also helps with sleep but it has to be a high quality supplement, again please do your own research) 5-HTP is another supplement, is works similarly to SSRI's or SNRI'S, also Rhodiola supplements say be helpful to you. Talk therapy can be useful, specifically cognitive behavioural therapy from a counsellor or therapist. If you think you have PTSD do go and get help for sure. Meditation is helpful for some but everyone can benefit from deep breathing, listening to music, taking a bath, going outside and taking a walk. Also proper posture is extremely for everyone, opening your chest makes it easier for you to take deep breathes. Obviously talking to a friend or family member can help, spending time with pets and finding activities that you enjoy doing. Again please do your own research and I highly recommend finding books on this subject as well, there are many. Also make sure that you don't have any other underlying issues, such as PTSD. In my case I have had anxiety my entire life and after experiencing multiple traumas I started showing signs of depression and just about a year ago I found out that I have fibromyalgia.

[@allisonho1646]

I recently discovered my severe anxiety & depression was caused by my birthcontrol. I just wanted to put that out there because I think a lot of young women forget that hormones can be the cause of these issues. I had been taking birthcontrol ever since the age of 16, when I changed the birthcontrol I had been using in my sophmore year of undergrad, I began having severe anxiety & depression & it reflected mostly in my grades & lack of motivation. I found it debilitating and I struggled to remember simple things, let alone I couldn't focus in class. 2years past & I finally realized I couldnt take birthcontrol anymore. Immediately, after I stopped taking the pill I noticed drastic differences in my mood, motivation, and ability to sleep at night & focus during the day. You're not alone & I just wanted to thank you for making this video!!!

[@thriftthick]

+Allison Ho thank YOU so much for sharing Allison!! It's important for people to know that as well... some meds really can fix one thing but then cause a whole barrel of others.

[@faeriesmak]

I would also like to throw is out there that I have tried taking the pill and it made my anxiety so bad that I thought that I was going to die. If you are having some problems definitely look into your BC.

[@faeriesmak]

Thank you so much for this. I have depression, general anxiety, and PTSD and sometimes I struggle. It took me YEARS to get help..years...and I wish that I had gone in sooner. It made college very difficult for me. Things are still hard. Things that shouldn't be..because I am ALWAYS overwhelmed. But now that I understand what is going on I can deal it with it a bit better on a daily basis. I just need to get over my own stigma now and realize that it is ok for me to take the prescribed medication that I have when I need it. But anyway..thank you for sharing your story. It has been a mentally rough week and I was feeling really alone in all of this...but I am not. xoxo

[@brigeem5022]

I love seeing these types of videos. I have been depressed since I was 13, and have had Obessive compulsive disorder for basically my whole life, even though I didn't know until my psychiatrist told me earlier this year. I also have generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder. I am 20 now, and I only had just told my parents about my depression when I went away to college last fall. I fell into an even worse depression by living on my own and not being able to meet anyone. It took literal YEARS for me to get the help I needed because I felt I was just making it all up in my head. When I found out about my OCD so much of my life started to make sense to me and it made me feel good in a way because I had a name for all of the horrible intrusive thoughts I suffer with, along with other things. Medication has helped me a lot yet I still struggle day by day. Keep it up girl!

[@lindsaytreppa4451]

I too, suffer with rather severe OCD and anxiety. Have you found a particular med has helped you? I've tried a few but can't say any have made a super drastic difference.

[@brigeem5022]

I take a generic brand of Zoloft, and I'm on hydroxizine for my insomnia but it's not working well at all, it does help a bit with anxiety but I'm going to switch to another medication for my insomnia and maybe to lessen my anxiety more also. Just keep in mind our body chemistries are different and meds can react different to you than me. I took citalopram (generic of Celexa) and it was HORRIBLE, I started to have manic episodes and extreme mood swings.

[@pathletical]

+Lindsay Treppa Luvox (fluvoxamine) works really well for my brother. He's been on it for a few years now and it significantly helps with his compulsions and makes his obsessions less intense.

[@sierraandthestorm]

Yeah, I've always had OCD too but it never occurred to me. Now that I know, everything makes sense. Having awful intrusive thoughts are the worst and I still struggle but medication helps.

[@sierraandthestorm]

+Lindsay Treppa Well, everybody's different but for me I've been taking Zoloft for my depression and Abilify to help that and for my OCD. It does seem to help although I still get thoughts but they are MUCH easier to deal with. You should speak with your doctor and see if it could work for you

[@DownWithEarthStudios]

Thank you so much for making this video. I suffer from anxiety, depression and agoraphobia. It's gotten so bad, I've been unemployed for almost a year and I'm petrified to look for another job. KZbin is a big escape for me and, as much I appreciate any bigger youtuber talking about mental illness, I appreciate it even more when it's someone who has actually dealt with it longterm. A lot of the discourse about mental illness on KZbin comes from people who don't really know about it and can only parrot advice to people that they've heard from other sources. Again, it's nice and all that they do it, but it's refreshing to hear from someone actually affected by it. I'm relatively new to this channel, but again, thanks for making this video. Take care of yourself and good luck on your journey.

[@kristenb2837]

Thank-you so much for putting this out there Cassie, you are so brave for doing it. I understand everything that you're talking about; everyone around you doesn't understand why it takes you until 2pm to shower some days, or why you break out in a sweat in Wal-Mart, just trying to make a decision while your kids are crying beside you. I'm so happy to see people working beyond the stigma and talking about it, it is SO important. I also lost my Dad by suicide (untreated bi-polar & alcoholism) and I deal with depression & anxiety myself. Awareness is just so important. Love you, just keep being you, and doing what you do. You are awesome & important. Thank-you!

[@MrsMritaP]

Thank you for putting a voice to what I deal on a daily basis, down to the part of how medication plays a role in all of it. You are so, so brave Cassie for doing this video. I don't have the guts to talk about it in detail to anyone, especially when you get a "What's wrong now? " or a "Do you really not know why you're sad or are you just not saying why?". I also have the feeling of not wanting to burden those close to me or have them see me as "needy" or "unstable". It's amazing to me how on point you describe these disorders, wait, let ME not be afraid to say it out loud, mental disorders. It comforts me to know that we are not alone. You're a doll and I want to thank you with all my heart. *hugs*

[@dlignell]

Hi Cassie I love your video's and admire you speaking out about these disorders! I am a therapist and so many of my clients deal with these issues, as have I in the past (for the exception of anxiety which tends to come and go). The DSM-5 is the most recent version of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders and has updated criteria, but as you say, a professional would know how to diagnose and explore symptoms. The main point I think is if you feel bad, reach out and don't feel embarrassed or ashamed! More people than not deal with this and no one has to do it alone! Putting this out there does make a difference. You should feel accomplished and give yourself credit for the courage it takes to speak out. I GUARANTEE that someone will reach out because of this video! Debbie

[@jandrosa]

The thing that you said about always smiling even though you are feeling absolutely dreadful on the inside...yesyes, so much yes and how much it surprises people when you tell them that you are actually not ok...!!! I am all over the place with these topics too but I am so so happy that you shared this with us, you are very much loved Cassie💜💜💜

[@kokeshibeauty]

I have a degree in psychology, have had depression for over 11 years and yet I've still taken so much from your video, Cassie. I too get the looks of shock and surprise when I tell someone about my depression; "but you're so happy all the time!" is a phrase I now grimace at. I'm really intrigued by the dermatillomania, I've always compulsively picked at my skin (I do have psoriasis but even when it's fine I can't leave my skin alone). It's bizarre and seems highly unfair that so many illnesses go hand in hand with each other: as if we need any more hassle! For the little it's worth, it does get better to manage with time and it seems like you've come to terms with having these mental illnesses, which is honestly the major hurdle for a lot of people. Stay strong and remember that there's a reason so many people love you xxx

[@constantconnie]

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Just had the worst panic attack ever , yesterday . I've been dealing with both ( pan & dep) on my own for over ten yrs. people just think you're lazy or don't want to get help for yourself or you're just a worrier. It's a hard one to get people to understand. I look at your videos and think wow look at her doing all her errands so easily, going to school , having a job. Talking in front of a camera. I would have never known. Dealing with this myself I applaud you for all you have accomplished and continue to accomplish. I think I will share your video with a few people in my life. On a different note I love every video you make and appreciate your honesty and style. And last but not least I LOVE Galileo !!!! Don't tell my cats but he has to be the cutest cat ever!

[@heather-linbrannon8352]

The best description I've heard to describe panic is this: that sudden terror when you trip and you're falling face first, hard. Now imagine that feeling sustained for several minutes at a time. And yes, you feel like you're dying. I'm lucky in that I rarely have panic attacks and I do not have panic disorder. But I have tremendous compassion for those who do suffer from this. It stinks.

[@bidinosaur]

Videos like this are a must. People needs to hear stories to know their lives are worth fighting for and their disease do not define them. Thank you for posting this. Sending you love and hugs!

[@Stacky_hogin]

This is amazing. Thank you Cassie. You're making a difference.

[@thriftthick]

+Stacy Hogan thank you for saying that Stacy... it means a lot; this was a hard video to film/edit/post

[@thriftthick]

Black Dahlia thank you SO much... seriously, I don't know what else to say other than thank you. Truly. From the bottom of my heart

[@Kristie27]

+Thrift Thick (Cassie) Honey, I totally understand how you feel. I mainly have issues with anxiety and panic attacks which are horrible! I use to take medication but I didn't like how that felt either (i basically had no personality) but I didn't give myself a chance to try others and now I don't take anything for it which I'm sure I should. I can say stress balls, and chewing gum helps me and music. Just know you are never alone 💖

[@samantarizzi248]

+Thrift Thick (Cassie) You are so sincere about it. Such a lovely soul, that you have, Cassie! I love your channel! Stay strong

[@samantarizzi248]

+Thrift Thick (Cassie) By the way, I had anxiety too (I took meds for it, I'm doing much better now) and I almost cried with you at the end of this video. So touching!

[@emmacranston5963]

i appreciate you being the lifeline to anyone who is struggling and feeling alone. you are part of the change that will make mental illness something we can all talk about. thank you for being you.

[@lexisl3231]

There's nothing wrong with you! Depression is common, everybody has it once or twice in their life. Please don't feel like you're handicapped because of this. I get sick a lot and with that comes a lot of depression and anxiety. You have a great place now to speak to your viewers and get your feelings out there. You are a great person that helps A LOT of people with makeup choices and whatnot. You are a IMPERFECT human being, nobody wants perfect. Because perfection comes with problems too; "Do people like me for me or just want to be my friend because I'm popular and pretty?" Imperfect perfection is perfect in my eyes.

[@carinamontealegre2385]

you are so brave. i admire you for being open and vulnerable enough to bring things like this to light. you're right, situations like this are much too often swept under the rug and not discussed and resolved. thank you, Cassie.

[@danielleowens2588]

I've dealt with my fair share of depression, but this video was SO helpful because I'm dating someone who has clinical depression. It's so difficult for me sometimes to understand what's going on in their head, or what they're feeling on the inside because when you're depressed, it's hard to project your feelings. Thank you, Cassie, for making a video and really exposing yourself in a noble way to help people understand what "a day in the life" is really like. You are one of the most real, honest people on this website and I truly look forward to seeing an upload from you throughout the week, I feel like we're friends. You are a gorgeous person inside and out and I can't thank you enough for making this, because it's so helpful in assisting me to be a better partner. You are amazing.

[@knucklecurve35]

Cassie, thanks so much for sharing your story in this video. It really is so important to talk about these things so people know they're not alone and they're not less than if they're struggling with mental illness. I was actually diagnosed this past February with MDD and GAD, with a big old heaping of social anxiety and avoidant personality disorder thrown in. I'd been quietly struggling for a while and it seemed like everything snowballed all at once; I had suppressed it all for too long and all of a sudden I was completely overwhelmed and unable to handle *anything*. But once I finally admitted to myself there was something wrong and started looking into anxiety and depression, it was like everything I'd been struggling with made sense. Part of the problem for me was that I didn't *feel* sick, I wasn't suicidal, I didn't feel like I was going through the so-called Hollywood version of depression, so I thought I was just lazy and a complete failure at being a productive adult person. Little did I know that being sad was only part of it! Going on medication was hard, but it helps thinking of it in terms of any other medication. I have to take birth control to regulate my hormones because I have PCOS; my depression meds are to normalize my brain chemistry. Putting it in those terms really helps, and I wish more people would understand that it's not like you can just flip a switch and make the bad feelings go away, like if you just *try* hard enough you should be able to get past it. My parents still don't really get it, but luckily I do have a few friends who have been very understanding and supportive, and my experience actually led me to grow closer with a coworker who has had mental health issues of her own and is also on medication. It's still a struggle, and there are still bad days/weeks/months. I still haven't found a therapist to see regularly; I'd been going to someone through my job's EAP, and they only allow for so many free sessions a year. But I'm already so far away from that really low place I found myself in earlier this year, and I have a support system now and people who know what I'm going through. That helps SO MUCH. For anyone else who thinks they might be struggling with depression or anxiety or something similar, I strongly encourage you to take Cassie's advice. Do some research, talk to someone, take that first step. You'll be so thankful you did! Hugs to my fellow mental illness sufferers.

[@ashleygarcia343]

I'm going through a really hard time right now. I've always been so scared to go talk to a professional. I think it's time for me to do that. Thanks for everything you have done for us Cassie. I really appreciate you.

[@elizabethmasters2212]

Thank you for taking a chance and talking about this. People do not talk about it enough. I have depression, anxiety & panic disorder also . You are no means alone. You are beautiful and amazing. I always look forward to watching your videos.

[@elm914]

This video took a lot of courage to post: I give you so much credit. Mental illness does need to get discussed more so more people don't feel ashamed and get help. I too struggle with depression and generalized anxiety/panic disorder and know how much it can cripple you. A woman once said to me depression is "just people who feel sorry for themselves." I don't feel sorry for myself at all. After a few bad doctors, I finally found good doctors to help me with it, but I can tell there is no "cure" and no "quick fix," and even they don't have all the answers.

[@sparrow1380]

This rings a major bell for me...this was me all through university topped off with an abusive relationship, I was so not in a good place. Its nice to see someone talk about it. Thank you Cassie, be strong.

[@thriftthick]

+sparrow1380 I'm so sorry to hear that.... I hope you're doing better/getting better. I hope you've been able to get out of that relationship and have allowed yourself to be happy and surrounded by positive/loving people. Thank YOU for sharing as well :)

[@melissanicole2743]

I feel you Cassy. You aren't alone. I'm only 13 and I've been struggling with severe anxiety for most of my life. I've been taking high doses of medication since I was only 4 years old. Also this year I felt depressed whenever I was at school. Eventually I couldn't take it anymore and every morning it felt like I couldn't control my body, and I would start crying hysterically and wouldn't be able to stop. It got to the point where I barely got out of bed for about a month. My mom realized that I wasn't happy in my public school environment and I transferred to online school. I'm feeling better now.. But I still get episodes of depression sometimes where I won't leave the house, and won't really do anything. But I just want you to know that you've always made me smile when I was sad.. And a lot of people look up to you. Your story is touching and it's so great to see how far you've come. Best wishes for you and Galileo, Also I hope you have a great Christmas! xo's -Melissa

[@melissanicole2743]

Also I really wish I could give you a big hug right now!

[@Kim-pz3xr]

Hi Cassie! I'm a fellow Minnesotan, beauty fanatic, and I also suffer from depression/anxiety. I stumbled upon your videos a few weeks ago, and I love your personality, humor, and realness. Thank you for your bravery in making this video. It is comforting to know we're not alone. 😊

[@esdiaz2ed]

I don't even know you but through your videos I feel like I do. You're such a beautiful person inside and out and you're loved by so many! Please stay positive and know that it is POSSIBLE to live with depression with the right treatment and consistent therapy. Love you girl! ❤️

[@st2rg2zer]

Cassie, thank you for making this video. I'm sure it will help a lot of people. I too have had depression and been on medication in the past and it does help as well as therapy. There are so many misconceptions people have about depression and the medication available. Nobody would tell a person with diabetes not to take their medication and snap out of it. Unfortunately, for some of us, those in our families can be our "worst enemies" that way. It's hard but we just have to look at them as "trolls" and try to ignore them. Finding a med that works or even the right therapist can take some trial and error but it's definitely worth it. I think taking the first step is the hardest. Hearing someone else talk about how hard or impossible it can be to do the "simple things" makes one feel that they aren't alone that way and it's something someone who has never experienced it probably can't understand. It's ok to have a "bad" day and cuddle up with Galileo. Sometimes our furbabies can be just what we need.

[@amyleah7971]

Can I just say you're hella beautiful and gorgeous! This video has helped me lots (knowing you're not alone is so comforting!) thank you so much

[@dickout123]

Yeah, she is beautiful and so are you.

[@sabrinah3347]

I have PTSD, chronic depression, OCD, and disassociative disorder. I think much of this has stemmed from both genetics and extensive and extended trauma. My advice is to practice self care, affirmations, talk about it, and don't give yourself such a hard time. I feel like I'm very critical of myself and these things that I, nor no one else can truly control, and I think that's a common theme. Be kind to yourself as if you are a tiny child. We can't maintain constant perfection. I struggle all the time and even now I'm still trying to convince myself that even though I'm very different that doesn't mean I don't deserve love or respect. The same goes to anyone reading this, you deserve to be loved and to be safe and to be respected.

[@Cash4GA]

Great video, Cassie. You are very brave to speak out on this subject. You are helping others...being a voice for those affected and educating those that don't understand it. Just know that you are very loved!! xoxo

[@thriftthick]

+Bless Your Heart (Tambrei) thank you SO much for saying that.... it really means a lot to me

[@emmalapalme9235]

this was honestly sososo helpful for me to watch because its like a weight was lifted for me to know that im not "ridiculous" like some people make me out to be and that you suffer with the same things as me. i'm here for you if you ever need somebody to talk to❤️❤️and im extremely proud of you!!

[@reentee]

I guess more than anything I'm just afraid to seek help and then be told that there is nothing "wrong" with me. I don't know what the follow up step would be in that situation.

[@megansimonson]

+Marina Toth You keep trying. I first told my school counselor when I was in grade 10 and he brushed it off as teenaged angst. I also tried telling my doctor and she only asked "Do you sleep through the night?" and I said yes, but that shouldn't be the only thing she's asking... and so she also didn't listen. It took until I was planning for suicide in grade 12 that anyone took me seriously. I wasn't even sure what was wrong until I saw a psychiatrist. See someone else, talk to someone else. Make sure that even it is isn't depression they can maybe explain what it is that you're experiencing. I hope this helps.

[@alexisduncan2240]

Thank you so much for making this. I was recently diagnosed with depression and GAD and it's so comforting knowing that other people deal with this and that I am not alone. I wholly relate to knowing that I have little reason to be sad but can't help feeling any other way. That is something that I've struggled so much with because I've felt like I should be able to just stop being sad and appreciate everything I have and I'm working on accepting the fact that it isn't my fault. Because of my depression my grades have suffered (I'm a biology major) and I hid that from everyone, for an entire semester I would leave my house and act like I was going to class and would just find a parking lot to sit in and cry. Therapy has been such a huge help and I'm thankful for my therapist and my family and friends who have supported me through everything. I'm also grateful for people like you who bring light to an issue that is so often swept under the rug ❤️ wishing you nothing but the best

[@AylaASMR]

Thank you, Cassie, for sharing your story. You should be incredibly proud of how far you've come. I know first hand how debilitating this disease can be. I've been home for the last couple of years and I've truly found out who my real friends are. Some people just think "are you done being sick now?!". That annoys the freaking frick out of me haha. But starting my youtube channel has definitely helped that :). I make a little bit of money from it, which makes me feel good! I love watching your videos and I hope you reach the 50K mark soon! Have you ever heard of ASMR btw? A lot of people watch ASMR videos to calm them down. Be it during a panic attack or to just help them sleep :). KEEP BEING AWESOME!

[@AylaASMR]

+Ayla ASMR Plus that the people with depression/anxiety are usually the most creative :). So see the upside of it!

[@dopehat868]

Agreed, ASMR is awesome - such a great help for anxiety & insomnia :)

[@amandas2855]

+Ayla ASMR ugh I didn't get the creative part, when depression is affecting me really strongly I just lay in bed and only get up to eat. I play lots of music and lots of instruments but really music is like math, the equation is laid out for you, it's all math! I do love math but it's not creative :(

[@AylaASMR]

Amanda Mortara I mean, when you are doing a little better. And being creative isn't limited to just music and arts!

[@lorenarich7732]

This made me cry. Hearing someone else talking about the issues you feel that are only yours is so helpful. Thanks

[@ashleyn1988]

My counselor told me I'm showing signs of major depression. Trying to explain to your friends that you have absolutely no interest in being around them is....... haarrdd.. If I could hug you I would!

[@rachelchunn7629]

I have no words. It concerns me that someone so beautiful and talented can ever feel this way. I just feel so bad, you do not deserve that! at the end of the day, everyone has problems. That doesn't make us less of a person. keep your head up baby girl!

[@RianPhin]

so glad you said what you said about hiding it and how hard it is to get help..

[@PinkSpydr2]

I have depression/anxiety as well. I just finished my Masters in Counseling Psychology, and still struggle frequently with these issues. I've struggled since high school. I ended up dropping out of high school, using drugs, and spending many years living homeless. Luckily I was able to pull my life back out of the gutter and get a GED and college degrees. Yet, the feelings seem omnipresent. I guess I am mentioning this because I wanted to let you know that I completely understand. I understand your pain. For me, the anger and guilt for feeling like shit, made it even worse. You are so brave. You deserve to be happy. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@ShawnaHill83]

I just subscribed, I started watching your review on Maybelline velvet foundation and loved your personality! your so down to earth and sweet!

[@cottontolly8278]

Very brave. I have anxiety and panic disorder and it's very hard to talk about and even harder for a lot of people to understand. Good job girl

[@raniat4343]

I applaud you for putting this out there! I know it wasn't easy but you will help so many others by doing so. I feel we are spirt sisters... I have a major love for cats (crazy cat lady in the making) thrift stores and photography (yours maybe more videography but still counts) 😘😘😋😸

[@raniat4343]

***Spirit not sprit gzzzz

[@StinkyButton]

The more people talk about mental illness, the more it will be unstigmatized. Thank you for your candor. It's never easy to talk about, which is part of the problem. Your bravery may inspire another to talk about their illness.

[@TheRealEvvonne]

Who disliked this video? Smh. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@amandaelaine2805]

I was thinking the same thing. Some cold heartless people out there who only care about themselves. Very sad

[@thelipstickfiend2802]

I feel like crying when you started talking. Many people don't realise it's a real thing and not "it's all just in your head". I still don't know if i have a mental illness because i'm part afraid of the worst, stressing bout everything. This past month is just a roller coaster of emotion (stress, school,thesis, professor, future, family). I feel like panicking and crying even if i'm just sitting here doing nothing.

[@crystalfumes4915]

Ok so this is going to sound weird and maybe even creepy but you are very beautiful when you cry here I said it

[@thriftthick]

+Elisa Gautimbert hahahah well thank you Elisa!! I appreciate that because I feel like a very ugly crier XD

[@ashleyn1988]

Lol I agree with you. There.... I said it too

[@eitak6452]

Well done Cassie for making this video. You are helping people more than you will ever know. It helps just to know that there are a lot of people out there who feel the same way. Big hug from me to you xx

[@cheyanneevans3905]

I know I have severe anxiety and depression but I'm so afraid to go to a doctor about it. I was so afraid to even be close to people because I would have to explain it if I had a panic attack. What would you say to someone who doesn't want to be put on heavy medication or even can't afford the therapy? I've been struggling for a few years with this.

[@thriftthick]

+Cheyanne Evans Ohhhhh Cheyanne... please go see someone. I know how daunting and awful and terrifying it is. Really, I do. But even just going and telling your doctor or going to a therapist... they're there to help and not judge you or make you do anything. Just because you're diagnosed with these things doesn't mean they're going to force you to take any drugs (I think the only time is if you're severely suicidal). They might suggest it but you don't have to do or take anything you don't want to. If you still don't want to talk to a professional yet just try opening up to a parent, friend, or someone you really trust. It'll feel SO GOOD once you open up about it, I promise. It's hard but it feels good to let it all out. We're all here for you and want you to be happy

[@cheyanneevans3905]

Thank you so much Cassie. Oh my goodness. This video is here at such a good time in my life. I'm needing this push but I have that same mentality like "I can do this all by myself" but its just getting to hard. Thank you thank you thank you so much. Your videos no matter what they are always help me :)

[@thriftthick]

Cheyanne Evans this.... this is making me cry hahah. I'm SO HAPPY to know that you hearing my story through this video came at the right time and that it could be even the slightest bit helpful to you. I so completely and wholeheartedly understand that wanting-to-do-it-by-myself-or-else-I'm-weak thing. It's what prevented me from getting help for as long as I did too. Really, just know that you are so far from being weak/incapable of getting better... even if you do go and talk to someone or start taking meds or whatever that still means that YOU'RE doing it, YOU'RE getting better, YOU'RE getting through it. You're strong enough and you're capable enough and you're worth it!!

[@cheyanneevans3905]

+Thrift Thick (Cassie) Ha! I made YOU cry? Cassie you don't know how much what you say means to so many people. I'm so thankful I found you channel a few months ago because I wanted to by some lipstick and you gave me my answer then and are certainly helping now. I also understand picking as touchy of a subject that is you do not have to make a video about that anytime soon if you aren't comfortable. I pick my scalp and its embarrassing I can't even go get my hair cut without it coming up. I understand so much. its such hard thing to quit. I love you and send good thoughts and wishes your way. I wish to really meet you someday and give you a big hug. You are by far my most favorite KZbinr and I watch a lot. I love you and wish you the best!!!!! 😊

[@thriftthick]

Cheyanne Evans thank you Cheyanne.... truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you

[@carolgoldman1275]

You are a beautiful and brave young woman (as are the other young women I see opening up in response to your openness). I grew up in Minneapolis and I found it a difficult place to be 'different' - there was pressure to conform and an attitude of 'keep it to yourself'. I hope that has changed and you are finding the support you need. We, your groupies, are clearly prepared to stuff your mailbox with hugs.

[@carriedensford4666]

You're so smart and beautiful! Thanks for sharing Cassie!💖

[@jessica23claire]

I've had periods of depression in the past, but my main struggle is generalised anxiety disorder, and panic attacks. The more I talk to my family about it, the more I'm realising how much they understand what I'm going through. This and hearing people like you talk about mental illness makes me feel less alone in how I'm feeling.

[@sarcastically_me285]

Thank you for putting this up. ❤️

[@EmilyRayneArtistry]

Thank you so much for making this video. I've had severe anxiety and a panic disorder since I was 15 but didn't get diagnosed until I was 17 in my senior year of high school. My high school was literal hell and I missed alot of school but luckily I had a principal who helped me graduate. This video was refreshing because I dont think people understand anxiety and depression. I used to get panic attacks at school and people would tell me to just calm down and that was so frustrating because I physically couldnt stop. It's refreshing to see someone on youtube say hey this is a stigma, I have this and you could to. It's nice because there are people that look up to you, me included and to have someone that I can relate to in that way is so nice. Thank you Cassie.

[@thatgirlnik7972]

I have anxiety and panic attacks. I learned that mine is food related. Soy sets off both of those things and soy is in so many thing we eat

[@constantconnie]

Interesting that you say this. I've had a sneaking suspicion of this for a while ! I had an attack in the movies after going for Chinese food and ever since then I noticed the connection with soy ! I eat tofu a lot too. Thanks for sharing this!

[@thatgirlnik7972]

+Michelle aka constantconnie it took me years to figure it out. I also have hypothyroidism the two, for me anyway, are connected.

[@constantconnie]

+NoahNikCastiel J. Oh wow. Yes. I had a temporary thyroid problem !! I was shocked to find out thyroid problems can right themselves but it did according to two Drs. (Although it doesn't feel that way.)

[@thatgirlnik7972]

+Michelle aka constantconnie I thought that thyroid issues were not curable. my understanding is you can balance them out without mess but it is something that doesn't go away

[@thatgirlnik7972]

+Michelle aka constantconnie without meds*

[@Frankly.Lily95]

You have hit the nail on the head. I cant begin to explain how grateful i am that you uploaded this video. This is going to help people get help and help others suffering with such a shitty difficult disorder. So thank you Cassie.

[@BooThing14]

I'm sorry you've suffered so much and do still...you're beautiful and you need Jesus Christ, He is peace of mind. I'm glad your doing better :)

[@dah8529]

So true.... Jesus is my rock!❤

[@BooThing14]

+Darcy Young I meant to say need. if you don't agree that's fine, if she doesn't agree that's fine too. to censor every comment down to every word is not right.I said what meant..

[@darcyyoung4158]

+Timeflies okay, I was just replying with my thoughts.

[@dah8529]

+smokingcaramels you're just disgusting and there is no reason to spend my words on such miserable human being like you. You started to spread hate, and I hope that Cassie will recognize that and delete your comments. I just cannot believe how people can be rude without no reason. NO REASON honey!

[@Lithostoic]

Atheists like y'all make the rest of us look like assholes. I see nothing wrong with Timeflies' comment. She was being very polite and even suggested advice. Just because you don't believe in God doesn't mean other people are the same (btw you can't prove Jesus wasn't a real person). Timeflies, keep doing what you're doing. Religion IS helpful for a lot of people and there's nothing wrong with suggesting it as a method of feeling better.

[@eyeshadowsanonymous]

I know making this video and sharing it wasn't easy, thank you for being willing to share. This video was so important for those battling the same things, and for others to be aware. When I was in college and battling depression some KZbin people I watched consistently were my "friends" that helped me not feel so alone. I'm sure there are others that you are helping in the same way now as well. 💜

[@XanimesecretsX]

Thank you so much Cassie for sharing your story with us and doing it so well so that others might understand. I have been dealing with clinical depression and anxiety since I was a preteen. I didn't get help until I was an adult because I was brought up to believe if I just prayed and believed hard enough I would overcome it. I also didn't want to accept the label of "mental illness". Realizing it wasn't my fault, that I needed help, and it was ok to seek that help was so hard, but it saved my life and gave me hope. Sometimes it gets hard to keep soldiering on for so long, but then I come across people like you and I remember I'm not alone. I'm crying reading these other comments from people like me and it's amazing and helps so much - especially this time of year which is hard on many of us. You are so right that getting help does HELP and things can get better! Love ya girl

[@lyndsaylarue8480]

cassie, I've struggled with anxiety, panic, and depression for 20 years. I love you for your strength to come forward and share. you help so many people by doing this. I've followed you from the beginning and will always be in your corner!

[@herrorouge]

I too have panic disorder. It's so important to talk and talk and talk about mental health. And then talk some more. It's the only way to end the stigma. Thank you for your bravery. You're far from alone even though depression and anxiety sometimes may make you feel that you are :)

[@ys1876]

You are so right, Anxiety is terrible but panic is unbearable. The feeling that you think you are dying while having every negative thought flooding your brain at the same time is so terrible, so draining, so scary etc.. Wishing you peaceful, happy thoughts ❤️

[@ayyrika]

I would like to let you know that this is spot on. You did an amazing job describing anxiety and depression as well as helping people understand. You perfectly put words to how I've felt for years. I ask everyone going through this PLEASE get help.

[@marinac9597]

I'm so happy that you mentioned how hard depression can be to deal with when you think about how fortunate you are. I struggled with depression for MANY years before I ever went to therapy because of how I felt that I was taking everything I had for granted and the guilt that came along with those emotions. I'm approaching graduation from university soon, and finally admitted to my mom that I'm still dealing with anxiety; I've been avoiding making the call to find a new therapist where I'm living now. I needed this today. Thank you so much for this, Cassie. xo

[@stephaniefaccaro537]

Thank you so much for making this video. I have struggled with major depression, anxiety, and panic disorder for most of my life and finally got help 2 years ago. Everyone should hear a message like this and maybe the stigma will end.

[@jaedam16]

Oh goodness. I just want to hug you. This has been, and continues to be, a huge part of my life. I just wish I could take you for tea and squeeze you and tell you that we will all be ok. Thank you for sharing your life with us. From all the silly makeup things, to the deeper and serious things. You rock girl.

[@jimtami1]

Thank you for talking about this. I struggle with the same things (except the skin thing, thank goodness). My husband wanted me to "just be happy with what I have." I am on medication and therapy. I feel much better. Having people like you talk about it will help at least one person. Thank you again. You're the best. Tami

[@thriftthick]

+Jim Knox I'm so happy to know that you're getting the help you need Tami.... that's wonderful!! Makes it easier for me to keep this type of video for the world to see when you say such kind things; speaking about these things is so hard but it really is for the better and I'm glad to do that... thank you :)

[@MadamMoxy]

thank you so much for sharing this, cassie. it's so important people talk about this, and i think it's amazing and brave of you to do it. i have clinical depression with bouts of social anxiety/panic (don't get me started on picking up phone calls and people on the bus looking my way), but no one apart from my closest family members knows about it. i feel like they would treat me differently if they knew, so i never share this. you're one in a million, so humble and insightful and beautiful inside-out, i am so, so happy you exist.

[@ladycomatose5158]

I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder during my second year of college. It was easily one of the toughest years of my life. I lost my friends, I failed all of my classes, I couldn't concentrate on anything, I starved myself and basically locked myself up in my room. For a while, my dad refused to believe that i have chemical imbalance in my brain and even told me that maybe it's just a phase. He wouldn't look at me whenever I was having an episode and it hurt. Fortunately, one day he decided to learn about my condition and our relationship got better. He still struggles sometimes but it's a start. People I love did reach their limits and began to tell me that maybe I should get myself a boyfriend (as if getting one would eventually heal me). That's not ok. It made me feel even worthless. To this very day I still hate the media for romanticizing any kind of illness. I wish there was a platform where everyone can learn about mental illness so they don't give out "remedies" blindly. L I guess what we need to have is compassion. Thank you for this video, Cassie.

[@darcyyoung4158]

Cassie, I'm so glad you're addressing this issue. It's hard for me to even talk to my friends about it, let alone think of putting it on KZbin! My bi-polar disorder and depression sometimes gets the best of me and getting out of that mindset can be so difficult. Love ya, girl.

[@FaerieSkye]

I honestly have been dealing with extreme depression and anxiety my entire life and one of the reasons I'm so drawn to you as a person because I can relate. My mental health has been really bad more recently with so many things going on and thank you for continuing to upload frequently, to me you feel like a friend that I can turn to and distract my mind for at least a small amount of my day

[@karenhekman]

So many comments shows you that you are not alone. I've been there, relapsed, self medicated and doing it all over again this week. It is a part of you. Your video will help people. It helps me just being reminded that I'm not the only one. Love you!

[@ImSoMonster]

I was watching through your videos and stumbled across this one. This video meant alot to me. I've struggled with depression, anxiety, & insomnia for 10-11 years without any help and only realized about 6 years ago that what I felt for all those years was depression, anxiety, and insomnia. The biggest contributer for me unfortunately is my family. constantly being put down and being treated as less really created the issues I struggle with to this day. Everyday it becomes more and more debilitating for me. I've just recently started exploring options for help and so far the first try hasn't helped at all. This video really hit close to home because depression really does hold a place in a huge part of my life and I just want to say thank you for making this video. Mental illnesses do need to be talked about and I'm glad you did and also, yours is probably one of the most relatable stories to my own. again. Thank you for the video. It gave me some comfort to be reminded I'm not alone and I know it did the same for many other people as well.

[@Sophmorical]

Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable Cassie. I definitely went through a depressive episode where I was self-medicating with alcohol in a really unhealthy way and needed to talk to a professional. Just reaching out of help and realizing it's ok not to be perfect and strong is such an important step.

[@SassySweetheart013]

Thank you for your story and addressing this with all of those that you touch daily, Cassie. Too often we lose individuals to these disorders, when they could be helped with therapy, coping skills, and medications. The stigma is too great and using your channel to reach out to others warms my heart. I have generalized anxiety disorder, with occasional panic. I went to college to help others (social work major) and now work for a mental health organization. My next step is my master's, so that I can become a therapist. We all have a duty to those around us to educate and empower! Thank you for all that you are and all that you do! You're beautiful inside and out!

[@chrysalistnp]

I had wondered about your backstory and personal experiences so I took the time to watch your personal videos. Again, I salute you for taking the bull by the horns and speaking plainly about issues that are often stigmatized. Learning about you just moves you up in my esteem. Living with hidden disorders is a challenge. I can't thank you enough for talking about scary topics.

[@Catie_Joy]

Sending love and good thoughts. I'm right there with you-luckily I don't suffer from panic attacks, but I do struggle daily with anxiety and depression, as well as dermatillomania. I don't even realize I'm picking most of the time, but sometimes I can lose hours in what feels like a trance scratching at my nose or my upper arms. It's been going on since I was ~11 (I'm 26 now!), but I didn't know the name for it until I was 21-being able to name an issue you're dealing with really makes a difference, I think, since it confirms that it's REAL and makes it more comprehensible. You did a wonderful job with this video. Thank you for your bravery!

[@charzipuddin6129]

I, too, suffer from the same conditions, including full-blown OCD. My symptoms (anxiety, OCD, etc) started when I was just 6 years old, I had my first nervous breakdown in 1988 at 19, and now going on 47(!!!) I'm hanging on as best I can, everyday is still a struggle even with meds, though there are better days and worse days, like anything. There's a whole lot more help now than even in the '80s (nothing in the '70s, especially for kids, ugh), and I'm SO glad you're so darn brave to post this. Thank you! I don't know you outside KZbin, but I love you💐💝

[@amandas2855]

I'm so glad someone else has what I have, clinical/medical depression. Like you, my life is great I have a home, food, wonderful parents, good friends, school isn't hard, etc. but I still have depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I hear so many situational depression stories but not clinical. I got it from my mom and her parents, it will never go away. Situational depression is bad but eventually you move on and even if you're still sad, you won't be pulled down by depression your whole life like we will.

[@puddingofdarkness]

Thank you for making this video, you're very brave for talking about it. I've had a lot of similar feelings while I've been in college, mostly related to trauma with an abusive ex-boyfriend. It got so bad my sophomore year, I had issues with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, bits of PTSD, and also dermatillomania on my face, but several friends helped me get into counseling and that's made a huge difference. I'm a senior now, with a bunch of friends who understand and support me, but it's been really hard just getting back to a place where I feel okay about myself. So again, thanks so much for making this.

[@coffeecatstele]

I just wanted to thank you for this video, it made me cry. It's so easy to see your loved ones around you happy and feel ashamed that you don't feel the same way. So thank you for putting this up to let others know that they aren't alone

[@alexysgribble5001]

Cassie, I've been subscribed for a couple months now and am watching your videos in order, so I'm just now getting to this one. I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for being so open and real about your mental illness. I've struggled with depression and self harm for almost 10 years. I stopped self harming about 5 years ago, but the thought still crosses my mind. I'm 22. I was on anti-depressants when I was a sophomore in high school and was so against the thought of being medicated. I eventually faked it well enough I no longer had to take them or see a therapist. Now that I'm grown and trying to live life, and we all know how stressful that alone is, I've been seeing how bad my depression/anxiety is. It's affecting my relationship and my life in general. I've had months where I swear I'm non-existent and have no control over my own body, like I'm just a shell going through the motions. I hate feeling so glazed over and foggy. My significant other has noticed over the past three years and has mentioned things, but I've been in denial and didn't want to be "that girl with depression/anxiety". I turned to drugs and drinking to try to self medicate and it took me down a dark path. I'm thankful I've pulled away from that lifestyle, but I know I still need help. I know the chances of you reading this are incredibly slim as you're busy and this video is older, but I just wanted to express my sincere gratitude to you. This channel and you have been a breath of fresh air. I think you're a wonderful human being and I look forward to getting to watch your videos! Thank you so much for giving me the push I needed to make an appointment with my PCP to discuss my mental health. Sorry for such a long comment, but I felt it was all worth saying. Xoxo.

[@franciscalopez758]

I have OCD, Depression, Insomnia, & Anxiety. You're absolutely right having mental disorders shouldn't be looked at as having a stigma. You are an amazing person and I admire your courage to share this part of yourself with us

[@nadynemotherofcatz]

Thank you for making this video. I have suffered from depression my entire life, I'm 34. Every day is a struggle. I just wish anyone suffering would know that you are not alone, what you are feeling is valid and there is help out there.

[@laurap5412]

I'm currently working towards my doctorate in Clinical Psychology. Thank you, Cassie for putting this out there. There are so many societal influences which act to pathologize mental health concerns when honestly the vasttt majority of people will experience a mental health concern within their lifetime. It is not pathological to struggle with mental health whatsoever and is by definition the norm. You're absolutely not alone and I'm glad you put this video out there to remind others of that. I hope you continue to find support from those around you :)

[@annidee]

In high school I started getting in trouble and when I saw a therapist was diagnosed with depression. I was the little kid hiding under the bed during birthday parties crying. Chronic lifetime depression sucks, but I urge anyone with problems to get help. You don't need to live with this crippling illness and medication and therapy can help. Mine is under control with no conventional medication and for that I am so thankful. Depression can come with social anxiety, panic attacks and many other things. Thanks Cassie for being brave enough to talk about this! ❤️❤️❤️

[@MallePoulsen]

I'm so glad you opened up about this, Cassie. We need to fight the stigma that mental health is shush shush. I've openly talked about my mental health issues for a while and there's hope. It's a part of some people's lives, let's fight the taboo!!! And you're so right, once you have depression, things tend to just add on. I'm depressed with panic disorder, social anxiety, OCd tendencies and paranoria. Like thanks brain, just add on the crap?!!?! I'm okay though, better then I've been for years. I finally started education again after 3 years of not being able to do anything but keeping myself alive. Go me!!!! You're so strong, Cassie. I have so much respect for you xx

[@CatLizWheel]

I am so right there with you. You are so brave and you did so well describing how it feels. I wouldn't wish this hell on anyone. God bless you, Cassie! You are stronger and more loved than you know!

[@jess.sch1998]

Cassie, Thank you so much for sharing this video. I have struggled/struggle with severe depression, anxiety, panic disorder, and psychosis. Even though it may get repetitive, as I say this a lot in your comment sections, you never fail to put a smile on my face, and it really means a lot to me that you would make this video because I know how hard it can be to share your story. I guess I'll share a tiny bit of my story, if that's okay? I've struggled with depression from a very young age, but it started getting really bad when I was around 12. During my freshman year of high school, my anxiety got pretty bad, so I started talking to a professional. I ended up being hospitalized twice, once for a suicide attempt, once for psychosis, where I did receive the help I needed and was really able to begin recovering. Anyway, my main point is that, even though taking the steps to get help are potentially one of the hardest decisions you can make, chances are that it can pay off extensively. Also, we are all human; therefore, recovery is never a straight shot, and one thing that I've learned is you shouldn't beat yourself up over relapses. Lastly, Cassie, I wanted to thank you again because I recently had another relapse, about a month or two ago- a suicide attempt that could have cost me my life, and your videos helped to serve as a "pick-me-up" on some of my worst days. Thank you for your bravery and kindness Cassie, huge hugs and love to you!

[@EmilieBee]

Cassie, when you said you get anxious that you'd pass someone on the street and not say hi by accident and they'd get mad totally hit the nail on the head for me, as well as the thing with the store. I find it hard to fathom that people don't go through these feelings and constant fear of looking dumb or that people will think you meant something you didn't. Just last night I was lying awake hating myself for acting a certain way in front of a new friend even though rationally I know they probably didn't mind and had fun, I can't help but think the worst. I don't like to see you sad, but this video made me feel like I wasn't alone, especially during a rough weekend with anxiety, it made me cry! Thank you for speaking up, I'm giving you a virtual hug right now!

[@stephaniegutierrez6997]

Thank you so much for this video Cassie. I myself struggle with depression and anxiety. I've been on and off medications and have gone to therapy for help. I accepted my condition early on unfortunately my family and friends didnt. I lost a few friends because they couldn't understand what I was going through they just thought I didn't want to hang out with them anymore. When that wasn't even the case. They would make comments to me like just get over it everyone has good days and bad days. To just suck it up. It's not just that simple to do. Everyday is a struggle. It made me happy to view this video. I'm reminded I'm not alone. I appreciate you Cassie!

[@TracyD2]

Girl I understand you. Life today is much more complicated and more difficult. So that definitely doesn't help. My son also struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts. It's a struggle. It might sound a little crazy but I found meditation helps significantly. I don't know. What is there to lose if you or someone try's. May God grant you peace and serenity. Also to everyone else who is reading this that suffers.

[@amysandefur8356]

I want to hug you, Cassie! This was so beautiful and brave and I hope you know that you are helping people by sharing your story. You're right that SO many people struggle with depression/anxiety at least once in their lives (if not chronically) -- we should all be talking about it more. As a person who has struggled with dysthymia and anxiety disorder for 13 years, I can say that the best thing I ever did for myself was to go talk to someone. No one has to be alone. There are ALWAYS ears and hearts who want to listen.

[@heather-linbrannon8352]

I'm so glad you made this video! You're right that is a shame it's not more frequently discussed. I have suffered from depression, generalized anxiety disorder, PTSD from a very young age... and despite being very interested in psychology and sociology, I NEVER realized that how I'd always felt wasn't normal/healthy. Because mental illness was my normal. I'd learned how to cope, to cover, to compensate so well that nobody could tell. I was lucky in that I finally decided to be brave and ask my doctor for help with my panic attacks... and it all came poring out. AND I GOT HELP. I wonder how many others or there are suffering to the point they don't even know that there is help available. So yeah, talking about it HELPS others. I'm passionate about being transparent about my journey towards wellness. I'm so proud of all you who are brave enough to share too!

[@ybkgirll53]

It is so important that you made this video. People really do sit around suffering from depression, anxiety, and other mental illnesses thinking they are so alone and so "weird" and that people would not be supportive if they talked about it when that just is not true. I was involved with a mental health organization on my college campus and we were trying to get some kind of petition signed and person after person after person of all different genders and races and backgrounds would come up and say "Oh I have dealt with (insert mental illness here) or "oh I know someone who deals with this this is so important." It was really eye opening, all people needed was someone to start the conversation, and you have done that here for your viewers.

[@janettaimes6142]

I have depression brought on from postpartum depression along with panic attacks. You are so brave for doing this and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart.

[@Kparso01]

The panic and anxiety totally resonated with me... panic attacks are so horrible to deal with and make you feel literally like a psycho afterwards, constantly saying sorry to whoever has to see you go thru it. My husband and I both have had panic attacks together (at different times) and the only thing that helped is to breathe deep and to be literally pulled from the ball you've tightly wound yourself up in. My sister is bipolar so it's a bit different. And a little scarier watching her go through things. PTSD is a very common reason behind these things. I love your videos Cassie and I really hope you know how much you're changing people's lives right now by posting this video!! I know, the pressure of being a super hero(; but seriously.... you have lots of power with these views and you're using it in the most selfless and beautiful way. Xoxo much love and inner peace to you.

[@zoeterry13]

Thank you so much Cassie for sharing this. I too have suffered from depression in the past and I agree that it should be talked about more, and the stigma dropped. It is so common and many people don't end up getting help because they're too afraid of what people might think. You truly are making a difference by sharing your personal experience and talking about mental illness openly. You are so loved girl! Never forget that:) xo