DEPRESSED TO OKAY | SIMS 4 STORY

[@diamonnddx]

Hi everyone! Thank you for watching! Again, this story is personal and this year is the first time I actually opened up about my depression to anyone, even though it's something I've been struggling with for nearly 8 years. This video is simply about the isolation I went through. This depression thing is ROUGH. And this year hit me hard, but I'm better and dealing with it one day at a time. If anyone is struggling and wants to talk, just know my DMs are always open :) love you all!

[@moresimz578]

Aww. Ive has the same problem just because of people I guess. So that’s why I guess I kinda don’t talk to any of my friends anymore..i dunno 🤷🏼‍♀️

[@unofficialbeautyqueen6624]

You seem like such an amazing person! I'm sorry that you've had to deal with this, it's hard and the fact that you're overcoming just further portrays your strength. Just discovered your channel a month ago and these videos are just amazing. Keep up the great work girlie and stay beautiful!

[@pepperyiyi]

I don’t know too much about depression to say anything but I hope you all the best and receive the true support you need from people who love you and the people you love.

[@nalissa]

diamonnddx I love this story

[@ladyblue8040]

diamonnddx I dunno in which way you could have defined my past situation better in this video. I want you to know that I feel your pain and I've been in the same seat. But hopefully one day you'll realize there's so much in you that you cannot waste. To lose someone you love that much is horrible, but not all of it is your foult. It'll be better honey❤ Stay put!! 👊

[@kayla.simmer7540]

I've suffered with depression since the age of 9. My father was physically and mentally abusive to my mother and I. My mum and I escaped when i was 8 years old and moved hours away. We were TERRIFIED. He had severe mental and anger issues and was over- controllying. Fast forward a few years, I'm in my new primary school and I had my very frist boyfriend who was my first love. We were together for 2 and a bit years but never kissed because I was too shy and had never kissed anyone before. He then was interested in another girl who I always had abad feeling about but be always told me they were just 'friends'. He'd openly flirt with her in front of me. Also this whole time a lot of shit was going on at home. I HATED my mums bf who was living with us with a passion. I have extremely good (well, bad) reasons why I hate him and to this day, 6 years later I still do. After my bf and i broke up my depression escalated. It was the WORST pain that I've ever felt that I actually felt physical pain in my chest and felt like throwing up and completely numb with pain. I didnt laugh anymore for a few years. I just wanted it all to end so I tried to end it all... I failed at that as well Ive always felt like a failure. A few years pass and things got ugly so my mum kicked out her bf and we moved house a few months after. I struggled A LOT in higschool from grades to friends. Eventually my depression and anxiety got SO bad I was so physically sick I missed a lot of school in grades 9-10. All my teachers just thought I was 'wagging' and would have a go at me in class. I remember having anxiety attacks and even vomitting before school and I HATED being around people, it made me so nervous. At the end of grade 10 I had a crush on a guy. He was great, had the best personality and he was interesetd in me too! The next year in March we started dating (2015). Things were going great and he was the best boyfriend you could imagine. Grade 12 we were still dating but things werent as great but still pretty good. Then we graduate and then it all turned. He completely changed because he had more 'freedom' and I was just someone who was there for him and he could use for ... He stopped texting and made it sound like a chore if we talked on the phone as we live half an hr from eachother and he had work and I went to TAFE. I finished my Diploma of Beauty Therapy in June this year. I was proud of myself but I felt like my relationsip was failing and I put in so much EFFORT all the time from the very beginning but his effort stopped and he didnt care. This hurt me and triggered my depression. He never once tried to understand what depression was like for me and my anxiety. The 5 days ago he broke up with me through text and hinted that he cheated. I have no idea if he actually did or not but he said "You started this" (referring to our relationship failing) and blamed me. He also said I was too 'clingy' because I wanted to be able to talk to him once a day whether through a text or a call. So now here I am 6 months after finishing a Diploma, still jobless after applying to over 70 jobs (not exaggerating as I have to keep track of every job I apply for) and I only have 1 friend and no boyfriend. I know the amount of friends doesnt matter and its only the quality but I also dont trust people anymore to have more friends. I really wish people understood depression. I dont wish for anyone to have it but I wish people knew what it was like for those that have it..

[@heddamira7101]

Kayla. Simmer I survived depression, well, not all of it. I'm growing stronger as it becomes harder :)

[@ohmynte]

It's going to be better some day, I promise. I'm suffering from depression and social phobia, been suffering from social phobia ever since I was 7.. I started suffering from depression 3 years ago, at the age of 12. When I was just 5 years old, I wouldn't eat anything at dinner, my dad would be abusing me at dinner even though we had visitors, no one even tried to help me, and my dad dragged me outside, locked me out of the house for an hour or two. My mom have been abusing me too, choking me, hitting me, kicking me, slapping me.. They don't care for me, I can't even remember the last time they asked me "How are you feeling?" If the reason for them to ask was not because I was crying. I only have 1 friend, always feeling like people will judge me for who I am, afraid of socializing, isolating myself. Music is the only thing that can make me smile.. I haven't really been smiling a lot lately, if I had, it was for sure a fake smile. But don't worry, BTS' member Suga went through depression and social phobia too, just like me. He would sell his CDs for only 10 cents per CD just to be able to buy food. He was suicidal.. His parents wasn't there for him as he's an idol, it was i think last year where he spotted them at a concert of his, he finally felt like a son that his parents could be proud of. He's still struggling but he's not giving up, he's doing a lot better now. He never gave up even though so many people was looking down on him, saying he wouldn't make it. He didn't give up on his life either, even if he was living in a hell. So if you don't give up, and keep on fighting, then some day, it'll get a lot better for you too. Stay strong.

[@kayla.simmer7540]

Thank you all for the support! I was scared to share so much with strangers and the deepest parts of my life only about 3 people I truly know and trust know this. I hope you all find true happiness some day soon if you haven't already. Depression really sucks.

[@kayla.simmer7540]

Im so sorry you went though this. I still don't trust any guy and I always feel super uncomfortable around friends' dads as well. I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to. I hate how people can be so cruel. Karma is something I believe in so I hope they get what is coming for what they have done to you.

[@annoyed3012]

Sara Alsalak sweetie by reading your story I’m assuming you’re a kid and not depressed,GO TO A DOCTOR and let him diagnose you and you need to go to therapy you can’t just say “I’m depressed” and think you’re depressed

[@taliadixon8719]

Wow I wish my friends had been supportive of me like that. They all abandoned me two years ago due to me "bringing them down too much"

[@Khadi-C]

I know all too well how that feels. It took me a long time to learn I did not "bring anyone down". There's a reason it's said tragedy and bad experiences are how you learn who your real friends are.

[@khadijaadams4141]

I'm so sorry

[@sineadolearyy]

Talia Dixon well it’s good that they’re not your friends anymore because obvious they weren’t good ones!

[@zariacribbs9321]

Talia Dixon same

[@alexmirandatu]

Too relatable

[@emutresh8935]

Can you do a video like this, where instead of losing someone to a break up, the sim lost someone to a suicide? I lost someone recently like that and I would love to see it

[@maddieblackhawks3292]

Emu Tresh I'm so sorry for your loss! Yea but I agree ☝️

[@monalibu9243]

Sorry for your lose ❤️🙁

[@leahtran1600]

i know im late but sorry for your loss & stay strong xox

[@savannah3997]

Emu Tresh same but mine wasn’t suicide :( sorry for your loss

[@akiraallen8171]

Emu Tresh awww I’m so so sorry for u loss

[@eringarl4005]

When I saw the ex was a girl, I flipped! I love the inclusivity!

[@LousyDaG]

Aaron Starr you mine you like Girls who are with Girls?

[@Cheese-du9yr]

Omg same I'm a lesbian so i was so happy that the person liked girls and dated them

[@nn-em7dp]

Sameee

[@becky7854]

Awe this reminded me of what i went thru for many years. Except it wasnt a break up for me. It was losing my Dad when i was only 19. It was getting lost in a wave of major drug use and emotionally and physically abusuve relationships. In my last relationship i was introduced to the worst of the worst....slamming heroin into my arms....well and feet at times too. And i was getting slapped, pushed, grabbed, and treated like i was dirt on the bottom of his shoe. But i loved him don't ya know? I loved him and he was going to change...he was going to change he said. He blamed it on me, it was my fault didnt ya know? I should have been more attentive and listened to him more and given him more. He even crashed the first car i had ever owned on xmas morning going to pick up dope for himself. He didnt ask me, and he even had his own car to use, but why use his when he had right to use my car right? Anyway.....long story short it turned into a whirlwind of addiction, obsession, compulsion, self doubt, depression and lack of self respect. But i fought through, i found God and he helped me get away from my abusive partner, and away from my most strenuous and MOST abusive relationship with her......with Heroin. Me and her no longer have any ties left between us. I AM FREE. I am ALIVE. Im alive, therefore, I am TRULY OK. 😌 Thankyou for this video. And if anyone ends up reading this, Thankyou, and i hope that my story was somehow helpful to anyone that is in a similar place that i was, in my darkest hours.

[@imogensyms7164]

Becky I appreciate that you put this out in the comments... I recently split up with my long time girlfriend (she dumped me), she told me that I was negative all the time ... She knew one of my close family members had just died and I just broke me the way she just dumped me like a piece of dirt. I didn't know how to stop my feelings and they overwhelmed me. I started to self harm and I even planned how I may kill myself . Some of the worst things are that my parents don't believe me and I still have to see my ex at school every day ... Yeah I am kinda young . I now struggle with depression and extreme anxiety but the good thing is that I haven't self harmed for at least 4 months 😀

[@LousyDaG]

CrazyLazyFreak TV are you a boy or girl?

[@tyqelise]

I actually want to open up in this video and it would appreciate if y’all could help. My name’s Elise. I was bullied for 2 years in elementary school. It was fine, no depression, nothing. I had a strong mental health back then. Fast forward to 2017, which was the craziest year that has ever happened to me. Some fuckboy decided to ruin my life. Play with me for 2 weeks before leaving me. That was the moment I slowly had depression, but I didn’t know. Then, a couple weeks later, I noticed a guy who had been crushing on me ever since 2016. He was always trying to cheer me up, talk to me, making me feel loved. It was something my best friend at that time could never give me. And so I fell in love with him and dated. I thought I would be alright, and 2017 at that time didn’t seem that bad. But I was wrong. During mid year exams, I would study so hard that I would never go out, have a social life. I would sit at home, study and being isolated in my room. And that’s where negative thoughts started coming in, destroying my life. As mid years ended, I felt relieved. But I remembered that after it did, it was the first fight I’ve ever gotten with my boyfriend. I cried, but slowly got over it. That strengthened my relationship with him though. As months passed, I became more stressed. I had to do well or I wouldn’t be able to catch up. I was trying to do well in certain subjects but it was hard and the stress eventually caught on to me. I eventually broke down, cried and never told my boyfriend about this. Until recently, when I cried and confessed to him, everything. I don’t know how it had gotten worse but the strict teachers that I had pressured me so much that I eventually felt worthless, unloved, to be in this world. I wanted to end everything. Lucky enough, I was scared. Scared of pain. Scared of cutting. Just days ago I got easily irritated at my boyfriend and I was so pissed at him I started breaking down and wanting to kill myself. He wanted to help, and I could see it. After some research, I realised that I may have high functioning depression. A depression where a person seems normal but their mental health is suffering. For me, I act alright and pretend everything is okay but once I’m alone, I break down, thinking of ways to end my life. At this point of time, I’m scared for 2018. I’ll graduate and take my finals and it’s really important. School will continue to fuck me over and I want to fight depression myself. I’m scared. If my boyfriend said that if this gets worse, he’ll have to do what he has to do. I don’t want to seek help, its not gonna help. I’m not easily persuaded by other people- it’s useless. Anyways, thank you for this video. I can relate to it so much, I actually teared.

[@88who]

No It's Elise Talking to a professional will help but you have to be willing to open up with them. Otherwise it will just be a waste of time and money.

[@sunselai5254]

I know you mentioned you don’t want to seek help, but you need your parents involved in this. They’re your parents, they’ll understand, they held you when you were little, so just trust them. Tell them everything, let it all out, tell them what you’ve been coping with, the stress that’s being pressured on your shoulders cause of the work you’ve been given at school. They will help you! Keep it together.. but who am I to say this, I’m just a 12 year old with some advice from my therapist (: .

[@talkidrew]

I have PTSD and feel depressed in my opinion great friends are the way to go but that just my idea since I hated that my mom rrwated me differently and now a theraphist came to my house but rn im still having awful thoughts but im trying to be strong for my friends and family no matter how much it hurts

[@talkidrew]

I lost my best friend when I was just 10 but I tried coping until things got worse but it gets better when you d ok ntbbear the pajn yourself

[@starlynperry8516]

Elise wow that’s really sad I’m sorry I hope you get better

[@vortexfilms3950]

I looooove this. Have been a huge fan of yours for years. Really into sims machinima. Im glad you posted this, having struggled myself it really is nice to see depression being displayed in a reasonable way and not purely the dramatized versions. There is hope for you. Thank you Diamond. Much love.

[@alonnakayy8159]

I Can Relate

[@edgyneko3827]

Me too ;^;

[@zikrybza-2983]

This story is motivational, I'm trying to have faith in happiness again and I hope I am going to find the happiness that I've been pretending to be all these while

[@misha-wr8qs]

I can relate so much, everyday day I cry in the morning knowing each school day will be as bad as the rest and my parents are no help (especially my dad). I just want it to end because I want to be happy again. I go to school and put on a fake smile and pretend everything is alright in front of my friends. I'm always sad and nobody knows because I'm just as fake as a fake friend, I always hear people say being fake is horrible, but if I wasn't fake then I would cry at school 24/7. 2018 was the worst year of my life and I wanted to leave it behind but it followed me into 2019. I just wan this all to be over, and I'm not suicidal, I can never imagine doing that to myself.

[@angelbabygoth.]

I have had depression for 6 years, and this is the closest thing of being a story about me that i have ever watched, i feel empty, and i want to escape, but i have nowhere in this world to turn, i just want to escape my thoughts. Is was so emotional i almost cried, keep making these videos because there just so AWESOME!!!

[@courtzees3961]

be quiet fetus, you haven't even been alive 6 years

[@diamonnddx]

I'm sorry you're struggling, but with time, it tends to get better. It may not seem like it now, but it will!

[@88who]

Courtzee s That doesn't even make sense and talking down to people doesn't make you a better person.

[@LousyDaG]

Yea Courtzee s she is struggling with her Life right now. You're not help full! (Sorry).

[@jill6629]

Olivia looks so short and I love it and I love how supportive and real her friends are

[@Tee-le4ci]

I need “ I killed the prom queen”it’s just too good and u left us on a cliffhangers

[@amber-ik5ls]

few years ago my sister broke up with her girlfriend too and she was depressed, she didnt eat, she lost so much weight and she was always moody. im so glad that shes okay now. love this video’s message!

[@erinryan4534]

I love how it’s depressed to okay. Someone who goes through depression doesn’t go through happiness so quickly. Un like any other sims stories I’ve seen- maybe some people have that happen but not for me.

[@AG-mp3gw]

This is a real thing lots of people go through. Yet, nobody quite understands unless they have experienced it themselves. I can relate.

[@Bubblesisfrog]

This is such an amazing story and I know how it feels. I'm currently relapsing, which basically means I'm depressed again after feeling okay for once. I just wanted to say you are an amazing story teller and in hope you're feeling okay

[@yasminebarros2712]

this video was hella relatable.. and the fact that it was two girls makes it even more relatable 😔

[@artisticsimmer860]

I'm not crying, it's just my allergies..

[@crazyxbri]

I can relate to you so much, im 13 & ive been struggling with depression since 9 you may think that theres not much a 9 year old should be depressed about but i have alot of problems with school, people, & my parents. I just wanted to leave this world & i would sleep & always wish i never wake up. But by far 2017 was the worst year of my life. My first boyfriend was just using me, many of the people that i called my friends ended up leaving/ditching me because i was depressed & because i brung everyone down. Then they mocked me cuz now im just the lonely depressed girl. I tried overdoseing on pills the last 3 years & cut all the time to make the anxiety go down. I feel like im the problem to every bad suituation thats ever happened. I used to have some good days until my parents & my siblings lost our house & split up. My parents wants to put me on pills because im lazy & tired & found out i was cutting & said they be here if i ever need them to talk but thats a lie. Now all i have is sadness & They dont know how broken i am, 2018 im planning to look pulled together on the outside but broken in the inside, theres no hope for me cuz im a lost cause & i hope u get better hun ❤ xoxo Bri

[@prettykiddoe7153]

press f to pay respects

[@talkidrew]

The year of 2018 sucked for me until February when i started getting trauma and depressed and the while ywar was just vlow after blow of mountauns of salt on my wounds

[@digitaldrvgs]

We need a story about someone born with depression, not all depression is caused by a bad childhood/bullying

[@ashleighguilfoyle4899]

Michie Łøłita depression can be caused my many things , you don’t have too be born with it gurl .

[@misscece2001]

This is amazing! Honestly... depression sucks

[@diamonnddx]

it really does! :/

[@c-lexis8747]

You wouldn't know. You have never had depression. It is not glamorous, okay?

[@misscece2001]

Celeste Alexis I've suffered from depression since I was 7 years old, pretty sure I know what depression is...

[@c-lexis8747]

Clarissa xx That kind of depression is very rare in only 3% of the population. (If it's even real at all) you don't know the pain true depression survivors go through. It's a real disease and isn't something you should lie about for attention. Please don't flatter yourself.

[@misscece2001]

Celeste Alexis I dont know why you're continuing to comment, aside from the fact you don't know me and you don't know how my brain works, I'm diagnosed with clinical depression.

[@confuzion7820]

Here’s my story: So around a year and a half ago I met someone. That someone was something and my love for them was unexplainable. (Btw it’s not a crush) That person was like family... I enjoyed seeing them daily in my lessons and it was amazing. That person left at the end of the school year, they were moving away. I felt so broken. The person didn’t have any social media, and the person didn’t like me enough to share me there phone number. One of my friends messaged that person for me early 2017, but I haven’t heard of them since. It took around 3 1/2 months to recover. Frequently crying every night, taking regular naps. My friends told my student manager (who manages my year group) and she told me friends move on, etc. I hated her for that. My student manager gave me trust issues, so I couldn’t even talk to my own parents because I didn’t know what was next. I eventually recovered after being spoke to, I didn’t think of the person as much. Until the new school year. There was a new person in my science class, we were strangers, but still talked regularly. We’d always talk to each other in lessons. Saying hi. Sometimes we’d see each other in the corridor, that person said hi and how was I, I replied back. It was amazing. The year ended in what felt like a quick second. I was hoping that the person would be in my classes, but unfortunately no. I’d try to see the person daily, and if I couldn’t it was hell. My crying and naps in the middle of the day came back. Even worse though. Frequently crying at small things, napping for around 2-3 hours. Getting stressed out and shouting at everyone. I spoke to someone about it and they called me weird and obsessive. Right, so my confidence knocked again. I haven’t mentioned it since but it has been better, still think about this person every day of every hour, that’s because this person was like family. I hope to tell them one day what they meant. By the way, my depression never got worse as I never needed to take pills or self harm, since I’m scared to. I’m just frightened of ruining my body that I’ve grown up with. Stay safe everyone, don’t keep stuff in like I do. It isn’t healthy. Don’t forget that there’s never a wrong answer to be sad. Fight your battles, be stronger. You’re never alone, there is people in mine and yours that care to their heart contends. Have a safe end of year, and a safe Christmas. Here’s to 2019!! Written: Mon 19th November 2018, 00::39

[@evelynmichelin5327]

for once it probably a month, i smiled. why? because my crush told me he likes me. it lit my face up, i was happy :)

[@ihatetaki6017]

PandaKitty AJ I'm so happy for you! Are you two together?

[@LenasEdits]

Hands down the most beautiful thing ive ever seen

[@BritneyKhor]

Darn everywhere I go, jonghyuns death because of depression is haunting me. jks dw this was a very good video to spread more awareness on mental health that people often forget how much depression, an intangible thing, can break a person

[@taesthetic8418]

taebunnyxx Yes, because he was actually one of Taehyung’s closest friends, I feel sad for V, he lost 2 FRIENDS in 1 year due to suicide. It’s good how he’s actually bearing with it because if that was me... it might turn to the point I hurt myself. But yeah, this was a good video.

[@AmyStylinson]

taesthetic Jonghyun was not one of Tae's closest friends, what are you talking about. He was one of Taeyeon's friends not V.

[@spaghettim4668]

This was actually very touching, reminded me of when I had depression.

[@becccaaaxox7782]

i’ve legit beeen watching you since anon s1 ep1 and i just realised i hadn’t subscribed yet. CLEARLY, i’ve been living under a rock all this time smh..

[@alyselynn1044]

Brindleton Bay is such a nice place to film!

[@Smalls-eye24]

This is amazing and so well done. It really helped me understand what people with depression go through. Beautifully written dialogue that flowed through the story perfectly. I was ultimately captivated through the whole video. Very well done for a sims video!

[@gianahouseholder1076]

I Relate, But Not About The Ex.. I Had So Many Problems, My Dad Went To Jail When I Was 7 For Raping My Sister For Six Years Straight, My Mom Was A Alcoholic, My Sister Beat My Mom, I Cut Everynight And Have Had 4 Attempts Of Suicide, I Went Through Hell. But I Talked, And Even Tho I Still Had Depression, PTSD, (Post Tramatic Stress Disorder) , And Anxiety, I’m Still Living, And I’m “Okay” 😀

[@bella-qc5dr]

Giana Householder I’m so sorry, I want to give you a hug.

[@daniquesmith3788]

I'm crying because I can relate so so much

[@lucifer6387]

The “And you will too” got me at the end. So sweet ❤️

[@catebolton2606]

This is so sad. 😪

[@diamonnddx]

it is and so many people struggle :/

[@MatthewDezernJr]

I actually cried and was happy with the advance to okay!

[@aster7986]

Thank you so much for sharing this, you are an inspiration to me. Keep up the hard work. We love you!

[@thesupertuna7]

My story :depressed to depressed

[@Simaholic89Productions]

Soooo amazing!!! It's really inspiring to watch this and to know that you've dealt with depression for so long. Isolation is no joke and I know first hand how hard it can be. Each day is a struggle of not knowing we're your mind will be but keep staying strong luv and looking to better days :)

[@Naomi-to1zu]

This is the most beautiful thing. Thank you

[@heyemma3901]

There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel🌟♥️

[@srishtisadhu]

THIS WAS SO LIKE MY PERSONAL STORY..I CAN REALLY RELATE TO THIS..THANKS A LOT diamonddx..THIS STORY REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART..TYSM!

[@katty13]

I struggle with Depression and anxiety. For ten years. Nobody knows but I usually say it on KZbin because nobody knows me..and they can’t do much about it anyways. My parents also abuse me, they haven’t done it in a while so I’m glad. I just hope I get over all of this soon.

[@skippidyy]

Symptoms of Anxiety: Depression Anxiety Sadness Worried Crying Breakups Life is depression.

[@chiaraftw]

"Symptoms of Anxiety: ... Anxiety" lol

[@gibbonsbutcool3667]

I wanted to be like "this is a mood" , but like... to much of a mood that it hurts

[@kennax7277]

Ive personal been going through stuff, My friend was asking me (full on begging) why I didnt go into school Told her why, i had a mental breakdown and was not okay She just replied “OOF” yeah thanks my bad mental health is one big oof. Another time she said suicide is a whole load of crap :/ actually ex friend She changed when we went into a new school...

[@regalplays5485]

I cried; though I've never struggled with relationships... I have been depressed since 5th grde from lack of socialusation, exclusion and isolation. Anyone who needs help; please don't end your life. GET THE HELP! it is for your own good!!

[@cansiswidger8999]

This was so sweet and touching

[@corruptpasta]

thank u so much for posing this vid i owe u my life. weird enough it kind of cured me

[@tinytot5224]

This really touched my heart I really love your videos but I never realized you went through this and I hope you get to it soon because I love your videos and I want you to be happy

[@mondaysunday4290]

Ok so i never got to comment cuz I've always watched KZbin on my Xbox, but I just wanted to say that u are my favorite simmer and seem like a great person!!

[@KoryxKardashian]

Wow, you’re an amazing writer and sims 3 stuffs when I saw ANON series and you gives me inspired until I saw the video about you. I can relate too. Everybody still inspiring from you no matter what! Love this video when it gives me chills and love it! ❤️❤️❤️

[@notused3271]

This is accurate but I have a friend that’s suicidal and she works out all the time and does things she doesn’t ever sleep all day like yeah she’s tired a lot but she doesn’t do this really

[@KeeRedGames]

Loved this and loved hearing your story. I’m glad your voice is heard.

[@batvviing]

i cried at the end.. thank you

[@KKFilms-pq4xi]

This was beautiful! Thank you for uploading this 💜

[@mherro51]

i’ve been suffering from depression almost all my life, my dad was mentally and physically abusive towards my mum, and i grew up with that type of energy around me. i’ve witnessed horrible stuff happen to my mum and at the time i was around 5/6 and i didn’t know what to do. and my little sister was also there but it hasn’t affected her as much as me. he did some stuff that i can still mentally see and hear. i get no sleep because of him, even though it’s been many many years since i last had any type of contact with him. my anxiety has went up so high ive stopped going to school. last time i went was september and i don’t plan on going back anytime soon. (this part may be triggering) i have cut. many times before, i started at my thumb cause i was too scared to do anywhere else, i moved to my palm then my wrists. and i have many many times thought of suicide. i felt so alone and isolated. (end of triggering part) my mum found out about all of that and i got sent to therapy, this was before june this year. i still go to the therapy but it’s not helping me one bit. i always blame myself on what my dad done, like i feel like i’ve disappointed him. i feel like i’ve disappointed everyone at this point. because of how isolated i got i started to vape, and drink but not to the point i’d be drunk, just a lil tipsy. i recently stopped doing all that though because i realised how fucked up it would get me (i’m thirteen) i just isolate myself in my room. don’t really socialise, up all night sleeping all day. all because of something that happened when i was like a toddler. it hurts me that my dad doesn’t even care, he has said multiple time he wants no contact with me and my sister, that really really hurt me for some reason. but the fact i’m suffering because of something he done, and he’s out there living his best life, sickens me. ugh ok i’m done ranting. only a couple of people know about this so letting it out is tough for me to do, but i can’t hide away my feelings.

[@romiezaidenberg5178]

Hey I told my parents they hellped and forgot over the years about my depression but I still am sad

[@elieli2641]

1:09 - 2:10 Is it just me, or the backround music sound like "It aint me" that was a song of Selena Gomez...

[@FlawedNicely]

12:53 WHEN I SAW THE SAD DOGGO THAT TRIGGERED ME AND WHEN THE DOOR SLAMED IN ITS FACE.

[@lavendarflower6137]

Atleast her parents aren’t abusive but other than that, great video!😘👍

[@hotlou7223]

I beg of you to do a part two please 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@stephanieclark1758]

You should be very proud of yourself and your creative writings, you're a talented writer :)

[@immykittymiloandchillethec1945]

My life is *rlly bad* but not as bad as others I have depression but sometimes *very rarely* see happiness. Very small happiness but still...

[@cristinabraicovici3476]

This is what happened to me but not after a relationship. More exactly, after I got the worst bullying in my life. I remenber getting called, texted with death threats. I isolated myself from the world. I was too scared to go out in public, to have my face be seen. My family thought I was crazy, and didn't understand how I felt. I was dying on the inside and they would be there watching me, doing nothing. A year passed and I am bullied again sometime by 3 guys for coming out as bisexual and biromantic. My country doesn't seem homophobic, but it really is.

[@shadowfreak71972]

I hate of how depression makes over people sad when depressed people like me, just want people to be happy and yet they can't. Even I just can't get a break..

[@kt-qz4ng]

I have been depressed before but not for very long it was like an on and off situation and have suffered from not being able to sleep and I also am kind of like you too. Stay strong people it will always get better🙃

[@prettygirlskyy__2027]

I honestly relate this story really hit me deep I have a had depression for two years now and I don’t really talk to people about it because I feel like I will be judged

[@SmurfetteSims]

I truly LOVED this! I've been there & can relate. Your a Beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing! 💖💖💖

[@maschachanriht]

i love your videos, ive literally stayed up all night watching them good thing its the weekend XD

[@sydney2418]

SO HAPPY SHE BROKE UP WITH A GIRL AND NOT A GUY #LGBTQ+ I’m sorry I support (and am myself apart of the lgbtq+) lgbtq+🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

[@gulcesartas8129]

So since everyone is telling their own story, I thought of opening up, but by narrating. She was sitting on a chair, writing an essay for her chemistry class while it was class time. She hated everything about her chemistry teacher, who also made it visible that she also hated her. There was a project she spent hours on without her mother because her mother was too tired and too overwhelmed with the aches she was having from having big bruises on her chest area. And still, even though she gave everything to that project, and everyone loved it, the teacher said there were 'too much text' so she couldn't serve it to other people. When she brought the project back she started crying and her mom told the teacher to shove it up her arse. Heh. My mom is amazing, ain't she? Sighing inaudibly, the clouds in her head went away slowly and she kept on writing until her small fingers became sore. Or, shall I say, until she got 'that note'. That note that might have changed her life forever. She got startled when a note hit the side of her nose. She quickly looked up, and noticed no one staring at her. She picked up the piece of paper and read it in her mind. I like you. There were no signs or names on it, so she couldn't figure out who that was. But after a few weeks she got the same note again. This time, the note had a name on it. Alex. (that's not his real name) Being the naive girl she is, she accepted it knowing she'd be loved. So they started dating. But things didn't go well. They broke up a million times, they fought a million times, she cried for him a million times, and they spat at each other once. Well, that was me, being disgusted at what he did but ya know. After a year, he started dating another girl, but it didn't last long. So instead he asked the girl to be together again, after a year. The girl was forced to say yes after that. And so the senior year came. It all started very well. They were... Just friends? Nobody knew. But no, it doesn't end there! The girl was starting to become a bit more tired everyday. She had less motivation in her, and less life energy. That's because her mom was getting worse and worse. Even though she ended chemotherapy, the bruises on her chest didn't go away at all. Her mom cried every night because of the pain she felt. She cried because her husband was a dickhead. She cried because she knew how useless she was to the family. That's when her daughter, me, broke up with Alex again. But this time, it was much more worse than any other they have had over 3 years. Another girl came. While they were dating. Alex asked her what should he do in this situation. Of course she couldn't answer because it depended on him. She just told him to follow his heart. Without knowing that he'd actually leave her for a girl that came 2 months ago. And then, those two started dating. And I was left all alone. No one really understood the pain I had because the weight on my shoulders had become more and more heavier when he hurt my heart. Mom was getting more quiet day by day and I couldn't tell him how much it hurt me. So I released myself. I wanted the pain to end. I wanted to feel better for just a bit. And that's when I committed myself to drugs. I have a father who is a fucking dickhead, a sister who doesn't give a shit about anyone, a cat that has to live in our cold balcony because my dickhead father wanted no furs in his uniform, a mom that can't even talk to me, who also keeps sleeping, an ex who told me to get the fuck out of his life even though he is the one at fault, a friend who I think is tired with all my bullshit, and of course, me. The girl who committed to drugs. But all of that passed when I went in university. I got help, thanks to my mom crying when she saw me. I went to rehabilitation and got better.

[@hippygangstar7155]

Me too...My classmates hiting me everyday..I very sad,but i go to bathroom (in the school) and i sing myself a quite lullaby

[@savannah3997]

The world is a dark place and if you don’t make the right moves it all falls down. And I swear to you all- it gets worse and worse every day, and then one day it’s just rainbows and butterflies around a pot of gold. And some people don’t believe me when I say that it falls down and I had to get back up again a couple times. Some days I don’t feel like trying and I pray for hope. It’s weird saying in person but it’s true :(

[@sweeetrosie]

oh my this touched my heart

[@luneee093]

I can understand why you would spend yourself in isolation while in depression and not tell anyone.You don’t want people worrying about you-that would make you feel worse.You are used to being there for someone and think your not worth their time to talk about your problems. It’s really easy to do this especially when you were pretending what your personality is or someone your not

[@infellune3462]

I envy you/the main girl. Like her I have severe depression. I could understand what she was going through. But I envied how she had her best friend who didn't leave her and eventually found some sort of middle ground I guess. I sadly haven't been able to do that for years....But it's good she/you did.

[@maisiemoby3119]

I can relate. I am only eleven years but I have this massive crush on a boy. In science we had to work together and he was flirting with me a bit and he put his hand on top of mine. Two hours later he asked out another girl. We don't talk to each other any more and it's been half a year and I feel so sad but thankfully it's not too bad. My cat, Freddy always cheers me up. It sometimes seems like Freddys my only friend.

[@BriaAttiyah]

So relatable this how I lost my friends. But I’m glad her friends kept checking on her.

[@hi-rm1fy]

This was amazing,so touching! I didn't know you ever even had depression! I hope you feel better! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😊😊😊😊😊

[@sayoko_ou]

K this is the part they messed up. The part with the yelling and “I don’t understand” and “TELL US!” Yeah if you want to make someone feel better IN GENERAL you do NOT just do that. It’ll probably just make them feel worse.

[@sayoko_ou]

Lol this is why I don’t want to get attached to anyone. Or have any feelings in general...

[@abiraakram6971]

I suffer from depression but video told me if you have struggles you can get through them by telling your parents,Friends or get professional help and now I feel happy again thank Dimonddx

[@farrahreed4250]

I'm so sorry....this is so sad I feel so bad for u

[@judapuss]

I loved this! It’s so inspirational but the part on the beach where she’s sad XD. When ur so sad ur butt can levitate

[@peanutbutter452]

why is it on every video about depression someone has to write out a long ass comment about their story so people will pity them

[@annoyed3012]

Ryleigh Meier for real tho,I just argued with 10 people cause they were self diagnosing themselves with depression,like bitch you can’t just self diagnose yourself with any mental illness,you have to Togo to a doctor or a therapist

[@omlniecey1966]

fr tho like bitch u tried it

[@snuffles6400]

lil ry I know what you mean but keep in mind some people may be trying to encourage others to speak out.

[@strawberrycow2341]

I had depperssion but I didn't type a 3 page long essay on KZbin about it. So ppl can be like "oh it's ok" like really

[@sahithiambavaram1643]

ravioli mom Ikr

[@berribia]

what about depression to SUICIDAL?

[@karmica7591]

I can understand what you felt. First, I suffer of chronical depression (and a mix of other mental illnesses, yay -.- ), and I'm lesbian and out, I'm ok with it but obviously you know that a lot of people ar not. I hope it'll be better, one day, even if it's more than 10 years that I struggle with depression. I turn back to play The Sims ;)

[@kahhoegoh1557]

Such a heartwarming story

[@littlepanicattack8324]

_why am i crying over a sims story_

[@Supergirlylovewooz]

Great story !! xx i was just wondering you do those smooth turning shots? pls reply xx

[@mayascott5435]

This was one of my all time favs it was simply magical

[@starlynperry8516]

I don’t go through depression but this is sad. I’m sensitive though and I sometimes have anxiety of having too much homework or worrying about my weight.

[@imogensyms7164]

The same thing happened to me... About 6months ago I lost a family member and I was sad bout it.... So my girlfriend broke up with me because I was being 'negitive all the time' bearing in mind that she knew bout the death! And now I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and I physically can't get out of bed some days.... The worst thing is I see my ex everyday!

[@jeineshahall9104]

Lemon n Slime 😢😭

[@simratablet4325]

I love, I love, I love myself. Y'all player haters u should love urself brr.

[@oliviawilliams9207]

Hold up, my name is Olivia....

[@mycringyoldaccimadeyearsag2413]

Yay, you're back! This is honestly sad.

[@magicallymagic3551]

Oml! The same problem is happening with me too! My 2 friends and I got into a fight cos of my emotions and I told them they wouldn’t understand... I’m gonna send this video to them!

[@angelicahak676]

OMG I'M SO SORRY IF THIS EXPERIENCE WAS PERSONAL I AM TRULY SORRY OF WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO YOU

[@daemonyarabbit9753]

Beautiful story. She has really amazing friends and family ^^

[@pink_kpop709]

Actually i sleep in the middle of the day cause i stay up all night all summer