Toxic academic validation - cant be a disappointment || HAVENT I GIVEN ENOUGH? || I have to do it

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songs list
Gilded lily - Cults
Nothings new - Rio romeo
Wondering - Olivia and Julia
Top of my school - Katherine
My alcoholic friend - Dresden
Jealous - Eyedress
Dont give up - Yaeow
This is home - Cavetown
Where is my mind - Pixies
Washing machine heart - Mitski
Jealousy - Olivia Rodrigo
Cry baby - Melanie martinez
She used to be mine - Chloe Adams
Saint Bernad - Lincoln
Freaks - Surf curse
Alien blues - Vundabar
Duvet - Boa
Average - Sushi soucy
Brutal - Olivia Rodrigo
Numb little bug - Em beihold
Pity party - Melanie martinez
This is me - Demi and Joe
Toxic thoughts - Faith marie

[@diabolica0]

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[@hello.4859]

i never listened when people said "its ok if you do bad, that means theres more room for improvement". now that ive reevaluated my mindset around school i see how this is so true. you feel so much more fulfilled after improving rather than keeping up this "perfect" image. this is your reminder that even if you get a bad grade the world is still spinning, people across the world are still sleeping peacefully, and your life is still advancing. dont waste your time being upset when you can be proud of the marks you got rather than what you lost. do better next time and you will be more fulfilled ❤️

[@ghost._.boo._.]

Yes. But I have to remain perfect or I'll spiral down and never recover

[@hello.4859]

@@ghost._.boo._.i know ml ive been there and felt it all. i even had panic attacks and i cried nearly everyday. but i promise it gets better soon and one day youll feel greatful for everything that happened. it sounds hopeless now but its SO worth it to heal and change your mindset slowly but surely. its too much to explain but i recommend watching thewizardliz. she doesnt give academic validation advice but somehow it made it so much easier for me to get better ❤️‍🩹 PLUS you CAN be happy and get good grades and school is such a great blessing with so many opportunities!! im here if you need me ill drop my socials if u ever wanna talk. helping people is what i live for 🫶

[@hello.4859]

@@ghost._.boo._. i know ml ive been there. I even had panic attacks and cried nearly everyday. It feels hopeless now but i promise it gets sm better once you get out of the cycle. its so worth it and youll even feel grateful about all the hard times you had in the future and how much youve learnt from it. Its important you start shifting your mindset and create a positive image around school because in reality its such a blessing and it provides amazing opportunities you only get once in your life!! if youre willing to heal i recommend watching thewizardliz. she doesnt give advice around school but it somehow helped me A LOT to get out of this rabbit hole and start appreciating things more AND get better grades (while still being happy!!). if you ever wanna talk ill drop my socials ❤‍🩹 helping people is what i live for 🫶

[@Callie_Sy]

thank you.

[@aidenasbach2291]

​@ghost._.boo._. No. It seems like it but once you let go a little bit you realize you've been so far ahead of normal you're still exceptional

[@anapaulamendozadiaz8890]

"As kid, you either did things with perfection or got punished" the playlist

[@LUIX0u0]

i´m sobbing bitch thats me fr T0T

[@Svara.K]

My classmates always say things like "gurl you will go to Harvard" or "how are you so smart" but also says " why are you upset about your score you got high enough, like others failed the test" "obviously you got an A or A+ stop rubbing it in" but when I slip up once I'm no longer smart even with the highest grades in the class. People say that it is easy for me, that im born smart, that I watched educational videos when I was younger(i literally watched vids bout dinosaurs and animals not physics and chemistry when i was six) but Im staying up late and waking up early getting work done and pushing myself mentally and physically to go above and beyond learning new things for high school. Im not born smart I was just curious and wanted to learn new things now peer pressure and family pressure has made it seem that if I get anything under 90% on my report card it is a fail. For everyone who says oh she/he is born smart, they are not they just put in more effort naturally until it becomes normal and they think that they always must exceed expectation, that a B or A- is a fail. Don't think that school is easy for them, many times it is harder for them as they try to balance everything while pleasing others and many times race goes into this as well, if asian "Oh TheY aRe BoRn SMaRt", if white "oh white people can be smart?, i though you are all just dumb blondes" if black" yeah right [insert something mean]" if others "doesn't bat an eye. Everyone can be smart if they just try hard but society needs to know how many grueling hours are spent working just to get called a try hard, this is even worse as a teen as you are always doubting yourself and we need to stop this. This may seem like a rant but this is the reality that me and many others are facing so please listen to me and others that are facing this. here is another edit after sometime : my parents hate that im always in my room studying and not talking much, then are shocked for 2 seconds seeing my report card then asks "if i did this" ignores my efforts then says that they expected this from me, always undermine me and when i get good grades at school people just say that "of course she did" (yes i am a girl) and always tell me to not brag or ruin the moment that they got a 78% on some test, when they ask me my mark in the first place. another edit: if this is happening to you, you are not alone, to what you what to do and keep pushing furuter for a better future, if you want to get good grades and be successful, do it it will help you more, don't listen to others. I will probably keep on editing this and adding everything in my heart that has happened in school and home, and if you want you guys can reply in the comments about your stories.

[@diabolica0]

So true

[@Simply..Lychee.]

You described all the sh!t I have in my heart rn

[@Canadian_4Ever]

same :( My mom always says anything under 90% is like 60% or less for her. What's sadder is that when you get a result like 86%, which is really good, but you keep thinking about it all night and become worried. I hope you're doing fine though

[@Zx__sb]

Relate....

[@ashoktripathi972]

Gurlllll we are friends 🙂 the same shitttt I deal throughhhhhh🙃

[@ghost._.boo._.]

*when you are the only one holding yourself accountable so you push high expectations on yourself but you are slowly losing your knack for it so you need to push harder but everyone around you is better and you enter burnout periods and are growing out of the praise you formerly received so you are also fighting thoughts and you just. arent. the best. but you dont know how to get better.* or just me

[@seb804]

Ouch, this hit hard 🎯

[@lilamaryllis]

it's not just you, it's just all of us

[@IsabellaAnkiah]

ik this is stupid but i actually started crying while reading this becuase i know that feeling, i feel it so intensly that it just seems so like i cant communitcate it without faceing the fact. sorry if this is not making sense like im probably not even speaking coherently. but it not you. may be they never be poeple who know other this comment section but its not you. we all feel like were failing

[@Nicola-1817]

Nope not just you

[@r.2677]

No one talks enough about burn out. Srsly be careful I worked for those international exams so much the 2 years before them that I got burned out the year off (this year). I can barely study for two hours before the exams now and they all test you on full textbooks and are considered very important to my future. Please be careful and seriously take burn out seriously. It hit me at the wrong time and I feel like I'm disappointing my past life so much now. I just have 1 exam left out of 14 and ill try my best for it, but the burnout is so bad and idk if that one exam will even make any difference.

[@saniamishra6435]

I want to say this to my mom" who cares I am pretty if I fails my finals" I have my exam on 9th June, and I'm going to put my life on that ,that exam will decide if i will get the dream college, the dream life, i dreamed of...…..i rather be in pain because of studying too much than to deal with the pain of regret and rejection...... i'm writing this down so that when ever someone likes this comment, i can come back and read my oath again.......

[@nonahassan-ln5mm]

You got this love!!

[@saniamishra6435]

@@nonahassan-ln5mm you summon me here, just when I needed 🫀✨ Thank you for making me read this note again......and I'll get the shit out of that exam, No matter what

[@queenofhell9758]

don't worry love, keep studying and preparing for your exams and I know you will make it ❤❤

[@saniamishra6435]

@@nonahassan-ln5mm @queenofhell9758 You commented just when I needed........ although I'm working hard to crack my exam....... I've blocked all of my friends and family members.......so basically I have no one except my mom, who nags me for gaining weight (as I don't go outside to work out) Dad who is supportive, yet forgets that I need equal time as my brother to score equal marks as him And ofc my brother whom I'm always at war with This message means more than just a "cheer up" by a stranger

[@saniamishra6435]

@@queenofhell9758 ty 🫀 Please read the upper message

[@yunamoonaa]

Pov: you were raised in an asian house hold and never praised for getting straight A's but the one time you got a B you were grounded for 2 months and you got the top grade in your grade

[@diabolica0]

thats so bad

[@rhyssa-angel]

That’s me

[@agoodgirlsguidetotaylorswift]

literally a word for word description of me

[@meai33]

For those who had to go through that I’m so sorry

[@srabonisaha1257]

Yes , Asian Families ar crazy about Academic results 😅....

[@achieveryunne]

An average student here, my parents never pressured me about grades and they just told me to to my best. Surely, they're not forcing me to study, to get straight As, but I hate being useless because they didn't put any expectations on me. I felt like I've never done enough to make them proud even though they said otherwise. Sometimes I pushed myself hard, burnout with lots of study sessions just to be the best, only for them to be proud of me and could tell their friends about my achievement. For me, it might be exhausting to study all the time, but the only way for me to repay my parents for everything is to stand on the stage, holding my straight As result.

[@namelessnormie]

This is well explained.....we're literally the same. thank you, it really is nice to know there is smn like me out there

[@achieveryunne]

@@namelessnormie I feel relieved to know someone has this kind of situation like me

[@Shiny-kb6bn]

@@achieveryunne same here tooo

[@abeehaimran9113]

It helps you know. it really helps a lot. Knowing that you're not the only one doing this. you're not the only one who's been through this. there are people who went through what you're going through right now, and they survived and so will you

[@diabolica0]

yeah ikr

[@locoooo2730]

this gives me sm motivation but makes me so sad at the same time

[@justanobody907]

0:00 - Gilded Lily 3:11 - Nothings New 6:41 - Wondering 10:25 - Top of my school 12:36 - My Alcoholic Friends 15:23 - Jealous 17:26 - Don’t Give Up 19:22 - This is Home 23:05 - Washing Machine Heart 25:51 - Jealously, Jealously 28:45 - Cry Baby 32:45 - She used to be mine 35:08 - Saint Bernard 37:05 - Freaks 39:30 - Alien Blues 42:26 - Duvet 45:50 - Average 47:50 - Brutal 50:13 - Numb Little Bug 53:00 - Pity Party 56:30 - This is me 59:39 - Toxic Thoughts

[@DysFUNcti0nal_Fr34k]

"I have to do it" hits so goddamn hard, it's literally the only thing I am able of saying now, the reason behind anything I do, no matter how self-destructive it is

[@diabolica0]

I can relate

[@gabrysiaromaniuk308]

this playlist is just EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED perfect to listen while styding at 3 am

[@yoursweethollowknight6589]

listening to this gives me a weird urge to study but i also feel this weird and heavy weight of tiredness i cant wash of myself making me feel even more lazy and hopeless such weird thing

[@keyamanna3910]

I feel every word you wrote to my core. my aspirations and ambitions are so high and here i am struggling with sitting, completing stupid daily targets. its just i feel so numb and dissociated, i cant even comprehend the high pressure of an incoming exam anymore 'coz i took a gap year so it matters alot for me to get into a really good uni. idk if it is procrastination or the choice of a wrong field or if i am actually just worthless ahh sorry for ranting so much, its just ur cmnt felt like a mirror. all the best to you, i hope u do well

[@yoursweethollowknight6589]

@@keyamanna3910 it's fine rant as much as you feel like I'll be here and i understand you quite well too, i feel like i can do many things in my mind and i feel it but whenever i get up to do something it feel like a heavy burden that i can't do. Isn't it what you meant? It's understandable but know that no one is worthless it might be like you said, maybe the path you choose isn't for you or isn't something in your interests and if you still have time to go to a different field I'd recommend that for you because once you lock on it, it will be hard to chance it after all it's your future more then 60% of your life. Idk i said some random stuff but hopefully you'd understand what i meant

[@keyamanna3910]

@@yoursweethollowknight6589 ur right abt the interests thing.. while i am interested in arts and science both, i can't afford arts or anything as such in the creative field.. it's very expensive here.. so i am sitting for med and biotech entrances to get into a top central uni.. ur getting it ig? like i hv to take a roundabout approach and figure it out.. and yuppp i get it, i TOTALLY get the overwhelming feeling when so many tasks hv to be done.. burnout is so real.. also thanks for being so kind and considerate.. i feel better

[@keyamanna3910]

@@yoursweethollowknight6589 would u believe if i said i really considered ur advice for a while, thought abt it and took an entire day to introspect.. and ur right, i think the career i chose doesn't align with my skills at all.. i am more of a creative and maybe i am forcing myself to like a certain diff. way.. i went thru all the options once more today and i'll choose smth different now.. i hvnt felt this light and better in awhile.. thank you really i mean it!

[@mypoorbraincells]

@@keyamanna3910 i really relate to you im facing the same thing rn. we got this

[@PAGTALUNANCASSIOPEIARUI]

Who am I without my academic excellence?

[@Nicola-1817]

Those are my exact thoughts right now

[@user-tx7jp6st7n]

i studied consistently throughout the year. actually , i studied a lot . i refrained myself from doing what i like such as hobbies because i wanted to do my best in my last year of high school. i studied my mat course over 8 times , solved 200 multiple choice questions , solve past papers, and yet when i sat down today for my final math exam..... i just want to give up. i know i shouldnt but theres no way for me to retrieve the lost marks back.

[@diabolica0]

ikr

[@justadive786]

I'm always the average student it so frustrating when you at top and suddenly people keep a high expectation on you and i hate to disappointed them

[@coeurcorazon9949]

I'm going into art. I used to be a smart kid, that's how I got into my friend group. I got such good grades, 90s, honour roll, I was known as intelligent. And then I started pursuing my passions. I started realizing that when I'm old and grown, I didn't want to tell my children that when I was their age, I was an artist, but I had long lost that skill. No. I'm taking my life back. My grades are dropping and my path is clear. I'm going into art.

[@diabolica0]

best of luck

[@mochacoffee7250]

this video comes to me by its own when im crying for my grades rn omg ty alghoritim

[@SavithmaSandunmie]

It's hard when you feel lots pressure on yourself to be perfect , when you feel like a failure if someone does better than you , And when the person that is doing it to you in no one BUT URSELF.

[@lmaoo23-zl7vx]

I received my Second Math Exam Paper yesterday. I did so badly. My teacher told me I improved (a bit) but in my eyes, no. For my first math exam(of the year) I scored 24/40, a B- at most. Now I scored 22/40, a C. Both Contrasts to the A' I scored for my math finals last year. The paper was trickier and harder, but deep down I know that I can solve these questions easily and score higher. But, I didn't trust myself. I didn't believe I was doing the questions correctly when I did indeed know that I was. I was on the right track, why was I doubting myself? I have never really dong great in Math. It's always been my worst subject. I thought I was getting better. This is even more shameful for me as a School Math Olympiad Member who has the Country's Junior Math Olympiad coming up this late May. I'm supposed to be great at Math. How can I be a Math Olympian like this? I've been busy with assignments and extra curricular activities(other upcoming competitions etc. QCEC, Science Project) , as well as leadership stuff. It's been draining me slowly to spend my time after school, keeping up with all these projects and all. I've been busier than ever. I can't seem to focus with a lot on my mind. I might seem a bit dramatic right now and a C might not be that bad for you guys, but for me it is. My standards are A now, not even B. My Asian parents are going to be very disappointed. They'll doubt me again, as always. I was a top Student last year. I'm supposed to be a hidden gem, not a plain rock in dirt. Last year was my Golden Year(Scored 6 A's for Finals) , so is this year my Academic downfall? I just know that I'm slowly losing my touch. I'm drained and tired.

[@BunnyBlinksie]

I promise, We're gonna be ok, okay?

[@malaika-us1hw]

I used to be an F grade student but then I got straight As last year and now everyone is expecting me to get perfect grades again to keep my image perfect but it is so difficult I feel extremely pressurised and I cannot afford even a single B grade being a topper isn't fun cause once you getthe taste of perfect grades, there is no going back.

[@indi6936]

do u study everyday to get straight A’s??

[@Julia-ve7pi]

OMG I almost cried. This gives so much comfort and comprehension in a melodic way, it's amazing!

[@lungjanggonmei2967]

OMG I wake up at 2am and I thought of studying and now still studying 😅 I bet today will be strange day for me 😅 see myself sleeping in class 😂😂 the benifit of waking up soon😂😂

[@diabolica0]

waking up early sure come with benefits right 😂😊

[@lungjanggonmei2967]

@@diabolica0 yeah😂😂

[@WellvieSantos]

My fav academic playlist, it motivates me to not let go of my top achiever title, thank you.

[@angge1219]

This playlist gave me a lot of motivation, but sadness at the same time.

[@DAYZA00]

this comes in my recommended weeks before finals, its a sign

[@icantwml]

gosh i love this video so much. a bit of rant n venting, sorry: my parents never asked me to get straight As or be on top of my class, but it made me feel as if i have never done enough, they are very proud of me, but im not. idk why. in 2 days, im starting grade 10. my grades had improved from 5As out of 12 subject at grade 7 to straight As. i love it. my parents celebrated it, i love it. but now im scared. what if i fail? my friends kept telling me "youre so smart, u dont hv to study", "wow you got straight As? i get it, dont rub it to my face", "shut up you wont understand us who struggle with school", "your future is brighter than sun im so jealous", "i bet you wont and CANT fail in life" AND THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS "HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH?!" you all study in international school since primary, and i started in secondary. ITS NOT FAIR! THEY KEPT SAYING "oh she got low score, no wonder we get lower" IT DOESNT WORK LIKE THAT! if i get high score, they pushed me "jokingly". i dont know anymore. my dream is to get full scholarship in Australia. please god let my dream come true.

[@cloudyrinii]

I was raised to be this perfect little soldier; a perfect robot that only got above and beyond. even when I go 100s and I excelled in four languages by the time I was 10; it was never enough. I was raised with only one question always being asked: **But do you deserve it?** anything and everything I asked for was always met with a: "Do you think you deserve it, Irene?" ...the answer was always no. Freshman year; I had the best average in the best class of freshmen in the entire school; I won third place in a national poetry competition...i was asked to represent the country in the competition against our sister islands- When I asked for permission to go I was met with the dreaded question; **What have you done to deserve this?** at this point in my life i didn't even go out, i stayed home all day; got home from school, locked myself in my room and immediately began studying for tests I wasn't having in months. I was reminiscing with my mom about my time in middle school and freshman year; i studied in a way that was almost obsessively... i still remember how i was barely a third grader and I was forced to read the study material 6 times, I had to write it down twice, and then read what I had written down. From then on I took it as a habit; I would always read the study material for an hour straight, after which I would write down a whole mock-exam that I then printed so it lasted me exactly two weeks; that's how I studied. My grades were exceptional, but I was so completely down that I didn't feel anything. I got 70 once and broke down crying in the middle of class because I'd never hear the end of it. "Do better next time." I was in the top 9% of my country in a national exam. You know what they told me? **Why didn't you get a higher score?** I studied so hard that by the time i turned 16, i was actually forbidden by my psychiatrists to study for almost two years; because they said that if I went back I'd inevitably go back to having a psychotic breakdown and I'd be taken back to the mental hospital. at 15, I developed Tourette's syndrome...I can't even study right because if I overexert myself I'll have tic episodes that are so bad I end up in a hospital bed with an oxygen tank...now, at 17 from the stress of it all I've developed a fainting disorder that gets worse when I'm sitting for too long, standing for too long, too warm, don't eat, if I get anxious, If I run or walk or dance or get too cold or don't sleep enough.

[@diabolica0]

Thats so bad. Hope you get better soon.❤️

[@t_yx._.]

Using this playlist to study and complete my project work before 11:59 PM :)

[@butterfly-flies]

I would tell you it’s going to be ok…but who am I to tell you it’ll be ok?…I am just a stranger on the internet…but remember I love you…I am here for you…whenever you feel like nobody loves you…just remember that this one stranger on the internet loves you 💗

[@melissalewyin]

I'm using this palylist for study lol

[@314jesnatreesajiji6]

Thank you for making this amazing playlist

[@khaleesiall]

last few days before graduation, please i have to make it work

[@diabolica0]

you can do it

[@melissaeen7016]

You've got this!!!

[@jessicacaron52]

finding that line between letting yourself feel these emotions vs. not letting them consume you is hard

[@rosalieevangelista-xx8tk]

i never felt enough, I always prioritize my grade more than myself due to pressure that my own parents give me.

[@_zzofiom]

2 tests tomorrow hope my ass dont get kicked so hard there’s a shoe print in my appendix 🙏🙏

[@astoria4ever]

how were the tests?

[@transparentillness]

All the sad songs and then just hearing camp rock made me lose my mind a little but in a good way

[@post07]

im in the middle of my gcses. i go back to school tomorrow. im aware that i put too much pressure on myself, and i physically cannot take a break without feeling guilty. im breaking honestly. i dont care if i dissapoint my parents, ive done it enough. i do care if i disappoint myself or my teachers. im dreading results day already and i havent even finished my exams. i cannot do it anymore. i know deep down ill do well, but in my eyes it feels like i couldve always done more. ok that felt good to write down

[@diabolica0]

Its alright, you've been strong for so long.

[@alxcnte]

either you do great or not at all. either you get praised or put down. there is no in between.

[@ClockBoyy]

As someone who was told growing up that one day Id be something great this is true. This whole playlist without saying anything is so fucking true to my feelings. Because really? Kids who are told this are damned the moment they register those words. Even if you're a genius you can never be perfect at everything, but this is what people like us try to achieve, we can tell everyone how its okay but never ourselves because obviously, we're supposed to be something great no? Its alright, Its alright not to be perfect or okay. Youre fine, and not being perfect is fine because its human. Youre a human being with feelings and emotions, you will never be perfect because you're not meant to be, nobody is. Take care of yourselves, love ya

[@Yelena-13]

when stressing about school made you develope severe anxiety and anxiety attacks:

[@user-lo5em5rf9v]

When we score good marks people say "ofcourse you did you are the topper there is nothing new in it". But when we are not able to score good sometimes, due to any kind of reason as we are humans too, then suddenly everyone gets so interested.Then they are like "what happened" or "how you scored so low" or "I scored more than the topper".They make us feel soo bad that it creates a lot of pressure on us, it's like that we can never fail or more like we are not allowed to get fail and we have to maintain a constant graph of perfection always.And it hurts so much when our hardwork is called as "you were born intelligent". Whenever a test is coming others be like "you don't have to care about it ,you are the topper,you will definitely ace it ".And I am like I wasn't born with some powers ,I have made myself a topper through hardwork and I have to study also to ace the test.There is also an another perception about us that we are always studying and don't do other activities,just keep studying everytime.Thus are life is boring but there is nothing like that .We do other things too.If friends are making some plans they will think on their own that I don't want to come with them because I have to study.And if they find me doing something other than studies they will be like "ohhh so toppers also do these things other than studying".And make this face😮 whenever we are doing something that they find strange for us to do.Sometimes I feel they think of me as a alien that I am from some other planet.They may think our lives are easiest but actually it's the hardest tbh we have to always satisfy the expectations of society, family, teachers and friends too.I am 18 and it's been 15 years since I am experiencing all of this.I was just going to write a one line comment but then all emotions came out. One last thing solitude and overthinking along with books always stays with us.(Idk if it's true for everyone but it is atleast for me,do let me know if it's true):)

[@diabolica0]

@@user-lo5em5rf9v Its ok. You dont have to worry about others. Do what you have to😊

[@rose_06s]

I'm studying math while listening to this playlist

[@naksudefender]

damn this hits hard i just started playing this in bgm and im sad noww PLSSSS WTAFF I DONT WANT TO EVER FAILL

[@user-kp7ng5hh7i]

"Look, they made a playlist about me"

[@breadcrumbs_24]

i was about to sleep, I put my headphones on and played this playlist, until I noticed myself singing along, and found myself laughing, especially at the top of my school song. I remembered my classmates telling me, "you're too perfectionist" n "your standards are so high"...uhm I have no words haha. Honestly, I don't think I am, I just do what I gotta do with what I can and what I have, until I get satisfied. There is no standards at all, lol! It's all about satisfaction, man. So many opinions other than that made my mind messed up. I felt blinded, I crawled so much to be able to get back to my old self who had the passion burning in whatever she does. I was a studious kid back then, but upon observation and experiencing unfair system, I got burned out, and lost all of it. Things have changed, I was blown into a path that made me see different perspectives as well see clarity that changed my mindset, my level of enthusiasm, and energy to the things I used to do and are still doing.

[@kattykat7603]

Coming to this playlist to study for my last final of my undergraduate career while dealing with intense senioritis, lol. I need a fire under my butt to start working.

[@Wtfitaaa]

This playlist is so good that I can relate to all the songs 😀🔫

[@Shiny-kb6bn]

my parents never pressured me even though I got the lowest marks in class. they always say it's okay. just do your best. we are always here for you no matter what happens. they work so hard for me. I'm so sad that I couldn't pay them back with good results. it keeps getting worse. I don't know what to do🥺

[@raqayaopr6936]

Omg that's all the songs that I 😢❤️

[@Maria_playz149]

18:08 "i try my best to survive" True,true thanks to my teacher she won't give me full marks and my dad is certain I'm a failure for getting one mark less because of my teacher thanks alot,for making my dad lose trust in me now I'll be listening to this everyday for 2 hours while i study

[@aissatoubarry9420]

I never talk to people on the internet, and I also don't think there is a comment section I've related to more. Wanting you to be fine makes me think I'll be fine.

[@diabolica0]

we always compare to others which makes us feel sometimes superiors and sometimes inferior

[@Nathalie-vq4kr]

😅​@@diabolica0

[@ItsOllieplayz]

hiii, i've been playing this playlist ever since i found it back when it was freshly uploaded and absolutely fell in love with it. i was wondering if you could maybe transfer this to spotify (including the sound effects which is the best part) if possible. tysm! i wish you all the best whether in academic or life itself

[@mizubiart6230]

Wait what am I being called out 😂😢

[@imanamezlouque2645]

im having a regional exam in a month and i feel stressed but i cant give up on myself

[@Leexnina]

Tbh, I hate it when ppl say “omgsh ur sooo smarttt” or “you don’t even need to study u always get good grade” and the one thing I hate the most is- “I bet ur parents will be glad u got a good mark”. They’re never glad, it’s always “try harder” or “get first place, second and third is never better than first”, and I keep telling them I’m trying but they never EVER listen, all I want is for them to be happy for me. And I’m not smart, I’m just a stupid African girl that just wants greeds for success and love, so, is that too much to ask? Just a little bit of love for my grades? Or maybe I’m js being selfish idk lol

[@karystill]

28:45 my favorite song and singer

[@jxdevx]

listening to this as i have to study 500+ slides of biology and chemistry due tomorrow (its 6pm 😭)

[@Yelena-13]

how did it go?

[@user-tb9ob4kc8l]

*I listen to this playlist because in my writing we have to do the WHOLE book and the book has 159 pages and our teacher expects us to finish 5-10 pages per day, it also adds stress to us because we have to review for exams, its also a bit sad because its almost the last day of school. Lately, i've been listening to these type of playlists because I feel super stressed out, and I pressure myself to get a line of 9 on my report card because I really want to be an awardee, if I don't I just studied all of those months for nothing? I feel super pressured and very stressed out. It's like a burnt out gifted kid type of feeling, And i'm the class secretary and people look up to me for homework, math, english, etc. when I don't know the answer, they're like "But your smart how do you not know this?" its because im so stressed i feel so tired, and they don't know how hard it is to be a class officer and we have to keep this "perfect" image because the students look up to us and they won't even listen to us when we discipline them and our president doesn't even do anything and they tell me to shout at the class and say "please be quiet and stay in your seats"*

[@diabolica0]

Thats too bad. I can understand this feeling. I hope everything goes well for you.

[@user-tb9ob4kc8l]

@@diabolica0 *thank u so much.

[@-anomaly-]

I'm trying to write a very last minute paper, it's 3 am, i have 4/11 pages written, i haven't slept more than 4 hours in days, and I can barely think. I have 2 essays due and a written language exam on the same day. I swear I'm going to just break down crying. I don't have time for all of this. I can't wait to be done with school.

[@Cabin13_CHB--]

the first part like the damage part and the sleep part that hits hard but still don't be upset abt what you don't get remember everything happens for a reason maybe you got a b on that test so you could learn to study and prepare more so next time you could get that a+ DON'T WASTE UR TIME BEING UPSET ABOUT WHAT U DIDN'T GET BE HAPPY FOR WHAT U DID LIFE'S TOO SHORT TO BE WASTED ON SH!T LIKE THAT enjoy ur life and thanks if u read this far lol and listened to/read my mini-rant

[@navyblueskiess]

I'm proud of you besties for working hard! Don't listen to those who says "oh you're just born SmART, so easy for u"

[@Lady_Sylffy]

I've listened to this 5 times.

[@user-wb6dg3es2j]

🌷🌷

[@lauren9004]

Nice!

[@_black_swan_112]

when they ask me what grade i got, i dont want to answer cause im afraid theyll think im bragging and after they force me to tell them, they say its easy for me and t stop bragging and im not even bothered but like, GURLL, DIDNT YOU ASK ME FIRSTT, so of course im not that angry usually 😊

[@IReadTooMuchLol]

The burnout is hitting hard folks

[@Len-0x.]

Is jealousy, jealousy. Not jealousy. Sorry and have a good day :)

[@KaelynTeng]

isnt it the same??

[@user-xv8fj4lk8t]

the title got me

[@Study-rz3cf]

Little by little,I will

[@claraoliveira2986]

shit!!!! this playlist is just THE vibe for late night study, thaankssssssssssss

[@AuxYuuYui]

I got my grades not long ago. Really like my mood lol

[@waseemghani2727]

The wounding song seems like Jennie from black pink and rose singing❤

[@user-gw2pi4gb6o]

I'm studying for my last exam but it feels like I just can't do it All the time my parents say next time you'll do better try harder Like don't u realize what it's like these days It's my birthday on a few days but I don't feel like selebrating it anymore I hope I can get through this Luv the intro

[@imisabelle9594]

seeing this after writing a oneshot about this exact thing and looking at the comments, apparently finding out that i nailed it on the head

[@KoiWeird]

I don't think this is me but i get that pressure and i understand what i want so i need to just calm down i don't need the best scores i just need to be able to get through the class and that's all i can do so cheers to living for on this planet i am not the best not the brightest not the most beautiful or snazzy but i know that i can just live how i please. Please remember that if you burn the candle at both sides of the stick it will melt until nothing is left. It may light up the room twice as bright for a short time but god you must understand that you are only a candle only able to burn at one end at a slow and steady pace. I hope you sleep wonderfully tonight dear reader may however it be you care for or cares for you is understanding and dosent pressure you to such extremes for only a mark

[@Belle_rose-123]

I hate people that say "oh, why did you study its a meaningless test" bc I can't seem to get it into there head that I need the validation and it scares me that I could move sets in a blink of an eye

[@Quark_32]

My finals are less than a week away. Wish me luck!

[@Leslienope407]

I have been consistently swept up in college drama for my past 4 semesters and i've been doing so badly. i have a 3.3 gpa out of 5. I've wanted to do law so badly my whole life and watching it all crumble down is breaking my heart.. anyways, here's me getting my shit together. People keep telling me not to worry and that i'm doing too much but, no. Not for me. "Can't be one hundred if you're only giving ninety five". I've worked so hard to get where i am and if anybody knows what it's like to have their entire self worth attached to academics and professional life, that is me. I am done feeling like crap, i've been so focused this semester but there are these two subjects that, no matter how hard i try, i keep doing badly in, my finals are in 2 weeks and i'd be damned if i don't increase my gpa this semester. I am putting this here cause i just want some place to come when i feel burnt out and realise what i'm doing this for.

[@diabolica0]

Ik how it felt to be burntout.

[@bulletsolar_]

I used to be a high honor student, but ever since I got top 6 in either first or second grade(which really isn't bad) I actually got scared of my mom's reaction. Ever since that day I've been dropping.

[@ilmahes]

If i don't make it to that uni it'll be the end of me, literally the End.

[@DreyNova]

HAVENT I GIVEN ENOUGH

[@LaraGonçalves-k6k]

pov: vc quer mto passar em um concurso mega concorrido mas nem vc acredita em si msm

[@nott.txxira]

Prepping for exams at 3am 📖🤍

[@Shrishti-bf4mq]

I gave my everything but still couldn't make it , it did irreparable damage to me i don't know what to do .I feel like ending it all really

[@Mr-oj4bg]

Honestly, it's so hard for me to continue my studies... Depression + anxiety + panic attacks + a lot of family issues ... It's really hard.

[@valentinacheng7226]

i always thought iw asnt such a high achiever, but after gotting a c on a small math test i was so frustrated and angry at myself and i was like- damn it.

[@ganapathiumaselvan8318]

My results in 4 days and I feel like a disappointment already.

[@jashieezane7665]

Can I know the names of the movie/series of the voiceovers used at the intro? Thank you!

[@diabolica0]

BoJack Horseman and Gilmore Girls

[@huntwey6623]

I'm 1 year away from graduating but if I fail this finals it'll be my end, last year I did not get a diploma of excellence of the first 3 grades, this year I know I will get second place but it's so frustrating knowing there will be always someone better than you, in every aspect, you can't stop comparing yourself from that person, and what's worst is that maybe if I do bad I'll get 4th place, wich is worse... I don't know what to do anymore, I'm tired, I think I burned down since I passed from 10th grade to highschool, it's extremely frustrating feeling you don't have the same capacity as before and maybe you wonder if it's because you didn't try harder

[@ArielledeLosAngeles]

Right now I´m doing a math practice, I just cut myself 'cause I need to stop, I feel that all I need to be happy is having my parents proud, and I´m dying because I think I can´t, but I will make it. If someone reeds this I want him/her to know: u are enough, you will make this, everything will pass, ur not alone ✨✨

[@lovs.0chae.]

항상 더 잘하려고 노력하고 22시간 공부하고 2시간만 자고 2등을 하려고 선생님들의 편애 때문에 너무 억울해요...

[@diabolica0]

Dont worry

[@SugraUnal]

I want to talk about my story here because I feel I have to talk to somebody first of all in my country if you studying in high-school you can be top student and that top student has some privileges I have been struggling for this over three years and some girl come to my school and she's want this privilege too. her mother is a teacher in our school anyways we are competing and if I can't win this I'll be miserable. PLEASE LET IT BE ME. I want that so bad. thanks for listening me...

[@diabolica0]

Dont worry. Everything will be fine, just focus on what you have to do .

[@luminalhistoria7496]

August... Back ti school again.. 🙁.. I don't want to harbor it but i don't like my ckassmates.. its jus theyre so selfish.. sugar coated the teachers to get higher grade. I do am glad that i am not getting involved but sometimes I am too...😢

[@aisha_muhamed-ds8lb]

I am that girl who is friends with the topper but never has the same grade as them I am friends with the topper but i guess i am not as smart or intelligent as her, i know I shouldn't be like this no I am not jealous of her she works hard for it but it just feels unfair I work hard too but no marks or grades for me i feel stupid to feel this way i just wish i could get better grades and better marks but idk what to do .I do many things to get better but i still fail am I that dumb....

[@arletteayuzo7905]

do you have this playlist on spotify?

[@diabolica0]

Nope 😔

[@AribaBushra]

Can you make it that we can download it? It will be very helpful plzzzz

[@user-uf4vn8oh3h]

Yes plss

[@c.m.c.g.y.y.6502]

sorry just wanna vent here but today I failed my chinese compo. this is the first time I ever wrote 偏题 or even failed. and my chinese o'levels are next year... my chinese GPA is already bad enough. idk what to do, and next year they are gonna separate us based on our Chinese grades this yea. I dont think I can ever salvage this...

[@pearlwynona7296]

Y'all, how can you study while listening to music? Be honest, it is distracting 💀💀

[@ayaaannnn._.]

classical music is okay but this is pop and people listening to pop while studying are just amazing i can't find myself to focus when i listen to pop when studying 😭😭😭😭

[@bloop4348]

I honestly phase it out after like idk 10 mins? The music is just to distract me from other things until I focus on actually studying lmao

[@cheriiberii_]

i actually dont know. im in a program that has me graduating at 15 and i find that working to songs like these keeps my grades at a's

[@natsumemiharu3504]

Honestly it helps when anxiety and feeling fully distracted sinks in when everything is quiet I’m alone and I honestly need help that’s how it feels that’s why listening to this just reminds me to do what I’m supposed to do because their is a life out there and yes this is part of it but not all of it so don't be scared do it and it will pass and you’ll be ok when you pass to the other side

[@prakriti394]

Ain't no , we ain't like you , who get distracted easily