Did You Always Know You Were Trans?

[@Mark-pl3bv]

I came out to my parents as trans just after turning 15, and their major "point" to their "this is a phase" idea was that I had never been "masculine" as a child. I remember "signs" of already seeing myself as male at that time, but I rarely expressed it through a stereotypical "male behaviour". Now though, I can't physically transition because my parents focus on the behaviour of this toddler I don't remember being and can't overlook gender roles. This is dumb, so I'm very glad this video exists.

[@crossgame9479]

I have started questioning recently. And i remember liking dolls and barbie movies and stuff. I don't i want to be guy but i am not sure if it's my true feeling or not. Hope you are doing well though and i know it must be taking a toll on your mental health. And i hope were or will able to transition soon.

[@Mark-pl3bv]

Btw it's been 8 years since this comment and I'm still trans. A "phase" that's been lasting for 11 years, apparently!

[@joshlukaskrp9786]

Hearing you say this reliefs so much pressure omg 😭 Thank you

[@saintsabe8632]

I can totally relate to this. When I was very young, my biggest worry was whether I would win the sand castle building contest, not my gender. It wasn't something I understood further than "girls do girl things" and "boys do boy things" and that certain anatomy decided which you were. I didn't even realize girls could wear "boy" clothes until I was around 8 years old.

[@giulio8644]

and let's remember that there are some biological boys who love to play with dolls and do "girls stuff", and that doesn't make them any less of a man than boys who play with "boys toys" .

[@claratiefengraber]

I'm so happy that I found you! Bc since I know that I'm trans I was bringing myself down bc I felt not trans enough bc of my childhood and what I like. Hearing what you said in this video makes me so relieved. I feel valid now. Thanks!

[@illrollwithit]

yay i'm so glad i could help!!

[@claratiefengraber]

+illrollwithit Thank you very much!

[@imkrisyoung]

I was a "girly" kid too, but mainly because I grew up in a conservative environment and I was forced into stereotypical feminine gender roles. Also I was afraid of being considered "weird" and having no friends if I didn't act like a typical cis girl, so I just went along with it. I've been depressed since I was 12 when I started puberty, and I never recovered from it. I really want to start testosterone and transition to male, but I don't know the exact steps to do it.

[@gigiporter2703]

This is really what I needed to hear cuz recently I've been having insecurities with gender identification and then I started having insecurities about my insecurities... So yeah tsm

[@arinclearwater9562]

THANK YOU. Oh my god I’ve been searching for this video for like forever. It feels so nice to finally see a transgender person that has had very similar experiences as me. This just validated me so much and really put my mind at ease. Thank you, keep up the good work.

[@savw8984]

thank you so much for this video. i’ve been struggling with accepting that i might be trans for about a year now and this really helped me to realize that it’s okay that i used to like girl things and be really feminine and i can still be a guy. i came out to my mom six months but eventually went back in the closet after she put a lot of doubts in my mind and this gave me the courage to talk to her about it again. thank you so much

[@dohvaskizzle1072]

Yes thank you! This was the same for me! I always feel doubt about being trans because all the videos I watch people say "i know when i was young" or "I realised in my early teens" I'm 19 n I just started realising it n am always paranoid that it's just some kinda of very intense faze, so thank you for this!

[@infinitelycapable6223]

I adore how genuine and sincere you are. Thanks for being real.

[@A-_-A.]

Infinitely Capable I agree, it isn't that often these days to find a genuine, real person. It's people like this who give a shred of faith in humanity

[@A-_-A.]

I really needed to hear this! The other day I told one of my 'friends' (she's a toxic friend idk why I told her yet) that I'm trans (I'm still not properly out to family, 99% of my school etc) & she just completely shot me down, said something like "you have to be born knowing you're a boy to be trans" or something like that & I was just in that moment of silence after like wtf

[@CM-qy2fm]

Anissa Lingley F*ck her

[@NeuroArrow]

im gonna show this video to my psychiatrist because atm he is REALLY confused as to why my parents didnt see i was a boy when i was small, and i didnt know it either until i was like 14/15

[@senecarus_whitur]

I NEED A THERAPIST 😱 ... only 9 more days until my first appointment. So excited and happy and nervous and AAAAAAAAHHHHHHhelp I kinda feel just like you... There was some gender related trauma in my childhood that might have delayed my awareness...

[@emxob]

this video literally made me sob im so happy. thank you for making me feel better about myself and im really glad you made this video.

[@BlueEyedRaven_]

I'm so happy that I ran into your channel. This totally describes my situation. I've never really known or suspected anything. I did play with stereotypical female toys when I was young, but more with stereotypical male toys though. But I always have this feeling that I need to have had this feeling at a young age for me to be trans, and that's why I went out to the internet hoping I could relate to someone. It is really hard to find people on the internet that also never knew when they were young. I'm currently 18 years old and over two years ago I started questioning my sexuality and over half a year ago also my genderidentity. Does this immediately mean I am trans? I don't know, sometimes I do feel comfortable running around as a girl, but most of the times I don't.. Does this make me non-binary? Or genderfluid? No clue. I guess only time will tell.

[@lomouche]

What did time tell?

[@randomaccount5725]

How are you now?

[@skyyoo4912]

my parents are transphobic, but the upside is soon i'll be 18 and at college so i can transition. videos like these get me through each day until then :)

[@illrollwithit]

that is a rough situation but you seem optimistic about the future which is great! good luck with everything and i'm glad my videos can help :)

[@finni1569]

Oh god thanks for this, I was so sure of my trans identity but I got so scared looking back at all of the girl things I liked, and hid it even longer. This makes me feel very validated

[@konnerjebb7606]

Hi Reed! Thank you so much for this video! I feel like I've had a similar experience. This comes at such a good time when I've been struggling with validating myself due to family issues. Also you're in a local Queer Exchange group that I'm in as well. I came across your post and felt that messaging you via that would be weird but it's really cool to know that I'm close to another trans guy! Especially because your videos have helped me so much. I don't have many people to talk to about my trans identity so watching videos such as yours, Chase's, Sky's, etc etc all you amazing guys makes me feel a lot less alone. I hope this wasn't majorly creepy. Just know that you are all doing amazing things here and helping a lot of people.

[@Isak-H]

I think this is so important

[@frankiewood6402]

I love this so much!! I have been panicing that I feel trans but I don't really for with the stereotypes. this has really put me at ease..

[@arekjaroszewicz8713]

OMG THATS EXACTLY ME THANK YOU SO MUCH like our stories are soooooo similar

[@lukalarkins4650]

Your childhood was just like mine! I loved my babies and I also loved hot wheels so much I would cry in the morning if I could not play before school. The hot wheels volcano was my favorite toy and my mom still has it. I told her she needs to keep it safe for me fore ever! It was my brothers. But I played with it the most out of the 3 of us. My Babys where not cheep and my mom always got out fits for me for them. My brother and I were talking the other day and he said I played with barbies and you played with hot wheels. My brother is bi and also one of the most unpredictable guy i know.

[@sam_lost_boy]

Damn this reliefs so much pressure, I even let out a big relieving sigh after watchin this. Thank you so much!

[@Alex-ot9jt]

Thank you I feel so much better!❤

[@drauds7drekku]

I know this is old but thank you so much for this. I am transmasc agender and get questioned alot because I love makeup and feminine clothes. The trans care in my country doesn't allow you to be feminine IF you are a afab person so I always have to hide it there so they don't think i am not trans enough. Thank you

[@dylanoranlanzet9904]

Gosh thank you SO MUCH for this!!!!!!!

[@ZombieGamer-qc9pi]

Im super confused about my gender and this kinda helps 🙃

[@A-_-A.]

Same here👍

[@girlintheatic]

I played with pretty much the same shit you did as a child - barbies, Legos, action figures, even cars! But for me growing up, I did feel like something was wrong with me. I grew out of wearing dresses, but still like both "gender" girl clothing.

[@birdbonezone]

Oh god, thank you I needed this video so so much

[@NeuroArrow]

also i have a question for you (i just discovered your channel so sorry if im commenting so much), how did your female puberty go? like did you get instant dysphoria about your breasts for example, or some other things that you hated getting because they were female changes? i hear from alot of guys who found out they were trans because they hated their body when female changes started to happen. i myself never hated my female changes (partly because i was bullied for having small breasts and because i have dark hair i had a sort of a light mustache), i wanted to be more feminine, i even begged the universe to make my breasts bigger so that i could be like the other girls. i never had a problem with my body until after i realized i was trans, i started getting body dysphoria and now its very bad and i completely feel a stranger in this body. can i know how it was for you and when you started female puberty?

[@wolvelearnscoding7283]

I can 100% relate to what you are saying in your comment, thanks a lot for posting it! @illrollwithit: Thank's a lot for your video too, it helped me very much!

[@crossgame9479]

I am questioning i don't know what i feel about my breasts at all. Since lockdown i wanted to chop my hair off short i did. It felt sooooooo good. And then I wanted to go bald my mother didn't allow me to then said let me take you to salon and get a cut i was like i want a short cut but cause of my anxiety i can't speak anything to the hairdresser and my mother got me shoulder length cut i felt so bad. But as a child i didn't wanted to have a hair cut i liked long hair but i didn't like to tie it down

[@crossgame9479]

I am not sure though i am questioning and i might end up coming to a conclusion that i am a cis

[@GabS-o1m]

It’s weird because I’ve identified as trans for a little over a year now. Female pronouns and titles don’t feel good but at times even the male ones are sorta off. I’m more trans-masculine/Nonbinary and sometimes it’s confusing because either way doesn’t feel completely right. I think I’m still adapting to my new name and pronouns. When my family refers to me differently it feels weird sometimes because I’m not used to it. But then I have moments where neutral and male pronouns feel good or ok. Gender is confusing... 😅

[@ianftm79]

Thank you Reed

[@Rainykel]

Thank you so much this helped me so much ahh

[@rylanmakela4045]

I didn't know at all. I didn't know there was a such thing as a trans man. I knew that there were trans women, and I thought that was it. I thought I might be intersex and it just wasn't presented physically, if that makes sense?

[@adrianag3074]

heyy i get that you liked girly stuff but did you felt like a girl growing up? like were you comfortable with your body?

[@stepancihak4853]

What music is it playing in the background?

[@aveuch]

I like my male privilege, I just hate my body.

[@DoctorLeMeow]

NICE

[@joycelinlgbtq]

I love this story. I've always known i was different from "the norm", but that's just my experience and it's great to hear that there are other narratives and other people's experiences will be different because no two people are exactly the same.