Derek's Story: Finding Forgiveness After Four Abortions

[@KathyLouvin]

Derek I am 66 years old and am suffering from the pain of past abortions. Your testimony is one I will listen to over and over. 😢 Thank you from my whole heart 🙏

[@Riahbiah575]

I’ve had 3 abortions that could have been completely avoided had I been more careful. All of them were conceived due to carelessness and lust. I’ve prayed and ask God for forgiveness. I know I’ll never have another one if I am blessed to conceive again.

[@ourdailybread]

Praise God for His forgiveness through Jesus!

[@erindianacathey96]

I’ve lost the same. 3 children and I cannot live with myself

[@thecrysrhoshow2078]

I had an abortion twice and it had left me at times feeling unforgivable and disgusted with myself I had become pregnant in 2013 I gave birth to twins and I got pregnant twice after them. That’s when I had the two abortions I thank Yah for his mercy and grace that had helped me forgive myself for the wicked mistakes I made. I thank you Father for your grace

[@stedmans4christ]

Most couples who have even one abortion, almost never stay together, so I'm really glad they were able to stay together at least. This is an amazing testimony because it's usually when people start having children that they realize exactly what they did in the past with abortion. I hope the next generation won't be cursed with a life time of pain from the "choice" of abortion forced upon us from the government.

[@DiDi-jc2vd]

@@wifeoftheparty9839 Awe sweetheart, I know times are tough but it is in these storms that He carries us if we just trust and surrender it all to Him. Know that He is the one who will provide for your family... "The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing...". I had an abortion 12 years ago - the pain, self-hate, guilt and shame ate at me for 9 years until I found the love of the Father. I felt dead within for all those years. Pls just talk to Him and pray and you'll see Him work miracles in your situation. May God bless you and your family, keeping you in my prayers

[@lwinston5950]

I aborted twins last year 😭 and I’m absolutely disgusted with myself . I know God has forgiven me but I’m having a really hard time forgiving myself. If I could change anything it would be the day I walked into the abortion clinic. If you are reading this and you are considering it please don’t do it

[@ourdailybread]

Praying for you L Winston! I pray this free resource brings comfort and helps you forgive. discoveryseries.org/courses/when-the-pain-wont-go-away/

[@yomie7026]

Hello there. Just thought I would check on you. How have you been?

[@bigrigchristfollower9020]

I wanted to share my mother is 62 and she went through an abortion and it still hurts her every day sometimes but can I share there is a guy on KZbin his name is Vlad and he has a KZbin video talking about Open Doors but don't beat yourself up enemy wants us to do that the God has already forgiven us but a lot of people don't realize we still have open doors from that and we need to be delivered from that sometimes so that he cannot keep on trying to attack so I pray God gives you peace and helps you to find what you need and give you peace he knows we're going to go through things a lot and we make mistakes but don't let the enemy keep destroying you with your thoughts the truth will set you free so look into it more and I pray God gives you peace and restore in Jesus name🙏🏼❤️

[@Sussana13]

@@bigrigchristfollower9020I did it too.And I’m very guilty about it.regret it everyday

[@shivanimalik6739]

​@@Sussana13if it was your compulsion then it wasn't your fault Sometimes circumstances drag you to such situations where you have to be cold hearted

[@angiepeace4830]

This story is never shared but so many carry this burden...

[@ourdailybread]

💖💛

[@annabanna1873]

Yes we do.

[@DennieswehyeeDarrow-xz2kj]

Yes you right very heavy burden 😂😂

[@dimakatsokhunyedi9931]

I’ve also had abortion 4 times and definitely not proud of it at that time the devil made it seem like it was the best decisions to make and now his trying to condemn me for it but 1 thing I Thank the LORD for is for his forgiveness and grace

[@ourdailybread]

🙌✝

[@leahsanchez8422]

Thank you, I've struggled with this question for 20 years now.

[@gabycov3105]

Hey Tiffany, ... have you gone trough an abortion? .. i have and now i dont wanna live anymore

[@michellemothibedi1589]

I did...and you know what...God forgives...And washes you clean and gives you redemption.So seek Him...He is where you will find rest.

[@kimberlygreen9070]

I have 3 times and I have found Jesus Christ and I know I am forgiving but the pain will never go away, if you have a heart at all this is the hardest thing to accept Gods forgiveness for. But please don't end your life you have a testimony that God will use and there are so many men and women who never speak to other about there pain and hurt of abortion and they never heal. I hope this helps and I'm here to share my testimony anytime and God can bring healing and comfort

[@arxaggelosmixail1840]

Leah read my reply above. It might help you.

[@THAMASHUNIT]

Hey Gabri. We know how it feels to be desperate and to live with shame.We want you to know that God's love and forgiveness towards us can heal and restore. -Derek & Teresa Taylor

[@arxaggelosmixail1840]

Brother. I feel you. I know what it is like. Let me tell you something. God is great. Paul was an example for people like us. Before he was an Apostle he was an accuser and brought Christians to be killed. He was in fact a murderer. God made him the greatest Apostle of all. Paul had to live with what he did his whole life, as we do. Paul called these things the "thorn in his side" and when he asked God to remove this, God rejected him, saying " My Grace is sufficient for thee" (Corinthians 12:9)............and I think we who are in this situation must use the evil which we allowed, to actually use this like Paul did. It made him grounded and it made him not exault himself. We cannot change what we did but we can learn from it and use the negative for a positive. This is God's way. Ask forgiveness and morn this sin as a repentence. God is great. God forgives. If he can forgive Paul he can and WILL forgive us. God be with you brother.

[@mistataylor97]

Indeed Sir!!!

[@brianportelli769]

it's amazing how evil people always find god in a supernatural way and the good once die like animals like the aborted people .yes god is just amazing an amazing mystery .dear lord have mercy of me but l saw too many evil these evil world is just disgusting and always the poor the weak that pay the price .why dear god why ?

[@katrinaclarke157]

Amen ❤🇦🇺

[@brendaann727]

David is another example. Remember he hired someone to kill Bathsheba's husband so he could marry her. So he had to live with that the rest of his life too. But God still used him. he gives us the chance to get back on the right path...

[@brendaann727]

@@brianportelli769 -Because man invited sin into the world. Everyone & everything is suffering because of it. But one day it will all pass away & there will be no more sin or curse. God will make all things new. I for one am really looking forward to that!

[@JEBBY123IFY]

Oh dear lord! I'm sobbing so hard! I had more than one and I'm sick and dying alone and I'm so sad and broken! I need FORGIVENESS from God and I love my two kids I have bit they don't talk to me and I am so sick and scared...thank you for sharing this and giving me hope he will forgive me! I was a single mom and a nurse so I hope I did at least some things right🕊️🙏 dear God forgive me for my sins!

[@suzannelagasse3048]

❤

[@estef8932]

Romans 10:9 "that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved." The LORD loves you my dear! Jesus will not despise a broken and humbled heart. May you receive His peace, healing and Salvation in the Name of Jesus! ❤🙏

[@heatherd964]

Please help me heal from going thru the same horrible mistake..it's been almost 10 years and it haunts me daily

[@kiariediana9749]

Listen to kat kerr on abortions

[@DiDi-jc2vd]

Hi Heather, I am so very sorry for your pain. I had an abortion 12 yrs ago and lived with self-hate, guilt, shame, condemnation, and a feeling of deadness inside (for about 9 yrs). I know your pain.... Pls know that God loves you and forgives you.. you are precious to Him, you are His child. My healing journey led me to a path of love and forgiveness of myself, as I learned to to be gentle and kind to myself (not judging), I learned to love others... As I learned to love others, I found the love and forgiveness of Jesus and then to the love of the Father. His love gave me new life, and restored the joy and peace in my life. I didn't even believe in Jesus - I learned the moment we give into things like hate, unforgiveness, shame, guilt, condemnation, pride, selfishness etc, we separate ourselves from God. His love and grace abounds us each and every day, but many times we get caught up in our emotions and situations, that we fail to see His goodness and blessings in every moment. Love is not an attribute of God, love is the very essence of who He is. Choose love over fear. Talk to Jesus/God, pray to Him, ask for His forgiveness, and you will see how He begins to work in your life. "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just, and will forgive our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness". God is faithful in His love and promises... He is the same yesterday and today. Many blessings to you sister

[@DiDi-jc2vd]

13 This is how we know that we live in Him and He in us: He has given us of his Spirit. 14 And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent His Son to be the Savior of the world. 15 If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in them and they in God.16 And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.17 This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus.18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. God is in you! Choose Jesus, choose love and He will manifest Himself to you

[@jazzthadhu]

@@DiDi-jc2vd God loves you

[@Don-fr2mr]

My little Angel in heaven. I’m so sorry … words cannot describe… please forgive me little one and please forgive me dear lord. I wish me and her can undo our decision. You could’ve become anything you wanted. We took that away from you little one. Forgive us dear lord

[@ourdailybread]

💜💜

[@jv-sc1fs]

I understand you dont think you will regret your decision i had 4 also god forgive us. God bless

[@ourdailybread]

❤✝🛐

[@brendaann727]

If you asked forgiveness, he has forgiven you & cast it into the sea of forgetfulness, never to bring it up again.... And you will see your precious children one day! It will be such a happy day for you all!!

[@ΔημητραΒακου-ν2ζ]

@@brendaann727 she will burn in hell soon 😡

[@Greencloud8]

Nice to hear a man's point of view

[@ourdailybread]

We are encouraged to know it was a blessing to you!😊👍

[@annecaru9208]

GOD BLESS . THANK YOU FOR SHARING. PAIN IS A PAIN I KNOW

[@mjbuccima]

Thank you!!! GOD BLESS!!!

[@FelentinoKundaTv]

Am glad i have the chance to see and hear about this.have had 5 abortions in my life and am suffering for it,God save my soul and forgive me for the salvation of my soul 🙏

[@edithsmith4131]

I can’t forgive myself, no forgiveness. It’s a living nightmare that I deserve.

[@ourdailybread]

Oh Edith, God loves you so much and has forgiven you. Learn more here: discoveryseries.org/courses/the-forgiveness-of-god/ And here is help when forgiveness seems impossible: discoveryseries.org/courses/when-forgiveness-seems-impossible/ 💝💖

[@ΔημητραΒακου-ν2ζ]

@@ourdailybread no stop 😡

[@daniellemiller2547]

I needed to see this. I feel disgusting that I have had 4 abortions. I wonder daily shy God even keeps a murderer like me on this earth. 😔 I don't even know where to begin to get forgiveness for what I've done.

[@happyhours5850]

You had your reasons, forgive yourself Do you have any kids now after abortions?

[@jazzthadhu]

God will forgive you but the thing is surrender yourself to God. Devil will give you suicidal thoughts but God loves you and He is waiting for you.

[@daniellemiller2547]

@@happyhours5850 I don't have any kids yet but I have been drawn closer to God recently

[@daniellemiller2547]

@@jazzthadhu I am trying so bad to get close to God. I don't know why I'm still here but I want to fulfill the purpose God has for me.

[@jazzthadhu]

@@daniellemiller2547 God has got a purpose for your life. And there's power in the blood of Jesus Christ. Confess His name everytime you get suicidal thoughts and Satan will flee. Suicidal thought is trying to destroy God's purpose in your life. Pray continuously and meditate on His word regularly. Added to that you can also meet a spiritual psychiatrist. God is still in control. He will help you overcome this trouble and make you a testimony

[@samanthanayeyo9236]

Am feeling ashamed of myself for having 4 abortions,and have been praying for a husband and God to give me a family of my own but I think God doesn't want to bless me because of my sins.am always in regret may God forgive me..please help me heal 😢

[@nubru6426]

God bless you

[@Rebecca-zr3lu]

God, thank you for true love that reigns and blesses and truly forgives us. I pray that every person that has ever had an abortion knows that they can be forgiven because I almost committed suicide over this In Jesus mighty name. Amen 🙏 🤍

[@KYRaSYM_]

Thank you

[@excessmeteor9704]

I hate my self for making this choice...... I was on the fence with God for yeaaaars..... But.... now I walk with the Lord in my life..... I am heart broken.... I will not even sleep woth my husband because we do not want any more children. We have 4 beautiful children. So not wanting children and still being able to get pregnant at 35, I just dont risk it. Because I dont want to risk breaking my Father in Heavens heart. Please please re think before having an abortion. It will haunt you.

[@jannettlee243]

One of the best reasons for doing wrong is that you didn't know Christ at the time. Is this a blessing or what!? I imagine that one who does wrong after knowing Christ has absolutely NO EXCUSES!

[@freeyourdreama7822]

Were they ever able to have children because I’ve been through a similar situation now I’m older have met the love of my life I’m saved and I really wanna have a baby and there’s a part of me that wants to ask God to bless me with the baby but there’s a part of me that feels like I don’t deserve it and so it’s a real battle because I’m trying to forgive myself even if God has forgiven me and then there’s also a part of myself that feels that these babies didn’t want to be born and that’s why it was so easy for me to abort them so I feel like they were spiritually communicating with me and it’s a really complicated situation but I want to be free of the guilt or the feeling that God might not bless me with a child because obviously people older than me have gotten pregnant naturally but it’s just a rarity And it’s hard to believe but my husband israel believes that we could do this but it’s like I just feel like we need a lot of prayer you know -/ Our names are Imani and Israel and if there’s anyone here reading this that feels like they might want to offer us a prayer for fertility and love and blessing for our marriage in and a child together and maybe even for more than one child together I would be really grateful. Thank you.

[@ourdailybread]

Praying for you. Here is a link to a reading that I hope helps you an your journey: discoveryseries.org/?s=abortion.

[@Monikajamatia1994]

Praying for you… and please please please pray for us too our names are Monika and William 😭🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@freeyourdreama7822]

@@Monikajamatia1994 absolutely thank you!

[@Caroline-55-e5x]

Glory

[@heatherd964]

How did you survive the pain?

[@miriambourke4505]

Good mental health is every thing

[@mblurry2205]

I pray for forgiveness

[@patiencekunda9527]

It's great that God has forgiven you.I feel so condemed and think that God doesn't forgive everyone.Make matters worse my husband who was my boyfriend when we had two abortions has rejected me for not having a child after 14 years of marriage.I hate myself for what I did in my youth to innocent babies and my husband is justified for rejecting me.I pray for the grace to bear the shame.

[@ourdailybread]

Thank you for reaching out, Patience Kunda! I am very sorry for all the frustrations you feel with this topic, it certainly sounds like you are trying your best at this stage of life. I am not a trained biblical scholar/counselor, but I do encourage you to reach out to a pastor at a local church. There are others out there who would be happy to sit and talk, encourage, and pray with you about these struggles. Praying you feel confident with Him by your side and are able to grow closer in your walk with Jesus Christ during this season of life. Our Daily Bread Ministries offers resources on a variety of spiritual topics that you can read online or order here: discoveryseries.org/. We will be praying that the Holy Spirit reveals truth to you as you study God's Word!

[@heatherd964]

no one is justified in rejecting you. you are beautiful. God love you! xo I had an abortion at a desperate time in my life too, but we are forgiven beautiful.

[@kiariediana9749]

Courts of heaven

♥️

[@Mantleofrestoration]

😢❤️🙏🏽

[@choosey87]

I can understand one, but four? Anything more than once isn't a mistake, it's a habit...

[@choosey87]

@LONDON PALACIOS Like I said, 4 TIMES IS NOT A MISTAKE, IT'S A HABIT SO STFU 🤡

[@freeyourdreama7822]

Your idea of anything more than one is not exactly true it’s very complicated for someone who hasn’t been through this to understand it actually usually when you are pregnant in this way there are other circumstances going on for why you didn’t use protection in the first place because obviously you can prevent most pregnancies if you want to but there are a lot of emotional things going on and those emotional things lead to it happening again and again also we cannot forget that the child has a spiritual nature and will and sometimes the spirit that wants to become a child is pressing upon you even when it’s not time so there Is also that aspect that the stubborn will of an unborn child could be pressing upon people who are absolutely not prepared and the willpower of these two entities are in a struggle because we all have free will and that is something God gives us so your judgment of the situation without experiencing it is also a sin and all sins are equal so please please stop

[@louisegardenia7674]

I worked with a married rich woman in London who would get a handful of abortions every year and hide them from her husband. I never understand why she didn’t take birth control.

[@Marvin-k1g]

Guessing like said, the first one made it easier to do it again. Sometimes people are distraught, immediately after doing it. Others do not feel the deep sense of remorse and regret and the 'what if' until years down the line. It can be the birth of their first child to full term. This couple it seems more like a gradual realisation. Those aborted babies, were perhaps not babies in their minds until much later on. These clinics very much downplay the enormity of what is being done. If God forgives them, who are we to judge.

[@erindianacathey96]

@@freeyourdreama7822beautiful explanation